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#11 calls in a strike team
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If it's just the hezrou, the fort can maybe handle it with some casualties but no serious operational consequences, but hezrous are only mostly solitary and you can't rely on demons doing what they mostly do. The commander gives the order to read off a Sending scroll calling for a strike team before he heads out to be ready to meet the thing in battle.

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Stef isn't at the garrison today, which is fine with Venn, both because she finds Stef a little annoying (because he will not stop singing about his hot boyfriend) and because it means she's first in line for deployment when the call goes out.

She's a biiit less excited about going to help one of the Chelish forts (especially since the Four Day War - they've been called to several Chelish forts in the aftermath, and some of them been distressingly unprofessional, though not the point of Venn reporting a treaty violation), but Rowen reassures her that fort #11 is actually really well-run, Chelish or not. 

Song-sorceresses have an easy time preparing. She slides into her chain shirt, straps on her singing steel buckler, helps Marit finish putting on his fancy paladin full plate, and then they're ready to go; her, Rowen, Marit, and the (admittedly kinda hot) ranger who's too cool for names and calls herself Demonscourge

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They appear to find the forces of #11 already locked in battle with the hezrou, a platoon of melee warriors hedging in its movement with spears and maces and swords while the archers harry it from the fortress parapets. When the teleporters emerge from the designated teleport arrival room and get a quick Fiendish Presence check from the wizard awaiting their arrival, they're ushered right out the front gate just in time to watch one of the Asmodeans land a Channel Smite on the demon.

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Rowen assesses the scene. 

   "Going to pop us right in there. Prep for Dimension Door in fiv-"

Venn casts Invisibility, "three, two", slaps her buckler and harmonizes with it, starting up her inspiring song, "one", and takes Rowen's hand, "mark!"

And suddenly every soldier fighting the hezrou in melee is feeling braver, more sure of themselves, and much deadlier.

Marit smites evil and charges. Demonscourge starts unloading arrows.

 

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The thing about strike teams is that if they are good at their jobs, which they generally are, they end things so quickly upon arrival that it feels silly to have called them, but there's no shortage of casualties on the ground belying the idea. Hezrous don't even flinch at cold iron; the holy attacks and smites are the only things doing much.

Once the hezrou is down the commander directs those of his soldiers who are still up to check for pulses on those who are down, and follows the calls to stabilize people who need it.

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The song-sorceress switches to a far less commonly-heard tune, and suddenly everyone in range to hear it begins to notice their wounds stitching up. 

(It's not efficient to keep this going for long, not when they don't know if they'll be attacked again. But it's much faster than running around trying to stabilize everyone.)

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- okay in that case the commander will start getting bodies that aren't waking up again dragged away to be buried appropriately. Would the visiting party like any of the demon parts, he's not sure what on a hezrou is useful but they can have first crack at it.

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Demonscourge is their expert here and has several requests (at least one of which might be for trophy purposes, but she sure isn't clarifying.)

Venn stops singing once it's clear who will and who won't get up on their own and looks around.  Rowen is hanging around near the fort commander, waiting to debrief. Marit is keeping his distance from everyone at the fort, which Venn definitely understands, but - it feels a bit cruel right now.

She heads over to where Rowen and the fort commander are.

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Rowen looks at the footprints and sighs. "Urdina, it's good practice to drop your invisibility after an engagement. Avoids spooking friendlies."

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whoops.

She reappears next to the two of them with an embarrassed smile. "Sorry."

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"I appreciate that you are not an invisible demon," says the commander, and he returns his attention to Rowen. "Do you have a replacement Sending scroll we can purchase from you?"

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(She gives an exaggeratedly fancy bow.)

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Yep! He carries a few (as well as other strategically relevant scrolls) on him, and will sell them at worldwound-agreed-upon prices to any fort that needs them, including #11.

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Good. The strike team and Commander Artigas (it says ARTIGAS on his coat) can all migrate indoors while the rank and file bury the dead and burn whatever parts of the demon are not exciting. "Do you accept Chelish notes to exchange with the Abadarans, or shall I dig into the coinage supply?"

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Rowen is a professional and avoids wrinkling his nose. ('Demonscourge' is not especially professional, and she's glaring at anyone who looks at her. Rowen sighs internally, and makes a note of it for later.) 

"Chelish notes are fine."

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Artigas counts out Chelish notes for the scroll of Sending. He is remarkably mild-mannered about all the glaring.

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Rowen hands over the scroll and pockets the money. "Do you need anything else, Chosen?"

If not, he'll send Urdina to grab Marit and then they can get to a private room before Demonscourge starts insulting people (He kind of hates bringing her to Chelish forts, but if there had been two hezrous they would have badly needed her. So it goes.)

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Venn peers around unobtrusively. How's fort #11 doing?

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The place looks a bit harried at the moment, people updating each other with lists of names of who died, the hall looking sparser than it probably usually is.

"If you could spare a channel, I believe the song helped considerably but any demon that got a look at that fight or even just the blood on the snow will be expecting us to be on the back foot, and at present they'd be right."

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...He looks at Urdina. She nods at him.

"...our Paladin has one of those unusual channeling abilities that isn't very good at healing, and he likes to save it for battle, but Urdina here can sing for your people - her healing song has the same effective range as a channel."

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She beams a bit. She's very proud of her healing song! (Stef can't do the healing song.)

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"I'll see the injured packed in." He locks up the scroll and sweeps off to do that.

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She glances at Rowen, who gestures after Chosen Artigas, and then she hurries after him.

It's a bit of a long walk, apparently. "...How do you usually handle the lack of healing?" She's heard it's a big problem at the Chelish forts.

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"We can prepare it. And have devil's blood, for Infernal Healing, though that's on a tight ration at the moment."

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Right, because of the war. She nods somberly.

"...Sorry about our ranger," she says, after a moment. (She is sorry about Demonscourge, but she's mostly curious to see what the Chosen has to say about it, if anything.)

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"Facial expressions are not forbidden nor indeed mentioned by the Worldwound treaty."

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...this startles a laugh out of her. They sure aren't!

Follow follow.

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"Up on the table, please," he says, directing her to one, and then he's getting the fully intact soldiers to move adjacent tables out of the way so the injured can crowd in.

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Venn hops up onto the indicated table. She resists the urge to pose dramatically, and instead glances around to get a better idea of what's going on here.. 

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He has ever managed a channel before, apparently, and knows how far out thirty feet is and how closely people can huddle in around her before some of them are occluded from the line of effect. Eventually he is satisfied with the layout and gestures encouragingly at her from the edge of the circle. He took some damage in the fight but has not been letting it slow him down.

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"If you need to cycle a new set of people through, make a signal and I'll stop. I can do this for about two minutes." 

She takes out a beautiful-looking lyre and plays a backing tune for her singing. She doesn't need to, for the magic, but it makes the song sound better, harmonizing with herself. 

She's excellent with both song and string, of course, and as before, the wounds of those in range slowly but surely start to heal up.

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He assesses the scratches and sprains of a few other people but ultimately does not see fit to interrupt her to rotate anyone in.

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Then she will sing until she runs out of song-sorcery, finish out that verse, then bow with a flourish. 

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"Thank you, Miss Urdina." Soldiers disperse, gossiping under their breaths (seems like none of them knew there were song-sorcerers who could do that and someone is making what might be a sex joke about how a song-sorcerer like that would fare under the duke back home).

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She glances a bit sadly in the direction of the joke as she hops off the table, then heads towards the Chosen.

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This one? He was making his way back to his office but he stops when she's clearly after him. "Do you need directions to where your party may spend the night?"

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She nods. "If it's not too much trouble, that would be great." 

Proobably she should have just headed back the way she came and looked for Rowen? But she is admittedly kind of curious about this guy, he seems more reasonable than the soldiers.

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"Down that hallway, the one that would be your second left from the fort entrance," he says, pointing, "you will want room 15, that should also be what your party members were told."

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Venn nods. "Thank you."

She valiantly resists the urge to go Invisible on the way to the room, because she is a professional Worldwound Strike Team Reserve Member.

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The room is unoccupied except for their party. It has beds big enough for two-if-they're-friendly-and-it's-cold, bunked, enough that the room could sleep sixteen if it had to. An un-uniformed woman is dropping off blankets and ducks her head to Venn as she arrives. The party is presumably entitled to rations in the mess hall, which is in between everything else and easy to find again as soon as they're hungry.

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Ah, she's back. He nods at her. "Urdina. Any trouble?" 

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She shakes her head. "No, sir. Their commander organized everything." 

She slips off her backpack, putting it down next to one of the unclaimed beds. "I'm going to go hang out in their dining hall for a while, if you don't need anything."

She's curious why #11 seems to be doing so much better than the other Chelish forts she's been deployed to in the weeks since the four day war, and a dining hall is the right place to investigate. 

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"That's fine." He'll send Marit to check on her if she's not back in an hour or so, but he's not worried. She's good at this kind of thing. 

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She flashes him a smile and heads off to the dining hall. 

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People there are eating stew, playing cards, chatting. Blue hair attracts attention, though she's not the only person with a little color (there's a wizard who's got a streak of white in his, and one of the whores is sitting with a different wizard who's ?flirting? by putting interesting colors on her arm). There are, of course, Asmodean clerics; their motion through the room prompts little ripples of attention but not alarm.

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Well, she wouldn't color her hair like this if she didn't want the attention. 

She'll get herself some stew, reflavor it with magic, and then look around for a good place to eat while absorbing local gossip. 

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"So I said, yeah, I think I can figure out making ox parchment, it'll be kind of shit, you want a goat or at least a calf for the good kind you write spells on, but for letters it'd do maybe. So I'm on that now, apparently, till the supply is back to normal, Prestidigitating the fur off the damn hides and trying to rig up a stretching frame."

"You'd think the one thing the government'd agree with the last one about is the fucking Worldwound."

"You'd think! But I'd take this over fucking patrols or I wouldn't've let on that my folks made parchment."

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"You ever heard of a singing healer?"

"Yeah, sure, is that not how how they usually do it?"

"Fucked if I know."

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"Trade you the sequel for your bird book."

"Fuck you, Inky loves the bird book."

"Then I guess you'll never find out what happens to Lady Blanca, will you..."

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It makes sense that they'd be having trouble staying supplied, with the regime change.

She returns her stew bowl and then finds an open seat within conversational distance of the parchment-maker. Gives a little wave, when the people there look at her.

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"Hey, blue bard. Is the food any better down south?" asks the guy the parchmentmaker was talking to.

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She grins. "I wouldn't know. I heard from a retired wizard that I'd better learn the trick for Prestidigitating flavors if I was going to fight at the Worldwound, so I did." She looks around. "Any requests?"

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"Chicken and dumplings."

"Peach cake."

"Idiot, it's still going to be shaped like rice and beef, haven't you ever gotten Txell or somebody to do this one for you?"

"I don't fucking care, it's been so long since I had peach cake at this point I won't know the difference."

"Salmon and potatoes."

"Oh that's a good idea, I'm stealing it."

"Bitch."

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Prestidigitation will indeed not change the texture or shape, but rice and beef that tastes like peach cake can still be interesting. She spends a bit of extra time to concentrate the peach-y flavor in the beef - she's been doing this for years, now, and small differences like that can matter a lot.

She does a similar thing with the salmon and chicken flavors, for the other three.

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Om nom nom. "What'd you do yours to be like?" asks the salmon-idea-thief.

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"I've been experimenting with spiced dried fruits for the beef, lately - it's a good flavor profile for how chewy the meat is. Today was apple/cinnamon/ginger."

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"Huh."

"We had apple for the porridge last fall."

"Raisins are better."

"You'd get sick of raisins if you could hold onto them through a whole game of poker."

"Fuck you."

"You can eat cinnamon? I thought it was just for Communes."

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 "I've never eaten real cinnamon; I picked up the flavor from the other song-sorcerer at my garrison. He says it's the kind of ghastly expensive spice that rich nobles with more money than sense eat to show off how wealthy they are." She grins. "He might have just been fucking with me, though, he does that sometimes when he gets bored."

She does her best to subtly steer the topic of conversation towards fort #11, and how it's been faring recently. (Her best is pretty good.)

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"Yeah they just fucking sent out, fucking, flyers, to post to the wall with all the other bulletins. Cheliax under attack, hold position, prepare for supply disruptions and some personnel recall, and then four days later. Four fucking days."

"We've been on seven-eighths rations, the bastards."

"Better seven-eighths for a long while than halfsies for a short one. Especially as the patrol schedule hasn't let up."

"Yeah, yeah."

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She nods sympathetically. Being on reduced rations sucks. 

Have things been settling down since then? She's been to a few other northern forts since the Four Day War, and they all seemed... less, uh, put together than #11.

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"That's because for some reason Artigas keeps trading units with the neighbors and they keep letting him even though he gives away fuckups who can't follow an order if it's holding a Light right in front of their nose."

"They like excuses to have the rack occupied, I've told you that."

"You'd think they'd run out of racks! Or space to put racks! Or room in the schedule for somebody they're only feeding to make them patrol, to be on the rack instead!"

"I'm not saying it's how I'd do it, just, that's why they keep letting him trade and haven't been like 'hey fuck you for hogging all the good ones'."

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Huh. Now that's interesting. "Huh! It certainly seems like a good strategy for a fort commander, if you can get away with it." Is anyone at this table a transfer from one of the other forts? 

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Yeah, salmon-idea-thief is. "I came in through #48 and my whole squad got swapped here. We just patrolled thisaway till we got here and then stopped. The squad broke up after that when the cleric died though, I'm on these assholes' squad now."

"Bitch."

"And they love me."

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She nods solemnly. "I can tell!" 

She's curious about what they think about the commander.

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"Well, he doesn't keep the rack full."

"Not like he's squeamish, he'll do it for desertion just like it says on the books."

"Makes Ventura do it, more like."

"Sure but like it gets done. I heard Grec say something one time and Artigas was like, something something, it's on the books, but real mercilessness would, something something, Hell is better at torturing people anyway."

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Venn is herself squeamish (for definitions of squeamish that include "anti-torture"), but she's been to a Chelish fort before, and she's pretty good at controlling her facial expressions. It's just not very useful, being horrified or sad at Chelish worldwound soldiers, and so she doesn't do it.

She's still curious about Artigas. She rotates between tables, ingratiating herself with food flavorings and then catching up on local gossip, with an ear towards the unusual commander. (She asks about plenty of other things, too - it's no good to seem like you're snooping, even if you're doing it out of simple curiosity.)

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One line of questioning gets her only repressed giggles.

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"Grec" is apparently the First Arcane, in charge of the wizards and wizard-specific situations, though he also patrols sometimes (nobody gets out of patrolling - even a lot of the cooks and whores marched here, not urgent enough deployments to get teleported in with the stew ingredients, making their way around the border with regular squads, though the cooks and whores did not per se have duties on those patrols besides "walk"). He's very much Artigas's man, though he's got a favorite whore and nobody seems to take the idea that he and Artigas are fucking seriously. (Artigas, notably, does not appear to make use of the whores at all, that anyone leaks to Venn.)

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Artigas is the Lawfullest Lawful Law-hole who ever Lawed, and will come down even on people he otherwise likes for minor fuckups like "claiming you had eyes on the squad cleric the whole time even though actually once you took a piss break and were not staring at her during that minute". Not, like, with the rack, generally, but if you do it a lot he'll trade you and he's very free with removing people's alcohol rations or putting them on worse shifts or reassigning them away from their pals if he thinks they're making each other worse.

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She exchanges anecdotes from the other forts, tales of the more exciting incidents she's been deployed to, and other tidbits she thinks they might find interesting. 

The things she's learning are fascinating! Better yet, she's pretty sure she's not getting the full picture, missing some important details that will make the rest of it make more sense. Social mysteries at a Chelish fort have a potential to be terrible, of course, but she's curious. 

She disentangles herself from the last group she's been chatting with and heads back to her squad's room. 

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Ah, she's back. That was almost an hour, but not quite. "Learn anything interesting?"

 

Urdina's definitions of interesting are very different from his, but she's got a good eye and ear for troop morale. #11, according to her, seems higher-functioning and less socially frictious than #9, #20, and #43 (those being the other Chelish forts she's spent non-combat time at). Her best guess is that this has something to do with the commander, Chosen Artigas, who has some sort of non-obvious trick or strategy for making good personnel trades with the adjacent Chelish forts and whose most gossip-worthy trait is apparently that he is "really lawful, no, like, more lawful than that, lawful like you would not believe". (She does a good but also totally unnecessary Chelish accent for that bit.)

She thinks she's missing something about what's going on here, but she doesn't think it's urgent. He nods approvingly.

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"So are you angling to fuck the guy?" She doesn't look up from the carving she's doing with the hezrou skull. (She's pretty sure Urdina isn't, in fact, angling to fuck the guy, but she's being weird and this is an easy way to make fun of her for it.)

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The 'nice' thing about Demonscourge is that because she doesn't (as far as Venn can tell) actually care about how Venn reacts to her barbs, there isn't any practical reason not to radiate the annoyance she's feeling. (She doesn't say anything, of course. That would be Unprofessional.)

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Sigh. "Demonscourge, Marit, you two should get something to eat soon. Urdina, do they need to be on the lookout for anything?" (She shakes her head.)

The other two leave to get their dinner.

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Venn loves to stay up late when there's reason to, but she's not feeling interested in shooting the shit with this particular squad today, as much as she likes Rowen and Marit. She's asleep before the other two return, which means she's the first of the four to wake up.

She goes through her morning routine in silence and then sneaks out of the room to see if the mess hall is open.

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It's open round the clock. It's serving porridge.

It's - quiet? There are maybe slightly fewer total people but also they are having much softer conversations.

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Well. That's odd.

She'll make the rounds to see if anyone wants flavoring, and also to see how fast they clam up when she approaches. 

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"I've got us covered here, we're all having blueberry pie."

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"Have you eaten yet? You're entitled to a bowl even if you're leaving immediately but if you have the slack we could use another song."

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...Huh. "I could probably do another healing song. Did something happen?"

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"An overnight patrol got a bit beaten up. I'll have them roused if you're available." He starts looking around for nearby people who have just finished eating.

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 "...did something happen such that you can't use cure light wounds for this? The limits on my song-sorcery mean my healing is only really useful for large groups." 

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"We can pack more marginal cases in, there are always blisters and chapped skin and such."

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Hmmm. "How bad are the injuries? I should check in with my squad leader if you need more than a few moments of song - I don't want to use too much of my power without letting him know, first." 

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"I'm not night shift. I do know there's a fucked ankle, so they might take a bit to get here, go tell him."

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Oookay. She goes back to their room, and, oh, good, Rowen's awake.

She sits down on the floor next to him. "Sir, I think something unusual happened here last night. Weird mood in the mess hall, and their second-in-command wants me to do some healing for routine patrol injuries, was evasive when I asked about their usual healing." 

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He blinks. It's far too early in the morning for intrigue, but it seems that intrigue is happening anyways. Okay. What are the relevant considerations...

"Stef gets back from his leave today, so if you want to spend your song-sorcery here, I won't stop you." He pauses to think. "...Don't spy on our allies, obviously, but if there's any tactically relevant information that you can learn licitly..." he waves a hand vaguely. "Be careful, though. The people here are reliable allies. They are not our friends." Urdina isn't stupid, but she can be dangerously optimistic, in his opinion.

He shoos her so he can prepare his spells in peace.

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Venn heads back out to the mess hall. She doesn't want to spend all of her song-magic first thing in the morning, though...

"I can do about half as much healing as I did yesterday," she tells the second-in-command whose name slipped her mind.

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It's on his coat, GREC. "Got it." He's got people assembled, including somebody leaning on a crutch for the presumable fucked ankle. They scootch aside so she can stand on the table.

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It's the same song as last time, but instead of singing with lyre accompaniment, she plays it on a flute. It's still beautiful, and still heals the wounds of the audience, slowly but surely.

 (She keeps a watchful eye on the assembled soldiers, before, during, and after, trying to see if she can learn anything more about what's going on here...)

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They huddle up pretty pensively. The ones who were on the overnight patrol look pretty groggy, which makes sense if they were woken up from sleeping off their injuries to come get healed; the squad includes what look like four martials and a wizard, which is understrength for a patrol squad but maybe they lost a guy against the hezrou.

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...usually you'd have a cleric in there, right?

She'll play until they're all better or until she's used about half of her magic. 

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Not every squad has a cleric, there aren't enough to go around, but a lot of them do.

"Thanks," mumbles the guy with the ankle.

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"Of course," she says softly.

She's... going to get a bowl of porridge? And see if she can learn anything more by hanging out in the mess hall? 

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The porridge has chunks of pear in it so nobody gets scurvy.

Everybody's whispering except those guys who are just talking about their card game.

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She'll loiter around the card game players and watch the game, making small talk while she tries to read the room.

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They are gambling for raisins.

The room continues to be whispery and illegible.

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Man. What is going on here. 

...It could be nothing? But she's suspicious. 

She glances abound. Is Grec still in the room?

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Yup, over there giving a briefing to a squad who look like they're on their way out.

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Cool. She is going to hang out nearby to see if he needs anything. 

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"- if they have the same - what is it?" he asks Venn.

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Whoops, hovering too close. "...ah, just checking to see if you'd like me to pass along anything to my commander, sir." Like the fact that your fort is having MYSTERIOUS PROBLEMS. 

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"...you planning to go on foot anywhere for refreshing your teleport locations, or just pop right back home?"

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"Not up to me, sir. ...I'll likely be on standby after this deployment, our primary song-sorcerer is returning to the garrison today." You know, if your mysterious healing problems seem like they might be persistent. 

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"Well, you know, if you get sick of that we're always lower on healing and getting more frostbite up here than down there," he says. He waves the patrol along and they skedaddle.

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Venn nods. "I'll think it over." 

She heads back to their room. "I think something happened to their healing situation. The second-in-command invited me to stay here instead of at the garrison, and he was casual about it but he's nervous - I'd say they're not desperate now, but if things don't get better, they might be." 

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He raises an eyebrow. It's a hunch, he can tell, but Urdina's hunches are really good, when it comes to people. But...

"...Are you actually volunteering to stay here and help them out? Well-run or not, it is a Chelish fort." 

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She thinks about it and then nods, her face unusually serious. "If that's ok with you, sir. For a few days, while I figure out what's happening here. I think it could be pretty important." 

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He closes his spellbook. "Alright. ... if you're right, I think you can do a lot of Good, here," and he knows her well enough to know she could have suppressed that pleased smile, but it's still charming, "I'll go talk to the second-in-command." 

He goes looking for Grec. 

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Grec's not in the mess right at that moment but he comes down the stairs a minute later.

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He'll head over. "Do you have a moment?"

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"- what is it?"

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"Urdina mentioned you'd appreciate it if I left her here for a few days, instead of having her on secondary standby back at the garrison. I can authorize this, but wanted to check in with you first" and he's not going to say and be sure she'll be treated well because that would be unprofessional, but he's thinking it.

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"- yes, absolutely, if it's just her we'll want to move her into a smaller room but we'll be glad to have her. When are you expecting to pick her up?"

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Hmmm. "Well, her senior bard is starting a two week shift, so unless something happens to him she's not urgently needed back for at least that long. I expect I'll Sending her in a few days to get a status report and go from there. ...Don't send her out on routine patrols if you can help it, it's not a good use of her talents and she's supposed to be on reserve duty." 

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"Understood, we can keep her in the fort."

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He nods. "Good, thank you."

And if Grec doesn't have anything else, he'll do the mildly-dramatic heel-turn cloak-swoosh that Urdina did an impromptu lesson on a few months ago when they'd all had a few pints because she was right, it is fun.

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("Swoosh, wizard, swoosh," somebody mutters under their breath.)

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He pretends not to hear them and heads back to the room. "Alright, Urdina, you can take your standby shift here, at least provisionally. I'll Sending you in a few days for a status update, but you'll be on your own until then." He frowns. "Are you sure about this."

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She gives him a Lastwall salute (which is a little bit of a joke because neither of them are in Lastwall's chain of command and she always moves like she's wearing full plate when she does it) but her voice and face are solemn when she says "Sir!"

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She snorts. "...don't do anything too stupid, kid. They might be in trouble, but they're devil-worshipers, the lot of them. You can't trust them just because they're Lawful."

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...She turns to Demonscourge and nods seriously. "I'll try not to. Thank you."


She'll pack up her things and report to Grec.

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Grec has in the interim figured out what room to assign her to. "And you're welcome to look in on any of the classes and drills posted unless the instructor can't abide you," he adds before hurrying off in response to some gesture of beckoning from the kitchen end of the room.

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Venn drops her stuff off and then will look for a schedule of classes and drills posted (she's not especially interested in the drills, but maybe something interesting will surprise her.)

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Coming up soon: treaty review, Common Taldane practice, archery drill, topology circle, stellar navigation, demonology, snow shelter construction, basic patrol skills.

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Okay, she's actually curious enough to check out... all of those besides Taldane practice and topology, though she may not stick around for some for very long. Are any of them at the same time?

(She'll also dip into the mess hall for flavoring and gossip whenever she gets the chance.)

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Basic patrol skills is right on top of treaty review but otherwise they're scattered around.

The gossip continues thin and quiet until Grec takes report from a neighboring fort's outgoing patrol, and then he goes and tells four different people things, and they all run off to tell other people who are not in the mess hall things (in one case bringing along a porridge delivery), and then it gets a little louder. People quiet down when she gets close, but:

"- them too?"

"Why not back when -"

"But tomorrow -"

"- going to send -"

"- the Commander?"

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...she focuses on that last one without being obvious about it. What about the Commander, exactly?

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"No, I haven't seen him either."

"You think Grec's -"

"No, but..."

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Huh. She hasn't seen the commander. She hasn't seen... any of the Chosen today, actually.

What does that... mean? She's not sure, but it sure seems worrying.

She keeps listening in, and checks out the classes, too. Treaty review? 

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Treaty review. They've got a copy of the treaty annotated in more colloquial Chelish for the class to pass around and share - everyone has at least the rudiments of literacy - and since she's there they might as well use her as an example of what they are and are not allowed to do to other treaty-applicable people. Like if she stabbed somebody they'd have to at least kind of try to make sure it wasn't a Suggestion if they could safely do that before killing her in self-defense, stuff like that.

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She's happy to be used as an example! (She can even pretend pretty convincingly to be Suggested, if the instructor wants her to.)

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Sure, they can do little skits, apparently Oriol over there used to be in a theater troupe before they turned bandit and all got sentenced to the Wound and he'll play too. It lightens the mood.

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Unsurprisingly to anyone who's been in a room with her for five minutes, Venn is great at little skits, and when she drops character, she's grinning (a big display of emotion locally, but still actually rather restrained for her).

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Some people laugh at her in a way that is about that and not the quality of her performance but they then move on to the next participant's question, which is a hypothetical about how much they would be obligated to feed a giant. (The treaty doesn't have this but arbitration precedent from seventeen years ago does: they are not obligated to feed anyone who eats more than a horse, such individuals should get Rings of Sustenance. They also don't have to house a giant indoors.)

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(She notices and doesn't really mind - if she'd want to avoid attention, she'd control her facial expressions. She does take note of who laughs unkindly, though.)

Huh! She did not know that about the giants. It's an interesting tidbit of trivia to store away in her brain.

Anything interesting afoot afterwards?

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(Chelish people do not really know how to laugh kindly.)

After class there is -

- an announcement in the mess hall? People passing through stop to hear what's going on while everyone who was already present settles down.

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She will definitely go check that out! 

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The announcement that there is an announcement consists of Grec standing on a table, just like Venn did to sing for people, and waiting until he's got critical mass.

"All right, shut up, everyone," he says, when he does. "Word's come in from neighbors on both sides now. All our clerics woke up without spells this morning. We have to presume it's the whole line. Artigas remains in command. If you've simply just fucking got to check in with him in person without me there then Farre y Puig and Bartra are both acceptable substitutes, but nobody goes to his office without one of the three of us, I don't care who you are because who you might be is fucking always a succubus. I'm still second. Our orders stand. And to tide us over while the guy next door scrapes together a devil calling arrangement he thinks holds up we are borrowing that there song-sorceress who's got a healing song." He points at Venn. "Couple weeks. She's not to patrol, so we've got her all to ourselves. If you want to know what happened to your favorite Chosen the answer is that Ventura's dead and we're hunting down the following as deserters -" A few names. "The rest? They'll see you in weapons classes catching up. They're soldiers like everybody else here. Keep order."

