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Sadde and Isabella in Eclipse
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The following day, Sadde goes to town at a reasonable time to buy a tiny cactus with some of the proceeds from his terribly tedious job, and sneaks it into the bag with his clothing he brings to Isabella's room. It is inside a cute little box, which he offers Isabella the following morning when she wakes up, saying, "Happy three-month anniversary!"

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"...We're celebrating our three-month anniversary? I didn't know we were doing that," she says, blinking at the box. She takes it. "And accordingly I didn't get you anything."

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"It was just a convenient excuse for me to give you a present. Open it!"

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"Okay, pet." She pecks him on the forehead and opens the box. "...Aww."

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It is one of the cacti Isabella liked in the museum! It is very smol.

He grins.
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"It's so teeny. How often am I supposed to water it?"

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"There should be a little paper thing inside the box with instructions on how to care for it."

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"Oh, so there is." She puts the tiny cactus on her windowsill and looks at the instructions and then kisses him.

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Kiss! "I love you."

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"Hmmm," she says, and then she kisses him again and says, "I love you too."

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He squirms.
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"Pity it's Thursday," she purrs in his ear.

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He squirms more and a soft noise escapes his throat.

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"When is your first class on Thursdays?"

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"Eleven."

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"And how strongly do you feel about having breakfast today?"

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"Much less strongly than I feel about the way you're looking at me right now."

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"Oh good. On your knees, my lovely."

And they proceed to skip breakfast.
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And Sadde has not been this happy since she actually collared him. Best. Dom. Ever.

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And they make their eleven-o-clock classes and then are both quite hungry come lunchtime.









Oh look it's Jackson looking like he's going to fall asleep in his casserole or burst into tears or both.
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"Not again," Sadde sighs, running a hand through his hair.

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"Not ag-" She looks. "Oh."

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"I keep hoping something will get through to him. If anything he's more miserable now than before."

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"...It's more intermittent. And doesn't leak to anyone except you anymore."

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"Yeah, I suppose. So, I mean, maybe the social welfare's higher, but it's still not an optimum solution." Well, look who's been studying his econ.

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"Yeah. What're you gonna do?"

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"I'm gonna talk to him and try not to act absurdly elated that you said you loved me and then spent most of the morning thoroughly proving it."

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"Yeah, that might not seem very sensitive." She grabs his hair and kisses him. "I love you. Remember to actually eat lunch while playing counselor."

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He tries (and fails miserably) to not too visibly melt into her kiss, then clears his throat and nods. "Yes, ma'am. I love you, too."

Off he goes to get food and then play counselor.
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Jackson doesn't even notice his approach.

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"Jackson?" he asks softly before taking a seat, trying to avoid startling the boy like he did the other day.

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"Mm?"
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"Can I sit?"

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"Mmhm."

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He does.

"How're you today?"
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"Tired."

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"Hmmm. Didn't sleep well last night?"

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"I... didn't. Sleep."

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"Really? Why?"

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"I was... up really late and then I was hungry so I came to breakfast."

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"Why were you up really late?" he asks after eating a bit.

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Squirm.

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"Hm?"

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Jackson takes a large bite of food and chews and doesn't make eye contact.

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"Jackson?"

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"Mm."

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"I asked you a question," he points out, between bites.

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"I was doing stuff. And then I was - walking. And then it was early."

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"Hmm. New stuff?"

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"Sort of."

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"How can it be sort of new?"

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"What happened, Jackson?"

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"I don't know what happened. His phone rang and he left and he didn't come back."

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"You didn't call him to ask?"

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"Um, I couldn't."

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"Why not?"

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"'cause I was tied up and stuff."
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"...he left you tied up to fend for yourself? And he didn't even tell you why?"

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"I think it was an emergency."

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"Emergency or not, he could have at least told you what it was and untied you. How did you even get out on your own?" he asks, hoping the answer to that question is 'Master did one of those knots the sub can undo' while knowing it obviously isn't.

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"I waited, first... then I kind of just wiggled out."

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"Didn't he say—anything? Wait for me? Or don't? Or—anything?" he asks, despairing some.

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"He was still on the phone when he went out..."

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Sigh. "And he still hasn't called you?"

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"My phone was dead by the time I got back to school."

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"And you didn't get it charged," he sighs again.

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"It's charging now... I didn't really think of it at first."

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"Mmm. Do you—need anything?"

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"I don't - I don't think so."

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"How are you feeling?"

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"Scared. I'm - I'm allowed to leave when he's done with me but -"
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"You're scared he'll punish you for leaving without waiting for him?"

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"I'm allowed to leave when he's done with me. But, uh, I forgot something when I left and then I'd locked myself out."

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"What'd you forget?"

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"Chastity belt."
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"...and you think he's gonna punish you for forgetting it, then?"

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"Yeah."

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"And I don't suppose you're any likelier to listen to my advice now than last time I gave it?"

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Jackson's lip wobbles.

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"...Jackson?"

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"Mm?"

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"What are you thinking?"

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"I dunno what to do."

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"What are the options? For what to do?"

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"I - I don't know. I could buy another one on the way there, that might help."

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"And how do you feel about that?"

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"I didn't mean to forget it, I don't even mind it very much, I just, I was so tired, I had my shoes on the wrong feet for four blocks before I realized what was wrong with them and I don't have a key I couldn't go back and get it -"

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Sadde impulsively hugs him.

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Jackson doesn't hug back but he does lean in, sniffling slightly.

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Sadde pats his back and sighs, then pulls away. "What do you want to do?"

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"I don't know, I don't know..."

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"Do you want to see Mason? I don't mean right now, I mean—today, or soon, or something."

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"I don't know what else to do."

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"Regardless of whether there's anything else to do, do you want to do this?"

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"I don't want to do anything," says Jackson quietly.

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"Nothing?"

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"Not really." He pushes the end of a sausage across his plate with his fork, then sets it down.

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"Hmm." Pause. "Did you consider the things I said the other day?"

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"...what things?"

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"Going back to therapy. I could go with you."

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"I don't think you're allowed to do that."

