When Sasha is walking home from school, he stumbles across the smallest and most adorable dog in the world.
...on the one hand, "in the stories the ordinary high school student who stumbles upon a magical talking animal and thereby uncovers a secret world turns out to be an elven prince" is a dumb way to make predictions about the world.
On the other hand, he is in fact an ordinary high school student who's just stumbled upon a magical animal who can understand human language and thereby uncovered a secret world.
"Am I a magic thing?"
He does his best not to be a little disappointed.
"...I'm going to find you a dictionary so we can communicate," he says, and puts Leo down and looks under the bed for the children's dictionaries that were handed out in elementary school and he doesn't think he ever bothered to get rid of.
"There are other things that help-- if I can make an argument you're royalty that would help, because I was made to be a servant to royalty, and of course if I swore an oath to serve you there wouldn't be any more question. It's a promising sign you can make me do magic at all."
Leo sings.
The song isn't English, or in any language Sasha recognizes; some of the sounds sound difficult to make with a human throat. The song is quiet and gentle and beautiful. It says: this puppy is so soft, he is so soft and warm and nice to pet, you're safe, you're okay, you don't have to do anything, all you have to do right now is lie here and hold this puppy, he's so good, the most important thing to do in the whole entire world is to snuggle the puppy and feel warm and safe and okay. You really want to focus on every detail of what the puppy feels like, how soft his fur is, how warm he is, the way his tail wags. You don't want to do anything else at all. Everything is okay.
This time the song says:
Everything in the world is terrible. There is no point to doing anything, because anything you might do is doomed. There is no action you can take that will cause any positive effect. Happiness and joy and love are lies. Everything is suffering and misery and sorrow and hatred. The only solution is to lie down and rot.
The song says:
Your homework is incredibly easy. Here is a brilliant idea for the essay; the evidence you need will be here and here and here in the book, and this is a witty turn of phrase to use in paragraph three. Math is fun, it's just puzzles, and the puzzles aren't at all difficult to solve. Chemistry makes total sense, and social studies is fascinating. You can't wait to get started. Why are you still in bed? You should get a pen right now and write.
This literally never happens but he's up from being curled in a ball on his bed going through his backpack and then being almost immediately stymied by the fact that hearing a song that makes him motivated does not in fact cause him to understand chemistry — whatever he'll just write the essay first and then —
He does.
You're smart and creative and things are going to go well for you. Even if you're confused right now, they're going to make sense soon. There's going to be a flash of insight that makes everything click, all you have to do is keep trying and it will happen. You can handle everything you have to do. Your homework is easy and it's fun and you enjoy doing it.)
"I'm debating just taking you to school and asking you how many of the people there are magic, for context. — do you want to be taken to school, it'd be a lot more interesting than being left here for eight hours a day but it'd also be logistically sort of complicated on account of how dogs aren't allowed in classrooms."
The air in the garden is cool and smells wonderful, like it just rained. The sky is blue as the ocean with only a few wisps of cloud. There are statues along the path, beautifully carved in a Japanese style; Sasha doesn't recognize any of the people. Not far away, there's an old wooden bridge so he can cross the stream.
There doesn't seem to be anybody else here.
The garden never seems to repeat itself, but he does occasionally find himself looping back to the gate, and to other landmarks: a pavilion through which swoop red-crowned cranes; a bridge around which drifts streams of mist; a stone temple; a black rock surrounded by benches. The environment around the landmarks has the same general themes-- cherry blossom trees, winding paths, eroded statues-- but it is never exactly the same twice.
There's still no one here.
"There are billions of planes," Leo says. "Uh, off the top of my head, there's Heaven and Hell and Faerie of course, although you can argue about whether those are planes themselves or just categories of planes. There's the platonic realm where math lives, there's the place where lost property goes, there's the library of unwritten books, there are the Eternal Stairs--"
........adorable.
"I assume the time dilation isn't always that friendly, do you know if it's predictable whether a plane will be 'you're there for a couple hours but you're only gone for ten seconds' or 'one night in Faerie and a hundred years at home' or do I just have to take my chances?"
The song is like the first song Leo ever sang to him. It seeps into Sasha's bones; it says you are warm and safe and protected, it says everything is okay, it says moving sounds really hard and you don't want to do that, thinking sounds hard and you don't want to do that, you just want to float and listen to the music, it says the puppy is very interesting and you want to focus on how soft and nice he is.
But it also says: you want to sleep. Closing your eyes and sleeping is the most appealing thing you can imagine. It's hard to think about anything you'd want more than going to sleep. It's so easy, barely even an action at all. Leo wants you to sleep and Leo is so good. You want to make Leo happy, don't you? He is so nice and soft and warm and he makes you so happy and all he wants from you is this one little thing, this one little thing that is so appealing anyway, to close your eyes and go to sleep. Why does anyone ever want to do anything but sleep? Sleeping is so nice.
"Okay!" Leo says.
Things Leo has questions about: What is the purpose of a traffic light? What is a church? What do you buy in a coffee shop? Why do humans like drinking coffee? How do cars work? Why don't other dogs talk? Why do humans wear things on their heads? Why do flowers exist?
