Could Belmarniss be right? Wouldn't the secret leak at some point? Wouldn't any of the gods want to tell mortals, that Hell (and Heaven) aren't forever? That scrying people in an afterlife causes them to be in that afterlife, so you shouldn't do it if there's any chance it'd be an Evil one? Is the whole story of devils and demons being made out of tortured souls a lie, or at least something that applies only in some cases? Why would any of them be different? Tanya was finally coming to terms with the Golarion version of the afterlives, which was at least self-consistent, but she doesn't know how to reconcile it with her own experience and that seems like the kind of thing that might in fact matter.
"...you may be right that there's something to learn from this. It was a mistake not to share my story before and I'll do it now. If you don't believe it, or - don't trust me about all the details - well, I can't prove any of it, but you deserve to hear it."
"I was first born - that I remember - on a planet different from Golarion. Let's call it Earth One. It had advanced technology, magic did not exist, gods did not grant powers or do any public and verifiable miracles. Humans were the only sentient species, no other life-bearing worlds were known, the concept of planes was unknown. There were many contradictory religions; some said that people went to Heaven or Hell - with only two or three options, not nine - according to different rules from those known here. Some said everyone reincarnated, possibly as an animal, in a better or worse life depending on their actions in the previous one. Some said other things entirely; many religious beliefs were certainly made up as a matter of historical record, and it was plausible that all were."
"I lived an ordinary life, and died unexpectedly at the age of thirty-three. My next experience was being disembodied and having my thoughts read by a - being. He did not give a name; let's call him Being X. He said several contradictory things. He implied he was responsible for different Earth religions, which were, again, mutually contradictory about both the nature and role of gods and the afterlives - I can provide more details about that if it seems relevant. One of those religions claims dead souls normally reincarnate, another that they go to Hell or Heaven."
"He complained that fewer people believed in and worshipped the gods - or a God - than in the past, when it was near universal. He read out of my mind that I thought it was a result of the progress of civilization. People led more comfortable lives, there was less war, we learned how to understand and control nature, and so there was less need to explain the unknown by positing gods or to appeal for their help. That was the going theory on Earth at the time, anyway. Being X said he would reincarnate me somewhere where all these conditions were reversed to make me worship him. I - didn't get the impression he really understood me, or humans in general, or that he was even reacting to me in particular rather than taking out his anger on a random dead soul. In any case I have no evidence anything he said is true."
"I was reincarnated on a different planet. Let's call it Earth Two. It was physically the same as my first one; the solar system and the stars were the same too. Its history and nations were also similar, with one obvious difference: magic existed. It's plausible that all other differences between the histories of the two Earths were due to this, but of course I had no way to test that. It was also, according to the calendar, about a century behind the time I died on Earth One; history, politics and the state of non-magical technology approximately matched the year, but there were enough differences between the worlds that I saw no straightforward way to exploit this. My best theory was, and remains, that the two Earths are in separate - universes in some sense. It seems more likely than that there are two almost-identical planets, and stars surrounding them, some ordinary distance apart from each other. I don't know if it would make sense to think they're on different planes, in your conception of the universe."
"I became conscious at the age of a few months, and I had all my memories, but I couldn't move or speak any more than other babies can so I couldn't do anything for another two years. I was in an orphanage, and the caretakers were an order of nuns from a religion that would have considered my story an utter heresy. There was no adult it would have made sense to trust with it, and no obvious reason to share it regardless. So I pretended to be an incredible prodigy. At age seven, a routine population-wide test identified me as a mage with high potential. All such are conscripted at the age of majority. I had no great prospects in life and wouldn't benefit much from going to public school; I thought a military career would be a good thing, and volunteers are made officers, so I didn't want to wait. I found a loophole in the military rules that obliged them to accept the enlistment of anyone who could pass the military academy's entrance exams, became a cadet aged seven, and graduated at nine. And then, of course, the war broke out."
"The next detail may be the most important one. Being X or someone acting like him intervenes overtly on Earth Two, though still rarely and not in publicly obvious ways. I only have evidence of him doing so in my own life, but that also affected others and it would be conceited to think I'm the only focus of his attention. I never reported this to my superiors, because - I thought at the time I wouldn't be believed, and that it wouldn't have served Germania, and I might even have been right about it but the reason was that I was being selfish. Self-centered."
"It happened when I was assigned to weapons testing. A brilliant engineer had developed a revolutionary new computation orb - you can analogize it to a magical item, although the comparison isn't exact - but it was too complex to use safely. I tested several iterations and they were more likely to explode me than the enemy, so the project was canceled. On the last day, he showed up claiming to have had a revelation from god - the god of the locally popular religion, claimed to be the only god in existence, omniscient and omnipotent and perfectly good and also sending sinners to Hell - that if we prayed to him for a miracle, we would be able to use the orb. I did. It worked. Other mages couldn't do it, so it was written off as requiring exceptional aptitude. No more orbs of that model were produced, and I was given the prototype. It's not the one I've been using, to be clear, that's a normal orb."
"The way it worked is that, as long as I kept praying and loudly praising god, I could safely use that orb. It was much more powerful than any other, a clear advantage on the battlefield. But in exchange, my mind was gradually corrupted and overwritten with a belief in - nonsense, really. It didn't actually match the local religion in any deep way, only superficially, enough to avoid sounding heretical. Eventually I began losing time. I would come back to myself and only have other people's word and written records of what I'd done under the influence. Never something that would harm my career or the army's interests, even though it made me sound like a religious lunatic. So I stopped using it. I couldn't discard or destroy it, since it was army property and it could save my life in an emergency, but - I haven't used it in some years. I hope never to need to again."
"It was, I now know, another way in which I harmed my fellow soldiers. By telling them that their god was real and on their side, and that since he was implicitly good so was fighting the war."
"I don't know how I came to Golarion. Whether Earth Two is a planet some distance away, on a different plane or in a different universe entirely. I didn't reincarnate, I traveled with my body and belongings, which is some evidence that it's a planet like Golarion and, therefore, that the souls of its dead go to the same afterlives. I was hoping Iomedae would be able to tell, or whichever god I ended up requesting a Commune with. Until then, I've been proceeding on the pessimistic assumption that at least the dead of Earth Two can go to Hell. Possibly so can those of Earth One. After all, I don't have any direct evidence that anyone was ever reincarnated other than myself. Being X implied it, but Being X is a liar."
"That's the abbreviated version of my story. I acknowledge that it is utterly strange and hard to believe. I can't prove almost any of the details, and I don't know what ought to be done assuming it's true, except for taking Being X into account when making contact with Germania."
Tanya stands with her hands clasped behind her back and waits for them to pass judgement.