"And how big is magical society, in general? I think I heard that Hogwarts is the only school in the UK and going by how many older students there are, even being conservative because of the, um, war thing, it seems like we're a ridiculously tiny group."
She shakes her head. "I haven't ever actually tried, when I was little I didn't have fine enough control to even be able to try, and then I never did try because of habit and also because it'd be suspiciouser to muggles if injuries vanished too quickly. Well, the kinds of injuries that tended to bother me the most, at any rate."
"Hmm, I think if we could just Transfigure injuries away, we could probably Transfigure old age away, right? I mean, otherwise Metamorphmagi would be immortal, and we wouldn't live to 140 we'd live to always. Unless there's a cultural thing against immortality? ...a very, very strong cultural thing, that would make literally every wix who has ever lived not want to Transfigure themself youth and health?"
"There, uh, kind of is a cultural thing. You-Know-Who wanted to cheat death and if it were that easy he probably would have done it even though he wasn't a Metamorphmagus. ...Well, I guess just being young and healthy wouldn't have stopped somebody from killing him, he didn't actually live to a hundred and forty even, but still."
"And, er, I don't know if I can turn into a five-year-old. I've never really tried. It feels like I should be able to, if I can turn various parts of my body into animal parts I see no reason why I shouldn't turn into a five-year-old. But well, I guess I ought to try this not-here, maybe in the shower when I won't have robes getting too large—and too small, I'll definitely try to go all grown up."
The wizarding world is an endless string of wonders.
She spots more movement than she expects plants to be capable of over there but is ushered further inside too quickly to really see what that was.
"Are there plants that can, like, move?" she asks the non-muggleborn witches.
"Did you think of something bizarre to do with singing mustard, Sadde?"
"I have absolutely no idea!" she says brightly. "They just do. I have no scars to prove it because those I know I can morph away, but if I couldn't I'd have lots! I think the only reason Richard doesn't hate me is because all the other owls in the shop seemed to want to pick on me as much as they picked on him. We're kindred sooouuulllssss."
...basically, she crouches so the Professor can't easily spot her and starts slowly approaching the corner where she saw movement.
...she may be playing a little bit with metamorphmagic.
She hmms softly, looks at Madam Pomfrey to check that she's not likely to look at her too soon, and morphs herself a year older.
Huh.
She morphs herself a year younger.
Hmmmmm.
Eventually she morphs back to her own age before Madam Pomfrey can notice anything wrong.
...just to have some fun (it is her third day, she's allowed to have fun now, right?), the next time she catches one of the kids' eye without Madam Pomfrey's attention she morphs her tongue into a lizard's and does the little tongue-flick thing lizards tend to do. Just for a fraction of a second, then her tongue's hers again.
Eventually she's released. Her next class is History of Magic, which she finds absolutely fascinating in spite of it being taught by Binns. Then it's dinnertime.
"So I couldn't exactly turn five or twenty-five while I was in the Hospital Wing, but I turned twelve-and-ten-months and then ten-and-ten-months, or maybe the other way around, I don't remember. Anyway, it feels..." She pauses to think about it. "Weird. Like, it feels like this is not the way I'm supposed to be. After doing it with the age thing, I noticed I feel the same thing when I morph stuff like donkey ears or a duck beak or whatever, only much less so. So, like, there's some sense in which I'm supposed to be this age and not some other age, and this species and not some other species, but there's not any sense in which I'm supposed to be a boy and not a girl or vice-versa. Or, I dunno, any given ethnicity or eye colour or hair colour as opposed to any other."
She shrugs. "No idea. It felt uncomfortable but not too much? ...the best analogy I can find is wearing clothes that don't fit you but in your brain. Maybe it gets worse the longer I stay that way? Or maybe it's proportional to how far from what I'm "supposed to be" I am, or both. I still haven't really understood which kinds of things we get for free and which we don't with magic. Anyway, it bears testing. "
She then does the same with McGonagall and says, trying her best to imitate the witch's accent: "Nonsense, Pomona, ms. Barrow has had her sights on ms. Holland for ages, she will break up with mr. Jackson before the holidays." The accent's not very good.
