On the plane, Araari brings up being incompetently threatened. “Two men stopped me yesterday. From Captain Walker. They wanted me to tell you that continuing on this path is dangerous. —They meant because of them, because they will hurt you if you continue, but I suspect they are not the most dangerous thing we will encounter if we continue.”
"We got the same threats months ago. I don't know what it means that they're still in the threatening stages, if it's just the transition of management and we should be much more concerned now or not. ...It is concerning that they were able to find us in New York. And that they knew you'd joined us."
They arrive at Luqa Airport in Valetta. From the sky above, the odd angles of the off-kilter runways seem to form a star-like or perhaps thorn-like pattern.
This probably is a totally innocuous shape with no eldritch significance whatsoever.
The airport has freshly paved runways, but instead of a terminal there are only a couple of small buildings. They take the trolley to Valletta.
Valletta is a lovely city, brimming with Baroque architecture, lush gardens, charming piazzas, and orderly, narrow streets. By day, its vibrant collection of churches, shops, cafés, and parks make the city feel alive with activity. By night, gas lamps and electric lights twinkle in the narrow alleys and avenues, giving the city a shadowy and mysterious charm.
The Times of Malta informs them:
-The Belgian Chamber of Deputies voted to suspend the gold standard and devalue the country's currency by 25 percent.
-Ethiopia broke off direct talks with Italy over their border disputes and sent a new note to the League of Nations.
The first thing Mordred finds out in the city records is that Montgomery Donovan is a woman.
There's lots of property and paperwork in Montgomery’s name – specifically a harbor-view townhouse in western Valetta near the Great Siege Road, the yacht Elegance (previously registered to one Peter Lukas), and a warehouse owned by her in the western end of the southern harbor. But there’s nothing particularly revealing about any of the information. The records paint a picture of a very wealthy woman with almost no legal footprint.
Peter Lukas is a former ship captain who currently owns four freighters: the Thyrsus, the Odysseus, the Fatima, and the Sea Empress. He primarily specializes in shipping textiles.
Montgomery's warehouse also has textiles. Obviously. Very wealthy textile-shipping businesswoman here.
Of course.
He should. Uh. He should... add to... their eccentric foreigner appearance... and... cause distractions if necessary... or possibly he should study anthropology with Lev. These seem like equally good ideas.
He can imagine about the same number of ways for either plan to go horribly wrong.
"Oh, sure," a man says. "Now, other people will tell you to buy your Nectar from the parkies. They are at the parks throughout Valletta-- near La Gavroches in Upper Barracca, in the Argotti Gardens, you can't miss them. But I'm telling you they overcharge, and you really want to get your Nectar from the Faldetta Peaches.
“I’m—better than average, at being quiet? I could go if we want more people than just Magnificence to go. Magnificence on his own might be less conspicuous, though. Peter Lukas is a new name, he ships textiles, I thought it was nothing until I saw that textiles are the cover story for the warehouse. And it might be worth looking again at the newspapers to see if there’s anything we missed.”
At the morgue--
Mordred is going to look up Montgomery Donovan, Peter Lukas, the four ships owned by Peter Lukas, and anything else Oswald or Zoe come up with that they should look for.
He mostly discovers that Miss Donovan has kept herself almost entirely out of the newspapers.
Valletta-- The Royal Opera House on the Strada Reale conducted a very special premiere of Kurt Weill’s Der Jasager, which Mro Luigi Cantoni describes as being based on a libretto by the German writer Bertolt Brecht.
“The theme of this beautiful opera is made quite explicit by Brecht,” Cantoni says. “When you agree to a course of action, you must fully understand it.”
In the opera, a young boy asks to join his teacher on a dangerous journey over the mountains to see a great physician who might be able to cure his ailing mother. The teacher reluctantly agrees, but when the boy becomes ill during their journey, the other members of the party remind the teacher of a strict old custom which demands that anyone who becomes ill during the journey must be hurled into the valley. The teacher reminds them that the sick person can instead demand that the entire party should turn back. The boy, however, decides he knows the risk he was undertaking and decides to throw himself into the abyss, asking in return only that they bring back a jar of medicine to his injured mother.
“It’s a cautionary tale,” Cantoni continued. “Appropriate for a time where the world has great need for caution.”
No such caution was to be seen among the wealthy dignitaries who were assembled to enjoy the premiere. The Royal Opera seized the opportunity of the high profile premiere of the highly popular German opera to reach out to the finest of Malta’s upper and (Continued on page 11 column 2)
The evening’s fundraising efforts raised record amounts from remarkable glitterati at a gala affair. Portia Sapienza (left) and Montgomery Donovan (right) are premiere donors, on the red carpet at the Royal Opera House.
"Oh it definitely sounds culty, I'm just not sure that's useful information for us." Mordred is just simply not thinking about a weakening boy hurling himself into an abyss; he does, however, put Sapienza's name into his notes, along with all the names involved with writing this opera, just in case they come up again.
Mordred is distracting himself so thoroughly from Gale that he looks up and sees something.
Peter Lukas is in SO many newspaper articles. He apparently LOVES being in newspaper articles. Here he is at a charity gala for the Hospital Superbissima. Here he is at a meeting of the Malta Chamber of Commerce. Here he is as a founding member of the Malta Committee for the Protection of Morals. He is in SO many pictures and his eyes always look incredibly uncomfortable
"Or I can read the ones you aren't working with," Mordred says. He's excruciatingly polite, for a definition of polite most often used by university students; he's careful to take up less than his share of the available space and not to take an article the man is currently reading. He's friendly. Legitimate. There is no reason to object to his presence.
"I don't, unfortunately," and Araari knows Italian and some Arabic but that might not be enough to usefully translate. "I don't know what the etiquette is for asking about people's research around here, with other grad students I'd say 'pretend I asked the question that would get me the most interesting answer' but that might be horribly rude."
Oh god now he has to figure out what he could be researching that it makes sense he'd want to read clippings on the Abynissia crisis and also that he can talk about if asked without sounding incredibly stupid to someone who lives here.
"Oh, I study linguistic development, nothing particularly relevant, but my friend is writing a paper on historical sailing routes in the Mediterranean and I owe her a favor."
"Bertrand Russell's new book is excellent. It's about how the nineteenth century was fundamentally shaped by a struggle between freedom and control. Something I suppose we're both interested in. He doesn't quite say it's about Stalin and Hitler but the subtext is obvious."
Very genuine smile. "Oh, a fan. I have a soft spot for Why I Am Not A Christian because it was so influential on me, but I also like Marriage and Morals, and I also enjoy his mathematical work. I'm an amateur but I've been enjoying working my way through the Principia Mathematica."
Zoe stopped a bit short when she noticed Oswald was talking to one of those people from Ethiopia, and didn't join them when Mordred went to. Maybe it's better if she doesn't make her face too known to them. She hangs back and watches and tries to not look too connected to the others.
Wasn't that the one who's supposed to be psychic? There is stuff they're trying to keep other people from knowing and that seems hard to do with someone who is actually psychic. Is she reading her mind right now? Zoe starts fiddling with her zippo.
After this Oswald is going to ask Mordred about the significance or lack thereof of Bertrand Russell to cult activity, his primary knowledge is that he's a controversial philosopher and it feels like he's missing something. ...And also about his work in general. He has found one way to make friends and it's by encouraging infodumps.
"I don't know how busy you are in Malta, would you like to join me in looking at churches? And forts, and megalithic temples, and so on. There are lots of interesting things to see here and I have to do them all by myself because Louise is busy. And my other options are, you know, Joan, Mariam, and Anchisa."
"Oh, it's endless. Inaaya, I'm going to a soiree at Lord So-and-so's summer house-- it's not even the summer, I don't know why they're there. Inaaya, I'm going to get lunch with a member of parliament. Inaaya, I'm going to a meeting of the Malta Committee for the Protection of Morals. And I say to her, Mariam, all of us are in the life except for Anchisa, I don't know what you're doing, do you really think we have any morals to protect. Is this the business you think we're in, Mariam."
"Mariam, our boss brutally murders people, I say. And she says that the Committee for Protection of Morals isn't about protecting those morals, it is about keeping people from having deviant sex. And I say that I don't think that's very moral, brutal murder being significantly worse than deviant sex by anyone's lights, and anyway Mariam has deviant sex all the time. Mostly so she can blackmail people with it."
"Peter Lukas goes to all those parties too but Mariam dislikes him. Apparently he talks like he learned all of human interaction from a Dale Carnegie course. --Well, see you around." Inaaya gives Mordred her contact information so he can find her to schedule Church Expeditions.
“Of course. I apologize for asking.” Araari has kind of picked up on what is and is not appropriate for showing respect in America but she’s very out of her depth in Malta. Probably better to err on the side of being rude by doing nothing? “I don’t want to get you in trouble.”
He is very cute. It's true.
He is not going to have a new name though. He's going to run away when they leave the hospital.
Bye nice lady! It's been fun.
Magnificence has discovered the SOURCE of the SUBSTANCE. Now if he can only think of some way to communicate this. These humans are much worse at understanding things than Anemone was.
“Thank you very much, Magnificence, you’re very helpful and an excellent monkey.” She picks up his hand and bends down very seriously to kiss it, like she might with an elder or someone else respected. “Are there other important things that you want to tell me, should I keep asking questions?”
Well, that’s some of the worst possibilities out of the way, then. “The thing that she took from the hospital—was it some sort of liquid?” Possibly nectar also comes in powder or pill form but Araari is not sure how to explain drugs to a monkey. Worst case scenario, she’ll pull out her first aid kit and ask Magnificence to point at anything that looks like what the lady took from the hospital.
A storm is blowing in, its thunderhead rolling in dark and low, lightning splaying across the sky and touching the sea.
The Hospital Superbissima is a younger institution in an older building. The hospital was constructed as a sprawling mansion and was renovated into a hospital. It is six storeys tall, made of sturdy stone, and quite cramped and dark for a hospital. Though tall windows let a great deal of light into the outer rooms, the interior spaces, such as offices and records rooms, are shadowy and confining.
Nurses walk through the hospital carrying what are recognizably vials of Nectar, like they saw with the Faletta Peaches.
"Okay, so... probably some of us should go to the hospital and try to learn more about what the nurses think they're doing and why they're doing it, maybe look into that Dr. Solazzio? And some of us should try to, I don't know, see if they can contrive to run into Montgomery Donovan at a social event or whatever she does with her life. And just... generally keep a low profile, avoid pissing anyone off, and get ourselves as close as we can to whatever's going on, until we have hard proof of something damning?"
It DOES contain people.
The warehouse is a simple cement-and-corrugated-metal building with few entrances and high, closed windows. Aside from the light pouring out through those dirty windows, there’s little way of seeing what’s happening inside.
There are MEN WITH GUNS walking around the outside.
D:
Well this is BAD.
AUGH he doesn't know how to FIX bleeding.
MAYBE he should run away and limp back home and try to get help.
BUT FIRST he is gonna try to take an aerial picture of the STUPID HORRIBLE MOUTH ZONE, from a SAFE DISTANCE, while holding his camera VERY VERY CAREFULLY.
because he's NOT LETTING THE STUPID MOUTHS WIN.
Meanwhile--
Hmmm. So the thing one ideally wants to do is make contact with Dr. Salazzio? But it's super weird to just barge into a doctor's office. She's not even sure that he spends much time in any sort of proper office, he could be a normal doctor who sees patients for most of the day. What she needs is, like... a secretary. Yeah. A secretary to make an appointment with him at his soonest possible convenience.
She can head to the hospital, try to avoid any nurses that she actually spoke to yesterday, and ask whether there's a place to go to discuss scheduling meetings with specific doctors.
"Hello. I'm here representing a Dr. William Conrad. Word is that there are particularly interesting developments in medicine occurring at this hospital, and I'm here to see whether it's worth him flying out to learn more about them. Do you know if it's at all possible to schedule a meeting with a Dr. Salazzio to discuss his work?"
"All right then! I'll be back at one."
Anita makes a few phone calls to try to find someone reliable who can pass himself off as a medical professional if she has to give Dr. Solazzio a number which belongs to this made-up doctor, but unfortunately all of her medically inclined friends are busy today.
"I did!" haha she was definitely assuming a man that's embarrassing. "I'm an assistant for a doctor who lives in the United States. He said that he'd heard things in passing about a phenomenally powerful new medicine available in Malta. Sent me to see whether any such thing actually existed. See whether it was worth looking into personally, and whether it would be worth investing in obtaining permission to use it in the states. I've been hearing a lot about a new medicine since I got here, and I understand that you're the expert on it?"
"Of course! That's how the doctors back home are, really, they get all excited about possible new medical applications and forget all about the financial side. But I guess they have a point, you know, if this is something really special, something that could be used to help a lot of people who can't be helped by other things, well - would it be possible for me to get some more information about your discoveries here to take back home to them? If there's anything you're comfortable sharing at this stage."
"They're both quite ill. Low blood pressure, low respiration rate, low pulse, fatigue, weakness. It's tragic to see. But I've found that a regular dose of Nectar supports them in having more normal development. I don't think either of them would be alive without it."
(She is totally leaving shit out, but it seems unlikely she'd tell the truth with any persuasion short of violent threats.)
"Well, I'm sure nobody could complain about that. Do you have any - paper summaries, maybe, notes you feel comfortable sharing copies of about the results you've seen here? I'm always supposed to bring some kind of documentation back, if I can find anyone interested in helping. Just general outlines, I mean."
Cools. "Thank you so much, I'm sure they'll be really excited to hear more about this."
She would really like to look at the hospital's official records, but she should probably head back to base and determine whether anyone has a better idea than testing the limits of how bribable the nurses are.
"Maybe? I learned that Montgomery Donovan used to come to the opera with Portia Sapienza all the time, and that Portia stopped coming last February, and that since then Montgomery still comes regularly, but always leaves before the show ends, sometimes crying.
And that Der Jasager was her favorite, but maybe we already knew that?"
Anita comes back with some kind of useless but at least extant notes about the effects of nectar as described by Dr. Solazzio.
"Talked to the hospital people. They're claiming it's like an amphetamine, but with zero side effects and no addiction risk. Not that they believe this, mind you."
"And, apparently, their most interesting cases are two eight-year-old girls, a Tereza Doe and a Lela Donovan. I think we want those medical records, if anyone can think of a way to get at them."
Shudder. “That could explain why she might be dead if they had not made her a test subject, as well. I do wonder about Lela Donovan—when we check for information on Portia Sapenzia, we should look for her too, and anyone else who might be related to Montgomery Donovan.”
(Now that they've thought about it, Malta seems to have a perfectly normal number of homeless people. That's Sure Better Than The Alternative.)
WELL. This man called Godel has proved that you cannot have a system of axioms that results in all of math and is also internally consistent.
Everyone is very excited because inventing that thing has been the goal of mathematicians for decades, and so it is very exciting if it is impossible in principle.
Here's the proof. First, you figure out how to represent any math equation as a number--
"It is that."
Pause, while he thinks about how to say something that means anything without revealing just how little he knows. "Mostly I've been... frustrated with how it seems sometimes like the occult makes itself difficult to learn about? And part of that is just that most people don't believe in it so there isn't as much research being done as in other fields and what there is is all secret, of course, but it -- still feels like there's something else there? That might not make much sense."
"Ohhhhhh.
Yes, I encounter that in my work as well, half the time when I talk to the dead I wind up fainting or running off to the woods. And don't get me started on psychometry with magic artifacts. I'm lucky the Obelisk of Axum was broken or I would have spent the rest of my life in an asylum."
"That is lucky," he says, entirely sincerely. "And -- on the one hand it seems wrong to say that that's because the book doesn't want to be read, right, because it's a book, but -- the occult does seem like it's more hostile to being understood than anything else I've ever seen researched."
"It's-- hard to comprehend. You know the thing that Einstein said about relativity, that there are only six people in the world who understand it?
Or if you're thinking about-- I don't know-- ten-dimensional shapes, what you do is visualize a three-dimensional shape and say 'ten' firmly to yourself, because-- we can't think in ten dimensions?"
"And-- maybe it was mind-scarring, thousands of years ago, to know exactly how it is that radio works, when you don't understand-- the rest of it or anything.
But that doesn't mean it will always be."
Inaaya has been, over the course of this conversation, moving gradually but steadily into Mordred's personal space.
He doesn't have to, as it turns out. Inaaya stands up and brushes her fingers against the cave, and her face goes blank like when she was hitting Mordred with the rock.
"There were hippopotamuses here. Millions of years ago. The cave remembers. They came and they were large, but they starved often, and then they were small. The little ones would play in here.
A human child came back here this far in the cave once. She wasn't supposed to. She'd stolen her father's paint and she wanted to paint her hand, just like his. She did, and then she got in trouble. Her father yelled but hid his face so she couldn't see him laughing.
The hand is-- there."
Her eyes are closed, but where she points there is in fact a painting of a very small hand.
"Talk to dead people but I prefer not to, it takes a lot of me. Visions of things happening in the future, usually confusingly metaphorical. Visions of things happening elsewhere, usually not particularly helpful. Telekinesis you saw. Telepathy but that's really my weakest.
I've met some psychics much better than me at telepathy, I can only pick up the general shapes of people's minds and thoughts they're yelling."
....that sounds like a terrible idea.
But he did say he was planning on finding out what she could do -- but if she picks up anything dangerous it would be really really really bad --
He thinks about talking with Agravaine, reading to Lev; he thinks about how much he hates doctors, thinks about articles he's written and books he's read, thinks about the stupid counterfactual promise he deliberately didn't make because it was stupid that if Inaaya had been in an asylum he'd have broken her out; he thinks about random innocuous things that nonetheless have enough feeling attached to them to take up space in his mind, and says, "Okay."
"And I got that you're-- intelligent, you hate authority-- you're in love with someone you can't have, have you noticed that your entire brain is wrapped around how much you love them-- you like words. People hurt you as a kid. You have had a very very bad last six months.
But all of that is probably less interesting than you not being human."
The one about how she visited Leninist Russia and was disillusioned by the terror and despotism and oppression of anarchists. Inaaya is not herself an anarchist but feels they should be allowed to run newspapers.
They get back to Inaaya's hotel room first. "Do you want to come up to my place for coffee?"
Magnificence remembers that he also has IMPORTANT INFORMATION that he DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN EXACTLY.
he can... mime... digging...? No, he can gather all of the bloody sheets together and turn them into a pile and then dig into the pile until it looks like a hole and then put the mouth at the bottom?
