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It is a time of turmoil in the Galactic Republic. The taxation of trade routes to outlying systems is under dispute.

The powerful Trade Federation uses their private armies to enforce their extortionate tariffs, placing systems that do not submit under military blockade. Deep in the Core, the Senate endlessly debates the legality of such measures, though this is cold comfort to the suffering people of the Outer Rim.

In secret, the Supreme Chancellor dispatches teams of Jedi Knights, guardians of peace and justice in the galaxy, to troubled areas in order to settle the matter directly. In many of these places, this is the first time a Jedi has been seen in generations. Following their negotiations, some choose to remain on assignment for a time, dealing with other problems that have come to their attention...
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Anakin Skywalker is quite the problem child, no matter who you ask. She doesn't obey, lashing out at the slavers instead of being properly cowed. She steals. She tells the truth incessantly, wickedly. She takes the lessons of violence the slavers teach and turns them back on her owners with an unholy glee.

A normal slave would've been killed by now, the damage she causes outweighing the profits her brilliant mind could bring in.

But Anakin -

She claims she has a friend who whispers to her when she closes her eyes. She says this friend is everywhere, wrapping around her, watching, nudging.

It's a bizarre claim, almost as bizarre as her mother's insistence that Anakin lacks a father entirely.

But the slaves are a superstitious folk, and Anakin goes beyond lucky.

Angry overseers walk right past her, bellowing out her name as she holds back giggles, face turning red because her invisible friend told her this would only work if she's quiet. And then they start forgetting what they're doing when they go looking - she pushes things over in their sight and they blame the wind - she finds one beating her mother and she says You don't want to do that and the overseer stops, wanders off, confused -

The slaves don't seem impacted by the little demon's curses. (That's what they decide she is, a malevolent spirit of a child killed by the slavers, returned to wreak havoc. They're not sure they'll survive the demon themselves, but their few elders meet one by one, in secret, and then spread the word that the demon should be allowed to do her work. Better, they say, not to interfere.)

(Her mother continues insisting she's a gift. Doesn't mean she's not a demon gift, Shmi's friend says. Shmi laughs.)

Anakin's head starts going floaty, when she's listening the closest to her friend. She does things she shouldn't know how to do. Her friend guides her, there for her always -

When she's twelve years old, she convinces one of the slavers to kill the others - the one with the most hatred in their heart, ripe for a little demon to poke at - and then steals a ship, the biggest and nicest she can find. None of the slaves have ever piloted anything before.

Anakin floats in her head, listening to her friend, and starts turning things on.

The elder slaves organize everyone, saying, This is a choice, every individual one of us must make it - (Anakin won't let them force a single person onto the ship).

Every single slave chooses to flee. A few freemen from the village choose to come, mostly ones just barely above the slaves, who've benefited from the little demon's antics. They take food and medicine and everything of value, and they board the ship where their demon's been working.

Anakin guides the ship away from the planet, everything the dead slavers' allies could use to track it disabled, grinning.

She stops hiding, for the first time in her memory.

Her friend guides her to a planet where slavery is illegal, where her mother and her people can get their tracking implants removed and get a new start in a little quiet valley with the money from the goods they brought...

Everyone can see Anakin, now. She almost draws the eye, even.

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The arrival of a shipful of refugees at the tail end of Elesse's time on Transan does not go unnoticed. The governing council asks her to look into it, find out where they come from and what they want. She agrees. She has... a feeling, about it.

She takes a speeder to the landing site, out in the deep country, away from the cities.

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There's a large ship, its design the sort of tacky expensive you sometimes find in more backwater areas.

There's a girl sitting on the top, and some weary, bedraggled people unloading, children mostly helping but a few discovering they can run free, here.

The refugees look up, tense and wary, when she arrives. A few children scatter, hiding reflexively.

The girl jumps smoothly off the ship, falling in beside an elderly man coming out to meet her.

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Elesse swings smoothly off the speeder and stands to greet the reception committee. Her robe parts briefly and the quick-eyed will note the flash of a lightsaber hilt at her hip.

"Hello," she calls.

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"Hello," they say together - the man slowly, guarded, the girl chirping and grinning.

"What brings you here?" the man asks.

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"My name is Elesse Vendar. I am a Jedi Knight, here on behalf of the Galactic Republic and the people of Transan."

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The girl tilts her head, slowly mouthing the words 'Jedi Knight', while the man blinks.

"And what have we done to merit such august attention?" he says, remembering vaguely that the Jedi are - some sort of official. Said to be capable of influencing spirits, or spirits themselves. (His gaze flicks briefly to the girl.)

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"Why, landed here. Transan wishes to inquire what sort of people their new neighbors are, and whether they need any assistance."

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"We escaped from slavery," the girl says, while the man's still considering Elesse's words. "It was exciting. But people need the stuff the slavers could identify them with removed, and maybe some stuff to help us get set up farming. And some people have medical stuff."

The man sighs. "She's quite correct. We're hoping to simply be quiet subjects of Transan. Farmers. But we have very few people trained in medicine, and this place is a rather different climate than where we came from."

"And we landed here 'cause my friend thought it's a good place," the girl continues, cheerfully ignoring the man's briefly tight expression.

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"I will have medical assistance sent, and will ensure you receive the support you need to begin your lives here."

"What made your friend think that, young one?"

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"Thanks," the girl says, which the man echoes, sounding more relieved. Alone, the girl continues with: "And it didn't tell me why. I just knew I was supposed to fly here."

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"Could I meet your friend?"

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"I think you might already have. Most people just don't listen, though."

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"Your friend isn't a person?"

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"It talks to me, kinda, and seems pretty person-y. But it's not in one place."

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"Ah."

"I must return to the Transan to inform them of your needs. I wonder if you would care to accompany me?"

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She hesitates.

She's the only one who knows how to pilot the ship if something goes wrong. She's the best at going unseen. She knows before bad things happen -

And she feels sure things will be okay if she leaves.

"Alright," she says, slowly. "Seeing the city'd be neat."

It'd be different, too. (Sometimes Anakin feels all wrapped up in being her people's demon - it's important and people like her for doing it but all the other kids know what she is, and that makes not being a demon all the time hard.)

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She smiles. "Good."

To the older man, "I will send help back, and begin the process of expediting your citizenship."

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He nods, thanking her again, then glances at the girl.

"I'll be fine," she says. "And so will people here. Let people know I've ducked out, okay?" 'People' mostly meaning her mom.

"Alright," he says, ruffling her hair. She bats at him, laughing, then heads over to stand nearer Elesse.

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"Into the speeder, then. It's not a short trip back."

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"Alright." She climbs aboard.

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Elesse gets into the driver's seat, and they set off.

"So. I sense there are a few details you left out about your journey here."

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She hums. "Like where?"

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"The part where you said it was 'exciting', how about."

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"None of us got hurt. But one of the slavers decided he really didn't like his buddies. They fought. They're all dead, now."

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"Did your friend help him decide that?"

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"I don't think I'd say that. Isn't really anyone's fault but his if he got mad when his stuff would go missing or break or he'd lose a whole bunch of bets..."

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"I suppose anger would be a natural reaction. But to such extremes..."

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"He really didn't like the others, and thought they were messing with him, and he'd always been kinda unstable. I don't make people do stuff, though, unless they're being really bad."

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"I do not seek to criticize, merely to understand. You were in a difficult situation. That you brought others as well as yourself out of it speaks well."

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"...I was pushing him to make him mad. I didn't think he'd kill everyone himself, thought he'd just get into fights and mess up their ability to work together, but I was planning to get a lot of the important slavers dead anyways. Just would've been hard. Instead I only had to tell everyone when they needed to run and hide that morning."

"And I wouldn't have left people where they didn't wanna be."

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"Actions always have consequences. Sometimes not exactly the ones we expect."

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"I guess so..."

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"Living in the moment in fine as far as it goes, but I usually find it best to keep half an eye on the future."

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"How do you do that?"

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"How much do you know about Jedi?"

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"Nothing, really."

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"The galaxy knows us as diplomats, philosophers, and warriors. But the true source of a Jedi's power is her connection to the Force, an energy field that connects all life."

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"That sounds kinda like my friend. The Force."

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"Yes, I suspect so."

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"People say I'm a demon. A vengeful spirit. 'Cause I can do weird things, and I didn't have a father. Are all Jedi like me?"

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"...No. Not exactly. But it is not often a Jedi knows her family. And some of the things we do others could consider... weird."

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"I know my mom, though I'm not around her much."

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"A Jedi is usually taken for training at a very young age."

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"What's training like?"

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"Difficult. But rewarding. Academic studies, history, science, politics. Physical discipline, lightsaber training. Studies in the mysteries of the Force."

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"Those sound fun. What's a lightsaber?"

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"The weapon of a Jedi." She twitches her robe aside to reveal the sliver cylinder at her side.

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"Cool. I think I wanna do fighting and the Force and history the most just for cool stuff..." She makes a thoughtful face. "But keeping an eye on the future... If I'm gonna be doing stuff with it... What's helpful for stopping slavery?"

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"That depends on what scale you want to attack the problem, and how much visible progress you're willing to accept over your lifetime."

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"I dunno."

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"Slavery is a systemic issue, and the galaxy does not turn on one person's wish."

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"I think since I got the people I liked out I'm okay freeing other slaves more slowly, but I dunno I'll be good at doing something that takes a lot of effort for a long time that isn't - right there?"

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"You may find that changes as you get older."

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She pauses. "...Maybe."

She shifts a bit, almost fidgeting. "Is there a planet the Jedi live on? What's it like?"

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"Jedi live on Coruscant, the capital of the Republic, in the Jedi Temple. The surface of Coruscant is entirely covered by city, hundreds of levels deep. The Temple is almost the size of a small town in the midst of this, self-sufficient, in the world but not of it."

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"Woah. I've never been to a city. Especially not a planet sized one!" She bounces. "Are there lots of people?"

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"There are around ten thousand Jedi in the temple, with as many support staff. The population of Coruscant at large is more than six hundred billion."

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"Wow. What are they like?"

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"Which they?"

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"The people! All of them, I guess."

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"You can find just about anything you can imagine in a population of that size. Mostly, my impression of them is of how noisy they are. It seems like the only quiet place on Coruscant is the meditation gardens in the Temple."

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"You don't like people that much?"

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"In small doses, or with a certain amount of pre-screening."

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"I like people. They don't talk to me much though 'cause I'm a demon, and they're scared of me."

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"I don't think you're a demon. Though I didn't get your name."

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"I'm Anakin Skywalker. Would you be scared of me if I was a demon?"

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"It's nice to meet you, Anakin. Fear is not generally a productive emotion."

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"Nice to meet you too! And I guess not to the person feeling it."

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"Causing fear in others can be a dangerous path to tread. Fear can make someone unpredictable, and it is hard to change their impression of you from that starting point if you wished to switch tactics later. I prefer to begin with awed respect, and go from there."

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She hums, thoughtful. "Yeah. I have a lotta trouble getting stuff 'cause of people being scared of me, sometimes. Usually just steal food and all. And most of them only got on the ship 'cause of the elders getting on and 'cause they were more scared of the slavers' friends coming by and finding them near the dead. ...Though it's funny when my enemies are scared."

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"Keeping your enemies scared and your friends happy can be a delicate line to walk."

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"...Yeah. I don't think I'm good at that. And I don't like it when people stop wanting to be around me."

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"I will be leaving this planet soon and returning to the Jedi Temple. If you like, I could take you with me. You could have a fresh start, a chance to try again."

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"I wanna go. I wanna see everything."

"And I think my people'd be glad about that. They don't need a demon anymore."

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"It may be that you don't need a demon anymore, either."

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She giggles. "What does that mean?"

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"When you were a demon before, you had power over your situation you weren't allowed to have as a person. Going forward, you'll have freedom as yourself."

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"Will the Force stop talking to me if I stop being a demon, though?"

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"Will you die if you stop being a demon?"

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"Probably not."

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"Then the Force will keep talking to you."

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"Then maybe I'll try being something other than a demon. Freedom as myself sounds really nice."

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Elesse smiles. "Excellent."

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Heeeee.

"Would you teach me if you took me with you?"

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"I would certainly like to. The High Council has the final say in assigning Padawans to masters, but we'll be talking to them anyway. You're rather older than typical to be joining the Order."

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She makes a face. "I don't like the word 'master.'"

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"It's an archaism that dates back the founding of the Jedi. 'Teacher' would be the more modern word for it, but we tend to be traditional."

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"Teacher's okay. I guess traditions are fine if they're just what's worked in the past, but it seems silly to use an old word just 'cause of tradition."

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"Think of all the paperwork that would need to be changed."

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She giggles. "I've never done paperwork before."

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"You're lucky. It's very tedious."

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"Do Jedi have a lot of paperwork?"

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"It depends on what you do. Everyone has to file a report after a mission. If you're on a Council or are involved in managing some aspect of the Temple, you have to deal with whatever's generated by those duties as well."

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"Don't think I wanna do those."

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"Then you can probably get away with minimal paperwork."

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"That's good."

"What do you do?"

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"I'm in what we call active service. Whenever there's trouble or someone requests the presence of a Jedi, I go out and handle things."

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"That's cool. Was there trouble here?"

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"A dispute with the Trade Federation about tariffs. The Trade Federation is the organization responsible for most of the shipping to and from this planet, and they wanted to charge the government more money for their services, over and above whatever profit they already make on the individual shipments themselves."

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"That sounds... Petty? I guess lots of people just want as much money as they can get, though."

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"It has to do with a larger economic and policy realignment happening all across the Republic right now. Solving the problem in the general case is proving intractable, so I and more Jedi in other places are solving specific instances."

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"Huh... Like, if you can't get the boss to stop doing something, going to all his people and bribing them?"

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"Like that but legal, shall we say. Because these are local settlements, the agreement doesn't need to consider every possible permutation of variables, only the actual relevant facts of the situation at hand."

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"Yeah. And I guess if you want stuff all predictable it's better to start with a small group. Big groups destabilize easier."