"I guess so? I never really checked, and metamorphmagic has some opaque limitations. Like, I can't really turn into any animal completely, even if I can turn many parts of my body into other animals'. But morphing into people is not too difficult, even without thinking about the specific anatomical features I'd have to copy, so yeah, I think so."
She stares at nothing for a second then says, "I hope post-pubescent me is reasonable enough to not want to morph into her crushes to, er." She clears her throat.
"No to the second—I still have to have a goodish mental image of what I'm gonna turn into to do it, it's actually sorta like Transfig. I dunno about the first, though, I can turn into people I've only seen pictures or videos of, and can copy features of animals I've only ever seen in books, but I can't turn into fictional humanoid creatures. Now that I know several of them are not in fact fictional I don't know how that will affect magic, if at all."
She thinks about it and covers her ears with her hands so no one will see it. When she uncovers them, they're still normal-looking, but she says, "Yeah, that I can do. But that's different, it's just the ears, it's like turning any other part into an animal's. Are elves real, by the way?" she asks the resident purebloods.
"House elves - I'm not sure why the adjective; there may be other kinds but if so they're hopelessly obscure - are yea high and they have huge, slightly flappy-looking ears, big eyes, weird noses, and heads too big for their bodies. Wizards use them for domestic tasks, with, by and large, the elves' enthusiastic agreement."
"Yeah, it's very weird, but I've met a couple of them and they are very emphatic that it's what they want to do. I mean, they could be lying but following up on that doesn't seem like the highest priority since they'd need some reason to lie about it, like 'not wanting me to butt in'."
"Oh. Yes, that'd be very good. Any suggestions? I mean, any reason why just going with 'Hey I'd like to talk about potentially unpleasant topics with a House Elf, I am a muggleborn and therefore likely to accidentally offend you so send someone with a tough skin' or the like wouldn't work?"
Then it's bed time, and Sadde leaves the note amongst her clothing, and starts reading one of her books.
"Well, erm, what exactly does it mean for it be your nature? What parts of you make you all do that as opposed to something else? What would happen if you did in fact do something else? I don't think humans have any, er, behavioural traits that are 'in our nature' so I'm having trouble conceptualising, here. Even reproduction's kinda optional."
He nods. "It's okay, I already got a lot of information from that, you were very helpful! My other questions are mostly cultural and I should probably go grab breakfast before class starts, but one last question: do you know another elf who would be better at describing feelings like that, and if so, do you think they'd be willing to talk to me about them? It's totally okay to say no."
"Er..." He blinks a couple of times before turning to the other boy. "I was asking her questions. About House Elves, in general, you know."
"Well, she seemed to act as if there was some sort of... strong instinctive component to their preference for doing chores. What she said is still consistent with purely social or cultural drives, I guess, but if that were the only thing I'd expect there'd be Elves who just don't want to do the same thing in spite of upbringing and society and stuff. Well, I guess it's also possible that they just have a generally submissive mental makeup that humans co-opted for their own uses, but that just passes the bucket to why they have this generally submissive mental makeup in the first place."
He blinks and thinks about it for a few seconds. "Well, prodding my brain, it seems like I just assumed singing mustard must be mostly artificial, because muggles have had a lot of success creating artificial plants and not so much artificial sapient beings. I mean, the only instance I knew of of sapient beings was humans, and humans just evolved, so that's my starting point for other sapient beings, whereas it would surprise me not one bit if wizardkind made singing mustards. Actually, I'd be quite surprised if I found out we hadn't."
He pauses again to try to think of a better way to phrase it.
"What I mean is that, like, if I find a thing that looks like it has a purpose, like it's meant to be used by someone or to accomplish something specific, then I assume humans—or, I guess, other sapient beings—made those things. Singing mustard looks like it has a purpose, flutes look like they have a purpose, notebooks look like they have a purpose. They don't look like things that would just—evolve, you know? Flutes and notebooks aren't even alive to evolve in the first place! And as far as I know, centaurs don't really have a purpose in that sense either, they just are, like humans, or cats. If I found out that centaurs were born with suspiciously saddle-like humps on their backs, though, I would start suspecting at least some artificial influences in their design. So when I find a species that apparently has innate instinctive preferences for doing chores, it looks like it must be artificial."
