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Sadde and Relay in summer camp
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Summer camp counselor. What an absolutely dreadful idea.

Not that she doesn't like children, per se. She does! They're cute, she likes taking care of them, likes playing with them. It's fun.

But her father thinks it's a good idea and might help "build character" or something, which means she automatically hates the idea and thinks it's terrible. That's just how it's meant to be.

But alright. She gets there before the children, because she'll be trained, and she should, like, get to know the other monitors, yes? Yes, good. And one of them's supposed to teach her the ropes... Ah, there he is. She walks up to him.

"Hi! I'm Kaede. I'm new."

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"Hiya!" he responds. "I'm Anthony."

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"So what do we do here? Someone pointed at you when I asked and I was told you'd teach me stuff and they were very vague."

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"We look after kids? – I guess you mean, like, particulars?"

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"Yeah. I was told you were gonna show me around, give me the schedule, tell me about activities, meal times, what to do in a medical emergency..."

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"Schedules are – in the main hut, I'll show you there first?"

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"Sure!"

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He starts walking towards it. "Met many of the other people yet?" He looks around. "There are a few people missing still, I think, but those that are here?"

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"Just a couple, and they told me to talk to you," she shrugs.

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"They're mostly pretty nice," he comments. "So, a lot of the information you'll need is in a starter pack thing – it's with the schedules – and you'll want to read at least the introductory bit of that when you can. Most things are listed somewhere obvious – there are fire protocol signs, that sort of thing, and usually counselors look after groups in pairs or more, so you should be fine for most situations."

They're just walking past some picnic benches where a few of the other counselors have congregated, in a large open area near some of the cabins.

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"Oh okay cool. And what kinds of activities are there? I haven't actually ever been to one of these things when I was a kid."

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"Oh – it's a lot of outdoor sports? Hiking, canoeing, swimming in the lake. There's also, um, arts and crafts type things, Kate runs a woodshop thing, and we usually have a sort of dance thing on Saturdays."

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"Most of those don't happen in the main hut, I expect."

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"Right, I – yeah. It's, um, we'll have bits of food and drink and try to encourage them to, y'know, meet and talk to each other? Sit in a circle, go around it and have everyone introduce themselves, explain some of the ground rules and make sure they all know the sorts of things they'll be doing, fire safety stuff, that stuff, then split them off into smaller groups and, like, some will go do ball games and stuff outside, others it'll be cards or, uh, smaller activities like that?"

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"Makes sense. And nothing like that for us to meet each other?"

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"Well, people are just sort of hanging around at the moment, so you can meet them now anyway – oh, but there's an informal thing a bit later, after dinner."

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"Oh cool that sounds like fun."

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"It is! So – how'd you choose to come here? Friends go here when you were a kid, or know someone from here before…?"

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"My father thinks it's a good character-building exercise."

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"– Well, it at least gets you outside in the summer, if you're not really that type otherwise? And it could help with your CV, in the future."

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"Yeah, I mean, it's not bad or anything, I'm going to have fun even if only to spite him."

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Pause. "Well it should be a good place to do that. I think."

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"Yeah, it sounds it, I'm excited."

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And then: they at the main hut!

It's a reasonably large building, near a couple other reasonably large buildings and a couple of smaller huts in a small semicircle. Inside are a couple of counselors.

One gives Anthony a timetable and smiles at Kaede – "Hey! I'm Dave."

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"Hi! I'm Kaede. Nice to meet you!"

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"Did you just get here? – Oh, you probably want the whole folder, just a sec…"

Dave hands Anthony a folder, who takes it and then hands both it and the timetable to Kaede.

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"Yeah, thanks!" She accepts those. "I'll read them later."

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"Cool! So –" Pause. "The non-talkative one is Shane."

Shane looks up, blinks a little, and then says, "Hi," under his breath.

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Wave!

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"Anyway," says Anthony, "how about I show you the rest of this central bit, then show you to your campsite and show you where you can drop your stuff, go through a few things and look around a bit more?"

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"Sounds good!"

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So they go outside.

Anthony points out the other buildings in the semicircle. "So, that's the med hall – a few of the instructors live above it." Point. "That's the cafeteria." Point. "Store cupboards." Point. "Central toilets and showers."

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She looks and makes acknowledgment noises!

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He looks at her folder. "Oh, seems like we're at the same campsite! That's – kids split off into groups, a few counselors with each, do things in those groups, et cetera?"

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"How large's a group?"

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"Like, twenty to twenty-five? Ours is twenty-four."

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"Cool!"

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"Anyway, it's – approximately this way," he says, making a start to head into some forest.

(There is in fact a path marked.)

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She follows him.

"Should I be worried that you're taking me to the unknown depths of a mysterious forest without witnesses?"

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He raises an eyebrow. "You could be? But there's a path."

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"Aww. Well, a girl can dream."

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Smirk. "It's not particularly far to the campsite."

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"I couldn't have known that!"

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"Uh-huh."

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"Should I not flirt with you? It's not always you're guided around camp by an adorably cute boy."

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"Nah, just seems like it usually takes people longer than this."

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"I don't particularly love the usual timeline on these things."

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"No? – I mean, I don't either, but I think it's for different reasons."

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"Oh?"

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"People our age aren't always the most sensible."

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"Sensible in what sense?"

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"Rush into things, regret them, or alternatively miss really obvious chances, or miscommunicate extremely badly…"

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"Oh that," she says, waving a hand dismissively. "Right, communication problems shouldn't be a—well, problem. As you are now seeing evidence of I prefer being extremely clear about everything."

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"Usually preferable, that, yeah."

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"Yes. So: I am flirting with you, and I will keep doing this until you either decide you don't want me to or you decide to follow up. Sound good?"

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"Sounds fine? – I'll probably get back to you on the 'good', if that's okay."

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"Sure."

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"So, you were probably assigned to this group for a reason, they seem to match interest groups where possible – what sorts of things are you into?"

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"Honestly I have no idea what my father would have put there? I like meeting people, I like figuring them out, and figuring out how stuff works, and learning pretty much everything. I hate the damp, and am not much of a fan of hiking, but quoth my father 'It's a character-building experience.'"

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"Hiking's fun! And we're in cabins, anyway, so the damp shouldn't be too bad, but – well, maybe they didn't match us together for shared interests." He shrugs. "I mean, I like people too, but I think most people like interacting with kids if they come here, or at least don't hate it."

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"I mean something a bit more—like, I don't just like interacting with people, I like understanding them and finding out about them and figuring out how to make them happiest and accomplish their goals."

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He tilts his head. "I mean, I think a lot of people like helping others."

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"A lot of people think they like helping others," she amends. "Not a lot of people know what that means or actually genuinely make an honest effort at it, especially when it's not their friends."

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He raises an eyebrow. "A lot of people don't make an honest effort at things they like anyway."

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"I suppose that's true."

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"So you like to think you do make an honest effort at it?"

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"Yep."

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"I enjoy helping people, but it can be hard to help everyone with a large number of things."

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"Correct, then you have to prioritize and do it efficiently."

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"And can also be hard to achieve a large number of things that any of them want. Which comes under the same issue, I suppose, impossibilities or improbabilities being ranked lower in priority."

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"Exactly."

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"Also I'm fifteen, which can be a bit of a barrier."

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"...to being good at people?"

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"To actually being able to help lots of them with things, too."

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"Oh. Yeah, I guess."

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And then: they are at the campsite! It is small-ish, and has a few cabins (one larger than the rest).

"We're over here," says Anthony, leading her to the larger cabin.

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She follows him.

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The cabin: is rather nice, for a cabin! They have beds and space to put their stuff and even a bit of privacy! Gosh!

It looks like two of the four beds already have people moved into them. Presumably Anthony has taken one of them.

"Pick a bed."

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She points at one randomly.

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"Feel free to put your stuff down, make yourself at home or whatever."

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"Alright." She puts her bag on the bed. "What next?"

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"Next is some emergency stuff –" And then he explains where to go in the event of a fire, who to contact and how to do so. It's reasonably obvious, for being out in the middle of nowhere, and also copied down in the folder and there are convenient signs about exit protocol in most of the buildings. (Which, when there are between one and two doors for each building, plus windows, is not particularly complicated.)