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"Yes. It worked quite well in this case, and I hope to hear the others were similarly successful on our return."

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She nods. "Do you have any friends in the Jedi?"

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"A few. Training partners, old crechemates, some people I've gotten to know over missions."

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"What are they like?"

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Elesse can tell some mildly amusing stories for the rest of the trip back to the city.

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She seems more interested in getting to know the type of person Elesse usually likes, but she can be sidetracked pretty easily by stories of assorted shenanigans.

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Most of her friends are either generally nerdish, or extremely good at a specific thing.

The city, when they get there, is decently large by Outer Rim standards. The center has buildings consistently ten to fifteen stories tall, with the height dropping off towards the outskirts. The streets have more mechanized transport than animals, and are fairly crowded. Elesse takes them to the city hall, which has a fluted glass front and little durasteel curlicues.

"Do you want to come in with me?"

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She's fascinated, watching the people raptly.

"Yeah!"

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"Okay. We're going to see the planetary governor and tell him about your people and what they need. He'll probably ask about getting Republic assistance with that and I'll tell him I'll look into it. He'll thank me for my time and I'll thank him for his cooperation and then we can be on our way. It'll all be a little more flowery than that, but that's the gist of it."

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"Okay. Should I tell him about my people, or you?"

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"He'll probably be most comfortable if I do the talking."

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"Alright. I'll hang back."

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Elesse nods, and in they go. The governor meets them inside, wearing a brocaded robe and a hat that resembles a flower in bloom. He takes them up to his office, paneled in dark wood with a full-length window on one side and offers tea, which Elesse accepts. There's a five-minute preparation ritual, after which the meeting unfolds largely as predicted.

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Weird mixture of interesting - new people and new cultures - and boring - she's not getting to talk. Still, she stays quiet, watching Elesse carefully, trying to pick up on what she's doing to get her desired outcome.

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Most of the hard work of establishing trust has already been done. She presents what she wants, and then he agrees, after clarification. In the rare instance where he doesn't immediately agree, she circles around and talks back through the issue until he winds up saying the same thing that she did of his own accord. With a few brief pleasantries at the end, they can be on their way again.

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"You're good at talking to people."

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"By dint of long practice."

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"I think talking to people's something I'm gonna like - I like talking to you."

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"Thank you. But you shouldn't be too quick to generalize from a sample size of one."

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"So I'll just have to talk to lots of people then."

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"Sounds right."

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She nods, bouncing a bit. "Are we gonna leave soon, then?"

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"Unless you want to go back and say goodbye to anyone."

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"I'd pretty much just tell my mom where I'm going, and - she'll be told where I went? But I guess she'd find it reassuring if I said I was with you, instead of just vanishing."

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"It's up to you. I will note that I am unsure when you will next have an opportunity to speak with her."

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"I guess I'll wanna at least make sure she gets the message, and telling her myself's a quick way of doing that..."

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"Then we'll go back."

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"Thanks. Sorry it's out of the way."

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"It is no trouble. Come." Back into the speeder.

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"Alright."

She asks a lot more in depth questions about Jedi training on the way back.

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Elesse has answers. The academic curriculum is standardized, with options for both group learning and individual guided studies. Mystical and martial arts are taught in group sessions until apprenticeship, at which point the student's teacher customizes their instruction to fit their individual needs.

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"I guess I'll have a lot of catching up to do..."

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"An eminently closeable distance, especially for a smart girl like yourself. Small children learn this material, after all."

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"Yeah. Figure it won't take too long. And you're really good at explaining stuff."

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"I try. Ah, we're approaching."

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She nods, and when they arrive hops down to tell the elders that aid's coming.

Her mom approaches before Anakin can run off to find her. She's worn - not that old, objectively, but weathered, like she's been stretched thin for far too long. Her skin's pocked from some long ago disease, and her hair's brittle.

"Mom, this's the Jedi Knight. She's taking me to learn to be a Jedi," Anakin says, excitedly.

The woman smiles. "That's good. You'll be leaving, then?"

Anakin nods. "Yeah. She says I can stop being a demon, too. I wanna know how to do that."

A sadder look enters the woman's eyes. "You've always been my gift, darling." She touches Anakin's cheek, briefly, then turns to Elesse. "You'll look after her?"

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"I will."

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"Thank you," the woman says, solemnly. Then, to Anakin: "Darling... Just make sure you're happy, okay?"

Anakin nods, looking serious. "I will."

"And thank you for letting me know where you're going. That is - a gift, to a worried mother." The woman smiles again. "Good luck to you."

"Good luck, mom," Anakin returns.

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When she's ready to go, Elesse will be waiting.

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She's ready.

"Thanks for - reminding me to say goodbye."

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They can be off.

"It is not good to allow the past to be an anchor."

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She kicks her feet. "Yeah. Don't think it would've bothered me to just vanish, but it would've bothered her. And she has done a lot for me."

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"Payment of a debt."

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"Yeah. Kinda? And I don't want her unhappy."

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"I see."

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She nods, humming, and then yawns.

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"Get some rest, if you like. I'll wake you when we reach the city."

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"Alright. Thanks."

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The trip back is quiet.

When they arrive, Elesse taps Anakin on the shoulder. "Time to move."

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She wakes up a bit groggily.

"'Kay. What's your ship look like?"

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She points. "It's the red one."

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"Huh! It's cool. Looks - like a spaceship and not like a decoration, I guess?"

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"The designers had a... unique aesthetic sense. But it performs well."

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"The important thing!"

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"Quite. Let's board."

The interior of the ship is not quite as... red as the exterior, thankfully. It's actually quite tastefully decorated and rather spacious.

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Spacious is good! She doesn't really like being confined.

She wants to meet people! Or explore the ship. Or both!

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Elesse tells the captain to set course for Coruscant. One of the techs can give Anakin the tour.

There's the engine room, crew quarters, maintenance room, mess, the bridge, and of course, the salon, currently in a recreation configuration with couches, screens, and tabletop hologame projectors.

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She wants to test all the couches for comfortableness, and then poke all the screens and games. She's never really gotten to play games before. How do you play?

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The controls are on the side panels, and Elesse can explain the rules.

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Oooo. She wants to play some of the strategy and fighting ones.

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They can go a few rounds, sure.

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She's not very good, but she picks up on the basics of the rules and strategies quite quickly.

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It's close enough that she has a chance to win, once she gets the rules.

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She'll squeak out a win in the last round.

"That was fun!"

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"It was. You've got some talent for this."

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Heeeeeeee.

"I've got talents for lots of things."

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"So I'm beginning to see. Unfortunately, I need to get started on my report to the Council."

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"Okay. I'll watch stuff in here."

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"Bother a crewmember if you need anything." She goes off to her little office space.

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And she plays around with the screens until she discovers whatever entertainment program contains the highest quantities of explosions.

Then she gets bored after a while, turns it off, flops on the most comfortable couch, closes her eyes, and starts to drift mentally, listening to her friend - the Force, she guesses - and evening out her breathing.

She'll still be drifting like that by the time anyone comes looking for her.

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Some hours later, Elesse does the mental equivalent of tapping her on the shoulder.

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She stretches languidly and hums, drifting back out of the headspace she'd been floating in.

She glances around.

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"There's food, if you're hungry."

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"Ooo, yeah, food sounds good." She bounces up off the couch.

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To the mess. Technician Ves has prepared a traditional Alderaanian stew. Vegetarian, filling, and slightly sweet.

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It's nothing like what she's eaten before, even when she was stealing nicer food. It's really good, and she's really curious about what it's made from and what Alderaan's like and what people's stories are.

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Technician Ves is happy to expound upon both the making of the dish and the history of Alderaan, which he still considers to be the most beautiful and verdant world in all the galaxy, even after fifteen years attached to the Diplomatic Service.

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She listens, mostly attentive. Alderaan sounds neat - she wants to explore, so.

After the history lesson, to Elesse: "How long's the trip gonna be?"

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"Another half-day or so."

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"That's not too bad."

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"It's a decently fast ship."

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"Sounds it. Ours was pretty slow..."

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"The advantages of having galactic resources."

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"Yeah. And better selection - I needed one that could fit everyone and their stuff, and keep going for as long as I felt we needed, and that wasn't the fastest one."

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"Multi-dimensional optimization problems can be tricky. The ability to decide which variables are easiest to trade off against is valuable."

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"Thanks! I might've picked different if I hadn't known we could get where we were going in time on the slow ship, though."

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"A Jedi is often called upon to make such choices."

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She nods. "Is that why there's so much - general education? So you know what all the different variables mean, and aren't just going by what feels best?"

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"Yes. The Force is a valuable ally, but it is not a crutch, and a Jedi should understand how to think as well as feel. And being able to explain a reasoning for your decision can help convince those not gifted with foresight of your correctness."

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"The Force also has different priorities than me. It's a friend, not an omniscient copy of my brain."

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"A good observation, yes."

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Heee.

"Though I don't wanna go too far the other way and stop listening." She swings her legs, fidgeting.

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"As in all things, the proper balance is required. Speaking of which, would you like to try some Jedi stretching exercises? We don't have much room on board for anything more active, but we should be able to find space for that."

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"Oh, yeah! That sounds fun." She bounces a bit more. (She's gonna go on a run next time she has open space to do it in.)

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Then they can find an open area and spread out a bit. Elesse demonstrates a few basic positions and the transitions between them, and explains what muscle groups each is targeted at. The idea is to flow through the set smoothly. Some of the poses are surprisingly difficult to hold for how simple they look, making this challenging.

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Not the kind of exercise she usually does, but fun all the same. She likes the stuff that's challenging the most, especially for balance.

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They can do more balance exercises. Elesse can be persuaded into showing an advanced one that involves standing on your hands, then fingertips, then removing fingers one by one, floating upside down by the end of it.

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Fortunately, Anakin seems to find falling over pretty funny. She has good balance, but challenges herself enough she still topples a lot.

"Can you fly?" she asks after the floating demonstration.

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"Not without mechanical aid, alas."

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"Can any Jedi fly?"

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"Long jumps are about the best it gets."

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"Aw. I like doing jumps, but flying sounds fun. Maybe I'll be the first to manage it."

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"Good luck."

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She laughs and goes back to doing handstands. (Her balance improves noticeably over the practice.)

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Excellent.

How long will this keep her occupied?

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For a bit over two hours, and she seems content to entertain herself afterwards.

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Then the rest of their trip can be peaceful. And she can work out the rest what she's going to say to the Council.

They dock at a municipal spaceport, and take a shuttle to the Temple. Coruscant is, arguably, best viewed from the air. All the hustle and bustle, the shine and the steel, interwoven in a glittering tapestry that speaks the best values of civilization, without getting close enough to see the grimy underside and the sparks when the cogs don't quite mesh.

The Jedi Temple itself is an enormous edifice, a pyramid cut off partway up the slope with four tall towers capping the top. It dominates the comparatively lower district surrounding it.

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She's quite impressed, trying to get a good look at everything.

"What's the Council like?"

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"They have... a strong presence."

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"Huh." She tilts her head. "Like with the Force?"

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"Yes. But also in terms of personalities. They will test you."

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"Okay. What'll the test be?"

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"I can't say. Both in that I don't know how they will choose to approach it, and that if I did know, telling you would invalidate it."

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She nods, slowly. "Okay. I'll figure it out myself, then."

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"Consider your weaknesses, and how they might be addressed."

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"Not sure they'll agree with me on what's a weakness, though."

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"Then it can also be an exercise in seeing things from other points of view."

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"Yeah, maybe." She seems pretty deep in thought.

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They land at a hanger set into the Temple's side wall. They're met by one of Elesse's friends, a Zabrak named Marin.

     "Elesse! You're back! How were negotiations?"

"Hello Marin. They went smoothly."

Marin chuckles. "You do have a talent for discouraging misbehavior. And who's this?" She turns to Anakin.

"This is Anakin Skywalker. We met onworld. Anakin, this is Knight Marin."

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"Hi!"

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     "A pleasure to meet you, Anakin. ...Elesse, what are you up to?"

"Nothing suspicious."

Marin squints at her. Elesse regards her blandly. "Mhm. Well, the Council wants to see you."

"That is convenient, as I also wish to see the Council. We'll be up directly." Marin laughs, and departs with a wave.

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She waves. "Bye!"

And then she turns to Elesse.

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"Do you have a question?"

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"Not really. Which way are we going?"

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"The Council Chamber is at the top of the west tower. This way."

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"Alright."

She follows.

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It's a bit of a long walk to the elevator. The corridors are tall and grand, with patterned floors and decorated walls, and lots of windows to let in natural light. They pass many different Jedi along the way, and Elesse nods greetings to most of them. It seems like just about every species Anakin has ever even heard of is represented, with some she hasn't besides.

Around it all, if Anakin is paying attention to her friend, is a deep and abiding atmosphere of contentment, of happiness, of home.

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She's kind of always paying at least a little attention. She looks at all the decorations and all the new types of people, and she basks in the feeling she's getting from her friend, letting its happiness feed and blend with her own giddy excitement, adding a more mellow, grounded undertone. 

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There is a bank of dedicated turbolifts to the Council Chamber, with no visible buttons on the call panels. Elesse waves her hand over one. It beeps, and the nearest door hisses open. They get in, and the door hisses shut as the lift begins to ascend.

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"How's that work?"

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"The mechanism is hidden behind a panel such that one must use the Force to activate it. The panel can be removed if necessary, but the idea is that if you are not in a state of mind where such manipulation is easy, you are not likely in a state of mind to be ready to speak with the Council."

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"Oh, okay. Why wouldn't it be easy, though?"

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"Delicate or small-scale telekinetic manipulations can be difficult to concentrate on when your mind is preoccupied."

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"Huh. I guess, yeah, if you're really upset."

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"It's not a perfect system, but it's not intended to be."

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"That seems kinda weird... Why wouldn't you try to get as close to perfect as you can?"

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"Most often, because the returns you get for further improvement aren't worth the time and resources to develop and implement them."

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"Huh. Okay."