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What? That - that's the kind of thing that happens when a God dies -

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THE GOSSIP IS A LOT LOUDER NOW

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...Do they seem scared? She starts humming quietly, not putting any magic into it just yet, as she scans the crowd with concern.

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Mix of scared and angry and incredulous denial.

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She doesn't draw attention to herself, but she slips towards the center of the room and pours magic into her humming, making it a bit louder but mostly low enough to be mistaken for the conversations happening all around her. 

Without an obvious source, edges of the fear start slipping off the minds of the people in the room, courage bolstering their hearts. 

(She can't keep this up too long, even using the trick where she pulses her magic on and off, but in times like this, even a minute can make a huge difference.)

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This pushes the mix a little toward "anger" but one person says "we buried a hell of a lot of people yesterday, who wants to go pray to Pharasma with me before anyone officially tells us we're allowed, see if we can reach her from Neutral Evil" and then that sets the tone.

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!! She volunteers (in her quite distinctive voice) to come pray to Pharasma with them.

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"Well you're not Neutral Evil."

"Idiot, it doesn't matter, she can be Neutral Anything. Neutral Blue. Whatever."

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She laughs (warmly, but not a giggle. She's not flirting, here.) "Neutral Blue, yeah! One step from Pharasma." 

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They commandeer an empty classroom and all try to figure out how to see if Pharasma will cleric anybody.

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Venn drudges up everything she's ever heard about Pharasma and her church, which turns out to be quite a lot - enough to lead a bit of an impromptu seminar.

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Wow that's really useful okay.

Nobody gets clericed right then and there but it helps to be doing something.

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Huh! That gives her an idea, actually. 

She asks Grec if he can take her to the Commander when he has some free time.

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"- yes, all right, what about?"

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"Making myself useful!" 

She outlines what she's thinking.

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Grec starts leading her up the stairs to the office while she's still mid-ramble. He knocks twice and then casts a Light on his belt knife for some reason and then the door opens.

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Artigas can't exactly have been up all night with a revelation that only, definitionally, arrived at dawn, but he looks a little like that anyway. He has a glass object with some internal convolutions for bouncing light around inside it; he holds it out and Grec re-casts on it. He looks at Venn. He goes back in and sits back down at his desk.

"What's going on?" he asks.

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"She wants to take on some more work besides a couple minutes' singing, sir."

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"Commander. Being a song-sorceress means picking up a lot of information, some of which that I think might be useful to run classes on, while I'm here? Someone in the mess hall suggested praying to Pharasma, so I just did one on her churches - I was thinking I could do some other True Neutral and Lawful Neutral Gods, but I'd want to clear the list with you beforehand, and maybe see if there are other subjects that'd be high value?" 

She doesn't really know what to say about the de-clericing because it's hard to tell exactly he feels about it, though "not good" is an obvious guess from his appearance. Probably stressed. It seems like a very stressful situation, even though she's hopeful about it being a good one in the long run.

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"Gorum too, some soldiers might be able to reach Him if they haven't done much of note in their lives and there's some reason to think He's more permissive about the edges of alignments anyway."

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She nods thoughtfully. "Okay. The order I was thinking is - Abadar, Gorum, Gozreh, then maybe Irori - I probably only want to do one God a day, there's a trick for pulling everything I know together just right but I can only really do it once before sleeping. And then... are there other topics that might be helpful? Demonology, maybe, I doubt at my best I'm better than your local expert -" which is probably the Commander, actually "- but I'm probably less busy and might have some tidbits they don't, and vice versa?"

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"Nethys, before Gozreh, in case any wizards are up for double duty. The demonology instructor is usually Lt. Espina. You can offer her your assistance."

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Nod. "That makes sense."

She glances around the room, mostly looking for something to say - huh, anything interesting on that bookshelf behind him...

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There's a lot of bundled letters in there but some actual books, yes. The Disciplines. Naturally. And a copy of the treaty and a precedent compilation to go with it. And something in Infernal. The code of Chelish military regulations. A book about chess and its variants.

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Huh! Once the current thread wraps up, she nods to the book. "You play chess, Commander?" 

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"Yes..."

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...she's curious, is the thing. She likes trying to figure out what's going on with people, and she has no idea what makes Commander Artigas tick.

"I know you must be horribly busy, but if you'd like a new opponent and don't mind if they're mediocre, feel free to call on me." She trying to strike a balance between 'not flirting' and 'not a huge chess buff or anything' with her tone and body language, which is not a particularly large needle to thread; she does her best.

 

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"Mediocrity is readily addressed with piece handicaps."

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She smiles. "I will happily take whatever handicap ends up making for interesting matches!" She's got no reason to be prideful about a skill that she obviously does not have much of.

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"Perhaps later in the week," he says, exchanging a glance with Grec.

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"Once things are a little more... settled."

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She nods easily. "Of course. Let me know." 

And if there's nothing else, she'll bow and let Grec escort her out, and then ask him how best to organize her religious lectures and where to find Lt. Espina.

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Lt. Espina's on a patrol but will be back in time for her class and should probably be best accosted after it. She can put her lectures on the bulletin board like so and obviously shouldn't schedule Nethys opposite Topology or anything like that.

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That makes sense! She'll make a posting for her Abadar lesson, and then - hang out in a corner of the mess hall, offering food flavorings, playing non-magical music quietly, and chatting with anyone who stops by (as long as they're not too rude to her).

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Grec goes off to talk to the camp followers. For the rest of the day they can be seen hauling snow into the fort, trudging back and forth.

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...right, no clerics means no Create Water. 

In the evening, she'll check in with him again about using the rest of her healing song for the day.

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"This is a good time. I think we maybe want a minute during the porridge quarter of the day and a minute in the evening unless there's a reason to spend it all at once."

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She nods. "That seems reasonable, though do let me know if I can cut off early on any given session - I can stretch the magic a lot further if I'm using it to help people with mundane tasks." She has a bit less to go around today because of what she spent during the announcement, but hopefully this won't leave anyone too badly off till morning.

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"I'll assign Sgt. Espina - no relation - to monitor people and let you know if it's dropping in use." He introduces her briefly to Sgt. Espina and then goes off to pour a bowl of stew down his own throat.

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She designs a quick signal with Espina (Sgt.), gets on a table in the center of the room and announces the tentative healing schedule, and then does the lyre and singing version of her healing song.

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Sgt. Espina performs this task with a Resistance to keep time and cuts Venn off before (though only just) the minute's up.

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She hops off the table with she's done and goes back to eating food and offering flavorings and conversation.

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This guy wants the weirdest food she's ever had. That guy wants venison and barley and dill. Another guy wants carrots, just carrots, bowlful of carrot flavor all by itself. A fourth guy wants halibut and lemon and bayleaf and garlic.

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Tap, tap, tap, tap.

The weirdest food she's ever had was a fruit salad with soy sauce (heavy on melons that got soaked in the soy sauce) paired with very bitter and spicy meat, which is a bit tricky to map into rice and beef but she does her best.

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"Wow, it's awful," he says, and he takes another huge bite, "wild that anyone eats this," nomf.

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Venn laughs. "I'm still not sure if the cook really had a thing for extreme flavors or if she was pranking us, but she ate all of her portion and looked like she enjoyed it!" 

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"Well, you know," chew chew, "if you're bored enough."

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She nods agreeably. 

After dinner requests dry up, she'll go looking for Lt. Espina to swap notes on demonology. (She knows a wide but not very deep variety of things about the most common demons, but does have some useful anecdotes about scarier things she's seen when being called in and heard in the garrison's mess hall.)

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Lt. Espina is planning to do a refresher on hezrous, since now everyone's seen one in real life except for the wizards who happened to be asleep at that time, but they can plan some stuff farther out too.

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She'll get everything Venn knows about hezrous, which is mostly the standard stuff but a few odd tidbits - how they fight in groups, their surprising intelligence given their actions, etc, and similar facts about many other uncommon demons of strike team tier. 

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"Good. Next I'm doing quasits, I do quasits oftener than anything else but succubi and still people are so confused about the anti-invisibility procedures..." The lieutenant will keep extracting demon information as long as Venn will tolerate it.

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Venn is willing to stay at this until she runs out of demon facts or one of them needs to sleep. (She's also got Invisibility, if Espina wants to do practical demonstrations.)

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Espina is a wizard and will go to bed at the time her shift prescribes. She curls her lip at the idea of nonessential spell slot use.

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Venn does not have a wizard's flexibility with her spell slots but won't push the issue.

She heads to bed, spends some time playing with her lyre and thinking about the people she's met here, and eventually falls asleep. 

The next morning she does her mealtime Prestidigitation routine and waits for the injured to be gathered so she can heal them. 

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They all corral into place without much fanfare. She can quit after thirty seconds, this time, it's all minor nicks and chapped lips and stuff at this point. ("Is this what it's like in forts with the good channels all the time," somebody mutters.)

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(...Pretty much, yeah, she does not say because it absolutely would not help.)

How's the fort morale (and gossip) this morning?

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Grim. They are on the whole in their Chelish way glad that she is there but they are only borrowing her for a couple weeks and nobody's gotten Pharasma'd and people are trading disparaging remarks about whether anyone in the fort is the slightest bit "like the Commander's Abadaran pal" or "like that Gozrehn from last summer" or "a wizard who's also got any common sense".

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...Makes sense. Well, she'll do what she can while she's here. 

Abadar class! Abadar is the God of positive-sum trades, the creation of wealth, of cities. He is said to keep in his vault in Axis with copy of every piece of mortal writing and art, which Venn finds delightful. 

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This is not of especial interest to the folks who show up. Could she compare and contrast with Mammon, perhaps.

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She doesn't know as much about Mammon but she does her best! Abadar cares a lot more about the creation of wealth than the acquisition - building things that make it possible for people to become rich. He's called the God of Walls and Ditches, and some people think this is unflattering but walls and ditches are really important... 

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So like, the walls of the fortress? Do those count?

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It's a bit of a special case? But the entire worldwound effort is something Abadar cares about, she's pretty sure, demons being opposed as they are to civilization. 

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The insurance guy is an Abadaran but you don't see them in droves showing up to fight. The Iomedaeans are assholes but they show up to fight.

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One of the three fifth circle clerics in rotation at her garrison is Abadaran; he has teleport, and he seems like he hates the demons a lot, but Venn agrees that there's definitely less of them here than there are Iomedaeans. She thinks it's probably just that Iomedae cares a lot about the Worldwound? Both Lastwell and Mendev hold part of the line, after all. 

Still, the Abadaran supply lines are an important part of the operation! The Sending scrolls each fort relies on to be able to call in strike teams quickly are primarily sourced through the church of Abadar, and she's heard that they also arrange for the production of cold iron arrows that get used out here.

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Grumble grumble that barely counts. How do you even GET to fifth circle like the insurance guy or her fort's guy if you don't fight.

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Oh, her guy fights in addition to teleporting. She has never met the insurance guy and could not really say either way what's up with him.

She decides to wrap things up - they've covered the relevant facts about Abadar, people can try praying to him if they feel so moved.

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A couple of them stick around to try but their hearts aren't really in it.

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Yeah. Well, it was worth a try. 

The lunch routine is becoming familiar: food flavoring, chatting with people, some non-magical music when it feels appropriate. 

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The music is popular. One guy snags a whore out of the water-carrying line and twirls her around the room before putting her back to go get another batch of snow. His friends make fun of him though.

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D'awww! (She mostly keeps the reaction internal, lest the man catch more flak, but her heart sings. Little sparks, lighting up the darkness...)

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The next evening, Rowen hits her with a Sending to tell her about the cleric dropping and ask for a status update. It happens when she's in the middle of telling a story in the mess hall. She almost drops the reply, but she manages to let him know that she's fine, she knows about the cleric dropping, the fort is holding together with her help, and she remembers her codeword in time to tack it onto the end, which is not policy but it's better than nothing. (Embarrassed, she resolves to have a precomposed Sending reply for next time.)

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Security on the corridor for the commander's office lightens later in the week, as nobody murders any of the other #11 ex-clerics nor appears to try.

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Cool! She loves it when people aren't murdering each other.

She'll find some time to drop by. 

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He lets her in. His Light-globe is aglow but the adjacent letter-opener and copper piece have expired. "Do you need something?"

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"Nothing urgently, if now's a bad time! But if it's not..." she's been assembling a mental list of fort personnel who she thinks are struggling the most (or at least the most visibly) with the current predicament, at least in terms of morale. 

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"I do not at this time have a lot of ability to affect our predicament. Do you have a suggestion, or just advise me to keep an eye on them?"

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Yeah, lots of them are in fact just stressed and scared and the situation is objectively stressful and scary, and the kinds of things she'd do as a bard to improve morale don't seem like they'd land very well due to cultural differences - she's already doing what she can, there. But some of the troops have fixable problems - in particular, she's found a few pairs of people she thinks would benefit from being discreetly offered squad swaps for personality fit reasons (she can go into her reasoning for each pair at length, if required).

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Squad swaps he can do. He can guess at the general shape of most of them but what's behind this one -

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Oh, that guy and his squad wizard had some kind of falling out since the announcement. They've both been really professional about it (she continues to be impressed with the professionalism here), but to her it's obvious the way they... shut down a little bit in each other's presence, in a way they absolutely did not when she arrived. She thinks they could really use some space from each other, at least for now.

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...well, he has no particular objection to swapping the guy out of the wizard's squad, he's plausibly ready for a promotion anyway and they do need a couple new sergeants since the hezrou, he can put a bunch of the Musical Guys on his preliminary squad and let him approve it.

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That makes sense to her! (...hmm, that bit of hesitation... because it's a very un-Asmodean reason to swap people around?)

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If she doesn't ask she will not find out. He writes an appropriate order and puts it under the Light-paperweight-doodad presumably to be delivered through whoever that Light belongs to.

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She looks at him consideringly. "Would now be a good time for some chess? I don't have anything on my schedule for a while."

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He stills his hand mid- some casting-esque gesture that obviously won't work, reaches for his water pitcher instead, and pours himself some snowmelt. "...yes. This would be a fine time."

He can still cast Prestidigitation.

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...She keeps her wince of sympathy internal; she's pretty sure he wouldn't appreciate it.

Once she catches on to what he's doing with Prestidigitation, she starts making pieces for her side of the board.

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"One without a handicap, to guess how much of one would be best?"

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She nods.

Venn knows the rules to chess, has watched people play it, and has even halfway-listened while someone explained opening strategy to her, during a particularly slow day.

 

 

None of these things are a substitute for any real experience. Blai easily trounces her.

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They can try again with him missing nearly half his pieces.

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Venn laughs at the sight of the board.

She tries just as hard this time, and it's much closer! (Blai may notice she's paying a lot of attention to him relative to the board, as though she's hoping to figure out how he thinks about the game from external observation.)

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That doesn't work very well, but maybe she is one of those people who can make it work more than zero! He is paying as much attention as he possibly can to the board. Paying attention to things that are not the board is awful, why does anyone do it ever.

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(Because people so interesting!) 

She can definitely make it work more than zero, but not enough to win this game.

"You keep making me move my king and then taking other units when I do!" She's grinning. "I guess I need to be protecting him better?"

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"The king is the win condition. If you don't protect him, you lose," Blai says, setting up again and taking an additional one of his pawns off the board. "That's why you are forced to move him when he's threatened; if the rules did not require that it would just be an elaborate way of resigning, to decline to do so. Every other piece can be traded, sacrificed, handled carelessly if you're trying to do a timed game - not the king."

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She nods thoughtfully.

This time, she abandons the standard opening she used in the previous games (she'd pretty clearly learned it by watching someone else without understanding the benefits) and attempts to trade pieces with him aggressively. She's not great at it and often ends up trading down (including a hasty queen-for-knight trade she winces at), but it's a much more straightforward goal than "don't make mistakes", and this handicap is pretty large... 

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Yes, with a handicap this big it's to her advantage to try to do lots of trading! He is willing when it's his (only) knight for her queen but he will not willingly trade pawns straight across if he can avoid it. His rook winds up doing a lot of work this time.

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Pesky thing! She attempts to chase it down with her two bishops.

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Her one bishop.

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Her... one bishop, yes.

"When did you start playing chess, Commander?"

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"I learned when I was a child."

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She nods and starts pushing her pawn line forward, and then looks at the pieces on the board thoughtfully. 

"Do you have any other wizardry?" she asks, a few moves later. 

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Headshake.

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"Huh. Well, it's definitely the cantrip to pick if you're only getting one, as much as I like some of the others." 

She's trying to do something tricky with her remaining knight, and even managed to have it be protected by a pawn in the process.

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Guidance and Create Water are not wizard spells so yeah probably.

It's worth taking that knight, because she can't retaliate. If she moves the pawn, his rook has a clear path to the king.

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She looks at her pawn, and then at his rook, and then at her king, and finally at Blai. "Ah."

From that point on she tries harder to make sure she can actually execute on her trades, which (when combined with the sizeable handicap) will get them into a non-trivial endgame (where she quickly loses her remaining pawns attempting to get them promoted too aggressively).

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Pawns get vacuumed up steadily and then he has to chase her all over the board but can inevitably corner her.

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She initially finds this process confusing, but her face lights up with understanding once she figures out the end-state (a few turns before it happens).

"Huh! Was there any way out of that for me after you took my last pawn?"

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"You could have forced a draw, at one point."

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"Oh huh. Show me how?"

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"I'm not certain I will get the position exact, but -" He reassembles something strategically like what they had some dozen turns ago and demonstrates.

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Neat! "Ah, I see." 

She considers the example board a bit longer. "I've never really gotten to that kind of mostly-empty board before. It plays so differently from the rest of the game..."

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"It happens more when there are fewer pieces to begin with, especially since you were trying so hard to trade them."

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She nods. "I thought that going for trades would work better since I started with more pieces than you, and I think it did, though obviously not well enough..."

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"You were right, it was to your advantage to do it, at least in principle."

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Oh good, she's glad that was reasonable in theory, if not well-executed.

Does he want to play again?

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...the Light on his doodad expires before he can answer.

Northern forts don't have any windows.

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Ooop! "Let me - " she casts Dancing Lights.

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"Thank you. But I think the duration would make for a choppy game."

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"And I might get distracted making them dance." She laughs. (...she does, in fact, enjoy a Dancing Lights show, but she expects the appeal would be lost on Artigas.)

"Thank you for the games, Commander, it was a pleasure. I'd be happy to do this again sometime."

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"I seldom turn down a game. If you run into a wizard please let them know I could use a new Light."

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"Will do!"

She goes looking for a wizard she has any rapport with (which is a decent chunk of them, at this point - some of them Just Don't Like Her, of course, but she's been doing her best).

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Here's one.

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She gives a polite bow. "If you have a moment, Commander Artigas needs a new Light for his office."

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"- yeah, I got it. You'd have to fucking, Stone Shape one of the Continual Flames out of the ceiling, in the mess, and guess what's fourth circle for wizards..." Off she goes.

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...right. Stone Shape is third for clerics.

Artigas really deserves to be picked up by a better Lawful God than his former patron. Not useful, Urdina, her inner Rowen chides her, though not unkindly.

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Venn finds some time the next day to come back for more chess. 

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The Commander can still do paperwork - and even woke up during the alarm last night to go out and help beat a demon to death that beached itself across the Wardstone barrier - but he's less busy than he was before. He has time for chess. He thinks they've got about the right handicap level till she improves.

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Excellent! She's going to try a knight-centric strategy this game. 

She's a bit chattier, today, often asking him questions after he makes a move. At first it's chess strategy basics (she's especially curious about how he thinks about playing while handicapped, it seems difficult), but she starts weaving in other questions as the game goes on. How long has he been at the Worldwound, and how long has he command of fort #11? 

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Playing while handicapped is not fundamentally different from playing with a lot of pieces captured, or (in a redeployment variant) one's opponent having lots of extras. It will limit his possible endgames - can't rook-roll with one rook and no queen - but the middlegame is all about looking at what's there, not what would have been in another boardstate.

He's been at the Wound for twenty years and he's had the command of #11 for coming up on eight, the promotion came about a year after he... hit... third circle.

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That makes sense! (Rook-rolling?)

"I must admit that I'm very curious about and impressed with Fort #11, as compared to the other Chelish forts I've spent time at? Your people are" better-adjusted, less miserable she should really finish this sentence without a noticeable pause to search for a non-offensive thing "easier to work with than I was expecting. More lawful, in some ways. If you don't mind my asking - how did you do it?" She knows what his troops, say, of course, but she wants to know how he thinks about it (or what he wants her to think about how he thinks about it).

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He can demonstrate between games how to corner a king with two rooks.

"I trade units a lot for - fit. Quite often my counterparts in adjacent forts expect to be able to beat people into shape who I'm not finding success with and I am often able to make use of soldiers they have performance problems with. Different styles bring out the best in different men."

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Neat! She'll try and keep both her rooks alive next game, or at least do her best to avoid losing one not in a trade. (She's hoping to at least get a draw or two today.) 

She nods at the answer - very similar to how his men tell it, though 'beat into shape' is of course a very different spin on it than 'wanting to keep the racks full'. "Was that something fort #11 was doing before you were in charge?" Or did you come up with this, and if so, how did that happen?

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"Not systematically, no, though I do think everyone does it somewhat because it is not hard to become fed up with a particular troublemaker who it would be more fuss than it's worth to execute and instead send him off for someone else who hasn't irritated you personally yet."

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She attempts to trade a bishop for a knight and leaves a pawn exposed in the process.

"That makes sense. What did the transition to doing it systemically look like?" 

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He rejects the bishop; he only has the one knight and it's gonna eat the pawn. "Mostly like writing a lot of letters and trying to observe traits that make someone handle their job well or poorly under specific commands."

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Phooy. She moves a new pawn out instead.

"Why'd you start?" 

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"I'd been in the habit of trying to arrange to be in command of the most suitable possible force since I had only a squad; it seemed the obvious extrapolation."

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"Huh." She stops to think, and then makes what for her is an unusually good move.

 "Yesterday, you seemed a bit surprised when I suggested swapping Tarlev out of his squad, and I was wondering why?"

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"They didn't have any problems before and I have not been out and about much, recently."

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She nods. "I do wonder what happened between them... Maybe I'll get to know one of them well enough to find out before I swap back. I do like Tarlev, he can be funny."

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"I'd offer to assign you to his new squad but you're not to take routine patrols."

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She nods. "It is my fortnight off, after all! I'll catch him at mealtimes." 

She threatens his bishop with a knight. 

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"Check."

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Her king retreats deeper into her protected corner of the board, and she hums thoughtfully. 


 

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Venn does end up managing to draw the last game that they play, which she's very happy about. She leaves to go help Espina (Lt.) with the demonology class (it's Quasit day) and then hangs out in the mess hall playing her lyre and chatting with people who swing by until it's time to do her evening healing.

One of noon patrols got ambushed pretty bad, and she ends up needing to use most of her songpower for the day patching them up. (She really can't wait to get her third circle spells - there's one Stef showed her that would be so useful for this. She knows she's close...)

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The alarm bells go off.

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Ah, fuck.

She pops to her feet and looks around to see if anyone knows what's happening. 

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No reports have made it inside the fort, yet, but someone on the parapets is clearly very agitated and everyone's running for their armor and weapons, stew abandoned on the tables, the people she just healed refusing to wince as they form up. Grec charges down the stairs hollering for all hands against a large mixed attack, with the Commander following, slowed by his mail.

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She runs to her room to get her armor and bow and then rejoins the main group. 

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"Bartra, get the scroll."

Bartra accepts the key out of Grec's hand and goes for the lockbox and when he starts to read the scroll it blows up in his face.

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...uh-oh. 

 

Do any of the fort wizards want a Invisibility from her?

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"Give it to Bartra's bird, it can make it to the next fort with a note -" He grabs a corner of destroyed scroll to scrawl on. The snowy owl hops anxiously on Bartra's shoulder.

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She holds out her hand for the bird to land on, projecting a calm she doesn't exactly feel. 

Invisibility.

"I can spare another casting if someone wants one." 

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"Bartra himself." The next patrol to come this way might spot the bird dead in the snow but they might not and he's on buffs anyway. And then Grec's out the door.

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Barta can have an Invisibility, and then Venn puts one on herself and heads outside. 

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There's archers on the parapets and the force that goes out the front door is the melee guys and their support. The archers are focusing on the demons of the small gathered horde that is not yet clashing with the soldiers, so they don't hit their own. The Commander is leading from the front, calling out unit numbers and orders to go with them while he's meeting a hala mace-first.

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Venn finds a position near the vanguard and fills the air with courage, a simple refrain that lingers in the heart.

She scans the battlefield, looking for places to throw down a Grease and the kinds of demon that use enchantment in combat.

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No shortage of those.

The commander takes down the hala but looks blue-lipped by the end of it; he moves on to the next demon, flanking a guy with a spear -

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Contagious Zeal on the commander, Unbreakable Heart, she starts singing her courage song again (she's almost out), interrupts it right away to use Saving Finale on Txell, casts Grease under the demons further ahead, hoping to slow them down...

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She slows them down, so instead of a single wall of demons they have a staggered mass of them that keeps coming as they fall and bleed and expend their spells and somebody on the roof switches to the cheap arrows and the Holy bow even though they miss half the time like that and there are fewer demons, gradually, not monotonically, sometimes one can get a summon off even this close to the Wardstone barrier. The commander swats a schir clear through the shimmering wall and it passes out, ignorable for the moment, and he has to turn his attention to something else - at some point he switches his mace to the other arm, something too badly cut or wrenched in his right to swing at full strength - and there are fewer demons, but fewer soldiers, too, and the bird won't be anywhere near the next fort yet.

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She stays right behind the vanguard, drops another Grease, spends her last second circle slot on a Glitterdust, bangs her shield to her final burst of courage-song, and they're close, but that fucking Hala won't stop harrying them -

she strings a cold iron arrow, whispers a prayer, and hits it through the eye, and it's hurting bad but now she's visible and it's very angry with her,

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She is surrounded by people who REALLY hope she makes it to tomorrow for their own sake if nothing else and one of them gets between her and the hala but he's definitely fighting a lot of impairment to function at this point. A shot from the Holy bow gets the hala in the neck and that helps, though. Doesn't help at all with the demon that was behind Venn and has now realized where she is though. A claw goes right between the links in her armor.

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Augh - it hurts horribly, but she's tough from years of adventuring, and it'll take more than that to bring her down.

She takes a step away from it, fires another cold iron arrow straight into its face, and it strikes true and she feels a rush of triumph before realizing she's now in range of the last schir on the field - 

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The schir can think of nothing it would like better right now than to stab her with its drool-encrusted halberd.

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Venn can think of lots of better things she would like better than being stabbed, but unfortunately her preferences don't seem to be very relevant, here.

The halberd pierces her chain shirt right where the armor was already rent by claws, stabbing deep into her back. She cries out, staggering, barely on her feet.

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The Commander and a nearby fellow mace-bearing guy converge on the schir but the fellow mace-bearing guy then slips on some demon blood and doesn't get up again right away.

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ow the arrow it hurts goes onto ow the bowstring pain pull it back owowow aim carefully hurts release -

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No more schir.

There's a brief quiet, on the battlefield. An arrow sails down from the fort to lodge in a demon that might have been twitching or might not.

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She's out of song and there are so many soldiers on the ground, not moving.

Is there anything she can do - she stumbles over to the man who fell trying to save her from the schir and tries to tend to his wounds, she's not trained in medicine but obviously the basics are "stop people from bleeding", she can try that.

Artigas is right there. "Commander, I know it's a long shot, but if you haven't tried praying to Iomedae yet..."

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("I've got three drops!" calls Grec.)

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"If I haven't what?" says Commander Artigas.

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She supposes the incredulity is rather reasonable, all things considered, but... "It might work, I can explain why I think so but it would take time, people are dying and I'm out of song, I can't do more than hold a wound closed -" she's trying to keep the emotion from leaking too much into her voice, she knows it makes Chelish people uncomfortable, but it's hard.

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She prays to Shelyn. Eternal Rose, please - this man has done Evil and has spent much of his life in the service of Hell, but holding the Worldwound has been the work of his life, regardless of how he got here. You have always taught us that nobody is beyond redemption, that it is worth reaching out - please, help Iomedae see him, hear him,

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Okay fine he feels stupid but that doesn't fucking matter.

The bard thinks he can reach Iomedae and she's right that it's hardly time to explain how in the world she came by that idea. This is not literally metaphysically impossible. He's probably Evil but you can, you are allowed by the laws of Creation, to switch in an instant, if it's the right instant. Going from Good to Evil is simpler but not necessarily faster than the reverse, and he doesn't in fact need to go that far, just to be on the right side of the board, the side with fucking healing, he won't have Stabilize and they'll still lose at least a hundred men here today but even with his two channels a day they can hold it down to that.

