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Of all the times to experience deja vu, notifying emergency services about a snake monster before it eats her is an odd one.

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She arrives on a pleasant sandy beach.

The rising slope of the sand blocks her view inland, but off to her right along the curve of the shore she can see some crudely made wooden huts, thatched with gradually disintegrating grass. In and around the huts, some people of a largely Elf-like body plan but few other resemblances to Elves are preparing to go out fishing, in small boats much prettier than the houses they live in.

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She sighs deeply and strides hutward, listening.

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The language they're speaking bears no resemblance to any she's heard before. It's approximately aesthetically acceptable, but clearly not designed with beauty in mind.

As she approaches, more of the village is revealed behind a low ridge; the huts are clustered around the mouth of a river, and the buildings get nicer as they get farther from the sea, although none reach the point of being something an Elf would admit to having constructed.

Someone spots her and calls a greeting. Busy not-elves have a brief, friendly argument over who should go see what she wants; then the youngest person there, a small boy, volunteers himself and darts off toward her.

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She tries the languages she knows without much optimism.

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The boy disclaims knowledge of any of these, then attempts to introduce himself as Kioh and invite her into the prettier and less busy section of the village.

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She introduces herself back and follows him.

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He retrieves a woman from the second-prettiest dwelling available.

The woman is - old, and not old like an Elf where mostly what you see is mannerisms indicating experience and maturity. She has those too, but she's... withered. Her curly black hair is fading to white; her medium-brown skin is wrinkled and papery. (The hair is wrapped up in a scarf, but from beneath the scarf it falls loose down her back.)

The small boy chatters at both of them, and the old woman smiles and pats his shoulder and introduces herself as Viasarae, then attempts to inquire (supplementing her incomprehensible words with mime and gesture) where Ambela is from and how she came to be here instead of there.

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Ambela tries not to be too visibly freaked out by a person who looks like an abandoned eggplant on Endorë. She indicates as best she can that she does not know how she got here and that she is from another planet.

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...the 'another planet' part seems to be unduly puzzling. Viasarae sends Kioh to retrieve a map from inside her house, and indicates that the village is right here on the coast, at the end of an unmarked offshoot of this particular river on the map's sole (large, blobby, unrecognizable) continent.

(Rather inexplicably, the map has a single city with no surrounding landmass marked a considerable distance away from the main continent. It almost looks like, rather than 'this city is right here in the middle of the ocean', the map is trying to say 'this city is somewhere but your guess is as good as mine about the specifics'. The dot and the handwriting that labels it are both fancier than any other city on the map. The alphabet, of course, is totally indecipherable.)

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Ambela looks at the map, nods at the pointing, and then mimes drawing in case they have paper to spare.

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This occasions another errand for Kioh. He comes back with some low-quality handmade paper, a stick of charcoal, and a rough wooden board to flatten the paper on.

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Ambela spreads out the paper and draws the continents of Valinor.

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Viasarae frowns thoughtfully at them. The frown causes unsettling variations in the topography of her abandoned-eggplant face.

She attempts to ask what these places are called and which if any of them Ambela came from.

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Ambela names places. She lives here in Valimar.

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With reference to objects in the environment, Viasarae is able to not only name some local landmarks but also translate the names: the big river is the Rocky River, the offshoot is the Pebbled River, the village is Pebbled Shore, and the fancy city in the middle of the ocean is Skygarden.

She tries to ask after the spatial relationship between Valimar and this here continent.

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Ambela points at the sky.

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...Viasarae shakes her head. She points at Skygarden on the map, and out at the sky over the ocean.

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Ambela draws two suns with rays and a planet with Valian continents and a moon orbiting it.

She points at the sky.

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Viasarae is perplexed. She attempts to confirm the identities of these various objects, incidentally providing Ambela with local vocabulary for 'sun' and 'moon' and 'dawn' and 'dusk' and 'day' and 'night'.

Kioh, meanwhile, fetches chairs for them to sit on (Ambela would be a little tall to fit inside one of the houses) and a sun-shade to set up over them, and two empty wooden cups. When he hands one to Viasarae, it fills itself with water, and she holds the other one out to Ambela with a little motion as though to offer her the same service.

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She is startled, but nods.

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Cupful of inexplicably appearing water! It's very pure, picking up only the barest hint of flavour from the clean wood of the cup.

Viasarae regards Ambela thoughtfully.

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What interesting pure water this is. Sip. She doesn't have the vocabulary to solicit an explanation, but she can point at things and try to find out what they are called later. Anyway, yes, those are suns, two of them, and a planet and a moon.