"I'm not sure it's actually chores in particular. You could probably get an elf to do other tasks, they'd just need different training. And weird things do evolve. Cats domesticated themselves because humans were attracting rodents and it was convenient to coexist with them. House elves could be like cats, only we wouldn't put up with cat behavior from anything that could talk so they're submissive and obedient."
He scratches his head. "I guess. Do we offer House Elves anything like that? Like, are there any intrinsic advantages to living with us? They can apparently teleport, so I assume they can pretty much choose where to live, unless that teleportation power is really restricted or something."
"I'm not actually sure how much magic house elves can do besides Apparition. But their masters do feed them and shelter them. They could maybe survive in the wild - or at least they could if they wouldn't be really depressed about it all the time - but they might have some deficiency in, say, figuring out what to do next after doing a thing, or forming societies big and interconnected enough to prevent inbreeding, or something like that, and they solved those problems by getting humans to fill in. I'm not sure about any of this, you understand, I'm only guessing."
"I asked her to try to describe to me what it felt like, this whole 'elves must do chores to be good elves' thing, but she said she wasn't good at describing feelings. She said another elf called Winky might, since she talks about her feelings all the time, or something."
He scratches his head again. "I mean, observably you're right, but it feels kinda weird to me. I usually know what I'm feeling and why. I guess maybe the whole thing involved in not becoming The Incredible Hulk whenever I got annoyed when I was little helped with that, some."
"...I should probably not try to do it in a notepad, it doesn't sound like it'd fit on this tiny page."
"I almost never take notes," he says as he finishes writing on his 'pad, then tilts his head a bit, looking at something he wrote on it. "By the way, I started reading my new books last night, or well one of them anyway, and on the introduction it said that we can't normally transfigure things into gold, but it didn't really go into why. Do you know?"
"Magic has some really weird limitations," he comments. "The book also mentioned something called a 'Philosopher's Stone' that could turn base metals into gold, but it said that the only known maker of this Stone thing died a few years ago and that the Stone was destroyed." He looks up from his notepad, pocketing it. "I wonder why no one ever made another one of it? Apparently that's not a hard limit of magic, if there's some workaround."
"If I tried to sell all that gold in a wizarding market, maybe, but I bet I could sell enough to muggles to be rich enough that any other projects of mine would be significantly easier, and no richer. But in any case, my interest is mostly academic, circumventing rules of magic sounds fun."
"I'm pretty used to bullies who are older than me. Granted, not like five years older, and without magic, but this time I can hit back with magic as well! And I can do it with magic they're not expecting, even! Like yesterday, when I was in the Wing, I think I creeped out this Hufflepuff kid by doing this." And he does the lizard tongue-flick thing to illustrate.
He giggles. "You know, the idea of Gryffindors randomly hexing me in the hallways is kinda funny. It'll probably not be as funny when it actually happens, though. How about I'm only a trickster to Slytherins and benevolent to non-Slytherins? Or at least, Slytherins I dislike, Jacob's okay."
"And at least some types of hexing are bound to be fun, right? It can't all be blood-pouring-out-of-your-ears or people wouldn't do them ever at all, and I like frustrating bullies so the thought of not minding the milder ones when they try to bully me and get confused when it fails is funny all on its own. I speak from experience here," he says, and giggles some more.
At dinner, Sadde is nowhere to be found, even though the other Slytherin firsties are already there. In fact, one of them—they might recognise him as the one Sadde was talking to during the Sorting Feast—is looking antsy and nervous when he spots the girls and makes a beeline to them after a moment's hesitation.
Floating upside down and giggling helplessly, his personal affects strewn all over the classroom.
The Professor flicks her wand, causing Sadde to drop, which makes him giggle even harder.