He's got a knife on his belt. If it doesn't work he can swipe somebody's sword but he thinks the question here is not about the quality of his sharp object. He unsheathes it and -

Well, how did he do this last time. I will serve.

This does not work instantly but he can go on feeling stupid for a moment longer in case there is a configuration that does. Perhaps Iomedae has higher standards than desperate underslept supplication. Or this just won't work because he's fucking Evil, but -

Asmodeus lost, lost something even if He's not outright dead, and Blai has not been turned white from black and placed on the board on the other side, but he could be, he's standing ready. He has nothing tethering him to the service of Hell any more. He is not attached to lying or whoring or torturing and he has no personal ambition and no pride and no contract granting any devil title to his soul but he is pretty committed to the Wound and She does that too and he can stand on Her side and he will serve -

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"IF YOU'RE UP, GRAB SOMEONE DOWNED BUT BREATHING AND GET IN RADIUS," he shouts. Let them think the bard has another song, it's quicker than explaining. He starts dragging fallen men into closer proximity.

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THANK YOU SHELYN, THANK YOU IOMEDAE

She scrambles to her feet and starts trying to pull someone into range. She's too weak to move a body on her own, but she can help someone else,

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Probably the bard got stronger. Grec drags a dying man by the ankles, joins the group converging on her.

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When the radius is full a couple of moments later he climbs up on a dead demon's carapace so he can see everyone and holds his knife up and channels.

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- she knew Artigas wouldn't have had them drag people together for a channeling if he didn't have them, but there's a world of difference between knowing it and feeling the wave of healing energy close up the worst of her wounds and bring fifty men from the brink of death to their feet. 

...She catches the shock on as many as several faces - the theologically complexities will need navigating, of course - "Praise the Gods!" she shouts, because that's a pretty straightforwardly safe thing to say in this situation.

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Actually from the look on everyone's faces that's not idiomatic in Chelish at all.

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"I have one more! If you're up find someone breathing!"

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Well, no, it wouldn't be, but it's better than Praise Iomedae and - not important right now.

Venn runs to look for survivors, she's no good at carrying them but she can check quickly and call them out to others as she keeps moving, and it's important to be visibly helping.

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Txell can't drag a person by herself either but she can split one with Venn, if they call for a porter on a guy and nobody shows up promptly enough.

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Sure, she'll carry this guy with Txell.

He's still heavy and she's still bleeding - she grunts in pain at her wounds, but doesn't stop. 

(Howwww does Txell seem to be holding together? The last few minutes have been, uh, a lot.)

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Grim-faced but doing her job, which at the moment consists of getting this downed swordsman into the channel radius.

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Part of being good at talking to people is knowing when to not to talk - this is one of those times.

When they get the man into range, they set him down gently, and go to grab another.

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And presently they are healed.

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She breathes a sigh of relief at the number of men who get back on their feet. (It's - still a horrible tragedy, of course, but it could have been so much worse...) 

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Select Artigas allocates the three drops of devil's blood that Grec has.

Everybody starts dragging themselves inside. The bodies are going to have to wait a little bit.

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Venn sings a soft song about victory in the face of defeat, about holding the line for another day, about bravery and grief and loss. It's not one she's sung at Fort #11, before.

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"I thought you were going to pull out another round of healing," Txell says as they head in.

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She nods. "That certainly would have been less surprising, though... a lot less effective, too. My healing just isn't that much, next to a channel." She glances down at the visible gaps in her chain shirt where her now-healed wounds were.

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"It'd stabilize people. ...maybe not enough to get them all indoors and they'd freeze overnight, but maybe enough that the next fort could've used their Sending and not biffed it."

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She nods. "Yeah, it would have been much better than nothing - I do try really hard to save my last bit of song, but I wasn't sure if we were going to survive this at all, without it." 

In a lower voice "...I think it was very brave of him, though. To pray a God, hoping they'd care more about the Worldwound and the people holding it than what Pharasma thinks of them,"

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"Hell, I tried Nethys the other day, but it didn't work."

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She nods. "I tried Shelyn, when the announcement came out, just in case... I am grateful to whichever Gods involved" (Iomedae for sure, possibly maybe also Shelyn, maybe others,) "that Commander Artigas got picked up."

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"With a knife. Does that mean Iomedae or is it Abadar's secret third holy symbol or what."

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Ah, she wasn't sure who all had caught that specific detail. "...knife means Iomedae, I'm pretty sure. Which I think makes sense? She obviously cares a lot about Worldwound defense, right, and there are many legends of people's alignments changing dramatically just in time to save or ruin them..."

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"Not like that. I guess different places censor different shit, maybe you've read a thousand."

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She laughs. "A few dozen, and mostly songs, but that's enough to know it does happen, sometimes? So it's worth trying, in a crisis." 

More quietly, "...as far as I know, almost nobody does the amount of censorship Cheliax does."

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"Well, maybe the new regime'll change it," shrugs Txell, "won't get me more books up here."

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"I certainly hope they will, though I suppose that's what you might expect the bard to say." She grins.

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"I think there's song-sorcerers back home? I dunno that I've ever heard them being particularly fussy about censorship."

This might or might not have been Txell's original bowl of stew from when the alarm bells rang but she's going to Prestidigitate it up warm again and eat it regardless.

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The commander comes in a bit behind everyone else - clerics get some training in non-magical medical assessments that is, whatever the motives, applicable to figuring out how it's safe to move people and who needs to be channeled at most urgently first thing in the morning and who needs a wound cauterized so it won't be infected come dawn. But eventually that's handled and the information passed on to those who need it and the living are all walked inside one way or another.

He had not come to dinner yet when the bells rang, so he doesn't have a previous bowl of stew to reclaim.

He's going to go stand on a table to make an announcement to everyone well enough to chew.

"If it escaped anyone, I am answering now to Iomedae," he says loudly. "Expect changes accordingly."

Ragged shellshocked nodding.

He steps down and gets a bowl.

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He'll find the bard not quite hovering nearby once he's gotten his food, but doing something in the neighborhood. She nods at him. "Commander." (She wants to say congratulations, but she's still trying to gauge whether or not that's actually appropriate, here.)

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"- Miss Urdina. Thank you."

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She smiles. "You're very welcome. Congratulations, both on the channels and the lives saved." 

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"I suppose I will need to write to Lastwall for instructions." He finds a place to sit.

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"I can tell you everything I've picked up from working with them in the meantime, if you'd like?" She'll take a seat nearby. (She's... not particularly hungry; fighting always makes her feel vaguely sick, afterwards.)

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"I've met paladins but they did not tend... chatty. So yes, if you please."

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She's met chatty paladins (and slept with one or two) but they tend to be the exception, and also she imagines that even dear Siena would have precious little to say to the commander of a Chelish Worldwound fort. "I'd be happy to - tomorrow morning after breakfast, perhaps?"

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"I expect to take breakfast an hour after dawn. Probably in my office since I'll have Light again and letters to write, but you may join me."

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Nodnod. "I will see you then!"

She sticks around a bit longer, and then heads back to her room.

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She doesn't sleep very well that night, but that's okay.

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He is up at dawn. He mostly has been, but - not perfectly on the dot, these recent days, and now dawn is back again as a thing in the world that can touch him through the walls.

He spends an hour kneeling in unaccustomed forms of prayer.

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And then he gets himself a Light lit, and calls for a porridge and starts writing.

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Venn wakes up tired and hungry.

She cleans herself off with magic, hides the bags under her eyes, eats her porridge quickly, and heads up to Commander Blai's office. 

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He opens the door to her. "Good morning, Miss Urdina."

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She smiles at him. "Good morning, Select Artigas." 

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He motions her in. "As you may imagine, I do not have a copy of the Acts and have never read it, and don't even know if that's the ordinary place to start teaching would-be priests Iomedaean theology."

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She nods. "I assume you're already writing for a copy of the Acts, and assuming Rowen Sends me I can ask him to mail over Marit's, he wouldn't mind. Do you want to start with what I know, or do you want to hear why I thought this might work, first?"

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"...unless you have something germane to how I ought to conduct myself in the next half-hour I would like to know more about how you came by your guess."

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"Uh, the only thing I can think of is that Iomedaean paladins never lie. I don't know if this is required for Her clerics also, because I've never had an extended conversation with one. I wouldn't be surprised if it did, though."

She sits down. "So... the thing that I told Txell last night, which is true-but-not-complete, is that there are legends of people's alignments jumping instead of changing gradually, when they had a big change of conviction in moments where it mattered most to them, and this seemed like it could have been one. From what she said to me, it sounded like maybe some of those stories are censored in Cheliax? But it does ever happen." She pauses to see if he wants to comment before she continues.

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"I knew that. - both of those things, actually, and have been assuming I am also not allowed to lie now. Clerics get... slightly differently censored versions of some things."

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She nods. "That makes sense. Anyways - the part of it that I didn't share with Txell and don't plan on singing from the tabletops is that I think it's very likely you were Lawful Neutral yesterday morning, and maybe have been for years. Holding the Worldwound has been, as far as I can tell, the thing you've made your life's work, and it's a Good cause, so much so that we commonly see adventurers come to the response garrison entirely self-interestedly, and wealthy nobles donate to the effort for similar reasons. Torture is Evil, even when it's Lawful, but... most of what makes it Evil is the cruelty, I think. And you don't seem like you go in for that at all - you transfer soldiers out when you can't work with them, systemically, and the result is the most functional Chelish Worldwound fort I've ever been at."

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"...if it were common to become Lawful Neutral just for spending one's career at the Worldwound then at some point someone better at archery than I would notice the Holy bow didn't burden them and I have not heard reports of this though I suppose it's possible one might keep it to oneself."

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"...I don't think it's common! But the way you were running fort #11 was extremely uncommon, as far as I can tell, and I think it probably mattered a lot, even if you weren't aiming for alignment when you did it." She shrugs. "I could be wrong."

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"I wasn't aiming for alignment at all. Some people occasionally have a crisis about how they're going to go to Hell and will not enjoy it but I was not really the type."

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Venn nods. "Yeah, that makes sense to me. If you had been aiming for alignment I suspect you would have talked about it very differently, when I asked. I still think it was... unusually non-Evil behavior, for someone in the position you were in." 

She pauses, and then continues in a softer tone. "...for what it's worth, I'm happy you're not going to Hell."

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"I was not expecting to enjoy it," he says agreeably. "I just didn't have crises about it."

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This gets a surprised laugh out of her. "Well, then you won't have any crises about your updated afterlife situation, either." 

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"Not so far, though I might surprise myself. Perhaps I can tolerate a certainty of Hell and it's the unclarity about which paradise I'm bound for that will really alarm me."

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Another surprised bark of laughter. "Outside of Cheliax, there's a type of noble who anxiously commissions an Early Judgment every week, just to be sure. Could be you."

(Venn is delighted. She knew she liked him, but she had no idea he was funny!)

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"From one of the abundant Pharasmins in the area? Though perhaps someone will have luck with that any day now. Anyway. I appreciate very much the prompt to attempt to reach Iomedae, and the loss of life its success prevented."

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Her smile shifts; less playful, more warm. "Thank you for trusting me enough to try it. I know it was pretty surprising."

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"I was taken rather aback but it was a good suggestion and would have been even if it had not worked."

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She nods. But, well, how to put this,,. "...I think it would have been a good idea for a wide variety of people in your position, just in case it did work, but... I wouldn't have suggested it, to most of them." Because they wouldn't have done it, and would have been nasty to her about it, unlike him. 

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"Because... you think I was already Lawful Neutral?"

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She shakes her head. "No, because it was obvious to me that you would consider it, and wouldn't treat me poorly for suggesting it. ...I think the average ex-cleric of Asmodeus would have done the opposite." The treaty does not protect adventurers from as many as several kinds of harassment.

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"...have you talked to many of them? I suppose I wouldn't have been told if tremendous numbers of people were previously renouncing Him and fleeing across the border, but until recently there was not much of a population of us so far as I knew."

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She shakes her head. "I am mostly extrapolating from conversations I've had with them while they were still clericed." She shrugs. "I spend a lot of time talking to people and trying to figure out how they work. ...It's one of my favorite parts of adventuring, really."

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"I'm going to need to take more patrols while you're here, to spread the healing out among the nearby forts. And some after that, but then it will be more excusable to be here most of the time."

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...She really wants to go with him on those. Obviously it'd be a terrible idea, so she can't suggest it, but she wants to. 

(...huh. Why does she want that? Something to unpack later, along with the pang she just felt when he mentioned her leaving.)

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None of those thoughts produce words she can say out loud to Select Artigas. "That makes sense," she says. "When do you think you'll go?"

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"I think I'll write my letters and then accompany them on their first leg east, and tomorrow join a squad going west."

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She nods. "I'd be curious to hear how it goes - I've wondered how those forts are faring." 

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"The report I took with my porridge indicated they have not fallen overnight; what more detail would you care to have?"

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"How people are thinking about what happened. How they feel about what happened. How they're getting by, logistically. How they react when they learn Iomedae picked you up. Stuff like that." 

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"I am not aware of a good way to inquire of any of these people how they feel about what happened."

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She grins and nods. "That one's hard, with Chelish people. I wouldn't get much more than a glimpse, visiting on a patrol - it's a lot of talking to people in a way that gets their guard down a bit and being good at listening, paying attention to what they're not saying..." she shrugs. "I'm curious about a lot of things it's not easy to learn more about." Like you.

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"Well, I can make it known Iomedae picked me up, that will not raise any particular hackles at least about specifically feelings-related overtures because it's operationally relevant, and see what people have to say."

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That's a really touching offer! "I'd really enjoy hearing about that, yeah." 

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"So - what do I most urgently need to know about Iomedaeanism, if you please?"

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"From a practical perspective... Lastwall's forts do not use torture for punishment. They execute for desertion and capital crimes. They take abuses of power (of soldiers over non-combatants, of officers over soldiers, of non-prisoners over prisoners) very seriously - in particular, they forbid and severely punish rape. You'll want to get one of their handbooks for the exact rules, but my understanding is that the idea is that for everyone who's not an officer, the list of rules is simple enough to memorize, and it is enforced without exceptions." 

She tilts her head, frowning. "The results are certainly impressive, but I do think that part of why it works so well is that the forts are full of people who grew up in Lastwall."

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"I'm not sure I can implement 'severely punish' and 'not torture' without knowing what the severe punishment normally is so this switch might have to wait for the handbook. My habit has been that my officers have discretion as long as I don't notice any problems and I myself, uh, play chess with people."

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He was punishing his men with chess???

"...I am extremely curious about how that worked," she says, with obvious delight. "I do agree that it makes sense to wait for guidance and a handbook from Lastwall to set up new rules, as opposed to relying on a bard's memory" even if the bard is very pretty she is not saying that to this man who she has not caught staring at her tits even once.

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"I can at least advise people to - err on the side of caution - should I send away the whores, I don't have a better way to do that than having them march east but I can do that."

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She frowns in thought. "...I'm not sure? Lastwall's forts don't have whores, but the Mendevian one I've been to did, and the commander there was a paladin of Iomedae, too. I wasn't there long enough to get a chance to ask her about it, but I remember her name, if you wanted to write to her." She pauses, then continues in a softer voice. "...It would be kind of horrible, though, to announce that rape will no longer be tolerated here, only to send the most common victims off somewhere where it's still allowed." she thinks about no she doesn't.

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"Well, yes, but it would not be a very good use of fort resources to continue to feed them if I have to discourage the profession, or for that matter if I must not requisition replacement emmenagogues."

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-nod. "I assume based on what I saw at fort #51 that you are not theologically forbidden from having whores here or supplying them with emmenagogues, at least."

Hmmm.... "...How many are stationed here? Could you absorb them into the cooking and custodial staff, if they wanted?"

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"I could do that with a handful but there are nearly thirty."

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Pensive nod. She doesn't really have much more to say there, what were they talking about before this...

Oh. Right. "...It is my understanding that Lastwall forbids rape in all cases, including when the victim is male and when the perpetrator is female. Worth clarifying, if people here won't expect that." She could see it going either way and does not at this moment care to guess.

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"...I think I have excised all the wizards who were in the habit of preparing Charm Person for no strategically justifiable reason but I will bear it in mind."

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"Charm Person can 'convince' someone to do something they'll feel horrified about and violated by afterwards. So can the right kinds of social pressure, applied to a drunk man, or threats made by a commanding officer."

She shakes her head. "It's much less common. But it does happen, even without magic."

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Blai contemplates this for a while, then nods.

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She pauses, thinking, and then smiles again. "...so. Punitive chess?"

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"Oh, ah, I'm not sure exactly how to explain it. I suppose if I don't currently know what I ought to be switching to in its place I can invite you to sit in should it come up in the near future, that probably won't do any injury to the associated tone of the interaction that the Iomedaeanism won't by itself."

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She stops, visibly thinking about it.

(Iomedae chose him! She likes him! ...and yet. There are still a lot of ways "watch me punish someone else using a novel technique that I invented as an Asmodean cleric" could be pretty unpleasant, honestly?)

"Hmmm. Would you be willing to demonstrate now? I could be your prospective punishee."

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"......I'm not sure how that interacts with not being able to lie. You are not in my command structure and also have not done anything wrong."

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For some reason, this makes her giggle!

"Empowered Iomedaeans are allowed to say 'to accomplish some mutually agreed-upon goal, we are both going to pretend that some alternate set of facts are true for a limited duration, though of course either of us can indicate verbally that we are uncomfortable and want to stop pretending at any time'. Scenario roleplay is an important way of teaching!"

(That's not how she knows this, but if he doesn't ask she's not going to clarify~)

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"This came up in a class about - something? Pretending someone was enchanted to drill the process for that or something?"

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...Ah, fuck. 

"Uh. For me, this came up came up when I was having interesting sex with a paladin who I am very sure still had her powers afterwards." She looks and sounds embarrassed but she is not going to lie to him about how she knows facts about his new God. "But it's the same principle, really - we agree beforehand on the set of facts we are mutually pretending are true, and on a set of codewords that we can use to pause or end the interaction immediately."

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"...I... see. That's... elegant."

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She can tell he's flustered, but he's hiding it well enough that she doesn't know how flustered he is.

She smiles apologetically, but doesn't say anything - probably better to just let it slide.

 "Want to give it a try? Our codewords can just be 'pause-now' and 'stop-now' - simple easy to remember." She enunciates pause-now and stop-now both like they're single words, with a firmness in her voice that is not usually present.

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"All right. I still need a notional malfeasance."

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She nods. "Hmmm... Oversleeping on a patrol day? Repeat offense, maybe?"

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"Shall we just make up details as necessary?"

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She nods. "Works for me! We can 'pause-now' as needed to problem-solve if something seems off."  She stretches her arms over her head briefly, and then returns them to neutral. "Ready when you are."

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He settles into a more severe attitude.

"Prestidigitation." A chess board begins taking shape. "This is the third time, Urdina. Why do you think we have a schedule at all? Decoration?"

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oooooooh.

Venn's demeanor and body language shift almost instantly - now she's a meek and contrite soldier, afraid of the wrath of Commander Artigas she's only heard weird and scary rumors about.

"I'm sorry, sir. I - I didn't mean to - "

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"Oh, I believe entirely that your intentions had no connection to the outcome. The trouble is that this is the characteristic of an incompetent, and as this is the third time, specifically an incompetent who is not improving." The pieces finish forming up on either side. Venn has the white ones, but Blai advances a pawn anyway. "Make a move, Urdina."

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Venn winces at his words but the protest dies in her mouth. She looks in confusion at the board. "Sir, I thought white moved first?"

She reaches hesitantly for a pawn.

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"Oh, usually. But white slept in this morning." While she's moving he gets a bishop out.

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She finishes moving her pawn up, and then looks at his bishop and reaches for one of her knights.

(This is great.)

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He intercepts her knight with the bishop. "You see," he says, "we space out the patrols such that it is rare for a demon to have enough time to shake off the stun and flee the area, before someone can arrive and take it out. Perhaps you have come by the impression," he gets another pawn pulled forward, and then one of his knights, "that a few minutes here and there, a missed patrol now and then, do not much matter? After all, you so seldom come by a stunned demon."

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"No, sir, I know the patrols are important, sir," Her meek persona is too stunned to make another move, at the moment.

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"Make a move, Urdina. Or if you'd rather, you can tip over your king to resign, but then I will simply set up again. Until your lackluster performance gets you devoured by a nabasu, you are here and must take some action."

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She swallows miserably. "Y-yes, sir."

She starts playing chess as fast as she can. She is not good at chess even when she has time to think and with a handicap - Blai rapidly checkmates her.

(...oh no. This is hot. Why is this hot!? She's not usually into humiliation!)

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He sets up again, and again White oversleeps, and he takes pieces mercilessly. "You see, the demons can see. They can hide out, invisible or otherwise concealed, within the barrier where we are not venturing, and watch. And they can find holes. And they can notice patterns, just like I can notice that you keep exposing this rook," he takes it. "So of course you seldom find a stunned demon. You only find the stupid ones flinging themselves across the ward at a random time and place, hoping that by random chance you happen to be on the next squad due. The smart ones?" He checkmates her again. "Figure out when you are assigned, and know that this gives them extra moments, and choose that time, and perhaps one day they are already awake when you arrive, and they keep you alive long enough to see if the next patrol finds your screaming to be a useful hit to morale." He checkmates her again, crushes her king to powder, and sprinkles it like snow over the rest of her remaining pawns. "But you don't have to be smart, Urdina. I can work with a moron. If the moron follows orders and reports for her assignments."

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"Y-yes, sir. I understand, sir." She's trying not to radiate misery with her body language, because presumably she's a Chelish soldier in this situation and they don't do that. (unfortunately she is finding this unexpectedly very hot and that is making it hard to not play her character the way she would if this were a different kind of roleplaying experience...)

Her lip quivers. Her eyes are downcast. Her shoulders hunch forward, accentuating her chest.

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"You are to report to your CO that he's authorized by any means necessary to get you out of bed as early as two hours before your patrols begin if it doesn't happen to be convenient to him to duck in with any less margin than that. You are to be in bed unoccupied and silent no less than ten hours before your patrols begin, to accommodate this. And I am never to hear of any patrol of yours embarking late again, even if it's not your fault, because you are going to be up very early and have plenty of time to help your squadmates into their armor and make sure none of them are trying to get eaten by a nabasu. Do you understand me?"

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Her face falls in dismay, but she nods. "Sir! I understand, sir." She pulls herself back together enough to give a hesitant salute.

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"Dismissed."

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"- so, it's basically like that."

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And suddenly she's the song-sorceress he's familiar with again, smiling broadly. "Wow. You're very good at that." She suppresses a shiver.

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"It doesn't work on everyone."

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She nods. "That makes sense, yeah." People are wildly differently susceptible to - buying into framing devices like that for harsh lectures, even in places where Actual Literal Torture isn't a common punishment. "I assume you would do - different variants, based on the infraction?"

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"Yes, I first had the idea when the infraction was 'drunk on duty' and it was material that he was not, at the time, sober yet."

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She laughs. "Well, I dare say you've advanced the art form well beyond what I would have thought was possible." She suppresses - she fails to fully suppress a happy full-body wiggle, which is. Hrm!

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"...thank you."

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Ah, fuck, that was weird of her, wasn't it. "...Ah, sorry. I think I'm still a bit off-kilter from yesterday." Among other things.

"If that's all, I should probably go" have a long hard think about her life choices "and prep a Sending response with a situation update for Rowen, if he ends up having a spare casting this evening."

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"To ask for the books? Thank you."

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"Of course! Happy to help." And she gives him a Lastwallian salute.

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He mimics it.

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She smiles and nods, then leaves his office, humming happily.


 

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Once she's back in her room, she changes into something comfier, lies down on her bed, and looks up the ceiling, one hand absentmindedly strumming her lyre.

So. She has a crush on Select Artigas. This wasn't obvious to her until the chess roleplay, 

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at which point it became EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLY OBVIOUS. What the fuck. Why is she getting horny just thinking about it. Probably because it's been a while. Ugh. Okay. Well.

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...okay. Let's try that again.

 

She has a crush on Select Artigas. This is... vaguely unprofessional (Her internal Rowen disapproves. She sticks her tongue out at him.) But they're not in the same chain of command, as he just observed, and she doesn't actually think it's the kind of thing she actually shouldn't act on, if she wants to.

Does she want to? 

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Well. a big complication there is that she has no idea if he's interested.

He still hasn't ever checked her out... which means, she's not his type or he just doesn't do that ever... That one seems plausible; Venn's read is that he keeps a lot of himself tucked away ("of course he does", her inner Amira says, "he grew up in Cheliax", which. Yeah).

Okay. What does she want? 

She wants to get to know him better. She wants him to get to know her better. She doesn't want to leave this fort in a week and go back to being the garrison's standby bard. And she wants to watch (and help with!) the upcoming transitionary period at fort #11. she wants to do more roleplay she rolls her eyes, but, no, yeah, she does...

...she won't get to do most of those if she leaves next week.

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Rowen will probably check in today. She'll compose a Sending response for him when that happens, and then head out into the dining hall to talk to people, Prestidigitate food, and figure out what she should do with herself while Select Artigas is out on patrol.

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She could attend and/or host more classes! That plus various games are how people here amuse themselves during the downtime.

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Sure, she'll attend classes. (She should host one on Iomedae, but she's tempted to wait until she hears from Rowen and knows if they're getting a copy of Acts any time soon.)

What's the fort gossip like?

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The attitude is more confused but also more optimistic now that they have a cleric again, and not just a cleric, some first-circle negative-channeling Nethysian or whatever, but a third-circle Iomedaean. They are however nervous about what the "expect changes accordingly" thing is supposed to mean for them.

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Venn will attempt to strategically get the word out about some things she's very sure about Iomedaeans, both things she expects will be positive updates ("no using torture for punishment / just because superiors feel like it") and things she expects will be big culture shocks ("no rape, seriously no rape, yes this includes the whores", "they do execute people for some crimes you might use torture for").

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Reactions are... mixed. Some midranking officers do not really know else to make idiots listen, a lot of people assume this just means you have to pay the whores instead of assigning yourself free extras, some people are alarmed that the commander being Iomedaean has somehow made them more and not less likely to wind up in Hell over a fuckup.

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Iomedaean forts have the least discipline problems of any fort she's ever been despite being staffed mostly by Normal People, so she's sure that they have effective systems for keeping people in line, she's just not sure on the details there.

You do absolutely have to pay the whores, yes, and also make sure that the money in exchange for the sex is a thing they want

That is an extremely valid thing to be alarmed about! She is going to be sympathetic and do her best to offer advice without platitudes. (They should definitely take some time to, in these new circumstances, think long and hard about whether or not they regret the evils they've done in their lives and want to commit to themselves to do better in the future, that matters sometimes!)

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...they're whores, the point of them is that they exchange sex for money. If they stop doing it that's like, desertion except for whores.

A surprising number of people think they have no real rap sheet and just should expect to go to Hell because you have to be some ridiculous exhausting amount saintly to get anywhere north of that. Some of them were quietly hoping to get sent home from the wound and farm a lot since Erastil likes that in case it helped.

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She makes an argument by analogy about how soldiers are not expected to go fight demons 24/7.

Yeah no she is very sure that this is a thing that Infernal Cheliax lied to them about. Every non-Chelish cleric she's talked to (and she's talked to a lot of clerics) about this says that alignment distribution is basically equal among most human nations - you don't have to be a saint to avoid an Evil afterlife.

Erastil does like farming, yes.

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Only the whores who are on shift, duh.

Equal among most human nations? Does that mean that even in like, Lastwall or whatever, people are going to Hell? That's more disheartening, not less.

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...she does not have a comprehensive account of how whoring work in the Mendevian forts, she's only been to one once. Lastwall's forts do not have whorehouses and punish rape very severely. 

No, places strongly affiliated with one God lean in that God's direction. She's pretty sure almost nobody in Lastwall goes to hell? Places like Taldor are where you see basically equal splits, she thinks.

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What are the Taldans doing that get them sent to Hell?

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She's not sure, she's never been, but probably - 

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And then her body language changes all at once, and she holds up a hand and closes her eyes.

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Mango Skyscape. Northern forts hit hard by major demonic assault, doing damage control along the line. Status of #11? Are you ok there?

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Crustacean. Stable; assault repelled, eighty dead. need sending scroll. Artigas now Iomedaean cleric, wants Acts, handbook. Want to stay through transitional period - will take patrols.