"Okay. We don't know where this is. Might be below the warehouse, might not be, who knows where whatever tunnels lead. Is almost certainly the source of the Nectar in the area." He's trying to keep his voice level. "Maybe that's why they can afford to do all these experiments with Nectar instead of focusing on making sure it's supplied with sacrifices."
Right, okay, "So I have good news and I have weird news. The good news is that Inaaya is not the kind of psychic that means she knows exactly what we're up to," and he sums up what he learned about Inaaya's powers: that she can talk to dead people but it's hard, that she can lift objects but not much larger than a pebble, that she gets unreliable and/or unhelpful visions of the future and the distant present, that she can get information off of objects by touching them, that she read Mordred's mind and got a sense of his general personality but not that he isn't a cultist.
Well that's moderately concerning.
"Uh. We also found out some stuff about how they're using Nectar at the hospital? They said their two most interesting cases were a pair of eight-year-old girls, one with the surname Donovan. We were gonna think about how to get access to any medical records that existed."
"Well. Fuck."
(That night Mordred dreams he and Anemone are on the street in some city, listening to jazz music coming out of open windows. Just walking around. Listening and talking; his brain doesn't bother to come up with what. But then a police car drives by and Anemone starts to run, so he runs after her. He and Anemone end up in this maze of alleys, their shadows huge on the walls, and that’s when Anemone turns on him. She has a shotgun in one hand and a snake in the other. And the snake bites him, over and over, on his arms, and then she fires the shotgun right into his stomach… and that’s when he wakes up.)
(Oswald dreams that Mordred is in a forest. A dark forest. And he's running. The ground and the underbrush are spattered with blood and with something like honey. He's bleeding, too, from a gash on his arm. And he was chasing a wolf, or something, at first, but then the wolf was chasing him, and he comes through the woods all crazed and mad and bloody, and he runs up to Oswald with a knife or a machete in his hands… and that’s when he wakes up.)
Oswald does not feel like processing that right now. In terms of what he's prioritizing today, the mouth is probably more objectively concerning but Oswald cares more about the kids. On a gut emotional level, he means.
The mouth is probably more objectively concerning but there are more obvious steps to doing anything about the kids. (Mordred takes a moment to be very grateful that Gale is in New York and does not need to be talked out of throwing himself into the mouth.)
He's just sort of not thinking about the other thing he learned yesterday. He'll deal with it later. He tells himself he'll deal with a lot of things later but it's fine probably.
Having failed to find any relevant information, the next obvious thing to try is finding a cafe near Donovan's house and loitering there.
Montgomery Donovan lives in a fortified townhouse in northwest Valletta, located on a hill just south of Great Siege Road, overlooking the waters north of Valletta (and Donovan’s yacht). A private garage, underneath the house, is the only access in the rear, aside from windows. The whole affair was constructed in the 17th century and renovated in the early 20th. It’s a structure of solid stones and sturdy bricks, with no windows on the house’s right or left sides except for the topmost fourth storey, which stands higher than the neighboring buildings. She keeps her curtains drawn on all but the fourth story’s front windows.
A dead gull lies rotting in the street, half-crushed by passing cars, its feathers matted and sticky with blood.
The chauffeur arrives in the early morning; they overhear him say something in English to a man who is probably the valet. It's just logistical stuff about Donovan's plan for the day-- she apparently has a lunch meeting.
Donovan leaves her home in the late morning. She departs on foot, with an entourage of six-to-eight men and one woman, but her car — a silver town car with tinted windows — leaves about 90 minutes after she does and heads southeast. The entourage is dressed in nice suits that do not quite hide their guns.
The cook, valet, and cleaning lady all seem to be live-in staff. Zoe can hear snippets of their conversation, some of which are in languages she knows and some of which are languages she does not; she relays as best she can phonetically, and between her ability to hear things and Araari's ability with languages they discover that the valet speaks English and French; the cleaning lady speaks English and French; the cook speaks English, French, and some language neither of them know; and the driver speaks English, Italian, and some language neither of them know.
During a lull in the eavesdropping: "I kinda wanna see if we can find a way to snoop on Donovan's meeting, but I don't like the look of her escort."
"No, but there's probably not that many places for ten people eight of them armed to get lunch that would fit the tastes of someone who has a yacht. ...assuming they're not having lunch on the yacht, which actually might be a great place for a lunch meeting.
I figure we could look for that car around the fancy part of town, maybe ask around about where she likes to eat? Or maybe just stake out her office or the warehouse or the boat and see if she shows."
The young barista in the café just up the street says: “Sure, she comes in from time to time. Gets an espresso with lemon. Used to come in with another woman a lot. Her friend likes tea with lots of milk. Not seen her friend in some time, and she’s quite the sorry one lately, isn’t she?”
Meanwhile--
The last time someone went to check out the warehouse it didn't go that well, and Anita doesn't feel like she's going to do much better than Magnificence. Maybe they can both go see if they can learn anything about the freighters?
(She is not really sure how to communicate with the monkey but it seems to be following her. Hopefully that's not going to lead to problems.)
Anita overhears someone talking.
“I’ll be glad when we get out of here. I mean, I’m glad for the money and to be back in Nectar, but the bloke who runs that factory creeps me out. Nice to be in and out.” He seems to be a sailor, judging by his nautical tattoos, and sitting with several other sailors.
"Lukas is richer than Croesus, though. They all are," says his friend.
"You think we're making money? The people who make the shit are getting richer than we are, even. So they protect the secret of the recipe carefully. What do you think all those guns are for?"
The first guy nods vigorously. "That's why we're not allowed in the warehouse. They don't want to give anyone a hint of how it's made."
"I don't care about the conspiracies," the third guy says. "All I care about is the money. I’m going to trade some of my cut for a nice, fat supply of the juice. Costs a fortune to get it in Roma.”
“You just watch," says the first guy. "Sooner or later the police will identify and outlaw this stuff. We’re just lucky they haven’t already, grey markets are great for business.”
It's very inconvenient how you don't get to be a criminal by being an honest person who cares about the welfare of other people. There are so many possible plans here that start with contacting her boyfriend and seeing whether they can leverage his connections to learn more, and all of them so far are terrible plans, because all of them run the risk of him caring far more about whatever money there is to be made in it than about some complicated global conspiracy that may or may not have terrible effects far enough down the line.
She'll probably just have to keep listening until they leave and then solve her problems herself somehow. Solving problems herself is TERRIBLE.
Well, clearly the freighters are for exporting the stuff. ...What are the offices and factories for, though, does she just own them because they also bring in money, or are they somehow related to the core scheme?
Maybe she should head out to one of the factories and see if there's anything to be learned there. She doesn't know much about factories but maybe she'll get lucky.
As she approaches the factory, an old woman in a black shawl glares at her with an evil eye, then, abruptly, laughs Anita out of her thoughts.
The factory just sort of feels degrading. It's a dark, dank building that is depressing even to look at, much less to enter. Some of the people leaving look listless and lethargic; others look frightened, even hunted.
He hears someone yelling something in human at the other human! The other human leaves nearly in tears.
Probably they are yelling about how exciting sports are. Magnificence knows many humans yell about how exciting sports are. Humans like it when people move balls into locations.
oh that is TRUE. magnificence has seen the humans get VERY upset and excited about the sports.
is this a place that has to do with sports? or perhaps sports is a topic UNRELATED to the place in question. humans do talk about sports in MANY locations.
hm. it is hard to tell from here, but this window opens. maybe he can tell from INSIDE the building. ...although there are people in this room and maybe they will notice him immediately and that might make it hard to tell what they were doing before. maybe he will look for ANOTHER window first and THEN see if he can find a place to enter the building SNEAKILY.
Meanwhile--
A storm is blowing in, its thunderhead rolling in dark and low, lightning splaying across the sky and touching the sea.
The hospital was constructed as a sprawling mansion in the 18th century, replacing a few 16th century buildings. It was renovated into a modest, private hospital in 1901. It's six stories tall, made of sturdy stone. The interior hallways are cramped and dark, but the wards are located along the outer walls, with large windows letting in a great deal of light. Nurses go by with vials and syringes filled with what appears to be Nectar.
In the records room, there are records.
Specifically, the records for Lela Donovan and Tereza Doe.
"Everything I can think of for it to be covering for seems less likely than it just being true but we can ask what the others think?" Mordred's copying down everything in these files.
And then, if only out of force of habit, he's going to look for the financial information. This shouldn't be difficult to find in a well-organized records room.
"I was fishing near the Harbor on Newcastle Drive in Paola, around the warehouses there. I like fishing. It's a lot more fun than chores or school.
I could see a school of fish so I went around a fence. Then the ground erupted around me and there were teeth everywhere. They kept biting me.
Some people came running and dragged me away from all the teeth but then I passed out. And when I woke up I was here and they won't let me leave."
"I thought it was good at first," she says confidentially, "because I could eat as much ice cream as I wanted and I didn't have to go to school. But they keep giving me medicines that make me feel sick and sleep all the time and I want to go back to the orphanage EVEN if I have to sweep the floor."
Can he just -- pick up the kid and leave with her -- probably not, that sounds like it involves a lot of contradicting his own lies to the receptionist and he said them in front of guards who might also be armed -- they might not care but they also might and it will absolutely not help anything if he and Oswald and Tereza get shot --
There's a copy of The Cat Who Went To Heaven, a children's book about a cat who got painted into a picture of the Buddha. On the inside of the front cover is written "For Lela. Get well soon. Love, Mommy."
There is also an unused and apparently unopened embroidery kit with a note that says "Get Well Soon, From Peter Lukas."
HMM.
HMMMMM.
Mordred does not especially want to confront the guy from the newspaper archive here but he is absolutely going to note down that he's come up twice.
They can leave. Mordred gives the key to the records room back to the receptionist and thanks her sincerely for her help.
When they all get back to the hotel--
"Hey. Checked out the freighters and one of the factories. The freighters are for exporting nectar all across the globe, which in hindsight is obvious, right? Can't figure out what the factories are doing, only that everyone around them looks even more miserable than you'd expect. Was thinking about saying I needed work and seeing if that let me learn anything else about them. Not sure it's particularly worth it, though."
"Donovan's kid seems actually sick but the other one probably isn't, they're just giving her the exact same treatment. She's from the orphanage, a mouth opened up under her near the warehouse and after her bite wounds were treated they wouldn't let her leave. They've both been there about a year now."
Nod. “Zoë and I watched Donovan’s house for a time. Nothing particularly interesting—she has various staff that lives on site—she has a lot of guards. Military-trained. And her car is distinctive, we could recognize it if we saw it again. She left for—something—and then had a lunch meeting at a restaurant. We couldn’t learn anything there but I asked around at some nearby restaurants as well; she sometimes gets coffee at one of the cafes, I could point it out. I think she used to go with Portia, the barista mentioned her friend who used to come and stopped. —Oh, and the stonework of her house has the same markings on it as the warding stone.”
"Ah. Donovan was at the hospital with eight armed guards.
And Tereza has apparently been having dreams where a blonde woman who I'm guessing is Portia says she's been eaten and is in a stomach and is being digested and the stomach will open on the New Moon, in case we needed things to be more ominous than they already were."
" - do we actually know anything about the people working in the warehouse? I thought we were just guessing from other locations. The sailors are on nectar. The people at the factory are... I dunno, I thought it was supposed to make you happy.
The girls could be on other stuff, too, I guess."
"Well, we could try kidnapping 'em, but that's a bit complicated from a hospital. And of course you'd have the cops on you right away, high-profile target and all. Easier for us to get out of Malta than it would be for someone else, with the private jet and all. But you probably would have to leave right away once you did it."
"What I did for Lev was convince the person paying for his treatment to stop doing that but I am not optimistic about that strategy here. Could plausibly just leave with Tereza, the guards didn't seem to care what we did as regards her, but like Anita said I am not sure it's a good idea to do anything about Lela."
"I think it'll predictably tip her off that someone knows what's going on and is thinking of interfering with her current plans, unless you're careful to avoid that. And I think she has no reason to trust us more than she trusts the doctors, especially if we don't have a better plan for what to do for her daughter anyway.
Maybe it'll work. I just wouldn't expect it to."
And then the door opens. Araari finds herself grabbed with one hand and thrown over the back of someone's shoulders. He is very tall and very, very strong.
His other hand, she dimly notes, is holding a gun.
The man runs-- he's fast, very fast for such a large man-- and then they go into ??? a hole in the ground ????
Down through a sewer grate or something.
Meanwhile--
Anita will put on her plainest clothes and forego putting on half her makeup, until she's pretty sure she looks like someone who might need a job at a factory. And then she will go ask whether they're hiring, in the tone of a person who is fairly desperate for an immediate job.
That is a kind of bizarre number of forms for a factory?? She thinks?? Not that she's ever tried to work at a factory before?? Whatever. They're probably not even going to check these. She'll just make some hard-to-contact stuff up and make sure that all twelve versions of her made up information are perfectly identical.
What, at all? - whatever, not her problem. Maybe the rest of the people here are in fact desperate enough for work that they keep working just for the possibility of being paid at some later date. Still seems like a pretty wild way to run a business, though.
Paint sounds like it probably gets applied towards the end of a creation process, what exactly is she painting?
It goes through an assembly line to a different section where people are lifting it up and connecting it to some other kind of machinery.
Eventually they get a twenty-minute break for lunch! It takes seven minutes to walk to the lunchroom.
Some of the bosses yell NO RUNNING.
If it's just the one person, it's probably not separately related to the factory and is just some person who buys nectar on their own. Although it's kind of weird that they can afford it given that the people in this factory don't seem very well-paid.
She isn't actually eating anything so she can afford to be one of the first people out of the lunchroom, she guesses, not that it matters since apparently she's already been docked one hundred percent of her day's pay anyway.
Okay that is probably just how working in factories is. There is a reason why she doesn't work in a factory. Many reasons. The most depressing thing here is honestly that she doesn't feel like she's learned anything other than that the place appears to be terrible for NO REASON.
She wonders idly how she's even supposed to go to dinner at six given that she doesn't actually have the supervisor's name, or contact information, or a place at which she's supposed to meet him for dinner.
She might just give up if she can't figure it out. He's already planning on chewing her out for being stupid again, not like she actually has a lot to lose in that direction.
At the end of the day the boss of the paint section chews everyone out for being behind goals. Tomorrow they will need to work twice as fast to make up for it. Or they can do overtime! Of course, the overtime will not be paid. If they reached their goals they would not have to work overtime.
You can actually manage to be paid negative money???
"Thank you, sir," she says, because she can't think of any actually productive lines of questioning about this, given that it is so mind-bogglingly stupid.
INSTEAD, she is going to approach another worker on the way out and ask how long they've worked here.
WHY WOULD YOU RUN A FACTORY THAT DOESN'T MAKE ANYTHING.
How aggressively do they shoo people out of this factory at night. How possible might it be to hang out in an out-of-the-way corner somewhere until there aren't any people around and she can try her hand at breaking into the offices.
(They might have security but if she gets caught before the breaking in part she can just pretend to be very stupid, which nobody here seems to have a hard time believing anyway.)
Well. It's not past six. Not that this matters since she doesn't actually have any means of going to dinner.
She cannot immediately think of a way to take advantage of this. Whatever. She's tired. She's just gonna hang out at the hotel and take a bath.
If this is the sort of hotel that has a bath, and not a stupid terrible hotel that doesn't.
Good for this hotel. She'll just hang out until she's less tired, then. Maybe read a book, while she's alone and this can't cause other people to expect her to be the sort of person who reads books.
A nice book. Not one of the books the Indian girl said made people scream.
"You were in trouble?"
At some point Araari has calmed down enough to look around. A four-foot cross stands at one end of the candlelit shrine, behind a modest altar. A long wall is painted with lovely fresco depicting Knights of Malta on a long spar of rock battling a dark and shapeless foe with many heads and black, grasping limbs.
“...Thank you.” Araari bows and kisses his hand. “This room is beautiful.”
This is also, unfortunately, the point at which she has processed the day's events enough to realize that someone did in fact just attack her. Abruptly she jumps away from Martin, eyes darting, and presses herself against a wall.
“Are the books of the library the sort that are—dangerous, if I go into them with the wrong mindset? I feel—very shaken, and would rather... Recover, first. Unless I might take them to show my companions?” She successfully cuts herself off before saying “sir” this time, at least.
"Um, some of them? I think? But there are many that are just-- histories.
And theology. A lot of theology. We're an order that's supposed to fight the ancient evil but we're supposed to know more about God than about evil? Because he's more powerful and, um, the creator and everything?"
“It’s alright, sir. You do not need to apologize for forgetting. —There is also a Nectar business in Los Angeles, though I believe they produce their own. Is it—helpful for me to tell you these things? I was thinking to pool our knowledge, but you seem shaken as well, and I can be quiet if you would prefer.”
Historical record seems to be the likeliest to be something useful she doesn’t know that isn’t sanity-rending.
...it is kind of difficult to tell the sanity-rending tomes apart from the historical ones.
Hm. What are the titles of the occult tomes? Probably reading just the titles is fine.
“—I ought to leave soon, my companions will grow worried for me if I don’t return to the hotel before dark. Thank you again.” Also if Mordred isn’t dead yet then she should probably be fast. She’s wasted too much time already. She bows to Martin. “Is this a place I might be allowed to return to, or at least might I speak with you further at a later time?”
Meanwhile--
Zoe and Oswald prepare to interview at a warehouse. Should they be dressing differently or anything? Presumably they are using fake names.
The fake names of [throws dart at the wall]... Robert... and... Margaret.
...If Zoe is awake. Come on, Zoe, don't doze off now. Bright and early for warehouse jobs.
The warehouse is a squat gray building in the warehouse district of Valetta, protected by a white, diamond-cut fence about 8 feet high. Ruddy rust peels away the paint at every riveted joint. The gate is barred from the inside, with a small wooden shack for guards just inside. The parking lot is dirt surrounded by the gravel yard, with only one or two vehicles in it.
There is a path through the gravel and all the guards are walking on it and not the yard.
"...oh... kay?" the guard says. "Hey, Baldassar, we're short on guards, right?"
"Yeah," another guard, slightly farther away, says. "There's only nine guards on the warehouse floor, now that Mark moved to Argentina."
"All right," the guard says. "So we should probably take them in to talk to Victoria?"
"Seems wise."