"And who might be responsible for this?" the woman asks.
He giggles. "Well, I think he only meant to turn me upside down, but when I wasn't suitably upset to his tastes he langlocked me, and when even that didn't help he said 'Well if you find this so funny you won't mind this' and that's when he cast the laughing jinx. He eventually got bored that I wasn't begging to be let down and left, which in retrospect maybe wasn't a very good idea but then again I was upside down, unable to talk, and giggling helplessly."
"Apparently there's another theoretical thing like the Stone except this one cures all illnesses, called the Panacea. No one's ever made one, but it seems to be one of those things most think is possible except they haven't found out exactly how to do it. Kinda the same vibe the Philosopher's Stone had in the 1200s."
So, Alchemy is similar to Potioneering, but there are some fundamental differences. Most of the steps are more symbolic than anything, with ingredients being used for their memetic properties rather than magical ones. It also includes things like steps that are apparently useless, such as Vanishing an ingredient after crushing it in the mortar in order to prep it, and it deals with more minerals and higher temperatures than standard Potioneering.
That is very interesting. And does seem like the sort of thing that mostly would be left to upper years because the firsties would take one look at "crush, then vanish, ingredient" and skip the step altogether; it's bad enough in Potions where they dice when they should mince and squeeze when they should wring. But if this is just plain how alchemy works Miranda can accept that and kinda wants to try it.
Sadde wants to try it as well! But he's not so sure that alone would be a good reason not to allow young students to practice it (not that magical society has the most reasonable or sensible rules). Are there perhaps unwanted side effects or particularly dangerous consequences for failure?
Well, the high temperatures are kind of a big deal. The wandwork is beyond most first years and many second years; Miranda can't cast a Vanishing Charm yet. And sometimes final products look exactly right but are in fact total disasters and you can't tell until you try them.
"I'm sure there's some Freudian explanation but I have no idea what it is. Hm, well, thinking about it it may have something to do with the years of bullying and the defence mechanisms created, where I'd become scarier than the bullies were and more frustrating than their other targets until they either gave up or something bad like the Hulk incident happened. I mean, I don't want to cause trouble per se, I just think it's funny to be a wild card and I really really dislike bullies."
"There was this one time this bully was, well, bullying me, calling me freak and he-she and other worse stuff, but he pushed some very specific buttons he was not supposed to know about, and I was not quite able to not, erm, morph into something very scary and then hit him a lot." He doesn't blush, but he looks suitably embarrassed. "That's the one time I'm very certain the Ministry actually erased a lot of time from the minds of a lot of people. And, er, that won't happen again, promise. I don't, er, have temper problems anymore."
He happens to catch said Slytherin's eye just then and waves at the boy, who scowls and returns to his conversation.
"Mmm, I don't think I'm inconsistent. I can consistently predict the kinds of stuff I'm going to do, usually! Like, I think if someone had told me beforehand that Rufus would mention my parents' situation to me I would probably have noticed this would make me unreasonably angry and then taken steps to prevent myself from being angry. The surprise was a decisive factor, there. And I can totally predict that I will sometimes tongue-flick at random people just to watch them go 'eep.'"
"Well, they told Jacob not to tell a Professor, so he went and told you guys, which technically isn't telling a Professor but accomplishes the same goal, which is good Slytherin behaviour, go around the system instead of against it, except a much better Slytherin behaviour is doing that and not getting caught. There was a whole speech about Proper Slytherin Behaviour by one of the older students the other day."
He starts making a list. "It's good Slytherin behaviour to have inscrutable goals; it's Proper Slytherin Behaviour to have very clear and obviously correct public goals that are not in fact your real goals. It's good Slytherin behaviour to technically-not-break-rules; it's Proper Slytherin Behaviour to not be found out while doing that; it's Extra Proper Slytherin Behaviour to be the one making the rules. It's good Slytherin behaviour to know your enemies better than your friends; it's Proper Slytherin Behaviour to never let other people think of you as their enemy no matter what you think of them." He shrugs. "There was more, but at some point I had to pay more attention to holding my giggles than to listening because this is the House that supported a Dark Lord and thinks muggles aren't people. Most of them couldn't recognise a cunning plot if it danced on the table and threw its bra at them."