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"Hmm, yeah, maybe, I dunno. But I will, if the therapist person allows and you want me to. But—I still think you should. You'd—want things, if it worked and. Stuff."

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"Wanting things wasn't so great either."

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He shrugs uncomfortably. "Do you see what I see, here?"

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"I don't know, do you see that my life sucks no matter what I do?"

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"...more or less, yeah. I see a friend I wanna help but am not sure how. I mean, I've laid out what I think is wrong and what I think you should do and how I think it'd help, but I can't force you to do it. So, I don't know what to do either."

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"A therapist isn't going to fix my life actually sucking."

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"A therapist is going to tell you how to make your life actually not suck! Besides, do you have a better plan? What do you have to lose?"

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Poke sausage. Observe sausage motion. Put down fork again. "I still think they'd flip out and go after Master."

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"Well, one, you could choose not to tell them about Mason. They won't force you to. And two, I don't know if he's strictly a threat to your safety. I'm also not sure just how much power they really have to randomly go after someone."

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"Well, I don't know either. That's not actually better."

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"So you don't tell them," he repeats, shrugging.

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"I think they'll notice if I don't. And try to make me. I'm not really good at not doing things people are trying to make me do."

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"You seem awfully good at not going to the therapist," he points out. "But I don't mean make Mason a secret, I mean telling them you don't want to talk about Mason."

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"Are you trying to make me go?"

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"Not... exactly? I'm trying to persuade you it's in your best interests to go. I can't very well order you to do it."

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"That's not the kind of thing I'm not good at not doing then."

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"That's exactly the kind of thing a therapist would try to do, though. And maybe you could get a sub for a therapist."

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"Subs can try to make people do things too, sometimes."

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Sigh. "You can tell the therapist that if they try to make you tell them about Mason you'll stop going."

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"That only works if they're not very good at making me do things."

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"You're honestly tempting me to try to do just that."

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Jackson looks away.

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"Is that your only objection to therapy, then? That the therapist might go after Mason?"

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"And I don't really think it'd help anything but it has that in common with everything, so."

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"...suppose I found a way to guarantee they wouldn't go after Mason?"

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"Like what?"

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Shrug. "I don't know. Would my word that it's not within their legal rights suffice?"

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"People sometimes do illegal things."

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"Yes, sure, and teachers sometimes hit kids, doesn't mean you stop sending kids to school, it's a statistical anomaly."

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Jackson doesn't seem to find this very convincing.

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"Look, if their losing their license for doing it is not enough of a deterrent for you I don't know what is."

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"Only if they'd actually lose their license," says Jackson. "Instead of just sort of doing things they shouldn't and then nothing happening."

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"And why do you expect that to happen?"

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"Do I look like I have the energy to sue anybody?"

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"Well, I do. I'd do it for you."

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"You wouldn't mind if something happened to Master."

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"I wouldn't mind if you two broke up, and I'd very much love it if someone took him aside and told him a thing or two about healthy relationships, but that doesn't mean I wish him ill. And more to the point, I want to help you, and letting a therapist do exactly the one thing that's basically guaranteed to make them completely unhelpful for you without being punished for it would be contrary to my interests."

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Sigh. "I dunno."

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Sadde eyes him expectantly.

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"What are you looking at me like that for?"

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"I'm waiting to see if you'll decide I may not be full of it and you might as well give this a shot."

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"You don't have to look at me like that to wait for something."

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"I can stop looking at you like that," he says agreeably.

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Jackson grumbles.

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"What?"

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Mumble mutter.

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"Sorry, didn't catch that."

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"That's probably because I didn't say it very clearly!"

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He laughs. "Well what did you say, then?"

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Jackson just glares at him.

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"What!"

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Jackson just shakes his head and gets up and leaves.

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Sadde: is bewildered.

He sighs and looks around and wow they've been talking for a while haven't they. Isabella's probably gone.
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Her table is occupied by a bunch of younger subs giggling to each other.

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Yeah, alright. He gets up and goes to work, then pauses work for class, then returns for more work.

During a lull in same (not in itself a rare event), he walks up to a librarian. "Excuse me."
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"Yes?"

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"Do you happen to know where I'd have to look for information about what therapists are or aren't required and allowed to break confidentiality for?"

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"Hmm, well, the psychology Dewey Decimal is one fifty, but you might actually want law, three forty, or social services, three sixty..."

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He—does not write that down, because he didn't bring pen and paper and also he has the Dewey Decimal almost memorized by now anyway, but he makes mental notes of the suggestions, thanks the librarian, and goes find books about this.

Social services first, probably.
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The Dewey Decimal system is pretty good for targeted browsing and not actually that great for finding an exact topic.

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Yeah, doesn't he know it. He browses, finds a few likely books, selects one (no use checking them all out, even if he's probably literally the only person who will do so) and, at the end of his shift, checks that one out.

It's dinner time. Is Isabella in the cafeteria?
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Yep, there she is. "Hi, pet."

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"Hello, ma'am. How was your day?"

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Scritch. "It was fine. Pirates person won, so we can actually get started now."

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"Oh? How did they win?"

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"Found out somebody else was doing the other idea, won over the third person, I went along to have a clear consensus and the opposing group member caved."

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"Well, that's nice, then. History teacher still hasn't told us what the so-called 'surprise' will be."

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"You still think it'll be unfortunate?"

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"Well, at worse as unfortunate as Selene can get, which admittedly isn't a whole lot."

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"Eh, there's style clashes between teachers and students in any school setting."

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"Yes but I do have what if I were fictional could be reasonably called a Tragic Backstory, it does give me a certain sense of proportion whenever I feel too much like complaining. It's... oddly cheering, to be quite frank."

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"Aww." She leans down to kiss the top of his head.

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"It's, you know how some parents tell their children they should feel lucky, they're privileged, etcetera? It's kinda like that, but a bit more real. I have a gorgeous, hot, smart, ambitious, amazing dom, I'm in a great magic school, I'm going to make everyone immortal, and I'm gonna have to visit an abusive piece of shit for break sometimes and pretend you've converted me into a submissive girl and even that is not, comparatively, that terrible. History class surprises hold no threat to me."