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She pays attention but doesn't have any questions—it is reasonably obvious.

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He indicates other bits in the folder – other bits of protocol to follow, especially when you're unsure about what to do, like if you encounter a fight or a kid doing something reckless, something that might endanger others, etc.

Then he's done and they can go look around a bit more! "So, I'm thinking show you into one of the kids' huts, then show you where the perimeter of the camp is, then… probably go back so you can meet the other counselors hanging around the central bit?"

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"Yeah, sounds like a good idea. By the way, are counselors doing activities with the kids all day every day? What's actual day-to-day life for us?"

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"It's… a lot of the day, yeah," he says. "We take breaks if we're not all needed to supervise them for an activity – usually there are at least two counselors supervising a group, like I say – but it's pretty full-on."

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"Well, sounds like it'll be fun, then."

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"I'm glad you think so!"

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Kids' huts?

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Are smaller! They do, however, have bedframes onto which the kids can put their sleeping bags.

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"Poor kids, living in poverty while we luxuriate."

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"Tragic," says Anthony. "Just so sad."

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"I'm not sure I'm sad about never having been on the other end of this bargain."

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"Yeah, well, parents have to have somewhere to drop their kids."

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"...on second thought."

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He looks at her, a bit assessingly. "So, should we go take a look at the perimeter?"

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"Yeah!"

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… It is not actually particularly thrilling! However it is important to know approximately where it goes and what it looks like (it is not particularly hard to miss but there are in fact parts that go through foresty bits, so, be careful).

"So, I'm gonna go out on a limb here… and guess you like books?"

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"What gave me away?"

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"Nothing major," he says, starting his way back to the central part of camp.

Then he considers. "… It might be the way you flirt."

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"The way I flirt?"

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"… It was quite direct."

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"Yeah?"

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"And sounded like you had reasoned it through at least a little."

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"That's indeed a thing I do."

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"In more detail than most people would do." Pause. "I don't know, it just sounded like you probably like books."

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"I'm a very unusual person."

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"Not a trait people are usually so proud of."

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"I'm unusual like that," she agrees.

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"But not particularly unusual in the respect of liking books."

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"No, books are a very normal taste of mine."

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"Any particular genre you like? Or is it mostly non-fiction…?"

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"Pretty eclectic, but I gravitate toward sci-fi and fantasy, and I also like nonfiction about stuff like behavioral economics and maths and physics."

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"I can honestly say I don't think I've ever read a book about behavioral economics."

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"I'm unusual like that."

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"Is that a catchphrase?"

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"Now it is!"

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He smirks. "Anyway – the archery range is basically the other side of camp, you probably saw the lake on your way in, and otherwise the activities mostly take place inside or around the cabins."

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She nodnods.

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And then: they are back at the main camp!

There continue to be, as promised, a few other counselors there.

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Cool! She can chat with them, then.

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Two of them are from the same school and play basketball together! The other one fancies herself a painter.

Keith, Jack and Alice, they introduce themselves.

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Hello, Keith, Jack, and Alice! She introduces herself, too.

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Hello! … Kaede's an interesting name – where's she from?

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New York City.

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What does she like to do? Has she been camp counselor before?

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Reading! Meeting people! Going out! Running! Singing! She has not ever been camp counselor (or to camp) before.

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Huh. Well it's tough but it's pretty good.

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Yeah she's been getting this impression.

And soon enough it's time to eat.

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Hotdogs! With optional onions and ketchup and mustard and other assorted extras! In the cafeteria!

"Yum."

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Eh, they're fine, she guesses.

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And then after dinner they have that informal meet-and-greet thing that was mentioned earlier and Kaede gets to meet even more counselors!

Including the two others at their particular campsite: Julia and Kennedy.

The rest of the evening passes without too much ado, the night passes quietly, and the kids start arriving the next day.

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When Kaede is a he.

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"… You look different today."

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"That I do."

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"Intentionally?"

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"I don't find myself in the habit of unintentionally changing my appearance."

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"Is there, uh, any particular reason…?"

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"Quirk of psychology and genetics, I expect."

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"Right." Nod. "Okay."

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"On a scale of one to ten, how much is it this going to be an obstacle to flirting?"

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"… To you flirting with me?"

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"Yeah."

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"… Not a huge one? I'm not going to flip out or anything."

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"I strive to better results than an absence of flipping out when I flirt."

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"I wasn't sure what you meant by 'obstacle to flirting' and – was trying to provide truthful information in response."

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"I meant to ask whether you are strictly heterosexual," he explains.

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"… The answer to which is – nnnnno."

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"Oh good then I shall continue."

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"But I'm not sure if – the fact we'll be around kids all day might be a limitation."

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"To flirting? It probably will," he admits.

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"Other times, though."

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"The kids must go to sleep sometime."

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"They do, in fact. And sometimes we take it in turns supervising."

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"Good to know, then," he says, smirking. "So, when do the kids arrive?"

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Anthony checks his watch. "Should start in about an hour?"

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"Oh good so I can keep flirting with you for that hour."

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"Barring time when other people are around, presumably…"

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"Are you bashful?"

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Pause. "I honestly don't know how people would respond to you flirting with me?"

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"In that I'm a boy, or in that I was a girl yesterday, or in that there's flirting at all going on?"

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"First and second, I was thinking."

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"Thing you should know about me: that kinda does the opposite of discouraging me."

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"It could make it awkward if they decided to take it upon themselves to stop it, or punish one or both of us for it…?"

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"Are they likely to? You know them better than I do."

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"… Nothing I've seen has shown them to be particularly caring and tolerant, most of them, sadly."

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"Hmm. Well I'm pretty used to it, myself, but if you prefer I can restrict my flirting to when we're alone."

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"It would probably make things unnecessarily hard if they were antagonistic…"

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"I suppose it would."

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"… But they will probably start out with the assumption we won't be flirting…"

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"Will they? Even when I'm a girl?"

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"… Honestly I have no idea how they will react to that."

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"Yeah, well, we'll see. For now we should get whatever ready for the kids."

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Anthony nods in agreement, and then they can go do as such.

A lot of it's ensuring the appropriate equipment is ready for the welcoming activities –  some of it's in the form of friendly games of soccer, various other ballgames, and some is just covering who's doing what… Most of it is quite straightforward.

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And then the kids should be arriving, yes?

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They do! A few at a time. And then they can start doing some of the games while they wait for the others and help unpack and give them little packs of information and start doing some introductions and taking them to the camps and everything!

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Whee!

Kaede actually has a way with children, they like him and find his jokes funny and he's rather silly.

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Awww that's very cute but Anthony does not actually say anything to that extent just yet.

The kids all seem to adore Kaede, most of them like Anthony quite a lot, and the other counselors don't make any audible remarks about the change to Kaede's appearance in front of the kids.

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Are they acting weird, though?

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Funny looks, seem like they might later want to ask him 'what the fuck', mostly keep it to a minimum while interacting with the kids.

Anthony tries to ignore them without seeming too obviously like he's doing that.

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Kaede won't try to ignore them, and will merely act like there is absolutely nothing the matter.

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More weird looks.

Then lunch! Then more games and activities and more weird looks!

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Nothing wrong at all. Surely eventually they'll get tired of weird looks, it's a whole day, it'll eventually no longer be news.

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The weird looks get less frequent. Ignoring him is a secondary approach.

Anthony sighs. The day continues. They have a Talk about various safety protocols and so on. Snacks.

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Snacks! Kaede seems to be compllletely oblivious to the way people are ignoring him and acts as if they were as friendly as yesterday!

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A few of the people didn't properly meet Kaede yesterday and seem sort of confused by the hostility! Snacks are had and then the groups split up a bit more and it returns to the occasional weird glance.

"… It's sort of better and worse than I'd expected," comments Anthony to Kaede, at one point.

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"How so?"

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"I'd expected people would be awful about it because people are but I also don't get the mindset that makes them be awful so kinda… loosely expected it might all be lies."

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"...lies?"

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"That people were – homophobic etc?"

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"Why would you expect that to be lies?"

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"… Hoping people were not just abnormally awful? I don't get the mindset and – I was hoping it was rarer."

