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Rachel, Matt, and Sadde in the City of Angles
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Orientation proceeds without further hiccups, or surprise family members, or attempted suicides. Sarah goes to the track for people with special needs, the same one Mr. Fong, the shopkeeper Jayden was supposed to have robbed, went to. Hollister doesn't return to the regular lessons of Orientation, opting to continue his extra-curricular curriculum instead.

Three days later they are done with it and ready to face the City. Matt gets his new address and instructions to report for work on Monday, and on his way he goes. Rachel...

"So, uh... I found a place that would take you, but... I'll be honest here, it's kind of a dead-end job, you won't be seeing any promotions or raises or anything. It's where the parents without any choices send their kids. Soooo... you could take that, if you want, but my advice? Go work with something else, unrelated to teaching, and go study some more—people don't like going to public libraries but they're safe—really—and then you can go to a university so you can grow into your career."

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"… What's up with public libraries?"

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"Nothing! But people are afraid of, you know, leaving their houses, so."

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"… So they're only dangerous insofar as you're going out into the city?"

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"Yeah. People prefer getting their books home, or anything else, really. Delivery's pretty big here, compared to Earth."

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"Could be pretty tough for the delivery drivers, if there's risk going around places."

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"Risk's really not as high as people think it is."

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"… Is it on the order of a car crash?"

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"Yeah! Yeah, like that."

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"Well it's something I'd rather not be a risk, but that's not possible, and it's not that high."

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"Yeah, but whenever it happens the media blows it up. So."

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"Library is probably safe enough then."

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"Yeah. Couple other jobs I got you could be interested in, though."

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"Like what?"

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"I got one job as a cab driver, one as secretary, and one as customer service. Cab driver pays the most."

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"What sort of hours is it?"

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"I suppose it depends? It's pretty variable, depends on what people need and stuff, but like between eight and twelve hours per day probably."

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"Do you have, like, minimum wage here? Is it similar to back in the States, does this pay much above that…?"

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"We do, and cabs are way above minimum wage. You, ah, need to either be very good or very crazy to drive in the City, is the going theory."

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"… I can definitely drive? I passed first time, my instructor was happy with my progress? I'm not sure I'm 'very good' at it, though – depends on your criteria?"

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"'Able to deal with the City's insanity' is the criterion, really. There's a reason it pays well."

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"I am not used to the City's insanity? But I dunno, seems like people might on average be pretty panicky here."

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"Yeah, exactly! ...it would be a good idea to renew your license though."

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"Different DMV thing here?"

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"Yeah."

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Nod. "Rachel, cab driver in the impossible city."

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He grins. "Anyway, the receptionist has your documents and stuff, so if you want that one just tell her."

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"Where would the secretarial job be? Same for customer service?"

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"You'd work from home for both."

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"What company or companies? Is it shady, do I not want to go work there because they have a horrible reputation for employee treatment or something…?"

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"What? No, I wouldn't get a job like that for you! The secretarial job is for some manager at a marketing company, customer service you'd be dealing with customers calling you about their computers for a local electronics company."

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"Oh, huh." Pause. "If in a week's time I decide I don't like whatever I pick, do you think I can swap, or…?"

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"Uh, maybe. You'd have to talk to your employer about it."

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Nod. "I think the cab driver job could be good to – get me a look around the city? And this is probably only temporary anyway, so getting more money is better…"

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"That's the spirit!"

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"Thanks."

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So Hollister leaves her to check out of the motel.

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She does that, and after a small amount of dithering, does in fact pick the job as a cabbie.

It's probably going to be quite a learning curve.

Is Sadde around, for her to get their contact details? Just, you know, in case.

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Yeah! Contact deets!

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Then Rachel fetches her few items from her room, gets her new address, and to her new place she goes.

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They ironically call her a cab.

That motel was shabby. Her building is... whatever shabby becomes after fifteen years and a punch in the gut. The building has fifteen stories, but the elevator has thirty buttons, and the landlord explains only the odd ones take to real floors—except for the twenty-third, which doesn't actually exist.

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Okay, well, at least she has accommodation, she supposes?

She thanks the landlord and makes her way to her room.

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Her apartment is small, containing only one bedroom and a kitchen area rather than a proper kitchen, and largely unfurnished: a couple of chairs, no sofa, nothing electronic, a desk in her bedroom and the plainest of double beds, a small wardrobe, a mostly empty bathroom.

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At least she has her phone! She'll just have to go shopping with the small funds that she has and then with her paycheck after her first… week, or month, or something of work.

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On Monday, she has to show up at the local DMV.

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She does so! She even has her old license in case they want to see that for some reason, and she is ready to… take a test or whatever.

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Actually she will need to take some driving lessons.

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… Right, okay.

She still remembers a lot of the trival things called 'important' from when she learnt on Earth? How to check tire pressure, oil, coolant, that sort of thing? And she remembers the road laws – she does in fact know how to drive legally – assuming they're similar-ish…

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Similar-ish, yes, but can she take a 130-degree turn?

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Is… does she… why? She, uh, not instantaneously if it's an emergency thing? Or if, just, you know, like a skew T-junction, with a bit of practice… probably?

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Good then she will be having this practice, this isn't Earth where roads make sense.

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Uh-huh.

Okay, well, she'll get fun practice. Whee.

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She will! Also since she's gonna work with this she'll need to go through commercial driving lessons.

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Yep. Okay, uh, do they have any idea how long this is going to take…?

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Well, given that she used to drive on Earth, couple weeks at most.

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Great.

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And so about ten days later she has a shiny new driver's license.

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She also has some stuff for her apartment! A few small things. And she passed her driving test, so, woo.

She might have a small party but, like, no friends, and no money with which to do it, and her lodgings are not the nicest, so, yep, no party.

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Her weird Sideways-y feelings don't follow her anywhere, anymore, but she starts getting some nuance from other feelings—ones she either didn't have or never realized she had before. They follow her whenever she talks to anyone, and give her some intuition for what they're like and what they want. They follow her into unfamiliar situations, and they're like alarm bells of various flavors telling her to pay attention to this or that.

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… She's not bad with people, but she's not really used to guessing this much about them.

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And then it's her first day of work.

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She arrives bright and early, or, y'know, whatever – depends on the weather for how bright it is.

She is however feeling prepared for her first day! (She thinks.)

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Here's her car and the taxi app, does she have a map app? Here, have three. Go forth and drive.

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Sure!

She spends a few minutes getting acquainted with the map apps – redundancy is probably useful, and she doesn't want to be learning how the app works when she actually needs to use it – and then looks at the taxi app!

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They recommend she also just drive around, some people won't use the app.

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She will do that too! There are probably standard locations people wait for taxis as well as, like, people just hailing taxis…

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Indeed! But she'll probably have to figure those out on her own.

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Are there any bus loops? Typically taxis can be found near bus loops.

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There indeed are!

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And any people looking for taxis if she drives into it…? Or clear taxi stops, sometimes those are present.

She feels like she really should have had a better information pack than this but whatever.

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See, the problem with an information pack is that the City is not constant enough for it to be worth it. Downtown's more stable but even there a new zig can be added to the Zag whenever.

Here is, however, someone who needs a taxi.

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She pulls up and lets them in!

"Hello."

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It's a harried-looking woman. "Yes, hello, good morning." Got up late, most like. Harried, has places to do and things to be, but is doing good work. More worried than strictly needs to be. "Can you go to this address, please?" And she shows Rachel a piece of paper with said address.

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"Sure!"

Map app?

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Map app! Lots of zigzagging.

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Thrilling!

She pays careful attention to the road and the directions both.

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Antsy. Nervous. Excited. Something good coming, but could be bad. Depends on her. She's thrilled.

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Rachel continues to try to pay attention to the road, rather than pondering the reasons behind the woman's nerves.

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The woman's nerves continue singing behind her in these alarm bells Rachel is learning to interpret, and eventually they reach her destination: a tall building with lots of windows, very pretty and very incongruous with its surroundings. Businesspeople walking here and there, looking busy and important.

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Rachel quotes the fare.

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The harried woman pays and leaves the car, her cloud of anxiety and excitement trailing after her.

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Back to looking around for people who might hail a cab! (Like the people in the area, she'll wait a minute and see if anyone approaches.)

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Here's this busy-looking businessman. He is probably very busy.

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Wonderful! "Where to?"

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He gives her an address and starts reading a document while he puts a seatbelt on.

Why today, why now, it could've waited, could've been later. But alright, he'll deal. He always does. It's why he was hired. Why is she taking so long?

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Rachel was just waiting for the map to load and for him to belt up, is all.

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The path is fairly short and straightforward.

For the City. Which just means there are no curves at angles greater than ninety degrees.

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Aww. How nice of the City.

She takes the curves rather neatly, especially after the training on worse ones.

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Not bad not bad here's their destination here's your money yes thank you bye bye.

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– Next person?

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Next person is a ping on her taxi app!

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Ooh, fancy! Rachel tries to get directions to them.

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The taxi app is helpfully hooked to the mapping app and gives her directions!

...it is rather close to the edge of the City.

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How close? She doesn't recall being given regulations on what sort of zone she should cover…

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That's because she wasn't! And it's pretty close, yep.

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… Okay well Rachel is probably going to, like, see if she can quickly get some information about 'how close to the edge is how bad' and if that close is more than like, just a little bit worse than the rest of the city, she will consider the process for maybe ignoring it!

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She'll find a lot of very alarmist websites and news decrying the state of disrepair of buildings there, and how people turn cubist all the time, and there are buildings that are missing floors—Rachel's building is not actually much farther from the edge than this person.

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Sure, then, Rachel will come pick the person up. Since. She lives near the edge anyway so like okay this is awful but comparatively not that bad.

Ish.

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It's a teenager. "Zag," she says, and gives Rachel an address.

Craphole. I live in a craphole. Moment in the sun, just a moment, then back to the craphole.

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Rachel puts the address into her map app, makes sure the teenager has her seatbelt on and then starts driving.

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Oh, good, getting out. Much better out here. One day. I'll live here one day.

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The Zag is a much nicer bit of the City! Rachel is quite happy to be moving away from the edge!

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She is not bouncing on the seat but she totally could be.

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Rachel hopes it's happiness?

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Yeah it is. Bounce bounce.