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More head-kisses. "I love you."

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"I love you, too," he says, squirming a bit under the kisses. "I'm feeling—weirdly happy, I don't know, maybe it's not that weird, today's the first time you've told me you loved me and I feel pretty and witty and gay and I definitely pity any girl who isn't me today."

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Giggle.

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"On slightly less happy matters, I might be able to convince Jackson to get back to therapy, and hopefully he'll go and get a personality and dump Mr. Abusive Whip-guy."

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"I'm still probably not a good repository for personal Jackson information even though he hasn't harassed me in a while."

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"Uh, yeah, sorry."

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She ruffles his hair. "It's all right, lovely, I'm not going to go put it on the internet or anything, just, you know."

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"I know." He shrugs. "My two personal weaknesses—or, well, one personal weakness and an instance of the other—cannot interact. How poetic."

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"I feel like a poem about this would be really awkward."

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"I think half of what's known of Nordic mythology comes from poems, if they can handle a person giving birth to an eight-legged horse I'm sure this won't be that big a deal."

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"Ha, fair enough."

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"Loki: the original gendershifter."

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"There is apparently a fringe theory according to which many pagan deities were mages and psions going a little overboard."

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"Ha, I could see that. Although I'd be hard-pressed to describe giving birth to an eight-legged horse as going a little overboard."

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"Wouldn't necessarily have had to actually do it, just look like it. Or that story's fake and the others have a basis in truth. Or 'birth' is a metaphor for 'make'."

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"Why would anyone even do that, though. That's way too many legs!"

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"I dunno, maybe they thought it'd be faster."

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"There's just no way an eight-legged horse is fast without some major redesigning going on, and I'm pretty sure learning to fly is better anyway."

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"Maybe they're a fan of spiders and think other creatures should be more like them."

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He laughs. "Ah, yes, giant spiders. Just what the world needs. What could go wrong."

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"Horse spiders! Not the same as the kind with mandibles and eight eyes!"

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"I still cannot picture it, I mean, where do the legs even fit? How are they shaped?"

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"I don't know, I wasn't there."

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"Tomorrow I'm gonna see if I can find a drawn picture of it or something in the library."

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"Sounds like a plan."

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He grins and leans closer to her in that way that he wants petting and/or head scritches.

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He receives petting and scritches because she loves him.

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Eeee! He loves her also.

And eventually they have eaten.
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"Got anything on this evening?"

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"What do you mean?"

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"Are you going to town with Jackson again or anything, or can I bring you back to my room for snuggles and thinking about magic and depending on whether we doze off like that other things?"

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"Oh, no, I'm entirely yours to do as you please."

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"Good answer."

To her room they go for snuggles and thinking about magic.
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And:

"So, I was wondering."
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"Hmm?"

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"Did you give any thought to the... uh... that idea of... um... kink?"

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"...Uh, some. The internet wasn't very helpful, I mean, maybe it would have been if I resorted to actual porn but that's not my thing even without the kink."

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"The internet wasn't helpful about kinky stuff? Color me surprised."

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"Hey, usually the internet's helpful about everything!"

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"No, that wasn't sarcastic, I am actually surprised. Kinky stuff tends to be the internet's m.o."

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"I found things but they didn't actually address my basic confusion. I found a blog post with a chart and it had three columns, like, 'here's a subby way to say this, here's a dommy way to say it, here's a nondynamic or neutral way' and like... it must be making a lot of assumptions about tone of voice or something."

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"Tone of voice?"

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"I could totally say 'that feels good' without breaking presentation. So could a sub! I'm pretty sure the nondynamicism kink is not about that, though, so..."

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"Oh, yeah." Pause. "What were the dom and sub ways the website gave of saying that?"

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"Oh, I don't remember, probably something like 'keep it up' and 'incoherent moaning'."

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"Yeah, that doesn't sound terribly helpful. I'm pretty sure all of those things could be said nondynamically."

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"And yet it was completely devoid on information on how to do that, and while I'm not opposed in principle to kinking it up now and then I am strongly opposed to looking like an idiot."

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"Ma'am I am so incredibly head over heels for you I think you could be wearing a clown suit with a gibbon on your head and I wouldn't think you look like an idiot."

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She kisses him. "And yet. I don't want to feel silly while I'm trying to get laid. It's kind of a moodkiller."

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"Yeah that's fair. But, um, what exactly is the underlying confusion?"

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"Uh, same blog post that had the chart had a paragraph about how 'practically all your favorite activities are still available with a nondynamic twist!' and I don't know if they just have a really narrow range of favorite activities or what, but I can't think of a nondynamic way for oral sex to work, like, by default if nobody's tied up or anything I read it as a submissive act on the part of the giver? And all the variations that change that reading for me just flip it around."

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"Oh. Well. Um. It's not... necessarily a submissive act, like, going down on someone with enough... uh... 'oomph' that they can't very well do much more than moan, that could totally be dominant without anyone being tied up, right?"

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"Like I said, there are variations that change that reading, being tied up is just the obvious one. But I'm not sure how you add enough oomph that it's not subby without adding so much that it's dominant."

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"Well, an example is, like, if both people are doing oral on each other it's pretty symmetrical isn't it?"

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"I guess, but that just sounds really logistically complicated!"

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"It's not! I could show you—but well, anyway, there's also that. Like, you could add enough oomph that it's not subby while at the same time letting the, uh, taker, take some control? It's more, uh. Like, no one tells anyone anything, decisions are reached by consensus and phrased as suggestions and requests rather than orders and begging?"

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"I'm familiar with the keywords. It just sort of fails to snap together coherently in my head. Also I don't know what you're thinking regarding taking control but if you grabbed my hair while I was going down on you I'd probably bite you."

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He winces in sympathy for his hypothetical self, but laughs a bit. "No, I don't mean grabbing hair. There's, usually, not any, um, hair grabbing. I mean, sometimes, but it's. Less. A thing."

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She shrugs. "Then I continue not to have a mental picture! This is actually really difficult!"