The purpose of a traffic light is to make sure people take turns going across the intersection in a manner such that they don't hit each other. A church is a place you go if you're Christian to do Christian things; Sasha is not Christian so he's not super clear on what those things are but he's pretty sure there's praying involved. You buy coffee in a coffee shop unless you are Sasha in which case you buy hot chocolate and/or a weird not-quite-milkshake and/or madeleines in a coffee shop. Humans like drinking coffee because some of them are wrong. Cars work by lighting gasoline on fire in a way that makes the wheels turn and Sasha can't provide an explanation more detailed than that because he doesn't understand cars either. Other dogs don't talk because their vocal cords aren't shaped in a way that would let them. Sometimes humans wear things on their heads because it's cold and some religions have rules that you aren't supposed to show your hair and sometimes it's just because it looks good. Flowers exist to help plants create more plants.
After English is chemistry. Fortunately for Leo they don't have a lab today; Sasha pets Leo in his lap under the table with one hand and fails to take notes with the other. After chem is math, which felt like solving an engaging puzzle yesterday while Leo was singing but feels like beating his head against a wall today.
It is too bad that Leo can't sing during class.
Chemistry makes a lot of sense. Math is really confusing; why would you spend a bunch of time telling grown people about the implications of axioms? Hints are a good idea for small children, but surely Sasha is old enough that he doesn't have to go over every last corollary in such mind-numbing detail.
"I just. --Unicorns are incredibly rare and incredibly powerful and purely good and it's. A lot. To think that I would get to meet one when I am barely a day old and then the unicorn would invite me to call him by his first name and he's dating my master and I'm babbling oh no."
Leo is going to IGNORE MARLO and pretend that ONLY SASHA IS HERE. This is probably extremely rude but he has no rules for this situation.
"Maybe the magic actually tracks something other than virginity? Or maybe there's a very specific definition of virginity." He thinks. "I don't think Marlo can become intoxicated. There's a rule that the normal rules about when to give people alcohol don't apply to unicorns because they can't get drunk. And judging by the amount of etiquette that has to do with paddocks, I think his true form is that of a horse with a horn on its forehead."
He keeps petting Marlo's hair. "That is generally what is meant by 'unicorn,' yes, and in the stories unicorns neutralize poison, that's probably what's up with the alcohol thing. — now I'm thinking about other unicorn stories and I can't get rid of the mental image of you with a two-foot horn on your forehead and it's stuck in a tree —"
Leo's tail thumps the ground.
His master has a unicorn boyfriend who loves him, and that is very good, because unicorns are purely good, and probably a unicorn would not date someone who would mistreat him. It would be even harder to find a second replacement master.
Even though unicorns are kind of terrifying.
"I can do magic when Sasha commands me," Leo says to Marlo, "and probably when you command me as well because you're an ally of my master's. 'Down' opens a gate to another world, 'sing' creates mind-control music-- both of those you can give more specific orders so you don't end up going to a totally random place or being mind-controlled in a random way-- 'speak' lets me speak, 'sit' compels me to sit, 'beg' makes me really want cuddles, 'stay' turns me to stone, 'come' makes me teleport to your side, and 'heel' heals people."
"The one that makes you feel all nice and floaty and warm and safe comes in two versions, one that's just nice and floaty and one that's nice and floaty and also makes you want to do some specific thing I'm telling you to do. I used the second one to help Sasha go to sleep."
He is a very good Leo, it's true.
Sasha and Marlo talk — apparently Price is still badgering Marlo about signing up for track after a year and a half of Marlo telling him he doesn't have time — until it's the end of lunch, and Sasha has to take Leo and kiss Marlo on the cheek and go to fifth period US history.
US history is really confusing. Why is it possible to be a slave and want not to be a slave? Did humans' creators make them that poorly? How did people break laws? Leo listens to try to figure out about the loopholes they used but apparently they just... read the law and decided to do a different thing.
Humans are FASCINATING.
Sasha actually really likes history; he's happy to answer questions. Humans as far as anyone can tell were not designed or created. You break laws by deciding to do a thing that is not the law, like how Sasha brought Leo onto campus even though dogs are not allowed. Human history is fascinating.
"...like, America has a lot of laws, and there are lots of things that tons of people do all the time that they don't even realize are illegal. If all the laws on the books started getting perfect enforcement tomorrow it would ruin a lot of lives. — I'm trying to avoid telling you details about the American legal system because I do a lot of things that are technically illegal and I know breaking the rules hurts you and I don't want to hurt you, please don't ask."
The song says:
You are warm and safe and happy. Everything is okay. You are around people that love you. There's no need to worry about anything. There's no need to do anything, and doing things is really hard anyway. It might be nice to kiss and touch but it's even nicer just to feel his breathing and know that he's there. All you want to do is think about how warm and safe and nice he is and how wonderful it is to be in his arms. Feel his heartbeat, feel his arms around you, feel the way his chest rises and falls, feel his legs intertwined with yours, feel the softness of his skin and the silkiness of his hair and the warmth of his breath. Stop thinking, relax, and be. Nothing is wrong. Nothing has ever been wrong and nothing is ever going to be wrong. How could things be wrong when he's here?