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They reach the top and the lift door opens. The doors to the Council Chamber proper are arched, twice as tall as Elesse, and dark wood. She opens them and steps through.

The room beyond is circular, with twelve chairs in a ring around the center, with a gap at the door. Floor-to-ceiling windows offer an excellent view of the city. The ones facing the sun are auto-tinted to reduce glare. Occupying eight of the twelve chairs are Councilors. The two directly opposite the door are the most noticeable. One is a tall, dark-skinned human male with a severe expression on his face. The other is a wizened little green creature, even shorter than Anakin, with wispy gray hair and long pointy ears.

Elesse goes to the center of the room and bows briefly.

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She bounces up beside Elesse and cheerily copies her bow. (This is so cool, the city's so pretty, also she's never seen the green Councilor's species and that's cool too - )

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     "Good to see you again, it is, Master Vendar," the little green one says. "With success in your mission, did you meet?"

"Yes, Master Yoda." She briefly summarizes the results.

The bald man leans forward and steeples his fingers. "Well and good. But I think we are all more interested in the unexpected guest you have brought us."

"This is Anakin Skywalker. I encountered her at the end of my mission, when she landed a ship full of refugees she rescued from a band of slavers on the planet."

Yoda looks at Anakin. "Mm. And accomplish this feat how did you?"

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"There's - a feeling I get, from my friend, who Elesse thinks is maybe the Force, and my friend tells me how to do stuff I wanna do, and gives me good or bad feelings about courses of action. Like, it helped me learn how to make it so people don't notice me, and how far I'm gonna have to fly and where, and how to move things without touching them, and how to pilot a ship by myself. We got the chance to run because I was annoying one of the slavers so he'd get into a fight with some other slavers and get me breathing room for some other stuff I was planning, except then the fight kind of... Spiraled, and he decided to kill everyone around him, so I told all the slaves to get out of the way so they wouldn't get hurt, and we all left afterwards, before anyone could notice what'd happened."

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"Mm. Reckless, you are. Incautious."

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"I knew it'd go well, and it did, I just didn't always know why or how. I don't risk my people when I've got a bad feeling - and not doing anything would've definitely hurt us. Lots of people were already slowly starving, or dying of medical issues, or just suffering, and now they won't."

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"A path begun in violence, to no solution does it lead."

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"Wouldn't call it begun there, unless you count the slavers taking slaves as the path's beginning. My part began with redirecting them away from my people, and hiding, and stealing medicine, and I started trying to get us out because no one was coming, and no one'd come for a thousand years, and I knew no one'd keep coming. I'm not always good at keeping things from escalating in ways I haven't predicted, but I'd like to learn how to do that, and the Jedi seem - to be good at getting goals without messing up like that."

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"Training you seek, hmm? And what say you, Master Vendar?"

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"I believe it would be best for everyone if Anakin were accepted into the Jedi Order."

Yoda looks around the room. A chain of glances passes from Councilor to Councilor, ending up at Master Windu, to Yoda's left. His frown deepens. "She is too old," he says.

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"I've got a lot of catching up to do. But why is age a factor, other than how much I need to learn?"

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"Attachments you have. Fears, ambitions. These things a Jedi needs not."

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"Pretty sure I don't have fears, and I don't think there's anyone I'm attached to right now - I got my people set down somewhere safe, so they're none of my concern anymore. Dunno I have any ambitions I'm actually attached to, more current whims."

This is definitely not someone who's felt a lick of fear since coming to the planet. Interest, fascination, curiosity, excitement, a sort of background hum syncing with the contentment and happiness she feels around her - even when being challenged, she'd remained focused on the puzzle of it, any irritation mild at best, and floating away rather quickly.

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"Know your mind well you do, for one so young. Nothing hidden lurking in dark corners you have, hmm?"

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"If it's hiding, I don't currently know about it."

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Another look chains around the room.

"Deliberate on the matter of Anakin Skywalker, this Council will. Dismissed, you are."

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Elesse turns to go.

     "Master Vendar," Windu says. "Stay a moment."

"As you like, Master Windu." She returns to her spot.

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She tilts her head. "I'll wait in the turbolift," she tells Elesse.

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"We may be some time. Feel free to explore the Temple. I'll find you after."

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She nods, says, "Okay," and turns to head back to the turbolift. (And figuring out how to make it work on her own.)

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The doors close behind her, and the lift opens on her approach. There are helpfully numbered floor buttons inside for her to press.

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Well, that's easier than the way up, at least.

She pushes the smallest number.

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Down the lift goes.

It opens to reveal a mezzanine or entrance hall, with more banks of turbolifts to her left and right, and doors out to the plaza surrounding the temple in front of her.

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She'd rather stay in the temple, it's new and interesting...

She closes her eyes, spins, picks a turbolift based on which way she's facing when she stops, and then selects a floor, also at random.

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Zip zip off she goes.

On this floor, she can hear the sound of young children playing.

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Probably not very interesting... She looks at some of the decorations briefly, because they're pretty, and looks out the windows, because city, and then zip, off to a new floor.

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Looks like greenhouses.

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She explores those for a short while, then remembers Elesse had mentioned some gardens or something that she liked, and Anakin starts looking for those specifically.

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Doesn't seem to be this floor, which is more practical than decorative.

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Zooming between floors and turbolifts it is, and trying to get a mental idea of the layout.

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Living quarters, training halls, cafeteria, more living quarters, classrooms, conference rooms, janitorial supplies, workshops, classrooms again, the Archives...

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She stops at the Archives. That sounds interesting.

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There are lots of books, and also an old woman at the front desk who asks, "Can I help you, young one?" when Anakin walks in.

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"Maybe! There's so many books! I wanna read, but I dunno where to start..."

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"Are you new here at the Temple? I can't say I recognize your face..."

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"Master Elesse Vendar brought me here. She's trying to talk the Council into letting her teach me, I think? But she said I could wander around while she's doing that, and I haven't ever seen so many books before, and I wanna read everything."

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"Ah. In that case, let me introduce you to the catalog computer." She leads Anakin over to a row of terminals, and shows her how the search function works and how to interpret the location. "If you have any questions, just come ask me."

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"Okay. Thanks!"

And poking at the catalog... Hm, maybe history or politics, she's torn between 'stuff about the Jedi' and 'starting on figuring out ending slavery,' except the Jedi are shinier so she looks up beginners' guides for Jedi history.

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The Jedi have been around even longer than the Republic, which is quite a long time indeed. Way back when hyperspace travel was discovered and the galaxy was beginning to be explored for the first, all the different planetary civilizations began to meet each other. In the midst of this unprecedented cultural exchange, Force users also began to find each other. They came together to form the Jedi Order to study the mysteries of the Force and learn to harness their abilities for peace and justice.

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Cool.

She jumps over to reading about the Republic's founding.

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There have actually been a succession of Republics, brought down by wars or infighting or pressures of expansion or corruption. The most recent incarnation has stood since the Ruusan Reformation, almost a thousand years ago. At this time, the constitution was rewritten to redistribute power between the Senate, Supreme Chancellor, the courts, and sector governance, and to disband the standing army.

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History's interesting, especially the stories about people. She finds some biographies of important figures mentioned in the overview, especially anyone noted as a major reformer (especially if they were a Jedi or opposed slavery), and settles in to read.

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About an hour and a half later, Elesse finds her.

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She's read so much! Her eyes kinda hurt.

She grins when she sees Elesse, and starts closing books to put them away, briefly committing to memory where she left off.

"How'd it go?" she asks.

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"Welcome to the Jedi Order, Padawan Skywalker."

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She makes a quiet, happy noise.

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"The Council also acceded to my request to take you as a student."

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Louder, happier noise.

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The lady at the desk looks over, annoyed.

"Come on. Let's visit the commissary and get you some things before Madame Nu bans us both."

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"Sorry," she whispers, finishing putting the books up.

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And then they can go get Anakin measured for robes. There aren't many choices for style, but everything is comfortable and well-made.

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Eh, she's used to having not even both of 'comfortable' and 'fits,' it's cool.

"What am I gonna learn first?"

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"Let's start with the way to our apartment."

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She nods, bouncing a bit. "Alright. Which way?"

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To the apartment. It's plain but neatly kept. A few landscapes break up the monotony of the walls in the living area, with a couch, two chairs, and a low table in the center. Off to the left is a small kitchen and refresher. Straight back are the doors to two bedrooms.

"I've been using the one on the left as a meditation room. You can move your things in and just drop the rug in front of my door."

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"Thanks. I don't really have much, though..." She'd like to acquire more, sometime.

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"Then it shouldn't take you long, yes?"

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She giggles and runs off to explore her bedroom (and return Elesse's rug).

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The lights are auto-set to low; there's a panel by the door where she can change that. The rug is in the middle of the floor taking up the space where the desk chair (currently stacked on top of the bed) should be. As just hinted, there is also a bed and a desk. The bed, in addition to the chair, has a full set of sheets, and the desk has a datapad charging station that will nicely fit the datapad she got from the commissary. There is a wardrobe suitable for storing her new clothes, and a small bedside table suitable for storing the sort of knickknacks or mementos she does not currently have any of.

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She drops her clothes on the bed and her datapad on the desk so she can roll up the rug, then unstacks the desk chair, puts clothes away, and goes to return the rug to Elesse.

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"Thank you. Does the room meet with your approval?"

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"The bed's soft enough, and the lights aren't bad or anything. It's a nice room."

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"I'm glad you're satisfied. I'd hate to have to move."

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" - Would you move, if I wasn't?"

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"Yes."

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"Why?"

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"Your comfort is worth more than the inconvenience of relearning which door to come back to after meals."

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She nods, slowly. "Thanks."

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"Speaking of which, it's Cifanti chili night in the cafeteria."

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"Haven't had that before!" She bounces a bit.

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"Then let us go."

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Off, to food! Anakin matches her walking speed to Elesse's, mostly, still looking around at everything.

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As long as she doesn't get lost.

The chili is traditionally served over thick chunks of bread, and eaten as a sort of open-face sandwich. Elesse has two slices' worth.

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Anakin has three, and peppers the meal with questions about the things she read while Elesse was talking to the Council.

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Elesse has answers. She's quite well-versed in a variety of topics, it seems.

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"How'd you become a Jedi?" she asks, eventually, having been mostly asking about Jedi history, and having already started making a few connections between the overviews and biographies she read.

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"A Jedi is all I've ever been. I was brought into the Order at a very young age."

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"Huh. How'd you become a Master, then?"

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"Long years of practice and study. And I solved an ancient mystery or two."

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She giggles. "Is everything practicing and studying?"

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"If you look at life in the correct frame of mind, everything you do is practice for what will come in the future."

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"What about doing things just 'cause it's now and they're here, though?"

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"Then you're practicing improvisation and reaction."

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"But what for? If everything's practice for the future, what's gonna be the final act?"

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"If there is one, I have not yet encountered it. It's more about... continuous improvement. Always being better than you were. Quicker, wiser, stronger. For me, that is enough."

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"Huh. That does sound nice... But I like having stuff that's fun 'cause it's fun, too."

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"I can give you advice, but your path is ultimately your own."

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"Definitely! Though I don't think learning about other paths hurts."

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"In most cases, certainly."

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"When would it hurt?"

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"Not all knowledge is benign. There are some ideas that can eat away at a person like a cancer, twisting and distorting their thoughts beyond recognition."

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"Oh. That sounds unpleasant. How do you keep those out of your head?"

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"You can learn to spot the way such things begin, or listen to those who have already done so."

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"Can you get it out of your head once it's there?"

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"Possibly. But it would be difficult."

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"Is it different for everyone, though? Seems like it would be."

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"There are variations, yes."

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"What if what bothers you is really weird, then?"

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"Weird in what way?"

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"I don't think there's anything I could find out about myself that'd be horrifying, and I've already seen a lot of people being horrid to each other. And that's the sort of thing that bothers most people, I think."

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"Perhaps. But the galaxy is vast, and there are some things that you do not yet have conceptual vocabulary to visualize."

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"I guess I'll have to learn a lot, then."

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"You were already planning to do so, yes?"

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"Yup! Got a lot on my list."

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She smiles. "That is good. We can make a start tomorrow, how about?"

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"Yeah. Learned a lot already. I like reading, though. It isn't hard or anything."

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"Noted. We'll have to keep our stock of books up."

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"Yeah! And not annoy the librarian person."

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"It's very hard to seriously annoy Jocasta Nu. Fortunately."

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Giggle. "Well, she hasn't done anything warranting even non-seriously annoying her, and she has books, so."

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"Quite."

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"Can I get books on the data pad, too?"

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"Yes. The electronic library is quite thorough."

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"I'll wanna do that, then. The data pad's good for carrying around."

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"This can be arranged."

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She nods, grinning. "What's day to day life like, here? I got a bit of an overview, exploring, but this place is big, and then I got distracted by the Archives..."

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"There's not really a universal set schedule, apart from the younglings. And you don't really count as one of them. One spends one's time according to one's interests, whether that be research or meditation or saber training. In your case in particular, you and I will work together to determine how you can best learn the material the Order requires of its initiates, whether that be your individual study, one-on-one tutoring, or enrolling you in group lessons, and organize your days from there."

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She nods. "Doing whatever I feel like that day and time seems good, yeah. What I'm used to."

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"As long as you're making overall progress."

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"I like learning enough that I think I will."

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"That's all I ask."

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She nods and takes a few bites of her food, clearly thinking. "Lots of people seem to want more than that from me."

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"Some people live more in the future than the present. Eventually, I will ask more of you as well, but we'll build up to that."

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"What kinds of things would you ask?"

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"Your help with missions, most likely. Or that you attend a problem I am too busy to see to myself."

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"I don't mind helping you with stuff, even if it's boring stuff. You're doing a lot to help me."

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"I appreciate that."

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She grins, though she seems to - for once - be out of easy questions.

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Then after they've finished eating, they can return to their apartment for the night.

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She retreats to her room, a bit over-socialed, and curls up in the bed, letting her mind drift into the meditative state she likes - she hasn't properly let herself just float since getting here, which probably isn't helping the restlessness she's feeling.