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That's nice!

Rachel is mostly focusing on the road, though.

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This does not really dampen the emotions she's getting from the girl.

Eventually they arrive, and she pays and bounces away.

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Next up…?

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App!

The woman she picks up has her small children with her and is taking them to see their grandmother. She's chattering happily about them and about her while they doze against her arms.

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Aww. Rachel likes kids. She chats happily back.

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Her map says she should take that street.

She should not take that street.

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She doesn't take that street.

Then she frowns and looks at her map app, hoping it reroutes fine.

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It does.

The woman stops talking and frowns. "Why did you detour?"

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"That's not a good street," responds Rachel, quite naturally.

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"It's not? Why?"

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Rachel frowns a little. "I thought I saw something." Pause. "Sorry about that, shouldn't be much further this way."

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The woman frowns and goes quiet.

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Then they arrive, and Rachel quotes a price lower than the one for the route she took.

That's only fair.

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Well she won't complain, then. Off she goes!

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Now to look for another customer!

… And maybe drive past that street again sometime.

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It sure is a street!

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Nothing horrifying lying down it?

Okay. She'll just ignore the weird street then.

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Nothing that she can see, except for the feeling of dread she gets there.

She has a few more passengers before lunchtime, with various ringing bells and weird feelings.

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Hopefully none of them are a really bad kind of feeling?

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Nope, they're person feelings and place feelings.

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She is glad they are not bad feelings.

And then she takes her lunch break. Fortunately, she brought lunch with her today.

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The rest of the day proceeds much as the morning did. She doesn't have a time when she needs to stop working; she gets a rate proportional to how much she drives, and if she wants she can do it long into the night, as long as she returns the company car when she's done.

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She does not think she will do it long into the night! She thinks she will stop after a reasonable amount of time – oh, at around dinner time, let's say – and then go grab some food and go back to her apartment.

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At night, she receives an email.

Hey! How're you doing? Settling in? How's the new job treatin' ya?

- The Avenue

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I'm fine, thanks! Had my first day today – it went fine. Apartment's okay, too.

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Cool! Anything you need?

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Know any meetup spots, things like that? I haven't actually met many people since moving in, not sure what sorts of clubs there are around.

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There aren't many in meatspace, because of the whole "people don't go out much" thing. Everything's online. And by the way, you might want to install, and he gives the name of an unfamiliar messaging app. Better than emails.

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… So she does that!

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<TheAvenue> Hello, there!

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<RStephens> Hey!

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<TheAvenue> Anyway, it's mostly online, yeah.

<TheAvenue> Lots of people videochat, and the most prestigious schools are also online.

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<RStephens> I guess I will look into online courses, when I get around to that, then! Any other social media things you know of…?

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He dumps a bunch on her.

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So she goes to explore a couple of them and thanks him!

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The following morning her car is waiting bright and early for her.

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So she goes looking for a customer!

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Her first customer of the day is yet another busy-looking businessman.

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Isn't that surprising.

He presumably does not seem up for a chat?

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He is not up for a chat. He piles into the back seat, briefcase in both hands. The bluetooth in his ear yammers away while he yammers into it. He does not put his seatbelt on.

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She waits patiently.

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Soon the case in his lap is open, and files are coming out, the seat being used as an impromptu office desk. "I don't care what Resources says, our copyright should still hold. We're a legal extension of..." A glance up at Rachel, through the Plexiglas. "Synergy building, Hammerhead Block. ...yes, that's my point, they can't annex it because we've got the rights to the original works. I don't care what they think they're entitled to..."

He still has not put his seatbelt on.

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"Seatbelt," mouths Rachel, pointing to her own. "Please."

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"Just goddamn go," he says, annoyed. "What? No, not you, I'm in a cab. Look, the account is registered and fully legal, so there's no reason..."

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… Nah, she's not really happy being spoken to that way, so she's gonna wait for him to put his seatbelt on or go.

She points at her seatbelt again.

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He looks at her annoyedly, but rather than pick everything up and find another cab he puts his seatbelt on. "Now go."

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She does! The map app is quite convenient.

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—feeling of dread—

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She slows the car.

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The street is somewhat busy and the cars behind them start honking and trying to overtake her.

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… She is not speeding up until she can work out what's wrong.

She checks her mirrors.

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There seems to be nothing wrong.

"Hey, lady," her passenger says, knocking on the Plexiglass. "Some of us need to arrive on time, it's a straight road, just go."

Except she should turn left right the fuck now.

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Left.

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She wakes up to chaos: a several-car pileup due to what appears to be an entirely new building that decided to insert itself in the path she was going. The previously straight street neatly routes around it now, but most cars did not have enough advance warning to avoid crashing, and the ones that did were the ones farther behind, who could see what was happening. Her passenger's unconscious but seems otherwise unharmed—still breathing—except his folders and documents are all over the place.

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It takes a moment, but then she makes a pained noise.

Another few moments and she's looking around for her phone. Carefully. Very carefully.

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There are already sirens, not too far away.

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It was a rather large crash, and her ears are ringing.

Except it's not her ears. The undefinable alarm bells she's been hearing ever since she arrived in the City are a cacophony of not-sounds, not giving her even the limited information she's been learning to glean. They merely ring.

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She doesn't – she needs to get her phone. Where is it. Phone.

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Probably fell from the dashboard somewhere.

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She looks around her seat, notices the seatbelt still restricting her and takes it off, then feels around on the ground below her seat.

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There it is.

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Okay, so, first aid app – what does she do to ensure she's probably safe to move around, is there any clear thing she needs to do, are her ears still ringing—

"Hey, dude?"

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No response.

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"Dude?" she repeats, louder this time.

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Down and out.

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– Can she see anything out her window? Or passenger window, since she isn't looking for pulverized car and-or person, she's looking for what's happening around her.

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The ambulances arriving, and the pileup, and the blood pooling on the concrete.

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She might be able to spot a familiar face rushing out of one of the ambulances.

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– Well at least she doesn't have to call 911.

She shakes her head a bit, trying to clear the ringing, and then considers getting out of the vehicle.

… Probably not a good idea? She doesn't want to be the idiot who's injured and walking around at the scene of the accident.

Probably.

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Probably a good idea. The accident continues having happened around her.

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People seem busy.


A fire truck arrives.

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Several cars crashed head-on against the new wall, and the building that was imported and caused all of this also contains: people!

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Rachel stops looking out the window, and instead tries to focus on her breathing.

After a few moments of this, she starts checking herself over for injuries.

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Bruises—pretty much everywhere. She might have a cracked rib and/or collarbone, it's not totally clear.

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… She tries to focus on her breathing again, this time doing it more carefully.

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A paramedic eventually goes to her car. "Ma'am? Sir? Are you awake?"

The passenger still doesn't reply.

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"I am," she responds. "Passenger is not." Pause. "Couldn't wake him."

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"Okay. Please don't move, ma'am," he says, and then opens the door to try to remove the passenger from his seat.

He wakes up suddenly. "What happened? Where am I?"

"You were involved in an accident, sir. Please remain calm."

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She tries to stay still and calm.

Looks out the window, once, briefly. In case the scene has changed.

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It has not.

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Quietly sitting in the driver's seat, then, not staring out the window.

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The paramedic tends to the passenger, and eventually comes back for her.

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She tries to point out where she's feeling the most pain. Carefully.

Tries not to panic too much.

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The paramedic gently touches some parts and asks some questions and declares her to probably not be severely injured, but she'll be taken to the hospital for observation anyway.

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She tries to put on a brave face for the paramedic – wound hurts but she's probably the least hurt of the lot – and then nods and follows their directions.

Can she see Matt? She doesn't really want to interrupt his work, but – this reminds her she should probably try getting in contact with him, sometime.

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He doesn't seem visible right now, but he could be any of the various responders on-scene.

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The paramedic puts her on a stretcher and then into the ambulance she goes.

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She feels slightly ridiculous, going on a gurney thing like this. But oh well.

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Unfortunately no one cares.

She's soon taken to the hospital.

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Where she presumably gets poked some more.

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Yes, and there she discovers she has a cracked rib but no more, and she's declared alright and sent back home with bandages and instructions to rest.

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… Second day of the job, too.

She calls up the agency and explains she was in the – uh, arrival crash? Or something? She isn't sure if there's a name for this sort of thing.

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Yes, yes, they are aware of this, it was all over the news and the City can't stop talking about it, she has some days off to recover.

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Thanks.

So she stops off at a supermarket on the way home, grabs a few snacks, and goes back to her place.


Looking at the outside of the building, it seems just as dilapidated and run-down as it has the past few times she's looked at it. Somehow it's also more frightening.

A couple of hours later, she looks for Matt on the first app Hollister sent her.

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He seems to be there!

… Looks like he might be posing for the camera. One mutual friend: Hollister Avenue.

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She sends him a contact request and then messages Hollister:

<RStephens> Seen the news today?

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<TheAvenue> Yeah, everyone has. Why?

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<RStephens> I was there. I'm fine, though, fortunately.

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<TheAvenue> Oh! ...wait were you the cab driver who managed to miraculously predict the crash?

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<RStephens> 'Miraculously predict' is overstating it.

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<TheAvenue> The ten or so cars behind you disagree.

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<RStephens> Oh.

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<TheAvenue> How'd you do it?

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<RStephens> I didn't think I did.

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<TheAvenue> How'd you know to turn left?

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<RStephens> I just did?

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<TheAvenue> Okay but how?

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<RStephens> I just guessed. I dunno.

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<TheAvenue> Well, I'm glad you're okay anyway.

<TheAvenue> You're not gonna go back to work tomorrow, right?

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<RStephens> Bruised ribs.

<RStephens> So no.

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<TheAvenue> Okay.

<TheAvenue> Take care of yourself, you hear?

<TheAvenue> And if you need anything call me.

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<RStephens> Will do. And thanks.

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<TheAvenue> No prob.

<TheAvenue> It's what I'm here for.

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So she sets up watching a movie.

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About an hour later, it looks like Matt accepted her friend request!

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She messages him to ask how he's doing.

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<HuZ93> Busy day

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<RStephens> You were on-scene, right?

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<HuZ93> Yeah?

<HuZ93> It was busy

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<RStephens> Yeah. I was in a taxi.