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He spreads his hands a bit apologetically. "I have no idea how to explain it better without porn or actually showing you it, but you might feel silly and that'd kill the mood for you, apparently."

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"I might get curious enough to look for porn at some point - maybe I'll send you to find me a good example, I didn't really have a good time looking for an instructional video for caning and that I felt a little more urgent about learning."

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"Not a good time? What was wrong with caning instructional videos?"

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"I'm just really not a porn person! I spent the entire time thinking 'this part is just you reciting your introductory paragraphs, did you have to do it while your sub's already tied up in the background' and 'why did you take off your shirt, what fraction of your audience for an instructional video on caning wants to look at shirtless doms' and 'okay, you've demonstrated the thing you said, you don't need to give her another five swats'."

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He cracks up.
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Snort.

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"I just had the best mental image of you being annoyed at your computer and raising your eyebrow at it."

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"I may have done."

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He giggles some more. "Well, thankfully I'm not exclusively nondynamic and I'm perfectly fine with having you tie me up and cane me and edge me and have your way with me however you want."

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"Good. Nondynamicism even once I figure it out is no more than an occasional."

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"That's perfectly fine by me."

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"Good boy." Snuggle.

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Snuggle! "I love you."

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"I love you too."

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More snuggles!

"There's the annual job fair the day after tomorrow," he comments.
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"I was planning to skip it. Are you going?"

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"I think I am. Why are you skipping it?"

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"It's a lot of walking around and I already have a career plan that won't need to get any more specific until they have yet another career fair. I might go with you, I guess, but we wouldn't be looking at many of the same booths."

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"Fair enough. I haven't actually looked at any prospects, I only have this vague notion that people will pay me a lot of money to fix them and de-age them once I can do that, but."

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"Yeah, my advantage is that there's a centralized place I can sign up with."

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"Also I'm not sure what I'm going to be doing in the time between graduating and actually being a competent healer. And I'm wondering if they'll let me, like, intern somewhere, or something."

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"They might. I honestly don't have a great interim plan either. College perhaps."

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"Prrrobably community college in my case, if that."

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"There aren't magic colleges as such the way there's magic high schools but you could look into scholarships," she says. "I think the government likes giving scholarships to eclipsed, if nothing else, and you're bright enough to pick up more, write some essays, ace some tests."

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"Oh the joy of standardized testing and essay writing."

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She prods him in the chest. "They're pretty joyful if you get a few thousand bucks a pop, I think."

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He giggles. "I suppoooooose that's enough incentive to get me through it," he sighs dramatically.

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"But the career fair might give you an interim idea."

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"Yeah. What would you major in, if you went to college, do you think?"

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"I'm not sure. It's not like I need a credential to make a living. Maybe I'd go comp sci, I'm thinking of looking into programming when I have my eidetic working."

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"Ooh, that sounds fun. I think going to med school would be completely useless even if thematically appropriate. Comp sci sounds interesting, especially if I manage to finagle my way into the same college as you."

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"Med school aiming at diagnostics might not be worthless," she says, "but probably not worth the time investment, they work med students really hard and you'd barely have more magic coming out than going in." Her hand's trailing idly over his chest in random patterns. "I was actually thinking comp sci because I think psionic tech is going to explode in the next decade or two and I want to be there - precog is my baseline occupation."

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He looks down at her hand and smiles. "Well, that's a much better reason than mine."

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"I mean, it also sounds fun, but lots of things would be fun and I'm not going to major in English and do recreational Shakespeare scholarship."

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He makes a face. "Majoring in English does not sound fun."

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"Maybe not for you. I like old British fiction."

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"Well I don't hate old British fiction but it's my impression there's a lot of essay writing and finding meaning where there's none in an English major."

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"There's meaning! I mean, I'm sure some people make shit up but it's not a requirement."

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"If you say so," he says dubiously.

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"All right, you caught me, everything Shakespeare ever wrote wasn't even in English, he just hypnotizes everyone with soothing stress patterns until we impose plot and character and humor and wordplay and literary allusions and narrative structure onto the text."

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"Hey, that's not what I'm saying!" he protests. "I'm just saying that it often looks like choices that are completely meaningless are minutely analyzed for the sake of finding meaning. I mean, if I were a writer there'd be a lot of details I'd include merely for the sake of verisimilitude with no hidden symbolism whatsoever."

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"Sure, but you'd have to pick which details somehow. Shakespeare wasn't rolling dice and may have made subconscious choices. It can get navel-gazey, but not all of it is."

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"Right, and I never said all of it was, just enough of it that I probably wouldn't choose that as a major. But I think the main thing is that... I like consuming fiction, not so much spending time thinking about it, even if I do love hearing your thoughts about everything including this."

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"I don't write recreational English essays," she admits. "But if I were going for a purely 'fun major' it'd be that."

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"I think a purely fun major would be mathematics," he muses.

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"Well, if you think so, maybe you should go for it. It's useful stuff."

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"...it is?" he wonders.

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"Well, I guess it depends which kind of math and maybe to get anything really good out of it you have to go to grad school, it might not actually be worth it for a mage, but there is a kind called 'applied'."

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"Hmm, come to think of it maybe econ's a better major."

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"I think the conventional wisdom is that if you start in math you can switch to econ easily and if you start in econ the reverse doesn't apply."

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"Easy in what way?"

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"You'll be prepared for the coursework by what you were already doing."

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"Oh. Well, I think most of what I'd learn would be, like, self-directed studying anyway. I could major in econ and minor in math."

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"Sure. Although you don't want to load up so much that by the time it's no longer feasible to bide your time in college you don't have anything marketable."

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"Hm, yeah, fair enough. I'm not even sure I'd go with either of those, though."

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"Oh?"

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"Well, I'd only be picking them for being fun, if I found something actually useful that was not going to consume all my magic time I might go with that instead."

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"Like what, though?"

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"Comp sci is more useful than general math, and I have no idea what the usefulness of applied math even is but it's probably also less than that. Engineering might also be more useful and touch on those areas, but not sure about the time-consuming part."