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She will be undisturbed until mid-morning the next day.

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She falls asleep while drifting, and then wakes up to nighttime. It's not properly dark here, and something about that leaves her feeling exposed - dark's always been the best, easiest time to work. 

She doesn't bother getting out of bed, reaching out, focusing, so her datapad floats to her hand. She spends the rest of the night figuring out the electronic archives and then reading between intermittent naps, and once the sun comes up turns her mind back to drifting - she has a lot to absorb, and the Jedi Temple feels nice. It isn't her people, isn't the empty vast of the desert or a spaceship - it's friendlier. A good change, for now.

It doesn't really occur to her than she should get breakfast at any specific time.

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Elesse knocks on her door after a while.

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She drifts back into a normal amount of focus and bounces up out of bed. "Yeah, come in!" she calls.

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She opens the door.

"Are you hungry?"

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"Kinda, I guess?"

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"I made some eggs, if you want."

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"Oh, okay, yeah!" She doesn't bother stopping to change out of her sleep clothes, instead just heading straight to the kitchen.

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Food is hers for the taking.

"What would you like to study today?"

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"Hm... I learned a lot of history yesterday. So I wanna do more physical stuff or stuff with the Force today."

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"All right. Get your exercise robe when you have finished eating."

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"Okay!" She finishes quickly - not so quickly she'll make herself sick - then scurries off to change, bouncing back out shortly thereafter.

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Then it's off to the training rooms. Elesse picks a small, private one. A ring is drawn in the center of the floor, and on the wall is a rack of training sabers.

"Today, we will begin with the basics of lightsaber training."

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Excited noise as she examines the practice saber.

"I'm ready to learn. What's first?"

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"The Jedi recognize seven distinct forms of lightsaber combat. Most people choose one or perhaps two to focus on. I will describe them, and you can tell me which you'd like to try.

"The first form is called Shii-Cho. It is the oldest, developed at the same time as the first lightsabers, and many of the later forms build or refine upon its techniques. Shii-Cho is characterized by wide, sweeping motions and deliberate and methodical advances. Its strength and its weakness lies in its simplicity.

"As the early Jedi became more accustomed to fighting with lightsabers, the disadvantages of the style when facing other blades became more apparent. The second form was created to address these shortcomings, and is called Makashi. It is precise and accurate, in contrast with Shii-Cho, focusing on leverage and footwork. It is more elegant than other forms, requiring less physical strength but more mental focus on the overall picture. However, it is less suitable for defending against other weapons, such as blasters.

"The third form is Soresu, and it turns the sweeping of Shii-Cho into a defensive net. Soresu values the guard above all else, and its philosophy states that one should hold their ground and wait for the enemy to make a mistake. It is the most passive of the forms. Some say this makes it the truest Jedi form, in keeping with the principle of nonaggression.

"Ataru is the name of the fourth form. It is characterized as the most acrobatic form. Jumps, leaps, and rolls are all integral pieces. Ataru relies on momentum to keep the opponent off-balance, and quick feet to stay alive, as you are not in one place long enough to form a true defense.

"Form five, Shien, is an extension of Soresu. Rather than wait for the opponent to expose themselves, a practitioner of Shien forces openings. This can be done by reflecting an attack or by brute strength. It can end a fight quickly, but it sacrifices some defensive mastery for the chance to do so.

"The sixth form is Niman, and is my preferred style. Sometimes called the diplomat's style for its fairly light attention to bladework, Niman blends elements of the previous forms, distilling a mixture of techniques that are broadly useful in many situations. True mastery of this form demands one be able to read each unique situation at a deep level, and adapt to the best course of action.

"The final form of lightsaber combat is Juyo. This form is aggression before all else, and combines the momentum of Ataru with the power of Shien. There are very few masters of Juyo in the Jedi Order, and I would not recommend it as the first form you study."

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She hums. "Niman sounds very useful. But I think Ataru is the most like how I think? And it sounds fun. I probably also wouldn't be bad at Makashi, but I want a more flexible style... I'd probably be bad at Shii-Cho and Soresu, and I don't think I'd be extremely good at Shien or Juyo."

"So that all comes out to 'I should learn Ataru first.'"

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"All right. Then let's get started. We'll run through some of the basic katas first and then try some jumping exercises, so you can think about what they'd be like with a saber."

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"Okay!" She bounces. "I'm ready!"

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Physical activity commences. They'll go until dinner or Anakin gets tired, whichever comes first.

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Dinner, though Anakin's less energetic by the time it rolls around, instead a more relaxed sort of tired. She picks the forms up quickly, too, and seems to have a good imagination for how she'd incorporate a saber into her jumps.

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They shouldn't get ahead of themselves. But at the rate she's going, it won't be that long before she can start to try it out.

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She'll be careful and studious and whatever! (Lightsaber lightsaber lightsaber!!!)

(She actually is those things; it helps that Ataru is fun, and she currently wants to spend at least an hour a day on it, even when they're not doing more extensive exercises, woven in among meditation and studying. Maybe in the mornings to help her wake up? She doesn't learn mental stuff well in the morning, anyways, so morning's a good time for exercise and meditation.)

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They can work that into the schedule, certainly.

As Anakin's other lessons progress, Elesse begins to weave in more Jedi philosophy, starting with the Jedi Code. The Code is lengthy, and often oblique, but at its heart are five lines. As transcribed by Master Odan-Urr, they run thus:
There is no emotion, there is peace.
There is no ignorance, there is knowledge.
There is no passion, there is serenity.
There is no chaos, there is harmony.
There is no death, there is the Force.


"While each line has much to unpack, the effect of the whole is also important. Do you have any immediate thoughts you would like to share?"
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"Why does no emotion link to peace? And don't you get knowledge from ignorance?"

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"'Peace' here refers not to a physical lack of war, but to a mental state. A Jedi acknowledges her emotions, but does not let them drive her. Things like anger, worry, jealousy, fear, can all cloud your judgement and inhibit your connection to the Force. A quiet mind, a peaceful mind, is able to listen and think clearly. In a similar way, ignorance is more than a lack of knowledge, but a persistent state of mind. Things are not unknowable, but unknown. You can gain knowledge if you seek it."

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"That makes sense, though happiness is an emotion and I don't think that's cloudy. And why no chaos and passion? Those sound fun."

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"Fun they may be but they are not the Jedi ideal, which this Code describes."

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"Why aren't they the Jedi ideal?"

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"Do you remember when we talked about dangerous ideas?"

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"Yeah."

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"One of those dangerous ideas, possibly the most dangerous, depending on who you ask, is the philosophy of the Sith. The Sith draw their power from what is called the dark side of the Force, in a sort of dark mirror of the Jedi. They feed on passion, on rage and pain and hate and chaos."

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"Rage and pain and hate don't sound like they go together with passion, at all. Passion's a nice feeling. It's fun. Rage and pain and hate feel - really bad."

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"By all accounts, the perceptions of the Sith were twisted. Though there has not been a credible recorded encounter with one since the time of the Ruusan Reformation. It is believed they were destroyed."

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"I dunno how anyone would think those feel nice."

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"It is my hope you need never find out."

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"I've felt them before? And they were bad. They weren't sticky, so they weren't bad for long, but sometimes I'd get angry at the slavers for hurting mom. Messing with them 'cause it was funny and got me what I wanted was better, though."

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"What made it funny?"

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"...Cause they'd get upset or angry or scared or hurt? And that was funny."

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"Because it was happening to them instead of you?"

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That seems to bring her up short. She mulls over it.

"It feels nice when I make people feel things. And sometimes it's funny if those things are bad."

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"Some people find that when others hurt, they hurt in sympathy."

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"Huh. I don't think I do that."

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"Neither do I, to tell the truth. But it is still important to be aware that many people do."

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"So if I hurt someone, it might also hurt other people, too?"

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"Potentially, yes."

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"Do people also feel hurt if someone they dislike is hurt?"

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"they might. It could also be that someone who likes you will feel hurt if they discover you've been hurting other people."

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"I know people get scared if they know you're able to hurt people, and they don't trust you won't hurt them, too - is that the thing? Or do they get still hurt even if they know you can't hurt them?"

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"Sometimes. Or they conceptualize people who hurt others as evil and they don't want their friend to be evil. Or they're in the same group as you and worry that if outsiders see you hurting people, they'll assume that everyone in the group acts like that."

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She frowns. Slowly: "People said I was evil because I was a demon. And they were scared of me, and didn't trust I wouldn't turn on them. But they wanted me to be a demon, because they wanted the slavers messed with and then dead - but they didn't like that I was what they wanted."

"I don't think 'evil' makes much sense."

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"People are not perfectly rational. They can want contradictory things at the same time. They can like an outcome while decrying the process that produced it, or enjoy a process but disavow the outcome."

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She nods, slowly.

She's... Not actually sure what she thinks of all that.

Pause, then: "If someone stops liking me 'cause they find out something about me, I'm not sure they actually liked me in the first place."

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"It is very hard to know someone exactly. An approximation is usually the best we can do, with more or less precision. If you discover a piece of new information and update your approximation, you may find it was not very close to reality."

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Her brow furrows. "I try not to lie, though..."

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"You wouldn't have to. If you only meet them in a certain context or while doing certain things, they can form a mistaken impression all on their own."

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"I think I'd rather be friends with someone who doesn't mind who I am, though."

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"A reasonable, and not uncommon, preference."

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She grins, nodding.

"Wasn't the last one of those 'There is no death, there is the Force'?" she asks, a bit abruptly. "What does that mean?"

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"A Jedi lives her life with the Force. When she dies, she becomes one with it. Death is not something we seek, but neither is it something we fear."

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"What does 'one with it' mean?"

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"It means your consciousness, essence, spirit, whatever you'd like to call it, merges with the Force."

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"Do you stop having your own thoughts then?"

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"It is not entirely clear. At least echoes of personality can remain, according to my research."

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"It'd be sad if you died and nothing remained."

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"Yes, it would."

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"If everyone dies anyways, and they merge with the Force, and you're supposed to accept everyone dies - why do some people think killing other people's always wrong?"

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"You can't affect the material world after you die. Killing people- removes options and variety, closes off ways the galaxy could be."

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She nods. "People are really interesting, and it's good for there to be more interesting stuff in the world..."

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"Yes. Death is a loss, just not as much of one as it might be."

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She hums, thoughtfully. "I dunno I have any more questions about the Code right now? I guess I need to think a lot about it..."

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"That is what I would recommend. If you wish to speak of it more, simply let me know."

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"Okay! I'll probably wanna read a lot, too, about what people've said. It's interesting, at least."

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"I will send you some of the commentaries I found more interesting."

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"Alright. Thanks!"

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And so her studies go on.

After about a month of saber training, Elesse says it would be a good idea for Anakin to sign up for a practice group. (She's thoroughly mastered the basics and is making a solid start on her chosen style, a remarkably quick learner.) Sparring against people other than Elesse will help hone her technique, and it's a good way to meet people her own age.

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A practice group sounds good! She looks into her options, finds one that seems interesting, in the early morning when she usually does less with Elesse. She's friendly and cheerful at practice, but not as forthcoming about her opinions, mostly making friends but not best friends. (She's mindful of what Elesse's said about people discovering new things about you, and after a lot of deliberation decides she'd rather have friendly faces around than play a game of roulette with finding people who're more than that.)

She also keeps reading, keeping a separate notes file for her opinions on the Jedi Code. It's not something she feels beholden to, but it's a fun puzzle, picking out the shapes of who made it, who follows it, who defies it. (She kinda wants to read Sith commentaries on the Code, because that seems interesting, but sadly can't find any easily.)

She also reads a bit about the old Sith, decide they sound... Tragic, in a boring way. (She's still stuck on the philosophy. If you're going to use the Force with emotion - rage seems like such a... Almost pitiful way to do that. Why not happiness?)

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In the course of her researchs, she comes across a small, obscure volume containing a slightly different version of the Jedi Code, one that seems to be older. This version of the mantra goes:

Emotion, yet peace
Ignorance, yet knowledge
Passion, yet serenity
Chaos, yet harmony
Death, yet the Force
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She spends a while making very thorough notes on what she thinks that means, then brings her data pad notes and recorded Code to Elesse.

"Have you seen this before?" she asks.

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"Seen what?" She takes the datapad and looks it over. "Ah. This. Yes, I have. I was wondering if you would find it."

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"It's interesting. An earlier version, right?"

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"Yes. One of the oldest recorded, in fact."

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"Why'd it get changed?"

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"As the Jedi Order grew, it was decided that a more... concrete approach would better serve initiates during their initial training. Those inclined to seek subtlety could find it in their own time, without compromising the education of their peers."

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"Wouldn't that make for a bunch of people who don't understand subtlety, if you never taught it to them?"

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"Possibly. But there are other ways in which to cultivate that approach."

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"I guess, yeah."

"What do you think about the older Code?"

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"I think it is a more accurate description of how to put the ideal of the Jedi into practice."

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"It makes more sense to me. You can have both of the things, and sometimes one can come from the other, even if they look contradictory. And everyone has all of the earlier things, so - you're not trying to get rid of them, you're trying to work with them? You can't stop having emotions, and you can't know everything, and passion and chaos and death are all life."

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"Just so. The galaxy is complex, and so is any true path through it."

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"If I was making a Code I'd make the first thing 'don't believe what you read' and the second ' don't do anything this Code tells you to.' Both being written and part of the Code, of course."

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"Seems like it'd be difficult to pitch."

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"I'd have a very large following of absolutely no one, as intended."

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"Why make a Code at all, then?"

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"To give people something to think about. So they can make their own conclusions."

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"Ah, I see."

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"Deciding your own thing's important. For me at least. I guess someone else's conclusion could be they'd rather follow others."

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"As long as it's their choice to begin with, hm?"

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"Yeah!"

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"Seems fair to me."

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She hums, happily, and then turns the conversation to everything else she's been studying. She has questions about this one history book...

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Elesse has answers. Or at least, more context and recommended further reading.