Marlo closes his eyes and lets his head fall against Sasha's shoulder and feels how soft his shirt is, how warm he is through the worn-soft cloth, the way he smells, like cherry drink powder and coconut shampoo, the way Marlo knows he'd taste if he kissed him, how he fits into Marlo's arms, and loves him, and doesn't move. Why would he move? Sasha's right here.
Leo's tail thumps unhappily. Marlo is right-- especially since he's a unicorn-- but Leo doesn't have to like it.
Why did they make him so small?
"We should test more magic," Leo says, "and then maybe there will be something that makes me BIG, and then I can bite people that might hurt Sasha."
There can be more kissing!
Meanwhile Sasha is trying to work out where he and Marlo can talk such that he won't be neglecting the person whose well-being he's responsible for but also Marlo won't be too tongue-tied to do anything but agree to things he doesn't really want to agree to, but he can totally kiss Leo while he's doing that.
— oh, that's an easy way to solve this problem.
"You can read books! Some of them might be confusing but I bet you'd like them." The Shining is still on his bedside table from yesterday, A Face Like Glass is on the floor next to Sasha's desk, he can find a handful of books that Leo might like.
"You okay if I leave you here to read while Marlo and I find somewhere and talk about the thing?"
He pets Marlo's hair, very gently. "Do you know what specifically upsets you about it? — I find monogamy really confusing, the reason I've been able to do it for this long is that I was basically not interested in anyone else, whether I keep kissing Leo or not it's a conversation we should have."
"You get to ask for anything you want. I could say no, but you still get to ask, and then I get to say yes." He leans down and kisses Marlo's forehead. (Right in the center, where his horn would be if he had one.) "I don't want to do things that make you worry. And waiting until I know him better is not a problem, it really isn't."
"...there's an argument to be made that the Overlook is more sentient than it is haunted, I don't know how far you've gotten but Grady's ghost doesn't talk like you'd expect a high school dropout to, he talks like someone who's trying to be as appealing to an articulate well-read writer as possible — anyway, not the point, the point is that I'd be pretty surprised if Stephen King patterned his writing off of things that actually exist. What are the inaccuracies?"
"Places that are people are almost never malicious, is the thing. You're much more likely to get a street that does drag than a street that tries to bring out the worst in you. And if it's a haunting, which is much more likely to be malicious, then the hotel has abilities that ghosts generally do not."
"That makes sense. I don't know if I'd say the hotel is a person but it definitely seems like more than a haunting, given all of the everything. — humans write a lot about ghosts and vampires and werewolves and magic and I'd honestly be more surprised at a book being accurate than I would at a book not being accurate."
"...I mean... yeah? It's an evil eldritch sentient hotel that's activated by people's psychic powers, in a book written by someone who doesn't believe in the existence of ghosts or sentient places or psychic powers. The book isn't really taking place in the real world, it's taking place in a world where sometimes places with particularly grisly histories are sentient and evil and trying to eat you, and in that world, this is how those places work."
"I dunno, it's like if a fairy wrote a book about humans, and there was an issue because none of the humans liked being slaves but because the Fugitive Slave Act was passed no one can rescue the slaves. Some of the details are right but mostly you clearly have no idea what you're talking about."
"I know it's wrong and none of us have any idea what we're talking about. It isn't trying to be right, it's a made up thing from a story, the thing that makes it work is that it's internally consistent, not that it's how things really work. I would love to read the story written by fairies where nobody could rescue the slaves because of the Fugitive Slave Act, if the fairy who wrote it was good at making their made-up version of humans consistent."
"...this isn't like the math thing, I'm not upset, I'm just not sure how to get at the thing I mean. Most of the point of my favorite kinds of books is that the world of the book doesn't work like the real world.
You might like A Face Like Glass better, I'm sure it's totally wrong about magic but it seems like it'd have less of the almost-correct-but-not-quite thing."
"— right, sorry, you don't — when we were in elementary school he hurt his ankle badly enough that everyone thought it was broken, and then when it was healed enough to walk on two days later the general consensus was that he'd just twisted it and was being dramatic — but I know Marlo and I bet unicorns just heal quickly."
"It really ought to be obvious, a lot of the time-- like, it takes a while for Sunnydale Syndrome to kick in, you can see a demon walking down the street and your mom is like 'holy shit, that's not human' and then six hours later she'd be like 'don't be silly, it was just a guy in a costume, maybe he was going to a costume party'--"
"I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at the entire concept of Sunnydale syndrome but I'm not mad at you, he just — there shouldn't be a just in that sentence —
Remember how when he first saw you his first instinct was to check with me if there was anything there at all or if he was just hallucinating?"
"Yeah. He does that a lot. Sometimes with things that aren't even that weird, just sort of unusual, because he doesn't trust himself. I have no idea how many times he's gone 'it's not that bad, I just bruised it' at something that would have turned out to be a break if anyone had looked, because he thinks he's just being dramatic when he's in pain. And that's going to take him more than two minutes to unlearn, and telling him that it should be obvious is just going to convince him he really was seeing things whether it's true or not."
"I was-- actually trying to figure a thing out, when I asked the question-- unicorns are kind of scary. So it might be that beings that intend harm are avoiding him, and by extension you, because they don't want to mess with the unicorn. So he'd have seen less magic stuff, and you'd be safer."