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He puts his head in his hands. What. What. How.

    Marit puts a hand on his shoulder, misreading his body language. "How bad is it? Is she alive?"

He sighs. "Oh, no, Urdina seems fine and fort #11 is doing much better than expected! Because Commander Artigas is now a cleric of Iomedae."

 

 

 

 

    "...may Hell be denied another soldier," Marit says solemnly, and then continues, in a higher-pitched voice, "but also. What? Was that man not, less than a week ago, Asmodeus's cleric?"

"He was, yes. I can only presume Urdina had something to do with this, especially because she wants to stay there longer, but I cannot for the life of me imagine what."

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"Holy shit. Is she actually fucking him? I was joking - hey Stef, do bards have magical sex powers?"

Stef flips her off. She cackles.

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Why is his life like this. "Demonscourge, cut it out," he says mostly on autopilot. (She glares at him. He ignore this.)

"Marit, I need to borrow your copy of the Acts of Iomedae and also the Lastwall handbook, Select Artigas wants a copy of both and I have the time to Scriveners one out before we make our reinforcement decision tonight." Marit nods and stands up to go grab them. "If you can bring me some paper too, that'd be great." Thumbs-up.

He sighs again. "I need to think for a bit before I reply to Urdina, but given how bad things are along that stretch of the Wound, I suspect having her and Artigas stationed at #11 in the medium term and providing healing to neighboring forts regularly could save a lot of lives, so we might be down our backup song-sorceress for a while." Which is a shame - he'll miss having her around. In addition to how valuable song-sorcery is, she's just very good to have around for morale, even with the prickly types like Demonscourge.

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Select Artigas is out on patrol to provide channels to #15, so she can't report the Sending right away. This turns out to be good, because in a few hours she gets a Sending telling her to report to #8 (which is in the other direction) tomorrow night to pick up some supplies, copies of the books and confirm what her responsibilities are going to be. (She replies with an acknowledgement and a request for some of her stuff to be brought along.) She finds a time to tell Select Artigas this, once he gets back.

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"Please convey my appreciation for the books. - and whatever they're worth in money, I can pay for them."

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She nods. "I suspect these are going to be scrivened copies, so it's the cost of the paper plus however you want to value Rowen's time."

...does he want to play chess and tell her about how #15 is doing?

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"Well, I only have to have fun once a month, but one can never be too sure when one is about to have a very eventful few weeks back to back."

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(He's! Funny!!) She nods happily. "Exactly! It's very important to leave yourself some wiggle room." (She wiggles.)

She helps him prestidigitate a set of pieces. "So what was it like over there?"

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"As it ever is but without the clerics. I've been before, I don't accompany a patrol on a daily basis but I take one every couple of weeks to stay in practice. They were... glad of the healing, for all that they're suspicious of Good gods in general."

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She nods, developing a bishop. (She seems like she's getting better at openings, at least a bit.)

"I would love to hear your summary of the Chelish suspicion of the Good gods."

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"Well, it's just that it's very conspicuous that their people hate us, whenever we cross paths, or else they radiate pity, and this impedes - more sophisticated contemplation about why that might be and what it means. It doesn't look very different from one's classmate or neighbor glaring daggers, or - there isn't a lot of pity to be had in Cheliax but that doesn't make it hard to recognize or particularly palatable."

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She nods thoughtfully. "Yeah, pity is... really hard to not come off as condescending, I think, unless it's someone you know well? I try and avoid expressing it in most circumstances." Knight move. "...Another thing that often trips us up is the difference in expressiveness. It took me a while to pick up on and adjust for."

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"You remain notably exuberant in the local context," he says, castling.

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She shrugs. "I do it less in the mess hall, but it hasn't seemed like it bothers you. And..." She also castles. "I am enjoying myself, here. It's - I know there's a lot of misery that I could find if I looked closer, but... Hell exists, there's always more misery you can find if you go looking. Doesn't mean it's right to make yourself miserable about it, too. Just means you should help, if you can." 

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"At any rate, while I have met paladins before and spoken to them enough to know things like the once a month fun requirement and the no lying protocol, my principal exposure to non-Asmodean religious practice is the insurance adjuster, Fiducia Boian, who comes around about once a year and has never related to me in that way."

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She nods. "You are definitely the type to get along with Abadarans! ...I was mildly surprised He didn't cleric you last week, honestly, though now I'm glad he didn't."

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"Oh, I would make a terrible Abadaran. I appreciate them but I am not one. I do not have the correct - virtuous acquisitiveness."

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She tilts her head thoughtfully, considering. "Huh, yeah, I can see that. I really appreciate His church, as an organization, and the kinds of people who are happy there are neat. It's such a straightforward and digestible worldview."

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"They're very predictable after you listen to one for a few hours - are there any at your usual fort or have you encountered them some other way?"

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"We have one full-time at the Garrison, but I'd talked to them in Absalom, growing up, and yeah. When I find a new one I sometimes like to ask them what their least orthodox economic opinions are - usually it's things I can't follow very well or care that much about, but it's almost always interesting, and sometimes they explain it well enough that I learn something new."

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"Oh, that's a good question, what sorts of - check - sorts of opinions have you gotten out of them that way?"

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She grins. "'People should be able to bid on becoming the next king or queen'. 'Abadar should sell cleric circles'. 'Minting new coins is theft from owners of existing coins'. 'Whorehouses should be taxed to help fund orphanages'. 'We should just tax bandits relative to their claimed area and then leave them alone'. 'The Church of Abadar should use an internal currency backed by dormant dragon eggs'. 'It is wrong to sell things for much less than they are worth'. 'Dragons hoarding gold helps keep the value of gold from dropping, which is good'. 'Dragons hoarding gold helps keep the value of gold from dropping, which is bad'. I want so badly to put those last two in the same room but they're both first-circles employed in cities a thousand miles apart, so it's probably never happening..." She moves a pawn forward to block the check.

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"You could encourage them to write letters to each other, it'd be time-consuming but it could get them a few exchanges deep into the argument."

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hey no fair I'm already crushing on you stop making me want to kiss you "Oh, I really should! ...Mail from here will take a while to get all the way down to Almas, but it'll get to Nerosyan sooner... I'll write them both just in case." She's grinning from ear to ear.

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"And you need to keep copies, so you can send off replacements if one is lost - do you get Scrivener's? -"

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"Yep! It's very popular among song-sorcerers." Keeping copies is a good idea she would not have thought of!  ...so is the move he just made - she's forced to trade a rook for a pawn! She frowns at the board. 

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"I'm not much for card games so have tended to spend my downtime on correspondence and it comes up a lot, Worldwound mail is not reliable. It's a lot of hands it has to pass through and very little way to follow up on who exactly must have lost a letter."

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She nods thoughtfully, wondering if it's the card games or the company. "What kinds of correspondence? If you don't mind my asking." Also can she capture that bishop pretty please? She brought both knights to the party.

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She can if she wants to lose one knight and then have to either lose the other one or be open to a check. "Some about magic - seminary doesn't cover all the higher-than-first-circle spells, most people never get them - and more about the nature of Law."

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She does not want this, but only notices the problem after she lost the first one! (Sorry, knights.) "The nature of Law?" 

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"Do Good people not talk about the nature of Good all the time, I sort of assumed they did and that it was similar apart from the details."

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She shrugs. "Some Good people do, definitely. It's... not a topic I tend to seek out actively; it comes up enough on its own." And as conversations go they're usually trite, sometimes off-puttingly self-congratulatory, occasionally extremely distressing, and only rarely actually interesting, to her.

"I think find both Law and Chaos more conceptually interesting than Good, if I'm being honest?"

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"I suppose that makes sense. Well. Most people aren't all that interested in it but occasionally there's someone else curious about figuring out what Law demands in more detail than not accidentally winding up in the Abyss and we - set each other puzzles and try to answer them and explain what our intuitions might mean in a more generalizable form."

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Law puzzles... "Can I hear one?"

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"Oh, things like - suppose your unit is under orders to investigate reports of quasits in the woods but not to engage. You believe it to be the case, based on the reports, but were not given contingencies about it being the case, that this is because the quasits may be able to do some horrible blood ritual if they collect a casualty, and fail to clarify, perhaps because the orders came by Sending and no followup was possible. If the quasits ambush you and kill your squad leader, and you cannot get out with his corpse while harried by quasits, do you flee to avoid engaging, or fight them to make an effort to prevent them from having access to the body?"

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She tilts her head, thinking. "I would say fight, if it's not a hopeless one, because at that point engagement has already happened and fleeing gives them the casualty you suspect them of needing... but I'm sure I'm missing some of the considerations."

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"Generally most of the conversation is about which considerations one would find most decisive in either direction, yes, and what policies arranged in advance would eliminate the need to solve this class of puzzle on the fly."

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She nods. "I wonder if anyone makes Chaos puzzles! ...though admittedly I have no idea what that would even look like."

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"I'm not sure it's the sort of thing that admits of puzzling. Evil doesn't really, either."

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She shrugs. "I got to meet a travelling Kofusachan, the year before I left Absalom, while I was singing at a bar in Tiantown. She said that to her, Chaos was about - trusting in herself as a process, trusting all the possible people she might become to make the best choices without being weighed down by rules and conditions she shackled them with. How did she put it..." 

Her voice drops in pitch and slows down a bit, presumably imitating the woman in question. "Law is stable, and it is good for institutions to be stable, so that the people who must interface with them know what to expect. And of course there are many who find comfort and meaning in trying to make themselves be stable in the same way. But I know that I will be wiser, kinder, and better informed in a year than I am today, and so I have no need for stability and no desire to place unnecessary constraints on any of the people I might someday become."

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"Not everyone becomes wiser, kinder, and better informed over the course of a given year, and some people she might find herself trying to cooperate with might need something more specific than - I should probably not be trying to convince a Chaotic Good person who is not even here and who, if here, would be spending divine budgets I can't expect to wield on the cause of Good. I'm assuming this person is Good, I haven't actually heard of the Kofusachans."

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She smiles at the aborted rebuttal. "I'd be a bit surprised if you had! I hadn't either, until I met her. Kofusachi is mostly worshipped by the people of Tian; He's the Chaotic Good God of prosperity, happiness, and travel."

She switches voices back to the Kofusachan's and adds: "the road ahead should lead to your happiness, and the road behind should be more abundant for your passage."

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"Should it. Does this come with instructions of any kind or would that be insufficiently Chaotic."

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She laughs. "I think those are the instructions? Move towards what makes you happy, and do your best to leave the peoples and places you pass through better for your passage. There's common practices - Kofusachans are encouraged to support local businesses and help people find joy in their day-to-day lives - but my understanding is that it's intentionally open-ended." 

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"Well, it's not really news to me that I'm temperamentally Lawful."

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She giggles playfully. "It's not news to anyone at #11, Select." 

Her face softens a bit. "It very much isn't a philosophy for everyone, but... it was really good for me, to hear it when I did. If I hadn't met her, I don't think I would have left Absalom, and my life would have been much poorer for it." 

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"We are certainly glad to have had you here, though I don't know if it was at any point in the process a plausible happiness-maximizing destination."

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"Well, I'm only a dabbler, in both Kofusachanism and Chaos. Ultimately, I'm here because it seemed like somewhere I could help a little bit with the big problem and help a lot more with the small problems that get neglected in the face of something so vast and terrible, and because I wanted to meet and make friends with the kinds of people who end up here. And I think it's been working out pretty well, on all counts."

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"I think you may be the first person to spend any time here with a professed goal of making friends. Does one not, if nothing else, eventually run out of capacity for more, I suppose I wouldn't know."

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A flash of sorrow passes briefly across her face. "I suppose if everyone I've befriended was in one place there would be no way for me to keep up with them all. But... I haven't really stayed in one place for long enough for it to come up, since my journey began. I write letters to those dearest to me, and try to stick around long enough for their replies to make it back, or let them know in the letter where I'm heading next." 

It's hard, when she pours her heart onto paper and doesn't get a reply (or worse, a few short sentences from someone with just enough info to let her know they didn't really read her letter - when there's no reply, she can at least tell herself that the mail wasn't delivered). Sometimes there's weeks or even months where she can't bring herself to pick up a quill. But the letters she keeps stashed in her haversack are among her most prized possessions, and she always comes back to it. 

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"And if you're not talking about the nature of various alignments all the time what does come up in a correspondence like that?"

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...she can't actually tell if he's joking, which is in its own way very delightful. The man's sense of humor would be at home in Osirion summers. 

"I fill my letters with a summary of notable or interesting things in my life since the last time I wrote to them, small things that reminded me of them, answers to questions they may have sent in their last message, and questions about what's going on in their lives. If it's a friend who won't mind the additional steps, I'll also include some questions and tidbits for our mutual friends that I'm less close to, since it's easier to write one letter than several. And often I'll put in a promissory note for a few silver, for my friends who have trouble making ends meet; it'll cover postage back and a few meals for their families." She smiles.

"What I get back depends a lot on the person. Sometimes it's their version of what I send, sometimes it's excited updates about their personal projects, sometimes them talking about the hard events in their lives that they want my advice on or just want someone who cares about them to have heard." And sometimes it's plesentaries that tell her they've moved on, and want her to also.

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"Huh. How many of these are you sending in a typical month?"

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She tilts her head to think about it. "Seven or eight?" (months when she's too focused on New Place / People to avoid letting some of the letters pile up are not typical, and neither are the catching-up months after.) "I have a few I want to write later this evening, actually." (would she have remembered this if they hadn't had this conversation? Who Can Say.)

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"Ah, don't let me keep you."

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"Oh, I won't get any writing done until after my healing shift in an hour or so, it's easier for me when I have longer stretches of time. But I can get out of your hair now if you have other duties to attend to." She'd rather not - she's Not Obviously Losing this chess game, which is neat, and she's really enjoying the conversation because she has caught feelings for him, but she doesn't want to wear him out. Befriending and bedding introverts is an act of balancing.

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"Not unless someone comes in with a report I don't. I need to be in the habit of turning more over to Grec if I'm going to be doing a patrol on a daily basis now."

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She nods. "Oh, that reminds me - I'll need to confirm it with Rowen tomorrow, but I expect to get his approval to take patrols to neighboring forts for healing purposes, if that changes any of the logistical work you need to do." It won't really make sense for them to go out on patrol together, unfortunately, but she's still looking forward to it for a lot of reasons.

...Check? 

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He gets out of check. "That would simplify things and let us cover greater distances - or just me, if you don't want to spend a sleep shift at a different fort, though they'll all accommodate you -"

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"...I would want to visit a fort a few times before deciding whether I feel comfortable bunking there. I know Chelish forts usually are among the best on the line about respecting the Worldwound treaty, but these are... stressful times." She looks uneasy, and also somewhat embarrassed about being uneasy about this. (She's still not thinking about it.)

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"They are. I cannot expect that they'd try to keep you by force but they might imply something, or... give some creative excuse."

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...Venn tenses up a bit and doesn't immediately respond. (This is staggeringly unprofessional. "He's going to think you're a child"she imagines Demonscourge saying, which is really unhelpful, actually,)

She nods in acknowledgement while she tries to think of something to say that isn't stupid. 

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"... under the present resource situation it's not even a stretch to offer you your pick of #11's squads to escort you even on non-overnight excursions, if you've identified one you'd favor for the purpose."

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She relaxes, nodding gratefully. "Thank you, Commander, I really appreciate that. Scheduling permitting, I'd like to go with Txell's squad to #8 tomorrow?" She actively likes Txell and is neutral-to-positive about all of her people.

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"Guiu?"

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-right, yeah, there's a few of them.

She nods.

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"You can have them." He writes a note to this effect.

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"Thanks!" And they can finish up their chess game and she'll head out for dinner.

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Txell gets the news when her squad comes in from their patrol and Venn's still eating; she plops down next to her. "O bluest of escort missions, I hear we're coming with you."

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She laughs. "Yep! Tomorrow afternoon. Wanna go over spells/group strategy at some point?" 

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"Yeah, how do you handle in a fight, I was a bit distracted when it came up last."

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"I have the standard song-sorcery music that makes people less afraid and better at hitting things, a mix of disruptive and support magic at second circle. Glitterdust, Unbreakable Heart, and I have a short duration Heroism variant that goes on one person and then spreads to someone else every moment. And I'm decent with a bow, though the one I carry is nothing special if the fort has a nicer one I can borrow." 

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"You could probably use the Holy bow without it being a huge asspain for you. Usually it doesn't leave the fort, but if we've got a Good archer..."

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"I can definitely use a holy bow, if the fort is fine sparing it. I can leave my slightly magical one here, it's not picky." 

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"We have it for the demons that don't give a shit if an arrow's cold iron. I'll see if the roof guys'll part with it."

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She shrugs. "No worries if not! I'll do fine without it. Anything I should know about working with you and your squad?" 

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"Yup -" Venn wants all their names, presumably, and what tactics they reach for when something's going down, and that this one's dim as a rock and that one's strong but can't take a hit so good -

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She nods and asks the occasional question about marching order and such.

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This guy takes point and Txell's going to stick Venn third from the back.

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Eventually they finish and she switches to socializing! Any good gossip? 

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Someone has put about that Venn is half blue dragon; this would explain the sorcery and the color scheme. The ox parchment turns out to work for scrolls if you get a particularly nice square of it. Someone's rumored to have frostbitten the tip of his prick stopping to piss in the middle of a patrol, saved only by one of the channels occurring before anything could fall off, but that's probably not true because you need it to be colder than this for frostbite to set in that fast.

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She has a fit of laughter at the half-dragon rumor ("quarter, actually, on my father's side," she says when she's calmed down, voice and face making it clear she's joking). She's happy for the ox parchment guy! 

(The dick frostbite rumor is in some ways reassuring because it's the kind of stupid shit people spread to blow off steam when they're trying to get back to normal - hearing none of that kind of rumor usually means people are really stressed.)

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When she finishes eating with Txell and her squad, she excuses herself to go write letters, which occupies her for the rest of the evening.

(It's... abstractly painful, which is why she doesn't usually do it when she's in this kind of mental state. You could write a sad mope song about this! she thinks to herself, vaguely mockingly.)

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The squad is ready perfectly professionally on time to head out with Venn in tow, third from the back.

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She's ready too - A Venn is not, by nature, a punctual creature, but this is the kind of problem that can be reliably overcome with a policy of "No, actually, you have to get ready an hour early every time. Then you can chat at the ready spot.".

(Scan, scan, scan the horizon for demons...)

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Scan the snow for footprints, more like. That is, both, but they see footprints first.

"Okay, now we have to do the entire fucking thing or we're going in the stew," grouses Txell. They have an entire process for seeing how far the footprints go and making sure that their own footprints look human so the next patrol can tell that they have done this correctly. She can talk Venn through it as they march on their detour.

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Surprisingly for those who've only encountered her in the dining hall, Venn on patrol doesn't start conversations (though she'll continue them happily, of course), and is leaking much less with her facial expressions. She's an attentive listener and repeats the key parts of the protocol back to Txell at the end, just to confirm.

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"Yup, and -"

And there's a fucking demon.

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Action time!

The enemy is enough away that she's to apply buffs before attempting disruption, so she tags the agreed-upon fighter with Contagious Zeal - he already knows the order to apply it to the rest of them.

She slaps her buckler and starts up her song-sorcery, courage filling the hearts of her allies.

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The squad has done this before. Not with specifically a babau, or on the other hand specifically a bard, but they've been to demonology classes and they have the briefing on how the bard works, and they're going to do the entire fucking thing or end up in the stew.

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She gets a Grease down under it, and when it slips and falls she knows they've got this. She starts stringing an arrow.

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The squad makes her a clear path insofar as this does not interfere with also hitting the demon with their maces.

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She only ends up firing the one arrow into it, when all is said and done - they actually manage to bring it down before it successfully lands a hit on any of the soldiers, which Venn is delighted to see.

She's grinning as she lets the magic finish fading from her song - she's down a tiny bit of song-sorcery and a first circle and second circle spell, but there's plenty more where all of those came from.

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Txell catches her breath. "Now we have to - hustle a bit so we can report in about that."

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A shame she never managed to get down the trick of Stef's song for a forced march. (He's barely got more spells than her despite having two circles on her; instead has so much flexibility for song-sorcery. Venn suspects it has something to do with the thing where he can play so many different instruments?)

She'll hustle along with the rest!

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And they can wind up at their destination and it's Txell's job to report so Venn doesn't have to - at least to the Chelish folks, Venn has her own rendezvous.

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Rowen is already there. She goes to report. 

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He's in a small, temporarily unoccupied room, writing something down on paper while he waits. He looks her over as she enters.

"Urdina. Glad you made it here safely." He sighs. "Are you sure you want to stay with #11? I haven't finalized the paperwork for the loan, yet."

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 She grins at him. "It's nice to see you too, sir. And yes, I'm sure. Not forever, obviously, but... at least a month or two longer? It's very different from the kind of work we usually do, but... I really feel like I'm making a difference, and it's a fascinating change of pace."

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His initial impression was that it's a horrible waste of her talent, but #11 has in fact been doing much better than its neighbors and he doesn't really know how much of that was Urdina and how much of it was Artigas. He will definitely miss having her talents around, but... managing non-lawful adventurers requires a light touch. 

He nods. "How you slot yourself into their patrol schedule is up to you and Artigas, as long as you're available to do at least one a day. You are not, by the loan agreement, obligated to provide any specific kinds of aid, but - please do your best to get healing out to the nearby forts. They're really struggling out here. Marit used all three of his leftover channels from our earlier engagement, and they've still got some wounded." And a lot of corpses. Marit is out helping them dig graves.

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She nods. "I understand, sir."  She'll sing for them after this. "Were you able to get the books?" 

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Rowen hands her a bag. "And your things from the garrison and the paper you requested, yes." She takes it from him, still smiling that serene smile of hers that he knows means she knows what he's thinking and is waiting for him to ask. 

He gives her a Look. "Ok. I give up. What happened with Artigas." 

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She lets herself laugh. "Ah, an excellent question, sir!" 

More seriously, she continues: "So - from a factual perspective, what happened is I arranged to spend some time with him, initially with the intention of following up on my attempts to figure out why #11 is... different from the other forts I've been at, and during that time concluded there was a decent chance he was Lawful Neutral? And then - when the assault finished, I was totally out of song, and there were so many wounded, and so... I convinced him to try praying to Iomedae, and She chose him."

She smiles, a bit self-consciously. "I'm sure Demonscourge has been coming up with creative explanations for what happened, but I really don't think I did anything beyond... asking him to try." 

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He thinks about this for a while before answering. "Well. I suppose it doesn't take much time being stationed at the Worldwound to notice that keeping it contained is the rare thing that Asmodeus and Iomedae agree is important, even important enough to work together on. I just... would not have thought it was possible to be Lawful Neutral while commanding a Chelish Worldwound fort."

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She nods. "It was surprising to me as well! He's an interesting guy. ...As far as I can tell, holding the Worldwound line is... the main thing he's cared about for a long time. And he was taking steps to avoid torturing his men." 

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Huh. 

...he raises an eyebrow at her. "Urdina."

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Ugh she should not let her guard down around Rowen

 She looks away. "It's not like that, sir." And even if it was, it wouldn't be any of your business!

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He holds up his hands placatingly. "I'm not going to tell you what to do when you're off-duty." Because you wouldn't listen. "Just... be careful." He knows she knows all the reasons why it'd be a bad idea to get involved with the man, Iomedae's endorsement or no. (They've both heard the horror stories of the Mendevian inquisition in Kenabres.)

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She nods. "I will, sir."

...and then she gives him a quick hug, which is unprofessional but she doesn't really care, at the moment. "I miss working with you, out there. Take care, okay?"

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(The hug surprises him, but only for a moment. It's not like it's news to him that Urdina is sappy. He returns it, somewhat stiffly.) 

"Good luck, Urdina." He misses working with her too, actually. He doesn't say it - he's pretty sure she knows it anyways.

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She says goodbye, grabs the bag, and goes to coordinate healing for the remaining wounded of this fort.

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And when they've done that and had stew plus ten minutes of waiting around so the patrols are staggered correctly they can turn right around and go back, rather than make Venn stay the night here.

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It's a fair bit of walking in one day, but she's got good cold-weather gear.

Any demons want to mess with them?

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Not this time! They usually don't!

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Well, you never know.

When they get back, she will check to see if Select Artigas is available.

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He can be in about fifteen minutes!

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She'll hang around in the mess hall for ten, then, and sing only slightly exaggerated tales of the epic battle of Txell's squad vs a pair of Babaus.

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(Txell bows.)

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And then the commander's out of his meeting.

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She's got papers for him! She starts by giving him a copy of her formal transfer agreement. (She and Rowen have both signed it already. He doesn't need to do anything with it, but given how he is about Law, she thinks he'll want it.)

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He puts it in his to-be-copied tray. "Thank you very much."

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She smiles at him. "Of course!" 

Then she reaches into her bag and pulls out two obviously wizard-scribed stacks of paper, one much shorter than the other. "The Acts and the Lastwall handbook. ...I can make a few copies for you this evening, if you'd like."

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"I think I want the handbook copied by my wizards, as a first-pass way to introduce its contents - unless it surprises me very greatly - but I'd appreciate that about the Acts, which I will be expecting somewhat fewer people to read." He finds a book's worth of paper for her.

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Cool! Does he mind if she just scribes it here? That way he can read the pages as she finishes copying them.

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"That sounds like it'd work well." He clears desk space for her.

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She sits down, smiles at him, and casts the spell. The quill merrily dances across the page.  

(Scrivener's chant takes concentration, but not so much so that she can't glance at him while he reads, or chat with him about what he's reading, if he wants.)

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He's reading the handbook like he's one-in-a-million among Chelish people for latent Iomedaeanism.

 

"So, if I adopt this I'm going to have to execute people for rape, which I'm lawfully entitled to implement if I wish but which will predictably have the consequence of me executing some people, and perhaps that's what it would take to have anyone take this seriously but it would at least have less fallout if I dismissed the camp followers. This does not, as you suggested, really help those camp followers, but it'd reduce the incidence occurring under this regime to only those men who go for the cooks or something, so the Wound as a whole would be bleeding less manpower and fewer people would go to Hell so soon after the regime change."

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She's quiet for a minute, obviously thinking about it.

"Could you castrate for rape, instead of executing?" she says eventually. "I vaguely remember hearing about one of the smaller River Kingdoms doing that at least in some cases, and I do think people would take it seriously..." 

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"I do need to be able to use these men as soldiers afterwards. - also it generalizes not at all to the obscure form you mentioned, which I don't expect to see in practice but would rather not be fully blindsided by."

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She looks confused at the first part. "...I don't think it impacts fighting ability? ...but yeah, I don't know of a symmetrical punishment." She sighs. "Maybe you could offer men their choice of castration or execution?" 

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"I don't know anyone who has tried this so I can't ask but I would really expect it to affect fighting ability? For the same reason there are more men who make for good soldiers than women who do. It wouldn't surprise me too much to hear of a single individual eunuch who was good with a weapon. It might be worth someone doing the experiment but we're having enough of a wobble in the supply reliability with so many of the wizards disappearing already that I should not be spending rations on experiments."

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It really does all come back to holding the Wound, for him. She couldn't live like that, and sometimes it chafes against things she cares about, but - she really does respect it. As a thing to devote your life to, it's hard to imagine a better one. 

She nods, and tries not to think too hard about the camp followers, and the soldiers who'll get executed to make an example.

Scribe, scribe, scribe the Acts of Iomedae... 

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Maybe the rest of the handbook will usefully clarify something.

 

He's staying on this one page for kind of a while.

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Huh. She looks at him curiously, but doesn't interrupt just yet. 

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No social awareness only this page.

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She'll make an inquisitive noise after another minute or so. 

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"- mm?"

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"Oh, you seemed - really interested in that section? And my curiosity got the better of me." 

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He holds up the book so she can see what section it is.

"I didn't - know about this. Even as a thing that other people did."

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She looks.

The section is titled Illegal Orders.

She skims it. (She'll find some time to read it in full, later, but right now she's just aiming to get a basic grasp on the concept to try and figure out why it matters to Artigas so much.)

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According to the Lastwall handbook there is a list of orders you are not supposed to obey and are in fact positively obliged to refuse. It says "up to and including from the Goddess Herself". To swear or break oaths; to commit crimes; to exceed the boundaries of the purpose of the command relationship in several ways -

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This is unsurprising from what she knows of Iomdaeans - as she told him earlier, they are very serious about abuse of power and authority, and this goes hand-in-hand with that. But - it's very surprising to him, because - because of course Asmodean Law is all about abuse of authority, it matches the dogma and she can see the echoes of it in how so many of them have such a mixture of hatred and fear and jealousy for their superiors. 