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"Honestly, anything would probably be time-consuming if you took it seriously."

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"Mmm, I suppose, but if it's something I'm already good at it'll be less time consuming even then."

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"Depends if you're benchmarking yourself against the other students or not. If you're good at something you can profitably sink more time into it."

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"Sure, but I already have something I can very profitably sink time into."

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"Yep. Being magic: it's pretty cool."

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"It really is. Lots of nice perks."

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"Alex was so glad it didn't turn out that he got it and not me, he thinks I would have micromanaged him past tolerance."

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"...well, I can't say it's not a plausible scenario."

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"On the contrary, I would have made sure of exactly what his tolerance was and stayed within it."

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He giggles. "I stand corrected, that's an even more plausible scenario."

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She nuzzles him.

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Awwww. He closes his eyes and sighs contentedly. "In any case, if I find a more useful internship day after tomorrow this might become moot."

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"Yup. There could be all kinds of things. Maybe you can run away and join the circus."

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"...as the amazing gendershifting... something? What noun would I use here? I suppose I could be a bearded lady..."

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"I don't think you'd benefit from a beard," Isabella remarks.

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"I quite agree, but I'm not about to become an elementalist so I'm not sure what a circus could want me for."

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"It wasn't a serious suggestion, pet."

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"I know, I was just going with the joke."

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Peck. "We were thinking about magic," she reminds him.

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"We were! We should probably get back to that."

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Isabella rearranges the snuggle and falls silent.

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Sadde falls silent as well, snuggling happily with his gorgeous dom.

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Eventually Isabella mumbles nouns into his shoulder.
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Awwwww! He loves that. He loves her. He presses her a bit closer to him (very softly, trying to not wake her up), and decides he'll use her nouns to fall asleep as he likes to do.

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And in the morning there is yawning.

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Mmm yawn. Snuggle.

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"Mooooorning lovely."

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"Nnnnnnhhhgmrng."

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She kisses his cheek and climbs over him to change clothes.

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Hmmm he thinks he'll watch.

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Isabella sticks her tongue out at him.

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He grins and turns so he's propping his head up on his elbows. "What?"

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"Nothing. You're cute."

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"Thank you," he giggles. "You're ridiculously attractive and watching you get dressed is often one of my favorite parts of the day. Watching you get undressed wins, though."

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"I'm not exactly performing a striptease," she snorts. "Leaning on the windowsill to get my pants on and whatnot."

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"Do you remember the thing I said last night about a clown suit?"

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"And a gibbon on my head," she snorts.

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"Yup! Strip tease is nice but wholly unnecessary for me to be as ridiculously attracted to you as I am." He gets up, then, and starts changing, himself, and the truth of his words might become evident. That, or perhaps just the time of day, who knows.

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"Hmm."

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"Hmm?" He looks at her and at where she's looking and his grin widens as he lowers his eyes.

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Isabella doesn't finish getting dressed right away.

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"Ma'am?" he prods, biting his lower lip.

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And then he is pounced upon.

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Well, I'll say! Who could have possibly predicted this outcome?

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Isabella is quick about it, through with her pet in time for them to have breakfast and make it to class.
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The following day there is:

the annual job fair.
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And over breakfast Isabella asks if Sadde wants her to come along when he goes.

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"I'd love to have you with me, but if you don't want to it's alright," he shrugs slightly.

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"I'll come for at least the first while. I may wander off if you get deep in negotiations with a circus."

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"That's fair, though I'm sure the circus would love to have you."

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"Oh yeah? What would I do in a circus?"

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"Probably tame lions."

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"I'm not sure I have any relevant skills."

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"I'm pretty sure if you glared at them they'd stop and roll over."

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She giggles. "I'm not sure lions have your taste in doms, pet."

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He grins. "It's not a matter of taste, it's just an objective fact."

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"Not to lions."

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He waves a hand dismissively. "They'll surely come around."

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"Please do not bet my ability to survive close proximity with a lion on my objective sexiness."

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"I won't," he giggles. "I'm pretty sure the situation won't come up, anyway."

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"Probably not."

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"And if it does I might be able to just wreck its circulatory system."

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Snort. "My loyal knight-mage."

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"It's what I'm for." Pause. "One of the things."

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"You have many uses."

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"Yep, I'm like the human version of a Swiss army knife."

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She laughs and kisses him.

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He kisses her back!

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Good, that's what he's supposed to do.

"Fair time?"
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"Yeah."

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So off they go to the fair. It has booths. The military ones are prominent, as are the other government agencies that use psions.

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He's... not terribly keen on military, he has caused enough damage when he eclipsed. What's available for mages?

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Healing and niches thereof - apparently you can make good money on the mage equivalent of plastic surgery in particular. Experimental efficient power generation. Ultraprecise manufacturing. Transmutation of rare materials. Transport. Construction. Somebody wants advance commitments for a Mars program a few decades out. Bioengineered plants and animals. Natural disaster relief and weather control. Deep sea exploration.

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Well, healing first, naturally, since he's already working on that part.

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There are several companies with booths having to do with healing! They're all in a section, near the other specific biomage applications; some of the booth attendants wave at Sadde and Isabella.

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Well, this is what Sadde's here for! He scoots over there.

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Isabella hangs back, a little, every bit 'taking her pet on a walk'.

"Hi!" says the booth attendant for a "plastic adjustments" company. "Help yourself to a candy and a flyer. Are you interested in helping people feel better about their bodies?"
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"It's a possibility," he says diplomatically.

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"We do some of the stereotypical 'facelift, nosejob' work," says the booth attendant. "I don't want to understate its importance to the people who seek it out. But you might not know that we also do cosmetic dentistry - it's much more efficient and painless than conventional orthodontia - and reconstructions for burn victims and sex changes and weight control."

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His eyebrows twitch when he suppresses his surprise. That is in fact interesting. "That's pretty interesting," he voices his thoughts. "I'm personally—"

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"—acquainted with some details of sex changes."

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"Oh, you could probably learn to do it for other people in fairly short order if you've already got it down for yourself!" exclaims the booth attendant, pushing a flyer into Sadde's hand.