"Hm." He sits back on his hind legs. "Sometimes being in a close relationship with someone magic is enough to prevent Sunnydale syndrome. But sometimes it isn't. And I don't know how Marlo not knowing he's a unicorn affected things. --It would be bad if you being able to see everything Marlo sees is dependent on you continuing to own me."
"We could probably test it at some point. Give me to Marlo and wait a day or two and see if you're like 'yeah, I took in a stray for a while and I kept him in my pocket and then I gave him to Marlo, and also separately I met this cute guy and made out with him but I've lost his number.'"
He adjusts the angle of his hand on Leo's back, scritches behind his ears. "I don't know how well I'm doing at that but I'm trying. — you're way easier than a kid because I can just tell you what's going on and you'll understand it, but also the thing where you can understand very complicated concepts sometimes makes it hard to remember that in fact you are a day and a half old, if you need more slack let me know?"
"The list of people who are supposed to be in the class. Teachers use them to take roll, which is the process of looking around to see if there's anyone who's not there and is supposed to be there. For all intents and purposes we're an open campus, so it's not a problem for there to be other people there, but it'd be weird for them to do homework and turn in essays and not just hang out with their friends at lunch."
"Straight is the word for when a man is only attracted to women or a woman is only attracted to men, that's the default expectation people have. There's some arguing about the definition of queer but for our purposes queer is everything that isn't that. There are people who will be assholes about it — there are people who are assholes to me about it, especially before I started dating Marlo — but here in California you won't get very many of them."
It's very exciting!
Leo gets easy 100%s on every math test and science test. His first US history essay is returned covered with question marks and a "F, see me," perhaps because it was a passionately written explanation of why slaves should have just been more obedient and then their masters would not have whipped them. After that he decides to consult with Sasha to get his approval of the essays before he turns them in.
He takes notes enthusiastically in class, sometimes about the topic of the class, and sometimes sketches of the other students' clothing and transcriptions of their accents and elaborate diagrams of the social relationships in the classroom.
When he's not at school or doing homework or reading, he's mostly a dog. It's... easier, he thinks, when he can put his head in Sasha's lap when he's accidentally made Sasha sad, and when it's obvious to everyone that he's very young and he's not human, and when his thought process isn't constantly interrupted with "Sasha is INCREDIBLY CUTE and you should KISS HIM. Remember kissing? Kissing is FUN."
He stays human once and tries masturbation. He is not really sure what humans get out of it. Maybe he's not doing it right.
Sasha and Marlo give him more orders, mostly without meaning to; he executes them flawlessly. Unicorns are less scary than he was led to believe.
He sings the competence song and the floaty song and the sleep song to Sasha whenever Sasha wants it.
None of the other dog commands they test turn out to be spells.
Lilith doesn't appear to notice that the new kid who keeps clinging to Sasha and giving weird answers in class was the dog she had for an hour and a half. Mostly she seems consumed with some incomprehensible lesbian social drama in which she was Wronged and she was going to Extract Vengeance. (Lev draws a diagram of it to try to follow it.)
If Sasha and Marlo are paying attention, they might notice that people who do things Lilith doesn't like have... bad things... happen to them. A kid who doesn't help her with her homework gets into a car accident and breaks his arm. A girl who turns her down for a date discovers her parents are divorcing. A guy who doesn't give her candy for lunch has a panic attack in class so bad he screams.
...Sasha gets more and more nervous around Lilith. As with most things, this mostly manifests in trying to make sure she never has a chance to notice him. He follows the lesbian social drama, partially because if he doesn't follow it there's always the risk that he'll be caught up in it but mostly because it's not a huge school and there are only so many queer kids there and he follows the gossip about most of them.
He consults on Leo's essay topics and explains why certain subjects aren't appropriate, which things have cultural baggage they aren't explicitly teaching, and what might be a better alternative. He debates asking Leo to teach him math and science and then he remembers hiding in the bathroom on his way to fourth period and doesn't do that.
Not all of his homework gets done, but most of it does; his grades improve dramatically. His concentration in class does not.
In the afternoon he cuddles Leo and cuddles Marlo and talks about books and magic; once he and Marlo leave Leo in a different room so he can read and they can make out and if they go a little farther than making out, well, that's their business.
Marlo still asks for reality checks every so often. Sasha gives them.
He has Leo sing him to sleep every night.
Asher is BORED. Being a vampire is BORING.
He's between shows right now because even vampiric grace and strength and beauty can't save you from the whims of choreographers. He's not in the mood to prove theorems or study physics. The journal rejected his last paper because he "didn't have any institutional affiliation" and he thought about it but probably eating a journal editor would not solve this problem. He kidnapped a cute girl and fulfilled all her wildest sexual fantasies for ten days and then ate her while she begged him to keep feeding, and it was hot at the time but in retrospect was probably a waste of a perfectly good sex slave.
He goes down to the coffeeshop to pick up a bagel and maybe some of the food that walks around on two legs.
Asher's stomach grumbles.
On one hand, seducing your food is fun. On the other hand, he's hungry, and fucking your food is also fun, and it doesn't seem like this food is super in the mood to flirt.
He catches Sasha's eyes. "Actually," he says, in an odd tone of voice, "the thing you want to do is to go back to my place and fuck me."