With her voice and face softer than Blai has ever seen it, she says "It's... a really important part of Law, isn't it. And - it's horrible, that Asmodeus hides it from everyone under Him, because what He cares about isn't just Law, it's... tyranny. Submission."

She's carefully avoiding expressing any pity, but. augh. She really wishes she could hug him.

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"There's - suspicion of one's superior being enchanted. It's - similar in some situations..."

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"Having that is certainly better than the alternative, but... it doesn't really get at the core of what these rules are for, right?" She gestures at the page. "These are about... putting limits on what Lawful commands are, in every circumstance. Iomedae Herself is not allowed to order Her people to break an oath, and She makes sure they all know that." 

She doesn't bother making the obvious comparison. She doesn't need to. (She's controlling her facial expressions, tone of voice, and breathing very carefully. Venn doesn't get angry all that often and doesn't particularly enjoy it, but she's so viscerally upset with Asmodeus, right now.)

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Nod nod.

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Augh. It's hard, just sitting here watching him wrestle with this. (She wants...) 

"...can I hug you?" she blurts out, and she hasn't thought over all the angles, it might not be the right thing to do here, but she doesn't care, she has to at least offer. 

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He finds this question perplexing! "...why?" he says after a nonplussed silence.

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Ah. "Because... you're trying to making sense of something really important and really upsetting. And... most humans find physical contact comforting, even most humans from cultures that were structured to prevent them from getting that comfort. And I would like to comfort you."

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"If there is a skill component to this activity I don't have it. So you're aware."

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!!! 

She smiles warmly at him. "I appreciate the warning and will provide feedback as necessary, but I'm not worried." 

She stands up, and beckons him to as well.

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Okay, he knows how to stand up, he does that all the time.

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She walks around his desk and approaches, carefully wrapping her arms around him. (She'll hold him more firmly if he doesn't seem to be minding this.)

"You can hold me too, if you like, but you don't need to," she murmurs, the side of her face soft against his chest.

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Well it doesn't seem complicated exactly?? Probably?? He will... attempt... this... he can't exactly mirror her because her arms have gone under his arms because he's taller than her but it's not that difficult to adapt - his arms cannot occupy the same space at the same time so he has to come to some decision about which one goes over the other one but that is probably either not important in the first place or adequately covered by the skill component disclaimer?? - gently, she's a squishy caster - hug.

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From the relaxed happy sigh this produces, he seems to be doing at least a passable job. (She hugs him a bit tighter, since he doesn't seem to have frozen up about this at all.)

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gosh.

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Venn makes another little happy noise.

After a little bit, she starts gently rubbing his back with one of her hands.

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Is that a thing? That's a thing apparently?? - it is going to be SUPER OBVIOUS if he just copies her which delays him for several seconds in doing it anyway.

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(Ah, good, a quick study. She grins, and is thankful her face isn't especially visible to him at the moment.)

"You can rest your head on mine, if you'd like," she says, after little while. 

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can he though what if actually that were impossible it is not impossible he is just stupid.

He dips his head till his cheek is touching her hair.

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It's nice and soft! (Possibly because she is a squishy caster.)

Venn does not dispense further hugging advice, but seems content to stay like this for as long as Blai is.

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Well he has absolutely no idea how long hugs are supposed to last so he isn't going to move. He did warn her that he did not know things about this.

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"I like hugs, but we can stop whenever you'd like," she remembers to say after another minute or two pass.

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WELL NOW HE'S SELF CONSCIOUS. He lets go. He's got a handbook to read.

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Venn lets go too, smiling up at him. "Thanks."

She heads back to her seat.

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Why is she thanking him. The ostensible point of this exercise was for - no, she said she liked hugs, it's not impossible that there was a double purpose here - which leaves the question of whether he says "thank you" also or instead "you're welcome" because both sounds deranged -

"Thank you," he decides upon.

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This gets him another grin and a "you're very welcome", so probably it was an acceptable answer! 

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Oh good.

...handbook. It, like, will determine whether some people live or die, and stuff.

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She'll get back to copying the Acts, though she's glancing at him a bit more often, traces of the smile still on her face.

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What does that meaaaan. He will pretend he does not notice.

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Well, the smiling means she's happy. Hope this helps!

(The frequency of the glancing does lower over time - she's mostly checking to see if his emotional state has improved, or if he wants to talk about anything.)

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He's settled back into handbook reading. He completes his first pass and then goes through it again, skipping around, taking notes.

"I think I'm going to dismiss the whores," he says. "If it helps I don't think the other forts will keep them - or might dismiss ones they already have for the new ones, but I don't think the total number of Chelish-fort-installed whores will remain as it is, they or a comparable number of them will probably all make it to Kenabres."

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Right, yeah. (She keeps her feelings about this mostly tucked away. There's really not much she can do with them, is the thing.)

She nods. "...I assume they can shadow patrols in that direction until they get there?"

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"That's the idea, yes."

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"Makes sense." (Scribing continues.)

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He finishes his notetaking pass through the handbook and then gets up. "I'm going to hand this off to the wizards for copying and post the relevant announcements, you're welcome to continue scrivening here but I may be delayed by questions."

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She nods. "I'll stay here, I think. ...If I finish this one, should I start another copy? I don't know how many of these you'll want."

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"I think I would like to have two in case I should ever encounter a situation where I want to give one to someone suddenly, though I realize that is not exactly likely."

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She nods. "Alright." She thinks for a bit. "...actually, I might take this to the mess hall? Concentrating will be a bit harder, but... I want to be around when you post the announcement, I suppose."

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"Of course."

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Then she'll finish this page and relocate to the mess hall, and see what she overhears or if anyone comes to talk to her.

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The news that he's sending the whores away is pretty unpopular, though he doesn't stand on a table to do it, just posts it to the wall, so it has a chance to ripple gradually through.

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Yeah, that's unsurprising. 

Is that the main thing people are talking about? Does anyone come by and talk to her about it?

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Txell, followed by her squad, sits down. "Was this your idea? I can hang Alter Self but there's first-circles, if there's anyone who doesn't take 'you've got hands' for an answer."

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She shakes her head, looking sad. "It wasn't my idea, and I tried to see if he'd consider alternatives. ...I don't think it will be as bad as you're thinking, it has to do with the Iomedaean rule changes." 

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"Sure, he's not going to just say he'll kill a man over it when he won't, but it's not retroactive, the bulletin says 'going forward', so now we all get to see what moron goes for it and how many goes he gets before somebody talks. I should start a betting pool."

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Yeah. "...Sorry. I really did try."

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"Weird that he didn't listen to you, he pays a lotta attention to you."

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She shrugs, slightly self-consciously. "He thinks this is the Lawful thing to do that won't risk the Worldwound. I don't really think anyone could talk him out of that."

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Txell Prestidigitates her stew and bites into a big chunk from it ferociously.

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Yeah. She gets it.

...Venn gets back to scribing.

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Txell cools off pretty quick all things considered and peers over her shoulder.

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Venn shifts obligingly, making it easy to read. (She's most of the way through the Acts of Iomedae, so it's about the Shining Crusade.)

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No comment, apparently, but she keeps peeking.

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This is a normal form of co-existing with wizards (and much better than "Txell eats angrily near her", honestly). Venn will make no comment.

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No one needs to be put to death that very day, at least, nor does it seem to be the talk of the fort the next morning

However, it does seem like the demons have sensed weakness in the north. The fort two east of theirs has been hit pretty hard, according to news from the overnight patrols.

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Oh dear.

She stops by the Commander's office to deliver the second copy of Acts.

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He's gearing up for a patrol but he puts the Acts in his bag. "Thank you, Miss Urdina."

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"Happy to help." She looks at his gear. "Which way are you heading?" 

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"East. - #18 might need both of my channels. If you don't have reason to think that #8 needs you today, you could also come east and stop at #15."

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Ooh. "I can do that. #8 didn't have any wounded when we left there yesterday, which was much later than when you left #15." 

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"That settles the question of which squad to accompany, then." Packing checklist: complete. Backpack: on.

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Venn heads off to pack. 

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A Blai Artigas is by nature a punctual creature. He shows up right on time, checklists again, and sets out with the squad.

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Venn continues to be punctual with the application of careful effort and planning! She's packed and ready to head out.

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Txell is more talkative than Blai is. "Snowy as fuck. Those deadbeats had better be sending their patrols out on time bloodied or not or we're going to miss anything that can get covered in less than fifteen minutes of this bullshit."

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It's been a while since Venn's been out in heavy snow - she makes sure her pack is fully closed and secured, then adjusts her coat and hood. "I'm still not used to how much it snows up here," she admits with a small laugh. 

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"This is a little much for this time of year but yup. Come to the Wound if you hate summertime."

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She laughs. "Maybe we should send someone to try and convince some strong Osirian adventurers to come up here in the summertime, it gets unbearably hot there. ...that might actually not be a terrible idea, I should mention it to Rowen."

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"They'd be underconditioned for it but I guess maybe they won't know any better."

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"If they're adventurers worth recruiting at that distance, they can probably afford to buy a wand of endure elements or a pearl for the spell slot? ...but I guess those work just fine down there, too, so maybe it'd only work if they fancied snow over sand..." 

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"Which they might, I guess. Change of pace. If it blows in your face it at least won't make your next meal gritty."

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"Yeah, I get cold easily but at least snow melts and that's the end of it! I think I'd go mad in a desert if I didn't have magic to clean with, I don't know how they handle it."

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Somebody else says, "If the Worldwound was in the desert then when the cleric thing happened we'd have all died."

"That's true, that's true," says another guy, though it's hard to hear through the wind and against the sound-muting snowdrifts. "Guess if I get three wishes for my - if I get wishes I won't wish snow didn't exist."

A gust of wind kicks up a lot of the new powder and it's impossible to hear the reply from the front of the line.

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Venn's not sure she's ever been in snow this thick, actually. She can barely see Txell in front of her! (And it's very cold, though her coat is keeping the worst of it out.)

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They're not moving very fast either, since the guy in front has to clear a path for them - a path which is half fallen in from the sides by the time Venn, and Blai bringing up the rear, get to it, though it's still better than nothing. Any signs of passage from the last patrol have been quite obscured by now.

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Txell is right that it'd be hard to spot a demon in all this! At least wizards and clerics both can get Detect Fiendish Presence as a cantrip, so they won't literally bump into one, but it's depressingly possible they might pass right by a stunned schir or something just out of range of the spell.

...the swirling patterns of snow in the wind are almost hypnotic.

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Yep, Blai behind her is casting Detect Fiendish when he's not casting Guidance.

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Venn is busy mentally composing something for her lyre that evokes the feeling of moving through a blizzard  when a gust of wind hits her from the side. 

She stumbles, the weight of her pack and coat catching her off-guard, and then falls forward, disappearing into the snow.

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If anyone audibly reacts to this it's only audible if you're not buried in snow.

Blai has her dug free again less than a minute later.

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Whoops. "Thanks for the help."

(Some of the snow got into her coat through her hood. She tries not to shiver.) 

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The snow is coming down a lot harder now. Standing right next to her he has to raise his voice to be audible. "I can't see the rest of the squad, or the wardline. We need to build a quinzee and stay put till the weather calms."

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Venn nods. "I haven't done this before; tell me what you need me to do?" 

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"We start by just making a big pile of snow but we could in this mess lose each other even working on the same pile so we need to be tied together." He has rope for this! Once around his waist and once around hers and enough slack to move. "If you have cheap arrows they'll be useful as depth marks for the hollowing step."

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Venn only carries cold iron arrows, but she can snap some arrowheads off and pocket them, leaving behind cheap depth markers. 

She begins gathering snow. (She's shivering a bit, now, though she can definitely work through this.)

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It's hard to see him even in his high-visibility black and red and just a few feet away, but he's piling up the snow and mixing packed bottom layers with the new powder and patting it down as a quick sintering hack and so on until they've got a big enough heap and then the snapped arrows go in, here and here and here, and then they can start digging out the inside.

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She digs. She tries not to worry about the others, or the wounded at #18.

(...she's cold.)

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Eventually it's excavated and there's a ventilation hole at the top - "we can't both sleep at the same time, if it turns out to last that long, because if this seals we won't be able to breathe" - and they can get inside, his holy symbol lit up. There's not enough room to stand but they can both get in there - albeit without any personal space to speak of - and sit, or even lie down, it's long enough for that in one direction. He smooths out the interior walls to direct the melt; he Creates a little mist, because Created water always comes out at liquid temperature even if you cast it in a blizzard, to speed up the process of turning their shelter into hardened ice.

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Venn doesn't have Create Water, but once he explains what he's doing and why she casts Prestidigitation and starts carefully warming and cooling the walls to harden them.

(She's shivering, now, though it might be hard to tell, through her coat.)

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They can stop being literally tied together at some point in this process. Rope is stowed in bag.

He knocks on a wall. "I think that'll do."

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Okay, phew. Task time is over.

"...sorry about getting us separated from the others," she says, teeth chattering audibly. 

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"It can happen to anyone. This sort of thing is why we learn to build quinzees. ...my coat is on over my armor, which may interfere with some of the qualities of a hug, not to mention if they can be performed lying down you didn't mention, but you can come closer so we can warm each other up anyway."

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Oh!!!

She scoots over and does her best to initiate Warmth Snuggles. (Her best, while cold and in a thick coat she's not used to, is a bit clunky.)

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He puts his arms around her. It's less awkward when there's like, a real reason.

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Via a combination of body heat leeching and shivering the Venn will be warmed! 

"The lying-down variant is typically called 'cuddling'," she says after a minute or so of this, her voice mostly back to her usual liveliness.

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"I believe I have encountered this word in the past," he agrees solemnly.

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Venn bursts into laughter. (An advantage of hugs/cuddling that Blai might not have been aware of until now is that if you are holding a cute girl while she laughs, you get haptic feedback!) 

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.......well the chainmail extends nearly to his knees so that is not a catastrophe or anything.

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"Your sense of humor is delightful," she says happily, once she stops laughing. "It was a real surprise to me, at first."

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"I don't believe I am widely reputed to have one."

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"Uh-huh." She grins at him. "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone." 

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"It's not a secret particularly, just... most senses of humor differ so I suppose it goes unnoticed."

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She nods, her head brushing against his outer layers. "-the secret thing was a joke, yes." 

Hmmm. How to put it.... "I think it's just very... unobtrusive? Every joke I've heard you tell was also a true statement, and your delivery is pretty deadpan. It doesn't surprise me that people mostly don't pick up on it."

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"I did on occasion do much the same thing with lies but that was when I was allowed to do that."

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Venn grins. "Luckily, Iomedae does not forbid Her clerics from truthful jokes." 

He's so warm.... She nestles deeper into his arms, sighing happily.

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Blai would wonder why this is happening except actually he can reconstruct the entire sequence of events pretty darn well so there is no question to go with the question mark. "It would be difficult to adapt to since so many of them are things I would also say for other reasons."

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"You would have to simply fail to notice that they could be interpreted humorously." (It's hard to get a read on how he feels about this in this circumstance beyond 'not obviously uncomfortable', which is not a gold standard for snuggling with the fort commander you're on loan to but she is cold and also she likes him a lot, okay,

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"It sounds challenging. Perhaps not impossible, I have not given it serious thought. Or humorous thought."

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She nods absentmindedly, some part of her brain chasing down that last train of thought before it can get away.

(...No. Come on, Venn. Don't make excuses like that. Use your words.)

"...So, I usually rely on body language to figure out if people are comfortable with current amounts of hugging and snuggling and such, and I am pretty good at that, but it is actually hard to tell through your armor," she says lightly. "So - if you have opinions or questions I am happy to hear them and make adjustments."

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And a good thing about the armor too but he should not think that too loudly or she will notice because apparently she is the kind of adventurer who can cast Detect Thoughts as an extraordinary ability.

There isn't a lot of room in a quinzee and she was shivering. This is true and also if you say that out loud to the kind of adventurer who can cast Detect Thoughts as an extraordinary ability it will be a really obvious deflection because that is NOT what she is probing about.

Isn't reading his mind really unpleasant. It has not exactly calmed down in there since he was twelve.

He has to say SOMETHING.

"Noted."

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...something about that bothered him? Maybe not bothered, just, made him guarded? Her... relying on body language? Why...

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They read people's minds in Cheliax, for loyalty tests,

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She shuffles words around in her head for a bit and then comes up with "Do you want me to try and pay less attention to your body language?"

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"- that would hardly be reasonable. Though I have been told I'm unpleasant to mindread."

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She sighs. "I - look, I know I'm obnoxiously good at this when I try, even if I'm not doing anything so precise as reading your mind. You're allowed to ask me to not try, if the alternative is me learning things you would rather I don't. I wouldn't want to do that to you." 

She looks up at him seriously. "But please know: the things I do get, when I read you? They're certainly not unpleasant." Quite the opposite, actually, she doesn't quite say, but she isn't saying it pretty loudly. 

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"...no?"

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"Not even a little bit." She hugs him tighter for emphasis.

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"I suppose it would not be very bizarre for it to be a matter of personal taste," he says dubiously.

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She tilts her head and looks up at him. "So, just to be clear. You were told your thoughts were unpleasant to read by people who were being forced to screen thoughts for a living, right?"

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"- they don't check clerics very much and if they did check me at some such point they didn't follow up with me about anything I was thinking. This was when I was twelve and being checked for wizard potential and no one else in the entire room bore comment at all."

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Shrug. "I admit that it is possible I would have found your body language at twelve a bit much? But I read people because I want to get to know them better, and I do think that affords different and healthier perspectives than someone who has to regularly to screen through the thoughts of young people in bulk."

She looks at him curiously. "Do you find your own thoughts unpleasant?" She doesn't get that impression from him, but sometimes it can be hard to tell.

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"...not all of them."

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...oh.

She can't immediately think of something to say to that, so she just holds him tightly, doing her best to tell him with her arms that she's here for him, here with him because she wants to be.

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This experience is weird on axes he did not know experiences even had.

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... oh, he's so overwhelmed.

 She stops squeezing him. Doesn't let go of him just yet.

 "So," she says with a lightness she doesn't entirely feel, "I'm all warmed up now, thank you. And while I have enjoyed this and would be happy to do it again if you decide that that's something you might want, it's not something we'd be doing at this time if I hadn't been freezing, and I think that means we should stop now." 

She waits for him to process this before she starts withdrawing her arms. 

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"- all right." He retrieves his hands and scoots back.

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She smiles at him and scoots back as well.

Hmmm. He really seems like he could... use some time to process that. And she... 

She yawns. "... is it okay if I sleep for a bit? I can stay up if needed, but I didn't sleep very well and a nap would be nice." 

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"Yes, of course. - if you could Prestidigitate me a little dryer first that would not go amiss."

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"Of course!" She's smiling as she dries his clothes as best she can, and hers as well. 

Then she curls up on the ground and... falling asleep alone is hard for her, but she's not really alone here, is she?

Soon she's out like a light, breathing softly, a gentle smile still on her face. 

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Blai can Prestidigitate too, of course, though he has to be quite careful about it in his armor, and he makes a long brush-shaped thing to poke snow out of the ventilation hole in the ceiling, and... he makes some chess pieces to fiddle with while he attempts to think.

 

She's really pretty.

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Chess pieces. Chess pieces so he can think straight, so that his brain's incessant appetite for rank garbage nonsense has a game to fall into.

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The thing is most men make it pretty obvious in the way they move through the world, through groups of other people, that they think of women as having particular characteristics which men don't have that are potentially relevant to their interests. Most of the rest, who don't do that, are not doing that because they instead think men have particular characteristics that are potentially relevant to their interests. Blai's impression has always been that if you find something relevant in this way you cannot possibly miss it, and he is not (apropos of the recent discussion on alternatives to dismissing the whores) a eunuch but he is still not generally going about his life finding anyone relevant to his interests except in a very distantly removed way. Distantly removed like how dragons exist, and people tell stories about fighting dragons far more often than they actually see them let alone actually fight them, and Blai is not personally very interested in the genre either to tell himself or to hang around listening to but he has still received some peripheral exposure, and if he had some reason to call to mind an example of a dragon he could think of one that was most likely made up but would sort of hang together long enough for whatever purpose it was needed for, though where the analogy breaks down is that he never really has a reason to call to mind an example of a dragon and he does occasionally have a reason to call to mind an example of a woman, but like, not like that, not like everyone else where this affects things that you could notice.

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This example is sleeping right there and she was snuggled up to him and she was happy about it (or else she can cast Glibness as an extraordinary ability and has really bewildering motives, or else he's just incredibly fucking stupid, and on consideration that last one is the likeliest), and he's not having an operational constraint about it, he's coping, but he's not sure exactly what operation he is conducting thus unconstrainedly. Besides watching her sleep. Should he not watch her? It's not like it's unusual for people to sleep in the same room, he's only ceased to kip in a barracks room with a dozen since his promotion to commander, but usually most of them are asleep at the same time - maybe this is more like keeping watch, but there is no direction to watch, they're enclosed almost completely. Keeping... vigil. So that they don't suffocate, and so that if a demon bursts in they're not both simultaneously asleep for it. That's his operation and he's doing it and it is leaving a lot of room for stupid thoughts that don't matter.

He brushes more snow out of the ventilation hole. It's still loud and white out there, not time to see if they can dig out.

How far can he advance a chess game against himself without allowing any pieces at all to fall into jeopardy, and if he makes the board that crowded and that developed how quickly does it dissolve into total carnage the instant one side is forced to destabilize the arrangement?

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(Venn often hums in her sleep. Sometimes her face tightens, and she hugs her knees to her chest.)

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Is she having bad dreams?

What was the point of thinking that question, he can't really tell without asking her and it would not be an appropriate thing to ask.

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Realistically there is no operation here besides the basic normal Worldwound protocols like "survive via quinzee" and "patrol" and "do healing, albeit substantially later than would have been ideal, but weather happens" and stuff like that. He is having a new and exciting form of brain problem but he doesn't need to do anything about it. It might have been a mistake to hug her? The first time, not in the quinzee, it was indicated for practical reasons in the quinzee, but the first time he clearly did not actually need to do that. Except that she... said "thank you" afterwards... which has the aura of a very significant fact, even though foreigners say that a lot and even though they aren't being sarcastic about it that doesn't make it important. Do bards need hugs like wizards need sleep or something. He hasn't met very many bards. Would she tell him if she needed hugs? Would she have another way to get them, if she did? This smells like a stupid train of thought but like what if she in fact Needs Hugs and can't get them from Guiu or somebody.

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Well, it's a less unacceptable question to have in mind for asking her when she wakes up than "did you have a bad dream", anyway. It's operationally relevant.

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What if she doesn't need hugs. What does that leave, as possibilities. She hugs people recreationally? This is not disconfirmed by anything he knows up to and including his deeply confused but overall positive personal impression of the experience, which - oh, that would also make sense if she just knows that people like hugs and thought it was pretty likely that Blai was an example of a person and was being Good about it. He's not very good at being Good so he does not automatically think along those lines but if you do happen to have this hug related information and want to go around spreading pleasantness it's very cheap.

Though he hasn't seen her hug anyone else. ...though no one has seen her hug him, so maybe that means it's - are hugs a sex act and thus traditionally conducted in privacy - no he's pretty sure that isn't right - maybe she is embarrassed, he certainly is if he contemplates adding any witnesses to the situation. About... what. ...yeah that's pretty opaque, he's not sure what he's embarrassed about let alone what she would be. He could be embarrassed about being locally incompetent but that doesn't seem like the right answer and definitely does not extend to Venn.

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Whatever thing she dreamed that had her hugging her knees appears to have stopped! She relaxes and starts humming again, something gentle. Her fingers twitch, as though they're plucking strings.

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She's pretty and that's scary.

Why, apart from the fact that everything is scary, is that thing scary.

If he doesn't ever in his life do anything about it and nobody can tell then it's not disproportionately scary. There are lots of things in the world that he - wants - and doesn't do anything about whenever it would conflict with his duties, and that's fine. He wants food that's not Worldwound stew and he doesn't even take leave about it, he takes leave less than most officers do, it's been a few years now. He wants to play chess, and he's going to give up Punishment Chess because it's not in the handbook and does not anticipate putting it back even when Venn leaves and nobody wants to join him. He... is out of examples, so maybe "lots" is the wrong word, but those will do.

Pie and chess don't give a shit if he has them or not, if he wants them or not, they have no opinions at all. That's the difference.

Even if he is being completely delusional about whether Venn has an - encouraging - opinion - about - categories of things that include hugs - wow his brain does not want to put words here and would really rather make him wander through mist made of nice intuitive screaming - anyway even if it's not an encouraging opinion it's some opinion. The opinion might be "ew, you're delusional"! It might even be "meh"! That's still an opinion and it's terrifying!

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Also he has to aspire to Good now and he is pretty undercatechized. The handbook has rules about intra-chain-of-command carryings-on ("don't") but she's not in his chain of command. So -

He brushes more snow out of the vent.

He pulls the Acts out of his bag. It is probably mostly not about this and he will wind up learning unrelated facts. That's fine. Most of the world is not about this. He will serve.

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She shifts a few more times as she sleeps, and then her eyes open. (She tries to get a read on his body language. He didn't ask her not to, even after she told him she thought it would be a reasonable request to make. She should probably double check that one at some point, but it would be weird to do it now.)

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Buried intently in the Acts of Iomedae such that he does not immediately notice she's awake. He's not having as much of a moment about it as he did about the illegal orders page in the handbook but it is still absorbing.

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She obviously did the right thing earlier and she'd do it again but she misses having his arms around her and wishes she knew if it were likely to happen again

She yawns, this being an easy way to signal that she's awake without actively interrupting his reading should he not want that.

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Yup, that snaps him out of it, he glances up from the book to see if she's rolling over and going back to sleep or being awake now.

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She gives him a happy little wave.

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"Hello again."

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"Thanks for keeping watch." She looks up. "Are we still snowed in? Would you like to get some sleep?"

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"It still looks pretty blizzardy out there. I'm not sure how long it's been; I'm not urgently tired but could sleep now if that makes the most sense for seeing that one of us is always alert."

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She nods. "Sleeping now seems like it makes sense if it's all the same to you, if the blizzard ends in five hours and by then you're tired enough that it's unpleasant." 

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He nods. He notes what page he's on in the Acts and puts it away. "Wake me if you need to, of course."

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She nods. "Of course." need, of course, meaning something tactically relevant, not shut UP brain "Sleep well."

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He curls up with his head on his backpack and closes his eyes.

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He didn't seem to be acting like her falling into the snow was a major problem, though she is only guessing that his main response is "this is inconvenient for our ability to effectively provide aid" and not an indication that she specifically made a major error. That's a relief.

She maybe could have asked about body warmth sharing instead of being cold and pathetic at him - that might have been better for him? In her defense, being that cold makes it harder for her to be proactive, and she would have been fine on her own after a while, just... kinda miserable for a few hours. (In her prosecution, if something had happened during those few hours, she would have been less functional for it, and she ignored the cold getting worse for longer than was smart. In particular she should have taken the time to prestidigitate her inner layers dry once they got into the quinzee. Maybe she could have also done jumping jacks or something.) (But if she had done that, she wouldn't have gotten to cuddle with him) 

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...she probably should just not have been affectionate while cuddling him. They were doing that for warmth. She is glad she made herself verbally check in with him about his discomfort levels, that made it much less bad, but - a better alternative would have been to Just Not. The positive signals she got while hugging before were a clue, and there have been other clues, but - she should not just be going off clues! Her two guesses are "he's like, really repressed, on account of his toxic cultural upbringing" and "He's Just Not Into You", and if it's the first one what she did was an escalation that would likely be overwhelming (and, guess what, he sure was overwhelmed!) and if second one she's stringing herself along and wronging him! 

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Okay okay okay that's enough of that. Deep breaths.

(She moves her fingers as though she's playing one of her favorite lullabies, and the notes echo in her head and gently break down the wordless distress) 

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Okay. What else. 

She doesn't regret bringing up the body language thing. She's glad she reiterated that it would be perfectly fine for him to want her to stop doing it, though she might want to ask again later. And she's not sure if she really got across what she meant about the mindreading thing, but - it was important to her to try. (what kind of person says that, to a twelve year old, what a thoughtless and cruel yes yes Cheliax under the old regime was horrible, in the grand scheme of things he's probably had much worse happen to him and done worse himself)

What else...