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<HuZ93> In it? You okay?

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<RStephens> Yeah, just missed it. Bruised, but that's it.

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<HuZ93> The cab that swerved?

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<RStephens> Fortunately.

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<HuZ93> Who was driving?

<HuZ93> It's in the news

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<RStephens> I was driving – lucky to turn.

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<HuZ93> Oh

<HuZ93> Yeah

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<RStephens> Anyway, see you later – got some stuff.

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<HuZ93> See ya.

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So she gets back to her movie.

 

About twenty minutes before it ends, she decides to stop watching it and turn in for bed early.

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She has a couple of days off before she's notified that the passenger that was in the car with her at the accident is suing the company.

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… Why?

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Careless driver.

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… She was careful enough not to drive right into the building.

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Yes but see he got hurt.

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She hopes he realizes he's being kinda ridiculous, soon.

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Well... uh... so about that...

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… Yes?

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Well it turns out she's kinda fired.

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… Right.

Okay.

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Yes so very sorry for that good working with you bye now.

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She messages Hollister to let him know about this. In case he has anything he can do about it.

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After a pause—which could be interpreted as him swearing a lot for a long time, who knows—he sends:

<TheAvenue> I'll find you something.

<TheAvenue> But it's just typical, discounting on the rookie.

<TheAvenue> You saved that guy's life, he'd be pie without you.

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<RStephens> Makes sense, from a business standpoint. I guess.

<RStephens> But thanks.

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<TheAvenue> Yeah, don't worry.

<TheAvenue> They still have to pay you some for injuries while working.

<TheAvenue> And they definitely can't claim you were responsible for that accident, they'll pay up.

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<RStephens> That's good, at least.

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<TheAvenue> Yeah.

<TheAvenue> Sorry about that.

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<RStephens> Not your fault.

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<TheAvenue> Yeah, I know, but still.

<TheAvenue> I'll find you something.

<TheAvenue> Anyway, I gotta go, duty calls.

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<RStephens> Have a nice day.

She starts looking things up on the internet – presumably there are job sites and things, could be a good idea for her to look herself.

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There indeed are some! Most jobs don't require you to leave your house, and the ones that do pay correspondingly better. There are also the suggestions Hollister gave her when she left Orientation.

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… She'll look into the secretary job?

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Here's an ad for it. The interview can be done via video or in person, although the former is preferred.

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She doesn't really have anything prepared. Or know what to say.

She looks around a bit more to see what sorts of skills they might want. If she's a secretary does she need to be on-site, will they just be doing video-calls to interact with her, what?

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Just video-calls, she will need to pick up the phone and be polite and organized and know some math and spreadsheets—they don't have Microsoft Excel here but something similar that can read those file formats—and that kinda stuff.

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That doesn't sound too hard to deal with…

She looks the company up online a bit, tries to get a picture of their reputation.

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It's a publicity company, not the biggest but going okay, has been growing a lot these past couple of years, nothing obviously unobjectionable about it, tends to focus on food and medicine ads.

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Medicine ads like for drugs?

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Yep.

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Well, she's not super thrilled about ads for drugs on, like, TV, but she doesn't have particularly strong qualms against working for such a company and it's not even clear that's the type of publicity they mean…

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It's mostly website ads. Is she going to apply?

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… She is, yes.

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Good. She has an interview in three days.

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Oh, wonderful! (Ish. Probably.)

She does not really have much money, though, so in the meantime she will be rationing herself.

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The following day she gets a message.

<GenderBender> Yo.

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<RStephens> What's up?

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<GenderBender> Hollister set me up as a sort of aide at D.o.R.

<GenderBender> How're you doing?

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<RStephens> Got caught in the accident, actually!

<RStephens> And I was driving this guy – taxi cab – and he seems to be a bit of a dick.

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<GenderBender> Seriously?

<GenderBender> Are you alright?

<GenderBender> And why a dick?

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<RStephens> I'm fine, yeah, mostly. And he is suing the company so I am out of a job.

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<GenderBender> Wow what a jerk.

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<RStephens> Little bit.

<RStephens> Anyway – how's DoR?

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<GenderBender> Boring as all heck.

<GenderBender> But I get to meet people, which is fun.

<GenderBender> And Hollister's taking me with him when he goes meet n' greet.

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<RStephens> Sounds sort of good, at least?

<RStephens> I'm looking at the other jobs he suggested.

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<GenderBender> Good luck with that.

<GenderBender> I'm sorry about the dickish passenger.

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<RStephens> Thanks.

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<GenderBender> Anyway, I should get back to work now.

<GenderBender> Talk to you later.

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<RStephens> See ya.

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The dark man laughs as the hordes of psyches march towards the festering smile of the nightmare child. What’s wrong, he taunts? Everything falling apart, nothing making sense? But isn’t that for the best? He embraces the thing which shreds and gnaws at the edges of your mind because it pours the vile venom of horrific power into the ego which inflates it to sizes that are not recommended by your pediatrician, and eventually the nightmare and the dream become one and the same and fearlessness is identical to ferocity.

The azure youth watches impassively as the thousands fall in slow motion, tumbling down the sides of buildings and the edges of chasms and through the cracks of society, bouncing off the walls and leaving bloody smears as they plummet in the infinite abyss of nothingness. What’s wrong, she asks? Hopeless and bleak in the face of knowing you are nothing? But isn’t that for the best? She embraces the nonexistence of the oblivion state because it snuffs out the candle flame that burns and induces pain and passion and encourages you to endure, time out, retreat, it’s better to surrender than to lose.

And then there was the third option.

And then there was the third child.

Her herald has designed the hardest road of all, paved with the blood of suffering and trauma, flesh burned bright in ovens of existence before being hammered flat into ceramic red bricks of hemoglobin, the living testament of the ones who live, who with shining lucidity reach out and seize life with both hands, despite the horror, despite the sorrow, despite the weirdness you want to avoid because unfortunately the weirdness is everywhere and there is no avoiding it, no escape, no retreat, the only way out is through, to turn yourself into something new, to turn left, to answer the door because your guest has been knocking for a good three minutes now and you’re being a rude little thing.


She's awoken by a knock.

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Tilting upright out of the dream, she looks around, confused, then recalls the words of the dream, the sounds accompanying the words, and – moves sideways, gets up out of bed, then glances around for her clothes and gets changed.

A brief moment later, she opens the door.

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The first thing she notices is the very, very large man in a suit standing there and occupying her whole field of view. And her whole doorframe.

The second thing she notices is the very, very small old lady standing in front of him and grinning up at her, wearing a ridiculously vintage looking dress, with wrinkled skin and a hair bun. Like someone's grandmother from a salvaged 50s celluloid comedy.

"Hello, dearie," she rasps. "I've come to offer you a job."

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"– Uh, hello," says Rachel. "Sorry, who are you from?"

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She barges in, uninvited, as if it's the most normal thing in the world, and even has a look around. "I'm from the Happy Acre Orphanage. My name's Grandma Scarlett—with two T's, like the actress or the character," she notes, then turns around to look at Rachel again. "It has mythic resonance. Mmm. A bit of a sham, I suppose. But if this world is a sham, does that make it any less real? Who's to say what's real and what isn't? The answer, of course, is us. No other answer makes sense."

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Rachel blinks, then stands aside in case Mr Mountain wants to come in too.

"… Is this a religion?"

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He does in fact come in, and carefully closes the door, but then... well, looms, is probably the best word for it. Except... oddly softly, as if he's trying to make himself as small as he can and that just happens to not be quite enough.

"Religion? Nonsense, dearie, it's an orphanage." She eases herself into one of the chairs at the kitchen table and gestures for Rachel to do the same. "Don't mind Jeb, missy, he's just not one for talk," she adds. "And he's a big softie, really—though he worries about my safety whenever I need to leave the farm. I visit the city so rarely these days, it's a treat for both of us, really. My word, how this place changes each time I visit! Oh, I don't just mean the buildings, but the people. So many new faces..."

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… Rachel sits in the indicated chair.

"I'm not sure what a job at an orphanage would actually entail."

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"Mm. Well. I have side businesses too, you could say. A delivery business. The business of deliverance. Which is why I'm here today. You are a delivery girl, yes? You deliver people?"

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"… I was briefly a cab driver? For two days, so, no, not really."

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She shakes her head. "Really, it doesn't matter to me; I know in my heart you're the right woman for the job. But I think I've led you to the wrong conclusion. You wouldn't be delivering people, dearie! I have packages that need delivery... care packages, of a sort, handcrafted at my home sweet home..."

Reaching into her purse, the woman withdraws an iPad. After some fumbling, not particularly good with the touchscreen interface, she calls up a map.

"My orphanage is here, in the Outlands," she explains, pointing with shaking finger to a random spot on a random highway through the highly random rural landscapes beyond the city. "A bit far away, I know, but it's home. You would be making deliveries from my home using a box truck, traveling to various places in the Outlands, in the Suburbs, and even in the City itself. Quite a few stops, quite a distance. An ongoing task as well, week by week, plenty of deliveries to make in the months ahead. I'm afraid it’s a long haul, in and around and through... but the pay is above standard for the trucking industry, I'm told. Are you keen?"

Keen keen keen good job good vibes good girl good guy say yes say no what will you say indecision... The bells sing in her head, suddenly much louder than the background buzz she's been getting used to.

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"– I think I'm legally obligated to tell you about an accident I was involved in. A few days ago, the major one with that new building."

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The woman clicks her tongue, in sympathetic disappointment. "Well, that's the City for you. So dangerous. But no matter, I'm sure this is meant for you and you are meant for this. What do you say?"

Danger, the bells chime. Destiny and the road, a fork to face, down which road will she go?

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"… That the guy who was in the taxi is also suing the company I was at, and I was fired for that reason?"

She tries not to panic too visibly.

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"The past is the past, don't let it stop you from embracing the future!" she insists. "I won't insist if you really don't think you should do it, but I think you should."

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"I – how did you even find me?"

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"Oh, we have a friend in common," she says, smiling.

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"… Hollister?"

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She shrugs. "A charming young man, isn't he?"

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"I guess, yeah? I didn't get a chance to know him too well." Pause. "I'm not really sure about the job."

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"Oh? Is there anything I can do to assuage any doubts?"