Sasha couldn't struggle if he wanted to, and why would be ever want to, it feels so good, the most intense pleasure he's ever had coursing through his veins, like orgasm and afterglow and the very best things people say about drugs; he's limp and moaning in Asher's arms, under Asher's mouth.
He relaxes. He lets Asher take care of him. He responds. (He glows at being told he's gorgeous.)
He moans like a cat in heat when Asher touches him, leans into his touch and his mouth and lets his head fall back against the wall and lets the pleasure spread through his bloodstream.
He's floating he can't think Asher's mouth is wet and so good around him he's going to be so marked up tomorrow and that's good that's right he should have bruises Asher should leave a mark on him — he can't think — he feels like he's floating like he's sinking like Asher's got him like — ah —
His back arches and he presses into Asher, little motions of his hips; his head tilts back and his mouth falls open and his eyes fall closed and he's so so relaxed in Asher's arms there's nothing to be worried about here it's solid it's stable it's safe he's still floating it's so
he's so full
Asher bites the other side of Sasha's neck and starts to drain him in earnest. He's fucking Sasha hard and fast and deep and it feels amazing, the blood on his tongue and the warm tightness around his dick.
Fucking your food while you eat is one of unlife's little pleasures.
On the one hand, he really wants to drain Sasha dry. It would be both extremely hot and extremely tasty.
On the other hand, Sasha is very hot and very responsive to mind control, and he'll probably want to flirt more now that he's been fucked senseless by Asher, and if not then mind-controlling Sasha is hardly a bad outcome. And he'd regretted murdering Lynne, because he can't fuck her now that she's dead, and he'd probably regret murdering Sasha too. If Sasha turns out to be annoying, he can always eat him later.
Regretfully, Asher licks Sasha's cuts closed.
....yeah, that's pretty weird.
Sasha tries to weigh the likelihood that he's not going to be able to walk home against how bad of an idea it would be to give Asher his address, but even without the hypnotism he's still really tired and kind of loopy and he finds himself saying "Any chance I can get a ride home?"
"Well, we already know Lilith is dangerous, and Asher didn't kill you even though he totally could have. On the other hand, vampires murder people and Lilith doesn't seem to want to do that. And Lilith doesn't know how to control her fairy magic, although I don't know what column that goes in."
"I think I'm just scared of 'bad things happen to people she's pissed off at in unpredictable ways and there's no way to reliably avoid making her mad because she could make a request at any time' more than I'm scared of 'did a thing that was objectively incredibly sketchy but deliberately and conspicuously did not deal me lasting damage even though be totally could have.'"
"They're weak to silver and fire and stakes through the heart, none of which is very helpful. They don't like garlic but it's just because they have supersenses, you can also ward them off with car alarms or flashing lights. They can't come into your home unless you invite them in. And Marlo can burn them by touching them."
Yeah. Leo's here.
Sasha sleeps, and dreams of something that reaches into his mind and twists until he can't even imagine not loving it, dreams of Marlo with his eyes glassy and his mouth fallen open, dreams of being bitten and drained again and again and squirming desperate for more under Asher's hands.
So that was fun and he's not hungry anymore, but he still has an entire night with nothing to do. He checks in on Sasha; Sasha seems to be doing fine. But he should wait a night for the Sunnydale syndrome to kick in before he tries anything. Also, humans need sleep.
He spends the night dancing and thinking about physics, is incredibly patient all morning, and in the afternoon heads towards Sasha.
Unicorns can hear lies. His best hope is to confess everything and throw himself on the unicorn's mercy and hope he gets the benefit of the doubt because he didn't actually hurt Sasha.
"I definitely would not have eaten your boyfriend if I knew he was your boyfriend. I am very, very sorry."
He wants to leave it out.
On the other hand, unicorns can sense lies, and maybe they can also sense omissions, and probably it is better to throw himself on the unicorn's mercy and admit to everything.
"--I thought about killing him but I didn't! Because he was hot and he went under so deep when I hypnotized him and I was like 'I might want to do this again'! It took a lot of self-control! He was really sad about me not killing him, he made these little whimpery noises when I stopped, if I had murdered him he would have been enthusiastically consenting! I am really really sorry!"
That is... a little bit a positive sign? He is not currently being tortured to death, which is always a good feature of a day.
"I am not going to eat him, I promise!" Asher says. "And I can keep track of him and know where he is and whether he's okay, that is useful, actually, I can be useful."
He holds onto Marlo's hand and keeps one hand on Leo's back and when they get to his house he takes ice and water and cherry Kool-aid powder and a ridiculous amount of sugar and makes the same drink he used to make when they were in middle school and cuddles his Marlo.
"I don't have an ethics. I just want to protect Sasha because he's my master. So I'm glad you burned him. But I really don't know how people who aren't fairies work."
Leo tucks his tail between his legs and braces himself for Marlo to stalk off into a different room because he said something wrong.
He... said something right?
Leo bounces before he remembers that that is probably socially inappropriate and then he tries to look sympathetic.
"There should be a way to mark Sasha. Like, 'there are two different very magically powerful people who love this person, don't fuck with him, it is a bad idea.'"