The guard takes them into a room covered with huge stacks of crates, mostly filled with glass bottles. Those nearest the dock are loaded with nectar; those on the opposite side of the warehouse are empty. Long, battered wooden worktables take up the midsection of the warehouse floor. A stone stairway drops through the floor of the warehouse. Loud jazz music plays.
Meanwhile--
Mordred regains consciousness tied to a chair.
He is facing a bookshelf with the most abominable self-help titles: Etiquette In Society, In Business, In Politics, and At Home; The Richest Man in Babylon With Study Guide; The Game of Life And How To Play It. There is a chair askew from the wall but not facing anything. The overall impression is that there are enough items to make this office feel Casual and Lived In, but not enough to make it actually seem like a place anyone actually lives in.
He would like to come up with some very clever, very plausible lie that would convince this person that he has never in his life encountered the concept of a cult and this is all a big misunderstanding.
However, his skull has been beaten with a blackjack.
So instead what he says is "I... okay?"
what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck
"Um. My criticism is that I think it is bad to kill people and also to beat people's heads in with blackjacks?"
It would be GREAT if he could come up with something more useful to say than that, but, regrettably, he has no idea what's going on and also his head still hurts like hell.
"......con...grat...ulations?"
Okay. Okay, he needs to think, it would be great if his skull weren't still screaming but in fact it is and he still needs to think, Lukas is calling him by the name he gave the hospital so there's a limit to how much they can know and the others are plausibly safe, he doesn't remember what names he told them for Oswald and Araari but he can try to remember that later, and they don't have his real name so they don't know about LA and the names Lukas has for him and Oswald are different from the names Mariam and Inaaya and company have.
Things aren't as bad as they could be! He is still tied to a chair and his skull is still screaming but things are not as bad as they could be.
"Nice to meet you, Mr. Lukas," he says instead of any of that. Lukas is almost certainly going to kill him and Mordred isn't sure why he's putting it off but he'd like him to keep putting it off as long as possible.
What is the absolute minimum amount of information that Thomas Lee could have found out in Malta given what Lukas observably knows.
"...I have found out that Tereza Doe hates being in the hospital and that Lela's treatment isn't working, and have not learned much else. I was going back to learn more but, regrettably, did not manage to."
"We do indeed both think that."
WAIT SHIT THERE WAS SOMETHING IMPORTANT. "-- also are you aware that Nectar eats your goals and replaces them with endless power-grabbing for its own sake because it's really important I think that people know that and I have not gotten the impression that most people do."
It is ninety years too early for Mordred to reply with "doubt.jpeg" and yet.
Okay, come on, think, he has no idea how he could possibly convince them to keep him alive, what's the absolute worst case scenario -- the absolute worst case is that they know everything and Lukas is using a fake name to fool him into thinking they don't and they're about to kill him and then kill the rest of the team and also his brothers and also Gale and also Inaaya, and if that's true he can do nothing whatsoever about it so it's not worth thinking about and also it seems unlikely, Walker didn't hurt his family. Yet.
Agravaine I'm so sorry, he thinks again, even though it's useless.
He is approximately 100% sure he cannot convince Peter Lukas that Nectar trading is bad and especially can't do it while his head is screaming and he keeps having to talk himself down from panicking and what if Lukas would in fact listen and he's throwing away a chance to persuade someone no that's just panicking again stop it --
"I," he says, "do not actually think business success is good? I think it is usually bad. Actually."
Is this an invitation to talk about Bertrand Russell and socialist philosophy this sounds like an invitation to talk about Bertrand Russell and socialist philosophy.
Mordred can talk about Bertrand Russell and socialist philosophy for approximately as long as he's allowed to, which makes it an excellent stalling technique when a cultist is probably going to kill you.
Mordred looks at the vial.
He considers, very quickly, the odds that taking Nectar exactly once will destroy everything he values about himself. The odds are not high.
He considers, very quickly, the odds that he will actually manage to do that, and that 'just this once' will actually stay just this once. He thinks about George Ayers, and how afraid Lev was of Echavarria, and everything he saw about the cult in LA.
Agravaine, he thinks, I'm so sorry.
"No."
Zoe has no idea if she's got this. She can't take all the guards in the warehouse and it's not like she can follow a car on foot?? But she can try to see which direction it leaves in.
She does her best to burn the man's face into her memory along with the car.
There's two hours left of their shift.
Agravaine, I'm so sorry, I was trying to come home like I promised you. Zoe, Oswald, I'm so sorry, please do not blow your cover for me. Gale, I love you, I'm so sorry. Araari, I'm so sorry, I hope you're safe. Inaaya, Louise, I'm so sorry, in another world we could have been friends and I would have been very happy to be your friend. Carrie, Lacie, Anemone, I'm so sorry, I was trying to carry on what you started. Anita, I barely even know you, but I'm so sorry. Tereza, I'm so sorry, I was going to try to get you out. Lev, I'm so sorry, at least you have Oswald and I'm not leaving you alone, I'm so sorry --
From that high up hitting the water hurts. And he's tied up and he's never in his life been able to swim and it's so deep and there's probably rocks and--
Mordred has never in his life been able to swim and it turns out that "in the ocean, right next to a cliff, tied up" is not a very good place to start learning but he gasps for air and holds his breath as long as he can, and-- he almost can, for a moment it feels like he almost can
like there's an instinct inside his mind that has always been there and always silent, that tells him how to get out, how to move, where to go, but he's frightened, he has always been scared of water ever since he was a little kid and his uncle-- he doesn't want to think about that--
and he's still tied up, and when you're this close to a cliff the water does everything it can to slam you into the rocks and his skull still screams from the blackjack this morning and he's terrified and-- he's not thinking about when he was a kid he's not he's not but it's so deep and--
and the world goes quiet. All around him, the sea goes quiet and peaceful, and then black, and Mordred knows no more.
Meanwhile--
Dammit no one is at the hotel to take a phone call. If there is a phone she can use discreetly she will call the hotel and leave a message for... Anita, she supposes. Suggesting that... Mordred is going to need a ride home, and her shift is going to take too long for her to get him herself, but she'll meet them when she's off.
Zoe has NO idea how to convey any more information than that in a phone call without making it very clear what she's doing to anyone who might intercept the call. Hopefully it's better than nothing?? She goes back to her post.
And paces. A lot.
"Too long ago to catch the car, then," she says, very calmly, although this does kind of make her feel a little uneasy about how useless these people will be if she gets kidnapped. "I'm going to check the map at the front desk, do you know anything else about what happened before I go down?"
“I—he was knocked out by a woman, Victoria Prescott, this morning, she hit him in the head and he was bleeding so much, I didn’t know if he was still alive and a man rescued me but I didn’t want to go off on my own and probably just—get kidnapped again, or make you think I had—I’ll explain more later—“ Wow that also sounds pretty weak.
"...The new moon is still tonight, isn't it." He doesn't want to do anything about it. He wants to hide in the other hotel room with Lev and let the world end without him.
Might not even be this new moon. Might not even connect to the actual new moon. Who knows. It might not matter at all what he actually does.
Well, you can probably fit two people on the motorcycle if you're not a coward. "I think I can take one other person to the cliffs on the motorcycle, who wants to go ahead with me?"
If nobody has strong opinions she'll just pick Zoe on the grounds that she has a vague sense that an acrobat might be good at doing things related to cliffs.
Also Zoe actually saw the people who took him away, and stuff.
Araari is just going to be saying prayers to herself in a mixture of Amharic and Ge’ez. She mixes ones for Mordred’s safety in with ones for the rest of his immortal soul and figures that God will know which ones are applicable. She is also very glad that she didn’t have to confront the fact that she wanted to say “not me please”.
He opens his eyes and he can't see. Everything hurts -- his skull and his side where he hit the water and his limbs from the places where he didn't manage to avoid getting hit by underwater rocks and his eyes and his lungs and his throat.
The beach is quiet and warm.
He passed out in the ocean and didn't drown -- and he can't see -- not panicking is something of a lost cause but he's not dead how is he not dead.
The beach is quiet and warm and a pretty good place to panic if he's going to panic, which he is.
How is he not dead -- the cult here knows his face now if not his name -- but he's not dead how is he not dead -- the water's shallow here, he can hear the difference, he's not sure how he can hear the difference but he can and it's weirdly comforting -- his lungs still hurt, he coughs a few times and coughs salt water -- he's not dead. Somehow, he's not dead.
It takes a while for his vision to return and when it does he stands up (his limbs feel dead and everything hurts and he's soaking wet and covered in salt and sand but he's not dead) and brushes himself off, mostly ineffectually, and walks away from the beach. He's not totally sure where he is but, as far as directions to start walking in at random go, "away from the ocean" seems at least as good as any.
"The second in command in Malta is Peter Lukas. Someone in the hospital hit me over the head with a blackjack and then Peter Lukas wanted to have a conversation. He thinks my name is Thomas Lee and he doesn't know about any of you, I can try to remember how much I told him we know at some point that is not now. He offered me a job, I was very close to pretending to accept, he wanted me to take Nectar about it and I said no, he took me to the car -- please tell me you did not blow your cover about it -- and threw me off the cliff and I drowned and didn't die."
He sounds extremely detached from all this.
Also, he hasn't blinked a single time since he showed up.
Well she will see whether she can tell whether there's anything that needs to be done about the head injury, maybe, head injuries can be nasty and you wouldn't want it to rip open again. She doesn't actually know much of anything about this but it seems like the sort of thing one might want to do in this situation.
"I'm not actually sure how to get three of us back to town on the motorcycle. I suppose I should have thought about that. Oh well." They can do some fox-and-goose-and-grain shenanigans to get back to Valletta.
"Thanks, I'll look at those." Something simple and concrete! "Pretty sure we know how to get to the Mouth, there's a stairway in the middle of the warehouse leading down and they were bringing the Nectar from there. Oh, we got hired as security in particular, not sure how specifically that helps but it might come in handy."
"--It was Victoria Prescott who knocked Mordred out? She's the one that hired us."
Araari, upon it occurring to her that she was asked a question and should probably answer the question, is just going to start sobbing. Kind of almost wailing, honestly. If anyone tries to approach her she flails around to try and get away from them before curling up into a ball.
Araari cannot HEAR Anita because her hands are over her ears and she is being loud enough that the only sounds she can hear are the ones she is making.
Four minutes later, Araari quiets, breathing ragged but no longer coming in half-screams, and very slowly uncurls. She fixes her netela where it got disturbed.
She’s still crying, but.... less violently. Quietly: “I’m sorry. It just—all today, it hit me at once, and—I’m sorry.”
She presses her back against the wall, muscles tensed like she’s bracing for a hit.
Araari sips at it! “I was rescued by a, a knight, Sir—Martin Blackwood, he didn’t like it when I called him sir, he lives in the catacombs and wants to be allies against the cultists, he’s the one who gave me Victoria Prescott’s name—he can meet with us here tomorrow, he has a library, kept—offering to make me tea—“ Araari starts crying more intensely again but is no longer entirely hysterical.
She wipes at her face and takes a deep breath. “He. Wasn’t sure if we were with the cultists at first, thought we were because of how much we talked to them, except then we were trying to save the children— oh— Greece, France, Morocco, the Netherlands, Germany, Egypt, Libya, Tunisia, Italy, Spain, England. That’s where the Nectar here ships to. And Mexico, there’s a different ship for Mexico.”
It's very beautiful. It is also not his skin. Or it is his skin but it shouldn't be.
Not dying when drowned: not a particularly human thing to have happen to a person.
(If he'd had any other day, he would probably be melting down. But-- he died today, and he isn't dead now, and he has this to thank for it. He's not totally sure what feelings he has. Probably there are some?)
He just kind of............ stares at it, for a few minutes. And then finishes showering and curls up with Lev and doesn't say why his hands are shaky.
In the morning they wake up. Whatever supernatural thing happened about the New Moon, it doesn't seem to have shown any signs in their hotel room.
The newspaper is also silent about the subject. The headlines are as follows:
-Anthony Eden, the British Foreign Affairs Minister, ended his European peace tour in Prague with the statement, "In the world today no nation can prosper on another's ruin. We are too intimately connected for that. We stand and fall together."
-Hermann Göring visited the Free City of Danzig in an attempt to influence Sunday's parliamentary elections in favour of Nazi candidates.
with nothing obviously supernatural even in the back pages.
Ugh fuck they were so concerned with personal issues like Mordred getting kidnapped and drowned that they neglected to stop the world ending, is Oswald's first thought upon waking up, before looking around and observing that it appears to still be intact.
"Let me see the accounts?"
"I guess it sounds like they may have initially made a supermouth by killing Portia, and then might be continuing to feed it on... pure misery from the factories, without actually continually killing people?
If that's possible. I guess I don't know how you'd get the misery into the mouth."
"Ayers' mouth got more active when he exercised power. Not sure if it works like that if it's not directly on the body, but if, I don't know, the Nectar forms a similar connection with the people who drink it, and them exercising power makes it stronger... Mmm. No idea if that makes sense."
"I'm pretty sure Donovan at least doesn't know how bad it is for people, given Lela. Distinctly less sure about Solazzio, who apparently has been speaking to Tereza in a horrifying eldritch language and who was definitely leaving things out when she talked to Anita about it."
"Do we know why they want the whole world to be on nectar? Like - it's all well and good to say that Donovan doesn't know how bad it is, but it seems kind of hard to miss, if she's running factories that make nothing but misery in order to feed the mouth, especially if having the supervisors on nectar is a big part of what makes them the way they are?"
"I guess 'it's their god' is an answer, but it's an annoying one."
"We know what Lacie said. Something like -- 'my Lord won’t rest until whole world drinks of his Nectar...' mile-wide Mouths, cities drowning, all very -- melodramatic, of course--"
Does everybody not remember that? It is kind of seared on his memory. He spends a lot of time deliberately repressing it.
okay but ONLY ONE OF THEM INVOLVED LACIE
It makes sense that the others forgot Lacie's insane speech from months ago but he is not having a fun time at all trying to provide it again.
It's upsetting to talk about, is all. This is more about his emotional state than anything reasonable.
"I wish we were able to safely get her perspective on all of this. Her actions just don't seem to add up."
"What else do we know... Hey, can we talk about this New Moon business? Which by some miracle either didn't happen on the actual new moon last night or didn't cause anything, but we still don't know when it's happening or what exactly it is or what it means for Portia and it feels like it's probably important."
Anita's not wrong honestly but they didn't come up with the name scheme and if it were up to them they probably would not have chosen this one.
"Speaking of things connected to the Mouth -- this is conjecture and I don't actually know how rituals usually work and plausibly we already know it, but it's been bothering me -- you know how ten years ago everyone we've talked to about it has said they disrupted the ritual? As in, it was still ongoing when Henslowe and Winston got there?"
Yeah it kind of was.
"Anyway, plausibly we already know this since Tereza talked about the Maw like it was a thing that definitely existed on Earth and can digest people, and also plausibly it's nothing at all and rituals always go for hours after summoning things, but I didn't want to leave it unsaid and then have it turn out to matter."
"Could be they were trying to summon something bigger than the Mouth entity that night. Could be after they summoned it they were going to -- physically bind it, to, to--" he does not actually want to say that maybe Lev was intended as a human vessel for their god "--maybe, who knows, maybe they summoned an entire god into our reality so they could complete a big enough spell or something -- we really don't know."
"Maybe it was two separate rituals and they just scheduled them back to back for convenience." Shaky laugh.
"No worries! Happy to help.
So, uh, we should probably-- go up to your hotel room? Unless it's bugged. Not trying to say that you're bad at sweeping for bugs, just. I am definitely the only person in the catacombs because everyone else who tries would, um. Die."
(He is wearing casual clothes, about six years out of date, with mud stains that didn't get out even with conscientious scrubbing.)
"Oh yeah," Martin says. "Centuries ago the Knights of Malta laid traps all throughout the old Christian catacombs, to ward off our enemies. They're not dangerous if you know where they are, or have someone to guide you. You can get anywhere in the city through the catacombs.
Of course, sometimes the Christian catacombs have collapsed-- building projects, that kind of thing-- and you have to go down into the secret catacombs of the Hypogeum to get anywhere."
Lev bounces. "You can go into the Hypogeum?? Have you found any artifacts?? Have you examined the bodies-- I have so many questions-- have you figured out whether they're hunter-gatherers or agriculturalists-- or pastoralists I guess but there aren't really pastoralists in Malta I'd think it's too small-- are there burial goods?"
"It's a network of prehistoric catacombs under Malta! No one has really excavated it yet-- I didn't even know you could get in it-- they must be totally undisturbed." He reconsiders. "Probably they are disturbed by the Knights of Malta."
Why is this very inconsiderate group of Mythos-fighting knights disrupting important things like archaeology.
"They're dealing drugs throughout the Mediterranean out of their warehouse? Which has a giant Mouth that spits Nectar? Which is kind of gross, not going to lie, drinking mouth spit. And powering it through a network of offices and factories which produce nonstop human misery? --Um. I think. And it's all a cult of the demon called Nyarlathotep.
I think they killed Montgomery Donovan's friend Portia Sapienza to keep her in line."
"Eight years. They, uh.
So Dame Alice Kilrea-- I don't know if you know who she is? Big name in Nyarlathotep-fighting-- anyway, she fought the Crawling Chaos in Africa for years? And she found in her studies of the Necronomicon that if a Mask of Nyarlathotep is, err, incarnated, it's as mortal as any other, uh, incarnate. Obviously much harder to kill because it's, um, magic. And just in general much-- tougher? So all the Knights of Malta found the next, err, summoning of the Crawling Chaos by, um, the primitive savages of Africa--"
The shrine in the library dates to the 16th century; the stonework is typical of Christian catacombs of the era.
Martin guides them to a small, alcove-like chamber filled with books on shelves and in stacks. The are a variety of Christian theological texts mixed in with a few odd occult tomes and historical records of the Knights.
"Think about how to kidnap some eight year olds, or approach one of their mothers? Reporter was going to try to get more out of Donovan, and some of us were going to attempt to spot him while he did it? Guess wildly about how much explosive power it might take to blow up the supermouth, hypothetically?"
Araari -- who is not learning any spells -- learns that the occult understanding of the Knights of Malta is muddled and confused through a hazy lens of Christian faith and ignorance. It is apparent that a wide variety of Mythos entities, creatures, and occult forces are being grouped together and collectively referred to as “Nyarlathotep” (which also appears to be a name they apply to Satan or the Great Adversary of God).