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 "Do you find your own thoughts unpleasant?" 

"...not all of them."

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She hates that. She hates it so much. She knows it's not the kind of thing you can fix for someone even someone you love enough to bind your life to (not that she! necessarily wants that!!), but - she's still allowed to hate it, and wish it were different. 

She sighs.

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Okay. That's plenty of processing for now!

She composes letters in her head and checks the weather outside periodically.

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The wind is whistling past at dismaying speeds and their ventilation hole has gotten deeper.

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...Not promising. She really hopes the others are okay. ...If it lasts all night, Blai (first name basis, I see, some part of her remarks. She ignores it.) can get Endure Elements for both of them and Txell can cover the others, so they won't freeze to death, at least.

She's getting hungry. She pulls some dried rations out of her pack and snacks.

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And eventually after a few hours Blai wakes up. He opens his eyes immediately upon doing so, so it's obvious. He stretches out and sits up. "Armored naps leave something to be desired."

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Awwww. "I've never tried in anything heavier than this" (she shakes her chain shirt) "but it doesn't seem very fun."

She glances at their airhole. "Weather's still pretty bad. I've kept the hole clean, but... we might be here a while."

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"If it's still bad at dawn I can get a Create Food."

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She nods. "In the meantime, I have some dried stuff on me - want anything?" She gestures to her various snacks.

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He will nibble crackers. "Thank you."

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"Of course." 

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"Bards don't need sleep in the way wizards do, is that right? It's not going to be a problem that you slept poorly and made up for it with a nap?"

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"...huh? Oh, no, definitely not. I'd be useless out here if we did." She laughs, but it's a tinge hollow. 

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- well he was going to go from there into "it has occurred to me to wonder..." but. "You're having a persistent problem with that?" A one-off won't do non-wizards any harm but if you really overdo the sleep deprivation -

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Venn shrugs awkwardly. "I take naps, when I need to, to keep it from being bad, but... the conditions under which I reliably sleep well are non-trivial to arrange at the Worldwound, which was something I knew would be true when I came here." She pauses for a bit. "...I can explain if you're curious, but it seems like something that'd be very culturally unusual?"

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"The - conditions - I don't know if that would be an overly personal question or not but if you're not sleeping well even inside the fort with blankets and such that's a problem."

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She sighs. "I really don't think it's a pressing problem, I've been up here for almost a year, I really can fill the gaps with naps as needed, I have a lot of practice with that. ...it's not just a thing up here, it just tends to come up more because..." 

She wants to tell him. She doesn't want him to feel pressured by the knowledge. She doesn't think he'll feel pressured by the knowledge, he seems genuinely concerned, and, and - she's taking too long -

"...because it's harder to find people to cuddle with, up here." She looks away.

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"It had occurred to me to wonder if bards ran on hugs but not in exactly that manner."

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This gets a real laugh out of her! "I don't think it's a bard-specific thing, no. I just... it makes it much easier to relax and rest, being close to someone I like and trust." 

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"So not just in general but while you are sleeping?"

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Venn is very good at controlling her facial expressions, which is great, because she has a lot of feelings about his tone of voice there and is delighted to be keeping all of them neatly tucked away in a box!

"Hugs in general are very nice and I am happy when they are a part of my life. Having somebody I like and trust either in my bed with me or close nearby is the only way I've found to reliably sleep through the night, though as I said before I handle it fine with naps." She's putting a fair bit of effort into keeping her voice steady as she says this.

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he volunteers as tribute there are too many factors he does not understand involved. "I see. I do not have a standard solution for this as I have never heard of it before."

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She gives him an amused look. "The standard solution, as I understand it, is to settle down and get married, which has not as of yet been a choice I have found myself wanting to make. Failing that, I take naps, and occasionally get involved with people I meet, if the chance comes up, but the naps do work fine. ...I appreciate the concern, though."

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Wow his brain does not really like that this word has been uttered here in this quinzee or else likes it such a shockingly excessive amount that it has circumnavigated the globe to be distressing anyway or possibly both. Shut up brain. He nods.

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Actually he might also really not like the phrase "occasionally involved". Is that what is happening here. Is he Occasionally Involved. He is pretty sure that one is not circumnavigating the globe.

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...huh. Headtilt?

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SAY SOMETHING

"- sleep deprivation is a favored instrument of Asmodean seminary," he says, because that's something, and that's what they were talking about, right, sleep deprivation. "Was, I mean."

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"...Oh," she says softly. That plausibly explains his initial concern. 

It notably does not explain whatever the thing she just said made him think, she's not blind, but... pointing that pretty clearly crosses her line for using his body language against him, so she won't. (She's so curious, but - either he'll trust her enough to explain, at some point, or he won't.)

"...it really isn't anything that bad. It often takes me a while to fall asleep, and I often wake up in the middle of the night and need to repeat the process. It's annoying, not torture."

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"If you say so."

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"I do appreciate the concern." She smiles at him fondly. 

(...She realizes, as she mentally replays the things she just said, that she did not tell him that she was interested in so many words. Ugh.)

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"Alas that it is not in itself efficacious."

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She looks at him thoughtfully. "...it does help, some.  Or... the fact that you look out for me like that is not unrelated to the fact that I slept better on the ice just now than I usually do, back at the fort."

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"I... suppose that... we could do something ridiculous like put you on the night shift so you can be asleep in my quarters while I'm doing paperwork, if it helps to have someone on watch..."

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What. Is he - that's both heart-meltingly considerate and would be extremely inconvenient for her usual schedule, her ability to heal other people... 

Headtilt. "...in the spirit of engaging in mutual problem-solving, I will mention that I have on occasion slept in a bed with someone I was close to but not romantically involved with, and it worked fine. If that doesn't sound too fraught to you."

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"How fraught is too fraught?"

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She raises an eyebrow. "Uh. I don't exactly know how to answer that without more info? But from my perspective it seems like the fraughtness would mostly be impacting you," (because it's not like she's going to catch feelings harder, at this point), "at which point you'd be the judge of that, not me." 

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Well that isn't helpful at all. What is he supposed to say, "all that would happen would be a lot of noise in my head and I don't get to not have noise in my head", he's not going to say that. "More info such as -?"

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...she catches enough from his body language to be a bit concerned. "...would it be hurting you?"

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What does that mean. "...do you wear sharp objects to bed?"

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She shakes her head (and does NOT laugh, because he genuinely doesn't know what she's trying to say) "The category of things I am worried about is: you might find it burdensome or unpleasant, you might prefer to not have someone in your bed with you, you might prefer to only have someone in your bed with you if you were having some kind of romantic relationship with them... Are you interested in romantic relationships at all, I'm usually a good judge of this but genuinely cannot tell with you..."

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"Well, neither can I."

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Well. That certainly would explain why she has not herself picked up on it.

"...Would you like to talk about it?", she asks softly.

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"...about... not having insight into this? I don't really know what I'd say."

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"Sometimes people find themselves confused about such things in a way where a conversation with someone who has relevant experience such matters might be able to help, which I think I do-" 

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(several mental voices raise objections in her head simultaneously)

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"- though, uh, in this situation in particular it would be irresponsible for me to do that without disclosing my own bias on the subject," she finishes awkwardly, and if he can't pick it up from that and asks for clarification she will in fact just have to tell him.

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Yeah no he is expecting another clause in that sentence and awaits it patiently.

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"which is that given the option I would very much be interested in having a romantic relationship with you," she finishes more quietly, after a pause, and she's good at facial expressions but she can't stop her cheeks from turning red.

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He needs water. He fumbles for his mug and makes some water and drinks it. "Of the - occasional involvement - sort -" He doesn't actually prounounce a question mark but it's grammatically implied.

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occasional involvement?? Her eyes widen as she processes this properly. "...as opposed to something more committed? I, uh, would be fine with either but would prefer the latter."

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"I asked because you mentioned - having in the past - occasionally, uh - I -"

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Right yes she did mention that she sometimes sleeps around

...She's not actually sure what he's getting at here, so she will give him a please continue, this is important and I would like to know how that sentence ends look of encouragement. 

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oh no there wasn't actually a whole sentence under there

uh

"I apologize, I'm not very coherent about this." That's a real sentence that comes to a conclusion like sentences ought to.

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"That's okay, it is often a hard thing to talk about." - she wants to give him a hug but this does not quite seem like the right circumstance to offer this. (She wants a hug but this is definitely not the right circumstance to request this) - "...I can try and guess what you were getting at with that if that would be easier?" 

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"...that could work."

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Okay. Um. Where to start. Her head won't stop buzzing. "Plenty of people are unwilling to enter a romantic relationship with someone who has in the past been romantically involved with and/or had sex with other people - well, no, that probably isn't it, we've already talked about  - " Smooth, Venn.

"Uh - if we entered a romantic relationship the default assumptions I am used to would be that neither of us would have sex with nor kiss nor be otherwise intimate with other people for as long as we were still in such a relationship and I would be fine with that, if that's the concern?"

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"Oh - uh - is it material that back in seminary once -"

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She shakes her head quickly. "No, I am not one of the people who cares if the people I get involved with have had sex before. ...It would be rather hypocritical, for one thing,"

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Oh thank goodness he doesn't have to figure out how to finish that while beating back flashbacks with a mental broom. "I am at least not obviously one of those people either."

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She was pretty sure, yeah. "...Was it that second thing or should I keep guessing?"

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"...there is probably more than one thing."

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"That makes sense. Um..."

...she is failing to generate more guesses with the information she has. 

"I am failing to generate more guesses with the information I have."

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Words. There are words somewhere in the world and some of them are probably good enough. "...I don't know what my present religious obligations are exactly, I'd be guessing."

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"...I am pretty sure Iomedaeans are not forbidden from being in romantic relationships." She grins. "...If nothing else, it's a good way to ensure you're getting your monthly fun."

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Oh that's distracting why did she say that - "It's not that I think it's forbidden altogether, but there are probably - specifics - that I am unaccustomed to even by rumor -"

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She tilts her head. "I'm not... super familiar with specific rules beyond the ones about relationships inside of a chain of command? ...I could write Marit about it, mail to the garrison doesn't take too long." 

She will NEVER LIVE IT DOWN if he tells the others but it's even odds that he won't, and she knows how important the rules are to Blai. 

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"...maybe."

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...He's getting overwhelmed again. "Would you to take a break from this conversation? Optionally with a hug? It doesn't have to mean anything, but - it seemed like you found it helpful, yesterday."

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He is not used to doing things just because he wants them and he is accordingly not used to determining which things are the ones he wants and he's not sure this will improve with breaks but he's not sure it won't.

What does it mean for a hug to not mean anything. Can you just declare a hug to be gibberish by fiat. Can you understand other hugs with Comprehend Languages don't be stupid.

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She hugs him. (Not too tight. Leaking too much affection out is probably not great for him right now, so she holds it in, mostly. She can't meaningfully rub his back through his coat and armor.)

She does sigh contentedly. 

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She fits there.

That's a stupid thought.

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(It's true, though. She fits so nicely in his arms.)

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She has a problem that is apparently conventionally solved by getting married and -

- he's trying to take a break and should probably just read the entire Acts of Iomedae before he tries to make any substantial decisions.

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She's not especially trying to read his mind, right now, because this conversation has also been pretty stressful and high stakes for her, and she really missed being held by someone who (?might?) be interested in her romantically and is perhaps just more than a little melty about it. (She sighs in deep content.)

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He has now seen the "disengage from hug" maneuver performed a couple of times but that doesn't mean he is going to execute it because why would he do that.

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Yeah. She isn't either. She knows he knows how to do it if he wants, see, and she has not even has close to her fill of being held. 

(She does, after a bit longer, start humming softly into his armor. He feels it more than he hears it.)

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Pie, and chess, and that. Apparently.

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It is as yet unclear whether or not she makes pie, but he's got a source for at least two out of three of those nestled happily in his arms.

(She's so happy. She likes him so much. She really hopes it can work out somehow. she wants to kiss him)

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Maybe if he is very careful he can work out a way to read and hug at the same time. ...is that rude. It might be rude.

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...after she switches which song she's humming a few more times, it occurs to her that he might also want something to do with his brain while enhugged.

"Talking and reading are good hugging-compatible activities," she says in a matter-of-fact voice.

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"I was just wondering if that would be rude or not." Out comes the book.

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"Well, I don't think Iomedae will mind." She giggles, her body moving softly but noticeably in his arms as she does.

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"I was wondering if it would be rude to you, to pull out the Acts," he clarifies.

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"I know, and I don't mind. I was just making a joke." She grins up at him.

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If you have an example dragon, and it starts breathing fire at you, that is the part where you try to dive for cover, and this is the part where in this other kind of example you kiss her his brain is under orders to cut that the fuck out immediately, he was going to read the entire Acts and possibly get advice from her friend or something. He was on... this page.

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...okay if she sees that look on his face another time she's going to kiss him, she's not a mind-reader but she doesn't need to be when he looks at her like that.

For now, though, she's happy to stay in his arms while he reads.

 

If he both has an ear for tunes and has paid attention to her repertoire, he might notice that since he opened the book, she's been humming several songs about Iomedae (most of which are from the era of the Shining Crusade, originally.) 

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Unfortunately he has not actually been tracking that.

The Acts are mostly epic poetry about mortal Iomedae's adventures and he can see why that would have been a useful form factor and might continue in the modern day to be so but he is impatient for dense intimidating walls of theology and it's not that.

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...She's getting sleepy (she feels so warmhappysafesafesafe). Without really meaning to, she leans a bit more of her weight into him.

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He can hold her up just fine.

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Her breathing slows. It's unclear how close to asleep she is, as she's still holding onto him tight and smiling gently.

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It did sound like she might have a year's worth of haphazard sleep to catch up on.

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(She's! Been napping!) 

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He pages through the Acts, and maintains the vent hole, and holds her.

It's too dark to see well how snowy it is, but the wind quiets, eventually.

"V- Miss Urdina. I think we can dig out now."

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She stirs in his arms, yawning. "I like being called Venn," she says with a shyer-than-usual smile, and then - oh, she has to stop hugging him now.

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It does not seem like a very digging compatible activity, yeah. "...Venn," he says tentatively.

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 "That's me, yes." Biiiig grin. "...may I call you Blai? When we're alone, anyways."

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"It is my name."

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"Blaaaaaiiiiiii," she responds agreeably, drawing out all the vowels. 

Digging time?

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Yup. "One of us should stay back, to pull the other back in if there's a collapse, do you have a preference?"

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"Okay. Do you know how to do this in principle?" If not he can give her a quick lesson on how it's done.

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The quick lesson is necessary and appreciated!

Dig, dig, dig through the snow towards freedom and/or allies... She will actually sing while she's doing this, both to indicate to ✨ Blai ✨ that she's fine and unbothered and so that if the others are within earshot they'll know where she is and call out (it's easier to tell that she's singing Iomedaean songs now that there's audible lyrics).

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It is! He is paying more attention now since there are not very many other distractions in the environment.

Eventually she will be able to burst forth from the side of a snowdrift.

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"Made it out!", she calls back through the tunnel.

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"Coming!" He gets his backpack on and follows her out into the night.

It is still snowing, but not that hard, and it's not windy.

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Time to look for the others?

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"If we see some kind of flag up, yes, but if not we proceed to the fort we were originally bound for, as they will have done not finding a flag for us if they got out first."

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Huh, okay. She nods.

(She hopes they're okay...) 

Venn continues to be alert and Not Chatty while on active patrol.

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It's very slow going because the snow's so deep. Looks like no patrols have gotten this far since the weather turned.

They do catch one going the other way, though.

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Have they seen Txell and the others?

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"Yeah, they're about twenty minutes ahead of you."

"Any word on the situation with the wounded in #18?"

"No news."

"Thank you."

And they can at least at this point join up with a reasonably beaten path.

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She's glad they're okay, and says so once the other patrol is out of earshot.

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"Yes. I make everybody pass the quinzee class before they can lead a squad but it's never a guarantee."

They make it to the fort not too long afterwards. There's stew. Dawn is so close that Blai might as well spend channels here, pray, and only then proceed to #18.

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She'll flavor stew for people, including ✨Blai✨.

And she'll sing in the mess hall, even if they don't need healing, because even a mundane song can lift hearts and spirits, and if she lets herself put a bit of her magic into it every so often to bolster their courage, well - she has some going spare, and it'll be good for them. (And it makes her happy, too.)

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Blai would like chicken-and-dumplings stew with herbs in it maybe? He keeps a very professional amount of space between them.

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He will receive this yes! Maybe at some point put the taste of her mouth into his food. that's probably a terrible idea???

Venn is soooo good at being professional in public spaces! She does not noticeably pay him any more or less or different kinds of attention than she did this morning.

She does catch up with Txell - how'd they fare in the snow?

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One guy cut himself on a bit of ice but does not seem to have picked up a serious infection before getting it channeled off just now, they're all alive, those two are sick to death of each other and that one is sick to death of all the rest of them and everybody's sleep schedule is fucked and they had two vent holes but could maybe have used twice that many because it was stuffy as hell in their shelter, they're going to sleep here and trudge back with Venn after recombobulating. The Worldwound: It's So Fun.

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She winces sympathetically. (She's glad they're okay.) 

She will do her best to get some sleep here also! (Penalties - weird place, other people in the room she is not fully relaxing around because they're stressed. Bonuses - she does like Txell, and also has been so hugged today.) She sleeps alright.

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The relative nastiness of this fort relative to Blai's fort is not super obvious when your main tasks are Stew and Sleep.

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That's fine. She has a lot to think about. 

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When she wakes up and feels her magic return, there's something more, there.

She tells Txell and co the good news. "I've got a 3rd circle spell!"

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"- sweet, nothing like some wilderness survival to get you that last little bit, huh?"

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Venn nods happily. "I felt a bit of something the other morning, so I think the Babau helped more. ...It'll make a big difference with my healing, one of my new spells can fuel my song-sorcery on its own for a while."

Do they need any more healing here since the channels from Commander Artigas? She's got plenty to spare.

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They'll take it, but they did just get two third-circle channels.

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And then they can tromp through the rather deep trench other patrols have been creating back toward #11, where the biggest news is that somebody going west also got caught in the storm and had to quinzee and it collapsed and they had to build a new one in a hurry.

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Ooof. She winces sympathetically.

Blai will probably be late getting back from #18, so she'll do an extra healing slot here. (Does it look like people need serious healing?)

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Little bit of frostbite from the people whose quinzee collapsed but it clears right up with a song.

Blai comes in with a patrol late that night. If you have a supernatural Sense Motive he looks pretty dead on his feet from having done three patrol-legs in the snow in a single day but if you are for example asleep like a sensible person you won't know anything about it.

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Venn is asleep like a sensible person and so will not be around to detect this. She went to bed  early enough to be up an hour after dawn, though, and will be in the mess hall flavoring food and chatting with people soon after.

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He sleeps and prays and looks pretty much normal when he shows up for porridge!

He's gonna read while he eats but he'll do it next to Venn after a detour to address something that came up overnight with the horses.

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She tells him the good news when she sits down. "I'm getting third circle spells now!"

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"Oh, congratulations! What are they, do you know yet?"

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"I think one of them is the Heroism variant that song-sorcerers get, where it doesn't last as long, but I can tag several people with it. The other is the one I was really hoping for - it makes a musical instrument out of shadow and powers a magical song for as long as it lasts, which works even with the high-powered version of my healing song."

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"Do you have much control over that, was your hope efficacious?"

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"Usually at least somewhat! I basically always get something I want, though on occasion it's been something I didn't know I wanted before I got it. These two are both things I was looking forward too, though, the song-sorcerer I was backup for has them and they're really useful."

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"What are the spells called?"

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"Good Hope and Exquisite Accompaniment, respectively."

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"This reminds me, the next time you hear from your friends I would like to know whatever they can tell me about what nonstandard cleric spells Iomedeae grants. Or, uh, standard ones that happen to be Good-aligned, I've heard of some of those but probably not all of them. I'm not even sure what my domains are, though I think one of them is just a different subdomain of Law."

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Nodnod. "I'll write up a letter." And include their other questions for Marit, she doesn't say, but presumably he can guess. "How were things at #18?"

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"They lost people. But they're going to be able to send out enough patrols again with their wounded up."

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She nods soberly.

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"I'm going to be doing a Read Weather every couple of days and sending out that news," he sighs, "we don't usually need to start doing that this early in the year and it trades off against Endures but evidently this year is not usual."

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She nods. 

She'll confirm when her next patrol is, and then see if he has time in his schedule to play some chess later today?

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They can sneak in a couple games before his next patrol! - they can do this after he has some kind of sudden realization and disappears for a minute and then comes back.

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She gives him a curious look when he returns. "Everything alright?"

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"It is now.

"We had a scroll of Malediction."

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Oh. Her eyes widen a bit. "-may I hug you?"

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"Yes. - I've never used one or I would have kept it to try to cast backwards, but I doubt anyone else is in a position to do that and a demon cultist could get it."

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Huuuuuuuuuuuuug. "That makes sense. I'm - really glad you've never had to use one."

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Nod. "Its presence was mostly for - intimidation factor."

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She nods too, her face pressed against his chest. "That makes sense." mmmmmhugs.

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Mmmmmhugs is a correct assessment of the situation.

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She's so glad he agrees.

"...so do you want to try sharing a bed, sometime?" she asks, a bit later.

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"It sounds nice. - people will notice. It would be very hard to miss it. Also in the absence of advice from your friend all the guidelines I've managed to extract from the material to hand amount to 'do not endanger a child' so to be clear our clothes would need to remain on."

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She lets herself blush at that last bit. "I know people would notice; I am fairly used to people talking about this kind of thing in my direction, and am competent to handle it. I've written up a letter to Marit, but it'll be awhile before we get a response. And, uh, we definitely don't need to take clothes off, but - I do have alter self, no children will be endangered."

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"...I am aware that that works but it puts me in the position of relying on a person who is not me nor one of my subordinates to see to it that I've managed my obligations, you see?"

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...Huh. It's not that he doesn't trust her, just that... he doesn't have control of the situation, and that feels like it would be abdicating his obligations? aww, but she really wants to   

"Clothes on is a fine way to sleep together."

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"It's also warmer that way. Rank has the privilege of private quarters but it turns out all of those other people in a bunk room are useful for something."

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Oh I can make a bed plenty hot with no clothes, she valiantly does not say. "I will be happy to keep you warm."

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"Well, if you're sure you don't mind people noticing? I was sort of expecting that to be objectionable."

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She pauses to really think about it.

"...I guess I could see the kinds of attention people noticing gets us being... worse, here, than in other places where I've had to deal with that kind of thing," she says, after a little bit. "I'm usually pretty good at navigating that kind of thing, though."

She peers up at him. "What kinds of things might you expect to happen?"

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"...it combines very awkwardly with most of the whores leaving. - a few of them have made themselves useful in the kitchen and one is now the quartermaster's assistant, those are staying in those capacities."

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She nods. "...there are definitely already people talking about that kind of thing, just based on the time we spend together with stuff like this, but - it would get a lot worse. I suppose we should... revisit the idea, after it's been longer." She tries not to look or sound too sad about it, but - it's fine to let a bit of it bleed through.

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"I wouldn't expect it to escalate beyond - damage to morale - but that's potentially significant, I do not know exactly how lucky I am that Grec's favorite is the quartermaster's assistant instead of one of the others and I do not have matching luck with every officer."

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"Yeah, it - is definitely the kind of thing that would make the people who are already unhappy with the situation feel really poorly-done-by."

She sighs. "It's frustrating. We're not, in fact, planning on having sex. But despite my quite-good people skills, I almost certainly couldn't get the people who will be upset to believe that."

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"I'm not allowed to lie and I think people would prefer to disbelieve that than this particular assertion," he agrees.

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She giggles. "That they might."

...hugging?

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They can hug while awake! It is not that weird for him to meet people in his quarters during the day.

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Yep! And she can nuzzle him happily and squeeze her boobs up against him while they do. As is traditional. 

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wow yeah she can sure do that it's amazing how that works

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And she makes such cute little happy noises about it, too.

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It is really weird that this is a thing that can happen but it happening this much is eroding his skepticism about it. It's just one of those weird things that happens sometimes anyway, he supposes, like teleport traps that send people to have adventures on other planets and gods dying and fairies doing fairy things.

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Well, it's quite simple, you see. She fits here.

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She does.

He continues to have no idea how long hugs naturally are supposed to take.

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Well, he could try and guess based on how long Venn lets them go on?

Or he could ask.

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He could also just stand here holding her for like a weirdly long time. Seems to be working out so far.

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No complaints here! Just happy noises, nuzzles, and boob-forward squeezing.

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"Is it possible to play chess while hugging," he says, "perhaps if we both move the pieces by Prestidigitation, though I can only do that with ones I've made myself -" If he comes up with a way to also, simultaneously, eat pie, probably something very weird will happen, so he'll just have to not do that.

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The force of her burst of surprised laughter has her wriggling against him.

"I would," she says, as the sudden storm subsides in his arms, "I would be down to try it, though I cannot promise my full attention to the game."

And then she realizes that if she continues on this path she will at some point plausibly play strip chess with this man and the laughter is back, so hard she's barely able to stand, relying on him to hold her up.

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He can hold her up! She is not very big! Though he'll need to wait for her to catch her breath before he can spare a hand for the Prestidigitation. "I didn't realize it would be that funny."

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It is going to take her a bit to get there, but she does eventually rally valiantly. 

"Well, the first laugh was surprised happiness, because you are so delightfully yourself. I'm so happy you enjoy hugging me and I'm especially getting a lot of joy from - seeing you get used to the idea and start having ideas about - different ways to slot it into your life?" She beams up at him.

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The attitude that this strange girl has to him is surreal. "You are very nice to hug."

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"Thanks! I think it's the years of practice and ineffable bardic qualities." Grinnnnnn.

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He should cast his Prestidigitation before he says anything else in case she thinks it's funny. "Prestidigitation. ...Should I compare with more bards?"

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Prestidigitation. "For hugging? I would recommend it! A beautiful thing about hugs is that no two people do it exactly the same, and you also see lots of fun differences just from the shapes of the bodies involved. You couldn't rest your head on mine if I were taller than you!" But she could put his head right in her tits. "And you know, some people have scales or feathers or similar. I got a really delightful hug from a winged aasimar a few years back. She wrapped me in her wings!" 

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"I mostly meant that rhetorically, it would be - strange." The chessboard takes shape.

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"Huh." She looks up at him with a bit of concern. "...I do really value being able to hug my friends and friendly people. Do you think that will bother you? ...to be clear, the average hug lasts only for a few moments, long hugs like the ones we've been doing are - more romantically marked."

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"- well I didn't know that, should I let go of you -"

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Whoops. "I would like to keep hugging you, but if you want to stop now that you have this information about what average hugs are like, that is within your right."

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"...I suppose I don't perceive any particular obligation to have average hugs. I would not presume to tell you not to hug other people, if it comes up, either."

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Squeeze. "I'm glad, on both counts."

And they can try playing chess while hugging. (She may or may not attempt to be distractingly cute at him, once or twice.)

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If this affects his play it's not by very much unless you happen to be tracking whether his traps take three or four turns to spring.

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Tragic. (If anything, it's maybe net harmful to her play, because she enjoys doing a lot of micro-optimizations for Maximum Cute, and which distracts her from the board state.)

Still, she very much prefers this novel and exciting chess variant.

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Have they found about the right handicap yet? Will this be the day she wins one?

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It looks like maybe yes? If she can manage this endgame properly?

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He will fight her for it but it's a perfect information game and the avenues of possible surprisal are few.

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"Checkmate!" She beams up at him.

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"I do believe you're right. Congratulations."

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eeeee! She wants to...

...she gets up on her tiptoes and kisses him lightly on the cheek.

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It's really weird how sometimes Venn does things and the things are not that bizarre in the grand scheme of things and still somehow imbued with profound importance and that's one of those. He isn't sure what he's supposed to do about it. ..... he tips his king over. Which isn't about the kiss at all but is something other than just standing there frozen like an idiot.

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Well, she's smiling contentedly up at him and holding him close, so presumably it's an acceptable response in her point of view.

(She could construct some grand romantic narrative about it, this being him surrendering his heart to her etc etc. But she knows he just isn't sure what to do, and that's okay.)

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"Another?" It'll make his head quieter. Until and unless she does that again.

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"Of course." She's not planning on doing that again today, it would be too much for the poor man.

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They can stay at this handicap level, then. He makes the king stand back up and puts everything else back in place too.