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The question of how that planet managed to end up with double the ordinary number of suns is beyond their mutual vocabulary at present. Viasarae decides instead to focus on the journey: did you fly here or arrive by some other means? Do you have a way to get back?

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Other means, and no.

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She says something that is probably an expression of sympathy, then conveys an offer for Ambela to stay in the village for now if she likes, and a suggestion that if she'd rather take her chances elsewhere there are some larger settlements upriver, although she'll have to go quite a ways to get to one that's important enough to be marked on the map of the continent.

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She would love to stay here and learn the language.

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In that case, Viasarae is happy to welcome her to the village!

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And teach her words?

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Certainly! She seems delighted and fascinated by how quickly Ambela picks up the language.

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Oh good.

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Water, wood, clouds, sea, house, door, roof, chair, human...

She takes the opportunity to ask if Ambela is a human or is instead some other thing.

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"I am an Elf."

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"And what is an Elf?"

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"We are a kind of person from Endorë and Valinor."

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"...Endorë?"

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"Another planet."

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"Where did all these planets come from?" she mutters, half to herself. "Was one flying city not enough?"

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"Planets are like what we are standing on that the flying city flies over. There are many. Most have no one there."

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"What magic do they have there? Is it the same as ours?" she asks, and then takes a brief vocabulary detour to explain that magic is the thing she is doing when she makes water appear from thin air or manipulates it once it exists, or when Kioh lights a bit of paper on fire by pointing at it, or when the farmers in the village upriver make plants grow more vigorously than they otherwise would have, or when the Emperor builds a flying city.

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"Elves have no magic. There are people called Maiar and Valar who have magic, but not like yours."

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"No magic at all?" she says, amazed. "Poor things, how do you get by?"

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"The Maiar and Valar help, and we have made many things that are not magic that I think are more helpful than your not-magic things."

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"Hmm," she says. "Well, as long as it works for you. What are the Maiar and Valar like?"

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"They are very different. They want to be good but had to learn how."

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"Very different from what?"

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"From all the other kinds of people. There are Elves and Dwarves and orcs on Endorë."

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"There are only humans here." And, wryly, "Must be nice, having all the people with magic want to be good."

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"Oh?"

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"I like it here. But, well, the Emperor is the Emperor."

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"We have kings in Valinor who are the three who led our people there from Endorë. They are good."

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"The Emperor... could be worse," she says consideringly.

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"Oh?"

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"He made Skygarden. He does helpful magic sometimes. But it's usually a bad idea to come to his attention. He—" (she really has not established sufficient vocabulary to explain the details) "—hurts people."

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"Why?"

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"...why does he hurt people? I don't know, I've never met the man."

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"...when, who?"

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"...people near him, whenever he likes. Well, not just anyone, that's one of the ways he could be worse. If you mind your own business and stay out of trouble, he won't bother you. But people who get in his way, or annoy him..." She shrugs and shakes her head. "And he's not very nice to his slaves, either."

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"...it'd be a shame if you went up to Skygarden to bother him about it and he didn't like being bothered."

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"What things annoy him?"

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"I wouldn't know the details. Though I do know he doesn't like it when someone makes a mess of his empire. If I started walking up the river and flooding cities, he'd come down and stop me as soon as he heard."

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"I suppose that's good."

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"As I said," shrug, "he could be worse."

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"Is there anyone he listens to?"

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"I wouldn't know." She regards Ambela thoughtfully. "Are you going to go bother him?"

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"I will try not to bother him."

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"Hm."

Perhaps some vocabulary lessons on happier subjects.

(Kioh comes by with food for both of them and compliments Ambela on how fast she's learning the language - "you must be so smart!")

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"I have a lot of things to help my memory."

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"What kinds of things?"

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"I don't have the words. We say 'blessings'."

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"Well, are they magic?" he asks next.

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"No - not really."

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"Hmm." He squints doubtfully up at her, then scampers off and leaves them to food and vocabulary. (Fish! Delicious!)

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Delicious fish!

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Eventually the boats start coming back in, and Viasarae introduces Ambela to the rest of the village. It's a really small village. Most of them are kind of confused by this pointy-eared stranger, and content to let her stay Viasarae's problem, but a handful of Viasarae's children and grandchildren take an interest and join in the language lessons as afternoon wears on into evening.

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Then Ambela will be quite conversant by nightfall.

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Everyone is very impressed.

They do not have an entire extra house for her and it'll be a bit cramped if she tries to fit into one of theirs, but there's a couple of spare beds she can put together and a tent to put up over them in case of rain, and if she really wants a roof over her head then she can probably find a spot on Viasarae's floor with room for her to curl up in.

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Or she could just not sleep tonight.