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He shrugs. "I'm used to it."

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"Less so," he shrugs. "And it's annoying anyway."

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"It is, but pretending it's not there helps tons. If people start being too overtly terrible when you're nothing but sweet tends to turn back on them."

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"Seems like a good policy but one that'd be hard to follow."

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"It's what I've been doing all day."

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"Oh, yeah, I know. … But still."

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"Still?"

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"Seems like it'll be hard to keep up for days on end."

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"Like I said, used to it."

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Anthony shrugs.

Activities progress and the day draws on. Soon it's time for dinner.

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Dinner! Kaede has a gaggle of children following him to the eating place.

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Awwwww.

(Hot dogs. There are hot dogs. They are pretty good.)

Also at dinner: Sasha, another counselor who's curious about the apparent bewilderment and hostility directed nearish Kaede.

She (quietly) declares the people glaring to be dicks, after being told details.

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Thank you, Sasha. Kaede likes you.

Eventually they should get the kids to bed.

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The kids are mostly good about it! It takes a few minutes, and that's all.

The other two counselors seem mostly content to now ignore the two of them.

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Well they'll have to ignore alone because Kaede is not ignoring them; that's part of pretending everything is alright! He is chatty and friendly and fills the silence with cheerful conversation.

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Anthony helps out!

The evening wears on and eventually it's probably time to sleep.

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That it is! Good night!

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Anthony responds likewise and then it is the morning and they can go get the kids up and do Activities!

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Activities!

How're the other counselors today?

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Chatting to each other amicably, the two others in their group! Some of the other counselors seem a bit tired.

Sasha waves from nearby. Anthony waves back.

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At lunchtime he sits next to Anthony while other counselors look after the kids.

"This is fun."

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"I like it! For the most part. The kids seem to enjoy it."

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"Yeah. Does leave us very busy, though."

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"It does. Not much time to chat."

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"Or other things."

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"I have no idea what you mean."

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"Play games, of course. Practice sports. Go swimming."

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"Oh. … Pretty tame, really."

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"Of course it is! Nice, tame activities to get to know each other, absolutely not influenced at all by the thought of getting you sweaty and then getting all your clothes off."

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Anthony laughs a little.

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"Something funny?"

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"Haven't had anyone say that to me before."

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"I do like being unexpected. I also notice you did not object to the idea."

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"I did not."

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"It's a date, then, as soon as we have the window of time to slip off."

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He raises an eyebrow. "I didn't realize a lack of objection meant I'd actually subscribed to it."

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"It doesn't," he says, smirking.

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"You were just hoping I'd agree?"

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"Predicting might be a better description."

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"I'm afraid that currently it's still 'probably no, right now', actually."

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"Oh, well, guess I'll have to just charm you into liking me for my 'personality,'" he says, doing air quotes.

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"It almost sounds like you expect that to be hard."

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"Oh I don't, I'm pretty sure it'll work out, it'll just take longer for me to get to kiss you that way."

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"Almost sounds like you think that'll be easy."

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"Not easy as much as—natural?"

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"Natural's a way to put it, when you're – what, fifteen?"

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"Yes? I'm also very charming and you actually do like me."

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"Most people aren't quite so equipped at flirting by this point, was my point."

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"Ah yes, but there isn't really a right way to do it. Flirting is expressing attraction with decreasing amounts of plausible deniability, but I threw that to the winds already so now it's mostly showing you that I'm a cool person and that my intuition about our romantic compatibility is correct. And my social intuitions do tend to be so often correct."

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"The confidence definitely helps, that's part of the good flirting."

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"Well of course, there's little point in trying to convince you of something I'm not convinced of myself."

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"Smart."

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"Another of my many qualities, I admit."

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Anthony smirks.

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"I have several of those! Some even not related to flirting!"

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"You do," says Anthony. "Lots of qualities."

Still smirking.

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"Something on your mind?"

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"You're cute."

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"See, I'm already winning you over. You, I believe, ought to know you are also extremely cute, and a couple of other things."

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"I'm curious about the couple other things!"

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"I'm wondering if I should tell you. We don't want to inflate your ego too much, now, do we?"

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"We don't?"

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"Noooo, it's bad to have a big ego, don't you know?"

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"Only if it's disproportionate."

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"To what?"

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"How awesome you are?"

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He laughs. "That's very hot."

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"So?"

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"That's one of the things!"

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"That I'm hot, or the proportionate ego?"

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"That you're hot, naturally."

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"Both hot and cute," smirks Anthony.

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"Smart, too, catching me on my bullpoop."

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Pause. "I was gonna say that I wasn't actually catching you on it but – first I have to ask about 'bullpoop'."

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"Oh I don't really swear."

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"Do you have objections to other people doing it?"

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"No, not particularly."

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"… That sounds like you have a bit of an objection?"

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"It's more about myself, mom used to say I shouldn't swear unless I really meant it and it—stuck."

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"Ah."

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He shrugs. "So I don't actually have a moral objection or anything."

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"I'd be curious what the moral objection was, if there was one."

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Shrug.

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Anthony also shrugs, and then gets on with eating his lunch.

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Kaede continues to be very popular with the kids and have lots of fun in spite of any lingering transphobia (which he hopes they're not showing around the kids or he'll have words with them).

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The counselors in their group, not very much. In the others… there are a couple.

The summer progresses. Anthony seems to enjoy the archery.

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Kaede slowly but surely befriends the other counselors. She seems to be good at this. She seems to be rather good at this, actually, and enjoy it more than any particular activity, although she finds it very charming when Anthony archers.

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The other counselors seem to warm up to her – some are more readily… nice… than others, and some, near the start at least, seem to be under the impression she has a twin…

Anthony tries to be helpfully charming where possible too.

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And will she convince Anthony to go on that skinny dipping adventure before the end of the summer?

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Anthony didn't realize that'd been in her plans.

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Only subtly.

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He… thinks not. Probably.

It might depend on how convincing they are.

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They have the whole summer to be subtly convincing.

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He…

… One time? At the end?

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"Really?"

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"We have a week left."

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"We do," he agrees.

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"So one time is just one time."

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"Absolutely."

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"So one time can be one time. Is why."

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"Indeed."

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So later that night, when they're done with the kids for the day… Anthony smirks at Kaede.

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Well Anthony will have to lead the way, Kaede doesn't really know this place does he?

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Of course not.

There are some trees around the lake, conveniently enough, and it's a rather pleasant night…

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Is it now.

Well then.

Kaede, who is completely shameless, starts stripping down. It turns out he is biologically male.

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Anthony hesitates a moment, but then does likewise. He only sneaks the one look.

And then he dives into the lake, leaving his clothes among the trees.

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Kaede sneaks all the looks. Kaede watches it with fascination.

This has an effect on Kaede but he soon gets into the lake, too.

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Anthony rolls his eyes and starts swimming around a bit.

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He starts swimming around, too.

"My pride is wounded by that eyeroll."

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"That eyeroll was not aimed at your pride."

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"What was it aimed at, then, I wonder?"

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"The conduct relating to mine."

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"You should be feeling flattered!"

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"I didn't say I wasn't!"

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"Eyerolls tend to not indicate that," he says, deciding to stop swimming for a bit and just float there, looking at the stars.

(Which does make certain things evident again.)

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"The smile might have indicated it," is the response, along with another (briefly) raised eyebrow.

He gradually slows his swimming, and then stops, not staring.

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"So what did the eyeroll indicate?" he wonders, still floating.

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"The fact you were staring at mine."

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"Did you expect otherwise? You're very pretty."

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"I should've but didn't guess you'd be… so straightforward."

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"What in our acquaintance ever gave you the impression I was subtle?"

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"This is why I should've guessed."

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He grins and continues floating around.

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Anthony sneaks a few more looks, then returns to swimming.

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Swimming! He still finds Anthony extremely attractive and does not attempt to hide it, but he doesn't show it so obviously anymore, and merely swims around.

"So what are you going back to, next week?"

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"I still have a book report to complete."

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"Oh, homework, how I love thee. Just school, then?"

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"As far as I know I have nothing else planned, yeah. Maybe some people will get together for a thing before we go back, I dunno."