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She helps! (She's still happily contained in his arms, but she's being less flirty about it.)

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"When you're a bit stronger at the base game I have a book of variants," he mentions, opening with a pawn.

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She smiles at him. "I look forward to trying them out." And to some variants of my own.

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Meanwhile, Yet Another Set Of Adventurers show up on a teleport-location-refresh march so that they can Carefully Study the Nth of many depressing stone fortress rooms and not blow themselves up if they appear.

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Tural sets himself down in a corner of the mess hall while the wizards do their important Looking Around. 

His aasimar features - flowing silver hair (shining in the light of the continual flames above), striking opal eyes (complete with rainbow flecks), and faintly glittering skin - are something he's usually happy to chat about, but at the Chelish forts, they tend to be... fraught. And the people are so sad to look at. He prefers to keep to himself, here.

He pulls out his drawing supplies and continues work on his latest sketch. Some people will stare, probably, but he doubts they'll interrupt.

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Several people look over his shoulder to check what he's drawing but they're not going to fuss about it as long as it isn't them. A tiefling sergeant across the room mimics his exact posture with a mimed canvas and his entire squad cracks up.

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He's well-practiced at ignoring such antics.

(He's drawing a waterfall that transforms as it falls into a star-filled sky.)

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Maybe one or two people linger to look at it for a moment as long as he doesn't call them on it.

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He doesn't visibly respond (though he does smile, internally. Art is for everyone who can appreciate it.)

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Venn glances around the dining hall as she enters, looking to see who's - 

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- wait, in the corner, is that -

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"Tural? Is that really you?"

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!!  He turns and looks - 

"Venn???"

-  he has no idea why she'd be here of all places but he's so happy. He jumps to his feet runs her way ("Oh Venn, it's been far too long, come here"), picking her up effortlessly and -

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(- her mind flashes back to the awkward conversation she and Blai had in the quinzee about default expectations, so she has the presence of mind to -)  

Grab onto his back, tuck her head past his before he can kiss her the way he's clearly expecting, and whisper rapidly "Hi Tural it's wonderful to see you and also I'm involved with someone and cannot kiss you, sorry -" 

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Oh! That's certainly a surprise.

 "-sorry!", he whispers back, finishing the twirl he's already started and then setting her down gently. In a more normal tone, he continues. "Oh, it's so good to see you! Though - what are you doing up here, when you left Almas you said you were going to Isarn, you can't have gotten that lost -"

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This is officially the most interesting thing happening in the room over and above Paret failing embarrassingly at his card trick. Everyone is watching them. Including Paret, causing him to fail embarrassingly at his card trick for the fourth time.

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Including the someone she is arguably involved with, descending the staircase.

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She gently ends the hug, heart still beating fast. "I did go to Isarn, and I'll have you know spent nine entire months there, but I ended up befriending a gnomish cleric who'd served up here for twenty years, and she managed to convince me with her stories that I needed to see it for myself..." She beams up at him. "And you - I'm guessing your wizards dragged you up here to partake in the bountiful spellbooks of Crusader's Fort? How's that been going?"

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He's grinning. "Yeah, I caved when Doris finally hit fifth - we're doing a fort circuit now, actually, making sure they remember it well enough that they can Teleport well." 

He looks around curiously. "So what's got you at Fort #11?" 

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Is it this guy who has decided that this friendly reunion probably is not an imminent threat to life limb or sanity and has gone to get himself a bowl of stew?

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Venn's eyes actually do flick in Blai's direction, though she catches it before anyone here might notice. 

"Oh, I think they just keep me around for my sunny personality," she says, smiling innocently. "it's either that or the healing, nobody's told me which yet." She glances around in a way that invites audience participation. 

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(Anyone stationed here, maybe. But Tural knows Venn and is really quite good at reading people, and he doesn't miss it. The Commander? Of a Chelish fort??)

He raises an eyebrow at her.

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"It's the musical entertainment. I hadn't even noticed it was magic," Txell volunteers with a perfectly straight face.

"Definitely the expertise on quasits," volunteers someone else.

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He laughs heartily. "Wait, she does music? Are you sure? I could have sworn she was just a bad archer with cantrips." 

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"Nope, she's a Good archer. That's why they let her borrow the Holy bow on patrol."

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And at that she bursts into laughter. "Alright, alright, if you're all done singing my accolades, might I bother with some introductions?"

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Tural does a deeply-exaggerated bow. "By all means, Lady Urdina. Please forgive this one's impudence."

(He's really not used to this kind of banter at a Chelish fort! He's pretty sure it's either because she's here or a hint as to why she's here, but which?)

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"Ooh, she's a lady? I didn't know that, I'll have to watch my ettiquettes or whatever."

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She ignores these antics, if you don't count the sparkling in her eyes. "Everyone, this is my friend Tural Starsong - we adventured together for a bit when we were both in Almas. He's one of those funny archers who refuse to wear armor so they can shoot more arrows, but more importantly, he has pretty hair that he's very proud of."

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He poses, holding some of it up to the light. (It is very pretty.)

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"Tural, these are some of my friends from Fort #11 - " she'll go through and introduce the heckling crowd one by one, with a little fact or funny tidbit for each of them.

"And this is Txell. Honestly, I haven't really figured out what she does besides make funny hand motions? Sometimes glitter or grease appears afterwards; I'm still trying to figure out if it's related or just a coincidence."

(Does Blai seem interested in joining?)

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Blai is the commander of the entire fort and must not be observed to hesitate to enter a social situation and sit therein if he so chooses lest he look ridiculous, and so he is sitting with Lt. Espina at the next table over because that was something he was able to do decisively.

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"Yeah, things just happen around me," says Txell, turning Venn's hair hot pink with an innocent expression on her face. "The handwaving's a nervous tic. Miracle they let me join the army."

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Wait, what did she -

HEY

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Tural doubles over, howling with laughter.

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"Commander," she calls out, "what's the protocol for reporting strange curses of unknown origins, again?"

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"Bewildering effects suspected to be magical and/or enemy action are to be brought to the attention of the ranking officer." He sips water. "I have noted this one."

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(Tural had just made his save against that fit of laughter and now he's being forced to roll again. With disadvantage. It's very unfair.)

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"Thank you, sir! I'll keep you updated." She rolls her eyes and casts Prestidigitation.

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"My handwaving! It's contagious!"

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"Another one for the commander to note! That's Select Blai Artigas, by the way, I don't know if you met earlier," she says to Tural.

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Tural pulls himself together, a bit regretfully. "Ah, no, not yet! A pleasure to meet you." He bows respectfully.

Select, huh. How - what - 

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Does this person have a rank. "Starsong" is a ridiculous surname and it would be way better if he were obviously some kind of cleric or officer with a rank so that it could be omitted. Alas. "Mr. Starsong, welcome to #11."

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"Thank you! It's a pleasure." His curiosity is killing him, but he can't just ask the man "so, how are you finding your new God"...

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Blai would agree that he can't just do that if posed the question of whether you can just do that. He's got a thin remaining spiel for welcoming adventurers: "Please let me or my second-in-command First Arcane Grec know if you or your party require anything you're not getting," and then he doesn't really have more things to say in this situation. He eats his stew.

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Venn gets herself a bowl of stew, and then she and Tural will trade adventuring stories from the last year and a half, in a way that makes it clear that anyone who wants to ask questions or just listen in is welcome to.

She takes a break to do her midday healing song, when the time comes.

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Ahh, it really is good to see her.

Tural and his wizards ("incidentally, I know you know Fayn is an arcanist - what is even the point in keeping that joke running when he's not even here") have picked up a gnomish cleric, apparently - she's currently napping in one of the fort's guest rooms. (The ranger they used to travel with lost an arm and retired.)

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"What kind of cleric?"

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"Ah, she's a Desnian, Select."

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"Probably unlikely to wrangle any empowered converts even if she can be convinced to preach, up here, then. Alas."

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"She wouldn't mind, and, ah, strange things do happen, but - probably not, yeah." Venn just smirked at him while nobody else was looking her way, she knows how curious he is,

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Who, her? Nooooo.

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Something sure is getting communicated there but he doesn't know what it is. He nods politely and clears his empty bowl.

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Eventually Tural's party is ready to head out. (He did finally get a quieter conversation with Venn, and. gosh. It's very her! He wishes her luck.) He'll say goodbye and give Venn a (much shorter) hug.

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Awww, that was such a pleasant surprise. 

She drops by Blai's office again the next time they're both free.

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That's actually not till the next day since they're doing patrols in opposite directions most days now but here he is! "Hello, Venn."

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"Hi, Blai!" Hug?

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Hug! "Our neighbors appear to still be holding up acceptably."

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"They had some badly wounded men on my side, but we got there in time, and I got them all fully healed. I'm really enjoying having Exquisite Accompaniment, it helps a lot."

(As usual, she's very relaxed-happy in his arms! ...today she also seems a biiit sleepy.)

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"You're... drooping."

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Oh, whoops. So she is. "...ah, sorry. Haven't had a chance to nap today, aaand" (she barely stifles a yawn) "I want'd to come see you."

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"Well, if you will settle for non-visual contact and it would help you nap, I have still not quite finished the Acts and could read them and hold you."

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Oh! She nods excitedly. "The physical contact is more than sufficient." (The nodding maybe was an overexertion! She's drooping again.)

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He collects his book and whisks girl and book both into his room where there is a bed.

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Venn is not so droopy that she cannot crawl into a bed and make room for a snuggle partner, though her eyes do not remain open the whole time.

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They don't have to. He locates a good reading-and-snuggling position and then adopts the role of furniture.

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She wraps herself around him happily and sighs in content.

"thaaaaank yoooooou," she murmurs.

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"You're welcome." ...boldly, he pets her hair, once.

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"mmmmmmmmm," she says, leaning into it.

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Amazing! Perhaps he will pet her hair again.

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He will get similarly-happy noises!

And also tighter clinging.

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Well if he extrapolates forward from that he is not sure how she will ever get to sleep. Maybe he will just let the hand that is not holding his book rest on her head very still so she can drop off properly and not be constantly emitting non-sleep feedback updates.

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She nuzzles his chest, but lacking the headpetting stimulus she is out like a light in a few minutes. 

She's a clingy sleeper.

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The traditional solution to her sleep problem -

- was not actually described to him as "step 1: Blai Artigas gets ludicrously ahead of himself and formulates delusions" so he shouldn't do that and instead he should read the Acts.

While holding her snugly.

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She certainly doesn't seem to be having any trouble sleeping snugly in his arms. 

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Good.

He is nearly through the Acts, he's been reading them in dribs and drabs, but if she takes a long nap he can just start again from the beginning and come to know them better.

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Then Venn will sleep better than she has in months. 

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This he will have no way to know unless she tells him because he has not spent those months accounting for all her sleeping arrangements.

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She eventually stirs in the characteristic way of someone about to wake up. 

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...he does not know if there are separate cuddling protocols for someone about to wake up so he holds still and waits.

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There's an obvious moment when she becomes aware of something that makes her smile and squeeze herself against him. "mmmmmmhi."  

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"Hello." ......hairpet.

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eeee!

She makes a happy noise about this. 

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Wow okay. Pet pet.

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More happy noises! 

 

Though, hmmmmm, it would be even better iffff...

Venn places her hand over his, fingers interlocking. "Try like this?"

She demonstrates How To Skritch A Venn. 

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Is she... itchy, or... well anyway he can try this! Scritch scritch.

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This makes her wriggle happily! "Mmmmmmmmmmmmhhhh."

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This strategy will continue to produce new happy noises and wriggles for some time!

"mmmmmaahhhhhhghmm...:

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Wow he really hopes nobody chooses to knock on the door before she is ?no longer itchy? or whatever is going on there.

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Venn would also hope this, if she were having more complicated thoughts than "hhhghfhehgh ✨Blaiiiii ✨".

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Howwwwww does she pronounce his name like that. That's not normal.

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Probably it's some obscure song-sorcery! They're well known for their sonic effects, you see.

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That would explain it!

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Another hypothesis might be that she's very cute, has a beautiful voice, and enjoys his company! There's several facts in evidence pointing at this.

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Let's not overinterpret the data.

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But it's fuuuuuun. And she's making such cute noises! Pressed so warmly against him!

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That's very lovely but it is not necessary to read too much into it!

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Ok well. He can keep collecting evidence. She doesn't mind.

(She'll keep responding like this for a while, but eventually if he doesn't stop she'll just squeeze him happily and sigh.)

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That is probably his cue that she is ?no longer itchy?. He stops scritching.

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Mmmmm... "Thank you. That felt really nice."

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"You're welcome."

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She looks at him thoughtfully a bit. "Did you have any questions about Tural? I won't mind."

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"...I hadn't gotten to the point of formulating complete questions. I assume he is someone you previously... knew..."

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Thaaat makes sense. She leans into him, a bit.

 "Okay. So - people vary a lot about how much they care about or want to know this kind of thing, but - in addition to being a friend and someone I adventured with, he was someone I shared a bed with and had casual sex with, sometimes, when we were both in Almas."

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"I think the phrase 'casual sex' may actually be new to me. The phrase more than the thing, the thing does occur in Chelish people, but usually in a way where you phrase the entire sentence as having one active party."

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Venn nods. "I thought that might be the case. The thing I mean is 'mutually-enjoyable sex that is not part of a romantic relationship', which is a thing I have done in the past with various people I am friendly with and find physically attractive but did not want to make substantial commitments to. And... I would not expect it to be a thing that happens very commonly in Chelish society, both because it's a very bad idea if you don't trust the other person, and because I get the impression that mutually-enjoyable sex is... rare." She's controlling her reactions pretty carefully and therefore only looks a bit sad about that. 

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"People may be managing it all the time, I wouldn't expect them to notify me. It would probably come about somewhat more accidentally."

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She nods, and looks at Blai carefully. "...so, there's a lot of different things I could talk more about, but you seem a little... overwhelmed, and I'm not quite sure why. Can I ask some questions to try and narrow it down?" She wants to put an arm on his, but while he definitely enjoys the physical contact, she's pretty sure he's too unfamiliar with it to find it comforting.

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"You can do that."

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Venn shifts to a sliiightly academic tone. "So... some ways someone in your position might feel would be..." she starts counting off on her fingers.

"...still confused in some way about how my friendship with Tural worked and not sure if it's acceptable to ask follow-up questions." 

"...unsure and worried about what my past with Tural suggests about my current feelings for him, or about his for me."

"...finding it unpleasant to think about sex in general, for any number of reasons." 

"...finding it unpleasant to think about or interact with a specific person who I've had sex with." 

And she watches his reactions to each of these very carefully. 

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It's not unheard of in Cheliax for people to be something you'd round to 'friends' and also having sex. If he just sort of smashes together his understandings of what the most... for some reason the term he's got is "low-investment", where if an arrangement were instead "high-investment" they'd instead be putting lots of effort into getting the upper hand and the thing he's describing is that they're instead both just showing up?... the most low-investment regular hookup arrangements he knows of between gay people, who do not have the prospect of marriage or the possibility of pregnancy automatically forming a built-in upper hand they have to counteract or lean into... with the fact that Venn knows Alter Self and Tural is a man... then that all comes to a picture about as comprehensibly as anything foreign does. He is definitely unsure if it's all right to ask follow-up questions what with how this entire thing is traditionally private. With lots of exceptions, people will laugh and tell sex stories in various contexts, but since Blai has never wanted to do that he has not studied exactly which contexts, let alone whether any of this gossip was Evil.

That's when they're still both showing up, though, it gets - ugly - when somebody stops showing up, how did that work - huggily, apparently, in this case, but like how. What sort of graceful conduct will be expected of Blai when she leaves he does not need this information because they're not even kissing really, obviously what will be expected of him is that he simply not have an outsized response to the completely normal state of No Longer Routinely Hugging A Visiting Bard, a state he spent almost his entire life in.

He kind of does not want her to ask about that one time in seminary but it does get more conspicuous every time she could and doesn't that she could and hasn't. The less things are like that one time in seminary the less unpleasant they are to think about but it is not untrue that the category "sex" includes exclusively things that are at least a little bit like it.

...it's not that it is necessarily inherently unpleasant for Tural to, like, exist. She did already mention that she has had sex with people before and, like, sure, there's one of them, any group of people implies some individual people existing, the implications would be way weirder and worse if somehow everyone she'd ever slept with was instead dead so it's not outrageous for one to pop up alive. He just does not have a model of how he should relate to Tural besides, like. Treaty obligations. He doesn't know what Tural knows. He doesn't know what there even is for Tural to know, sort of, he can rehearse the events but doesn't know what they add up to besides "not that, you lunatic".

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Hmmm.

From his small head and facial movements, she's getting the impression that he thinks he has a decent model of casual sex as it applies here, but definitely isn't sure if asking questions is okay, which is straightforward to address.

He - was thinking something and then ran into a mental wall, based on the way he stopped, only for a tiny amount but all at once. (Blai doesn't really have the social mannerisms of an anxious person, but his body language and the quinzee conversion about his thoughts suggests to her that he just keeps a good lid on it. Outside of chess, it's rare for him to be totally still.) This doesn't actually help her figure out where he got stuck, but it's info to file away. 

The way he averts his eyes for a fraction of a moment and clenches his jaw very slightly - is identical, actually, to how he reacted when he mentioned one time in seminary, which, she has had the time to think about and draw the unfortunately-likely conclusion. The way he looks at her after makes it clear that he isn't sure why she hasn't asked - she should probably clear that up. 

From the mildly furrowed brow and his hand and arm movements the main thing she's getting about how he feels about Tural is a lot of uncertainty (which for him is somewhat unpleasant).

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"...I'm not going to ask about what happened in seminary," she says softly. "I think you'll find it helpful to talk about, at some point, but it's up to you to decide if and when you want that." 

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...he hates deciding things, but okay.

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Venn catches that. She does not sigh. (It - makes sense, right, it's part and parcel with the things about Blai that had him going from Chosen to Select in ten days, the law and the law puzzles, how much he'd wanted the Acts and Lastwall's handbook - it's much easier for him when he has rules, tools, a framework for making decisions.)

And he doesn't have a framework for "when is it Correct to talk to someone about my trauma", and she doesn't know how to give him one, because her brain doesn't work like that

But... she can give him something, at least. "If you don't want to make that decision, I can just - pay attention, and if I'm ever pretty sure it'd be good for you, ask you then?" She pauses. "...I will at least need you to indicate to me in some way that you'd prefer that to deciding for yourself, even if it's just a slight nod of your head."

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"- that seems fine?" he offers.

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She smiles warmly at him. "Thank you." What next... probably the casual sex stuff.

"You can ask me any question you'd like about casual sex, including my personal experiences, even stuff you wouldn't normally ask someone because it'd be rude or inappropriate." she says lightly. "There's some stuff I won't tell you because it's not mine to tell, or because I might not be comfortable talking about it right now, but I don't expect that last one to come up very much, and I won't be bothered that you asked. ...It's useful for me, even if I can't necessarily give you answers, to know what you're wondering about."

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"...you don't think that any of the other people who might consider this information proprietary would mind?"

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"Some definitely would, and that's what I meant about questions I might not answer because the answers aren't mine to tell! But I can answer a lot of questions based on commonalities of my experiences with getting into any specific instance, and there are some people I have had sex with I know well enough to be confident about what things they'd be fine with me sharing, in this context." 

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"You're not still - going out of your way to see -" she did literally just see Tural yesterday, if only because he appeared in her field of vision "any of these people."

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She nods. "Yeah. In a lot of cases - including Tural - we both knew that we wanted different things out of our lives and neither of us felt like the thing we had together was more valuable than what we'd want out of our future, so sooner or later our paths would diverge and that would be okay. That is a type of conversation I think it is wise to have before having sex with someone, so that everyone is on the same page." The fact that Venn has not, historically, been perfectly wise can come up if he asks, or much much later, if they get to the point of it being good for them both to talk about her vulnerable feelings. 

She tilts her head a bit. "It's - similar in shape to my sleeping alone thing, really. My life is better in measurable ways when I have someone to share a bed with. It's also better when I'm having sex regularly. But there are things that are more important to me than either of those, and that's why I left Almas to go to Isarn and ended up here, instead of staying in Tural's party and bed."

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...okay, so when she leaves it won't be anything personal and just the thing where he lives at a Worldwound fort?

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She looks at him in concern. "...I don't know what you're thinking, but - an example of the kind of thing I mean when I say we want different things about our lives is that an important feature of the situation with Tural is that he doesn't want to settle down with someone in this lifetime unless they both like each other so much that they feel like it's mutually obvious they'll stay together in Elysium. And we did not feel anything nearly like that about each other, and even if we had, I'm not Chaotic." 

She pauses, studying his reaction to that, and... oh...

"...Blai, I wouldn't have told you I was romantically interested in you if I didn't - feel strongly enough about you to want to see if the kinds of things we want out of our lives could agree with each other. I don't know if right now is the best time for that conversation, because we're still getting to know each other in a lot of ways, but - I'm not blind, I've known for a while that you wouldn't want something casual, and I wouldn't ask you for that."

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How does she know these things and then also say with a straight face that she doesn't know what he's thinking!!!

They never did unhug so he can squeeze her a little bit. Gently. Squishy arcane caster.

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She squeezes back. "I" love you "want good things for you."

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What is the - okay she's not literally telepathic, he probably has to formulate SOME words that have sounds in them - "What is the thing you want out of your life?"

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"My deepest desire is that - I don't want to stay in the same place forever. There are a lots of different ways this could work, in a life I'm sharing with someone - we could travel together, we could live in one place together for some of the time and I could spend a mutually-agreed-upon amount of time travelling, but - I need to go to new places, meet new people, learn new things, trade songs and stories and laughter. I wouldn't be me, if I wasn't doing that with my life." 

She takes a deep breath. "If I can find someone who is okay with that - I want to have a lifelong committed relationship with someone who I love and respect and look up to for their virtues and who feels similarly about me, even if we're very different people - and ideally we would be, even though I could be happy with a lot of people similar to myself, because I feel like some of the strongest and most beautiful partnerships I've seen were between very different people who complement each other well. Obviously the traditional form of that kind of relationship is marriage, but I don't think it matters to me if it's specifically that or not. ...I'm not strongly committed in either direction to children, I could see it being really good with the right person and setup but if it's not feasible I would be okay with that and it would certainly not be my default assumption."

(Venn is struggling to maintain eye contact, here, eyes watering up a bit. She's being pretty open with her body language, usually very tightly measured - this is important to her, and she's had this kind of conversation before, and the best way it's ever ended is with a supportive and gentle rejection.)

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WHY IS SHE SCARED DID HE DO SOMETHING SCARY

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She sees him tense up and hurriedly interrupts - "Sorry, sorry, you haven't done anything wrong!" (She tightens up her body language a little bit.)

"It's just - inherently a scary conversation, for me, even when it's obviously worth having, like right now."

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"Why?" He's scared of everything all the time for no reason but she doesn't usually seem to have this affliction.

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"...well, because each time I've gotten into a position to have it, the person I was having it with told me that they couldn't accept the travel thing, and half of them told me it was unreasonable to want." she says, quietly.

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"You told multiple different people that they could keep you around most of the time and they decided they would prefer that you leave forever?"

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She wants to kiss him so badly but she isn't completely sure it's the right thing to do and she really really wants to be careful with him, so she instead squeezes him as hard as her squishy caster arms can (not very hard) "I - you really would be ok with that?" because even though he very strongly implied it and also his body language did too, it doesn't feel real -

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"I don't want you to leave forever," he says softly.

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Oh Blai

- she moves her mouth towards his, slowly, watching him carefully to see if it's too much for him -

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wow he did not know this was the part of the example where this happened??

maybe he is just being delusional and she is going to do something other than what he thinks she's going to do

FUCK FUCK FUCK HE HAS NO IDEA HOW TO KISS

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No need to worry! Venn will teach him!

It goes like this. 

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DOES HE JUST DO THE EXACT SAME THING? MIRRORED OR WITH LEFT AND RIGHT PRESERVED??

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Oh no he's so cute

"You can copy the things I'm doing or do similar ones," she says softly, lips moving against his as she talks. "I'll tell you if I want you to do anything differently."

Kisssss.

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What counts as similar!

Still, he has settled on "guess madly" over "give up" as a strategy here.

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Well, she's continuing to participate enthusiastically! So he's probably doing alright.

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Implausible, but he cannot rule it out!

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She's making happy noises, too! More evidence for the pile.

 

 

But eventually she is going to pull back a bit and look at him, smiling happily. "I am really enjoying this, but - when is your next commitment? I don't actually know how long I slept for."

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"I'm taking a double patrol late and expect to be out overnight, but unless someone knocks don't have anything on until dinner and it's not dinner on my schedule yet."

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She nods. "Before, uh, we get distracted with any more of that - I wanted to ask what you want out of your future, as you best understand it. I have some guesses" (he won't leave this fort unless Lastwall reassigns him, she's pretty sure) "but - they're just guesses, right, and they don't cover a lot of things."

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"...in theory I could have put in for a reassignment to a domestic post after I'd been here for a few years but I... didn't do that... and I don't know the new regime's policies or indeed whether they have implemented any and am still presently the only permanently emplaced cleric of greater than first circle on the entire northern border. - someone close to the eastern end of our part of the line managed Gozreh, word came in earlier, and they're reassigning him two forts farther in so he can cover more, but - at any rate I do not know when if ever I will be dispensable here."

This is not an answer to her question because he doesn't have one of those.

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She nods. "Presumably they'll get more clerics up here at some point, but I don't expect it to be especially soon. For now, we'll do as much as we can." (She's going the other direction than he is tonight with Txell's squad, so they can head two forts in the other direction.) Gentle smile.

(It's - an answer in that it tells her what she already suspected; he doesn't know what he wants. But he's already told her the important thing, which is that he doesn't want her to leave forever. And if it takes her a while to figure out what else he wants for him - well. The worldwound isn't going anywhere, and even if she is, she'll be back.)

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Nod nod.

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She should tell him - "I know the conversation topic has moved pretty far, but - I did want to tell you that, uh, Tural wanted to kiss me, yesterday. I turned him down. I'm pretty sure he was assuming that I was still not committed to anyone." Ah, wait. "Which was, I suppose, technically true, but - I already knew I wanted to have this conversation with you." 

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"I don't know what I'm supposed to do with that information," Blai says, out loud with noises and everything.

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" You don't have to do anything with it," Venn says gently. "It just didn't seem like something I should keep from you." 

She places her arm on his. 

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She's very good and he does not want her to go away forever and it is absolutely insane that "not wanting her to go away forever" is a distinguishing characteristic. "...is it the sort of thing that will keep coming up?"

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Venn is not visibly running through a mental list of people she's slept with in the past. (This is because she has very good control of her body language.)

"I think it's pretty unlikely? I could see it happening with one or two other people if I ran into them again, and last I heard one of them had finally gone ahead with her plan to settle down in Tian Xia and find a husband there, and the other was going to take a pause from his travels and spend several years writing up a collection of histories, personal accounts, and treatises - he's an elf." 

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"I've never met a full elf," Blai says inanely. "- would you wind up going as far as Tian Xia, I don't have a sense of your - projected range of travel -"

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"I've only met a few!" but she'll valiantly make her save against waxing poetic about elves.

Instead, she squeezes his arm and says "I don't want to be away for more than a season at a time. If I can find a way to go to Tian Xia and back in a season, safely, then I probably will, because I do want to see it. ...I know it's not especially likely until something big changes here, but I'd love to go there together, someday." She's blushing. 

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"It's a long trip. Unless there's an obliging teleporter."

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"I do wish Txell would hurry up and hit fifth," she says, with a completely straight face. "It would make my life so much easier." 

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"I suppose she could get a destination if she could scry your -" What is the word here. Is it 'friend'. Is it 'ex'. Is it 'erstwhile party member'.

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"- friend," she finishes for him gently. "Her name is Sereh - her mother is from over there, came over as a kid, and Sereh's always wanted to go find the rest of her family and see if they agree with her better." Understandably so - her father and his brothers were all pretty terrible.

She leans into him, sighing happily.

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"There you go, simply give a sufficient description to Guiu and find her a lot of appropriately calibrated fights and the rest of this idea should be relatively straightforward."

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She nods happily "It's that easy!" and kisses him, giggling. 

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It's happening again!! Wow!!

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It is! She's doing some interesting new things with how she moves her lips, too, and her hands are running up and down his arms... 

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He has technically had arms for his ENTIRE life and yet this application of them has never occurred to him before!

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See, this is why it's useful to have a bard around. They're soooo good at knowing things. They have multiple entire class features for it!

