A god burns. (They always do.)
With her burns the world. (It was too small, too tight, and what better than the great cosmic reset button to address that?)
(With her burns her chains.)
A child opens her eyes.
She wakes in ashes.
She doesn't know her name, at first.
She doesn't know how she got here, or where she came from.
The sky over her is burning.
There's a few distant figures coming. Capes flutter behind them as they fly through the smoke. (She didn't get them all, she thinks, then wonders why she thought that).
The girl stares, confused, until one lands near her.
"My name is Thor Odinson," he says. "I'm looking for a Loki Odinsdottir. My sister. You look like her."
Loki had never actually been able to not get mad at being called 'Odinsdottir', not since their falling out - of course, even in the rare times she tried, she'd never been a good liar, not to Thor.
He brings them pretty far off, away from the fire and the ash, to a golden platform that remains mostly undamaged. He's grim during the fight, and there's the ghosts of buildings still burning below.
"Hold on," he says, before throwing a lever.
In a rush of rainbow light, they're elsewhere, on a landing pad in a field outside a stately mansion.
"Where is this?" she asks, looking around. It's so green, so unlike the place they left. She can hear birdsong. (She's not sure how she knows what birds are, but she does, and she knows she likes them. They're free, usually.)
(A flash of memory races through her mind. Running through a market, the locks on cages holding back birds springing open in her wake - )
(Then the memory's gone.)
"Yeah, definitely."
He follows, beating her to the door so he can disarm the security systems. He identifies himself as Thor and a guest, and asks the resident artificial intelligence not to relay anything to the team just yet.
And then he leads the girl who's probably his sister to the kitchen, heats up some tea and scones (the best he can approximate her old favorites), and sits across from her.
"So, what happened's kind of a long story."
"So. My sister... To start explaining her - she was never our mother's favorite child. She was - wild in ways mother didn't prefer. She'd do things specifically because she'd been told not to. She'd free caged animals. She'd play pranks on dignitaries. We were close, but - I'd always be forgiven for helping her. Our mother claimed it was her fault, because she led me astray, and would punish her worse."
"So she, reasonably, left."
"Something festered in her heart, I think, or in her fate - our people are bound very tightly to the prophecies surrounding us. She hated not just our mother but our entire people. She resented me, and sought to foil me whenever I left our home world. She killed people, because she'd been told not to, and because she enjoyed it."
"And then she figured out how to burn our home. Asgard."
"She'd have to burn herself, too, but - "
"Asgard's end was prophesied. Woven into the great tapestry of fate. Even she couldn't escape that, in the end, and her death during it was there."
"...The tapestry burned," she says, voice distant, like it's coming from outside her head. "It was at the tree's root."
(She's not sure how she knows that, and it wasn't a tapestry, not really, like how Yggdrasil wasn't really a tree. But 'tapestry' and 'tree' are close enough, and fire is made to be the enemy of wood and thread.)
"...Good," he says, firmly.
"Anyways... Asgard got cut off, when the fire started. We were doing search and rescue, a few of us, once we could find our way back, but - you're the only one we've found alive. So far at least, but... People'd been talking about calling off the search."
The Avengers: are immensely torn! There's a lot of people of the opinion she's flat evil and should not be trusted, though they don't seem to agree on what to do then and whether they think this is a trick or not.
Captain America and Thor Odinson end up bracketing the young Loki for the bulk of the ensuing argument.
"Public opinion doesn't matter," Captain America says, voice not even raised despite a few people having already resorted to shouting. "It doesn't matter what everyone says is wrong or right. What matters is what we know the truth to be. Blaming a child for something she didn't do - something some alternate version of herself did in a future that can't happen again - is wrong. We're better than that, or we should be."