Mordred, Oswald, and Zoe spend most of their days in the dusty catacombs, reading books in Latin and trying to wrap their brains around the impossible syllables of the names of the Outer Gods. Zoe and Oswald take shifts at the warehouse; Anita does not return to the factory.
Malta is almost peaceful.
Mordred writes to Gale and to his brother, letters intended to be read both before his death and after it. He doesn't leave the hotel room much -- Anita wasn't wrong, the longer he can keep Lukas assuming he's dead the better. He copies out his notes from the last six months, because death has impressed upon him the importance of backups; he updates his indexes while he's at it.
And, when he's invited to spend time with Inaaya, he goes.
The hiking in Malta is beautiful. (Especially if you have just been in the desert of Ethiopia, and spend most of your time in New York City where wilderness is largely non-existent and the weather is, well.) Right now in early April it's pleasantly warm and impossibly green.
"Yes, he is. Hi, Inaaya, this is Lev, he's an anthropologist. Lev, I've told you about Inaaya, she likes archaeology and math."
(Mordred debated for a while whether to give a false name for Lev, and decided eventually that the risk of being in the same room as both Inaaya and someone who would actually recognize Lev from before would be both likely enough and bad enough that he didn't want to.)
In a clear, crisp voice, with excellent enunciation, Inaaya recites:
"There was nothing of the giant in the aspect of the man who was beginning to awaken on the sleeping-porch of a Dutch Colonial house in that residential district of Zenith known as Floral Heights.
His name was George F. Babbitt. He was forty-six years old now, in April, 1920, and he made nothing in particular, neither butter nor shoes nor poetry, but he was nimble in the calling of selling houses for more than people could afford to pay.
His large head was pink, his brown hair thin and dry. His face was babyish in slumber, despite his wrinkles and the red spectacle-dents on the slopes of his nose. He was not fat but he was exceedingly well fed; his cheeks were pads, and the unroughened hand which lay helpless upon the khaki-colored blanket was slightly puffy. He seemed prosperous, extremely married and unromantic; and altogether unromantic appeared this sleeping-porch, which looked on one sizable elm, two respectable grass-plots, a cement driveway, and a corrugated iron garage. Yet Babbitt was again dreaming of the fairy child, a dream more romantic than scarlet pagodas by a silver sea.
For years the fairy child had come to him. Where others saw but Georgie Babbitt, she discerned gallant youth. She waited for him, in the darkness beyond mysterious groves. When at last he could slip away from the crowded house he darted to her. His wife, his clamoring friends, sought to follow, but he escaped, the girl fleet beside him, and they crouched together on a shadowy hillside. She was so slim, so white, so eager! She cried that he was gay and valiant, that she would wait for him, that they would sail—
Rumble and bang of the milk-truck.
Babbitt moaned; turned over; struggled back toward his dream. He could see only her face now, beyond misty waters. The furnace-man slammed the basement door. A dog barked in the next yard. As Babbitt sank blissfully into a dim warm tide, the paper-carrier went by whistling, and the rolled-up Advocate thumped the front door. Babbitt roused, his stomach constricted with alarm. As he relaxed, he was pierced by the familiar and irritating rattle of some one cranking a Ford: snap-ah-ah, snap-ah-ah, snap-ah-ah. Himself a pious motorist, Babbitt cranked with the unseen driver, with him waited through taut hours for the roar of the starting engine, with him agonized as the roar ceased and again began the infernal patient snap-ah-ah—a round, flat sound, a shivering cold-morning sound, a sound infuriating and inescapable. Not till the rising voice of the motor told him that the Ford was moving was he released from the panting tension. He glanced once at his favorite tree, elm twigs against the gold patina of sky, and fumbled for sleep as for a drug. He who had been a boy very credulous of life was no longer greatly interested in the possible and improbable adventures of each new day.
He escaped from reality till the alarm-clock rang, at seven-twenty."
He is not totally sure what to say to that that neither a) makes it obvious that he is not, in fact, a cultist nor b) makes it sound like he didn't mean it.
"It's true," is what he settles on, "I am very bad at this business where you don't tell people when you like them."
"That would involve magic being friendly and unambiguously helpful, and obviously we can't have that."
Mordred has managed to get into the tree. Not as high as Inaaya has, because he is both larger and less confident in his safety while climbing than she is, but he's there.
"I guess the part before I figured out how to get the dead people to stop talking to me was pretty unhelpful. Both because it was terrifying and because of, you know, the exorcisms. Not effective ones." She considers. "Or at least not ones that are effective if your problem is that you're talking to dead people, I don't know if they're effective in general."
"I mean, my parents meant well," she says. "I was really distressed about it and they did think that I was being attacked by a demon. And if I actually were being attacked by a demon I would want them to take steps to keep me safe. But we didn't have any more money for the bhopa."
"Yeah. It is-- not good, the way they treat people who are different. But I think the lesson of my story is that-- it's important to know what's really true. If I am being attacked by a demon, and exorcisms help, you should exorcise me. If I am not, or exorcisms don't help-- you can hurt people a lot even without meaning to."
She's quiet, for a moment, before saying, "My parents were very good. You are not like this, in the West, but a lot of people in India-- would not spend money saving a girl.
A boy will take care of you when you get old, you see, and a girl-- costs money for her dowry."
"This is where I disagree with Louise," she says. "Louise thinks-- it keeps people safe, if they don't know. You can't meddle with things man was not meant to know if you don't know that they're there to be meddled with. And I think that what you don't know will hurt you."
"If someone is lying to you, you can never know how big a mistake you're making."
Yeah it's INCREDIBLY GODDAMN CREEPY. But James White wouldn't say that so Mordred can't.
(It would, in fact, be really nice to not have to constantly be fighting three levels above his own weight class. To be able to just get things done if they're important and nobody else is doing them. ("Most men would not even have done so much," Douglas Henslowe had said, and Mordred still isn't sure he got across that yes, he knows, that's the problem.) He hasn't ever found it scary how much he wants that, but when it's phrased like this, talking to Inaaya --
-- well, he's not letting that conflict show on his face.)
"You never know how knowing things is going to be useful. Understanding the world better is always valuable.
Tell me about Early Modern English?"
(She hops down from the tree and sits on the ground; when Mordred gets down too she repositions so that if he moved just a little bit he could touch her.)
"We've been talking for more than an hour and you haven't done a dominance game at me once."
"No giving me orders and seeing if I'll listen, no dropping names of all the powerful people you know, no establishing that you're much more magically powerful than I am, no veiled threats--"
"No supplication so I don't hurt you either."
Well you see it's very hard to drop the names of powerful people you know when you don't know any powerful people. God, fuck, what do you say.
After what he really hopes is not too long a pause, he goes with "What's even the point of power if you still have to play stupid social games with it, when I could use that time and energy doing literally anything other than stupid social games."
(This is plausibly the wrong answer but just not responding would definitely be the wrong answer.)
There's... something weird about that statement (it's the "that's exactly what I think," followed by something that is not really what Mordred said) but Mordred is not going to respond to that. "Honestly my feeling is less about that and more about how if I still have to do things I don't want to because they're what everyone expects you to do, what is being powerful even for."
Wow! That is incredibly concerning! Mordred is very concerned! Why the fuck does anyone join this cult! That's not a real question he is aware of several reasons.
"I like you," he says, instead of any of the very unhelpful and un-cultist-like things that he wants to say. "--Margaret would hate me talking to you like this too, for whatever that's worth."
You don't work for Walker if you're sweet. And if you work for Walker, and you're being unexpectedly nice to Inaaya specifically, nice enough that she thinks the thing Joan is worried about is that she might have said something she wasn't supposed to --
She puts down the gun she was cleaning and hugs her bird. "You'll be careful?"
On April fifth, Oswald returns to the hotel room after a day of studying magic.
At the spot where two floorboards meet, the wood itself flexes and opens to reveal rows of yellow human teeth and a pair of flabby orange lips. They mouth words at him, and a tongue works behind the teeth to tap out wet sounds.
Araari goes back to Ethiopia. The Knights' understanding of what's going on is... confused... but there is a knight here, one who's willing to help, and her own mental state is getting increasingly fragile.
She makes sure to give Magnificence extra goodbye pats before she goes.
The next time they hang out, they go on a walk around Valletta. Talk about math and languages and Shakespeare and India. Carefully avoid the topic of the cult. Buy pastries and espresso in one of the little cafes.
Inaaya has been to many countries and has very strong opinions about the food in all of them. "White people do not use enough spices," she says through a mouthful of pastry. "I don't understand why you colonized our countries specifically to get spices, oppressing millions of people, and then didn't even use spices."
"Turkey has good food," Inaaya says. "Turkey understands how much spice you should put on food. The only white people who are allowed to engage in cooking."
"Polynesian was interesting. I would not say I liked it per se but they certainly do do a lot of things with bananas. And fish. Have you had breadfruit?"
"Siam has good food, obviously, although Joan can barely eat any of it, she lives on rice and loses ten pounds every time we're there. And of course everyone else has been so many more places than I have so they can all get into arguments about the quality of food in Rome or South Dakota."
"...well, I'm twenty-four and you've been to more places than me," he says, instead of any of the other things he could say.
(When he was sixteen he'd have gone almost anywhere if it wasn't his parents' house. But he had the option of college, and Inaaya didn't, and it's luck, nothing at all but luck, that Mordred isn't in a very similar position.)
Oh no oh no she's so good. "I did! It's -- more Lev's story than mine really --" but he tells her a lightly edited version of getting Lev out of Joy Grove, in which none of the information is false but he gives the impression he was entirely there for Lev rather than primarily being there for Henslowe with Lev as a stretch goal.
"Cool. I'm sure there's some sort of-- process--" she gestures vaguely. "I understand that you are supposed to try to push me and then I am supposed to say 'no' and then eventually give in. And since we're both cultists the same thing happens with more dominance displays and blackmail and veiled threats."
"I will not do anything you say no to, I will not finish inside you and frankly would prefer it not come up, and if I ever really need you to dismember me for some reason I will just ask.
-- while we're having this conversation, I have never actually done any of this before."
It is not! She touched it with wonder while they were having sex. But right now she is mostly interested in poking at his genitalia trying to figure out the location of the inguinal canals and commenting about how scrotum skin is much softer than she expected.
"It's pretty," Inaaya says, gesturing to Mordred's skin. "It's new, I assume? Otherwise presumably you would have known."
"I am sure Inaaya has it handled," Louise says casually, "but do consider that I speak multiple dead languages and, while I am not confirming or denying anything, Inaaya may very well not be the only person in this house who can kill you with her mind."
"Do consider the wisdom of irritating an antiquarian in this sort of environment."
"A very interesting man. He was trying to write a mythology for England in his spare time. Lots of gnomes. It interested me as well, which is why I have the notes."
The notes are inspired most centrally by Finnish and very concerned with the aesthetics of the language he's making; it is apparently very important to John Tolkien that his language be beautiful.
Is this a chance to talk about the Best Thing with Inaaya, it seems like it might be, Mordred's experience is mostly with auxlangs rather than conlangs but that means there's a bunch of interesting differences from the constructed languages he's seen before -- particularly the emphasis on beauty rather than ease of use, it makes sense because this is both imitating a natural language and not for a practical purpose but it's still really cool --
Louise occasionally contributes to the conversation things she remembers from what Tolkien said about his work that didn't make it into her notes.
"You should write him," she says eventually. "I think he has developed his languages more fully in the past, gosh, more than a decade."
Mordred's experience of academia suggests that that is probably true and, also, when he was fifteen he had half of Tolkien's Sir Gawain and the Green Knight memorized and this feels a bit like being told you could just write to God, except for how in fact anyone who wants to can write to God and also John Tolkien actually exists.
"Probably," he agrees, because getting into how obsessive he was at fifteen sounds like it will not take this conversation good places.
"Regardless. You should consider taking up metaphysics. The primary qualifications are an interest in languages, a fondness for old books, and the lust for power such that you can reshape the universe to your every whim. You seem to have the first two and if you didn't have the third you wouldn't be here."
He's broken into a hospital, gotten murdered, discovered some facts about Montgomery Donovan, met Martin, and attempted to learn a spell. On the whole it's been very mixed.
"It's been lovely," he says, and does not even a little bit suppress the urge to smile at Inaaya when he says it.
well he did let me live once and that time I'd just broken into his boss's house, so this is a bad thought process.
"I am not, but saying 'I can't talk about that' repeatedly makes a very boring conversation and I would like to think I have learned at least half of a social skill since I was thirteen."
Does Mariam know that she is in fact allowed to make tea that she actually likes and nobody in this room is going to judge her for being insufficiently English about it. This room has Inaaya in it.
He thinks about how to respond to the thing she actually said, rethinks it, and then decides that eh, fuck it, the image he's going for is 'weirdly sincere' and not 'good at social games' anyway. "Of course. -- can we collectively pretend I am somewhat better at words than I actually am and managed to express interest in a way that was not prying, I've revised the exact phrasing three times and still can't get it to sound right."
"Of course."
"I would not want to make you feel uncomfortable."
"Terribly rude and does not advance any of my goals at all."
"I have been making connections among the aristocracy, acquiring blackmail material, building my relationship with Peter Lukas, and strengthening an organization which I may use for my purposes going forward."
God he hates long-term enough lies that it actually matters whether he says things that can be checked.
"I hope so too," he says, instead of either confirming or denying it, because what he hopes is unverifiable and therefore it does not matter that he extremely hopes Walker is not willing to communicate with Savitree even a little.
"Inaaya has discovered my secret which is that I can and will talk about languages and Bertrand Russell for essentially arbitrary amounts of time." (He is not thinking about the last time this came in handy for practical purposes, which was when he was filibustering his own murder.)
Have they considered adequately how cool it is possible for fictional aliens to be if the author has any imagination at all? Mordred doesn't like Lovecraft very much just on a style level but appreciates that he has any sense of scale, unlike some writers when he says something took place over the course of thousands of years it seems like he actually means it and isn't just reaching for a large number because large numbers sound good --
Inaaya DOES have thoughts about this and it veers off into Inaaya's patchy but very enthusiastic understanding of biology.
(She knows that there is a fish species where some of the male fish pretend to be females in order to sneak into the males' harems. She does not know that whales are not a kind of fish.)
He'd told Inaaya he hadn't been doing the travelling thing for very long but he can probably reasonably claim he only joined the cult at all fairly recently?? And it's going to be very hard to cover for just how little time he's actually spent interacting with the LA cult or how little he knows LA as a place if he says he's spent years immersed in it.
"Not much, no."
"Captain Walker is... the better person to be working for, I think. If you were still working for Trammel I don't think Joan would give you a month."
"If you're competent, if you keep your head down, if you don't try to get promoted, maybe you'll be alive until it's more convenient for someone else for you to be dead."
"Odd that you wouldn't decide to get out if you have reasonable expectations of your life expectancy."
"--I suppose there are various reasons that you might want to stay in regardless. None of which you're interested in telling me and many of which I might want to investigate."
If he's lucky Savitree and Walker will be on bad enough terms that that'll be difficult. If he's very lucky she won't find anything and will draw her own conclusions and maybe even tell him what they are.
Mordred has no delusions that he's especially lucky.
"Mm," he says instead of any of that. "Have a good day."
"I am. Uh. We talked about books and travelling and it was very nice and we had sex and it was excellent and then I talked to Louise about languages and it was also excellent and then Mariam interrogated me about the cult and it was basically fine and then we talked about books some more and that was good. And then on my way out Mariam told me she does not have a high opinion of my life expectancy if I don't figure out how to claw my way to power and I'm. You know. Worried about that."
"She said her parents were good to her but," Lev was there, he knows what comes after the word but.
"...I want her to be okay and I want her to have space and a relationship where she isn't being threatened or owned and I want to make a world where she can be brilliant and curious and free and --"
He stops for a moment, and then says, "When I was talking to Gale I said I'd be better at saving the world if he was in it."
"And -- I wasn't wrong about that."
"But I want to make a better world for Inaaya and that's a terrifying amount to care about a person and also I don't think I can stop and I'm not sure I should."
"I am trying to go slow with you because I have a lot of feelings about you and I don't want to make things worse and am worried about maybe doing that so I'm being careful."
"It's not -- that I don't like you or want you or that you aren't important to me? It's that I do and you are."
"...and also that I am extremely incredibly aware of the face you make when you're scared because someone turned down sex and now you think they're about to hurt you and I know you know I'm not going to do that and this is my problem not yours but also it makes approaching the subject at all feel about five times more fraught."
On April eighth when Oswald wakes up he finds a tear in the wallpaper.
For a moment, a fleshy shark-toothed mouth pressing through from the other side of the wall, oozing amber juice from its broken lips. No sooner has he seen it, though, than it recedes and disappears, leaving curled and crusted wallpaper behind.
Meanwhile--
The next time Inaaya and Mordred see each other they go to an art museum and then to a bookstore. Mordred isn't scrupulously avoiding the topic of the cult, per se, but they wind up not talking about it; they're both aware that they'd rather talk about other things.
Inaaya looks at all the art and compares it to the art she's seen other places on her travels.
She's not impressed by the Indian-influenced art by Europeans but she does have questions about what's depicted in the pictures! It's not that she doesn't know anything about European history, it's just that her knowledge is very specialized; the only Roman god she's heard of is Neptune.
Mordred is best friends with a Catholic and used to be into mythology and is therefore capable of talking at least semi-intelligently about most of the European art; he's careful to label his sources, to differentiate between 'this is something pretty much everyone who talks about the topic agrees on' and 'this is disputed' and 'I read this somewhere' and 'this is a guess.'
"Oh good, that means I get to show you this for the first time --"
And here's Dirge Without Music.
He is aware that it is really different from other Nectar -- just ripping into each other like rabid dogs. Somebody — just some joker standing next to me — throws a knife into the arena, but they were too busy gouging each others’ eyes out with their thumbs to notice, someone had said in LA, and Mordred had laughed lightly like this was a completely normal and reasonable thing to be nostalgic about -- "Only very vaguely."
"Nectar has different effects depending on how you feed the Mouth. LA does torture which gets you what I'd call 'standard' Nectar. Malta feeds on human misery at the factories, so it's very-- work-oriented? Louise favors it for translating."
"Bangkok feeds its Mouth on street fights, so our Nectar is really really different. It's very-- it makes you immune to pain, it makes you crave violence, it makes you tougher and more durable and stronger. Or, not immune to pain, you still feel it, it just-- makes you happy."