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Sadde returns to his preferred shape for the day and accepts the flyer, peering at it with interest.

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Apparently their primary facility is in New York but they have a relationship with several others in other cities. It's customary for full-fledged magical employees to work on commission, but they have a training and certification program to sponsor promisingly-specialized mages early in their self-study with a modest stipend and, if they want some extra money, assistant or clerical positions in the company. There is reimbursed business travel to go to clients who aren't convenient to the offices and the job comes with malpractice insurance.

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That's pretty impressive, actually. He thanks the booth attendant and goes look for another interesting-looking one.

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Here's one that does mostly terminal illnesses; judging from the booth decoration it's mostly of photogenic-after-picture young children. They seem to be trying to compete with the Make-A-Wish Foundation for glurge, but at least their kids are alive. The printed material indicates that they're associated with certain insurance plans and are working on a deal with some teachers' unions (reading between the lines, this is because they will then be able to advertise with pictures of adorable children who are glad they didn't have to have a mean old sub instead of beloved Miss K).

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...do they work on actually curing the terminal illnesses?

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Just healing them, although there's a footnote that sometimes their subjects wind up being a sort of control group in research studies and they have a quote from a guy who's trying to find antibody information in mage-healed patients for scaling up.

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Well that's better than the Make-A-Wish foundation, for sure, and definitely closer to his specialty than sex-change (though the way his magic seems to work he's not so sure they're that different). Flyers?

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They have them! And he is welcome to take a pen with the company's name on it.

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Next?
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This one's a little more upstream: modifying nonhumans to produce useful drugs, human-transfusable blood and transplantable organs. Well outside his current specialization.

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Yes, indeed, and might be an option for the far future but definitely not right now.

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Generalized healing for rich people over a wide variety of ailments. Doctors Without Borders. A place that is sort of cagey about what it actually does but may or may not be in the genetic designer baby business.

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Generalized healing for rich people looks fairly interesting, actually. Sadde can volunteer at various hospitals when he's older, but Doctor Without Borders—especially given his psychology—is probably not the best way for him to help people. He goes check that booth out.

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The generalized healing for rich people are pretty straightforward that the reason you might work for them is to make utterly spectacular amounts of money, depending on what variety of things you are capable of treating. If you learn to get around faster than an airplane can, you can get a substantial raise for being on-call for emergencies. There is some very delicate language that they encourage their employees to try out unfamiliar skills on non-rich people who aren't paying through the nose to avoid this sort of risk.

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Internship opportunities or anything like that, for people who are in the process of figuring this stuff out?
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If you'll sign a long-term and toothy contract you can be considered in breach of if you don't have usable healing abilities by the end of it, they'll give you a pretty generous stipend and some token supervision to discourage procrastinating in the meantime.

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Well. That... looks pretty interesting. Any more relevant info on the flyer?

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It's an ad, basically, heavy on the "make lots of money!" and "help sick people!" and lower on anything else. There's contact information, though.

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Well. He goes up to Isabella. "What d'you think, ma'am?"

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"Well, it really depends on what you're aiming for, but I'd be sort of nervous about the terms on which any of these people are offering to sponsor your further magical development. It's not all on the 'generous alumni' model, and a lot can change over time."

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"Change enough for me to not want to be a healer anymore?"

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Shrug. "Someone discovers they can do time travel and you get excited about that instead. The company you signed on with is revealed to have abhorrent practices or workplace conditions of some kind or you just can't get along with your boss. You try healing and the first time you have to look at a severe prolapse you want to go hide under a table."

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"I'm pretty sure I'm immune to body horror by now," he protests weakly.

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"Bodies can get really horrifying, pet, I don't think you've seen everything, but maybe that wouldn't faze you, I don't know. I still wouldn't lock in the next twenty years of your life the minute you're legally able to sign a contract."

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"Yyyyeah, no, I mean, you're right," he sighs.

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"But something shorter-term might not be a bad idea, at least compared to courting student debt and overscheduling in college," she acknowledges.

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"But apparently, at least when it comes to healing rich people, there isn't anything exactly short term."

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"Well, there would be if you could already do versatile or heavy-duty healings. But if they have to take you while they can't charge huge amounts of money for your services they have to make sure they hold on to you to get their investment back."

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"Does anyone even have that at my age? I mean, my two-year detour through gendershifting isn't standard, sure, but I've been working on healing nonstop since then, and besides the way my magic feels I think the gendershifting thing might not even have been that much of a detour."

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"No, nobody has that at our age, which is why they're pushing the twenty-year contracts; but if you learn to heal independently I bet you they have different arrangements for twenty-five-year-olds who can cure cancer."

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"Enh, but what I wanted was to start healing as fast as possible."

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"Healing, or getting money for it?"

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"Healing. The standard way to do it has a large security time margin which could be spent working on immortality if I could figure out immediately when I was good enough to fully deploy."

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"Well, there's really not a way to tell for sure if you're good enough to deploy, in advance of internal certainty, without trying live subjects, but you could probably find somebody who can fix your mistakes who'd supervise you for a test or two."

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"Yeah, what I'd hoped existed was something like that but for a longer time, smaller things, and progressively more of them, but that might not be a realistic desire."

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"I think the consensus is that if you don't get it right it's not worth trying again for at least six months, probably longer."

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"Yes, aforementioned huge security time margin."

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"And unless you can do something ridiculously high-leverage public-safety-ish like a precog..." She waves a hand. "Nobody's going to pay you a living wage for trying something every six months. I guess in theory you could just live with me with my folks until I can avert eclipse disasters and rake in the big bucks, but it's probably a bad choice in principle for teenagers to make life plans on the assumption that their relationships are permanent just because there's no obvious reason why not."

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"Prrrretty much. We've been together for three months, it wouldn't be prudent to plan for any length of time farther in the future than that."

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"Yup." Hair ruffle.

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"But we're totally gonna work out and be together forever," he adds.

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She laughs and kisses him.

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Kiissss!