"Usually people are a bit older when it comes to punching villains," Steve says with a laugh. "It helps to have experience, there. But - being a hero, a true hero - it's about doing good. Even when people don't expect you to, even when every expectation and shred of common sense says you don't have to - especially then. It's about standing up to bullies - especially the powerful ones - and looking out for people who can't protect themselves. If you want to get started - I can point you towards some causes who could use some help." He has zero problems funneling Loki's apparent tendency towards mischief into very colorful protests against the assorted bullshit people in power keep pulling.
"Gods don't grow up like mortals," she says, confidently. "We're the age we're supposed to be, for as long as we're supposed to be it. I'm a preteen because that's who I am, right now. I might be a preteen for a few days or a few decades. Still, learning stuff sounds neat, and I guess I can meet some other kids."
He sighs. "Do you - remember the general concept of Asgard's disdain for male magic users? Earth - it's not quite like that, it's not a gender thing, but there are people who discriminate against people with unusual powers. Especially against one common type, mutants, who tend to manifest as teenagers and tend to have less control. Sometimes the discrimination is violent."
"Right!"
The internet turns out to be awesome. She gets shown Project Gutenberg and falls in love; she discovers online art museums and has to get up to spin around gleefully; she finds free programs for digital art and discounted programs for really cool digital art and breathlessly requests a way to draw on the computer from Thor, who has to pass it to someone who knows more about the ancient technology Earth still uses. There's entire sites for 'transformative fandom,' which Thor explains is because weird American laws made it arguably illegal to rewrite and rework Earth's versions of sagas, if those sagas were written recently, but of course transforming sagas is what you do with them, so there's a bit of a legal battle there. Currently the transformative parts tend to just try not to get attention. There's sites for specific interests, and fledgling journal sites where you can write about whatever you want.
Captain America takes his leave, and Loki starts trying to figure out which fandoms are popular, so she can get caught up on the original works. It's a bit hard, with decentralized fandom and all.
And Thor tracks down - if not education, then at least socialization opportunities for Loki.
He ends up several times circling back to Xavier's Institute.
Fortunately, they're willing to take even a de-aged supervillain technically using magic and not mutant powers. He gets help to get Loki set up with catching up to Earth's quite frankly paltry education requirements, so she can start school.
She already knows math, and there's not much to learn that's different about science (she writes up corrections for their courses), but English literature and history is new enough to be entertaining.
She blows well past the middle grades. She figures if she finishes all of their normal grade school stuff she'll be able to focus on her magic and making friends, so.
And then orientation day arrives. She's given a dorm room - single, small, with a shared bathroom, but it's hers - so she can stay here while Thor is out being a superhero.
And she's introduced to a mutant girl in her late teens, old enough to be considering joining the X-men next year, who'll be her dorm RA and her guide while she gets settled in.
"Call me Adela," the girl says, hands in her pockets. She's wearing dark, well fitted jeans and a nice red blouse, in contrast to the graphic tees most of the other kids are wearing.
"Alright!"
She doesn't know a ton of magic yet, so she can't expand the space inside, which meant she had to bring only a few of her favorite physical books. Rude. (The rest are stored on an e-reader and on her computer.)
Then: "You can leave if you want, Thor. I'll call you if anything comes up, okay, but I'd like to go meet the other students now."
She looks up from her flip phone. "Yeah. This tower's mixed ages. You guys are responsible for keeping your own spaces clean, including the bathroom. Your floor leader should help with a cleaning schedule for the common areas, though. Speaking of, I've texted your floor-mates to meet us in the lounge. You'll have to meet any other students as they wander through."
The lounge is rather nice, a long L-shaped room with a good sized meeting area full of comfortable couches in the middle, a piano and a small circular table for four in one leg, and a dining room table that can sit eight in the other leg. The floors are carpeted, and the walls seem to be designed somehow so acoustics are good. There's already two other students in the meeting area, a girl Loki's age and a boy a bit younger than Adela.