"Tell me about it," he says, shaking his head and offering Willow a napkin to clean up the mess. "I'm going to rescue their reputation, though! Starting with Jacob. I'm gonna teach him how to Slytherin properly. Starting by not being seen in public with me or my friends, for as long as Slytherins are stupid it's best for his image if he doesn't associate with the scummy muggleborn."
"But my project isn't just rescuing their reputation, it's restoring Salazar's legacy! The glory of old! Or some such. You know, untangling 'cunning' from 'evil.' Though I guess that'd be invariably true. Hmmm." He shrugs. "I think it's still a net good, though, if this is what the world looks like when we have witless Slytherins running the place I am definitely not impressed and need to fix it. Of course, if we do end up taking over the world then that'll be moot and just my altruistic act of the day. Or something."
"Not a clue!" he grins. "Hmm... maybe like, less muggleborn-hate in the more immediate future? Or less bullying? I dunno, that's the sort of thing I'd have to figure out! I'd probably need charts for this as well, it may not be as daunting a task as eliminating prejudice against muggles but it's actually a pretty good first step!"
"My 17-year-old sister is an international fencing champion, my 15-year-old brother got into Yale on a maths scholarship last year, the twins are 13 and they're musicians, my grandpa was a UN ambassador, and dad works at CERN," she recites as if she's said that hundreds of times, completely oblivious to the magical nature of the audience and its relationship with the muggle institutions mentioned.
Winky promptly starts bawling. There are intelligible words in it. "Mr. Crouch was needing Winky! He was trusting Winky to look after Master Barty and W-Winky was a bad elf and now they is both dead and Winky cannot ever ever go home! Should have been trying harder and not been afraid of heights, should have been keeping Master Barty safe all along from those bad wizards, Winky failed Mistress and Mr. Crouch and Master Barty all three!"
This is definitely not going as expected.
...well, that suggests he'd expected something, which he hadn't, not in so many words, but still, if he'd thought about it long enough to form an expectation this would not have been it.
"Winky is keeping her masters' silence," sniffs Winky. "But - but Winky is having to do a difficult task and it was so high and Winky was afraid and did not pay good attention and Master Barty got into such terrible trouble and Mr. Crouch sacked Winky and - and he was right to do it because Winky was a bad elf."
"A good elf minds her masters and does not embarrass or disobey them and makes them comfortable and is not seen when she is not wanted and always works for their good and does not shirk her chores and hones all of the talents she needs to support and care for them and does not gossip or complain," Winky says.
"Okay. I think..." He blinks. "I think I should probably have asked Miranda to make a list of good questions to ask so I wouldn't end up feeling like there might be some really obvious question I'm missing at the end. Erm. If I left a note again, would you come and talk some more? Also, would you like to talk about something else? I don't know if you want or need friends, or if you'd want to be friends with a human, but I could be your friend, if you wanted and if it's not like forbidden or offensive or something."
He grins. "There's a slight possibility that several people woke up and found that their underwear had been mysteriously replaced by another gender's," he says. Then, looking as innocent as a dove, he says, "Of course I had nothing to do with it, but I giggled at the wrong person."
"I think none of the girls do, and most of the older boys don't either. I know Jacob knows, but he acts like he doesn't. We also don't talk in public anymore, he's quick to learn. The others, I think they're not sure yet, I haven't been feeling very girly this week so they haven't really noticed how much I change."
He looks at Karen and says, "Well, it's... I mean, it's like itself? Like, some days I just feel like I'm a girl, and some days I feel like I'm a boy. Some days I don't feel like either of those so I just go with whatever I was before."
"I mean, imagine tomorrow you woke up as a boy. What do you think you would feel and want to do about it?"
"I do. Anyway, that's why I said it's kinda like that, but it's not really related to anything practical like robes or rooms, it's just..." Who'da thunk, Sadde at a loss for words. "It's itself," he sighs. "It's just feeling like my body should be a certain way and I should be seen a certain way and, erm, yeah. I don't have anything better than this." Shrug.