"I bet if you tried it you'd like it a lot better than LA."
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. How much can he get away with-- Mariam already knows he doesn't take Nectar much-- he knows you can't be properly in the cult and never take it, because of Lukas, but he also knows you can get pretty damn close at least in LA, because of Oswald--
"My whole family is drunks. I really don't like risking it."
(In much the way that true things can still be in the meaningful sense a lie, this is a lie and also it is in a meaningful sense true.)
She opens up her nightstand, takes out a small bottle, and drinks it down like a shot.
"And do you mind if we cuddle and I do math afterward, I don't take it much because it's inconvenient to need to beat people up."
"I mean, I can fuck up the rest of the Emporium. But you don't want to do it too much or everyone will be injured and they might die if we get into combat or run into a lion or something."
And he does.
She's very careful with his safety and very terrifying.
There's a certain-- lack of restraint in her behavior, a certain amount of giving herself over to ripping him apart, making him hurt.
But it's very striking that, when she holds a knife to his throat, she's careful not to cut him.
Mordred has been beat up before. He's hurt himself, carefully in closed rooms where no one would notice; he's asked for boxing lessons from boys he liked; he's even gotten Lev to hit him, a few times.
He has never been hurt like this. The boy who gave him boxing lessons was holding back, trying to teach him; Lev was holding back, trying to be careful; last time they'd done this even Inaaya had been holding back. And -- she's still holding back, some, when she puts a knife to his throat it's terrifying in the way that's fun and not in the way where he's genuinely worried he might die -- but it's not the same.
It had been fun before. It had been a lot of fun. And now he knows what it's like when it's enough.
"No. They're not.
Gale is -- very quiet and very shy and more firmly on the side of human freedom including the freedom to be weird and broken and doing person wrong than almost anyone else I've ever met, I think you'd like him and I know he'd like you. You told me once that there was someone my whole brain was wrapped around loving? That was him."
"It extremely is," he agrees.
"But -- so he's epileptic and he sees angels, it's the version of the world he can verify, it's what he gets when he trusts his eyes and not just consensus --"
"He does a lot better than the church does. I think that's -- not uncommon, honestly, individual people being better than the things they believe."
She is not going to trust 'no you're completely right' -- what would an actual cultist say -- no that's the wrong question the question is what's the thing he can say that is true and will not sound like a lie --
"Okay," he says, keeps his voice very soft. He's still got an arm wrapped around Inaaya.
Well even if she is lying Mordred is still going to hug her. He is not very good at not hugging terrified-looking people who he loves.
"...you've been travelling around the globe for three years and not found anywhere else you could disappear to?" He's still being very, very gentle.
"I want to learn."
"It's not like I can get tenure at Miskatonic."
"If there were a way I could support myself and learn more about how the universe really works and not--"
"But I'm from India and I taught myself to read out of books from the garbage."
It's not that the facts are wrong but she's arranging them into a story that isn't true.
God, fuck, he hates this, the answer is yes, do you want to run away to New England and use the Miskatonic library or do you want to run away and fight the cult, because you have options now and he can't say that and he doesn't know what she's doing --
"I think you're trying to get a particular answer out of me and I don't know to what purpose but I would like it if you stopped."
Okay.
Okay, okay, fuck.
If he's right that this is a lie-in-the-way-that-counts then-- it's a trap, she is trying to get him to admit to not actually being a cultist, and Mordred is going to fucking die. If he's wrong then Inaaya is desperately asking for any way out and he's ignoring her. Both options are very bad.
"I," he says.
"If I want to do anything to affect the world at all," Inaaya says, "I have to be part of the cult, I don't have another way, and-- you've seen it, you have to have seen it, you work for us-- The things we do to people.
The street fights are one thing but people on Bangkok Nectar go home and hurt their wives or their children or their employees and-- LA Nectar is worse, you have to have seen it--"
"You've seen it too.
They're not-- I mean, the kinds of people who are on Nectar were like that before, right. There's a reason it's-- Nazis and Stalinists and robber barons who take LA Nectar."
"But we're making the worst people better at achieving their goals and to do it we're... torturing people, killing innocents..."
Well okay he's committed now, fuck he really hopes this is not going to get him killed --
"Yeah. I have. Of course I have. There was someone, she started out -- like us, the first thing she said to me was that of course you couldn't trust doctors but she'd like to hope people could trust their friends -- and now she keeps rhapsodizing about how she'll crush the weak and undeserving -- and --"
How long has it been since he talked about Lacie? And it's not actually true that my family is drunks, he almost says, and doesn't.
Fuck he doesn't know how to answer that. "I don't spend much time there and that's on purpose," he says instead. "It's -- I mean, it's the kind of place you get if you put several dozen of the kind of people who take LA nectar in an organization together and let them backstab each other as much as they want --"
"Walker's more -- goal oriented, less into backstabbing for the sake of backstabbing," thank you Mariam for telling him this it was extremely helpful, "but it's still not. Good."
His first thought is to talk about Lev and imply he's actually talking about himself but that's enough of the wrong kind of lie that it makes him feel sick to tell it.
"....when I was sixteen I would have gone approximately anywhere to get away from my family. And there was somewhere that would pay me to go to college and study things that mattered," he says instead.
Blink.
Everything he knows about Bangkok nectar -- but on the other hand Trammel writing in his horrifying skin book that Savitree is a blasphemer, and everything he knows about Inaaya, and the way the Emporium acts compared to how he saw people in LA acting --
"How... so?" Which is if not the right response at least not the wrong one.
"...the first time we spent time together," he says, very carefully, "you told me you were lucky the obelisk at Axum was broken because if it hadn't been you would probably have spent the rest of your life in an asylum. And what I wanted to say, and didn't because I barely knew you, was that if it ever came up I would break you out."
"And -- I didn't make that promise then, and I probably shouldn't be making it now because I shouldn't trust you as much as I do either, but it's true."
"If it ever comes up I will break you out."
Mordred... is going to have to workshop with Lev how he tells this to the others in a way they'll believe at all, which means that trying to think of ways to explain things right now is not helpful, and so right now he is going to set that entire thought process aside and focus on hugging Inaaya.
"Catholicism is evil but-- it's kind of interesting, honestly, Catholicism is evil but most of the specific Catholics I know are not? And with Gale, it's... he starts from the same premises we do? People should be allowed to be weird in peace, you should believe your eyes and not start from an idea of how the world must be and work backwards from it, and then he sees angels, what he gets when he trusts his eyes is Catholicism, and -- we still disagree about a lot of things but I think the premises are as important as the conclusions."
"And if they don't destroy each other a lot of people destroy themselves-- and some people would have been like that anyway but--"
This is a completely true statement about Mordred's experience of Christianity but also it feels a little bit like they're subtexting about the cult again.
"The thing is that most people aren't evil."
"So if you want to do something really evil, very grand-scale evil, you have to-- take people who would have been fine and turn them into someone who can-- torture, or rape, or murder, or make little children hate themselves for normal human emotions."
"And I think there are things that evil ideologies do that are worse but that's the thing that's most horrifying to me. The way it corrupts everyone who touches it."
"You shouldn't have to be exceptionally good not to be complicit in atrocities."
I love you so much. "You shouldn't. And-- on one level I absolutely do understand how people decide things are fine but-- we can do so much better than we're doing, I know people can--"
"I think this is my biggest disagreement with Lev? He thinks the world is broken and most people will hurt you and it's good that some of them won't but you really can't expect much, and I think the world is broken but broken is not the best we can do."
"And I'm angrier than he is about the world that exists because he thinks 'well, sure, in America they lynch Jews, but every country does that' is the best we can do and I don't."
"I-- everyone around me thinks this is the best we can do."
She almost says something, hesitates, and says, "Louise thinks that if we tell people the truth we'd be lucky if they went insane."
"Because if they just can't handle it then at least they're not using it to destroy other people."
When Oswald wakes up the following morning, he opens his eyes to find his bed wrapping itself around him, closing like a mouth.
Fang-like teeth tear through the covers from the mattress below, and some obscene tongue slathers against the bedspread from below, yellow mucus seeping through the cloth.
"Look, obviously I know he's gone to see her in the past. That doesn't make it okay for him to go off alone at random times without informing the group of where he's going."
"Even if you did tell Lev. You know full well that there are people targeting you, you know full well that at least some of them want you dead, and - look, it's your life, if you want to risk ending it, but I was under the impression that we were at least trying to be team players, here, and I don't want to risk my life trying to get you back if someone ends up kidnapping you again because you did something stupid."
Admittedly she has done many stupid things in her life. She is not going to admit this to anyone else right now.
Zoe runs her hands through her hair aggravatedly. "Fine. Good work, I guess. Can you please let us know before you go off to secure invitations through... dubious means."
"I don't know when you told Lev but we didn't hear anything about it until a minute ago."
Mordred being located safely and the bed no longer threatening to consume anyone, Zoe puts her gun away.
"Thank you. Sorry for jumping down your throat there, it's just." She waves to the saliva-soaked bedsheets.
"If Inaaya had decided to tie you up and torture you, or mind control you into telling her all your secrets, or, or, throw you into that enormous mouth to support her Nectar habit, we would have had no way to know or to do anything about it."
"She... can't mind control people. And is still under the impression we're all working for the cult in Los Angeles."
And doesn't randomly torture her friends for no reason, and also thinks the cult is evil and torture is evil, but if he tries to say that now there is zero possible way it is going to help literally anything.
"The invitation is for two days from now."
"They said that it doesn't eat you up that way at first! First it just makes you smarter and better and only later does it make you..." She is not really sure how to express the thing where lots of cultists seem to think that stabbing people is a fun and friendly activity. "And she said she can't mind control people but the cult is literally called Liars."
She's gonna smoke a cigarette. "I think that if you have an organized crime ring after you should avoid being in positions where they can easily grab you. Whether Inaaya herself is trustworthy is only an issue if you're still thinking of it as safe to go out without backup in the first place."
"...She does have a point there. And just because Inaaya doesn't know now doesn't mean there isn't a chance she'll figure it out at any given time, while you're alone with her and still trusting you're safe."
He feels deeply hypocritical about this past week but in his defense the cultist he keeps ending up alone with is not only not psychic but also an airhead.
"Aaaaaugh." More aggravatedly running her hands through her hair, this time while pacing. "Does no one here have a survival instinct? I don't run off on dates with cultists at any moment I have free time! It's... do they just not teach men not to go off with suspicious characters??"
"Still think you need to stop thinking of everything in terms of which people are suspicious and think more about whether you're leaving yourself open to attacks from anybody watching you. Some people are known to be dangerous, sure, but that's not the only point when you're in danger, is it. Were you hanging out with someone you knew to be dangerous when you got kidnapped the first time?"
"When I got kidnapped the first time everyone in the group knew exactly where I was, and I was with Araari. So unless you're arguing that I should never leave the hotel room at all, I don't know that we can collectively take many lessons from it."
"--That none of us should ever leave the hotel room at all, honestly, at which point why are we even doing this."
"Whatever. Honestly I'm not sure we have enough people here for anything we're trying to do. Not that I have a very clear picture of what that even is. - regardless, sure, now that you've got it I think you should take your appointment with Donovan. But I think we should have everyone we have watching the house while you do."
Mordred shares what he knows about the fundraiser, which is:
- it is tomorrow evening
- it is at Donovan's house
- it is, presumably, going to have lots of security, since Donovan goes with a dozen armed guards to visit her daughter in the hospital
- it is for the Committee for the Protection of Morals.
The warehouse shift has become surprisingly routine.
Go to work. Stand around with a gun watching people pack Nectar. Occasionally gossip on breaks about football (non-American version).
However, today there is a disruption in the routine when Victoria Prescott, their boss, calls some of the guards into her office.
Eventually Oswald, Zoe, and a few other guards are called in.
"There is a fundraiser in two days at Miss Donovan's mansion."
"Miss Donovan will not be attending, and has taken her guards with her."
"So we need some extra coverage."
"Anyone who wishes may work the party and ensure no one goes anywhere they shouldn't. You will, of course, get time and a half for overtime."
The party begins at seven. They will enter through the front at six. They will report to her when they arrive. They should wear professional clothing and carry a gun. They'll have some guards circling around the party and some upstairs, to keep inquisitive people from poking their noses in places they should not go.
Well, they should probably be prepared for anything inside. The most obvious point of comparison is Trammel's house, and she's heard enough about that to expect the worst.
Possibly they should ask Sir Blackwood whether he knows anything about what catacomb entrances there are around here? Just in case.
If they go track him down, Sir Blackwood says that the doors to the house have been reinforced.
You'd need explosives to break in from the catacombs.
"The warehouse is, um, much easier? I'm not sure why they didn't reinforce it? Maybe it was harder to explain the renovations?"
"Could one of us preferentially stick to areas where Lukas is so we can warn Mordred back if we see him coming? ...Could we, once Mordred is actually at the party, turn a blind eye to him sneaking around, and then he doesn't spend much time at the actual party at all."
"...Both plans seem, uh, likely to backfire."
"It seems like his options depend somewhat on what Inaaya is likely to expect of him."
"If you're going to be stationed as guards... do you think you could get posted at the entrance and let me in? I could poke around some, and wouldn't have to be glued to any of the cultists."
The house is large and sprawling and open and colorful and lush with hanging plants; there are stars painted on the ceiling and somewhere she can hear water running.
The beautifully papered walls are dotted and streaked here and there with water stains the maid is unable to combat.
No one is paying any attention to Anita.
Cool cool cool. Probably haunted. She can idly mingle for a bit and then see if she can get her bearings and determine which parts of the house are likely to contain an office or other locations where correspondence or records might end up, or determine which other parts of the house have suspicious things in them based on the apparent locations of the guards.
She enters a lush, luxurious library, intended for recreation as much as for use. It has extremely comfortable armchairs, like someone threw as much money as possible at having the most comfortable possible place to sit; there's a fireplace that'd be big and roaring if there were a fire in it, with soft animal fur rug in front of it for those cozy winter nights. The walls are adorned with gorgeous paintings of the sea. Near the front is a desk.
She is kind of really annoyed that she isn't her sister. There's probably something in here but she doesn't know how she'd find it in a timely manner, and her purse isn't that big.
Whatever. First she can look through the desk, hurrying up before anyone else comes by to look.
Once most of the guests are there Victoria assigns him to the third floor, which is the best floor for a novice, because Absolutely No One Should Be There. So absolutely nothing interesting is going to happen. But they have to put someone there because it is full of Secrets.
It isn't locked. There are two gargoyle statues flanking the door to the room and a small bust of a gargoyle on the bedside table.
The stone cracks, and he sees a mouth. The lips are pale, almost the color of the stone. The mouth has sharp teeth, like a shark’s, and a long prehensile tongue that must be a foot long. He can feel the warmth of its breath on his skin. It snarls at him angrily.
The books are carefully organized by topic. Fiction ranges from classics to modern work but reflects exquisitely good taste. There's a variety of valuable history texts and rare books worth a middle-class salary, but no evidence of esoteric or occult titles.
The exception is what appears to be a rare copy of the Gateway to Godhead (which was banned by the Vatican and placed on the Index Librorum Prohibotorum in 1875). Inspection, however, reveals that it is only the dust jacket for that book, disguising a thin ledger describing an occult rite.
Is there any cover in here??
also AAAAAA. she hasn't really seen one of these things before and man fuck that sure is a creepy unholy mouth thing.
- yeah you know what she's going to scream. She didn't at all mean to do this and is distantly really pissed at herself for it, but it's horrifying and she hates it and it's really really real and she's pretty sure the high-pitched scream is coming from her.
WELL THIS IS A GODDAMN BITCH OF A SITUATION, ISN'T IT.
The accumulated stress of All These Fucking Mouths has caught up with him all at once. He backs away from the Mouth and slowly collapses into a kneeling position and cannot stop staring at it all of which feels internally contradictory but he doesn't know what to fucking do.
Why is she even hiding under this bed??? She would clearly be way better at handling this situation than Oswald is. Although she has kind of made things marginally harder for herself by hiding under this bed. That probably doesn't matter because she's so good at lying.
She's gonna come out from under the bed actually! ...the other side of the bed from the guards, though, so it looks like she was hiding behind the bed like a proper terrified lady. "Oh gosh, I'm sorry. I was looking for a second bathroom? And then someone came rushing in and I panicked, you know? - do you know where the bathroom is?"
There are scuff marks! Right here near this bookshelf.
The bedroom is absolutely spotless. It looks more like a museum piece than a place where a person lives, or even a hotel room. There is no sign of personality. The only sign someone lives here is something wet near the pillow-- tears? The fireplace contains flat dark ashes.
In a Nectar-fueled flash of insight it is clear to Anita that there will not be any knowable HORRIBLE CONSEQUENCES if she declares this surveillance mission sufficiently surveilled, heads out and buys some kids' clothes, and heads to the hospital to get Lela and Tereza out.
Or, she'll have two kids she has to figure out something to do with, but lmao she can handle that. And Montgomery Donovan is going to be searching for them around Malta which will make it difficult to do anything other detectiving but whatever they can contact her and explain that they've determined that her associate is poisoning her daughter. It'll be fine. Anita can do ANYTHING.
"All right. I think we have what we came here for. As far as I see it, the next obvious order of business is getting the kids out of the hospital, and hey, no time like the present."
And then they can go to the hospital! It's 8pm. The hospital is quiet, but there are nurses on their daily rounds, fewer than during the day but still quite a few. The building is even darker at night than during the day; avoiding running into any of them is definitely possible.
"Of course not, that's why you have to put the clothes on and stop looking like a patient. We walk out of here all confident that we're supposed to be leaving, and then by the time anybody notices that one of the patients is missing, we're long gone."
"If you're worried about it we can give you a haircut, too. Much less recognizable that way."
"Anyway, we don't have all the time in the world. Need to have you put the clothes on and get the other one into a new outfit, too."
Jesse Evans is an academic from New York, studying linguistics. He lives with his brother and reads a lot and likes math but isn't great at it. His job is something about Early Modern English that Mordred can talk about very confidently if asked to. He's in Malta on vacation because it's warm here and he thinks Maltese is interesting as a language. He knows absolutely nothing about cults, or mouths, or rifts of the new moon.
She snaps her fingers again and he can breathe.
"Apologies. Magic is not very kind, especially of the sort one can do on short notice."
"And if you do turn out to be working for one of my competitors, I would like you to remember that I can fill your lungs with water and drown you whenever I like, and they do not have this ability. They have to kill you with guns."