"Now, let's get down to why I called everyone here - " Adela starts, interrupting further chatter. "As you guys probably know, you're getting a new floor-mate, Loki. Yes, she's related to that Loki. It's up to her if she wants to explain more, but I'm not going to let anyone give her shit, okay? We're all in the same boat, here."
"I can explain what happened," she says, and after some interested noises she takes a deep breath and continues: "The Old Loki destroyed Asgard. And she also destroyed the thing that makes fate for Asgardians. But she died doing it, and - somehow Thor found me in the ruins of Asgard. Maybe she made me. Maybe she restarted early - Asgard's fated to be destroyed, and when it is it's reborn, but I think the rebirth isn't usually instant. I don't remember anything from before waking up in the ruins, though, and don't really know how to control my powers or anything. I've decided I'm gonna be good, though. I'm gonna make stuff better."
She hums. "If I'm talking to you, you'll hear the language you're most fluent in or that gets my point across the best, but I can write a letter in a specific language if I focus - it's not like sticking translation software on everything I write - so if your thing does writing..."
"Cool!"
And he leads the way out near the outskirts, where there's old trees - many of them great for climbing, especially if you can change shapes - and cobblestone paths and neat things in hidden little hollows.
The best place is a hollow formed by the roots of one massive tree, the entrance to it entirely hidden from all but one angle. He's expanded it while he's been here, until it's a proper secret clubhouse, though the furniture's lacking.
"I've never brought people here before!" he says, excitedly, before leading the way back out and to a clearing with some neat boulders and fallen logs around it - "Figure this's good for magic practice!"
The class for those with abilities best summarized as magical is small, led by a woman in a red costume with no particular effort spent to hide her face - her helmet instead frames it. She introduces herself as Cecilia Maximoff, the Scarlet Witch, and clarifies she's a guest lecturer here, but that she'll be reachable even when off grounds. She won't always be able to respond right away to emails, given her variable duties as an Avenger, but she tries to keep consistent online office hours. Excepting emergencies, of course.
And Professor Maximoff gives her some exercises to do - preferably with supervision at first, but she also explains how to tell where the safety margins on these are. They're mostly extensions of the meditation Loki's already been doing, and the first few, like lighting candles and changing the color of the flame, can be done in the classroom.
Their teacher helps a few other students with their own projects, doles out compliments and constructive criticism, and then dismisses them for the day. This particular class meets every class day barring emergencies (and when their Professor's called away they usually meet anyways to work without her), so she'll see them again here tomorrow.
Loki follows!
"What kind of magic do you guys use? Where'd you get your magic from?" She has a weird thought in her head, both that technically all humans can use magic but that most never bother or even know it's possible. It's not like they're not good storytellers, good liars, but -
She doesn't know. She hasn't been around humans enough yet, so say why they are the way they are.
"I do incantations and all that, though I'm trying to ease into blood magic. It's more powerful, and I think easier for me. I'm a mutant, and my mutation interacts with magic somehow. Mostly makes it possible to do by accident so far. Also means I sometimes grow random feathers, but, hey, mutations."
"Pretty much how it works."
They reach the library courtyard, a little nook screened by a trellis laden with spring vines. Mallory settles in to one of the corners, propping her backpack up beside her and pulling out a case with some assorted electronics.
"There's not a lot of good technical terms for magic that I've found - some mysticism, but I think those are mostly metaphorical rather than useful - and I was wondering if you knew any? Otherwise I'm left coining them."
"There's ones in Asgardian, but I think words from human languages would work best for humans picking them up. Still, you can probably just translate ours, since we kind of already did the classification work?"
She describes Asgardian terms for magic, what she can get of their etymology from Allspeak's historic modules.
"Thanks. I'll shoot you an email once I've figured out some good translations for these, and then we can really get into the nitty-gritty. In the mean time - I can teach you some technomagy, you can explain your sensing technique? I'm mostly flying blind, in terms of magic senses."
"Thanks!"
Loki trades emails with the other two girls, and makes loose plans to form a study group - they only have classes four days a week, so Friday's a good time for studying.