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"You could have work or, I don't know, choir club, or something."

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He laughs. "I don't really sing."

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"That was an extensional question!"

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"Nothing like that, no. You?"

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"Part-time work, no clubs."

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Anthony leans back in the water, a bit.

"I should probably look into getting a job. Sometime."

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Kaede does not pretend not to sneak glances whenever the opportunity arises.

"I kinda just want to not be home for as long as I possibly can."

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"… So I haven't actually asked you."

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"Hm?"

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"About your dad."

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"My father's a homophobic, transphobic asshole and I hate him," Kaede says cheerfully.

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"… And that doesn't sound like a very healthy environment…"

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"It's not, that's why I spend as long away from it as I can. When he mentioned summer camp I honestly thought he was sending me to a pray-the-gay-away camp."

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"… Which fortunately this actually wasn't." Pause. "Any idea why he didn't?"

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"Maybe didn't find any? Maybe thought this one was one of those? Not really." Pause. "Oh it would be amazing if what I got out of summer camp was a boyfriend, he would be so pissed."

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"… Got anyone in mind?"

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"Gee, no idea actually."

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"The distance could be a bit inconvenient."

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"I'm not in principle opposed to long distance and emails. Or polyamory. If there's anything my father would hate more than me having a boyfriend is me having multiple partners."

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"… You might need to explain that to me."

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"Polyamory? It's the thing where we're not monogamous but not just in a regular open relationship where both people can kiss whoever they want, there's also the possibility of multiple actual genderfriends with meaningful romantic relationships et cetera."

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He squints a bit. "I thought there were laws against that?"

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"There are laws against polyamorous marriages, I don't think they can have laws about how many people I'm in a committed relationship with!"

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"… I mean I'm sure they could try, but yeah, okay."

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"I'm not married to the idea—pun intended—if you're strictly monogamous. I'm way more into you than the vague notion of dating other people."

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"I don't know my opinions on it."

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"Mine are 'vaguely positive.' Any way I can help you form yours?"

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"… Not sure? Wait for me to puzzle through it?"

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"That's fair."

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Anthony swims around a bit more.

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Wow he is really cute and kissable isn't he.

Sigh.

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"Something the matter?"

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"Unfulfilled desires."

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"Plague a lot of people, those do."

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"They do," he agrees. "But I will persevere."

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"Admirable."

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"I think I've mentioned a few times how full of qualities I am."

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"Averages made me think there would be… less positive ones."

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"Arrogant, impatient, talk too much, not as clever as I like to think I am, should I go on?"

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"I think we discussed a healthy self-ego before, and the others sound contestable…"

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"I'm not a fundamentally patient person, doesn't mean I can't wait. I'm meddlesome, insistent, often pretend not to get a point to make a point, not risk-averse enough..."

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"Some of those sound inconvenient."

He shrugs.

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"But yes my qualities far outnumber my flaws."

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"If those were the worst flaws you could find, definitely sounds so."

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"I don't, like, kick puppies, nor am I, like, a racist. What other horrible things could lurk under the surface?"

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"… I don't usually put time into curating a list of 'worst things'."

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"But then how will you recognize them when you see them?"

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"Usually by – like, it'd fit in such a list, the list just wasn't readily searchable?"

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"But what if you miss things?"

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"What, I see things and don't notice they're bad because no list?"

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"Exactly!"

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"I'm not sure it works that way."

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"Does too! I say so."

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"I doubt that assertion."

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"Really? Prove me wrong then."

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"I – feel like that'd be a hard thing to do?"

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"So I'm right, check and mate."

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That gets a raised eyebrow.

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"Hmm?"

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"Pretty sure logic does not work that way."

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"This isn't logic, this is dialectic: if you can't prove me wrong, I'm right, Q.E.D."

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"Dialectic?"

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"The study of argumentation and the truth of opinions."

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"It usually only works that way if you're talking to a really obnoxious teacher."

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"Aha, you have found another flaw of mine: I am an obnoxious teacher."

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"Hello, obnoxi– actually no I'm gonna stop there."

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He laughs. "Oh no please continue!"

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"I think I'm good."

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He splashes Anthony.

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Who turns his head to avoid it getting in his eyes, and then splashes back.

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Okay well Kaede can use his feet to splash Anthony. That is much more efficient at splashing even if every now and then he has to stop because that has caused him to actually swim away.

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Anthony keeps using his arms to splash back, then realizes it's probably futile and starts kicking a bit – stopping briefly when he realizes it's a bit exposing, and returning to using his arms again.

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Then Kaede will win, won't he?

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He will! … Anthony starts coughing, a bit.

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He stops and grins. "I win!"

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Cough. "… Sure."

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"You okay? Should I apply all those resuscitation techniques we learned on you?"

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"I think I will live without mouth to mouth." Cough.

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"Oh good." Pause. "So now will you say it?"

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"Say… it?"

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"The thing I started splashing you for not saying!"

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"–  Oh."

He pauses, deliberates a little, then says, "Nope."

It's accompanied by a bit of a smirk.

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"But I won!"

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"That time."

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"Are you saying you want a rematch?"

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"… I might."

He looks at Kaede's mouth, briefly, then back up.

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"Or do you want something other than a rematch?"

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He smirks.

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"See, there are things that are answers. That wasn't one of them."

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"You are correct."

Still smirking.

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He starts casually making his way towards Anthony. "So you should provide one. Because it's rude not to."

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"I – actually that was an answer."

He looks down again.

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"I don't think it was," he says, swimming slowly until he's only a few inches away from Anthony.

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"I want something other than a rematch."

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"I see. Allow me to guess," he says, then leans forward and kisses him.

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It would seem he guessed correctly, seeing how Anthony leans into the kiss.

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They are however swimming so perhaps he should pull away and then pull Anthony to shallower waters so they don't accidentally drown.

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Anthony is quite certain he wouldn't have drowned – unless he, uh, got too into it – but yes, shallower water, sure.

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And when it's shallow enough that his feet are touching the bottom he wraps his arms around Anthony and now he kisses him for real.

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It gets a strong, positive response from Anthony.

And then after a moment, he seems embarrassed.

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He pulls away again. "Something wrong?"

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"… We're kissing naked in the water."

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"...which part of this do you object to?"

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"The embarrassing part of it!"

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He looks down. "Honestly I don't think you have anything to be embarrassed of."

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That prompts a bit of a shocked cough.

"Okay but still."

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"Yes?"

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"I always had the idea that I'd at least follow the law and this seems precariously close to not doing so."

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"Would you prefer it if we were wearing clothes?"

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"That really is an annoying question to answer."

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He laughs. "Come on, work with me, here."

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"– I don't know?"

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"It's night, no one's gonna come out here, and even if they do we'll at worst get a scolding."

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"… Feel like that might be a bit optimistic." He looks back at Kaede's lips – but just briefly, looking away quickly after. "But I see your point."

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"Or we could just put our underwear on and then we're breaking no laws at all."

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"I don't know the precise wording of the law," says Anthony. "But yes, we could do that."

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"You seem to not be doing that."

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Instead he makes to continue kissing.

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Yes this is a good development.

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After a bit he pulls away again.

"… Still kinda embarrassing."

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And he laughs again. "What is embarrassing?"

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"The – whole – situation! Just sort of –" He gestures downwards. "The… openness?"

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"My friend if you are embarrassed by this level of openness let me tell you about sex."

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… He laughs.

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"I like you. You're cute and interesting and smart and really hot and I want to kiss you all over and bite you and hug you naked in the water pressing our cocks together and this is great."

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Anthony tries to stop smirking. It seems to be failing.

"Okay."

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"And if you want us to stop I can stop, I'm not going to go any farther than you want to go, but I really want to keep kissing you right now."

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"I – am solidly up for kissing but may break away with embarrassment."

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"Makeout session with occasional embarrassment breaks sounds good to me."

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He grins. "Okay."

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Kiss?

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Kiss!

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Oh good! And much naked hugging and the predictable effect of this.

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Embarrassment! Embarrassment is the predictable effect!

But then less tentative naked hugging.

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Ooh?