He shrugs. "Sure, but apparently the Hat has decided to put the people who don't mind being associated with Slytherin rather than those that really should be Slytherin. Or the blood purists, or whatever. I mean, you can't really say any of them has exactly embodied any of the virtues of Salazar for like forty years." Someone's been reading his war history books.
"She was sufficiently good," he shrugs. "From what I gather, she has a very very strong instinct about what a 'good elf' is supposed to do, no two ways about it, no possibility that something else might also be a good way to be an elf. The actual skills related to it, her mum taught her, but she said that there wasn't ever a time when she didn't know what it meant to be a good elf. Or that she didn't love her Mr. Crouch."
He nods. "That's true, I suppose. She also said something to the effect of it just... being obvious, or something. The 'what a good elf is' thing. She said that it was obvious, but she didn't know how it was obvious, were her words, I think. Anyway, the least horrifying hypothesis here is that they're in fact artificial. If they're domesticated then it's likely that there are terrible side effects to their psyche because of it, and if they're just brain washed that's terrible all by itself. She mentioned one elf who was a terrible elf and who tricked his master into freeing him but he died last year. I wonder if I could find elves that dislike their masters and get their opinion on the matter..."
"But it sounds pretty important? I mean, there's a pretty non-negligible probability that we have an entire species of brain washed creatures here. Except there's nothing I can do about it before I'm at least as famous and about five times as influential as Harry Ducking Potter."
"I mean," says Miranda, "yes, this is very creepy, but. House elf origins are really obscure; so probably wizards are not actively doing things to each new baby house elf. The house elves who actually exist in real life today prefer to be how they are. And it might be completely impossible to stop them-as-a-group from being that way without eradicating them as a species, which they would and should object to. It is extremely likely that you could spend a huge amount of time getting to the bottom of it and not having anything at the end other than a really good reason to think some dead wizard was a really bad person. Nothing actionable."
"No, I'm saying she is smart enough to hack it in Ravenclaw," gesturing at Karen, "and yet it was you who said it. In fact, it didn't even sound like it was something you hacked, or at least you didn't hack it just now. And," he smirks, "that's I think the third time in this conversation I've said this. Come on, just admit it, you're a little bit Slytherin."
"No, wanting it is probably more likely to mean you think you exemplify the House more cleanly. I'd be hard-pressed to vouch for the self-awareness of most members of my House. You could probably out-Slytherin a committee including all seventh—and sixth-year Slytherins if they were coached by the ghost of Salazar himself." He doesn't actually know that for a fact, but that's not stopping him from saying it anyway.
"I'm pretty sure Slytherin's rep wouldn't be this bad if we had had two consecutive years of competent Slytherins at some point in the recent past. The Proper Slytherin Behaviour speech was given by a seventh-year! And the others were nodding along sagely as if we were being imparted wisdom handed down from Merlin himself! Also yes, I very much like how your mind works, it's a very good mind."
"Better internal policing. I couldn't put up with the attacks you're getting - I might get fewer because I'm less provocative and I'm not Muggleborn, but it still seemed less likely to be a problem in pretty much any other house. And chasing me away is definitely a symptom of the broader Slytherin problem."
"Oh, sure," he waves his hand dismissively. "I mean, for now my activities are getting really good at Potions, talking to any disgruntled House Elves I might find lying around, and being really incredibly friendly to the other Slytherin firsties all year. I've got some leftover energy still, and since yooooou will be helping me fix Slytherin, that won't even take up that much of my time!" Grin.
"Awwwwww," he says, still grinning. "I know that, but even if you just help me a little that's already some stuff off my own plate, yeah? Besides, it's not like you currently have any other projects going on, and no one needs to know you're helping me so your reputation will remain immaculate." He seems really proud of the word 'immaculate.' "Except for the part where you're my friend, but I'm gonna be at least on friendly terms with enough firsties that you won't stand out so much!"