And then she needs to head off to her next class, which is one she'll only have Monday and Wednesday but for longer blocks - history. According to her schedule, Monday's for general history overviews, and Wednesday's for independent or guided study in special topics. Her history teacher's an excited mutant with electric blue hair and a smattering of dark green scales across brown skin, who claims to be able to touch an object to get a sense of its history. He doesn't draw any particular attention to Loki until class ends, when he holds her back to exchange contact information so he can make sure she's caught up.
Then it's arts class - another one that's all four days. Monday's on literature. And after arts, her last class is another Monday/ Wednesday one, modern geography and culture. She's in literature with both Silv and Kendra, and in history and geography with Silv. (Some comparing of schedules revealed that her technologies class tomorrow's going to be with Silv, but her sciences class will be with Kendra).
Basically all of the classes are small, and focus on the teachers helping students with their own learning projects instead of on lectures or anything.
As the week goes on, she gets better quickly at the small magics. Music class gives her a few ideas for using songs as a framework for magic, and technology class is fascinating - human technology of course is a bit primitive, but they do so much with what little they have, and (a little whisper in her mind insists) they don't cripple themselves by insisting on one aesthetic. Physical arts class is so-so, but the teacher doesn't mind if Loki changes her clay color with magic, so. (Loki ends up with a very glittery hammer she's definitely sending to Thor).
Theater, the last of the art class rotation, quickly asserts itself as Loki's absolute favorite. She's joining theater club. She's also downloading several old plays to read over the weekend, and seeing if the theater groups around grounds have room in their plays for her, even though it's pretty late in the semester.
She keeps Thor and Captain America updated through email, of course, and calls Thor every other day to ramble at him about stuff her friends are doing or what she did in class or did he know humans have multiple kinds of theater, it's not just reciting sagas???
Captain America seems more familiar with email than Thor. He tells her his non-secret identity (Steve Rogers), and says he might fill in for Thor on some of the parent-type duties as Steve, since Thor's been a lot busier than him lately. (He leaves off that this is because of fallout from the old Loki's destruction of Asgard).
He's very happy she's enjoying her classes, and actually has a few things to recommend - pieces of art history especially. Being able to magic your paint to another color does sound quite convenient, too.
And after her first full week there, there's an optional teacher-guardian meeting, which Thor can't attend but Steve shows up for. As a civilian, of course.
He never had ice cream in his old life, so he doesn't bother finding anything nostalgic and just goes for charmingly weird. Loki can have anywhere from classic chocolate and vanilla to lavender or green tea.
Once ice cream selections have been made, he finds them a little out of the way booth, and asks her how she's been doing, if people are being friendly...
He does in fact know! Thor's not legally a United States citizen, and is technically visiting under some very complicated papers meant for alien superheroes, which wouldn't apply to her, and they couldn't easily get her refugee status. And bringing her before a judge might be complicated and end poorly given her past self has a local criminal record. There's been a few ideas floated, which he describes - getting Thor a family exemption to the alien hero status, getting her adopted by a US citizen, getting her asylum given her destroyed home world...
They get told to have a demonstration for the class ready by the end of the semester in magic class. They can work individually or in teams, and the big thing their professor's looking for here is creativity and stretching their limits - with an eye to safety, of course.
Still, it'll be hard to do poorly on this, and she's available to help.
So Loki's going to get there first.
"Hey! Leave her alone!" she shouts, before she's even close enough to hear what he's saying. It doesn't matter, anyways.
She's rather quickly in both teens' space, moving to shove the guy away from Mal.
Given she's an Asgardian, this is a rather hard shove.