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Slightly! Slightly less tentative. (A little bit more embarrassment but he tries to keep that to a minimum.)

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That's fine. He'll run his hand through Anthony's hair and be amazingly good at kissing and grind against Anthony a little.

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(Embarrassment, embarrassment that he tries to keep to a minimum.)

He solidly endorses the good kissing though.

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Then a lot of good kissing can happen!

...what if Kaede's hand starts wandering?

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Then it can stay above the waist!

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He pulls away, laughing.

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"It's gonna be sorta weird when this ends."

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"When what ends?"

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"Summer camp."

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"Yeah. But email and MSN, and I might be able to sneak away a few times to visit you. Although given that you don't have the abusive parent it might be easier for you to come."

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"Might be more convenient to meet up at my place, though."

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"Ah. Yes, that is indeed the case."

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"… Not necessarily, for anything. But even just talking, could be easier – I'm not sure of the specifics of what it might be like otherwise, or, anything."

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"Well, we could pretend to be just friends, extremely heterosexual, you see, and my father might not object."

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Shrug. "That would be a way to get more time, maybe."

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"Yeah. And if we start hanging out I might be able to just go visit you anyway, with parental authorization and all."

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"Under the guise of friendship." Smirk.

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"Well, you see, boyfriendship is a form of friendship."

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"Oh. My bad."

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"I shall forgive you."

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"I'm sure it'll be a terrible endeavor."

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"Yes," he says, nodding regally, "but I am a kind master."

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… Cough.

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"Now—not that I have a problem with it, you're free to have whatever limits you like, but I'm confused—explain to me the sense in you not letting my hand wander when our dicks are literally touching."

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It might be too dark to see Anthony blushing.

Maybe.

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No it's not. "You need to work on your 'answering questions' skill."

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"– You need to work on questions that'll get answers!"

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"Am I supposed to predict which questions you'll feel like answering, then?"

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"… Yes?"

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He looks down between them and points. "Literally. Touching."

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"– If you're not careful we might find out if I can die of embarrassment."

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"Then I guess I'll need to resuscitate you. Now, I forget, where's the mouth again? Is it that thing between your legs...?"

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"I honestly feel like I may stay dead."

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He looks down again. "Something's alive."

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"Oh my god." Anthony covers his face.

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"I feel like this is not the best situation for you to take the Lord's name in vain," he says, wrapping his arms around Anthony again.

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"Hold on, I need to die." He continues to cover his face.

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He chuckles and rests his head against Anthony's.

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Anthony is busy dying. Super busy.

For a bit.

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"You are way too cute." He shivers a bit. "And it's getting kinda late."

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"I am going to be so dead in the morning."

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"You're not. But I'm gonna give you looks and you're gonna go red in the face and it's going to be adorable and all the others are going to know something's up."

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"I am going to die so much."

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"Uh huh," he says, and plants a kiss on top of Anthony's head before unwrapping. "Let's go."

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He sighs and goes shorewards.

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And Kaede admires his butt and starts getting dressed. In a way that could reasonably be called as the reverse of a strip tease.

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Anthony covers his face, sighs again, and then looks back at Kaede.

"Really necessary?"

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"Are you not enjoying it?"

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"It seems – a bit much?"

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"I'll take that as a 'yes,'" he says, and continues doing it.

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That gets an eyeroll. And a bit of a smile.

But then shortly Anthony is dried and enclothed.

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And eventually so is Kaede.

And he walks over to Anthony to give him another kiss. "I was right."

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"… About?"

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"Whether I'd get to seduce you, kiss you, and date you."

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"The dating hasn't occurred, to my knowledge."

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"I'm still right."

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"But without all this evidence, how could you possibly be so?"

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"Anthony, will you be my boyfriend?"

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That brings him up short.

 

"… I'm sorta tempted to only respond when summer's over."

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He laughs. "I didn't give myself a time limit, so feel free."

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Anthony folds his arms.


"Okay." Pause. "Trial basis."

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"That is in fact how dating works." He beams, though, and bounces a little.

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Anthony looks like he might be trying not to grin. His face: very attemptedly serious.

It's not really working.

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He plants a kiss on Anthony's cheek and back they go.

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The next day, Anthony… seems to be avoiding Kaede, just a little.

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Well, the next time Kaede catches Anthony's eye he's going to lick his lips lasciviously.

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You're the worst, mouths Anthony.

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He points at his ears then shakes his head and shrugs, grinning.

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Anthony does not seem to buy it.

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It's such a shame Kaede does not understand sign language and is too busy being avoided to fix this misunderstanding!

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Avoidance continues.

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Oh no by a complete coincidence Anthony and Kaede were the ones picked to clean up the cafeteria while the other counselors go do more Activities.

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"So was this just a coincidence?"

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"What do you take me for, of course not."

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"Ah-huh."

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"You have been avoiding me," he pouts. "It would even look like you're ashamed of me."

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Anthony seems disbelieving.

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"What? It's true! I'm very hurt, I tell you."

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"Really?"

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"Well, kinda."

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"It is at least ninety percent because I think you're going to embarrass me to near-death."

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"Well, what I want to do is walk around holding hands with you looking smug, but we can't do that anyway because of the kids. Will you stop avoiding me if I promise not to do anything embarrassing?"

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"… I wasn't avoiding you that much anyway."

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"Mm."

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"No?"

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He shrugs. "More than I'd like regardless. You're my trophy boyfriend, after all."

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That brings him up short. "… Trophy boyfriend?"

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"You're my boyfriend, and you're great, and I wanna show you off to everyone and go 'lookit this great amazing thing I got.'"

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Raised eyebrow.

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"What?"

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"Being a trophy sounds… novel."

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"Bad novel?"

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"… Probably good novel?"

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"Then I stand by what I said."

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"I am happy to stop – jokingly – avoiding you?" he tries.

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"Mm."

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"Is that what you were trying for?"

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"Not exactly but I guess it'll do."

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"What were you going for then?"

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"The complete boyfriend package, no 'ums' and 'ahs' involved."

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"I am not completely sure how that works in practice."

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"Not avoiding me at all, jokingly or otherwise, is a start."

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"I got that much."

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"Good."

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"And – further than that?"

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"Seeking me out? Enjoying my company, being there, being close, that sort of thing."

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Anthony opts to finish putting some stuff away and then goes over to and kisses Kaede.

Seeing as they're conveniently alone in the cafeteria.

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Grinning does not get in the way of this too much.

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And then Anthony breaks away to say: "You're adorable."

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"It's true, I am. Good thing I got an adorable boyfriend to match."

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"Hope we don't break people."

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"By being overwhelmingly adorable?"

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"It seems plausible."

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"If you say so."

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"Maybe you haven't seen us, not properly."

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"What an outrageous hypothesis."

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"Outrageous, is it."

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"Yep. Look at me. Outraged."

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"You really seem it," he says, continuing to smirk. Then he goes to kiss Kaede again.

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But then he breaks away. "We should probably finish up."

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"—right." Ugh. Okay finishing it up.

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It doesn't take too long.

However then they should probably get back to supervising their kids.

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Right. That thing.

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Anthony seems a bit distracted.

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Kaede wonders what by.

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Apparently: him!

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Ooooh.

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That's just distracting him further.

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Is that so.

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No, it was all an elaborate lie. (Yes.)

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Well, they're around kids so they're the model of good behavior.

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Of course! But the day gradually passes by.

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Yes, that is a thing it does.

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And eventually the kids are put to bed.

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And they should go to bed as well, right?

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Well.

They could, but the other counselors are there.

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...he did not mean together. Such a dirty mind.

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Anthony had no such thought! He was simply observing that it might prevent them from interacting, perhaps by kissing.

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Kaede thinks the fact they will be asleep in their beds will be sufficient to prevent that. Unless Anthony had different ideas about where they should be going now?

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… Mm, overall probably not, they should get sleep at some point.

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They should, they already failed to last night.

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They got some.

 

But yes okay.

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They will probably have more opportunities to kiss over the next few days—and Kaede is of the opinion that they should take them.

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Anthony agrees! How convenient.

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Very!

...and their last day together arrives.

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"Last day."

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"Yeah," she sighs.

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"Should we… pick a day to meet up?"