"Excellent."
"You are doing me a favor and I shall remember this. Call me if there's a girl you'd like to love you or a man you would like to kill." She considers. "Or gambling success, I can do gambling success. Made my first ten thousand dollars on the roulette wheel here in Malta."
By any chance the same sorcerer who set Anemone on fire, he doesn't say, because that would be a wild and bizarre reaction for Jesse Evans to have.
Instead he nods. Fortunately, 'terrified and processing a lot of things all at once' is a very reasonable reaction for someone who did not previously know magic existed.
(Unfortunately, multiple people Montgomery talks to believe he is working for Captain Walker in LA. Fortunately, they know him by a different name than she does. Unfortunately they know his face and he might someday have to be in the same room as both categories of people. Fortunately, he does not die when drowned.)
"That... expands the possibilities of 'not okay' by a lot. I'm sorry?"
"It spoke to me. It demanded." She chokes up again. "A sacrifice."
"There is... a law of magic. The more serious the sacrifice, the more potent the power."
"I sacrificed half a dozen of my... employees. The drug began to dry up."
"My deity... informed me that it must be someone precious to me."
She cries softly into Mordred's shoulder for a few minutes.
Then she sits up straight and composes herself. "Well."
"I can hardly tell my colleagues about this. As far as they are concerned I am a success."
"And-- it is not safe in my line of work, to be weak. To not be willing to sacrifice as much as you need for power."
A long silence, in which Mordred weighs probabilities in his head.
And then he says:
"...I think I know why your daughter is sick. My favor is don't tell Peter Lukas I didn't actually die and don't tell Louise Fauche I'm not actually working for the cult in LA. Do you want help?"
"Not everyone in America is some kind of traveling performer, but maybe it says something about the kind of person likely to get involved in," she waves her hand at her environs, "all this."
"And I rarely get tired of attending them, but I will admit that guarding them turns out to be not quite so entertaining."
"Damn. I got off shift and couldn't find anyone at the party. I'm not sure where else they might have gone to. The factory? The hospital? Some sort of secret dungeon below Montgomery's house?"
"Them not meeting up with me means things are not going according to plan which means they need backup."
"Well. There are these -- girls. Who need rescued. And Anita thought -- since there was -- well, y'know, no time like the..."
He trails off as he more fully connects the fact that Anita got splashed with Nectar and then immediately started acting very gungho about everything to his own presence in a car outside a hospital waiting for her to kidnap two high profile children from a cult with heavy firepower and control of that hospital.
"...Well. I could go in after Anita now that it's registering that this is a bad idea, and maybe fuck up her plan and maybe get us killed. Or we could keep waiting out here, and once she's out" if she's out "we can still be the getaway.
I'm not sure we have other options. Well. Other than, uh, leaving her here."
"There was -- I needed to -- she kidnapped a patient? -- it's probably just a cold I can come back tomorrow."
He says a bunch of inane things and then turns around and tries to walk briskly out of there while not moving fast enough to look really suspicious, which it turns out is not fast enough to get the fuck out.
It does! Is it at all possible to circle around some other way.
Maybe he could also stop another nurse on his way out? "Excuse me, did someone try to kidnap a patient? What happened? Is the patient okay?" He can convey that he is stressed out about this because he is definitely stressed out.
Oswald sits down heavily on one of the chairs in the lobby. He should've known going in how likely this was, he should have steeled himself, he is doing his best to keep it together in front of the nurses so they don't connect him to Anita but God, he can't stop picturing her with a bullet hole right in her forehead. There are too many people in this room. They are kind of an overwhelming blur.
Eventually he can think of something other than that image. Okay, she got to one of the girls, that girl is alright, there's almost definitely added security, maybe... maybe the girl got away? Should he be holding out for that possibility?
If she did and he leaves now then he's passing up an important opportunity but if he gets caught sneaking around he is almost definitely going to get shot.
Is there... a place he can get to where he can try to determine if the girl got away without getting shot to death if he gets caught.
"A journalist -- I actually do live in New York with my brother, I am not actually an academic, everything I said about Early Modern English was true I don't lie about languages -- who was hired to investigate what happened in Los Angeles ten years ago by the daughter of one of the people who tried to stop the summoning and immediately realized I was in over my head. Until about six months ago I mostly wrote about abuses in asylums."
"I am indeed not a sorcerer but," sorry Martin, "the person who shared this with me does know magic and is -- a more credible source than the Liar -- and also there isn't a reason for Tereza Doe to even be sick unless someone is actively making her sick, the teethmarks healed a long time ago--"
"Yes."
"I-- don't know how you think you're going to help me."
"I can wither you to dust with a wave of my hand, which I assure you is an even less pleasant death than drowning. You can write articles exposing abuses of power."
"If I haven't found a way out, what makes you think you can?"
'And how exactly would you say that leaping to solving all of your problems with murder has been working out for you thus far' would just be cruel, given context.
"I don't know either," he says instead. "I got murdered last week, I'm about as far in over my head as it's possible to get and I'm not going to pretend otherwise. But-- I am not very good at doing nothing. And you needed the hug."
"Not wrong but I wasn't going to say it -- so my plan is to either introduce you to the person who knows the relevant spells better than I do, or just write them down and hand them to you, depending on what happens when I ask him about it, and then close the mouth in Malta."
Do we know that for sure, he considers saying, but the only evidence he has to the contrary is that Savitree's uncertain and that seems like the kind of thing he promised Inaaya he wouldn't reveal, jesus fucking christ why is he juggling so many secrets oh right because he can't leave well enough alone,
"That's good."
Okay if she starts yelling she is just going to get them both shot or ensorcelled or something.
She is having a hard time thinking of other ideas, though. Besides trying to shove past the guard and grab Mordred and run, which would get them both even more shot or ensorcelled or something.
Does Mordred look like he's here under duress to Zoe?
...oh. So she's not on Nectar currently. That's... more of a relief than he would have expected it to be.
"Okay, I can work with that -- you giving official signoffs on things will probably make everything go smoother but we can handle the rest."
(Zoe PLEASE observe the non-hostile body language and the fact that we were just hugging, he thinks as hard as he can.)
"It's just that I've been on it so long I don't know how to make plans without it."
"I look at my books and the words just swim in front of me. I do what Dr. Solazzio or Peter says because... I just can't think."
"There was a person I was before, I know. She was smart. I just."
Zoe takes deep breaths. If Mordred is mind-controlled or having some sort of weird Nectar effect that makes him hug cultists then her trying to save him right now would just mean she'd have to fight him too. He doesn't seem to be in immediate danger. If they're holding him captive she can grab him when they go to leave.
She does her best to communicate "seriously what the fuck" and "the plan is going to shit and you're sitting here hugging cultists" and "what am i supposed to DO" purely through the dilation of her pupils and the fixation of her gaze and the tension around her eyes.
From what he sees in his peripheral vision he can tell she is extremely stressed; from the fact of her presence he can tell that the plan is in tatters; he makes brief eye contact when he gets a chance to and nods and really hopes this conveys 'I am fine I have a plan my branch of this situation is going fine.'
Zoe cannot stand and watch and do nothing. She has no idea where Oswald or Anita went. She told Lev she would be here. Mordred is here. There is no other place it makes sense for her to go. She is probably not helping by standing here distracting Mordred from whatever genius cultist-hugging plans he has devised. Zoe is USELESS and probably her people are DYING because she was not WHEREVER THE HELL THEY ARE.
Is the taxi still here?
Zoe is going to get back in the taxi and tell the driver to go back to the hotel and yell "FUCK!!!" at the top of her lungs and kick the seat and then apologize to the driver and tip him really well.
I hate this I hate this they are going to kidnap Mordred and I will have no idea where HE is either.
Zoe apologizes to the taxi driver again and has him circle back and wait down the block from the coffeeshop and tips him even more.
"I'm so sorry," he says to Montgomery.
"....for what it's worth I think you're doing remarkably well in a terrible position and if I had lost everything I cared about I would not be nearly this good at reevaluating, and I think that the you of two years ago is just wrong. But I understand if that isn't worth much."
Once they're outside the hotel, and no longer in a small enclosed space with a stranger:
"I was talking to Donovan. --she showed up having obviously been crying, I took a chance, it worked better than I could possibly have hoped for, I am guessing things on everyone else's end went way worse but for my part we have an ally who is an extremely powerful sorcerer and can sign off on basically anything we want to do and is willing to help us close the Mouth."
"Fine. You can explain to me later in more detail why you believe Montgomery Donovan is your ally in destroying her life's work after you have spoken with her once."
"I was stuck at the door of that party for HOURS fending off weird conversation from creepy cultists and bored out of my mind. I have no idea where Oswald or Anita is, there was no sign of them at the party when I finally got off shift. They are probably dead or kidnapped or fed to a mouth or something and I have no idea where to look. That is what's actually important right now."
"I'm not really sure what Walker would gain from this but I don't exactly know enough about Savitree to speculate about her."
Is Tereza awake. If so he can maybe station himself by her door in such a way that she can see him. Does he have a plan? God, he really doesn't have a plan. He just feels like he has to do something, and is kind of constrained on what that something can be
What he would like is to lean on Tereza's door and then it just happens that leaning on the door handle causes the door to open and then Tereza runs out and then he can catch her, as is his duty as a guard, and then spend a while comforting her instead of returning her to the bed, as is his duty as a human being with a single ounce of compassion. He experiments with leaning on the door and/or handle in case this does anything whatsoever. The idea is that if it fails he is just looking mildly stupid in the background.
Zoe! Zoe is here! Zoe had better have a plan that does not involve Tereza going back in her room when Oswald just got her out, he attempts to communicate with his eyes. What little amount of plan she has at this point, anyways.
Maybe he can pretend that her room was some other room and just walk off with her. Did any of the guards see her walking out of the room he's standing right next to.
He promptly gets Tereza out of the way. In fact he is going to get Tereza as far out of the way as he reasonably can. If he can get down the stairwell on the strength of acting like he knows what he's doing he will. Maybe he can get all the way outside on the strength of this even.
Zoe turns to the other guards. "If any of you needs a bathroom break or a coffee, go now and be quick about it. I'm fresh and I can hold your position while you're gone. We're probably going to be here a while."
She takes up a guard position vaguely near the doctors and tries to watch what's going on with Lela.
Dr. Solazzio double-checks the paper. If Zoe glances at it, she can see that the letters aren't in English.
And she can recognize from what Mordred's told her that the paper is written in the International Phonetic Alphabet-- like it's in a language Dr. Solazzio doesn't speak but really wants to make sure she's pronouncing right.
Zoe has NO clue if this is going to make things better or worse for her. "I barely count as a sorcerer, I only know one spell! But when I was learning it my friend drilled pronunciations into me, saying things right is really important, and what you were saying didn't seem to be helping--"
"Nobody is going to put things in your blood ever again," he says, maybe 70% sure that he can assure this. Into the car. Hugging Tereza in the back of the car. Positioning Tereza such that people cannot easily see her in the car.
"They were doing horrible medical experiments on little kids, Anita went in to rescue the kids, she got shot, one of the girls screamed and collapsed, I used my guard position to get up there, Zoe showed up and did about the same thing, I got out, now we're here. If you need a better explanation than that I'm not sure I can give one."
"Do you know why Mordred is talking to a cultist outside the hospital."
"I sort of wonder," Frank says, "what any of this has to do with the death of Mr. Winston that we are allegedly investigating."
"No! No, I don't know why Mordred is taking to a cultist! I don't know anything! No one ever tells me anything! They're just like 'Frank, we're breaking into the house of a film producer now.' 'Frank, we're going to Ethiopia now.' "Frank, we're breaking into a hospital in Malta now.'"
"This woman," Oswald says, to Tereza but loud enough for Frank, "is not a random one. She might be real and if she is we are trying to rescue her." He feels distantly like this is just going to make Frank more generally fed up with their bullshit but is too frazzled to do anything about it.
(Also a little like this is the dumbest thing to come out of his mouth so far but he can't help that. It is the situation. The woman is Tereza's dream is a specific woman, she might be real, if so they're trying to rescue her.)
Meanwhile, when Zoe goes into the hospital, Mordred waits outside, tries very hard to look unobtrusive and hoping nobody actually looks at him in such a way that they might recognize him as that guy who got murdered a week ago, and wishes Lev were here so he could actually be talking to someone.
(He could be talking to Frank but his experience is that talking to the Franks of the world is an endeavor best left to people who are not him.)
"Yeah." She breathes in the smoke from her cigarette.
"The way I figure it, either there's no one up there right now, in which case I'm useless, or there is, in which case I'm not going to risk my ass saving someone Savitree isn't paying me to save."
"This was not logic Miss Donovan especially wanted to listen to."
"I was not drafted. --honestly I noticed them pulling guards from the party and went to the obvious place they'd be pulling to to see what was going on."
How does Inaaya know that -- well, there's an obvious answer, but that answer raises the question of what else Inaaya knows, which he is going to worry about LATER, jesus fuck how many layers of lying is he on at this point --
Mordred feels awful about leaving her-- which is hypocritical as hell given his own stated preferences about what the team should do if he's kidnapped-- but-- they haven't shared anything with each other, he hasn't written down almost any of the events of the last few days, he can't just die--
"Montgomery Donovan is an incredibly powerful sorcerer and has agreed to help us cast Cast Out the Black Pharaoh," Mordred says, because he is too fucking tired to come up with the convincing version of this statement.
"Also, Inaaya at least believes that Savitree thinks the Mouth is evil and is working against it, and everything I've seen from the rest of her team does not lead me to think they're aiming for something different. I think that's all the information I have that it would be disastrous if we lost."
"I -- can come up with a version that doesn't sound quite as insane as that version when it is not," and he makes a vague gesture at the entire world.
"...You know what, sure. Donovan wants to help us. Her daughter's dying, she killed the love of her life, she hasn't been on Nectar in a year maybe, we found a suicide note in the secret room off of her bedroom, this all feels very logical. Also definitely insane, admittedly."
He has stopped being able to be surprised or have emotions about things.
"Yeah, it's. She is very very miserable and wants a way out and doesn't have a plan or the ability to form plans and is, I think, grabbing the first halfway decent plan that presents itself. Neither Inaaya nor Montgomery knows what I just told you about the other, Zoe knows about Montgomery but not about Inaaya."
That's very valid of Oswald. Emotions are exhausting.
Then the bit about Inaaya catches up with him.
"Wait. If Savitree is against the Mouth, and Inaaya is against the Mouth, and Joan and Louis and Mariam are against the Mouth, and Montgomery is against the Mouth, then who -- then -- I mean, there's something screwy going on there, right? That's a lot of ostensible cultists who are against the object of their cult."
"Montgomery was not against the mouth until, uh, a couple of hours ago, Montgomery was miserable and mostly only taking actions if prodded to take them. If Joan and Louise and Mariam and Inaaya and Savitree are against the Mouth that's one unified pocket of cultists not a whole lot of individuals -- I'm not disagreeing that this sounds really unlikely but also the context helped a lot --"
"I've never actually met Savitree I just know what Inaaya believes about her -- and Inaaya spent a lot of time trying to figure out if I was -- the sort of person she could trust, she said something like -- this isn't exact words -- 'I don't think anyone could pretend to be you, I think you'd have to actually care about freedom to fake it that well, and I hoped if I trusted you the person who cared about freedom would come out even though you're working for Walker' -- and this is stupid and I've been trying to come up with a way to say it that wasn't so obviously stupid since it happened but I walked in the door and there was an immediate crisis and we've all been really busy since and, well--"
And here he cuts himself off before he can add even more em-dashes to this already unnecessarily long sentence.
Did you know that you will fix all your problems if you think positively about them. Then you will not have any problems anymore.
Because you are thinking positively about them, and positive things are not problems.
This is a very helpful pamphlet for people who are currently in a cell in a warehouse next to a mouth spewing Nectar, a situation you might otherwise conclude is something approximating a problem.
Oh wow now would be a great time for her to know anything about what Mordred spoke to Montgomery about last night.
If she makes it out of this she will be sure to be MORE PATIENT with Mordred. And yell less.
WELP HERE GOES NOTHING "Because I'm one of the people trying to save your daughter and close the mouth. And that spell the doctor keeps casting is just making your daughter sicker."
"Just, get into your party, poke around your house, see what we could learn about the local Mouth and any weaknesses it might have. I was guarding the door, Mordred was watching from the coffeeshop, and the others went upstairs. We were never supposed to go anywhere else."
"Well, it didn't seem like she'd been getting the best of care, where she was. And it didn't seem like anyone else was going to do anything about it.
I can't speak for why my teammates decided to try something last night in particular but I think we would all have felt pretty shit if we'd just abandoned her entirely."
"I hadn't heard about anyone getting shot. I'm so sorry about your daughter and if her current condition is because of my teammate I would understand if you killed me. Last I heard, one of the few things we all agreed on was that we needed to help Lela."
Oswald looked okay, so it must have been Anita who was shot. Zoe wonders how bad it was. Probably very, or Anita would have still been there.
"Hi Zoe, I'm glad you're alive, Tereza is with Lev.
The short version is that she is very tired and very miserable and very bad at taking actions and has stopped using Nectar and it turns out when you fuel everything you do with the spit of an evil god for ten years this makes it really hard to think straight when you stop, and so she's grabbing the only plan she has that is coming from someone who even seems like they want to help her and Lela.
I don't actually know if that makes things more confusing or less?"
"It... clarifies a bit. They threw me in a cell and in the morning she came and questioned me and I threw all my chips behind your story and she looked very tired and let me go."
"I'm lucky I happened to meet up with you before I met up with her. Sorry for getting on your case about it. I don't completely understand but she could have killed me and had every reason to and didn't, because of you. So, uh. Thanks."
"That is extremely fair of you and I'm sorry about the lack of updates, things kind of... happened fast."
"And -- I have been trying to figure out how to say this so it sounds less stupid but I'm giving up on that and saying it the stupid way -- the Emporium is also fighting the Mouth. Not in the way where I talked them into it, in the way where they were doing that before, they still think we're cultists working for Walker."
"I figured that out by spending enough time with Inaaya that she believed I had the general personality I in fact have and decided to try to talk me into switching from Walker's team to hers, and I'm -- about as sure as one can reasonably be?"