"I wouldn't feel too good about mooching off you and your parents, though."
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"It's not like you couldn't pay them back if they'd let you," she points out. "We're going to be insanely rich, we just have some awkward intermediate time."

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"I suppose," he sighs.

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"I hear you, I wouldn't be super comfortable with the reverse even if it weren't profoundly inadvisable for other reasons."

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"Well a lot of my unease about the time between school and being able to blink someone into health stems from said reasons."

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"When you're eighteen you can, if you have to, just take out a personal loan from a bank at a predatory interest rate. Some eclipsed do that. It's not the way to optimize your medium to long term earnings but it'll get your rent paid on a place while you learn your stuff."

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"I'm not sure I don't prefer just going to college somewhere and then using my untold riches from future magery to pay off whatever student loans I need to. So far sounds like the best option, although working with that sex change company wouldn't be half bad for the interim either."

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"Difference between college and a bank loan is that college expects time investment, spreads out the entire shebang. Plastic magery company doesn't look like they want your soul for twenty years signed in blood so they're a solid option too."

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"Yeah but college is also fun and lets me get to know new people so there's that. And if we're still together by then—and we will be—whatever you end up doing will probably influence that a lot."

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"What kind of influence do you mean?"

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"Well, like, if you decide to go to college that will be incentive for me to also do that, if I can do it near you, because long-distance relationships are nnnnot ideal and no one's figured teleportation out yet."

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"I'm pretty undecided on college but if I do go I'll probably pick someplace dense and urban, maybe New York."

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"Oooh, New York!"

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"Because I've never had a good chance to learn to drive, mostly, what with being at school away from home."

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"Well, it can't be that hard, but big cities are definitely my thing."

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"I'm not sure I inherited Renée's inherent love of cities but I may have her boredom with small towns."

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"Isn't that in practice pretty much the same thing?"

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"Not necessarily. Somebody could hate both and want to live in the middle of nowhere herding sheep."

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"Oh, I'd kinda been lumping that one together with 'small town.'"

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"Totally different aesthetic."

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"I suppose. The only reason I can say I wouldn't die of boredom in either situation is that I have demonstrably not."

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"Awww, pet." She ruffles his hair. "Are you done looking at booths?"

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"Yeah, I think so. Doesn't look like there's anything much more related to my specialty."

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Nothing obvious, although the military and government booths claim they will find a use for anybody.

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"...let's see what the government has to say and then we'll go," he suggests.

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"Hello there," says the government, when Sadde and Isabella approach. "Mage or psion?"

"I'm a psion going precog, he's a mage going biokinesis," Isabella says. She takes the generic psion and the specific precog pamphlet the government offers her; the government gives Sadde corresponding literature.

"What kind of biokinesis?" asks the government.
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"I can gendershift, but I've been working on healing since I left virtuality," he fibs the last part. "Way I feel my magic working, though, it's kinda all the same thing."

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"Military's always got the most use for healers, but there's civilian-side things - VA healers don't have to be military themselves, foreign aid if you don't mind travel. I'm federal but if you go more local there are firefighting departments, especially out West where they have wildfires, who'd love to have a healer on hand."

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"It'll still take a good while before I'm confident to try anything, though."

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"I don't know about the firefighters, but the federal government will put you through college and one gap year for a promise of five years' work if you can qualify for a security clearance or demonstrate aptitude exceptionally suitable to nonsecure use. You don't have to commit to military enlistment but under this option you may wind up being stationed on a military base, including one abroad, as a noncombatant, nonmilitary personnel sort of like the Red Cross or what have you."

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Flyers!

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"Annd I think I'm done here, unless you have something else you wanna do."

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"I'm all set, lovely."

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Off they go, then. "That was informative, is it always the same booths or does it vary?"

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"It's probably mostly the same, maybe some of the little companies change year to year. I don't remember exactly."

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"Then I guess that's most of the relevant information I'm going to get about that."

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"Yeah. Well, the contact info might change, so if you don't pick something in the next year you could go update your phone numbers."

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"I don't think picking anything while I'm technically a... what am I even, a sophomore? A freshman? Anyway, that, would be a good idea."

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"Agreed."

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"And actually what am I? Like, officially? This doesn't really have the structure regular high schools do..."

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"I don't think you are anything in the category of a grade or a nickname for a grade," she says. "It's just not structured that way. It's not a law that you have to be in a grade, you know, homeschooling exists." She heads for the building exit.

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He, of course, follows. "I suppose. Does that mean I could just stretch my stay here indefinitely?"

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"I think they boot you when you're eighteen or complete all your requirements and some further number of credits, whichever comes second."

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"So, if I don't complete all my requirements for a long time I could stay for a long time if I wanted to," he muses.

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"And I don't think I've ever heard of anyone here older than like 'just recently twenty' so there might be an age past eighteen where you have to hurry up and shoo anyway, you don't look like such a potential generous alumnus if they think you dawdle on getting things done."

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"True. What do other eclipsed do between school and being able to effectively produce mountains of money?"

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"I don't think society has evolved a good standard answer to that question. Virtuality's not that old."

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"A few nonstandard answers would be interesting, if they were any different than what we've talked about so far."

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"Mooch off parents, work unskilled labor, life of crime..."

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"...I think I prefer our nonstandard answers," he decides.

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"What were you classing as those?"

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"Mostly college and possibly working at the plastic magery place."

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"Yeah. I might go government, actually, precogs averting disaster work for them anyway, I'd have to find out if they wanted more than eclipse work out of me for the G.I. Bill lookalike program though."

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"What other kind of work would they want, do you think?"

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"Precogs are useful for a lot of things, they're just completely irreplaceable for eclipse disasters. Police work, I think there are finance applications if you have enough temporal range, I don't want to go military but I know they use precogs for strategy and such, natural disaster forecasting, infrastructure outage advance warning..."

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"Again: so jealous of psions."

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"Aww, pet. You can do cool shit too." Scritch scritch. "Terraform me a planet."

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He giggles. "Okay, point."

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She grins.

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"Overall I think the fact that you're a psion and I'm a mage is pretty great."

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"I agree."