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"… Tell me you don't plan on firing me after I fall victim to mysteriously appearing buildings?"

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She clicks her tongue. "You shan't worry about that, dearie, I wouldn't be so unreasonable."

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"What sorts of – things – would I be delivering?"

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"Jeb, if you please...?"

Now the wall of meat moves from the doorway. But not before fetching a cardboard box, which had been set just out of sight for the big reveal. Despite saying PAPER TOWELS 6 UNITS on the side, odds were low it held paper towels. Repurposing things is common enough in the City, after all, including containers. Jeb opens the box, then holds it out for Grandma Scarlett. She carefully reaches in, and withdraws...

Well, that makes sensible sense, at least.

"These teddy bears are hand-sewn by me, with love and care," she explains, setting the adorable flopsy stuffed doll on Rachel's kitchen table. "I produce one batch every week. It's been a hobby of mine for over a decade now. Mmm. Not a hobby. More of a calling, I suppose. Sometimes the children help me—not a sweatshop, mind you, but they have a vested interest in this project as well. Once the dolls are complete and... prepared, I ship them out to where they need to be. That's where you'll come in. One run a week, a day or three to complete each run. Lengthy hours but in the end, it's worth it."

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"Oh."

Aww.

"That's – uh, I think I can probably do that?"

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it is done, the bells chime—actually, speak, in her ear. It's... a much more literal sound than it was, before.

She beams. "I knew I'd made the right choice," she says with another click of her tongue. "Jeb will transfer the relevant maps to you today. I'm not much with computers, afraid. I have a charming little rented cargo truck you'll be using, which is currently in storage here in the city; I'll give you the keys, you can drive it out to the orphanage as soon as you're ready to fetch your first week's deliveries."

Carefully, the old woman rises from the kitchen chair—Rachel will be able to hear bones creaking and hopefully not cracking. She extends a brittle hand to shake.

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Rachel reciprocates, carefully, and tries not to look too alarmed.

"– Thanks."

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Grandma Scarlett smiles, with a twinkle in her eye, and she and Jeb leave, as the wind whispers sealed contracts cannot be broken...

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Rachel shudders a bit at that. Hearing voices… was something she really hoped she'd never experience, not if they're not there.

She waits a few moments to see if anything else is said, and when she hears nothing, goes to her window. Maybe something else would prompt it.

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it's a beautiful day out, the bells chime. shame about the rain, though.

There is no rain.

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… She looks around, in case she's just missing it, and then blinks and shakes her head.

Maybe she'd better have something to drink.

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better relieve the thirst before it relieves you.

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… She is not sure she actually wants to have a drink anymore.

She grabs some water anyway and walks back to the window.

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traffic goes on and on and never back.

       except when it does get back.

that never happens.

       sometimes it does.

well, granted.

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She shudders, briefly, and then, tentatively: "Hello?"

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she talks to herself in vain hopes of ethereal companionship.

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"… Probably accurate although slightly harsh."

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The bells decline to comment.

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"It would be nice if this were a magical power. Stress to the point I 'hear voices' synesthetically: not a thing I want, thanks."

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you've got mail.

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She jumps a little, then – looks over at her door?

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she is unused to living in an apartment building falling apart in the middle of nowhere.

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– Yes, yes she is, weird creepy bells that make far too much sense.

She grabs her keys and puts on her shoes and goes down to the mailroom.

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There is in fact a letter for her in the box.

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She takes it, frowning a little, and opens it.

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It's from the taxi company, just a note of disconnection.

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Oh well.

She goes back to her place and leaves it on the table.

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She hears thunder in the distance.

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She goes to look out the window.

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Those are indeed some rain clouds!

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She shuts the curtain and goes to sit on her bed and just take a few minutes to breathe.

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it's overwhelming to be right.

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She picks up her phone and tries to find some sort of information on the orphanage online.

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It has a simple website that has no links, only a picture of what clearly used to be a farm, a large number of incredibly happy children, a younger version of Grandma Scarlett and Jeb, and a short blurb. There aren't many other references and they're mostly about this or that person having been adopted from there.

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Well, that's… sort of nonthreatening, she hopes.

 


She passes the time until she gets some information about the job.

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it's time to understand more things.

And her phone vibrates at the same time as she hears this. In fact, the sound seems to come from it.

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She doesn't shiver this time. Quite.

She does, however, grab her phone, pausing the TV show she's watching as she does so.

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An email from Jeb! It has maps!

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Maps. Okay.

She has a brief look where they cover – just, areas outside the city proper, presumably.

… Probably quite far outside the city.

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Indeed, very far. The box truck itself is in the city, but the orphanage is a few hours away.

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Well, she knew what she signed up for. And she does need a job.

She puts her phone away and unpauses the TV show.

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Two days later, before she leaves for work, she hears bells coming from... a corner of her room.

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… Can she get any more information from them? Does the corner look – broken or anything, wrong?

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Nope, it's actually just the corner where she left the teddy bear Grandma Scarlett gave her.

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If she walks closer do they get worse, are they warning her?

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take me with you, the bear... says, for lack of a better verb. i'm your friend.

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She's not sure she trusts it.

Has it got any more to say for itself?

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i'll protect you, it argues. and I'm cute.

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She shudders and moves closer.

Assuming she doesn't get a horrifying feeling of dread… she picks it up.

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Quite the opposite: she feels warm fuzzy happy bells.

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She tries not to be too creeped out by this. The teddy can come with, she decides.

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thank you. we'll have an adventure!

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Gosh.

She grabs her bag and checks her phone to work out where she needs to go for the truck, then sets off.

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The box truck is where she expects it to be: a private lockup, a waystation for rental vehicles intended to do the highway shuffle from A to Z. A decrepit old janitor helps her find the right storage bay, and after unlocking it with Grandma Scarlett's golden key (and a whispered what wonders hide within?) she sees a completely uninteresting truck—a battered and dirty thing, boxlike and unmarked. The sort of truck you move plumbing supplies or the corpses of unsuccessful gangsters in.

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Charming.

She inspects it, making sure there are no obvious defects and taking photos of the outside for later reference, then gets into the cab and looks for some sort of information or documentation.

Then it's time for her to start driving, following the guidance from her map app.

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Although she did get to train some for this kind of thing while getting her commercial license, the truck's controls are still somewhat unfamiliar and might benefit from practice.

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That's fine. She knows all the technical details of the controls – no weird sticks or buttons where she's not expecting them – and so it's just a matter of using it.

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So the map tells her to take Highway Nine.

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Got it.

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And she's driving and Highway Nine is incredibly long and then—

—there's a moment of dizziness and loss of balance—

—and she's suddenly in a sparsely populated suburban area, with prettily mowed lawns and similar-looking houses decorating the landscape.

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She tries to keep control of the vehicle – weird portals or whatever the hell they are, at least she knew this one was coming – and mostly succeeds.

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The change of scenery is all the starker for being so sudden. She soon starts seeing children playing around and some people outside, which is nigh unheard-of in the city proper.

And she notices a blinking light on her dashboard: the CB Radio.

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She turns it on in case there's anything relevant. Or something.

She hasn't actually used a trucker radio before. Hardly surprising.

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The previous driver preprogrammed a handful of buttons to various bands—PUB, BEARS, SIDEB, LAWL, TRFF—but none of those or any others seem to catch anything but static, and the microphone itself is dead.

your people don't live here, the bells sound.

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It can go back off, then – hardly affects her at present.

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Drive drive drive—

we're here!

—and then she's in the Outlands, and her radio stops blinking.

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If she puts it on now?

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It's tuned to the BEARS station, and she hears two men talking:

"- shooting you in the back. Can you cut the reds?"

"Done already. Bear's backing down. Worth every penny, putting in the cutter..."

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Silence.

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Also possibly expected! Seeing as it's the public channel so it might not be used for random chit-chat!

She keeps it on for a bit anyway.

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Still quiet.

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Any indication what the others might be, if she turns them on?

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SIDEB is empty, too, but LAWL is in the middle of a raunchy joke that ends in an explosion of laughter so filled with testosterone Rachel might just have grown a five o'clock from exposure.

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She skips that, thanks. TRFF is probably… traffic?

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Possibly! But also silent.

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Jokes, traffic, public, 'bears', 'sideb'. She's gonna guess 'bears' is some sort of – group chat for something, and… sidebar? Maybe?

She keeps driving.

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The orphanage is visible from a mile off. It looks like someone took a truck-red toy farm and its truck-red toy barn and blew them to size: shiny and new, gleaming in the sun in a way no other building in the Outlands seems to, unaffected by time.

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Fun. Or at least not dreadfully grey and depressing.

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It's not! And as soon as she pulls up she finds herself in a toothpaste commercial: a sea of smiling children escape the orphanage to greet her, giggling and playing impromptu tag.

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This might be a bit much.

She smiles as she gets out, though, and asks where Grandma Scarlett might be.

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The kids part like the sea to Moses and the old woman, about the same height as them, appears.

"Children, this is Rachel. Rachel, these are the children," she greets. "Children, it's time to say goodbye to your bears. You know what to do; fetch their favorite things for travel."

In a flash, the mouse army's gone. Back into the farmhouse, presumably to fetch today's shipments of teddy bears.

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… Rachel feels weird but also high-status. She sort of likes it but oh my god the children are fetching and saying bye to their bears?

"Hello."

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"Hello, deary. Nice trip?"

Jeb walks to the back of the truck to roll up the door, and the gaggle is back, each child carrying a cardboard box with a teddy bear peeking out the top, sometimes with other small toys or a small blanket to keep them comfortable.

Before she can answer Scarlett's question one boy interjects himself between the old lady and Rachel and holds his cardboard box up high, the flopsy bear peeking out from its depths. "This is Daniel," he explains. "I got to name him myself. He likes lunchtime and crayons. He's scared of the dark, but it's okay, because he's not going to be alone."

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"– Daniel's a nice name!" she responds, smiling. Then to Grandma Scarlett: "And – yeah, trip was fine."

She pauses, not really sure what to do next. Like, take the bear from the kid, probably. But augh.

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The choice is taken from her as he pushes the box into her hands and runs back to his friends.

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Okay! Well.

Cute toy.

She carefully places it into the truck and tries to remember that that one is Daniel, just because the kid seems like they care about him a lot.

(Awwww.)