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"Still have the problem that is my father."

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"Who I will hopefully charm or alternatively you can get away from to come to mine?"

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"Getting away from him will be hard to impossible if you don't charm him."

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"… I think I'm personally very likable but I'm not sure I'd be to his… tastes?"

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"The fact that you also like boys will not make him happy," she says wryly, "but he doesn't need to know that part."

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"I don't know how he'd find it out, unless we got reckless."

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"Have you met me, I am extremely reckless."

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"… But we could try to be reckless away from him?"

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"Yeah I guess."

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"Do we want to figure out – some sort of backup plan, if he finds out?"

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"Probably."

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"… Now or over MSN? I'm not sure what would be involved."

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"I don't know, it'd depend a lot on how strongly he reacted."

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"… Do we need to set something up if I don't hear from you?"

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"...maybe."

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"Do we need that now, or just at some future point when it's more likely he might find out –?"

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"I don't know, I'm not sure what kind of plan we could come up with and I don't think he'd just forbid me from accessing the internet and the libraries have computers anyway but."

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"– I mean, I don't know if you'd want to involve them, but – we could try some sort of authority."

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"He's not physically abusive so good luck proving he's terrible and then if we do, well, what? Foster system?"

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"… I honestly don't know. I suppose they can't just – reform him somehow."

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She starts laughing. "No, they—" More laughter. "No."

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"Sadly that is not how the system works."

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"I mean even if it were he's irredeemable."

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Anthony tries not to seem too visibly – disgusted – by this.

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"He basically believes himself to be right and correct, it's not like he's doing it out of spite."

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"He could consider that – what he's doing – is wrong because it breaches other generally good principles."

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"Like which? Not going to Hell is a pretty strong one."

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"… Right, but interfering with people on this level about things personal to them in such a way is… against principles I wish more people had?"

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"Sure but better than going to Hell."

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"Better than them going to Hell, or would he also do it if he didn't interfere?"

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"Better than them going to Hell, yeah."

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"… I feel like surely he could think of less destructive methods to achieve that, ones that are even more likely to work."

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"If doing gay things sends you to Hell what method other than preventing gay things from being done will help?"

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"Trying to convince you through less… abusive means?"

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"Mmhm?"

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"It's still hopefully – hopefully for him – preventing gay things being done but… on a level that's more likely to convince you? Instead of just make you rebel."

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"Right, I'm just wondering what possible method you're thinking of that's not inherently abusive."

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"… I was thinking him trying to explain his point of view to you, possibly repetitively, but depending on how much that was being recommended it might just end up being – indoctrination."

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"And it's not like he didn't try that, he raised me.—after mom died, that is."

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"… It seems like he escalated poorly."

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"How would you've?"

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"He could have tried to not antagonize you, maybe consider you'd change your mind once you're less – teenage, rebellious or whatever?"

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"He's got more than ninety IQ points, he knows that's not how it works."

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"… Really? So – why does he expect this other method to work better?"

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"He can in fact control me enough to not let me do gay things. Mostly. If I'm not careful."

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"And it's the actual act, not the intention and fact you will relatively shortly go off to university and be able to do what you want…?"

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"Four years is not that shortly, and if he manages to stamp it out of me..."

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"… But does he seem liable to do that?"

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"Of course not I'm irreversibly queer."

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"And he hasn't noticed this."

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"He thinks there's a god he's not infinitely wise."

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"Well – I didn't know where the wisdom stopped."

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"I'm not sure he actually thinks his actions will have good consequences or whether he's just given up and is acting on sheer momentum."

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"… Ugh."

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"Yeah." Shrug.

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"… We should probably get packing."

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Sigh. "Yeah."

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He gets to packing. He's done bits of it already, trying to be organized.

Sigh.

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Yeah. Packing. Yay.

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It's not particularly long until their parents are scheduled to collect them.

Anthony stops partway through the packing, to look at Kaede.

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Her father isn't there yet. She shrugs.

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"It's gonna be weird, not seeing you," he says.

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"...yeah. Same."

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"… I'm guessing you don't have a webcam?"

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"I do, actually. But."

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Anthony tilts his head.

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"My father."

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"Won't let you use a webcam? While talking to friends?"

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"I don't usually so it'd be suspicious."

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Nod. "… How much do you usually use a computer, anyway?"

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"Not much, I'm not a computer person."

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"I'm not sure if it would help it or make it worse for him to know you're talking to someone you met at the camp that was to be a good influence."

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"...well I suppose after he meets you..."

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"… If I try to make a good impression that would presumably help? I'm not sure what I should be aiming for – I don't know I can convincingly pretend to be religious."

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"No need to be religious, just—straight. Maybe I should pretend to be a boy more often."

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"Make it seem more platonic?"

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"Yeah."

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"I can probably do that. … I think."

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"You think?"

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"I've never tested my acting ability."

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"Just don't show any non-manly affection and you're fine."

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"Eugh."

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"I don't mean you have to be like, I don't know, all manly and rough and tough. Just. You know, don't act like you have a boner for me."

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"… I mean, still eugh, but I can probably do it."

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"I know I'm irresistible but I believe in you."

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"I don't usually have – well, any of my acting ability tested."

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"You don't need to win an Oscar merely convince my father."

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"… Yeah. Okay."

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Anthony's parents will arrive before Kaede's father.

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It's his mother!

"Hi, darling," she greets him, smiling affectionately (but not moving to embrace him). "Shall we get your stuff? Did you have a fun time?"

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"Um, yeah –" He turns to look at Kaede. "This is my mother – mom, this is Kaede."

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"It's a pleasure to meet you."

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"Likewise," she smiles. "Have you two been – co-counselors, or whatever they call it?"

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"Yeah, we have."

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"How were the kids? No… incidents?"

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"… Incidents like what?"

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"Oh, I don't know – kids will be kids."

She seems to be smirking.

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She glances at Anthony and raises an eyebrow before looking at his mother again. "Nothing we couldn't handle."

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Anthony raises an eyebrow at his mom. "Do you have something to say?"

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"I wouldn't want to embarrass you."

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"I am physically incapable of being embarrassed. Did he tell you or did you guess, because if you guessed that's kinda bad."

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"… Guess?"

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"Mom, seriously?"

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"You – I just figured he had met someone else, you two seemed like – I did not I think guess what had actually happened."

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"Oh no he has totally met me."

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"I – was mostly just making references to be embarrassing –"

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"References to what, though."

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She frowns at him. "Typical camp shenanigans? – Is it really that much of a problem, you seem upset –"

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"Well you've met your son's new girlfriend, hi. Please don't mention this around my father."

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Charys looks between the two of them. "Can I… have some explanation?"

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"We started dating, my father's homophobic. Oh and I'm sometimes a boy—assigned male at birth, actually—so this is technically gay."

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She pauses, digesting that. "I hate to sound…" She hesitates. "Callous, I guess it would be callous… but have you tried… talking to your father? About this all?"

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"He's quite blatantly homophobic."

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She actually laughs out loud. "He's the Westboro Baptist Church kind of homophobic."

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Charys grimaces, a little. "That bad?"

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"Nearly, yes. So since you're not and seem to be okay with the gayness involved I'd be very thankful if you helped us out with the whole 'sneak around my father' thing."

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"– Was that in question?"

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Anthony seems surprised by the jump in conversation. "I – didn't think it was? I guess?"

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"Assuming you're sensible about things – that should be okay."

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"I didn't think it was, either, I was just contrasting. Thank you. Your son is great, by the way."

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"I – thank you, but I'm not sure I can take too much credit for that."

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Anthony decides to step forward and hug her. "I think you can take quite a lot of credit for it."

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"Aaaawwwwww," she grins.

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Charys pulls away after a moment and coughs, possibly to skip over some embarrassment. "– Anyway, sorry about that. I'm Charys."

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"And Anthony has told you my name." There's a honk, and she looks—" That will be my father," she sighs. "I'll text you, 'kay?" she tells Anthony.

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Nod. "Do you need help with your stuff? I can go do mine quickly."

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"Nah, I'm cool, it's already out—bye! Nice to meet you, Anthony's mom!"

Off she goes.