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"After I make everyone immortal we should fund a planet," he muses.

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"Fund it? I was envisioning a queen-and-consort-and-happy-subjects setup."

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He pictures this. "Okay yes I prefer that. I want a crown."

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"Sure, why not."

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"What would my crown look like, though. An organic aesthetic I think..."

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"You'll have to be able to do neat things with plants to terraform a planet, you could make something out of plants."

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"A garland of roses," he suggests, and giggles.

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"I was thinking something with vines and optionally thorns," she says. "Ivy."

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"Yeah, that sounds more like my style."

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"Or laurel and a toga."

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"Really? I mean, not that I much mind the idea of being a single piece of fabric away from being naked in your presence, but why?"

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"I'm just being silly. I actually have few opinions on clothes in general except 'crowns are cool'. I'll probably go around in a circlet and jeans and a t-shirt."

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"I could go with a toga and the thorny vines, that way there's the advantage of the cool crown and being easy to strip when you feel like taking me."

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Giggle.

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"Although if we're queen-and-consort of the world I could just walk around actually naked."

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"What if I want you-naked all to myself?"

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"You're the queen, obviously you can have whatever you want, especially where I'm concerned."

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"Good," she says, running a knuckle along his jaw.

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"Mmm," he says, lowering his eyes.

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She pulls his face down and smooches him. "Mine."

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"Aaalll yours."

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"Good boy."

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It'll soon be Jackson's birthday, so Sadde goes to town and buys him a little something.

And she reads the relevant pieces of law books, and social service books, and the American Psychological Association's Code of Ethics, getting increasingly frustrated by her findings. And she gives up, pretty sure that she knows the answer.

And then it's lunch time on his birthday.
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Jackson is as usual picking at some randomly chosen food. ...He may have lost weight. If he remembers it's his birthday he's not being celebratory about it.

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She has a nice little long rectangular box (because she could only think of one thing she knew he really liked) so she walks up to him and offers it. "Happy birthday!"

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"...Oh. Thanks," he says, blinking and taking the box. He looks at it for a moment, then opens it up.

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There is exactly one thing she knows he really likes, and she's not his dom so she's not about to give him anything more... elaborate... than the fairly long little toy there.

"It has four settings and comes with batteries included. Easy to clean, too, very good quality."
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"Um, I don't think - that - I'm supposed to -"

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"You don't need to tell him," she shrugs. "Unless you want to, or would prefer me not to have given you this. I thought you'd enjoy it, though."

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"I don't - sorry - um -" He puts the box lid back on and pushes it in her direction. "Just because - um - I do try to do what he tells me -"

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"Oh, well," she says, taking it back. "Then I'll find another present." She shrugs.

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"You don't have to do that, you know."

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She shrugs again. "I know, but I still want to."

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"Okay."

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"And... kinda changing subject, there's another thing."

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"What?"

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"I looked it up in a bunch of books and such, and, uh, therapists apparently have enough leeway to break confidentiality if they so much as suspect abuse and 'abuse' isn't defined anywhere so it's like, pretty much a generally applicable excuse."

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"Told you."

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She sighs and nods. "You did. I'm sorry."

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Shrug.

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Q: How do you help someone who doesn't want to be helped?

A: You don't.

"Anyway, how are you? You look like you lost weight."
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"Oh. I'm not on a diet or anything, I dunno."

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"Huh. And are you doing anything for your birthday?"

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"Not really. My moms sent me a card."

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"Mason not taking you to dinner or something? Maybe some cake?"

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"...I don't think I ever told him when my birthday is."

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"Oh. Well, you should. Maybe he'll buy you something nice."

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"Maybe," says Jackson.

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"Hmm, would you like a tiny cactus?"

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"What would I do with a tiny cactus?"

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"I dunno. It's small and cute. Guessing that's a no. Hmmm, you're hard to buy gifts to. Perhaps I could buy you a book, wink wink nudge nudge."

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"...what are you saying wink wink nudge nudge about."

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"I like reading books and am trying to get you to like reading books, too. Come on, didn't you get the reference, I made this same joke like three months ago."

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"I don't remember jokes you made three months ago," says Jackson, bewildered. "Anyway, I don't think I have a rule about where I can get books?"

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"Good, then. Do you have any genres you prefer or should I just go wild? And fiction or non?"

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Shrug.

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"Hmm, alright, gonna get you one fiction and one non, then."

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"...okay. You really don't have to, you know."

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"You said that already. Do you mean to say you don't want me to? You can say that instead, and I won't."

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"I dunno."

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"It's the kind of thing friends do," she shrugs.

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"Okay."

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"Okay! Alright, I'm gonna go grab some food, then."

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Nod.

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She goes and grabs food and returns, humming happily under her breath.

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Jackson appears to have maybe consumed one entire forkful of mashed potatoes in the entire time it took her to do that.

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"...not hungry?" she wonders.

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"Not really."

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"Uh, have you been eating right, lately?"

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"I never eat, like, a lot of salads or anything..."

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"By 'right' I meant 'enough.'"

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"I'm not hungry, I don't think you're supposed to eat when you're not hungry."

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"Well, you're supposed to eat, like, two thousand calories per day. Also I think eclipsed need more than that to fuel the magic?"

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"I don't do magic very much."

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"There's still the regular human's two thousand calories."

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"I don't count calories, I don't know how much that is."

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"Yeah, me neither," she sighs.

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Shrug.

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"'S long as you're not feeling bad," she says, and gets to eating her own food.

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"Enh."

Forkful of mashed potatoes, looked at dubiously, eaten.
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"Enh?"

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"I don't feel hungry," he says. "Which is probably what you meant."

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"No, not exactly. You can not feel hungry but feel weak from lack of food because bodies aren't built well enough to prevent this kind of inconsistency."

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"I'm not dizzy or anything."

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"Okay." Pause. "Are you anything else?"

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"...what do you mean am I anything else?"

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"Like, are you feeling any other bad things or stuff."

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Shrug.

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"Okay."

Om nom food.
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Eventually Jackson wanders off, presumably to class.

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And eventually so does Sadde.