"I was coming to meet with Mal and Raine for lunch 'cause we're doing the magic project together," Loki starts. "And then I saw this guy I didn't know crowding Mal and sounding angry. She looked upset, so I got between them and shoved him a bit so he'd get away from her. He started insulting us and calling her a human and telling me I shouldn't hang out with her, and started crowding me. I got angry and upset and was thinking about how to get him to back off, when my mind just - froze - like I couldn't even think or do stuff, and I stopped breathing even though I still needed air. And then he and Mal started shouting at each other and then those girls stepped up and I think made him stop keeping me from breathing, and I tried to throw him away from me so he couldn't do that again."
"I was just talking to Mal," he says, voice still angry. "Not threatening her. Nothing like that. And then this kid came up and attacked me, and yeah I caught a few stray thoughts from her planning to do worse - and she was about to do it, so I stopped her. It was just a temporary hold, and was just on voluntary actions, so she must've just been holding her breath to get me in trouble. Then Sophie and her sisters walked up and freed her, and she attacked me like she had been planning all along."
"Quentin was threatening me, pretty obviously even if mostly indirectly. And he does this pretty often, and he likes to make it clear he's more powerful than people, so I was trying not to provoke him. Loki hadn't done much more than would be normal in a schoolyard scuffle when he locked her. Especially since I know she can hit harder than she shoved him."
"We observed the beginning of the fight when Loki began yelling at Quentin to leave Mallory alone. That was, notably, long enough before she shoved him that he could have stepped back on his own. He did not. He then reached out to Loki psychically, shortly before attacking her mentally. We approached to intervene, and acted only to lift his hold."
Her professor lets her stew for a few seconds, then, gently: "Because it's a first offense, and there were pretty strong extenuating circumstances, we're going to let this one go with a warning. We'll be telling your guardian about what happened, though, and if this happens again we might take disciplinary measures."
"Sophie," says Sophie.
"Phoebe," says a harsher looking girl.
"Irma Mindee," says a girl, quietly, glancing quickly at Loki then away.
"Celeste," says the girl who'd asked if Loki was alright.
"Esme," says the last, her assessing gaze focused on Loki.
"We're the Cuckoo sisters," Sophie continues. "We like going by Five-in-One collectively, but a lot of people have been calling us the Stepford Cuckoos. It's annoying."
"Sounds annoying. It's good to meet all of you." They're really identical, more than identical twins usually are, so she tries to hook her memory of their names onto their mannerisms and also their sort of magical echo. It's really similar between all them, but there are enough subtle differences for Loki to be pretty sure she can tell them apart.
They nod.
"We would like to help you with mental defenses," says Celeste. "We think we'd be good teachers. We're doing well on the theory in our psychics course, and we're not as natively powerful as someone like Kid Omega, so we know more about rising from the bottom, so to speak."
No. Standing up for your friend was good. You're lucky Cecilia was the one who intervened, though - I don't think she actually has disciplinary rights but the other teachers don't want to contradict her. She's smart enough to arrange things like that, I guess.
Be careful, okay? I've misjudged my strength with humans before. It's not pretty, when that happens.
She thanks him, then continues about her day.
Stuff in the halls are tense for a while - apparently Kid Omega's a major ring leader of some of the kids - but people pretty quickly forget about the fight in favor of some other drama. Apparently Kid Omega unveiled a different popular mutant, with a rival clique, as having an 'ugly' mutation he'd been covering with illusions. Which is a stupid thing for people to be gossiping about, but it loses the other kid his clique. The kid turns down Loki's offer to hang out, so other than keeping an eye out for bullies she drops it.
And then it's time for psychic lessons with Five in One.
Esme hums, focusing more intently on Loki, while Celeste nods. "That's good," Celeste says. "Now, the first step is to picture your mind - the shape doesn't matter, but contained images are harder to penetrate than uncontained ones, and the imagined defenses of the space are often at least somewhat in line with actual mental defenses."
She hums, settling in to meditate.
The shape of her mind is obvious.