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Jeb helps them finish loading up the truck with the bears, and Grandma Scarlett clucks her tongue, a little chuckle. "Darlings, aren't they?" she says. "I spend every day sewing new bears for the next week's supply. The bears are loved quite intensely, then given away to others who need them. The love... that's important, you see. Very important."

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"It's really cute," she says. "Some of them seemed… very attached to them, though."

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"Yes, they spend the week with the bears, loving them and caring for them."

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Nod. "Do they get to keep some?"

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She does a so-so gesture with her hand. "Not forever, I can't keep up with all of them."

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"Keep up with them how?"

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"Both with the children and the demand. I hand sew them all, you see."

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"That – wow, that sounds like quite a lot of work."

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"It is, but it is good work."

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Nod. "So – I don't really know what the protocol is, do I just get a list of places and then shoo, or…?"

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"You've got a full swath of deliveries to make. Jeb's sent you an electronic mail with the delivery details for each bear... places, times, delivery instructions. Follow them to the letter, it's all very important. You do have time enough for lunch; I understand there's a lovely rest stop just up the highway on the way to your first delivery..."

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"Oh? Thanks." She checks her phone, makes sure she has the appropriate information.

Looking back up at Grandma Scarlett, she says, "So – I guess I'll get going?"

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"Yes, I believe so. Good luck, dearie!"

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"Thanks," she responds, smiling.

So she gets back into the truck and looks at the list and programs in the first delivery location to her map app.

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And on the way there she does in fact spot a rest stop when it's close to lunch.

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She drives towards it and goes to park.

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And a man who probably ate at the rest stop every meal of his life approaches her in a golf cart with the word "SECURITY" stenciled on the side.

"You can't park here!" he barks.

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"– Uh, can't I?" she asks. "Sorry, why not?"

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"That's a Class C Commercial Transport in a Class A Passenger Transport space," the sweaty fellow declares. "You don't belong in this parking lot. Official Department of Resources policy! You want the commercial parking lot at the other end of the rest area. Move along! Move along!"

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Sure. She'll go park at the other end of the rest area, then.

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The quaint charm of a roadside establishment rapidly fades as she eases her box truck down the line towards the commercial lot. Without the need to soothe the worries of folks stepping outside their comfort zones, the grass goes unmowed, oil spills aren't mopped up, and the asphalt clearly hasn't been resurfaced in thirty years.

Shiny minivans and chromed busses were replaced with filthy eighteen-wheelers and box trucks, haphazardly jammed into whatever space was available... leaving very little for Rachel, who showed up eleven minutes late to the lunch rush. She manages to find a space light years away from the trendy coffee shop, which would mean a brisk jog back and forth with little time to enjoy herself if she wanted to slog back through the oil and the litter...

Or she could go to Melba's, which was a stone's throw away.

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She has no idea what Melba's is like.

What is Melba's like?

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A flickering neon sign and windows so dirty you can't see through them. The restaurant screams "trucker culture."

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She experiences a slight moment of frustration directed at Mr Security, then goes to the trucker culture place.

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Melba's Diner's inside is exactly as advertised: dingy and smoky, full of turning heads emanating the scent of flannel soaked in engine oil. A steel guitar twangs away on a nearby vintage jukebox, likely wailing about foreclosures and divorces. There's someone wearing a large cap reading Female Body Inspector.

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She tries very hard not to react to any of it and tries to find an empty seat.

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No tables available, but she can find an empty stool if she looks, though it's hard—to find a stool at all, actually, as many have vanished completely up their occupant's backsides. But yes, there it is, one near the end of the row.

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She takes a seat at it, trying not to look at the seat cover too much lest it reveal far too much.

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The only other owner of a vagina in the building wanders in Rachel's direction, ready to take her order.

The heralded Melba, as declared by the name tag on her apron. An apron which is a war veteran of an apron, decorated in stains, an apron which has seen things. Melba herself is wide of girth and full of life, with her hair bunned up tight in a net behind her. Operator and owner, simultaneously subservient to the trucker's needs and the master and commander of their appetites. And looking a bit concerned for the out-of-place girl who had just walked in. Still, a customer's a customer.

"What can I getcha, hun?" Melba asks (with a twinge of sympathy).

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"– Uh." She looks around a bit nervously, possibly due to the quiet. "What sorts of things do you do?"

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"Oh, normal things, coffee, sandwiches, beer—but I don't serve no alcohol to anyone's drivin'—doughnuts..."

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"Coffee and – cheese and ham sandwich? Plus a doughnut, please?"

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Miss Melba offers a smile. "I think I can whip somethin' up for ya good," she offers. "Back in a jiff."

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"Thanks."

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23% of the testosterone present in the room waltzes on up behind her. It is, in fact, the proud owner of the Female Body Inspector hat. Those who aren't nervously minding their own business study the scene with interest.

It takes him some time to figure out where to start in on Rachel, but he decides to go with a classic. "Well, what do we got here?" he begins. "You"re a long way from the tourist trap, y'know. You want one of them fancy coffees in the tiny cups you'll want the other end of the rest stop. Name's Eddie; kind of a big deal around these parts. And in case you didn't notice, it’s all truckers in here, girl."

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"… I mean, I've already ordered. And am ferrying cargo. So."

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"Well I'll be damned," Eddie exclaims. "Now what company in their right mind'd hire some young city slicker like you for an Outland rig?"

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"… I mean, I literally just arrived in the City?"

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He scoffs. "They're handin' these licenses out to anyone who shows up! Whatcher even haulin'?"

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"… Merchandise. I don't know that I'm allowed to tell under my contract."

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"Not allowed to tell? What th'hell kinda contract's that?" he asks, and someone sniggers.

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"They're so long, you see, so I don't know if it does mention. I wouldn't like to be liable for anything."

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He blinks at her. "What are you talkin' about?"

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"… Never mind. I carry toys."

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And that seems to work like a charm: the room explodes into laughter. Even truckers who had been ignoring the situation squeak out a chuckle.

"Happy Acre," Eddie recognizes immediately. "The old lady couldn't sucker in another one of us, so she's turning to some rube from the city! That is perfect. Hey, everybody! Looks like the Cuddlebear Convoy's back in business!"

Drinks are raised in mock salutation, toasting Rachel's new job.

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"Cute name."

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To further devalue and discredit Rachel, Eddie finally puts his hands on her... in the form of a paternal pat on the head. Supposedly sympathetic.

"Melba! This kid's lunch is on me,” he declares. "She's gonna need every dollar she can hang onto... you poor little girl. You'll be quitting that crazy-ass job within a week. Nobody lasts on the Cuddlebear Convoy for long."

Satisfied that he's neutralized whatever threat Rachel poses to his way of life, Eddie wanders back over to a table of sycophants and resumes eating his hamburger.

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… Rachel tries not to act too much like her dignity has been totally destroyed, and instead turns to face the counter and wait for her lunch.

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And shortly after, Melba arrives with her free lunch.

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"Thanks."

Yum. She takes it and leaves.

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No one follows her.

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Then she will eat in her truck, relatively contently.

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That might well be the most delicious pulled pork sandwich she has ever eaten in her life, and while she's eating it Melba comes knocking at her truck.

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Rachel rolls down the window. "Hi."

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She offers a doughnut.

"You forgot this," Melba points out.

And the bells, silent until now, ring again: everybody's favorite auntie.

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Rachel tries not to make a face at the bells. "Thanks," she responds, taking it.

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"You've got a long haul ahead. Any calories will help," Melba suggests. "But you'll also be sitting behind the wheel for hours. Not good for your back. Why not eat inside? I keep my stools comfy. Gotta replace the padding every few months, but it's worth it..."

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"I'm honestly fine here, but thanks."

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"Honey, I know it's tough, but... if you're working a route, this is your crowd. You're a trucker now, no matter what you did for a living before," she replies. "Better to make peace with that. I can't bring your lunch out to you every day, you know."

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"If what they said is right, it'd only be for a week anyway."

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"Naw, sweetie, don't be scared by them. You'll be just fine, I know it."

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Smile. "Thanks."

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She pauses for a second, considering, then stands on her toes, to peer in the window.

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Rachel leans back and tilts her head questioningly.

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Melba reaches over, to point out the buttons on her unused C.B. radio.

PUB. "Public channel. General discussion, big forum style." BEARS. "Warnings about speed traps and other cop patrols." SIDEB. "Sidebar. Someone in the pub wants to talk to you semi-privately, you can go here." LAWL. "Jokes. Raunchy as hell, but keeps your spirits up." TRFF. "Traffic reports. Accidents and slowdown. Critical if you want to get your deliveries done on time. You following me so far, hun?"

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Nod. "Had guessed a few of them."

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"All of these channels evolved over the years so folks out here could work together in the Outlands. Good clear signal, better range than you get on Earth for some reason—we had the Internet before the Internet existed. Good thing too, because the world's spread thin out here. It's not cramped up and tight like in the cities. Without that connection it's just you in the middle of nowhere, friendless. Something goes wrong and you've got nobody in your corner, you're in a bad place alone. We pull together and in the end, everybody lives another day."

Having stretched enough for one day, Melba settles back, adjusting her apron.

"Tomorrow, you come by for lunch. I'll make you somethin' special," she offers. "And I'll have a word with Eddie and the other Eddies beforehand. You got at least me in your corner, come to that."

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"Thanks," she smiles. "It's kind of a lot to take in."

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"It is, but you'll do fine. I better get back to the counter now," she says. "And what Eddie was ramblin' about, your route? You hang in there. He just doesn't want to admit he couldn't hack it running teddy bears. You get this done, stick with it despite the nine kinds o' crazy you're about to face, they'll respect you in time. Drive safe, now."

With that, Melba ambles back into her establishment. 

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Well, that was nice of her.

Rachel finishes off her food and then she should probably get going.

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Her first destination is a construction site. The first email from Jeb is very specific, highlighting an address to a building that doesn't exist yet. Department of Resources Construction Site #378, Highway Four. Deliver box marked 'Jerry' to foreman between 1pm and 1:30pm.

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So she follows the instructions given by the map app and then she's there.

And it is, in fact, between 1pm and 1:30pm, so after reading over the message again to make sure she got it right… she goes to find the foreman.