Time passes. Life at the Temple proceeds in much the same way as it always does. Anakin begins learning some practical applications of the Force in addition to her meditative studies. How to jump farther, run faster, hold her breath for an hour at a time, push and pull objects around with her mind.

After she's met with some success with this, Elesse has an announcement. They're going on a field trip.

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She'd already known some of that, but roughly, having taught herself how to move objects mentally, how to endure temperature extremes - but she'd had a few bad habits, a few dead ends she accidentally backed herself into. She takes to the new applications - and new methods of older tricks - like a fish meant for the ocean discovering there's something more out there than the little lake she was born in.

And a field trip sounds exciting. Where are they going?

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The ice planet of Ilum. The crystals that grow in its caves have a unique connection to the Force and are often used in the construction of lightsabers.

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!!!

"Am I gonna get to make a lightsaber?"

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"You will have the opportunity to."

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She makes an excited sound. "Thanks!" And then a stream of questions about lightsaber construction.

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There will be plenty of time to go over everything on the flight.

They take a smaller ship this time, not the full-size Consular-class, since it's just the two of them. This means they can depart directly from the Jedi Temple, without needing to go to the municipal spaceport. The ship has three wings, one on top and three on the side that fold up while it's on the ground. The rear of the ship is a cargo/common area, with a small 'fresher, a microwave to heat up premade meals, and a pair of fold-out beds. The cockpit is at the front, through a hatch, and has four seats.

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She's interested in how the ship works and in how it's flown, in addition to all her questions about lightsabers - and questions about the planet itself tacked on.

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Elesse can explain how the controls work, and once she's gotten them away from other traffic, Anakin can take a turn piloting.

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It's different from the ship she's flown before. A lot easier to fly just on her own, though, which is nice.

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That's what it was designed for.

After they make the jump to hyperspace, they can get back to lightsabers. There are some components that are standard, power pack, wiring, emitter, switches, but much of the design is custom. The shape and length of the hilt, the grip, the balance, casing material, any extra flourishes. All the little things that will make her saber truly her own.

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She has a lot of ideas for flourishes she's working through - not all of them practical, but she has a decent sense for which those are.

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The Jedi outpost on Ilum has a fully equipped machine shop she'll be able to use after she's collected her crystals.

Speaking of which, she'll need two. One focusing crystal and one resonance crystal. The focusing crystal gives the blade its color, the resonance crystal gives the blade what you might call its character. It's what lets a Jedi connect with their weapon.

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"Can I pick the color?"

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"Certainly."

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"What're the options?"

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"Shades of blue and green are most common by far. There are also yellows and oranges like mine," which is a warm topaz Anakin's seen a few times, "and some rarer colors, like Master Windu's purple. It depends on what you can find."

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"I'll find a pretty one, then."

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"I'm sure you will."

"There is one more thing you should know about Ilum. The crystal caves are strong in the Force, and can sometimes induce visions in those who delve their depths."

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She nods. "I won't be surprised if I start seeing things, then. What're the visions of?"

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"It varies. The future, the past, roads not taken."

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"Should be interesting, at least."

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"At least." There's a chime. "We've arrived." Back to the cockpit to land.

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She observes this, just as interested as she was in the taking off.

Are they going straight to the caves?

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Yes, they are. Elesse pulls up a holomap of the planet.

"The outpost is here," she says, highlighting it. "There are six major caverns, scattered around," these are also circled, "and various minor systems." More spots light up. "Which one do you want to try?"

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She hums, lets herself drift a bit -

And finds herself pointing at one of the deeper ones.

"That one."

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"All right." Down they go.

The entrance to the cave she's chosen is a thin cleft at the base of a range of craggy, snow-covered mountains.

"I'll keep the ship warm while you're exploring," she says.

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"Okay. I don't think I'll be too long."

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"I hope not. Don't forget your coat."

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She laughs, gets into her winter gear, and with a cheery wave heads out towards the cave system, at times closing her eyes and letting what she feels guide her.

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The cave is dark and the way is narrow, but her steps are sure and do not fail her. It's almost impossible not to know where she's going, actually, like following the sound of a singing choir or water spiraling down a drain.

She can feel it when she arrives in the main chamber. It's positively glowing, both to her eyes and the Force. Crystalline blossoms stud the walls, floor, and ceiling, each an explosion frozen in time.

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A deep purple one calls more to her aesthetic sense than her heart - she picks it for her focusing crystal.

And then - 

There's one that sings.

She reaches for it.

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Her bones ache.

Anakin chuckles under her breath, sitting on the bench and turning her face up to the sun, feeling every tired wrinkle.

There's a voice, young, calling for her in the distance. Still insisting on formalities... Though 'Master Skywalker' has less sting than it used to.

Her lips curl up, and she hides herself in the Force, like slipping a favored blanket over her shoulders, crouching down with a friend...

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She's yelling, trapped, helpless despair and anger pouring through her, strong enough to drown her, strong enough the world should shatter at her command, but that idiot grandchild of hers won't listen, can't even see her, Anakin's twenty years dead and none of them have learned - 

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She laughs, leaning against her battered X-wing.

"We gave those bastards what-for," she says, as someone else laughs helplessly, congratulating her - 

"We couldn't have done it without you, General Skywalker," someone says, a young pilot, and his friend elbows him in the side and they all laugh - they did it they did it they did it, and the dead still scream but there's a curl to the Force now Anakin would almost call satisfied...

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she's dead it's all my fault I fucked up I'm so sorry so fucking sorry she's DEAD - 

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She finishes removing the last of the slave implants - carefully, deft fingers guided by the Force and long experience - and closes up the wound. The woman's going to have a long convalescence ahead of her - many of the free will - but they're free, every one, and Anakin's breast glows warmly, thinking of all she's done...

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She's looking down at an infant's face.

She doesn't name the children.

She doesn't think she could bear what comes next if she did.

"They need to be hidden," she says, voice far away. "Even from me - I'll know them, if I ever meet them again, but... Looking shouldn't be trivial - "

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Death is more unpleasant than philosophy suggests.

Of course, Anakin's brought far more death to her enemies than they will to her. A drop, though, with the younglings she'd been escorting to the escape route hiding behind her as she raises her saber, eyes hard...

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She's numb.

Her lips move, the harsh, mechanical words escape her. Her limbs move, supported by her suit. Her lungs move, technically, the machine forcing them far past the point where Anakin died.

(Should have died, perhaps, flits across her mind, floating away, swept down a dark river by the emptiness where her heart should be.)

(She wonders, sometimes, if that's a machine now too.)

Her daughter would be vexing, if Darth Vader felt anything at all.

Instead she feels nothing in particular, as her daughter refuses to give up her allies, as she gives the final command and everything her daughter loves dies -

Darth Vader feels nothing.

(Anakin does, somewhere distant, screaming, her heart filling with horror for a woman she - is - isn't - will be - was - )

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She's crying, when she comes back to herself.

She hugs herself, feeling - reassuring herself she can feel - she isn't numb, she isn't creating a wound in the Force Anakin can feel decades early just for leverage, just for cold calculation towards a goal she should hate but can't - 

"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry - " Anakin repeats, voice cracking and hoarse. (She was screaming.)

(That's almost comforting.)

She takes a deep breath, rubs at her eyes, and dives into the Force, drifting, floating, letting herself be herself in the most intense way she knows how, wrapping herself in every emotion echoing across possibility - 

She feels like she's drowning.

It's better than freezing.

(She can see now why someone would cling to hatred and fear and all those horrid, painful emotions - )

(Anakin has never felt nothing before and she would rather be miserable, she would rather be dead, a ghost trapped screaming uselessly at the living, than that.)

Slowly, gently, like an overflown river that's found the ocean, Anakin's horror drains.

It leaves behind...

Something - wrecked, almost, but not.

She uncurls, hesitantly, reaching for this new feeling.

Determination.

She won't become that person.

Anakin stands.

Anakin breathes, for a while.

And she bends down, picks up the resonance crystal that had contained everything she could be - the resonance crystal she knows the empty her didn't use - 

And she leaves the caves, and returns to the ship.

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Elesse has kept it warm, as promised.

(She felt the turbulence her Padawan experienced in the cave. It was practically impossible not to have. She was concerned, for a time. But forcing herself into the cave would only have made things worse, and you can only gain self-knowledge through yourself.)

In motion the future might be, but Elesse is a solid rock upon which to stand.

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She really, really appreciates that right now.

"I got the crystals. And I know who I don't want to be," she says, voice firm. A pause, and: "I had eight visions. I need to work parts of them out, before I make my saber."

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"Eight visions?"

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"They - were mostly not good."

She details them, in order, voice swerving between shaking and firm.

And then, abruptly: "If I leave now - that's the future where I'm proud of myself. Where I'm - spending my life freeing slaves, a little change at a time. I think. I - have to be a Jedi, first, for the others. At least... I'm pretty sure."

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"You brought the crystals back with you."

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"It felt right. And - I haven't decided. I..."

"I can't be Vader. I'd rather die."

"But I think - "

"I can do more as a Jedi."

"I just - "

"Don't know what's worth the risk. Or what the Force was trying to tell me."

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"As Master Yoda is fond of saying, the future is always in motion. You've seen eight possibilities, but they are only possibilities, and they are not your only choices." She puts a hand on Anakin's shoulder. "Nothing you saw is cast in durasteel."

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She nods, slowly.

"There's a wound in the Force. It - was there, I think, when I was the General. The same one Vader made. I - "

"If I'm running around the galaxy freeing whoever I happen to run across, i don't think I can stop it."

"And - "

"I want to be a Jedi."

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"Then a Jedi you shall be. Whatever else the future brings."

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She nods, wrapping her arms around herself and shaking a bit. (Her skin feels like it's crawling, and hugging herself only kind of helps.)

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Extremely clingy hug, yes.

She immerses herself in the feeling of comfort and fondness, though her body's shaking only increases, until she's crying again. There's no horror choking her now, though. Just...

Relief.

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When she's calmed down, they can head over to the outpost.

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She calms down fairly quickly, though she's still quieter than usual, less bouncy.

And she's eager to finish her lightsaber.

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The Jedi base on Ilum is mostly underground, or underice as it were, cut into a glacier. Elesse lands the ship in the hanger. As they disembark, cold-hardened maintenance droids begin to see to the refueling process. One of the attendant Knights can show Anakin to the fabrication stations if she'd like to get started, or to the dining hall or domitories if she'd prefer to get some rest first. (They're not strangers to hosting Padawans disturbed by visions in the crystal caves.)

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She wants to get started. (There's an energy buzzing under her skin, now.)

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Then she can do so. Here are all the tools and materials she'll need.

Elesse will go off and wait for her to finish.

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She drops into a meditative focus as she works, letting the Force help her, listening to its little nudges about this or that modification. It's calming, the last vestiges of worry floating free of her mind, her resolve firming up quietly in the background.

It takes her a while to finish, and she's dried eyed, throat parched and stomach unhappy, when she drifts back out of the blending mindset she'd been in.

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That sounds good, yeah. (Sugary, as always.)

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Of course.

Elesse would like to see her new saber, if she doesn't mind.

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Not at all!

She holds it out.

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"Very nice. I think it suits you."

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It's ornate, certainly, the detailing sharp and geometric.

"Thanks! I like it. And I found a purple crystal for the blade, so I bet it's pretty."

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"Oh? How fortunate. I look forward to our next spar."

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"I am too!" Sparring is something she'd have really, really missed if she left being a Jedi behind...

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"Are you ready to go back to Coruscant?"

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"Yeah. I think I am."

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Then they can depart.

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She's restless on the flight back, splitting her time between examining her saber, meditating, and asking questions or musing about her scraps of vision - she records her memories of them in as fine a detail as she can, frowning over the words.

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Elesse will save the talk about obsession for if it becomes necessary. The experience is still fresh for her Padawan, so it's best to work through it.

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After her most recent mulling over the final vision: "Darth Vader - that's a Sith name, isn't it?"

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"It has the form of one, certainly."

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"Trying to call back to the Sith... I guess that me just wanted people scared, as much as she wanted anything..."

She shakes her head. "I - don't know why I would've done any of that..."

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"There is a long gap of time between now and the then-that-might-be. One that is, I suspect, filled with terrible things. Things that would have changed you."

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"Then I need to just not let them."

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"We will not let them."

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"Yeah."

"Thanks."

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"You're my Padawan. I want to see you flourish."

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Heeeee.

"You're a really good teacher."

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"Thank you. You are an able student."

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She laughs. "Learning's fun!"

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When they get back to the Jedi Temple, a summon from the Council is waiting for them.

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She stays by her teacher's side.

"What do you think they want?"

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"I am not sure. This is most unusual."

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She nods. "We'll find out, I guess."

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When they get to the Council chamber, they're not the only ones. Two men, one older and one younger, are already there.

"Qui-Gon Jinn and his Padawan Obi-Wan Kenobi," Elesse murmurs to Anakin as they enter. Qui-Gon is finishing up an explanation about how some Queen intends to go back and fight for her planet's freedom.

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She smiles at them, rocking back and forth a bit, and tilting her head at the explanation. Fighting for a planet's freedom sounds exciting...

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"Good of you to join us, Master Vendar," Windu says after Qui-Gon finishes. "Have you heard the news?"

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"We came straight here from Ilum."

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"Invaded the planet Naboo, the Trade Federation has," Yoda says. "Unsuccessful, Master Jinn's negotiations were."

The man winces, faintly. "We managed to extract the queen of the Naboo and brought her to the Senate to argue her case. The motion became bogged down in procedure, and she called a vote of no confidence in Valorum."

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"She learned a great deal from you in a short time, then."

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"It was her Senator's idea-" the Padawan begins. Qui-Gon holds up a hand to cut him off.

     "It was her own doing, and none of mine," he says. "I find her to be... headstrong."

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"And impatient as well, if she is already planning to return. Surely a task force has not been put together yet?"

     "Not yet," says Kit Fisto, a Nautolan councilor. "But it's hard to blame her, with her people under hostile control."

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"Go with Qui-Gon and young Obi-Wan back to Naboo, you and your Padawan will," Yoda instructs. "Guard the Queen, while she rallies her people."