"If we found you a holy symbol, that'd be good against demons and vamps. Witches can't do anything without a lot of effort. The fae are fine as long as you don't break any laws, and for obvious reasons I'd rather not have you carry cold iron. Weres are vulnerable to silver, so that's easy, and that also gets vamps. There's a bunch of stuff that's just-- super-strong and occasionally prone to attacking people, I don't know what you can do about that, except maybe taking up track."
Leo has already told everyone he's in all of Sasha's classes but there's maybe more staring than there would otherwise be.
Sasha is really pretty. Leo wants to kiss him again, and it's normally fine but he thinks about it way more when he has a reason to stare. But his job is to serve Sasha, not to kiss him.
Why does that make him so unhappy?
Probably his reaction to that shouldn't be "that's hot" but that is in fact his reaction to that.
"I like when you bite — I like being held down — I like being hypno'd, I like —" and he pulls Leo forward and kisses him again, pulls on his hair, presses their bodies together.
He sings.
The song is different when he's human. It says:
Lev is so incredibly hot. You want to stare at him, you want to touch him, you want to kiss him, you want to fuck him. It feels so so good to touch him, it makes you want to gasp and moan and shiver, it sends electricity through your veins. You don't have to think about anything, you don't have to worry about anything, all you have to do is lose yourself in the sensation of touching him and kissing him and feeling him. It feels so good. Why would you want to do anything but look at him? Those things sound so hard, so difficult, and it's so easy just to relax and stop thinking and let yourself float away in how good it feels and how hot he is.
Leo is immediately distracted by the prospect of a naked Sasha, whom he kisses and touches with great enthusiasm.
Things that Leo apparently finds fascinating, judging by his little gasps and the kisses he lavishes on them: the freckles on Sasha's shoulders, Sasha's hipbones, his third rib, the skin around his bellybutton.
His hips are thrusting up. He's lost the ability to speak English, he's just moaning and hissing and making vowel sounds that might be part of a "Sasha" or a "please" or a "love." His teeth are in Sasha's shoulder and his hands are on Sasha's back and he feels so good and he wants-- something-- but it feels so good it's hard to think about what it might be.
He's not very good at understanding English either so that's all right.
Sasha's touching him, Sasha's stretching him out inside, Sasha is happy with him and loves him and he's making Sasha feel good, he's doing something right, he's being a good slave, and it keeps feeling like it's about to reach a peak and not quite getting there and instead leaving him incoherent and aching and needy and so so happy.
Are they going to have this conversation in a classroom? Apparently they're going to have this conversation in a classroom.
Thanks, Sunnydale Syndrome.
"I have agency. I can make choices. I belong to you and I don't belong to Lilith because I decided I didn't want to belong to Lilith and the rules have loopholes. But I was also made to be the sort of person who is really happy when they have someone to love and to take care of and to make happy, and you're not doing me a favor if you try to stop me from doing that. And-- and it's bad for humans to be slaves but I'm not human, it's not bad for me to be a slave, it's doing the thing that's good for me and that I want and. And if I wanted to leave you I would, your orders have loopholes I could drive a truck through."
He says, in a strange and serious tone, "I swear to serve Sasha Mikhailov, descendant of King Solomon, the master of djinn. I swear to protect him, to obey his orders, to take care of him, to comfort him in times of sadness and rejoice with him in times of joy, to love him. I swear to tell him what I want and to make my own choices in pursuit of what I think will make me happy. All this I swear for the next year and a day."
"You can't break an oath, so if I swear an oath to Sasha that I belong to him, Lilith can't decide that I actually belong to her. --In theory she could still try to punish Sasha but I think her magic just punishes people who break promises to her, and there's no reasonable argument that Sasha promised not to steal things from her." Leo pauses and thinks about it. "Well, I read about this thing called the 'social contract' but I don't think Lilith pays that much attention in US History."
"So we're not going to kill her, we might be able to get her victims to wear iron bracelets but not reliably, we can... try to negotiate with her? Try to convince her that going back to Faerie and being a princess is a great idea? Open a portal under her feet to a world where a minute there is a hundred years here?"
"That... is a problem, yeah, so far they've just been closing automatically when we come back. I'd say "send someone else with her with instructions to come back immediately and not tell her what's going on, it'll close when they come back" but then they'd have to deal with the time fuckery too."
Asher is STILL BORED.
Being tortured was upsetting and then, upon reflection, hot. (The stern look on Marlo's face! The casual way he grabbed Asher's hand! The fact that even the lightest brush against Asher's skin would be torture! Asher wants to burn his lips off blowing him.) But as hot as it was you can only jerk off so many times in the day.
And he still has NO shows and NO journal articles and he is still bored by both math and physics, and now he can't murder or mind-control anyone because he's trying to keep his nose clean so he isn't tortured to death, as hot as that would be.
Marlo explains why there weren't any other vampires in Berkeley. Shit. He knew he should have looked the gift horse in the mouth, but he was so excited to get to do as many murders as he wanted, and of hot people, while he was fucking them, instead of old terminally ill people that he doesn't want to fuck at all.
"It's still polite to ask! Water would be nice but actually I'm here to ask for a favor, we have this classmate who has a habit of throwing her weight around to be cruel to people and she just found out she's a fairy princess and we're trying to contain the damage as much as we can but aiming you at her is a better backup plan than anything else that was suggested."