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The spectacled workman behind a desk of messy paperwork does not greet Rachel's cardboard boxed delivery with the enthusiasm of expectation. Instead, he deploys a concentrated look of confusion.

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"… Is something wrong?"

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"Deliveries go to the resource shed," the foreman points out.

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"It's supposed to be delivered to Jerry the foreman," she says, holding up the instructions. "Says right here."

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"I'm Jerry the foreman and I didn't order anything. What is it?"

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"Toy," she says, softly, then shrugs. "It's addressed to you."

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Now the foreman's expression changes to enthusiasm. "Toys?—wait, is that a teddy bear? Tell me that's a teddy bear. You're the new bear delivery person, right?"

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"– Yes? … I should've led with that?"

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The foreman eagerly rips into the box—but uses the utmost care to lift the actual bear out of its packaging. He sets it down gently, very gently on his desk, propped up against a toolbox. Adjusts the floppy doll's head slightly, to look out the window at the construction site...

"You have no idea what a relief this is," the foreman says, with a smile. "We're eight weeks in on this project and I was beginning to worry I wouldn't be getting a bear this time. Takes a load off my mind, believe you me!"

The guard who delivered Rachel looks nowhere as relieved as the foreman.

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"I'm glad to have helped," she says. "… Uh, I'm not sure I see the relation, though."

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"The bears are so the building doesn't fall down, of course!"

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Blink. "Sorry, how do they help with that?"

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"I'll grant you this is superstitious hokum," the foreman admits. "But... I'm not the only one who's gotten bears. Other project directors in the Department got them too, for a decade or so. At first we were like, what the heck? Why is some crazy old lady sending us kids' toys? But when Bob threw away his bear in the trash, I kid you not, the very next day his building project went cubist and had to be quarantined. Meanwhile, every project where the bear was kept on site? No problems at all. Still standing strong, even after years. They're good luck charms, and you don't buy them, you don't ask for them. You either get one or you don't. But now I've got one! This project'll be juuuust fine now. All thanks to you!"

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Pause. "I didn't realize that. And – thanks to some kids, I think, not so much me."

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He beams to himself and dismisses her, the words they have protectors echoing after him.

"You know he's nuts, right?" the guard mumbles (loud enough to be heard over heavy machinery). "Bet he doesn't break mirrors or let black cats cross his path, either. Buildings don't stand or fall because of some stupid doll. I've worked plenty of jobs without dolls and without problems. It's just a coincidence."

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She nods. "I know about coincidence, but – I mean," she shrugs, "it was still addressed to him and he seems happy to receive it."

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"Sure," the man shrugs, and delivers her back to the entrance.

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"Have a nice day," she responds, and then goes back to her vehicle to proceed.

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The next delivery is to an isolated little house, much like the Happy Acre Orphanage. Signs like "BEWARE OF DOG" and "NO SOLICITORS" and "NO TRESPASSING" and "someone really needs to chillax" (or that's what the bells say) greet Rachel.

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She grabs the appropriate box and goes towards the door, carefully, wary of dog.

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The woman who answers the door looks suspicious from the get go. Rachel's clearly unexpected, and judging from the rustle at one of the closed sets of curtains as she walks up to the door, this unexpected visitor has been watched very carefully likely from half a mile away. Plenty of open space in the Outlands. Plenty of distance to see potential risks from.

"We didn’t order anything," the woman says right away.

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She peers at the house number.

"It's addressed to this building?"

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"We didn't order anything," the occupant repeats, as if it's a magic mantra.

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"… Not even a teddybear?"

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"You think I'm not onto you?" the woman insists. "I read the Department of Safety warning. 'Don't accept unsolicited toys.' They may have anthrax or bombs in them! You turn right around and get back on your truck and get out of here. I'm friends with the local sheriff and he can be here within—"

"Mommy, what's that?"

A young voice, from down the hall. So, the bear has an intended recipient after all.

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"Teddybear delivery," says Rachel, showing the box.

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Works like a charm. An adorable golden curled moppet smoothly worms her way around the goalkeeping mother and snatches the box from Rachel's hands with fierce strength.

"Aaaaa! She's so cute!" the girl declares, starry-eyed. "The box says 'Janette.' Is this Janette? You are Janette the Bear and you are my friend! Hooray!"

With that the battle's lost, and the mother knows it. Forcefully yanking the supposedly anthrax-stuffed bear away from her daughter would result in a nightmare domestic disturbance. With eyes of angry spite, she glares Rachel down in response to her shenanigans.

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"… I swear it doesn't have anthrax or bombs in," to her knowledge, "but I do need you to sign here."

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She signs, and glares, and slams the door.

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Friendly. So friendly.

Rachel continues on her way.

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The next few deliveries are considerably less threatening, but no less strange. 

Three o'clock, a dentist's office. This is a strangely freestanding cluster of offices in the middle of nowhere, a building which would've made more sense in the middle of the city than in the middle of the Outlands; she has to navigate a maze of hallways and elevators to find the exact delivery location. Inside, a disinterested receptionist points out that she didn't order a teddy bear (of course) but at least she doesn't turn the gift away. It goes in the waiting room toy pile, along with building blocks and thick cardboard books from the seventies. Hopefully a child would eventually find little Bobby the Bear in that mess.

Four o'clock, an automobile factory. Not too many garages got copied over from Earth, and annexing (not "stealing") cars for resale means going through the Department of Resources for a dodgy second-hand vehicle. Outlands are perfect for building local jobs and transport. Although a factory full of robot arms and guys smelling like engine oil is hardly an appropriate destination for a teddy bear, Rachel nevertheless leaves Louie-Louie the Bear with the confused-looking guard at the factory gate. Having no idea what to do with it, he says he'll see if anybody in the factory wants it.

Five o'clock, dinner. Too far away from Melba's. Fortunately the next rest stop down the road has a drive-through.

Six o'clock, a shipping warehouse for an online retailer, and things get even weirder. "Place the bear in the third open box you find." The guard asks a few questions but is easily distracted with a couple of excuses, and thankfully the third box isn't too far from the front office. And so, Destructinator the Awesome Bear (as his box declares) ends up shipped to someone who was ordering replacement razor blades and vitamins. Pushing luck, pushing what made any sense at all, but...

Seven o'clock.

And if there was a tipping point, it'd be this. Because it made less sense than any of the others.

Put Daniel the Bear underneath the fifth tree at mile marker 5.4 along Interstate 37. Open the box and walk away.

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Oh well. She'd probably consider doing weirder things on someone else's say so, and it's – quite clearly weirdly designated.

Pause.

Except it was that cute bear from that cute kid who was very particular to make sure the bear wouldn't be alone.


Ugh ugh ugh.

She really hopes there's a good reason for this.

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Clouds are brewing tonight, threatening a rainstorm later. Even if she goes against orders and seals Daniel's box shut, the package will be soaked and ruined.

And soon she reaches the spot.

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Ugggggh.

Okay well the kid probably does not know what she's doing with the bear at least until she goes and talks to him, and feels super guilty and doesn't tell him anyway because she'd be a horrible person but prefer that to actually upsetting him, and Grandma Scarlett might have some actual reason for it to be placed here like it being picked up later… or at least might be able to track it…

So she does in fact place the bear down under the fifth tree at the mile marker and – realizes her last delivery is for 9pm and decides to sit in her truck for a bit.

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Ten minutes in and the bear in the distance hasn't gotten up and walked away.

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No, she wouldn't have expected it to.

She can probably wait a bit longer – she checks on her map app how long it'll take her to get to the 9pm delivery and works it out.

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Twenty minutes and nothing. Clouds getting thicker. Even if it's not going to rain, this is looking like it'll be one gloomy as hell day.

Twenty-five minutes in...

A car had pulls up to the 5.4 mile marker.

She has to strain to see in the setting darkness of the night, but... immediately a kid bursts forth from the car, like a cork from a popgun. Judging from the wiggling and panic, he's doing the Pee Pee Dance. The nearest rest stop is miles and miles away... doing your business behind the nearest tree at the side of the road would do just as well as a proper bathroom. (gotta go gotta go too much lemonade)

His father chases after him, less hurried, although likely eager to get back to the road. Mother waits in the car.

Two minutes later, and the kid has a much more leisurely and relieved stroll back to the car.

With a teddy bear under his arm. One he just happened to find during this completely random roadside picnic.

Bear, boy, and father get back in the car and drove away. Daniel the bear has found a home at last.

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Ah-huh.

Okay well that's not her fault and she's going to get to her next job and let Grandma Scarlett know about it if she asks.

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Night has firmly fallen by the time she pulls up to the isolated house she's been directed to go to at 9PM. The decorative stars are beautiful in the Outlands, stretching from open horizon to open horizon.

Gravel path. Tire swing spinning in the breeze. Freshly painted treehouse, candy apple red, much like the Happy Acre Orphanage.

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How cute.

She approaches, box in hand, and rings the doorbell.

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Nothing.

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Again? She doesn't want to be annoying but she does need to deliver the box.

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She can hear the bell clearly; the only noise out here comes from crickets and the like. If anybody was home surely she'd hear activity inside—wait. There. Footsteps, coming up a flight of creaky old stairs. Across creaky old floorboards. Closer...

Door locks, being undone in sequence. A lot of them. Scrape of a chair or something on the floor, and before she can get properly concerned, the door finally opens a crack.

Dark inside. Hard to see the occupant, for that matter... sickly, unshaven, terrible complexion. He wears a third-hand suit under an overcoat, weirdly enough.

the shabby men, the words ring in what could be described as a cautious chime.

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"… Hello, sir," says Rachel. "I have a delivery, for this address?"

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"I didn't order anything," the shabby man replies. A raspy voice, much like Grandma Scarlett's, but with zero mirth to it. Just... dry.

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"No… kids?" she asks, looking over his head a little. "I mean, it's addressed here." Pause. "It's a toy."

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"No kids," he mumbles. "No kids here. Goodbye."

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"– Honestly it's important?" she tries.

This guy is giving her a bad feeling.

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Now that her eyes have adjusted properly to the darkness, she can see over his shoulder...

Marks on the corner of a hallway wall. Height indicators, for a growing child. Dates on the lines. 2010, 2012. Bright and colorful crayon lines. A stray sneaker, far too small to belong to this schlub, laces untied. No second shoe. It had been kicked to the side when he approached the door, as if trying to hide it.. but not kicked far enough.