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"Why would we be needed, if bodyguarding is all?"

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"Because," says Windu, "Master Jinn was attacked on his trip back to Coruscant with the Queen. By a man with a red lightsaber."

     "He was trained in its use," Qui-Gon says. "And there was a certain- darkness about him."

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"A Sith."

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"So we surmise."

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Anakin shivers, several echoes of her visions humming at the back of her mind, and tries to resist the urge to hug herself.

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"I see. When do we leave?"

     "In the morning. We will meet the queen and her entourage at the spaceport."

"We will be there."

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"May the Force be with you," Windu says, and they're dismissed.

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Anakin leaves with her teacher.

"I wanna know - more about Naboo. And what's going on."

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"As would I. Perhaps we should take dinner with Master Jinn and his Padawan."

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"I'd like that." She glances at them.

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"Would you care to join Anakin and I for dinner, Qui-Gon?"

     "Obi-Wan and I would be delighted," he replies.

"Wonderful. Allow us some time to get cleaned up from our journey, and we shall meet you at the cafeteria."

     "We will be there."

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"See you guys!" she says cheerfully. Then - back to their rooms?

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Yep.

"It seems we will need to stay packed up for now."

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"I don't mind more travel. The galaxy's interesting. But I - really don't like the sound of someone - presenting themselves as Sith."

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"Yes. But it is important we ascertain the truth of his identity, whether our suspicions are true or not."

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"Yeah. He might be someone just - trying to make a political point or draw our attention or something."

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"So we must hope. Still, we should be on our guard."

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"Yeah. For - a lot."

She frowns. "I usually know about danger, and how to avoid or counter it, when I'm being floaty and listening to the Force, but I've never tried that with another Force user involved..."

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"That should stand you in good stead, as long as you remember your saber training. Still, if it comes to that, I would prefer you run, if possible, and let Qui-Gon or myself face him."

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She nods, seriously. "I might be able to notice anyone coming before an actual fight, though... And what about the Queen, or if he has people with him?"

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"If we need to split up, you and Obi-Wan will stay with the Queen, and Qui-Gon and I will face the Sith. But we'll go over plans for those scenarios with them."

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"Okay."

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Soon enough, it's time for dinner. They go off to the cafeteria and meet up with their prospective mission partners. After loading up with food, they all sit down at a relatively out of the way table.

     "So," says Qui-Gon. "Where to begin?"

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"Where'd the guy attack you?"

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"A small planet called Tatooine. A backwater, off the main trade routes, not affiliated with the Federation. We needed to make repairs to the hyperdrive, and thought we'd be hidden there."

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" - That's my home planet," she blurts, intensely unsettled. (She hasn't actually told anyone which planet she's from, but - )

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"A curious coincidence. The Forces works in strange ways."

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"Yeah." She shakes her head. "It's - definitely good for some ways of hiding. Though full of territorial assholes. Do you think he'd keep going after you?"

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"Though he did not shy from a fight, I do not think I was his principal target."

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"An assassin, after the Queen?" she asks. Qui-Gon nods. "Hm. If he were working with or for the Trade Federation... But that doesn't fit with our records of their behavior."

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"Why are they going after Naboo, anyways?"

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Obi-Wan knows this one! "Naboo is one of the main sources of a rare strain of plasmid that acts as a natural liquid capacitor. It's quite valuable in certain industrial applications."

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She nods. "I guess that's in the Trade Federation's wheelhouse. Stupid to be invading people over money, though..."

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"The Trade Federation is testing their leash."

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"And their droid army."

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"Droids? They invaded Naboo with droids?"

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"Yes," says Qui-Gon. "Centrally controlled, I believe."

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Elesse shakes her head. "Foolish."

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"Why's it foolish?"

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"Droids are inflexible, limited by their programming. Even the most sophisticated cannot learn, grow, or adapt as fast as a living mind. Droid armies have been tried before, and they have always failed. Besides which, a central control is a single point of failure. It would make an individual droid easier and cheaper to manufacture and therefore there might be some volume advantages-"

     "Oh is there ever-" mutters Obi-Wan.

"-But there would still be an upper limit to how many the processor can control at once before it becomes too big to be practical."

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"Huh. But if it's cost effective it could let someone build a big army - quickly and in a way that outstrips their initial personnel capacity? Manufacture probably takes less time and money than training."

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"And the Naboo don't have a standing army," Qui-Gon says. "Resistance was minimal."

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"Is that gonna cause problems for the Queen when she tries to rally her people?"

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"They may not have a standing army, but the Gungan natives do."

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"Gungans... tall, amphibious, long ear-fins?" Qui-Gon nods. "Did they not fight the invasion?"

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"They live primarily underwater, and on the outlying eastern islands. The Naboo are concentrated on the main continent in the south and west. The Trade Federation ignored them in the initial landings, and their relations with the Naboo extend mostly to agreements delineating plasmid harvesting regions. They're not formally part of the Republic, and don't much care what happens on the surface."

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"So she's gonna be trying to convince them, too?"

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"That is our understanding."

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"It makes sense. I can't see the Trade Federation being content to let them remain unaligned and with harvesting rights. The trick will be in getting the Gungans to see that."

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She nods. "So Trade Federation, and maybe separately, maybe connectedly angry desert guy going after the Queen... Anyone from her own planet angry at her?"

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"As far as we know, no. She has very widespread support among her people."

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Nod. "That's good, at least..."

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Elesse and Qui-Gon begin going over the political situation in finer detail. It'll be the Queen's responsibility to make any deals, but she likes to have a complete picture. She also presses a complete account of what happened on Naboo and Tatooine out of him.

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Anakin listens intently, asking a few clarifying questions but mostly letting Elesse take the lead.

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Eventually, dinner ends, and they make plans where to meet tomorrow, and depart back their separate rooms.

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Anakin, of course, goes with Elesse, keeping beside her. "That was really informative," she says, humming a bit.

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"Yes. Master Jinn can be unorthodox, but he is effective."

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She nods, then, after a pause: "I'm torn between spending tonight practicing Force stuff and reading about Naboo..."

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"You'll have access to primary sources about Naboo tomorrow, if that makes a difference."

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"Yeah, I think it does. Wanna practice Force stuff then - like, hiding from you when you're using the Force to look for me, or looking for you while you're hiding?"

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"Very well. In which arrangement shall we begin?"

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"I've got a lot more practice hiding, so - seeking?"

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"All right. Give me some time to get some distance, then."

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"Okay." She does start settling in so she's comfortable for when she'll start.

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And Elesse heads off, around the corner and out of sight.

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She closes her eyes.

Drifting won't work here, she doesn't think, not the way she wants.

So she does what she used to do when she had a plan that needed her friend's help: she makes a little space in the whirlwind of her mind where her friend can flow alongside her, and she asks, 'Where is Elesse? How do I get to Elesse?'

She doesn't open her eyes as she stands - it's easier to listen when her own senses aren't arguing with her. Elesse isn't, according to her eyes, in front of her, after all.

But Elesse is before her in the way that counts.

Anakin starts to walk, with slow and measured steps, listening to the feed of knowledge from her friend.

She goes to find Elesse.

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Her steps lead her to...

A supply closet. Presently unoccupied.

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She leans against the wall, spends a little bit rocking deeper, listening - Elesse has to be using the Force, the Force is her friend and is flowing beside her, the Force is everywhere and the Force is where Elesse is - 

A thought floats by her.

Anakin used to love stories about the trickster demon Sky-Walker, her family's namesake, who had a million billion faces and more names than stars - Anakin became convinced the Sky-Walker had to be in every story, partially because the Sky-Walker was the most interesting character ever, so she'd always ask which one's Sky-Walker until an elder got frustrated and said - 

They're all the Sky-Walker.

It was the best story conclusion ever, according to six year old Anakin.

She smiles, remembering it.

She's Skywalker, the demon, and she is everyone and everywhere - 

It takes her a while to fully settle into the thought, which she spends breathing, pondering.

Where is Elesse isn't the right question, not entirely.

If Skywalker is every character in the story - 

Well, she can be Elesse, too.

Where is she?

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She's fairly sure she's in this supply closet here. Just behind the vibro-mops.

 

But there's a faint echo, almost a heartbeat, right on the edge of perception. Three doors left.

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Three doors left it is, eyes still closed, listening to her heart beating...

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And here is Elesse.

"Well done," she says, unfolding from her meditation pose.

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Heeeeeeee. "Thanks! That trick with pretending to be in the closet instead of just vanished was cool."

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"Misdirection can be a valuable tool. Had I wished to ambush you, that would have been the point."

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"Or if someone already knows you're there so vanishing doesn't work - can you make it seem like you're really far from your actual location, or do you have to be nearby?"

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"Closer is easier. It also helps to be familiar with the location. The better you can picture yourself there, the more effective the trick is."

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She hums. "I should work on getting faster at sensing when I'm being tricked, though that might be something I can start on my own - I figured out a different way of listening that I can practice next time I meditate. Pretending to be somewhere I'm not sounds fun as what to do next."

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"I hope you're not planning any undue mischief."

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Giggle. "Certainly not undue."

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"Good. Do you want to try again?"

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"Looking for you? Or you looking for me?"

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"Which do you think would be more instructive?"

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"Right now? You looking for me."

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"All right. Off with you, then." She sits back down and closes her eyes.

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She laughs and scampers off.

Now - 

The story helped, a lot.

The Sky-Walker...

Can be everywhere, everyone.

Can be multiple places and people at once.

Can she double layer Elesse's technique? (Because certainly her teacher will be expecting Anakin to try it - )

She passes by her and Elesse's rooms.

Vividly, she imagines turning, entering the rooms, going into her own room and doing her best to vanish the typical way - 

She's everyone and everywhere. One of her faces keeps walking past the room, winds to a nearby meditation room Anakin's familiar with - goes in, nervously, keeps focusing on maintaining the illusion of the her in the room while trying to make herself vanish - 

And Anakin keeps walking past the meditation room, thinking, Sky-Walker is a shapechanger - 

There's a garden, nearby.

Being a bird or a mouse would be too hard, she thinks, even as she tries her best to hide herself as she walks - 

But she's very, very familiar with how her mother feels, and Elesse only met Shmi the once.

Skywalker can be anyone, and the face she imagines herself wearing is Shmi's as she settles into a corner of a garden. Still trying to be invisible, of course. Still in the meditation room, too, projecting herself in a chain into her bedroom.

(She doesn't let herself think that this probably won't work, even if it's a clever idea. All tricks are confidence tricks, and Skywalker knows knows knows she can do this, the thought wrapping around her in tune with Shmi's face...)

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Shortly, someone taps her on the shoulder.

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She opens her eyes and drops the hiding. "Awwww. What'd I miss?"

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"You forgot about sneaking. I asked a mouse droid which way you went."

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She bursts out laughing.

"Whoops! Try again?"

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"If you like."

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"Yeah. I wanna keep practicing."

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"Good. Remember to think about people watching with their eyes, this time."

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She giggles and heads off to hide again. This time being physically sneaky, too - juggling hiding from someone who can sense her with telling everyone to not notice her (her usual tactic) is hard enough to drop one of those threads, apparently.

She uses the same double-layered misdirection she tried last time, more smoothly now, and wraps both don't notice me and my face is someone else's around her physical body even while she stays out of anyone's line of sight (which, of course, requires sensing where people are before she runs into them... Without stopping hiding in the Force. This is a kind of hard almost nothing's been since she freed herself and her people from slavery).

(It's fun.)

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It's slightly longer this time before she's tapped on the shoulder.

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She looks over and grins. "What gave me away this time?"

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"Every effect has a cause, and there is always a trail, else the cause would... not. I will say that were I less familiar with you, I would have had some trouble puzzling things out. But I also caution that a simple defense played perfectly often serves better than a complex plan executed imprecisely."

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"Complex plans are fun, but I see what you mean. I'll stick to what I'm best at when I'm not playing or practicing."

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"My poor strained nerves will thank you, I'm sure."

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Laugh. "Wouldn't want to give you anxiety."

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"Very kind. Again, or do you wish to steal some sleep tonight?"

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"Hm. This is fun... But I don't want to be tired tomorrow, and we can practice on the ship?"

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Elesse smiles. "Sensible. Let's do that."

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Heeee. "Okay!" And off to sleep (and meditate some; Anakin has nightmares that night, repeating loops of her visions, spiraling out into other shattered thoughts she can't remember - she wakes up frequently, and eventually gives up on sleeping in favor of just drifting in the Force. That still gets her the nightmares, but they're more controllable, something she can drift away from).

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And in the morning, the group of Jedi is off to the starport.

The principle attribute of the Queen of Naboo's starship, from the outside, is that it is shiny. Long, sleek, and plated entirely in chrome that has been polished to a mirror finish. It is essentially dagger-shaped, with a high cockpit in the rear, flanked by a long-nacelled engine to either side. Clustered at the base of the ship is a collection of people that must be the Queen's party. The one in a silken black dress with a hood and feather on top is probably the Queen herself. Her face is painted entirely white, except for two black dots beneath either eye, and red across her upper lip and a single stripe in the middle of her lower. Around her are six handmaidens in russet robes and a scattering of security personnel, not in the Republic uniform.

The Queen is speaking to an older man in clothes almost as fine as her own. "...a surprise to be sure, but a welcome one," he is saying as the Jedi land.

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Anakin's tired, enough to take the edge off her usual energy. Meditation isn't a very good substitute for sleep, after all. She stays by Elesse, looking around with interest.

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     "Ah, the Jedi have arrived," the man says.

The Queen turns, and inclines her head toward them. "Master Jinn," she says. "It will be good to have you with us."

Elesse and Qui-Gon both bow briefly in return. "Queen Amidala," Elesse says. "I am Elesse Vendar, and this is my Padawan, Anakin Skywalker. We will be joining Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan in accompanying you."

     "I did not realize the Jedi Council was sending four Jedi," the man says.

Elesse smiles pleasantly. "Senator Palpatine, is it not? The Council takes the peace of the Republic very seriously."