"You're a good blood doll, aren't you, going to be such a good blood doll for me"-- he's not using the hypnosis voice, he prefers not to be burned, thank you-- "so pretty, so nice to eat"-- and he wraps a hand in Sasha's hair and pulls and lifts him up with the other hand to carry him to bed.
"Anyway, it's definitely going to fuck with your plans to be my blood doll." He presses his cold lips into Sasha's throat, feels the pulsing of his veins. "Or to show up at a party and tease all the vampires with that pale throat of yours and then go home with all your blood inside you, whichever you prefer."
"I literally didn't speak the language for years and nobody noticed, you're probably fine." As usual the tree has nobody under it, and it's been long enough that most of the people who ride their bikes home have collected said bikes and left. (Marlo's bike is still locked to the fence. Marlo is not in sight.)
Lilith can be dragged to a less surface-level analysis kicking and screaming!
Also, she is very visibly not wearing a bra and wants Sasha to both know it and observe how jiggly her breasts are.
Sasha may be gaining some new insight into why all the lesbians keep dating her. She is the only bi girl who has mastered the secret of hitting on people, if not the secret of appropriate targeting of same.
Her... flesh sacks.... sure are bouncing? He is really confused why people find this attractive.
He seriously doubts that she's trying to say anything in the subtext of her Midsummer analysis, mostly because he doubts Lilith could identify subtext if it bit her, but he's thinking about it anyway.
Of fucking course she does.
'I can't imagine things go well for him after Titania wakes up, though, it isn't like she's any less vengeful than he is,' he doesn't say, because he isn't stupid.
"My favorite's Puck, always has been, when I was reading it for the first time I liked how he was outside most of the action but still managed to be a major character," he says.
"All of my life I've-- seen things-- and no one else saw them and everyone told me that I was making them up but I wasn't. And then two weeks ago I got a-- vision-- they said my parents aren't my parents, my real parents are these fairies I never met, and I'm supposed to go back and I haven't even graduated high school-- I'm supposed to have a dog and I don't, I think he must have gotten hit by a car or something--"
Gah!!!!!!!!!!!
'I avoided making a promise to you because it's a terrible idea not because I care intrinsically,' he doesn't say, because he is not stupid.
"I think — there's a thing that happens where people make promises under pressure, and then wind up not being able to keep them even if they try. I try really hard to avoid that but it's only because I've seen it happen lots of times before."
"Lots of people don't realize they won't be able to keep them, or don't think they're in a position to say no when they're asked to promise something. I know it's really bad, but — it's usually not something wrong with the person, it's something wrong with the situation they're in."
Gah! Gah gah gah.
Come on, Asher, he yells at himself. This is stupid. The crucifix won't hurt you unless you touch it, you were good enough at martial arts to kick her in the back without touching her even before you died, this is dumb, I refuse to be this dumb.
He kicks her in the back with all his strength and she breaks eye contact.
"I'm mad at you"-- thwack-- "because you have great tits"-- thwack-- "and I was looking forward to raping you"-- thwack-- "and you hurt Sasha and now you are too disgusting to rape"-- thwack-- "which is extremely disappointing."
Vampiric superstrength, even with such an inappropriate weapon as a cast-iron frying pan, is enough to break your spine.
"I think growing up without it is bad because you might get eaten, and growing up with it is bad because... everyone you know is constantly lying to you about basic things you see about reality?" Leo curls up. "I wonder what Lilith would have been like if she'd grown up with people who knew."
"I don't either. I just — keep thinking about Marlo, nine years old, being told his ankle couldn't really have been broken or it wouldn't already be healed and he'd been crying about nothing, and believing it — and it's hard to be sympathetic to Lilith when I look at him.
I know not everyone can be Marlo but if you rape people because you think everyone's attracted to the fairy princess and they just need convincing I don't care how many times you've been told you were just wrong about reality."
"Sorry." Leo summons up all his best ability to model humans. "You don't want me to wonder about why Lilith is the way she is because that feels like it's saying it wasn't her fault and it was her fault really? And she sexually assaulted you and cursed you? And the same thing that happened to Lilith happened to Marlo and Marlo isn't raping anybody and-- this is the part where I am confused--"
"Okay." Leo cuddles up to Sasha. "And I am the way I am because-- I want to understand people? People are very strange. They are the most interesting and complicated thing in the world, even more interesting and complicated than stop signs or popcorn. And I-- want to know why Lilith behaved the way she behaved. But I can wonder about that to myself if it makes you sad." His tail wags. "I'm very good! I care about things OTHER than making you happy."
"...I think she told herself she cared about justice, but actually she just wanted to hurt people and found excuses for it. And I think if she'd been raised by people who understood, maybe it wouldn't have been justice, maybe it would have been some other thing, but lots of people do that and most of them are just humans.
You are very, very good, it's true."
He hugs Leo. "I...." and he's choosing his words very carefully, "don't want to be the kind of person who sees someone getting hurt and thinks good.
And I keep thinking about running on four legs — or thinking Sasha looks like a new foal — or thinking about trampling Lilith or goring Asher against a tree like any other predator — and the first two aren't bad in themselves but I don't know if I'm imagining or remembering and I don't like not knowing —"
That night, he can't sleep.