"They're not doing the same thing we are, they're legitimately working for Savitree and affiliated with the cult, they do take Nectar, Inaaya seemed to think LA Nectar is way worse than Malta or Bangkok on the eating your goals front but from the conversation with Montgomery I'm not convinced she's right."
"But -- she kept checking, over and over again, that I was the kind of person who wouldn't usually be working for the cult, and she was noticeably really stressed when it came up that the person I was pretending to be takes LA Nectar, and frankly if it's not true what motive is there to say that it is."
"I guess the thing I'm trying to figure out is what specific thing they're fighting, why they're fighting it, which parts they're comfortable with or even in favor of, what a good outcome looks like to them."
"I mean, I can generate some ideas, being into Gol-Goroth but not the Liar, wanting the Nectar but not the nightmare god baggage, so on, but I'm just wildly guessing here and it feels like some amount of stuff hinges on the actual specifics."
"Yeah that's completely reasonable. Inaaya, at least, is fighting the Mouth because she thinks torturing people is wrong and hates that the cult makes horrible people better at their goals at the expense of innocents, but -- I don't know any of the others nearly as well, I could try to guess but they'd be guesses."
"She wanted to know why I was at the hospital and if I or my teammates were trying to kill her daughter and... stuff like that? I don't remember all of her questions. She seemed to mostly care about her daughter. She asked me a lot of questions about Mordred, I think to see if I really knew him."
"How are they fighting the Mouth? Do they know how to stop it? What does the cult think they're doing?"
"I don't know because Inaaya was worried I'd tell Walker, I don't know because Inaaya was worried I'd tell Walker, and I assume the cult thinks they're archaeologist researchers trying to learn more about how the occult works since that's how they presented themselves other than that one conversation?"
"What name did you give Donovan for Mordred, Zoe? This is important, he's trying to balance a lot of identities here and we want him able to keep track of who knows what about him." He is serious but he's also not not joking.
And-- ah. That question. He's not joking at all anymore. "...Yeah."
"I -- I don't want to -- speak ill of -- she did, it did work, we got Tereza out, she wasn't--"
"...One of the rooms upstairs was booby-trapped and she got hit in the face with Nectar. She -- I didn't even make the connection till we'd gotten to the hospital, she was doing so well all of a sudden, I was just following her lead..."
"She thought -- it was the best time. Everyone was at the party. We could just--"
Ugh fuck he doesn't want to process any of this right now. His coworkers just die now. He's so tired of having reactions to it. God he wishes Anemone and her tarot cards were still here. He's just never having any emotions ever again.
He doesn't want to leave her at the orphanage he wants to convince their benefactor that her continued upkeeping is a reasonable business expense and bring her back to New York even tho his line of work is very dangerous and traumatizing.
"We can take you wherever you want."
Upon hearing that she wants to go back to the orphanage, Mordred stops trying to think through the logistics of where to put her and whether he could feasibly still ask Gareth for a favor, which frees his brain up to realize that they almost certainly did not get the medications she was on and she, unlike Lev, is probably not invulnerable to the effects of withdrawal.
"--or at least we probably can," he adds.
"I don't think you can withdraw from vitamins but the rest of these I don't know and from what Montgomery said they're experimental which means it's very plausible that nobody knows."
"Fuck. I don't think I can break back in given the murder and I have no idea if Zoe can break back in given the kidnapping, do you think you can--"
He gets back; Tereza takes her meds slightly grumpily and then curls up for a nap.
"I don't think our central goals for Malta have changed? We still want to close the major Mouth here, we still want to figure out the... rift... lady... moon... thing, we still want to save the kids, we just have -- a few more options for how we're going to do any of that."
"There's not a particular day but it's less busy on the night shift, midnight to 4:30. Different note -- I'm thinking through our new options and we've gotten somewhat on the same page with Montgomery but we should probably also get close to the same page with Mariam and Joan and so on?"
"I am not sure what work you've done there already but it seems necessary if we want their help with the Mouth."
"Which I guess means it's mainly a good idea if we can keep them from knowing about each other. I'm not sure if this is less active secret-keeping or more."
"Going back to the warehouse, are you just thinking of information-gathering or do you have a next step for that in mind?"
"I had a very tentative not-quite plan which was that Montgomery would tell everyone to clear out while she did something experimental, we would come in through the catacombs -- Montgomery's house is blocked to them but the warehouse isn't for some reason, Martin said? -- and we'd cast the spell while everyone was out."
"This will probably not survive first contact with reality because when have our plans ever, but, you know."
"I think Montgomery Donovan doing something experimental is one of the worse times to rush in if you think you're working against each other but it'd depend on what they know from the outside I suppose."
"I am... honestly more concerned about Lukas. I'm not sure how specifically Lukas might fuck this up but it feels very much like he could."
"More immediately Montgomery, since this plan relies on her clearing out a warehouse so that we can come in and close the Mouth there."
"It just seems like 'Montgomery made everyone leave so she could do something and then when they came back the Mouth was gone' by itself could a really bad set of information for people to have."
"We should probably come up with some kind of plan for getting Montgomery out before the cult finds her. With Lela, ideally, or who knows what will happen to her."
"Ugh. Is there any way to get the Emporium to cooperate with us without Montgomery turning you to dust. There's just so many things to keep track of..."
"Maybe if we ask Donovan to ask them to provide cover for us, since they do have a bit of a relationship... We are leaning very heavily on trusting that Donovan is just going to go along with all of this. I believe that you have good reasons to assume that but we haven't actually confirmed it."
"Maybe we should hash something out, run it by her and see if she'll work with it and where she thinks the major kinks are."
"Okay. So. Prototype plan: she tells the guards to leave, we cast the spell, we leave through the tunnels, if she wants to vanish from Malta before the political shitshow hits then's the time, we expect she knows more about what kind of security we'll need and who or what to watch out for and we tell her so?"
"Are we still aiming for dead of night, is it's better for her to schedule it up front so it seems routine or to spring it on them so they can't plan for it, are we relying on ourselves for security, does she trust her guards for that, can we instead for lookout get the Emporium on board and her on board with the Emporium which is a whole subset of things, we need to find a good exit from the catacombs where we can stick the plane but that's less of a question and more of a mapping exercise..."
"If we're bolting after we want everyone and everything that isn't involved in the ritual on the plane beforehand."
"And... what do we do if the ritual fails?"
"We have no idea who does or doesn't know about the rift lady moon thing.
And -- so last night Montgomery specifically said that the ritual shouldn't fail, but if it did we have the rituals of self-denial as a backup. I don't know she meant herself but given the existence of a suicide note I am making an educated guess."
"...If we do this we're not going to get a chance to deal with the moon maw opening afterwards, are we. So either we wait until after whatever's going to happen with that has happened or we leave Malta without figuring out what's happened to Portia."
"I don't think we can delay closing the Mouth for something we barely know anything about. We can maybe wait past the next new moon."
"We don't actually have any reason to believe it's going to happen on the next new moon, or in any sort of timely manner at all, we thought it was going to happen on the last new moon and then it super didn't. --we could probably ask Montgomery and the Emporium about it, I bet they'd know more than we do."
"That's what I'm saying, we can maybe wait until the next new moon but we can't afford to wait indefinitely. --I think the Emporium is the next thing we need to discuss, it's the major part of the plan that we haven't discussed how to pull off."
"And then I think go to Donovan with this and ask her about security concerns and if she'd be willing to work with the Emporium on keeping people out."
"Yeah. As for the Emporium -- they don't know Zoe exists, they know you as that guy Anchisa likes, and they know me as Inaaya's weirdly sincere and bizarrely friendly boyfriend; I think I should invite them to some reasonably neutral location and then hand them the instructions to cast out the black pharaoh and offer whatever proof they need that we mean what we're saying. This plan is kind of stupid but I think any plan is going to be kind of stupid."
"Yes! You might already know it but if you don't you should."
He has two copies each of the instructions to Cast Out the Black Pharaoh and the Rituals of Self Denial, which he hands to her.
"I am agnostic as to which of you and Louise can verify that these do what they say they do but I'm guessing at least one of you can."
Okay so Mordred's doing the talking on his own then. This is probably for the better to be honest but it's still a little nervewracking.
He is, outwardly, very relaxed and not scared of this interaction at all. "He's not. Or, he might be I guess, but you would know better than I would. This one is from Ayers, this one is from the Knights of Malta, Walker does not to the best of my knowledge know that either of them exist and I would prefer to keep it that way."
"Ayers is not alive but was two months ago -- he died of terminal 'trying to pursue goals while having a mouth on his stomach' -- and the Knights of Malta are under the impression that the Liar is the Devil and are fighting it."
He says that last bit at a completely normal pace while looking Mariam in the eye. Because he is not terrified of this conversation. He is relaxed and chill.
It's so normal and he thinks so little of it that he barely even registers it happening. In his defense there is kind of a lot to be focusing on.
"In fact I have met Walker exactly once and it was while I was breaking into Trammel's house and the only reason he didn't kill me is that I lied convincingly enough about having a dead man's switch."
"So anything you learned about him from me is guesswork based on what I learned about him from you, you can disregard it.
My real name is Mordred Orkney, we're not actually cult affiliated at all, we are in so far over our heads I literally drowned last week, and I would like to do actual for real information sharing where we're not lying to each other about everything."
"I have the spells I just handed you, I have Inaaya's general testimony about who I am as an entire person although presumably you already knew that, I have several notebooks of records of the last six months, I don't think I have anything a very dedicated person couldn't have fabricated but you have to admit if I were lying it would be an incredibly weird lie."
Okay, heading this conversation off since it doesn't seem to be going anywhere helpful, "That's all extremely fair. You don't have to believe me immediately, if you want to check up on the spells and come back I understand and if you want the notebook you can look through it right now."
"I don't suppose it would help if I offered to answer questions as the resident horrible liar," Oswald suggests, somewhat weakly. Joan somehow seems scarier now that they're ostensibly aiming at working together. "...I don't know how I would prove that. Everyone can attest to it. There was a reason I spent most of our dinner getting Anchisa to interrupt us."
"Worth considering. You seem a little busy right now, with the"-- he gestures towards the rest of the group; Inaaya is looking through Mordred's notebook-- "human mating drama and so on and so forth."
"Also, all the mortality."
"The three most common human activities. Sex, dying, and being fucked over by the Great Old Ones."
"That you'll have more information to save the world with? That we'll have more information to save the world with? That in general the people who are trying to stop the Mouth from drowning the world in Nectar will collectively have more resources with which to do that? That I can stop juggling four layers of lies all the time?"
"We're trying to identify for certain who it is so we can understand how to cast it out and send it home."
"That's why we've been traveling around the world; we've been investigating sites that we believe may be related to the Thing with a Thousand Mouths."
"You should come to Bangkok and look at our notes."
"...Okay, maybe you're right and what they've got in Bangkok is better than the L.A. stuff and this doesn't matter but I had an 8-year-long close-up of what Nectar was doing to Samson Trammel and the first time I could put a name to it my sister had gone insane and I had to shoot Ayers in the head and two days ago my teammate got dosed with Nectar and was dead before the end of the night. So -- I am a little bit slow to trust any version of this upfront."
He's getting things jumbled, he knows he's getting things jumbled. None of this means anything. He just opened his mouth and suddenly all these words were there and they don't form an argument at all.
"Trammel was on Nectar constantly for more than a decade. Nectar is dangerous but the continued presence of the Thing with a Thousand Mouths is also dangerous and-- we have to be smart enough to stop it."
"But our-- differing opinions-- on Nectar use are not the crux of the issue here. Savitree would be very pleased to be working with people who aren't associated with her and can go places we can't."
The difference between Mordred when he's Very Very Chill And Relaxed(TM) and Mordred when the conversation is actually genuinely almost certainly not going to get them murdered is... visible. He's smiling at Inaaya.
"We would be very pleased to be working with people with more resources and idea what's going on."
"Just one, I think. We were hoping to get - proof of concept, let's call it - on Cast Out the Black Pharaoh while we're here. We're still working on timing and so on but will have a more final plan in a few days; do you know of any compelling reasons not to try to close the mouth in Malta within the next week or so."
"Apparently, he likes my acrobatics act."
"...I think I could have gotten him to go for it if I'd had a better trade to offer? I said I could do a private show and he said he thought I was too busy. ...Maybe I should have just said I could make time in my schedule for him."
".........If this whole thing eventually ends with the Liar himself helping us fight the Mouth because it's unaesthetic I think I'll just give up on understanding anything that happened during this part of my career. I can see the trajectory from here to there and it's completely absurd and it's giving me a headache."
There's a thin wooden door for privacy.
The office is well-decorated, a bit of art deco modernity in the midst of ancient stone; the desk is scattered with various unfiled receipts and papers and the bookshelf contains a small selection of books about local laws and business practices. Behind the desk is a safe.
"The big problem is keeping Peter out. I will try but-- it's going to be suspicious, whatever I do. Especially if I'm busy aiding you with Cast Out The Black Pharaoh. How are you planning to divide up helping me cast and dealing with unexpected events?"
"Someone should assist in me casting, it is irritatingly likely to fail with only me."
She looks. "Mordred, Zoe, you look more magically powerful. Unsure how Mordred's nonhuman ancestry will affect this. Possibly positively."
"Right but knowing that there is a trap is not the same as knowing... what it looks like, what triggers it, how fast it goes once it's triggered, how it moves, all that stuff?"
"Like, okay. In this part you wrote 'blade drops from ceiling'. What kind of blade? Does it drop straight down, or move in an arc? What makes it drop?"
Mordred feels that he has spent years doing crimes in broad daylight by walking in the front door and is very reluctant to set aside years of front-door-walking expertise in favor of wading through Nectar and avoiding blade traps.
He will grudgingly concede that they do in fact have reasons to not want to walk in the front door this time but like. Come on.
Oswald got away with all his crimes mostly by sitting at a desk in an out-of-the-way office doing numbers and never interacting with anyone. He for one is glad of a plan that does not involve interacting with anyone. (Not like it's much more deadly than all of their other plans, he tells himself, even though this is a much more tangible danger than usual.)
The catacombs are cramped and dark and wet. A low arched ceiling traps torch smoke, and uneven stones cause flashlights to throw off weird shadows. The place smells of mud and wet rat. Many of the grave beds carved into the walls are empty or haphazardly filled now with loose bones. Still, browned bones are everywhere. Skulls stare out from the walls.
Painted plaster adornments and inset stone decorations are everywhere, making it a little difficult to identify just the right crosses and symbols necessary to follow Martin's directions.
About a hundred feet inside, they come to an intersection decorated with a Maltese cross carved from stone. This is obviously the site of the first trap, because it’s been sprung already. A rotten body lies not-quite beheaded on the ground, amid the much-older bones. A once-fine blade juts from the wall at the end of a rotted post, a snapped cord dangling from it.
He has been telling himself over and over that the scattered bones and skulls are harmless and have no way of hurting him but he sees the blade and the horrible intact body and the smell of rotten flesh hits worse than the catacombs so far. He moves backwards fast enough to slip and hit the wall. It takes him a bit to realize this body also isn't going to attack him.
(Hitting the wall is not dangerous but it is also the worst sensory experience.)
The third trap is just inside that side passage-- a fine metal cord that runs across the floor just above ankle height. If tripped, it will bring an axe down from the ceiling. Zoe shines a flashlight around the area and looks for a glint; she sees the tripwire and indicates it to the others.
"I think we can probably just step over this one. If you want I could try to trigger it from a ways back but. It's right there, just don't step on it."
Zoe will hold their hands for balance or point at the wire or whatever they might need.
Zoe anchors a rope to one of the crosses and climbs down.
Part of the way down her foot slips on a bit of rock that wasn't nearly as securely attached as she thought it was. She desperately clutches for the rope to keep from falling, and pulls it down with her.
Fortunately, she only has some light scrapes. Unfortunately, she's on the bottom of the well with the rope and two people who can't climb up there.
"Fuck! I'm okay! The rocks here are loose. I'll... try to figure out a way for you guys to get down."
The ruins are a simple collection of chambers with walls of simple upright stones and floors made of loose gravel and detritus. Which sucks.
Zoe calls up the well: "There's not really a lot down here. I think I'm going to have to try to climb back up." She powders her hands with the powder from her compact to get a bit better grip. "Can one of you shine a light down so that I can see what I'm doing?"
Zoe takes a deep breath. She's done this before, in the circus. She's Zoe, lucky Zoe, and her people need her.
She starts to climb.
Her arm muscles hurt and her legs hurt and the rocks keep scraping against the little cuts on her hands. But she grits her teeth and keep going and she's at the top of the well.
Zoe reels the end of the rope back up and secures it to Mordred.
"I have to say I am not filled with optimism right now," but okay, let's try this, being very very careful and trying not to think about how they're going to have to wade through Nectar-poisoned seawater soon.
In spite of his trepidation, or perhaps because of it, Mordred gets down without incident.
Away from the well that grants access to the ruins, the ceiling is a mere five feet high and the walls are angled stone. The place quickly gets claustrophobic. The shadows seem to swallow up light. Only the occasional etching in the stone walls hints at the place’s ancient function. Mordred gets the sense Lev would be bouncing right now.
It’s weirdly cold in these ruins. Every step crunches and echoes on the uneven gravel.
Though chambers extend in virtually every direction, only the north allows passage of more than a dozen feet or so.
The hall of posts is a wide, low-ceilinged chamber made up of many columnar stones set irregularly into the floor and ceiling and held in place by dozens of wooden posts, standing floor-to-ceiling, some at odd angles, throughout the room. It is all but impossible to traverse the space without moving or removing posts, intentionally or accidentally.
The catacombs above have fallen down into the Neolithic ruins, linking the ancient ruins with the half-collapsed Christian catacombs above. That’s the way out.
The posts must have been put in place to keep the ceiling from collapsing.
Zoe does as well, her lips pressed into a line.
She thinks back to everything in the temple and tunnels so far, hoping something they saw might somehow be a clue, or a guide. Maybe the posts are arranged like the stars? Zoe doesn't know how she would tell. Or what path that would indicate, if they were.
Okay. What can they see. Looking for places the posts seem looser than usual, ceiling integrity if that's something they can tell, areas that could plausibly be wedged through, preferably near each other and in a direct path to the collapsed area but he doesn't have his hopes up.
(Mordred keeps freezing up when bad things happen and that's fine when the bad thing is that there's a mouth in front of him but it's really bad when the bad thing is falling rocks.
He's not going to think about that right now. Instead he is going to wish that they had taken the door. It would be so fucking stupid if they died due to roof collapse before they even got to the mouth.)