He laughs. "So I see. My Queen, I assure you I will continue doing everything I can to secure aid for our planet, and beg you once again to delay your departure until a proper task force can be marshaled. I'm sure it will not be much longer."

     "Our trust is with you, Senator, but my place is with our people. I cannot remain in comfort while they suffer. Captain Panaka, is the ship ready?" She turns to one of the security team, and he replies in the affirmative. "Then now that the Jedi are here, we shall depart."

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She smiles, a little, especially at the Queen. 'Can't remain in comfort while they suffer' is a good way to be a queen, if you're gonna have queens at all.

She also entertains herself while the adults are talking by dipping in and out of a quasi-meditative mindset, practicing sensing.

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She doesn't sense anything out of the ordinary. Resolve and quiet anger from the Queen's party, alertness from the guard, calm from the Jedi, quiet amusement and concern from the Senator.

They follow the Queen into the ship. The inside is less literally shiny than the outside, but metaphorically it's about the same. Very luxurious.

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Those seats look soft. Very important quality for seats to have.

She doesn't... Really have much to do here. Boredom's peeking up through her exhaustion, and meditation can only do so much about that.

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No one will grudge her some time in the comfortable seats. It'll be a long trip, after all.

The Queen wishes to consult with the Jedi Masters about their strategy upon landing and the extent of the aid they are willing to provide.

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Are the students invited to that?

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If she wants to attend, of course.

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She's going to have a lot of time to spend entertaining herself, so... Attend?

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The conference is mostly about what the Jedi are and are not willing to do. They're not going to fight a war for the Queen, but they will protect her. Even if, she confirms, she goes into battle personally. The Jedi would prefer a negotiated solution to the Federation, but agree that seems unlikely. Negotiating with the Gungans in the Queen's stead is also beyond their mandate, but they can answer some perceptively 'hypothetical' questions along similar lines.

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The conference manages to be actually fairly interesting. She likes the Queen, and she thinks the not promising to not break their mandate is clever.

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After a while, the conference breaks up. Elesse would like to speak with Anakin at some point before they land, but it can wait if she'd rather talk to others or do something else first.

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She's available now.

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"I would like to talk on the subject of lightsabers. I would not have suggested you build one if I did not think you were ready for it, but we are going into a live combat situation rather sooner than I had anticipated."

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"Yeah. Okay. What about them?"

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"The crux of the matter is this. A lightsaber is a lethal weapon. It is also one of the most recognizable symbols of the Jedi. Therefore, every time you ignite your blade, you invoke both the potential of causing death, and the reputation of the entire Order. You do not need to shy from drawing your blade, but you should not do so thoughtlessly."

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She nods, slowly. "And the Order's reputation for - non-violence, or very carefully considered violence, matters to you?"

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"It is easy to move from talking to fighting. It is much, much harder to go the other way. I prefer to have more options readily available at the outset, rather than fewer. And reputations are easier to damage than to build."

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She hums. "People who're scared don't want to deal with you fairly, and if you demand things from them they're more likely to betray you than if they like you," she says after a pause. "I know that. But - I dunno if you're saying 'don't kill people unless you really have to' or 'don't get caught killing people as a Jedi.' - I also get that threatening to kill or hurt people just to get my way isn't smart, too, but is threatening to kill people I sincerely and consideredly intend to kill also not smart?"

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"If you are going to kill a person, I prefer you to have a considered reason for doing so. Jedi are peaceful, which is not the same thing as pacifist. If killing someone is the most appropriate solution, then you should do so. If killing is an inappropriate response, then you should not do so as a Jedi. As to threats, I do not make any I do not fully intend to follow through on, such that you might consider them more in the class of warnings. This can be a tool to head off a problem, but if you are sure that someone will die regardless, it can be better to skip to that step directly."

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"Killing someone if they don't know they're at risk of being killed, or that you're one of their potential enemies, seems... Not really rude, but... I guess the closest idea is unaesthetic? So if I'm gonna kill someone I'll probably warn them, unless warning them really works against my goal."

"I also don't think I'll kill anyone for - reasons that're bad to me, but I think my reasons are shaped differently from other people's reasons, and I don't want you getting in trouble if I make a - decision that's considered for me but not reasonable for other people? Like... Some of the philosophy books I was reading said a life's equal to a life. So under that logic it's good to kill one person to save two, and neutral to kill one to save one, and bad to kill two to save one - but I'd kill multiple people to save you if that was needed. And it'd be fully considered and for a reason that's good to me, but people who think a life's a life might think I did something wrong? And people are allowed to think I did something wrong, but..." She shrugs. "There'd probably be consequences?"

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"There will always be consequences. What's important is to be able to live with them, and yourself. It's good you're thinking about this in advance, and I won't say the decision you've come to is wrong. Master Yoda would tell you to meditate on your attachment to me. What motivates it, whether it is based in fear, how far you would go, under what circumstances you would break it."

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"I guess, yeah. And I can think more, but I'm pretty sure I like you cause you're the sort of person I like."

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"Well, thank you. With luck, this particular situation won't arise in the near future."

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Heeee. "Yeah. Though thinking about it's not too bad."

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"That is all I wanted to talk about, unless you have something else."

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"Hm, I don't think so, unless you've got suggestions for exercises for me to try? I wanna train."

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"If you continue as you have been, that should suffice."

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"Okay!"

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She'll be left to do that, then.

This might also be a good chance to talk to someone, if she's feeling curious about anyone.

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She's curious about the Queen, actually, what she's like and what Naboo's like - Anakin's liked the impression she's gotten so far, after all.

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Queen Amidala is happy to talk to Anakin about her planet and her people. Theed, the capital, is the most beautiful city in the galaxy, according to royal opinion. The roofs are all done in iridescent tile mined locally. The sun setting over the bay and the last rays glinting off the top of the city is a sight like none other.

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"It sounds really pretty." She mostly asks about the people themselves throughout the conversation, both in broad strokes and in specifics.

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The Queen cares about her people a great deal, even if she occasionally becomes frustrated with shortsightedness or ordinary levels of greed.

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Those do sound frustrating! (It's good the Queen cares so much. Anakin would be a bad Queen but it's aesthetically correct for Queens to care.)

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She's sure Anakin must encounter her own share of troubles as a Jedi.

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So far it's just been student stuff, and the people at the Temple aren't too bad. This is her first mission! She did have some problems before, though - she's weird 'cause she started being a Jedi late.

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Amidala was rather under the impression all Jedi started as young children.

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Almost all do! She's the latest starter in a really long while.

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Con...gratulations? She's not sure if that's appropriate.

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She giggles. She's not sure, either, but she likes having been not a Jedi first.

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Well, she seems the sort of girl who will always make the best for herself. What sorts of things has she been learning as a Jedi that she wasn't before?

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She's willing to chatter excitedly about lightsaber forms and jumping and sensing and hiding, and history - the history of the Republic's cool - and science, though she stays away from politics and philosophy.

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The Queen will try to probe at Anakin's perspective of Jedi philosophy, though she'll accept deflections.

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She pauses at the probes, then says, "I don't really agree with a lot of modern Jedi philosophy. It's - simplified. But there's some older stuff, back before people tried to strip out all the complications, that I like."

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"The deeper way Jedi think is a closed book to we outsiders."

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"That's one of the silly things," she says. "There's no reason not to share all that stuff." She hums, then says: "I think the - big... Easy representational difference? Is in the Jedi code stuff - "

She recites both the poetically phrased ones she's found, noting which one's older and which one's current.

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"I don't think I quite see the difference."

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"The current one says you're not supposed to have the first thing, just the second thing - claims that no emotion leads to peace - while the older one is... About, like, peace out of or from emotion, or peace despite emotion, or peace alongside emotion, because you either can't not have emotion or shouldn't try to not have emotion. They're kind of opposite in a way? At least, as opposite as two codes that both think you should seek peace, knowledge, serenity, harmony, and the Force can be."

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"Hm. I suppose it must make more sense if you can feel the Force."

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"In some ways. I've also been reading a lot about this, and it's - easier to figure out what things mean if you can see what people think about it."

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She laughs. There's a pleasing musical quality to it. "Yes, I always ask my advisors to share their personal opinions on policy."

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Hee. "That's smart, yeah."

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"Do you think it makes a difference in how Jedi choose to involve themselves with the rest of the galaxy, which interpretation they favor?"

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"It feels to me like it would - just, there's a very different aesthetic there? And different philosophies are appealing to different people. But I'd probably want to look closer at who was arguing which philosophy and what sorts of involvement they were arguing for elsewhere to be sure, especially of which direction any correlation's in."

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"I would be very interested in any findings you come up with."

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She nods. "Yeah. It'd be interesting, at least."

"What do you think the Jedi should be doing in the galaxy?"

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"I... am not entirely sure. It is a bit odd that a religious organization commands so much power."

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She nods. "I grew up in Hutt space. Everything the Republic does is kinda weird..."

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"I suppose it must be. I think it would be better if the Jedi had more public accountability, less mystery. While I am grateful for the aid of Master Jinn, he was sent to my planet. I did not request his presence, nor was there any avenue by which I might have."

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She hums. "Even with maintaining some level of self-rule - it's silly if there isn't a way to petition for help or no help or something, or to - like, lodge a complaint about an individual Jedi. You could have that without budging the existing level of separation, I think." She hums. "Probably the separation's doing something - I don't think it's good to have one group or person with too much power, so I wouldn't want the Jedi being like an arm of the Senate or Chancellor or anything - but at the very least the Jedi should let in more people who aren't little kids, which I think would help the feeling of - not being integrated?"

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"It could, yes. If Jedi remember what it's like to be a citizen..."

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"And have friends and family from lots of different backgrounds."

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"That would certainly help with empathy. This has been an enlightening discussion, Anakin, thank you."

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"Thank you! It's good to get stuff to think about. And you're nice to talk to."

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She smiles, and goes back to reviewing documents.

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She says a quick, "See you around!" and wanders off.

She still feels tired and jittery, so decides to meditate for a bit. It's almost as good as sleep.

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Elesse wakes her when they're ready to drop out of hyperspace.

"Running the blockade might get exciting. Best you're awake."

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She wakes easily. She's had different fragments of nightmares than last night, so she's still not as rested as she'd like.

"Okay."

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They can go up to the bridge to observe. Qui-Gon, Obi-Want, and the Queen and some of her handmaidens are also there.

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She mostly looks at the controls, for now more interested in how the ship's flown.

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It's mostly the same principles as the other ships she's seen, but with pilot and navigation duties broken up among three people. Not that there's much to do in hyperspace, but that quickly changes as the one on the left pulls back a lever and the starlines snap back into their accustomed realspace pinpoints. The planet Naboo is directly in front of them, big, blue, and green. Also in front of them is a pair of Trade Federation battleships, ugly, brown, and round.

The pilots immediately flip into evasive maneuvers as the enemy ships open fire.

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There isn't much for her to do here. She watches with interest, trying to keep her nerves calmed and breaths even.

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The ship shudders as a turbolaser bolt skips off their shields.

"Holding at eighty-three percent," reports one of the crew.

"Fighters launching." "Accelerating to flank speed." "Twelve contacts." "Break to bearing five six niner mark two ten." The ship twists, and they shoot past the first battleship.

"Primary landing site compromised, scanning secondaries." "Shields at fifty-six percent and dropping. Stand by for emitter cycle- cycling." There's another sequence of maneuvers, sharp enough to be felt through the inertial dampers. "Cycle complete."

"Landing zone identified, plotting course." After some maneuvering, they manage to lose the fighters, and eventually set down in what seems to be a swamp. A creature recognizable as a Gungan pokes its head out of the surrounding foliage and begins waving enthusiastically. Obi-Wan sighs heavily. The Queen turns to exit, and the Jedi follow.

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Anakin follows, trying to not skip or hum too much.

Swamps are... Icky.

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Squishy, certainly. Probably best she doesn't do too much skipping, or she might lose a shoe to the gloop.

The Gungan happily tromps over and gives Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon an enthusiastic hug. He's on the verge of doing the same with Queen Amidala, but at the last moment has second thoughts and offers a bow instead. Qui-Gon introduces him to Elesse and Anakin as Jar Jar Binks, their primary contact with the Gungans.

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"Hi!" she chirps. "I'm Anakin. Nice to meet you."

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He grabs her hand with both of his and pumps it up and down enthusiastically. "Meesa plenty happy to be meetin' more Jedis!"

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She giggles.

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"What can you tell us about the situation here, Jar Jar?"

He lets go of Anakin's hand and straightens up. "Uhhh. There is bein'... bombad troubles. Droidy machines everywheres, even Otoh Gunga. De big boss says all Gungans go to sacred place for meeting."

"He wasn't captured when your capital fell?"

     "Oh nosa! Droidy machines, they not swim so well."

The Queen steps forward. "Jar Jar, I must speak with Boss Nadd. Will you take us to your sacred place?"

He looks unsure, eyes bulging out slightly more than usual. "Uhmmm... Meesa not sure that is bein' a good idea. Big boss is not likin' outsiders verra much."

Qui-Gon puts a hand on his shoulder and looks him in the eye, speaking seriously. "If the Queen is not able to make a treaty with your people, the Trade Federation and their droid army will control Naboo completely, and slaughter everyone they do not take as slaves."

     "...When yousa is puttin' it like that. Okey. Yousa follow me."

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"Being a slave isn't very fun," she says cheerfully. "Which way?"

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"Thisa way!"

Using a combination of speeder bikes offloaded from the ship and riding lizards Jar Jar whistles up, the party sets out. The sacred place is in a slightly less swampy swamp, dotted here and there with giant stone Gungan heads. Boss Nadd is holding court atop one of these. He is enormously fat, and shakes his jowls when he wants to emphasize a point he just made.

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He looks kind of silly. (She extremely diplomatically does not express this opinion, but does smile, expression probably pleasant). 

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"Whata yousa brought to us, Jar Jar?" he bellows.

     "Meesa be bringin' the Queen of the Naboo, boss. She be wantin' to talksies."