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So Anthony goes to fetch his stuff and put it in the car – and then summer camp is over.

Kinda sad, really.

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Later she texts him:

I'm home. My father's annoyed with me because I'm a girl today but I may start just crossdressing to convince him all's fine.

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Eugh. No problems with the fact – camp didn't particularly quieten you?

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He'd call shenanigans if I arrived and was suddenly straight and cis. Should be a gradual process.

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I mean, there are ways to be quieter without straight away being straight and cis.

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Define 'quieter.'

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Ok, amend my previous message to 'I assume there are ways to be'.

I don't know how you usually act around him so I guess I don't know what would seem more… docile?

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He doesn't care if I'm rebellious just if I put my penis in vaginas and only in vaginas.

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Some people are really weird.

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And yet that seems to be a pretty common opinion!

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I don't get it.

Well, I kinda do, but then it just gets into other things I don't get.

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Like?

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My mom didn't raise me to be very religious.

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And you don't get it?

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It doesn't seem like the sort of thing you'd just spring into believing. It seems like it would need to be a tradition or something for a while first.

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Pretty much, yes.

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Weird.

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You're using that word in a weird way!

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But it is weird, why do they do it!

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Selective pressures in the ancestral environment for a hyperactive sense of external agency!

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… Why would there be selective pressures for that, so we don't all break down in futility?

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Suppose you're in the ancestral environment, and you see suspicious movement behind some bushes. Could be nothing. Could be a lion. On average which assumption do you think left you with the most descendants?

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Ok, point.

I wouldn't have thought that'd make people believe in a god but I guess it makes sense.

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Well it makes people believe in gods of things, evolution isn't neat enough that people will only imagine agency where there is none in bush-like situations, so you get it everywhere like with lightning and stuff.

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Yeah it makes sense. It just never occurred to me.

Still weird.

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Now you're just using that word wrong!

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I don't know what other word to use! It's bizarre, seems like they should just get over themselves?

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Why would they? How would they?

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I mean Canada's doing pretty well, for people getting over themselves.

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Sure and it took only, oh, seven thousand years. Go us.

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But it's still getting somewhere.

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Mmhm. It seems that education, security, and wealth obviate the need for gods.

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It'll probably go with time…

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Probably, but that time is not zero and I have to deal with him.

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Hopefully with help.

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Hopefully.

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They chat more, over the coming weeks, and make actual plans to meet up. Her place first, to show how nonthreatening he and their relationship are.

Anthony arrives at the appropriate time, dropped off by his mom, and knocks on the door.

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A tall man opens the door. "Can I help you?"

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"Hello, I'm Anthony," he responds. "Kaede invited me?"

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"Oh, yes, my son mentioned. Do come in."

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He smiles and comes into the house!

… Does it look like people take their shoes off before entering the house, should he do that, he wouldn't like to step on anyone's toes.

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Yep, it does look like that.

"I'll go get him upstairs."

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"Thank you," smiles Anthony. "Is it okay if I just leave my shoes here…?"

Oh dear it is so horrifying trying to be nice and smiley towards him.

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"Sure, wherever's fine, don't worry about it."

Up he goes.

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Shoes go off and get placed near some other shoes in a neat position! Anthony steps into the house proper and waits.

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Anthony can hear enough murmurs to tell there is a conversation going on upstairs, but not enough to discern its contents.

A small girl—maybe eight years old—emerges from the kitchen and stares at him.

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"… Hello," he greets her.

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She keeps staring at him.

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"I'm Anthony. A friend of Kaede's."

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She nods. And keeps staring.

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"… What's your name?"

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"Samantha."

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"It's nice to meet you."

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Nod.

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"… Do you have any other siblings?"

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Nod.

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(Sigh.) "And are they around right now?"

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She pauses to think, then nods.

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"And do you think they'd like to talk sometime…?"

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Shrug.

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He pauses and then shrugs in return.

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Staaaaare.

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He stares back at her, then at the walls, waiting.

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They can hear steps coming from the stairs, which causes the girl to promptly flee back into the kitchen.

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… Whatever.

Anthony turns to face the stairs.

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And here's Kaede.

"Hey! You came."

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"I did! Hi, how've you been?"

He smiles and looks for Kaede's dad briefly.

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Walking down the stairs after his son.

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"I've been alright. School, though. How about you?"

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"About the same!" is the response. "Homework assignments: not a thing I'd missed."

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Snort. "Wanna play video games?"

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Anthony grins. "What do you have?"

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"Mm, multiplayer I have... Bomberman and this one racing game and a couple fight ones..."

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Anthony turns to Kaede's dad. "Uh, do you mind if we –?"

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"Go ahead and have your fun."

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He smiles and turns back to Kaede. "Where is it?"

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"Here," he says, and leads Anthony to the living room where there's a large TV with a PlayStation 2 attached.

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… Oooh.

Anthony goes to check out the list of games.

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There are plenty!

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He pokes around at them and then – "How about this one?"

It's a multiplayer racing game.

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"Sure thing." He gives Anthony a controller and turns the PS2 on.

And his sister appears there at the door, staring at them.

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Anthony looks over at her, deems her weird, attempts to ignore her!

Is there a tutorial on the game? He has not played racing games in a while but he hears they're great with friends.

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The tutorial is Kaede explaining the controls. He doesn't seem to notice or mind his sister there.

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Tutorial by way of person! Anthony tries to take in the controls – fortunately they're relatively intuitive, the controller is not particularly obscure and the game isn't stupidly designed.

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It isn't! And it's fun! Kaede enjoys it. And if he slides to sitting a bit closer to Anthony than normal, it's just accidental and being distracted by the game.

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Platonic. Very platonic, of course, friends, because Kaede's dad is somewhere, possibly lurking.

But sitting too close is hardly a crime.

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Hardly a crime indeed.

Kaede's decent at the game but not amazing.

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Anthony has not played the game before! Anthony can swiftly improve from 'not very good' to 'less bad'.

Ahem ahem oh look excuse to move a little closer how weird.

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They're almost touching even! But Kaede's not paying attention to that, oh, no, he's just playing.

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Of course not, the side-eye is nothing to do with that.

They can pass quite a fun time playing the game, with Anthony looking over at Kaede's sister from time to time.

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She's just kinda there, minding her own business.

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… Maybe she's lonely.

"How's school going?" he asks, of Kaede.

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"Absolutely tedious. Everyone's so surprised I'm just a boy now, though."

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"… Huh."

Anthony looks back at Kaede's sister again.

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Such smol. Much shy. Very staring. Wow.

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Little kid hopefully does not report back to her father because that would be awfully creepy, but Anthony does not think he will risk it.

"At least we're moving onto new things," he says. "Or at least – we are, I'm not sure about your school."

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He shrugs. "Sure, I guess, but it's not like I pay a whole lot of attention in class anyway."

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"No? Not got an undying passion for Pythagoras's theorem?"

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"Alas, no. Besides, I've known it for ages."

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"Oh? How'd you learn about it?"

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"Don't remember. Looked it up somewhere."

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"Needed it for a game, when I was like six."

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"—a game? What sort of nerdy game was that?"

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"It had a map and distances and a grid structure and if you wanted to conquer villages a certain distance away you wanted to time it properly and – basically I was curious why it started using non-integer times for diagonal squares. And how it figured the distances out."

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...he can't kiss Anthony right now. This is terrible. He settles for a knee bump. "Of course you were."

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Anthony grins. "I thought it was really weird when I found out it worked the same for 3D – I mean, that it's still squaring and rooting, not cubing and cube roots."

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"It's not that weird! It makes sense!"

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"It does! It's just square rooting the sum of the squares! But I thought it'd be – taking the first root of the first power, that is doing nothing, then square rooting the sum of the squares, then cube rooting the sum of the cubes, and so on?"

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"Right, I mean it makes geometric sense that its always squares rather than cubes and all that."

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"Oh, right, yeah. But at the time I wasn't testing it with a ruler or anything, I was just – I had a pattern in mind and it didn't fit it."

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"Fair enough. Also, I win."

He does.

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Anthony pouts. Briefly. Long enough to be noticed.

"I only learnt this game today, though."

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Ahhh so cute.

"Whiner."