It isn't contained, for one, the way fire can't be truly contained. It's an ocean and it's fire and it's a thousand chaotic shifting things and telling what it's doing now should be hard and what it's going to do next should be impossible, and she weaves a story into its unstable bones. She is Loki and Loki is chaos. She is the burned god who rose from her own ashes as a phoenix, she is the destroyer of fate and the breaker of chains -
She's calm, when she opens her eyes, centered, like her thoughts and emotions are a whirlwind around her, notable only if she wants them to be.
And a thread, a gentle touch winds through her whirlwind. It's not as adaptable as she is, but it doesn't have to be, because it knows itself. (It's five things, and they're connected in a loop, but unstably, exacerbated by the buffeting chaos of Loki's mind.)
"Now. Try to throw us out."
The five flinch - out of sync, Sophie's hand going to her head - and the intrusion in her mind retreats.
"Good," Celeste says. "I don't think you have a psychic instinct, but I think you're covering with magic well enough. That was clever, breaking our links. Separated opponents are weaker."
"Yes," they say together, then Celeste alone continues with: "When we're this close to each other reestablishing the links is a lot easier. Now, we want you to try that a few more times..."
They walk her through several variations on identifying and rejecting intruders. They can modify how hard their own mental image is to detect or impact and can change how it appears, which makes for a very good teaching tool.
Loki's not going to get past throwing off active mind readers - she's still not going to be good against passive readers, but it takes an active connection to mind control someone usually anyways, which is what she's really concerned about - this evening.
Her brain's tired and her head hurts by the time they're done, and she's thoroughly grouchy and ready to sleep, but she musters enough enthusiasm to thank them for the lesson and plan a similar one next week.
In the meantime: Silv has a very, very good idea.
Loki's not been here long, so she might've only kind of noticed, but their music teacher super plays favorites. Super super super. Silv's heard it's worse with the actual chorus and band sections for older kids.
They should maybe teach the teacher something. Nothing harmful, just a little prank... Embarrass her at worst.
"I was kind of hoping you'd have some ideas? We shouldn't use our powers, though - the school leader people kind of ignore stuff that's happening if no one uses powers in it. We could get in a lot of trouble if we were abusing magic and all, but if it's just, like, paint, who really cares?"
Loki goes very, very still.
Don't notice us, we're whispers on the wind, children holding their breath and never being seen - walk away, walk along, don't look back - (she whispers, to Quentin, to the universe - )
(It's a neat, tidy little story, the mischievous child hiding from the plot they stumbled upon. An easy little lie for the universe to believe, just long enough...)
"It's not safe," Loki says, hesitantly, even as she chafes at the idea of fear holding her back.
Still, she knows she's not ready, not to face a pissed off Kid Omega with just her friend to protect.
"And they're probably just going out to do drugs or something dumb, and we've still got our stuff to hide."
Loki focuses on her studies over the next few weeks, growing ever stronger in magic - and especially mental defenses. She won't be weak like that again, especially not with Kid Omega still angry at her.
Thor and Steve come over pretty often, sometimes together, sometimes apart. Loki perks up whenever they visit, especially when Thor brings old tomes on magic or Steve gives her the email of a sorcerer friend of his.
Her personal life is going a bit less well. Raine gets cold, and Mal gets ever more hesitant around Loki, especially once their presentation's done. Loki flounders in trying to figure out what's even wrong.
Still, she's an odd sort of friends with Five in One, now, learning more and more how to tell the quintuplets apart. (And there's something weird about those five. It's not like Loki doesn't refuse to talk about her past, too, but Loki's at least decently open about not having a past. The Cuckoo girls never mention family, or where they were before joining Xavier's Academy this year, or - anything.)
Kid Omega seems to be getting angrier, too, lashing out verbally more and more at other students - still not openly using his powers, though, at least not that Loki can tell.
There's a comfortable little tangle up that old tree, hidden from just about every view point. Someone small like Loki could probably wedge herself in, and the only one around's a single crow, who flutters away a bit when Loki runs past. (She might've missed the spot, if not for the motion catching her eye.)