"Hoo." Boss Nadd leans forward and narrows his eyes. "Weesa no likin'... de Naboo. Whysa yousa t'inking you can be talking wit' us?"

     "Boss Nadd," the Queen says. "I have come to bargain for your aid in freeing this world that we share."

He laughs, then shakes his jowls. "And why should we be helpin' yousa? These droidy machines are yousa fault!"

     "Only-" the Queen begins, but one of her handmaids shoulders her aside to take her place in front of the Gungan. "Boss Nadd," she says. "I am Queen Amidala. I apologize for the deception, but I could not risk the Trade Federation knowing they had captured me. That would be a devastating blow to my people's morale. I could not allow it. But we cannot defeat the Federation's army alone. We need your help. I beg you to aid us." She kneels down, and after a moment, the rest of her party does the same. "Please."

"Hoo." He laughs again, for longer this time. He steeples his fingers beneath his chin. "Meesa like this. Weesa can be... talkings."

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...Huh. She wonders if the person she talked to earlier was the real Queen or a decoy, too...

She follows Elesse's lead in terms of reactions, but does watch the negotiations with interest.

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The Jedi stand apart from the display; they're not part of these negotiations. After a little bit, Boss Nadd tells Jar Jar to show the Jedi around following Queen Amidala's suggestion.

Elesse quietly explains to Anakin that this is a deniable excuse for them to inspect the Gungan army's readiness and offer advice about preparations and tactics. Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan will be doing most of that, as they're the ones who have actually fought the droids before.

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She nods. "That seems smart. I don't know a lot about that stuff yet..."

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"This can be a good time to learn, then. Keep your ears open."

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"I will."

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The Gungans are not heavily mechanized, preferring living animals when they need assisted transport and for cargo hauling. However, this is not say they are low-tech. They have quite sophisticated shields based on the local plasmids. The basic battle order is to form up beneath a huge mobile shield and slowly advance towards the enemy, bombarding them all the while in an effort to take down their shield first.

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She asks questions about typical military weapons and strategy, mostly of Elesse but sometimes of other people. She's right about not knowing much concrete yet, but she's very good at identifying when there's assumptions they're making that don't stand up to questioning.

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The Gungans are making a lot of those. They haven't fought a serious battle in quite some time. Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan can talk about droid tactics in particular, while Elesse and Anakin deal more with the matter of making the Gungans realize that some of them are almost certainly going to die.

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Yeah that's the thing about fighting someone with superior weapons. Sometimes you die, and you hope that your dying makes it better for the person standing next to you and worse for your enemy. But if you're a slave the only freedom you get is death, yours or your master's or both, and the Trade Federation will make slaves of anyone who survives losing. (She starts mentally sorting through - not the stuff she's read about war, the Jedi Masters know more about that anyways - but the stuff she knows about dying and about freedom. She knows a lot about those.)

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The Gungans are not super thrilled with this take.

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(This isn't really a super thrilling situation, so.)

"You gotta be smarter and more stubborn, until they're dead or they give up, and droids aren't very smart and the Trade Federation's not very stubborn. Winning means your kids won't be slaves, though, and their kids will grow up knowing they can be brave." The stories she knows about fighting back are mostly very metaphorical, and she doesn't really know if the cultural tricks would communicate... 

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That angle is better received. After the inspection, the Jedi have a few moments to themselves before the others are finished.

"Do you think they're ready?" Elesse asks Qui-Gon.

     "They'll have to be," he replies. "The hour is upon them."

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"This won't be a ground battle, so their army isn't well suited," she says, suddenly sure. "The droids won't stop as long as they're being controlled."

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"The Gungans don't have any ships." Elesse says.

     "The Naboo do," Obi-Wan says. "The Theed Royal Guard. They were captured when we left."

"Their rescue should be a priority."

     "They are few in number," Qui-Gon says. "The Gungans will still be needed to attract the Federation's attention."

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"Probably a small group should do the rescue, if we're trying to trick the Federation about what we're doing?"

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     "They're likely being held in or near Theed," Qui-Gon says.

"And the Queen will want to make a visit there to deal with the Trade Federation's viceroy in any case."

He chuckles softly. "You know her so well already. That is my own assessment as well. If she does not suggest the detour, we might."

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"What order're we doing stuff in?"

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"Pilots first, I think. Then everything else needs to happen more or less at once."

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She nods.

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The Queen's entourage returns. "What do you think, Master Jedi?"

"They're as ready as they'll be in the near future. But it would better to not fight the droids at all."

Amidala nods tightly. "I know. We've gotten word from the resistance that my pilots are being held in the palace. We will free them before confronting the Viceroy, and they will attack the control ship. The Gungans have offered us transport to Theed. We will leave when you are ready."

Obi-Wan groans. "Not the bongo again..."

Qui-Gon pats him on the shoulder. "It's faster and more subtle than approaching by air. And you've already seen all the biggest fish, Padawan."

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Anakin feels ready.

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The bongo is a submarine that can navigate the network of caves that honeycomb Naboo's unusually porous crust. These caves are often inhabited by large sea creatures, and they catch glimpses of a few on their trip.

They pop up only slightly the worse for wear at the base of a waterfall near Theed. From here, it's a matter of sneaking up the cliffs and into the city, avoiding the droid patrols. The droids are fairly stupid, so this isn't very difficult. If one is quiet enough, it's entirely possible to walk directly behind a group without them noticing. This greatly simplifies setting up ambushes to create a gap in the patrols that will let them sneak into the palace.

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Anakin, it turns out, is a bit of a murder prodigy. Just a bit. She has an excellent sense for how ambushes, patrols, and the like work, is very quiet when she wants to be, and is quite enjoying tricking the droids. (She acknowledges sneaking into the palace probably requires a minimum of murder, though. The droids might be dumb but if some of them don't report in that'll be incredibly suspicious.)

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They just have to get the timing right. With Jedi, this isn't as difficult as it might otherwise be. They manage to sneak into the palace near the hangar. Elesse takes a moment to stretch her senses, and indicates the whereabouts of the pilots. They're being guarded by a droid platoon, who are easy enough to dispatch from surprise. Then, pilots in tow, it's off to the ships. They're all still mostly ready, but some of the pilots are going to have to act as ground crew, so they won't all be able to be launched.

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Anakin's pretty sure she knows how to fly these. And they need as many ships as they can get, and she'll probably be more useful in the air anyways...

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...Elesse senses a taint of darkness skulking.

Yes, she agrees, it would be better if Anakin joined the space battle. A blue-and-white astromech volunteers to be her co-pilot, and they can start pre-flight in one of the unused fighters.

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Anakin has never actually flown this model but that's never stopped her before.

She gets through pre-flight without any bumps.

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Elesse and the others hold off a few waves of droids.

And then, as the wing prepares to launch, a figure in dark robes appears in the doorway. Elesse and Qui-Gon move to the fore, lightsabers glowing green and gold. Obi-Wan starts herding the Queen and the others out the far entrance.

A tangible pulse of hatred bursts from the dark one as he ignites a weapon of his own, a bloody crimson saberstaff.

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...Elesse better be okay when Anakin gets back. Or else that dark figure is gonna have a very short future. (This doesn't feel like anger or fear. Just certainty.)

She launches with the other ships, attentive to see if anyone from the ground fires at them. She needs to get this done quickly, she realizes - to get the droids out of the equation and so she can return and maybe help.

It's really not calmness she feels, though. It's a wordless 'help' towards the Force, a vicious certainty her friend won't let her down - or at least that Anakin will be strong enough to protect the people she likes.

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There's no ground anti-air fire. Either they weren't expecting this or didn't get anything set up.

Once they get up to orbit, things become a bit more exciting. Swarms of fighters boil out of the Federation's ships. Her droid, which introduced itself as R2-D2, chirrups in alarm. The other pilots start coordinating attack patterns over the comm, searching for the control ship.

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She goes drifty, looking for the control ship in the Force.

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Probably that one, on the far side. Also, she's about to become the target of three separate missile locks.

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Welp.

Splitting her attention between comming people, evasive action, and finding the best path to the control ship is hard - she prioritizes avoiding the missile locks, then only lets people know she's got a feeling but not a confirmation about the control ship's location,and she's going to pursue that lead, when and if she gets clear long enough, and then she's plotting a course for the control ship - she needs to make sure she's not shot down, but she also needs to get it fast - she doesn't focus very strongly on returning fire more than she has to -

There's a lot to keep in mind.

This is fun.

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R2 has some concerns about the course Anakin's plotting, but she has a good feeling about it.

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Well Anakin's not entirely sure this'll work out, but what's life without a little risk?

She promises she'll be as careful as she can be, though.

She follows her plotted course.

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There are some calls close enough to make her droid shriek in alarm, but she does get through. The next obstacle she has to contend with is the strength of the battleship's shields. They're far too strong for her weapons to be able to penetrate on their own.

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She evaluates both the possibilities for somehow getting past the shields without just shooting them uselessly and for getting backup to her location.

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The rest of the Naboo fighters are mired in dogfights and don't have much chance of breaking free cleanly to help her.

If she could get her entire ship inside the shields, she could shoot the ship apart from the inside. The hangars on the ends of the arms would be most straightforward. Or if she's feeling reckless, she could try skimming the edge of the envelope and wait for it to cycle when the turbolasers fire.

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Entire ship inside it is.

Resistance getting inside the hangars will be tough... So will skimming the envelope... But she has a good feeling about the latter, and it seems like it'd be faster.

She tries it.

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It is very difficult to get the timing right, to not be sliced in half by the shield closing again or be vaporized by a point-blank burst. Her first attempt doesn't work; neither does her second.

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Ugh.

She takes a deep breath and goes for the hangars.

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These are much easier to get into. The gap when a fighter exits or re-enters is much more forgiving. She can follow a droid coming back for more torpedoes easily enough, and blast it apart for its troubles, which clears the hangar deck nicely.

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Time for mayhem and chaos!

(At least mayhem and chaos directed towards disabling the ship.)

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There's lots of opportunities for that.

 

It would be a good idea launch a pair of missiles down that corridor, on a thirty-second fuse with autonav turned on and no targeting parameters set.

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Heeeeeeee.

Missiles!

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R2 asks if she's really sure she wants to do this. It seems very illogical.

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She's pretty sure.

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Digital sigh. Missiles away.


She should probably leave now.

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She zooms in an escape-ward direction.

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And thirty seconds later, the control ship starts exploding from the inside. R2 chirps in amazement. According to the droid's readings, she seems to have hit the reactor.

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Ha!

...Also she should really get out of here.

She zips as fast as she marginally safely can, out of the exploding wreckage.

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The greatest challenge she now faces is dodging the no-longer responsive droid fighters.

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Easy, comparatively.

She sets a course back for Naboo.

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She's joined by the other pilots. It looks like everyone made it through essentially intact. The trip back is filled with congratulations.

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Heeeee.

(Still - getting back to the palace and checking on Elesse is Anakin's priority, now. She listens for updates from ground control for what's going on on the planet...)

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It's an overwhelming victory, seemingly.

No mention of the Jedi, though.

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Well, she'll just have to check on them herself.

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Elesse is waiting when she lands.

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"Are you okay?" she asks. "What happened?"

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"I am fine, as are the Queen and Obi-Wan. Master Jinn, unfortunately- the Sith killed him."

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"Oh. I'm sorry."

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"He was a good Jedi. His death is a loss."

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"Yeah. He was nice."

"Did the Sith get away?"

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"No. I killed him."

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"Good."

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"Mm." She holds out an arm for Anakin to walk beside her. "We should go see the Queen. You can tell me about your adventure."

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She makes sure R2's okay, briefly, then falls in beside Elesse, perking up a bit to talk about the fight and getting inside the control ship and blowing it up.

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Her Padawan is very talented. Good job, Padawan.

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Heeeeeeee. She has a really talented teacher!

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How kind.

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When they get to the throne room, a bit of spontaneous applause breaks out for Anakin.

Obi-Wan is off to one side, clearly troubled. Elesse goes over to speak to him quietly for a moment, after which he leaves. She takes up his guard station.

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Being applauded is weird. She thinks she likes it. She should do heroic things more, maybe.

She grins and ducks her head a bit and trails after Elesse.

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They passively observe as Queen Amidala sorts through the business of putting her government back together. This process is greatly simplified by the Federation having relied almost entirely on droids that were taken offline when the command ship was destroyed. The living leaders have all been captured, and there are no messy pockets of lingering resistance to clean up.

At the end of the day, when the hall has mostly cleared out, the Queen calls the Jedi over. "I am sorry about Master Jinn. Though I knew him only briefly, he seemed a good man."

"He was. Thank you, your Highness."

     "Were it not for his efforts, as well as your own, I would not be here. If there is anything I can do, anything you need-"

"I have already contacted the Council with news of his death. It was his wish that his funeral be held on the planet where he died. Representatives of the Council will here in a few days to attend that."

     "Of course. We- can work out the details later. Thank you once again for your service, Master Vendar. And you, Anakin."

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"You're welcome. I liked helping."

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She smiles. "My people, and I, are in your debt. If you ever need our aid, do not hesitate to call on us."

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"Thanks."

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And with that, they're dismissed. They can spend the next few days in relative peace. Elesse makes sure Obi-Wan remembers to eat and sleep and so forth.

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Anakin keeps an eye on Elesse in turn. She spends some time exploring Naboo, or reading, or practicing, or just chatting with people. She doesn't seem really bothered by Qui-Gon being dead, but she didn't actually know him that well and Elesse's okay, so.

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Mace Windu, Yoda, and a few other Jedi show up for the funeral. It's held at dusk, in an open pavilion. Qui-Gon's body is laid out on a pyre in the center, with everyone gathered around. It's not terribly formalized. The Jedi take it in turns to share a memory of the fallen Master. Obi-Wan doesn't say anything, but uses the torch to light the fire after a moment of silence.

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Anakin stays practically glued to Elesse's side.

She doesn't think she's too fond of funerals.

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Very few people are.

They return to the Temple the next day with the others.

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And Anakin goes back to her old routine for a time.