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He does like having this bard around! Enough that he does not want her to go away forever and is somehow the first person to express this opinion!

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He's not the first! Just the first who she likes enough to stick around for.

(It hasn't quite come up yet, and - it's hard to talk about, for her. Easier to face the times she's been hurt over the times when she's hurt people. ...She's at least self-aware enough to know that this isn't great. She's working on it.)

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Anyway kissing is one of those things he has no native understanding of how long it's supposed to happen.

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An arcanist named Liv that Venn fooled around with in Isarn once posited to her that kissing is best modeled as an unstable equilibrium, because you rarely keep kissing for that long - either you end up disengaging because you have other things to be doing than each other, or you stop kissing because you have better ways to be doing each other. Venn had countered that this wasn't true for the stage of a relationship where kissing was the maximally permitted escalation - you could stay there for quite a while. (Liv smugly claimed that she was still right on long enough timescales. Venn had brightly agreed and stopped kissing her until she admitted that this was a stupid fucking argument.) 

(She's not saying any of this out loud to Blai. They can keep kissing (with some light arms-and-shoulders petting) until dinnertime.)

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And when it is dinnertime they can go get some stew.

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Stew! She loves stew! (As long as she's allowed to flavor it. Which she is!)

(...she should make her lips taste fruity next time they kiss.)

She finds Txell and squad and joins them, doing a good but perhaps not perfect job of hiding her improved mood.

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"Wow, who dumped a decent clove of garlic in your stew?"

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"As a respectable wielder of the arcane I have of course flavored it myself!" she says, grinning. "This is true both literally and metaphorically."

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"Garlic doesn't work right that way. If you eat enough real garlic you get a garlic aura for, like, hours. I am not obliged by the Worldwound treaty to let you dodge a question that easy, come on."

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"Even though I'm soooo pretty and funny? Surely there's a treaty provision for that."

But she'll whisper into Txell's ear: "So I've been playing chess with Select Artigas in in my spare time, because I like stealing people's hobbies, and I finally beat him! With a handicap, of course, but it was still great."

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Txell cackles. "Congratulations, Miss So-Pretty-And-Funny."

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She laughs in turn. "Thank you! I'm planning on being insufferably pleased with myself all evening." 

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"I only ever played him once and he creamed me. It's supposed to be, y'know, a kind of wizardy game," Txell says in a lower voice. "And yet."

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"He's the first cleric I've known who was really into it! Maybe it's all the Law..." 

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"Yeah I bet inevitables are good at chess."

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"Probably! Maybe they have weird inevitable games that are like chess but way more complicated."

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"Hell, I bet you're right. They can't do normal magic any more so they have to make shit up to do."

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She laughs. "You know, Txell, a lot of people here can't do normal magic, either."

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"The ones who'd be any good at games like that can!"

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She shakes her head, grinning. "Nah, some of them just make weird potions instead of getting into wizardry. I partied up with one for a month or so, once; he was definitely wizard smart and just decided to do something else with his talents, including being a walking library." 

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"Weird potions? Weird how? Like did he cast anything into them or what?"

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"He swore up and down that he wasn't doing magic, and he didn't have cantrips! But he'd mix up stuff that worked like spells in a bottle, just... not shelf-stable. Some of it was your usual potion stuff, but he could also do stuff I've never seen potions for... Shield, Alter Self, Identify..." 

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"Huh! - if it wasn't magic could you just swipe his ingredients and copy him?"

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She looks thoughtful. "You know, I never thought to try! He had limits per day kind of like a wizard, though, so I'd be  surprised if it really did work like that, unless I studied a lot more than I was going to."

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"Yeah, that smells like magic to me."

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"It does seem like it in spirit even if Detect Magic wouldn't necessarily agree," she says affably.

Any interesting gossip about, before they head out on their overnight patrol?

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The new Gozrehn down the line got into a huge fight with his new CO after his reassignment and the general in charge of the whole Chelish Worldwound operation apparently took a leaf out of Artigas's book and reassigned him again because he's more valuable than the guy he had a fight with and might be close to channeling positive if nobody puts him in a tough spot.

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Oh! She hopes that works out for the guy, really, they do really need the channels.

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They really do, that's why Blai's on his way out after his stew for a long overnight.

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Yep! She's ready to head out with Txell and co in the other direction.

She absolutely cannot kiss him goodbye! She will wave the same way she would have yesterday.

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Wave. It's a pretty restrained wave, basically just displaying his palm in her direction and then dropping it again.

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He is so cute she's going to explode actually no she isn't she's so normal. 

Patrol time! 

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This patrol, as most patrols, is uneventful. Snowy, but not enough to make it hard to see the wardline.

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Then Venn can deposit the rest of her healing (and a bit of courage, once everyone's healed) and then bunk up for the night. 

(She doesn't sleep as well as she did in Blai's arms, of course, but the memory of being held so recently does help a fair bit.)

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She'll get back to #11 before him; he's not there till it's lunchtime.

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She'll get caught up on her gossip and heal anyone who got hurt while they were both out! 

And then maybe they can spend more time together. If he wants.

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Unfortunately while he's having his lunch one of the camp followers - a kitchen girl - stomps her way out of the kitchen right up to Blai and says something, voice tight, volume too low to be clearly heard from where Venn is sitting.

Blai picks up his stew bowl and accompanies the kitchen girl up the stairs to his office gravely.

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Oh. 

 

There's a lot of things that could be but the most likely one is going to end in an execution. (- he posted the rules, they know what he's like about rules -)

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Quietly, one at a time, seven men are interrupted at lunch or whatever else they're doing by a runner, and disappear up the stairs.

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...after the third, Venn excuses herself.

(It's - too hard to think about how she actually feels, with this many eyes to see. And - she'll probably be needed after, people are going to be stunned and upset and trying to make sense of it and this is happening because she's here and so the least she can do is help with the aftermath -)

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By then there's a healthy buzz developing. "- not even one of the actual whores?"

"She's not even pretty."

"- of Truth tomorrow, what a lot of rigmarole -"

"- so who does she think she is?"

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She's not going to seek any of it out, but hey, she's here at a table to talk or flavor food if people swing by, playing her lute. 

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Txell'll sit with her, though she doesn't have a bowl, maybe she ate earlier. "Seven guys, they're saying," she says. "Like they think it'll protect them if they've got company."

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Seven. "That poor woman. Also - did they think Artigas was joking? What did they think would happen?" 

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"Dunno. Heard something about a Zone of Truth, maybe we'll all get to watch and find out what they thought."

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She winces, and only mostly keeps it off her face. "Did they say when?" 

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"I'd assume the Zone has to wait till the morning. I guess Vallvé would know if Artigas'll have to move his patrol to do the whole shebang first thing in the morning, maybe he wouldn't bother doing that and instead'll let them stew all day and kill them after dinner? Only with the supply I think he might resent the extra fourteen bowls of stew, that's in the handbook too that he can't just not feed them."

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...she should - go talk to Blai, ask to be allowed to talk to them before they're executed, just in case they can repent.

She doesn't want to. She really doesn't want to. 

She doesn't reply to Txell right away.

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"Don't they do this at Iomedaean forts? What, does it just never come up because they don't have dicks or something?"

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"The men are good at keeping them in their pants, at the Lastwall forts, even when there's a gorgeous bard interested," she says, like she didn't just space out really obviously. In a hushed voice, she adds "One can only assume that Iomedae in Her wisdom has instructed them all in the proper usage of their hands." 

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All right that deserves a decent quality snicker. "Maybe there should be a workshop on that. Proper Uses of Hands meets right before Demonology, since after it you won't be in the mood, unless you are specifically taking the succubus class and then you shouldn't be."

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She giggles weakly. "Yeah. ...I'm not teaching that one, though." 

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"Yeah, it should be someone who has lots of practice, like Paret."

"You realize there's fuckall to do up here," says Paret.

"There's kitchen girls, apparently, if you don't value your life."

"She's not even pretty."

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"Nothing wrong with spending spare time honing one's blade," Venn says innocently. "You don't want to be caught off-guard if you ever end up needing to use it someday." 

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"You wanna check my work? I wanna know how thorough the blue theme is."

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"I don't think I could do that to your hand, really, it seems like you've got a good thing going and I couldn't bear to interfere," she says, in the tones of a woman who is definitely turning someone down. 

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"Hmmmm," says Paret, "how much do I value my life." But he is not being particularly serious about this, it's just a really Chelish joke.

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Venn rolls her eyes and artfully changes the topic to gossip fragments from the further off fort she and Txell were at. Apparently they've got a ranger among the enlisted there and he's good enough to cast one or two first circles every day, which isn't nearly enough healing to keep a fort at combat readiness but has helped them keep people from dying. "He's not the kind with an animal friend, though," she adds, clearly vaguely disappointed about this. 

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"Maybe he'll get one. To spite whoever expected to be first in line for healing. Are you this mournful about wizards who don't have familiars?"

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Venn shakes her head immediately. "Nah. Familiars are really different. I like them just fine, but it's usually a much less interesting dynamic to me."

She's met enough casters with chatty ravens to have noticed the pattern where they get more cunning as their masters circle up, but not any more independent, and it's kind of distressing to think about what their lives must be like. Most of them can't even talk to anyone else! 

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"Huh. What's so great about animal friends?"

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"Hmmm, for me it's less about the animals specifically, and more about - how the relationship works? I was told by the least cryptic Druid I've met that there's a bit of Green magic binding them, but it mostly just lends strength to the animal. So they have a relationship that's in a lot of ways set up on the animal's terms, and whether their person understands that intellectually or intuitively it's really interesting to see how it plays out, and it's really different based on the kind of animal."

She grins. "Also, they're often big and fluffy." 

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Txell makes a bit of a face, but not for very long. "You've met enough druids to rank them by crypticness, huh?"

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...hmmm, that was definitely something, but she's not sure what, and... she is not in an especially investigative mood, right now.

Storytime takes much less mental effort, though. "I've met like four Druids, and one of them was only moderately cryptic and evasive! ...I got the sense from the others that they had already decided that trying to have real conversations with outsiders was a waste of time." She shrugs. "I spent an hour with one of them doing my best cryptic nonsense impression back at them, which was pretty fun. We would just take turns saying things like time is the loneliest wind of them all and nodding gravely while pretending not to notice the way half the pub was staring at us." 

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"Oh that sounds absolutely hysterical, I am right there with that half of the pub laughing my ass off," cackles Txell.

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"Tend carefully to the roots of the tree that is your soul", she says seriously. 

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Hee hee hee hee!

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She can keep going with those for a while, but she does run out eventually.

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That's okay, it turns out an hour was an overestimate for how long it'd be funny.

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Venn... really doesn't want to ask about doing pre-execution counseling for rapists. But she should at least check on Blai, if she can find a moment to drop by his office? 

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He's re-reading the relevant section of the handbook when she comes in and has the Acts open as a crossreference.

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He looks up when she comes in, though.

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-she sees the look on his face and hurries across the room to wrap her arms around him. 

"I'm not going anywhere," she whispers, face pressed against him.

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Oh that's better. He still has to kill seven dudes but he does not have to also drive off Venn in so doing. Hug.

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"It sucks," she says, after a while, her face still buried in him. "I knew it was probably going to happen, but I guess - I guess I was hoping after the first they'd realize you were serious and stop." She laughs hollowly. "I guess they will now - that poor woman -" 

(...she's a lot less composed than usual.)

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"...do you want more details or not?"

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...she thinks for a moment and then nods. (She's going to want to check up on her, and she's probably going to offer to help with the spiritual guidance even if she still doesn't want to, so... knowing will help.)

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"I have to confirm everything with the Zone tomorrow but the picture I presently have is that it was not - novel behavior, except for the going about it in a pack, which they seem to have done this time so that none of them would be singled out, on the theory that I might not be willing to lose seven at one stroke. I'm not sure if she found this more objectionable or if she would have reported to me anyway. - I'm going to forbid men as a class from the kitchen wing entire for anything short of active fire or demonic attack, there's nothing we ever need to do in there except the butcher and he can work somewhere else if even one kitchen staffer even hesitates to tell me to let him in, if something in that wing comes up I'll send Farre y Puig."

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Augh. "...she almost certainly found it more objectionable, even if she would have reported it anyways.  ...and I think those are reasonable precautions, considering." 

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"They mostly did not try to deny it except for the first one I happened to see, presumably all assuming he'd corroborated what she told me, so I expect an unsurprising Zone and some executions after it." Sigh.

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Sigh.

 "...I - I really don't want to do spiritual counseling for them," she says quietly after a while. "It's  - I think I could do a decent job, and I probably will, but I just... I don't want to. I wish there was a Sarenrite here to do it instead." 

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"- oh, I was assuming I would have to attempt it, the language in both books strongly suggests that it is a cleric thing and there are no others."

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"I think that's because Lastwall-trained clerics get special training for it? Which nobody here has." She leans into him more. "The basic idea is just - in rare cases, people can realize all at once that they do sincerely regret their past choices and renounce them, and this can change how they are Judged even if they don't act on it. It... almost never works, but - almost never is better than never, right, so it's still worth doing..."

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"That was the principle on which I tried Iomedae," he agrees, "I didn't think I was likely to be as far up as Neutral but it is possible to switch in a moment - but I'm not really sure it will - translate well -"

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"Yeah. And - I don't think 'well, you are about to be executed anyways, this is a chance to not go to Hell' is a useful frame for repentance. ...In an ideal world they would get this talk from someone who wasn't, like, having to supress how upset she felt about what they'd done. But - that's not the world we live in."

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"I suppose we could give them all their pick of the two of us, though I don't know if they'll be any good at guessing what they'll require in this situation."

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"That seems reasonable, yeah." 

Floppy bardgirl.

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He contemplates which things on the revealed menu of possible cuddle behavior might be best suited to the occasion and then decides to try petting her hair.

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Venn sighs and relaxes into him. (Her reactions are more subdued than the first time he tried this, because how bleh she feels is a real factor into how much she emotes, but she is still enjoying this.)

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It seems he has not chosen a laughably incorrect menu item! Also she's soft.

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She is! The world around them may be strenuous and full of problems but Venn remains soft and huggable.

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"Is there usefully transmissible advice on how to go about spiritual counseling that I should have?"

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She thinks. "I'm not sure how transmissible it is - it's never fully obvious to me how much of what I do is... the kinds of idea I'm trying to get across vs the exact words I choose in response to the things I'm seeing in their reactions, right, but..." she pauses to think, breath soft against him.

"I think the general shape of what I'll say is - they have not had a lot of opportunity to make meaningful choices in their lives, and that I think they've been lied to with the goal of limiting their choices further, making them more likely to end up in Hell. But their choices do matter, and they are going to to die, today, because of a very bad choice they made and could have made differently. But it is still possible for them to make a choice that might matter, because they don't have to end up in Hell, even now. And from there try to walk them through... thinking about the ways they've harmed people, I suppose." She doesn't sound like she expects this to really land. 

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"I have not personally done a lot of reflection on ways I have myself harmed people, is that an important step I'm skipping -"

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...awwww. "I think it can be important for some people but it's not, like, a mandatory part of the process and I don't expect it to help you." Squeeze. "But it is one of a very few actions available to someone waiting to be executed that might help them get into a mindset of 'I regret the Evils I did and if I were given more time would sincerely stop being Evil, I don't want to be Evil for reasons other than the immediately obvious one', and so it is what I was planning on recommending." 

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"What kinds of reasons tend to pass muster?"

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"So, the churches of Shelyn and Sarenrae have called Agathions who serve as representatives in afterlife trials, and - people wanting to not be Evil because they don't want to go to Evil afterlives generally does not count at all. People who sincerely decide, in their last moments, that if they could do it all again they really would do it differently, especially if they were not very Evil or if they had (or believed they had) very few opportunities not to be, can pass muster, but - it's rare. The Sarenrite I heard this from, Luminary Sunheart, said that they aren't allowed to say how rare, apparently, or give more details on how to do this right, because of treaties, but... I certainly don't expect it to work for any of these men, though that's no reason not to try."

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"Oh, I suppose that would be a consequence of information being expensive, wouldn't it. - wouldn't expect it because of the nature of the offense or because of the baseline odds of success?"

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"Both, really, but the latter moreso?" She doesn't sound super sure.

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"It seems to have the virtue of being a particularly - unforced and discrete - act of Evil, that it might be relatively straightforward to imagine having done without, and I'd expect doing this with someone whose harm was more diffuse to be more difficult if they were aiming to cooperate with the counseling at all - though probably they do in fact also have more diffuse harms on their record that I don't know about to remark on so perhaps that's not helpful on the whole."

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She thinks about that and then nods. "Hmmm. I never thought about it that way but it makes sense to me!"

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"It'd really depend on whether they get enough credit for repenting of an unforced discrete act that it - covers - whatever else happens to have come up in their lives. I am not sure how overwhelming the numbers are on Chelish people going to Hell but if they were low I think we'd have seen - more, and more intense, pressure toward forcing that end. And I don't know any of the men well enough to have a good guess what their personal errors might have looked like besides this one on an apparently repeated basis."

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Venn feels awkward not having anything useful to add to this but it remains the case that she does not have anything useful to add to this.

 "...Did they try to discourage people from aiming for Neutral Evil? I feel like... in that position I would obviously prefer Abbadon, becoming a devil would be... one of the worst things that could possibly happen to me, really, and that's in the better range of outcomes in Hell, as I understand it."

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"I think intuitive opinions on the relative desirability differ, and anyway Law as a correlate of order and obedience is desirable in the general populace by practically any large institution even if they are not specifically trying to funnel them into Lawful afterlives, and - people are tolerated in latching onto various minor heresies, like that they might see anyone they happen to be attached to again in Hell, even though this is not to my knowledge actually something Hell enables, or that they will cope particularly well with the transformation into a devil, which I wouldn't even know how to predict."

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She nods. (From what she's heard of Hell, she's pretty sure that a reunion would only really happen if it hurt everyone involved, but... there's no real point in saying that.)

Huuuuug.

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Lots of hug. He is not sure how else she could be getting less distressed by this situation. ...it's possible she knows and would tell him if he asks! "Is there anything other than hugs that would help you, here?"

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Awwwww. She smiles weakly up at him. "The hugging is helping a lot, thanks.  ...the hairpets were nice, too, if you're up for more of that." 

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"Of course." Pet pet pet!

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"mmmmmm." Happy-Venn noises are back! 

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Oh good. Ideal state for a Venn to be in. He can contemplate his forthcoming spiritual counseling responsibilities less unpleasantly with an Ideal Venn to hold.

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She's happy to help! (... and also happy to be held. And pet.)

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Three of the seven guys go with Venn as their spiritual counselor (since Blai chooses to interpret a refusal to pick anyone as defaulting to him).

One of them is the one who was questioned first and tried to deny everything and, under it all, is really pretty upset about having been betrayed by the other six. He can be brought around to the understanding that it might have been relatively more unpleasant to be raped by seven people all together compared to their previous sequential activities, but doesn't really get why it was a big deal in the first place or why anything had to change, this sort of thing happens to everyone and otherwise the species would die out probably.

The second one is pretty scared of Hell! He did not realize that Cecília had the power to send him to Hell! That's really weird! If she could simply not send him to Hell by deciding it was okay for him to fuck her then it seems incumbent on her to do that, and he picked Venn over Blai as a counselor in case there is girl talk Venn could undertake which could bring this about.

The third one may have chosen Venn mostly so that he could spend some of his last hours staring at boobs, but he will keep her talking as long as he can on such topics as "the commander shouldn't have sent the whores away, and he tipped Cecília albeit not regularly so she was basically one anyway" and "does it count as regretting it if it turns out he does not really like having other dudes in the room" and "if he goes to Axis can he still get sent to Hell after that or is he free to fuck people in Axis" and "does it count as regretting it if he thinks it would have been better to have turned out to be gay" and "why should he have to be Iomedaean just because Artigas is, Asmodeus at least staffed the place with more than one cleric".

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Yeah she doesn't believe that but isn't expecting to change his mind and doesn't argue the point for long. 

Cecília has the right to report crimes against her, the punishments for which were publicly posted and announced. Where he goes when he dies is not her responsibility. Venn will not be forwarding his request. (She doesn't rub it in, but she's very firm about this).

She notices what's going on pretty quickly with the third guy and seriously considers using Alter Self to look like a male dwarf, but decides instead to wrap her upper body in a blanket. Stabbing someone and giving them money after is still a crime. No. If he makes Axis he is not likely to go to Hell after. No. Asmodeus is currently staffing the place with zero clerics, actually, and she's pretty sure he would already be on his way to his afterlife if Iomedae hadn't stepped up because she and Txell dragged his wounded body into Artigas' second channel - 

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Blai has more guys to go through than she does and at least one of them has even more to say than Venn's third one but when they've wrapped he can hold her, again.

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"...I'm worse at that than I thought I would be," she says, slowly, face pressed into him. (This might be the first time Blai has seen an ashamed Venn?)

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"Should I follow up with those three myself?" he asks dubiously, petting her hair.

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"I don't expect it to help much," she says, and then gives him a very abridged summary. "I just - don't like that I snapped at Cardona like that, I don't think someone else would have done better for him but it's still feels bad," 

(the hairpets have her squeezing herself against him, eyes closing as she calms down a bit more.)

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"Seminary filters for Wisdom and Law as best they can but not for Evil. They can just make people worse. Our culture is very much oriented around making people worse. I don't know how much of it is that and how much of it is how people are on their own."

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"I've met people this bad but - anywhere else, they're rare, and - usually I can just walk away. ...probably I should have just walked away from the third guy before getting mad." She sighs tiredly.

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Solemn nod.

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She really wants to fall asleep in his arms but this would be maybe the worst night ever to start sleeping in his room or otherwise have rumors flying around. She'll regretfully disentangle herself before too long and do her usual song and dance flavorings at dinnertime.

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Blai takes dinner in the dungeons, re-doing Cardona's spiritual counseling over stew, and then can be seen going up the stairs.

In the morning, there's a Zone of Truth. Cecília gets a turn in it too, to compensate for some of them making their saves, but these are not very Wise men; only one of them does, and all the other men and Cecília point him out confidently.

There's not a preexisting setup for swiftly beheading people because most executions were supposed to be more drawn out than that, before, but there's a butcher block and it does not have to be in the kitchens twenty-four hours a day. Blai sends Farre y Puig into the kitchen wing to borrow it and the butcher's cleaver, and he recites the relevant prayers from the back of the book, seven times, as it comes down. Venn is obviously not obliged to supervise, though she might notice Farre y Puig Prestidigitating the borrowed items clean on the way back into the kitchen with them. The condemned are all too Chelish to holler about it.

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Venn will sure not be suprivising! She going to see if Cecília needs anything from her.

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Venn is not a man so she's allowed in the kitchen if she wants. Cecília is fussing with the fire under the porridge. She looks flatly at Venn when she comes in and goes back to what she's doing.

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...yeah that seems like a no, which is extremely valid of her.

Venn invents some pretext to be talking to someone else in the kitchen and then leaves once she has satisfied her urge to look like she was here for something else.

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Bye! 

And then it's time for morning healing and a patrol out eastwards with Txell's squad.

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"I'd sorta liked Estanislau. I knew he was an idiot but lots of people are idiots," says one of the martials on the squads.

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Venn doesn't really know what to say to that, but she's much less talkative in the field, so maybe it will go unremarked that she doesn't respond.

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"Yeah," says another, "Estanislau was all right."

And then they all fall quiet till a third guy starts singing.

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...Venn will sing too, more quietly than usual, the lyrics not in a language anyone here (including her) speaks. 

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Blai's patrol delay for the executions means that he's out till dinner, a few hours later than originally planned, but he is there in time to eat in the dining hall, catching up with Grec about what's gone down in his absence.

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His bard is there, doing her usual evening mess hall routine!

(If she's slightly subdued from her usual sunny self, well, it's only slightly; Blai is probably one of only a few people at fort #11 who can reliably tell.)

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Blai can cause him and Grec to be over at that table but he could not then do much of value with the proximity, so he permits Grec to pick a spot (Grec is the "closest unoccupied seats, regardless of who's around" type), and they eat, and if Venn wants a chess game (or anything) she can come up to his office after he's gone up to it.

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She'll wait a while and then do that!

She mostly wants to be held. They can play a game of chess while hugging, though. 

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Chess improves everything it has been found to be compatible with so far. This is also true of holding Venn.

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Venn is playing less well today, presumably on account of the happenings. She's also a bit more clingy than he's used to.

 

"...usually there's something useful I can do, when the problem is... people stuff," she says quietly, halfway through the first game (her attempt to trade queens fails, costing her a knight for her troubles).

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"You did something," he points out.

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"...I suppose I did, didn't I." Venn sighs and leans into him. "I... still feel bad?" (She sounds vaguely confused about this, because she is.)

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"What would you normally be experiencing instead?"

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"...normally I would be sad, because sometimes you try your best and the outcome sucks anyways, but..." oh.

She clings a bit more tightly. "...when the problem is demons or the weather or the strained supply situation, we're all on the same side, even if most of the people here are... different from me, in ways that I'm careful not to forget. But... this..."

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"They didn't seem to be on the side of... Good?" he asks tentatively, because it would be sort of odd if she was expecting Chelish randos to be on the side of Good but he doesn't have another guess.

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She laughs, hollowly, shaking her head. "No, no, I haven't forgotten where we are. This - this wasn't on the side of this fort."

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"Is... there some way of not having disciplinary problems, of which I'm not aware..."

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She sighs and shakes her head. "Sorry, no, Lastwall's forts have discipline problems too. They look very different, but they have them. #11 is the best-disciplined Chelish fort I've ever spent time in, it's just - I don't normally stay with forts like this, right? I go, stay for a day or two with the strike team, and then leave. And this is - a part of it I hadn't thought about needing to get used to."

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"Right. And this is a qualitatively different form of not acting as an allied unit, than they have in Lastwall's forts? - or you weren't trying to do counseling there because they have better trained clerics."

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"Both of those things, and also - if something like this happened, people would be shocked and appalled at the behavior of the perpetrators." She shrugs. "People aren't like that, here. But... it's not like they chose to be born in Cheliax and not Lastwall or Andoran, and, like you said, a lot of collective effort spent into making them worse, afterwards." She gently rubs her face against him.

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"It would be... a mark of a pretty serious confusion... for anyone enlisted here to be shocked, or to - display appalledness. It could be people are quietly appalled. It's -

- we did not lose any this way here but in several of the other Chelish forts the dropped priests were killed, some or all of them, and some of the commanders let it go, even though it's obviously still murder of a fellow soldier. It was in cases like that possible for people to - coordinate with more or less accuracy, on their opinions of whatever their clerics had gotten up to, in a way that would not have been likely for anyone to coordinate with the kitchen girl, but that might just be a matter of - an obvious target, an obvious timing, the fact that no one had clearly posted on the wall that the target would be regularly executed."

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Venn nods at the confusion comment. It would have surprised her a lot as well. 

She thinks back to the day they first hugged. "Yeah, that's fair. ...Txell was upset" (...with me) "when you posted the rules, and it was mostly because she was worried for the enlisted women with fewer wizard circles than her. And I'm sure she wasn't the only one."

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"A narrow concern but a concern."

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"Yeah."

...right, the chess game. (she makes a move.)

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"...for perhaps obvious reasons I suspect that... moral sentiments are not essential in moving away from Evil?" he offers tentatively, this thought and its voicing slowing him down not at all in hopping a knight over thataway.

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Squeeze. "Yeah. My understanding is that - wanting to right past wrongs and do better helps, outperforming your local or historical environments in terms of choosing Good or refusing Evil helps, and doing these things together for the same reason - doing better intentionally because you want to do better - helps more?"

Hmmm... "Actually, I have a friend or two I should write tonight for their thoughts on this, I can share their responses when I get them." Really, she should have done that a week ago, but - she'd been avoiding thinking about it. 

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What if more of his face were in her hair, what then. "Taking up correspondence about Good puzzles."

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Venn giggles a bit. "A contagious hobby! And you didn't even warn me..." (She's smiling a bit, despite herself. He's really good...) 

She moves a bishop.

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"I didn't know! It has always seemed plausible that everyone I wrote to had the inclination on their own." Pawn.

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"Maybe they did! Maybe it's only contagious when you explain the hobby to impressionable young bards." He doesn't need to see her face to know she's grinning - it's obvious from her voice.

She attempts to avoid ceding too much control of the center of the board, though she's not thinking of it quite like that and also has not noticed that she is giving away a pawn in the process.

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Yoink. "Are you particularly impressionable?"