And the words, ringing softly, a whisper, coming from the cardboard box...

she needs me. help. help.

"Goodbye," the man replies again. And then the door closes, locked, and the chair under the knob is replaced.

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What the hell.

She – there's a kid here, that's not just signs of a newly bought house – so she looks to both sides of the door – any windows she can look through in?

She feels creepy thinking about it, she feels like it's clearly not what she should be doing, but this is way more than 'just' a bad feeling.

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All the windows are closed and the drawers shut.

And the long-promised rainstorm finally comes. A slow and heavy beatdown of rain, content to release itself gradually for the next twelve hours rather than thrash about in fury. Satisfied with its inevitability.

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She goes back to her truck.

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She is safe from the rain, in there.

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There is a kid with a creepy guy who claims there is no kid.

He didn't take the delivery.


She doesn't suppose she sees any more if she looks back at the house.

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Nope, nothing.

And then—

we need to talk                                                    
                       we need to talk

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"… Uh-huh?"

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you have a choice.  
  everyone gets a choice.
you could give up,
go back,
quit the job,
go to the familiar,
find something normal.
 
  or you could stand up,
challenge the nightmare,
save the innocent,
embrace what you call weirdness.
for life in the city
is not weird or normal.
 
  life in the city is both.
normal is weird is normal.
you can decay in happy denial.  
  or live your life, come what may.
succumb to fear and take no risks.  
  or deliver us from evil.
i could leave you alone.
no more lucid dreaming.
 
  or you can become the oracle that you're meant to be.
choose.  
  choose.
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The fuck.

"How much negotiation can I do here and can we leave it until after we deal with the fact that guy is mysteriously lying about having a kid there?"

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you have chosen.

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"Are you kidding me." Ugh. "Whatever sure can we just get them out, or at least more information on the problem – is there a problem, how much of a problem is there?"

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park out of sight.

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… Sure. Whatever.

She starts driving away from the building, tries to find a spot out of sight of it.

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Plenty of those, especially in the gloom of the stormy night.

not too far away.

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She picks one, edge of the highway behind some trees.

"Next step?"

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don’t go in through the front door because it would be suicidal and you can’t anyway.

the house has a storm cellar.

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So she gets out of the cab, with her raincoat on, and makes her way towards the house, being careful to try to stay out of sight as much as possible.

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there's a key under the flowerpot he doesn’t know about.

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Flowerpot?

She looks around the cellar entrance for a flowerpot, carefully, and then upon finding it lifts it up to grab the key and then open the doors.

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even though you set out this morning to deliver toys and weren’t expecting to come face to face with the grim spectre of death, do not stand there like a slack jawed idiot when you find a surreal medical torture dungeon complete with two corpses, the bells helpfully inform her.

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… Fuck.

She goes through into the storm cellar and does not stand there like a slack-jawed idiot when she finds the surreal torture dungeon and where is the girl.

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Someone seems to have gone and installed a Facility with a capital F in the basement of this family home. There are machines. There are tubes. IV drips. But also electrodes and wires and metal hooks and things out of a horror movie. All of it hastily arranged, unpacked from cases that were brought in by pick-up truck, like an impromptu meth lab.

No clear purpose to any of it. If there is a purpose, it's lost in a wall of medical notes and diagrams, hastily tacked up near the bodies—wiring diagrams, crudely written instructions, things like that. Quick reference guides for the madman on the go. Pencil notes on drywall around it all, jotting down numbers, scribbling out unreadable writings. Words which start out coherent but then wander off towards nonsense...

One word keeps repeating. Repeating often enough that Rachel can spot it easily, no matter where she looks.

Bedlam. Bedlam. BEDLAM.

And unfortunately, she's too late to rescue everyone.

Mother and father, dead. Previous owners of the house, before their home invasion experience. Lying on the floor and dead for a few days, from the smell and the look of it. Still hooked up to drains and siphons and worse. The shabby man hadn't bothered unplugging them—he just shoved them into a corner for later disposal. Plenty of dirt around here to bury a body in and no rush to get it done when your nearest neighbor's miles away.

It's perfect, really. Need to slowly and horribly murder people for purposes unknown? The Outlands will provide the ideal victims in the ideal scenario. Too far away from any stable community. Nobody will know. Nobody will care...

The angel on the other end of Rachel's golden telephone cares. And for what it's worth, their daughter is still breathing.

Maybe six, maybe seven years old. Malnourished and unbathed for days. Unconscious, but she's alive. Lying on a makeshift cot, some token gesture of comfort, while she runs through a gauntlet of nightmares...

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She's – sorry but she's not going to spare time worrying about the parents.

Can she detach the girl, she hopes she has some instruction and she doesn't have to guess with possibly complex horrifying medical equipment.

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It's probably safer to just yank all the flimsy tubes and cords than detaching the electrodes and needles themselves from the girl.

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Okay, she can do that – and she does, trying to be careful to not pull anything the wrong end, and tries to wake the girl, carefully…

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Yeah she's not waking up.

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Nothing beeps angrily at her for this.

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And then she's got the girl, making sure the cables don't pull on anything or wrap around things, and she's making her way back towards the external door.

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Nothing stops her.

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Through the door, left open carefully from when she went in, and a quick, careful dash to get away from the property –

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The rain patters on but she manages to get to her truck without problems.

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She places the girl in the passenger seat, trying to be careful but not at the expense of too much time, shifting the undelivered bear into her lap, and then buckles her in, and then gets into the vehicle herself.

Time to get away, no time to call for help –

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The girl instinctively curls her arm around the bear, holding it tight against herself—

Roar of the demon. Light in her hindsights. Headlights. Engines.

Doctor Demento fired up his pick-up truck, and is coming to retrieve what he has rightfully stolen.

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Fuck is he getting her back.

Engine's still on, all she needs to do is put the headlights on and then get going and hope for the best with the slow speed of this freaking truck.

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Yeah. She reaches the highway, stabilizes her truck, and the big green truck is in her rearview mirror, moving at speed... and gaining on her.

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Fuck, fuck fuck fuck.

She doesn't suppose her truck has a higher top speed than the other one.

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Nope! The opposite actually.

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"I don't suppose you have any suggestions?" she asks, tentatively.

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drive?

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Nervous laugh. "You may not have noticed, but I am."

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drive fast?

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"If you have some tips on how to accomplish such, I am all ears."

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Silence.

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"How to get away from here faster, how to ensure I don't die nor my passenger, how to – I don't know, anything?"

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More silence. The truck gains on her.

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Fucksake fucksake fucksake fuck – she grabs her phone and dials emergency services.

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It rings twice and then: "What's your emergency and location?"

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"Someone's attempting to ram me off the road – I'm in the Outlands, near, uh –" She looks at the address, gives the approximate location.

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"We can have someone arrive in thirty minutes."

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"I –" Pause, inhale. "That would be better than nothing but I don't know it'll help."

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"I'm sorry, ma'am. It's the best I can do. I'm sending someone."

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"Thanks."

She puts the phone down and checks the rearview mirror, expecting a crunch shortly.

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Nope he's still a ways away and he's faster but not that much faster.

One of her radio's lights blinks.

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She notices it, distracting her from her worrying, and then realizes it could be of some use.

She presses for the public channel, takes a deep breath, and then tries, "Hello?"

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"Who is this?" someone says. "New person?"

"Yeah, it's the girl I told you about," says a voice that's recognizably Eddie's.

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"– Are any of you nearby, by any chance?"

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"I dunno, lady, I can't read your mind to figure out where you are," Eddie says, and the others laugh like this is the funniest thing they've heard today.

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"Interstate four-fifty-five – near exit twenty-three." She sounds a bit panicked.

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"I am," Eddie says. "Why?"

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"I'm being chased, emergency services won't get here for a half hour."

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"Look, kid, I don't know what drugs you're toasted off your ass on—"

Okay she was wrong about what the other truck's maximum speed was given that it's just hit her, drowning out the rest of Eddie's response.

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The impact is not very pleasant. She's never been rammed into while in a vehicle before.

As soon as she recovers, she tries the radio again – "Please."

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"Fine! I'll be on there with you in a minute. You're damn lucky I'm so close by. But I find you're stoned I'm tearing that radio outta your truck! OVER!"

"This is Jonesy in the Starlight Runner—Eddie, you seriously going through with this? You know that brat's just pranking you..."

"Yeah, seriously, Eddie. It's probably all crap—"

"Cut the crosstalk and let me drive," Eddie barks back. "I'll deal with this. Everybody back to work. Over."

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Rachel keeps driving, not trying to swerve out of the way because that sounds – bad.

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The girl somehow remains fast asleep.

Already rolling at top speed, the green pick-up falls back a bit, being less weighty than the box truck and needing more of a head of steam before it can try again—but try again it does.

The world shakes—her vision blurred—but when it comes back... there's an 18-wheeler ahead of her, pulling on from Exit 23. The Hotrod Express.

"Jesus Christ, the kid was telling the truth!" Eddie's voice echoes from her C.B. "We've got a smash-up on I-455! Someone's trying to run the Cuddlebear Convoy off the road!—okay. Jonesy, get a bear on your ass, blow through a speed trap if you gotta. Pollock, I want you on your LD with the Department of Safety, tell them there's about to be a pretty damn huge accident. I'm going after that sunofabitch."

"What the hell? Eddie, you're serious about this?' Jonesy replies, confused.

"The brat's a trucker. Whatever else she is, she's behind the wheel so she's one of us—and you know damn well we DO NOT TOLERATE people screwing with truckers," Eddie says. "Now get on it! Kid—don't reply by radio, focus on your driving—I'm just ahead of you. Here's what we do. When I give the signal you get into the left lane, fast. I'm gonna get in the right lane and jam my brakes. You get in front of me in the center and I'll bitchslap that guy with my trailer. Honk once if you're ready."

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Rachel hesitates again – checks the mirror – but then honks, once.

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The other truck's headlights blink once—

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She swerves to the left, going to the left lane and readying to go around the truck in front –

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The Hotrod Express seems to shoot backwards, from a relativity standpoint. It cuts through the wall of rain, a wall of steel and wheels that dwarfs Rachel's little box truck by far...