The room was once some kind of shrine or sanctuary, constructed of the same sturdy brown stones as the passage outside. The walls are adorned with flaking plaster painted with a stylized mural of the Knights of Malta battling the Ottoman fleet during the Great Siege.
The sunken floor is flooded knee deep in raw Nectar. A foul, frothy soup that overflows the room and goes flowing down towards the tunnel. Your feet squelch as you walk. It oozes around their thighs.
They’ve all seen a Major Mouth before, but nothing can prepare them for its appearance. It grows, like a living thing, out of the center of the arched ceiling, fleshy and unmistakably physical. It must be thirty feet wide. Its teeth are broken and yellow; its tongue flicks out like an enormous tentacle. It belches and spews Nectar forth.
Mixed in the smell of Nectar, they can smell something light and floral. Perfume?
He walks through the false wall and tries to take in a proper deep breath and instead chokes on it and then cannot, cannot, cannot stop choking, it feels like the entire world is that mouth and not even the fresh air brings any physical relief because his lungs are full of the smell of nectar, is this panic, he thinks he might be panicking--
He presses down hard enough on his throat to drown out some of the intense panic until suddenly it protests and he finds himself hyperventilating instead and -- nonononono he's supposed to be doing something he's supposed to be keeping things from happening, he rushes forward with intent to stop this and discovers that everything is a swirling kaleidoscope of danger--
The bullet connects and the Mouth snarls, a horrible alien sound; Nectar drips from its tongue like blood. It drops Montgomery, who keeps chanting without even losing a breath.
And it begins to hiss in the Tongue of Lies, at Oswald: Lacie is waiting for you. Lacie loves you. You have abandoned her.
He is already panicking and hyperventilating and not processing anything around him and it cuts through all that like a pounding in his head and he feels like he's suddenly drowning in an ocean of despair and then, shortly after, he collapses into the knee-deep pool of Nectar they're standing in and is slightly more literally --
He'll pull Oswald upwards so he doesn't literally drown in nectar and keep chanting and then move back within grabbing distance of Montgomery and keep chanting and--
(When this is over, when, not if, he's going to ask her what Portia was like, and how you pronounce the tongue of lies correctly, and she's going to have space and time and freedom, and Mordred's going to go home to Gale and say 'see we didn't need you to die, we did this without you dying, the war isn't over but on some scale we won,' and--)
Zoe snarls back at the Mouth. Right now it's just her and Mordred left standing. She wishes that every teammate they lost along the way were here, standing with them. But that disgusting fuck has taken away everyone and it's trying to take more.
Well, it can't have them. These are hers. She exhales, stares down her gun at the enormous tongue, and pulls the trigger.
An incongruously cheerful voice comes from the door.
"Hello hello hello! How wonderful it is to see all of you.
Miss Donovan, beautiful as always. Mordred, glad you're looking well, you weren't nearly so healthy last time I saw you. Zoe, wish I could say the same for you."
This is fine. This is fine. She's almost done with the chant. She just has to finish this last stanza and then the Mouth won't be bothering anyone anymore.
"Ia, Yog-Sothoth! Ia, Shub-Niggurath! Ia, Gol-Goroth! Ia, Cthulhu! Ia, Dagon! Ia, Azathoth!"
The spell concludes. She stops. She lifts her head, a vision of command. You can see her as the head of the Malta cult, the woman who could dominate the world.
And then her eyes widen.
"No."
"No... no... nonononono..."
She sinks to her knees.
The Mouth is still there.
--This, Mordred thinks, clearly to himself, is a bad idea. Not the worst idea Mordred has had since joining this team. Not even the worst one he's had since showing up in Malta. But bad.
"Peter. What do you want?" he says, as sincerely as is humanly possible under the circumstances.
(Oswald is blocking out whatever complicated social black magic Mordred and Lukas are doing. The last thing he knows definitely happened was -- walking out of the catacombs, and breathing in.
Did the ritual fail? What was their plan if the ritual failed. Did they have a plan for that.
--Yes. Sort of. The other way to close a Mouth is somebody sacrificing themselves.
He is not clear how to remind anyone else of this with Peter Lukas in the room. He is willing to throw himself bodily into a Mouth if he has to but he would very much like not to.)
"...so what I'm hearing is, you don't, you've just decided that you should."
Most people who actually like social interaction, Mordred thinks, don't talk like they swallowed a How To Succeed In Business textbook.
"When was the last time you did something that actually made you happy? Not something all men like, not something that's a noble human endeavor, something that you, Peter Lukas specifically, actually sincerely enjoy?"
(Zoe hasn't done the self-abnegation rituals. Mordred really struggled with them and seems to be heading his own conversion movement. That leaves Donovan and himself.
He could do it if he had to, he thinks. He hopes. And Donovan... is at this point, a pinnacle of not having goals, actually.
And she's suicidal.)
No, don't worry about it, Mordred has a plan here. A terrible plan, to be clear, thought of in about thirty seconds while a cultist was pointing a gun at him and the mouth slavered. But a plan.
"Killing me won't help. It won't make you happy and it won't make your life worthwhile and it won't make your grabs for power anything more than furiously running in place."
"The one we know works on Mouths. Well, smaller ones, but it seems to scale. Uh, we know you can calcify them. By denying yourself and not pursuing desires and serving others and -- uh, that general sort of thing. We practiced it some in Ethiopia. With smaller ones, you can do it with an object, if it's been -- purified -- by that sort of mindset and actions, or by willpower, sometimes. With the big ones it'd have to take -- something bigger. One of us sacrificing our own life to stop it."
Meanwhile--
"Is that really what you want?" he asks Lukas. "To be trapped in a job you hate, never enjoying anything, manipulating webs of people who all want nothing more than to kill you and take your place, acquiring power and power and never doing anything with it except grabbing at more power?"
"The Mouth," Mordred says, "is power. It's neutralized by its opposite-- self-abnegation. You close it by someone who has, for a very long time, chosen not to pursue their goals, or to engage with the things that bring them meaning, willingly making themselves a sacrifice.
I can't do it. I've spent my life doing things. But you can."
Okay that's fair. It's kind of a mystery why Peter Lukas cares about any of the things he cares about but also that's not the thing that Mordred should point out right now.
"So not for that reason. But do you care about impacting the world? About doing anything with your life other than running in circles?"
"We-- didn't discuss it, per se," Oswald says. "Zoe didn't spend a month practicing the techniques. Mordred did, but he's -- I don't know how to put it. He is not particularly good at putting down his goals. I... think I could, I know how, it's just... giving up all of yourself for somebody else, giving up your life for that, and you have to... do it yourself, for it to be self-sacrifice."
It feels very terrible to admit that he doesn't want to die. Or that he's hoping somebody else will do it for him. It's -- not just cowardly, it contradicts the very thing they're trying to aim for, it's close to the most selfish he's ever felt. He's just scared. "And that is a somewhat difficult decision to make on the fly."
--Though apparently SOMEONE was capable of it what the FUCK
Oswald has had fucking ENOUGH of MOUTHS and NECTAR FLOOR and BEING UNDERGROUND and he is going to get THE FUCK OUT OF HERE.
There is a more poignant approach to this about how he is claustrophobic and terrified of being trapped and trauma around the circumstances of the last mouth and he nearly DROWNED
Mordred stares at the Mouth.
It worked. His stupid, terrible, bullshit plan worked. They're going to go home. All of them. And Montgomery is going to have time, and space, and freedom to grieve, and--
And a man is dead who could have been free. He died having done something with his life for the first time, but he's dead. And he could have, instead, been free, if Mordred hadn't convinced him to die.
It takes him a few moments before he reaches up and touches his face and realizes oh, I'm crying.
Zoe sees Oswald bolting and Mordred crumbling and rushes over to Mordred and puts her arms around him. Then she steps back and pulls him by the arm after Oswald and says to Montgomery "Okay, time for us to go!"
Montgomery was the one who knew an escape route that was not the tunnels, right?
Presumably they put the plane somewhere sensible and easy to get to. That sounds like a plan they made. Oswald cannot comment on this because he is not going to stop moving until his ears stop screaming and he can breathe again but they definitely discussed it beforehand like reasonable people so this is fine.
While they were having a moment Oswald was walking. He is not going to stop until he has made it off the warehouse property, at which point he is going to take a deep breath of fresh, non-sewer, non-eldritch air. And then he is going to consider where they left the plane and if he can reasonably get there by walking.
"Sorry. You tell someone before they die that you'll let people know what they did, then you gotta follow through."
Zoe is SO tempted to say "cult shit" and not explain any of the stuff she barely understands to Frank but maybe he kinda deserves to know?? Given all the flying them around to dangerous shit all the time.
"It's... a long story. Can I tell you when we're in the air?"
Mordred kind of suspects that Frank doesn't actually want to know what's going on but he has run out of ability to persuade people of things. Also, Oswald really doesn't seem okay but not in a way Mordred thinks he can help with. So he's just kind of sitting, next to Lev, not dealing with his feelings.
When they are aloft, during the parts of piloting where Frank isn't busy, Zoe can do her best to catch him up on what mouths are and why they are sealing them and how it came to pass that the bad guy did the sealing. She is not the best at explaining but she will try. She knows what it is like to be the one who is confused all the time and just does the most straightforward thing in front of her.
"I love you," he tells Tereza hoarsely, still on the floor, arms awkwardly folded together, "I'm so glad you're here, I'm not very good at hugs right now but I love you so much."
He is going to sit next to Tereza and let her talk to him and answer her questions as best he can without veering into upsetting or emotional or trauma-laden territory.
After a while he remembers how to summon up a smile. Not a real one, but it's not for his sake.
Back in New York, Mordred writes to Inaaya.
He tells her that they're in New York for a few weeks where not much is happening but are bound for Bangkok next. He promises that there is an explanation for what happened with the Mouth (although he carefully doesn't promise a reasonable one), tells her he hopes to see her again, and then immediately gets down to the important business, which is book recommendations.
When he gets a letter back, he reads every book on it.
Oswald cannot read any eldritch tomes, but he can read some things, and he's tired of feeling useless and out of the loop. So he stays in reading Anemone's books and he goes out and tries to do independent research, copying down key names and locations and time periods and topics from Mordred's notes and trying to separate the grain from the chaff. There is... a lot of chaff. But he is getting a better sense of the concepts and motifs surrounding the esoteric periphery of what they're looking into, and just because most of the explanations are probably wrong doesn't mean that the subjects aren't significant.
A lot of his reading is going towards researching the occult, but he tries to take the opportunity to spend some time at the library without any objectives, trying to find that peaceful feeling again. It's hard to separate the two, though. It mostly ends up feeling like he can't take a break.
Every day or so, he sees a vision of a mouth. He can't tell whether they're hallucinations or real, or the former sometimes and the latter other times. They hiss words in the Tongue of Lies: Lacie, they say. Lacie loves you. Lacie is looking for you. Lacie wants you. Lacie is waiting for you. If you go back, you can be with her again. Sometimes Lev sees them too.
Another nice thing about the occult studies is that they're too far removed from what's really going on to remind him he's fighting his own sister.
He whispers into Lev's back that he misses her. He braids Tereza's hair and reminds himself that there are people here he is fighting for, that there is a person he is still trying to be. He remembers his own terror when he thought they might die under that warehouse and tells himself that taking Nectar is its own kind of death, which does not feel convincing, and that he does not want to live to see all the ways he can hurt his loved ones, which does, a little. He closes his eyes and covers his ears. Sometimes this doesn't block anything out; sometimes it does, and that's somehow worse. He thinks about talking to their resident cultist whisperer. He stalls.
Meanwhile--
Mordred is in the apartment he shares (shared?) with Agravaine, helping Agravaine cook. (Whether he shares it still or not is complicated. Things with Agravaine are, in general, complicated.)
He's given the broad strokes of what happened in Malta via letter already-- he wasn't going to not tell his brother he had died-- but they haven't gone into specifics, and he doesn't want to bring them up until Agravaine does.
"...Agravaine, I closed the mouth in Malta. I died, and then I did more to actually help people than I have in my entire life.
If the next person to try to murder me doesn't do it by drowning, then I guess I find out if there's more things I'm immune to. But I can't just-- not."
No. No, he hasn't. He can't say that.
"If you find someone who's willing to drop everything to save the world, can talk a cult leader into turning traitor to their god while in a flooded basement at gunpoint without losing their head, and doesn't have any siblings who will miss them, go ahead and let me know."
"It is completely fair to be concerned about that. And, also, she's exactly my type, and I really don't think that having a girlfriend is the most concerning thing that's happened to me in the last few months."
If he looks very hard at the cutting board then he won't have to try to figure out what Agravaine's face is doing.
That's not in fact what he meant, but, "I said Inaaya could pick up objects' histories by touching them? Before I drowned, she asked me whether I knew I wasn't human."
"And apparently the part of Scotland our family comes from is full of sea monster shapeshifters, that was fun to find out."
"And," he continues as if Agravaine hadn't said that, "I think it does make a difference that four people I cared about, myself included, were in a room with an evil god and a cultist with a gun, and the only way we had to kill the god was for someone to sacrifice themselves, and now the evil god is made of stone and all four of the people I care about are alive.
I got everyone out alive. It shouldn't have been possible to get everyone out alive and I did it anyway and, yes, I think that it matters that I'm not telling you it's okay because I should die, I'm telling you I am much better than anyone else would be at getting everyone out alive."
"I'd better stay home then. How would you two ever hold down the fort without me."
His smile is small but objectively dopey. Good thing his face is shoved against Lev's shoulder so he cannot see this.
There's a lot less they can get away with, with a lonely 8-year-old sharing their space. It's worth it. You can't be sad with a kid demanding your attention, you can't sink into a pit of despair, you are needed for something, and for once the thing that's needed from him is to be happy and present and supportive. He is willing to trade in a large number of the intense and hurried moments of passion for quiet nights together talking about books. (Sometimes Lev has facts to add to his occult research and sometimes he has opinions and many of those opinions are wrong. What a terrible and marvelous discovery.) And he keeps on crying on him at 3am over the same things he's spent the last half a year crying over. It still helps.
And in the middle of it all it turns out Lev is great with kids, or at least great with Tereza, which is in fact the most important quality anyone could ever have. So. So that's cool. (It's really great.)
All his latent self-awareness about his increasingly unhinged emotional state and how stopgaplike a month with Lev and Tereza might be was unfounded. Playing happy families is fantastic.
Five days later:
Gale rests his head on Mordred's shoulder. It's... unusual. A sign that this is not an ordinary afternoon together.
(Mordred is going to die, and Gale has faith in the resurrection of the body, but even so it is a very long journey far away where Gale will not get to see him for a long time.)
Has he really not explained yet? He should do that.
"I found the leader of the cult in Malta in a coffeeshop and I asked if she was okay, and she said no, and I convinced her to let me give her a hug while she cried on me, and I asked for her help casting a different spell that doesn't run on self-sacrifice, and she said yes. And-- it was going to work, I was so sure it was going to work, I wanted so badly to come back to you and tell you I found a way to do it without sacrificing anyone and nobody would need to die-- and then it didn't. Because it turns out the thing that spell was casting out isn't the thing the mouth is.
"And then the second in command of the cult in Malta showed up with a gun and threatened to kill us and-- I should tell you about Inaaya, I don't think I have yet-- but I asked him 'why do you want this, what are you doing this for, what are your goals, do you even have any,' and he couldn't answer. So I talked him into sacrificing himself to close the mouth, and that worked, when nothing else had.
"And now Montgomery gets to have a future and her daughter gets to have a future and I get to come home and see you and-- we made it out alive. Not everyone, but all the people I decided I was going to save. We're alive."
He catches the name out of the corner of his eye and thinks he's imagining it. He double checks anyways.
The knowledge that this might be a hallucination is the only thing that keeps his heart from pounding out of his chest. Nothing else will fit inside his head, no plans, no goals, no ideas for what he wants to say to her; just the two realities balanced in his head, the one where his sister is behind this door and the one where the Liar is laughing at him.
He hesitates on the threshold for a while before finding his resolve and going in.
"I'm happy that... you're happy?"
He wants to hold her tight and never let go and he doesn't want to go near her and he wants to never leave this room and he wants to take her home and feed her and never let her run off again and he wants to run for the hills right this instant. He wants Lev to be here telling him to make reasonable choices, except he has no idea if that's what Lev would be doing because the version is his head is much simpler than the real one and he can't think. "Please tell me you've been eating. If you left home and then immediately forgot how to take care of yourself, I swear..."
"Oh, of course. I guess even if they let members have it free you've gone and run back to New York."
He has a very rich patron, is the first thought he has, it wouldn't even take that much to keep her from starving, and the second thought is the stark reminder that his sister is an addict and it's never going to let her go and that's skirting dangerously close to the bottomless void in this conversation they've been dancing around.
He freezes when she grabs him, dead panic pooling in his veins, and then with considerable effort yanks his arm away.
"Lacie, don't. Please don't."
But no! Of course that's what she wants to do. They're on opposite sides now. The reminder hits him like a knife. Literally all he can do is listen and report back and not hand too much to the enemy, and try not to die inside about what's happening to his little sister.
"What is he telling you?"
"...Are you doing okay? Don't tell me about how you've been reborn in the glory of the Black Pharaoh or you're becoming one with the universe or ushering in a new age of madness, are you okay. What do you do all day? Are you sleeping? How's the shop? How's your health? About how much time are you spending on major projects for your dread god? Do you take breaks?"
He's got a sick feeling in his stomach. He can't identify it. His sister wasting away and people on Nectar and girls in hospitals and back when he first met Lev and he was withdrawing from so many things and Ayers, covered in stiff atrophied Mouths, and visions of a lying god, things she says she's seen and things he thinks he's seen.
"Lacie, are you sure nothing's happening?" I've been seeing things, he doesn't say. He suddenly doesn't want her to know that.
"You never said how you got from starting out to stuff like what you're talking about so quickly. Or how much time you've been spending with your god. Or how you plan on making a Mouth. ...Are we talking about a big one or a small one, actually, I've seen a lot of small ones, they show up a lot easier than the ones the size of a room, I think."
Oh god oh god oh god
He grabs her arms, tries to get her off of him, don't touch him don't touch him don't touch him--
He does not want to see what has its tongue against him (visions of Ayers covered in mouths) but he cannot help but look down, frantically searching for it like someone who's felt a bug run across their foot and can't calm down until they find it.