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"I'm just taking what I can get." Pause. "Which is apparently nothing, so far, since I haven't won, but still."

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Giggle.

Another match?

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Yes!

Anthony does better this time!

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Kaede does the same! Still better than Anthony but not by as much!

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Yay!

Anthony tries not to be too cute. Not too cute.

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He fails. So horribly.

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Tragic isn't it.

And at the end – Anthony loses again!

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Awwwww. Kaede can't kiss him this is terrible.

...but then his little sister flees the room to go to the bathroom...

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… Anthony does not know where Kaede's dad is and they're being careful.

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So careful.

So tempted.

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But they should be careful and, like, not do it in the living room.

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Darn Anthony and his reasonableness.

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Ugh it's just awful however does Kaede have a room or something they can plausibly have an excuse to be in for like five minutes.

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He does not seem to be suggesting that. He seems to be starting another race.

And his sister returns.

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Oh well.

Does Anthony do better this time?

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At what, pray tell? Playing the game or being adorable? Because the answer's yes regardless.

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Yesss! Wait he was trying to be less adorable.

Clearly he must try harder.

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"Okay I'm bored of racing."

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"Pick another game, or break for something?"

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"Up to you."

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Anthony pauses and goes to check through the games again quickly.

"Break then come back to this?" He holds up another game.

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"Sure, sounds good. Wanna eat something?"

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"Sure!"

What do they have?

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Stuff!

Takuma chooses this time to walk downstairs again. "You boys having fun?"

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"Uh – yep," says Anthony. Then he pauses. "We've been playing videogames?"

… He kinda expects to be told to go run around outside. And get off the game console.

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"Anything good, or is it that boring racing game my son seems to like?"

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Kaede rolls his eyes.

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"Probably that – I picked it."

(… Anthony takes a stuff. Cautiously.)

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"Alright, after you eat I'll show you what real gaming's like."

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"Oh?"

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"You'll see."

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"My interest is piqued," he responds, face approximately curious, and then he continues eating.

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Kaede makes himself some tea and drinks it and eats a muffin and studiously ignores his father.

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Nom.

Anthony tries to think of something to say. He turns to Kaede and opts to go for something simple. "So, uh – Samantha said you had other siblings? Or another?"

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He looks at his father—

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—who says, "Jonathan's at a friend's. He's a bit older than Samantha. Did Kaede never tell you?" There is not even the slightest hint of reproach in his voice.

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"I had a bit of trouble keeping everyone straight, at camp." He shrugs, trying to seem nonchalant.

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"Well, it's just the two of them, and Kaede," Takuma explains. "Samantha's seven, Jonathan's eight."

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"Ah." Pause. "Samantha's very shy."

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"She is. Takes after her mother, that way. She'll open up eventually."

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Nod. "Is Jonathan the same, or…?"

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"No, he's much more outgoing. If you stay for dinner you'll see."

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"Oh, uh – may I?" he asks, half of Takuma and half of Kaede.

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"Naturally."

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"Okay then!" he smiles. (Heck, does Kaede's dad have to be charming.) "Do you mind if we, um –" Gesture. "Get back to games?"

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"I do—without me. I said I was gonna show you what real gaming's like, so I am!" He gets up and makes his way to the console.

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Oops. "Right!"

Anthony follows, glancing at Kaede.

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Kaede seems mostly resigned to the fact that his father is going to charm the pants out of his boyfriend.

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Not really the vibe Anthony wants to give off, at least not to Kaede, but he doesn't know how to get that across.

"Racing game, or something else?" he asks.

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"Something else," he says, looking around until—" Aha. This one." It's a kombat game.

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Anthony has some passing experience with games like this but has not played them a ton!

"Oh," he says. "I'm not sure I'll be very good at it."

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He starts it up. "No one is until they try."

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He pulls a face, briefly, but shrugs. "Sure."

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"Come on, try this little tutorial thing to get the basics of the controls," Takuma says, offering Anthony the controller.

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Anthony takes it.

Little tutorial thing, here he comes! … With slight trepidation!

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It is very intuitive! Mostly! There are some button combinations.

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He tries to memorize them and get a feel for how all the things combine!

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After he beats his enemy Takuma instructs him to do a series of controller button presses in quick sequence.

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Uhhh okay he can try that.

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Takuma laughs as Anthony's character proceeds to very gruesomely tear their opponent in half, with gore and blood to spare.

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Yay! (He thinks!)

Does it work if he does it again and can he just keep using it to win?

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No it only works after he's defeated his opponent.

"I think you're ready to play for real."

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"Mmmaybe?"

(Ugh, annoying.)

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So they can play!

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Anthony is not amazing! Hopefully Takuma is taking it easy on him.

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Not too easy. But eventually he does leave the boys be.

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Anthony tries to smile very nicely and politely and nonweirdly while Takuma leaves.

He looks over at Kaede.

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The relief is not visible.

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"Should we play another game?"

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"Please," he says, removing that game from the console.

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"Pick any or some specific –?"

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"Anything but that."

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He picks a platformer near him and puts it in the console.

"… Sorry."

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"Whatever for?"

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He gestures vaguely at where Takuma left. "… That."

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"Been dealing with it all my life. He's being nicer now—I haven't been visibly a girl since I got back."

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"Yeah." (Ugh.) "That'd – probably help."

Anthony looks a bit awkward.

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"Does help, yes." He looks around, determines his sister is not relevantly spying, and leans forward to plant a kiss on Anthony's cheek.

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Anthony smiles, trying to suppress the awkwardness.

"Anyway –" He gestures at the screen. "Let's?"

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"Do let's!"

They are let.

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Let they are.

It takes a bit to get a hang of the controls, and there are some tricks to some of the levels that Anthony needs Kaede to show him how to get past, but they can pass some more time like this.

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And eventually it is dinnertime!

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Ooh! … What are they getting.

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Shrimp with pumpkin!

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Interesting combination! He tries it with nonzero gusto.

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Kaede's stepmom and young brother are also present. They are not extremely curious about Anthony beyond small pleasantries but Jonathan does talk a lot and is in fact more outgoing than Samantha.

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He tries to be pleasant back, eating slowly as he does so, but fails slightly at being non-awkward.

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And eventually dinner evolves into dessert (chocolate fudge cake) which evolves into Anthony having to go.

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His mom appears to pick him up. She introduces herself to Takuma and his wife.

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Anthony loiters a bit, not knowing whether or not to risk a hug. "I'll message you later?" he says.

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"Yeah. See you later, Anthony." And he does hug him. Manly hugs. So heterosexual.

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As friends. Both male. Both clearly heterosexual. So platonic.

Anthony detaches after what is hopefully a non-noteworthy amount of time, and then he and his mom go to their car and leave.

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Takuma is pleased with this turn of events. He is even more pleased that his son seems to have decided to stay male for the rest of the year, and is gleefully ignorant of how dysphoria affects him.

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She hates her father so much.

After Anthony visits one more time Kaede's allowed to visit him. And it's on a girl day (because she does have a little bit of control over this with enough advance warning) so she packs girl clothes into her backpack and as soon as she gets to his place and Takuma's gone she changes.

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Anthony pulls a bit of a face.

"How are you holding up?"

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"Much better now, although it's not like the physical part of the dysphoria is fixable."

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He frowns and moves to hug her.

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Yes please so much hug.

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They can hug for some time, then.

Anthony does eventually ask, "So what do you want to do today?"

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"I don't know, I guess you can show me around?"

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"I guess you haven't seen much of the house yet," he shrugs. "Well – not that it's large – but, still."

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"Still," she agrees.

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"Well – my room," he says, gesturing at the space around them. He then gestures to the door. "Over into the hallway?"

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"Yeah sure!"

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Out to the hallway they go! "That one's my parents' room." Point. "Bathroom." Another point. "Spare room." More point.

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She looks at the places pointed!

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"Now down the stairs!" He starts on his way, still gesturing to encompass the important things to take note of. (Currently the path down stairs. Which they will go along.)

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She giggles. "My, stairs, how novel."

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He opens his mouth, as if to retort, but then stops and simply presses his lips together, looking at her with faint amusement.

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She just grins right back at him.