Eddie deftly maneuvers a few tons of metal. The green truck tries to avoid head-on collision, and does so—but not by enough. The front of the vehicle clips against Eddie's tail, smashing out one headlight, sending it into a spin—

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She looks away from it, checks out the road in front of her to make sure she's not at risk of hitting anything, then glances back.

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It works. Rachel's going to survive. Insurance premiums are going to go up, Eddie might get in trouble, but she'll survive and so will the girl. Whoever that freak is, whatever he wants, this is the end of—

Two headlights.

Three.

Four.

Five.

A whirling mass of headlights and chrome, twirling and twisting, rolling along the highway like a cartwheeling pile of shrapnel.

She hears one word over her C.B.: "PICASSO—!" Eddie calls out, in warning—before static cuts him off.

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Fuck.

She does not know that she can get away – stupid vehicle won't go any faster – and the truck was already gaining on her –


She tries the radio. "Hello?"

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The car/driver/picasso tears through Eddie's trailer like a whirling ball of knives through metal butter. His 18-wheeler splits in half, a jagged slice carved right through the middle. The back half careens away and disintegrates—the front half ever so slowly teeters over, until his cab's sliding sideways along the highway. Shattered glass, twisted metal...

...and an unliving monster of shattered glass and twisted metal continuing to give chase to Rachel's truck, eager to get at the young cargo inside. Freed from the limitations of physics and the internal combustion engine, the picasso of hard iron can skim across the rain-slick road, gaining incredible speed. She only has seconds left to live.

hey

let me help

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"If you can do anything sure but how the fuck –"

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The words are coming from the teddy bear she'd brought with her, on the dashboard. The bear Grandma Scarlett gave her, her own personal teddy, no extra delivery required. It's talking to her now, its head flopped to the other side, to look her square in the eye. Probably just a random confluence of the truck rocking back and forth. Probably.

throw me at the shabby man, the bear says. pick me up and throw me. i'll die. i'm sad about that. but this way, you'll live, and can help the nice girl in dreams who loves us. i'll be happy with that. it's okay. i am your protector. throw me at him. i love you.

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"Please whatever cosmic god is doing this know I'm not the cruel heartless protagonist." She shakes her head. "Fuck it –"

A moment later, she's rolled her window down and is throwing the teddy bear out behind her.

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The doll tumbles through space, through the rain, trailing behind her truck at speed. It impacts with the twisted sphere of horror dead center.

The twisted sphere of horror turns back into an ordinary green pick-up, driven by a very surprised-looking murderer. Because the truck has re-manifested itself upside down and at a strange angle.

With a horrific sound, the truck cartwheels off the road, spinning end over end as physics takes control of the situation. The last Rachel sees of it, it's smashed into a tree line by the side of the highway, and is gone in the darkness of night.

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Right now she has no idea what to do but keep driving.

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The CB comes back to life.

"Kid? Are you still alive, kid? Are you there?" Eddie's voice says.

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"I'm here," she says. "Um, I – the –" She bites her lip, trying not to cry. "It's over I think?"

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"Good—then can someone send a goddamn ambulance because I'm losing blood fast and probably broke something."

The radio explodes with conversation, all the other truckers relieved to hear Rachel was okay and sending each other instructions and coordinating pretty well at all that. She's one of them, now, and Eddie'll be having none of it from any jokers.

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"I called emergency services, earlier," she says, when she gets the chance. "I don't know if they're bringing an ambulance…"

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And indeed soon enough Eddie informs them there's an ambulance there and he's getting help over and out.

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Should she, like, pull over… meet up somewhere… give a statement…

… Break down and cry quietly…?

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Well she does have a small child sleeping on the passenger seat.

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She does. But the child is sleeping and will probably not notice if Rachel breaks down and cries quietly.

… She should probably go give a statement and let the police know she has a child. If there are police available.

There probably are.

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...nope. No police. Ambulance, yes, but no police anywhere.

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She has absolutely no idea where she could possibly hand a child to, do the ambulance people look busy or —

— She could just say fuck it and hand the child to the orphanage.

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The child snuggles her teddy bear comfortably.

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Eventually, they get back to the orphanage.

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And Jeb is waiting for her there, with Grandma Scarlett.

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Girl still unresponsive?

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No she's snuggling her teddy bear and smiling happily.

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"… Hello?"

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"Hello, dearie," says Grandma Scarlett, smiling kindly. Jeb takes the girl off Rachel's hands, cradling her like someone who has practice with this.

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"Do I – is it over the news, or…?"

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"Oh, no, not at all. I expect you'll want some explanations, yes? Would you like to come inside for some tea?"

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"I… suppose so? – Is she going to be alright?"

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"Yes, of course, we'll make sure she has everything she needs."

She starts making her way inside. Jeb's already disappeared into the Orphanage with the girl in his arms.

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Rachel follows.

"Do I need to – I don't know, tell someone about this?"

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"Someone?" she inquires as they walk into the Orphanage. The tea is already being heated.

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"The… cops? I don't know, missing child driven kinda vigilante-style to an orphanage, seems like the system should know about her."

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"Oh, the system knows about her, but when it was the system that did this to her in the first place, you won't see any news about this case."

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"… It might be a bit much to say the system caused – that?"

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"No, dear, it really mightn't."

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Pause. "Do I want to know?"

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"No. But you should, anyway." There's suddenly a whistle from the kitchen. "Oh, that would be the tea." Grandma Scarlett goes to get it.

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Rachel follows. "What do you mean?"

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"I mean that the tea is ready," she explains, getting biscuits and teacups.

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"– But why should I hear the story, I mean."

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"Because you're on her side, now."

She offers Rachel her cup of tea.

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Rachel takes it.

"… What do you mean?"

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Grandma Scarlett returns to the living room with her own tea.

"She comes to us in dreams, see. Lucid dreams—like the things you hear, the voices that come from nowhere. That's her."

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Rachel takes a seat.

"… Oh." Pause. "I thought you meant the girl's side."

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"I do not," she says, and sips from her tea.

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"I don't remember telling you anything about this."

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"You didn't," she agrees.

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Rachel looks at her expectantly.

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Sip sip.

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"So how do you know? Or should I ask – what do you know?"

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"Thirteen years ago... maybe fourteen? It's a bit of a blur, I admit," she says. "Thirteen years ago, a single father came to me with his infant daughter. He had recently lost his wife, you see, and wasn't sure he was capable of raising a daughter alone. He had a bad past. A violent past. Perhaps he didn't feel he deserved this happiness in his life. He wept, you know. He sat where you're sitting and wept, while his infant daughter slept quietly in a port-a-crib... for a time. And then she cried out, and he was there in an instant. A father's instincts. I knew then he would be just fine, and told him as much."

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"… And how've they been, in the meantime?"

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"Oh, they've been fine. I expect you'll meet them soon."

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"Do they live nearby?"

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"Oh, no, they live in the City. I understand the little girl would loathe living here."

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"I don't know that this so much explains how you know all this."

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"I was getting there." Sip sip.

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"So that day," she continues, "when he looked in the crib... it's the strangest thing. The little baby had a teddy bear. Where did she get it from? He hadn't brought it with her. It wasn't a bear from my orphanage. She hadn't pulled it off a toy shelf. Where there was no bear, suddenly, a bear. I named it, you know. Little Penelope's 'Gregory the Bear.' They left that night together, to grow as a family. I wonder if she still has that bear, some days..."

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"So you were already making bears, at this point?"

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"Some, but not exclusively, and only as a hobby, you know?"

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"– I think so?"

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Sip. "Then I started getting dreams."

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"Noticeably different?"

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"Oh, yes. I'd barely remember them—but I'd talk. In my sleep. And I knew I had to make more of these bears, and give them to the children so they'd be loved, so they'd be loved so much their love would serve as a shield against all the terrible things out there."

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"… I don't normally think much of – superstition."

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She smiles at Rachel.

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"I also don't think much of hearing voices." Sigh.

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"Of course."

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Rachel sips her tea.

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"I get instructions, in my dreams," she elaborates. "Jeb writes them down while I sleep, while I talk, because I barely remember them. And then, well. You saw."

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"Such implausible timing."

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"Is anything about this City very plausible?"

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"I expect there are still terrible people around. Otherwise no."

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"And if the City's a dream, who's to say what's real or not? The answer, of course, is us. No other answer makes sense."

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"It doesn't really matter, what's – actually real."

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She smiles. "It's opportune, I feel, that she led me to you. I'm old and getting older, Rachel. What's to come... it's going to take the fire of youth. Your fire, perhaps. And do you know what's coming?"

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"… In the grand scheme of things or in the local here and now?"

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"I'm not sure they're that different," she muses.

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"That sounds – like we don't have long left?"

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"No, not long. Chaos and madness threaten, and you've seen the tip of the iceberg tonight."

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"I was hoping it was just one random psycho and – a tragic coincidence."

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She shakes her head. "Nothing's coincidence, here."

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"Seems like it might be hard not to read too far into things, then."

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She laughs. "Perhaps I should say, nothing you're inclined to think of as 'surely it's just a coincidence, right?' is one."

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"It would be more convenient if I hadn't been transported to a weird mysteryland."

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"Life's mysterious like that."

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"I didn't think it was usually quite this mysterious."

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"You were copied into another world, dearie, life's as mysterious as it gets."

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"So... with all that... and knowing about all this craziness... you have a choice, here:

"You can leave. Forget any of this happened. Go back to the City, find a new job, try to live as normal a life as you can.

"Or you can stay. Things won't get any saner."

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"… I somehow doubt things would get saner back in the City?"

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"Well. You'd at least not need to face the insanity daily."

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"Only for it to reappear at some later point and terrorize me and everyone else horribly, I'm sure."

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Grandma Scarlett shrugs sadly.

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"I think I will stay."

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She smiles and leans forward to pat her hand.

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Rachel smiles, a bit weakly.

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"You should rest, now, dear. Busy day tomorrow."

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"… I will see you then, then," she says. "Do I just – wash this up in the kitchen?" She indicates the mug.

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"Oh you can leave it here, dearie, don't worry about it," she says, gesturing at the small center table.

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"Oh, uh – thanks." Awkward pause. "See you tomorrow."

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"I'll see you. And thank you."

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"… Thank you too."

Off she goes.