That's not uncommon; he has a lot of sleepless nights. This time is different — he isn't worrying about school or about Sasha and Leo or even about the curse, even with Sasha too-hot and still-shivering in his arms; he can't think about anything but running. Anything but natural light and still water and —
He gets out of bed (Sasha curls around Leo; he adjusts the blanket so it covers both of them) and writes a note and goes to the school, partially because that's where all of this started and partially because they have a field there (the streets feel wrong, his feet feel wrong.)
The grass feels right. It feels more right when he takes his shoes off; he isn't cold, so he takes off his jacket, and then his shirt, and sprawls out on the field and looks up. You can sort of see stars (not really, though, not like in — he doesn't know where it is that he's remembering, he can only call it there —) and it's a crescent moon tonight. He doesn't know what time it is — clocks are such a human thing, that obsessive need to know the difference between 2:33 and 2:34, he thinks, and usually he'd push the thought away but this time he doesn't; he holds the thought and concentrates on it, remembers how he sleeps longer in winter than in summer and how he hasn't needed an alarm clock since third grade.
The air is cool and — nights are never really quiet in a city but the night is quiet. He's alone here; there's nobody on the bleachers. It's just Marlo and the night and the field and this tangle of memories and if he pulls the threads just right he thinks maybe he can —
He isn't back in bed by morning.
There's a wave of pleasure that overtakes him and then everything is sensitive, every time Sasha moves in him it sends shudders through his body, he can feel every inch of Sasha's dick, he can't concentrate enough to give a good blowjob but hopefully the amount he's moaning makes up for it--
They would not be super thrilled about that but not nearly as un-thrilled as Marlo's parents would be, which is why they're here and not at Marlo's house.
He's gotten quite a bit of sleep in the last day and a half; he's awake again and reading quietly in bed before very long.
Asher starts to kiss along his throat.
"Well, I hypnotized you and you went under very easily," Asher murmurs into Sasha's neck, "and then I pinned you against the wall and kissed you, and then I bit your shoulder and you had this beautiful blissed-out expression and you were moaning and you couldn't speak."
He's hard.
"And I could tell you were getting close so I told you not to come until I told you to-- that was hypnosis, the other stuff wasn't-- then I knelt down and bit your dick and started giving you a blowjob. You can't really suck someone's blood from their dick while giving them a blowjob, but I could have a little taste, and you could have a little bit of the experience. Making you feel good." He sighs. "Someday when I have another vampire friend I'm going to blow a guy while the other vampire feeds on them and it's gonna be hot."
"You were... floating and drifting and moaning and very incoherent under my mouth. And then when I was done with that I fucked you and bit your other shoulder and then you were just. Absolutely incoherent. Very happy, face of absolute bliss, but there was not a lot going on in your head, between the hypnosis and the eating and the fact that you would have probably come five minutes ago if I hadn't mind controlled you. You kept forgetting to breathe."
Asher kisses and licks his shoulder, nibbles a little tiny bit, and says, "And then I had to close up your cuts-- you were very distressed about this, like I said-- and I distracted you from your distress by telling you to come as much as you wanted, which turned out to be maybe three, four minutes? It was very hot."
Asher wraps his arms around Sasha, presses his lips into Sasha's jugular, and feels the pulse of warm blood. He is... content. He wants to push Sasha down to suck his dick, he wants to sink his fangs into Sasha's neck and drink, but he likes being poised so close to what he wants and being denied it. He likes Sasha having control over him.
(And if he fucks up-- he thinks, and shudders, not sure how much is arousal and how much is fear-- Marlo's cold face and a hand on his wrist, burning--)
"Your boyfriend would torture me about all the things that would make me before go 'aaaaaagh' but not the things that would make him go 'hm, okay, I guess.' --Me before was like 'well, vampires don't have any particular reason to murder people, and I don't want to murder anybody now, so probably it will be fine' and then it turned out that murder is fun."
"I go to school, I hang out with my boyfriends, I read, I'm thinking about trying to teach myself German but finding resources is going slowly. Until pretty recently I spent a lot of time tracking gossip so I wouldn't get caught up in the drama but that might count as getting menaced by supernatural creatures since the source of the gossip was Lilith."
He hugs Leo.
"Yeah. And that makes sense, but — maybe I'm overconfident but I think if I was going to actually be harmed by this it would have happened the first time, when I didn't know what was going on and he was planning to eat me, and I wasn't even really hurt by that.
I recognize that this doesn't make it seem any less sketchy but I really do think he's not going to hurt me for real."
"....it's sort of private and I'm not sure how much I should be sharing but it isn't you hurting him, it's — there are things that cause him to be a way he would rather not be and recently they often involve you, just because both of the times he's been around you have been really stressful in pretty similar ways."
"Because there's a lot happening and he doesn't really understand what's going on but he obviously has to do something about it, and the something that needs to be done often turns out to be more vicious than he prefers to be when he has time to think about it. The fact that I'm getting hurt is part of it but 'people need to be punished' is not really the thing."
He liked being pinned against the wall when he was hypnotized, does he like it now?
(Things Sasha might notice about Asher's house now that he's less hypnotized: It's big, especially for a single person. Almost every wall is covered with bookshelves. There's a barre and a mirror in the living room. The kitchen features a really nice tea set.)