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...she can do that? Well, all right, if she likes. None of the villagers are staying up, though.

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Do they have any books? She can try to teach herself to read.

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Viasarae lends her a small stack and introduces her to the fairly straightforward alphabet. There's a recipe book with illustrations, a longish history of the empire, a short book about magic, and a book of nature-focused poetry.

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That should keep her occupied.

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Yep! And here's a little magical lamp to read by!

Some of the recipes are a little baffling; others sound delicious. The poetry is hard to decipher, but rewardingly pleasant to read aloud even when the meanings continue to elude her. The history of the empire is mostly kind of samey, although if she reads closely enough there's an unsettling implication that everyone (with the exception of the Emperor) just dies eventually and then is never heard from again.

Magic seems kind of complicated, and she might have to get someone more interrogable than a book to re-explain the basics in the morning.

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She makes a mental note to do so! And murmurs poems and songs softly to herself.

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The night goes by quietly. She does not get rained on. The moon spends half the night hiding behind clouds, but is very pretty when she finally gets a chance to see it. The sunrise is spectacular, and is also when the villagers start waking up again.

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Good morning villagers.

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Good morning Ambela!

Kioh wants to know if she enjoyed the books and whether she really didn't sleep all night and, if so, whether this is a teachable trick.

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"I enjoyed the books! I really didn't sleep but it's an Elf thing."

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"Oh," he says, disappointed. "Oh well."

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"I'm sorry."

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"Maybe I'll dedicate Life when I grow up," he says. "Do you know about dedication yet?"

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"Not really, will you tell me about it?"

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"Okay!" he says. "So there's three ways to get magic - do you know the nine elements? Life and Death are the first tier, and Land and Sea and Sky are the second tier, and Fire and Ice and Light and Shadow are the third tier. Some people are born with a little bit of magic in some of the elements, and the day you're born someone can pick you up and dedicate you to some elements and you'll get a little more magic than that, and the day you turn sixteen you can dedicate yourself to some elements and get a lot of magic. But dedication is more dangerous the more elements you're trying for, especially if you already have some of them. Like Grandmama, she was born Sea and dedicated Sea as a baby and then again on her sixteenth birthday, and that's really dangerous and she could've died but she didn't. I was born Fire, that's why I can light fires by magic. And I want to dedicate Sea like Grandmama but sometimes I think I want other elements too, like Life so I can learn how to not sleep."

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"How dangerous?"

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"We dedicate all our babies Sea and every few generations somebody's kid dies. And most people who self-dedicate anything die, but for self-dedication it matters how good you are at it and I think I'd be good, and Grandmama thinks so too and she'd know."

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"Good at what?"

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"Self-dedication is like - like sailing in a storm, but maybe you've never done that. I dunno. You could ask Grandmama."

"Ask me what?" says Viasarae, passing by.

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"What you need to be good at for self-dedication."

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"Pain tolerance, tenacity. Going without sleep, if it's a long one. And something physical - dancing, fighting, sailing. When I took Sea it was four hours of feeling like I was drowning, on fire, and wrestling a bear, all at the same time."

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"...on fire, for Sea?"

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"It shifted. Sometimes fire, sometimes ice, sometimes - things I have no name for. 'Wrestling a bear' is likewise an oversimplification. But there is a kind of fight, and you die if you lose it."

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"How many people die of those who try?"

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"Most. More than nine in ten. Shorter is easier - third-tier elements only take an hour each, it's safest to stick to those."

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"And of those, how many?"

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"I don't know exactly. Something like half."

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"Goodness."

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"I don't recommend anyone try it unless I think they'll be good enough to be one of the ones who lives."

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"Are you better than fifty-fifty at guessing?"

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"Hard to say. I've only suggested it to one person before Kioh. She did live, though."

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Nod.

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"The Emperor took all nine elements," she adds. "Forty-eight hours in total. That's where he got the power to build a flying city."

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"It does seem like it might be difficult."

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"No one else in the world can do anything like it. No one else has ever survived that strong a self-dedication."

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"I'm not surprised given your description. About how many humans are there?"

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"...I don't know. I'm sure someone does; you could ask after census records if you do end up visiting Skygarden."

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"More like tens of thousands, or millions?"

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"I don't know. Millions? But that's just a guess."

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"All right."

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"I'm sorry I can't be more helpful about some of these things," she adds. "We're fairly isolated here, and we prefer it that way, but it does make us a poorer introduction to the rest of the world than you'd get from somewhere more cosmopolitan."

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"That's all right. Is this language spoken everywhere?"

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"Yes. You might find a few places where they speak something else too, but none where they don't speak this one."

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"Convenient."

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She nods.

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"I might travel once I have more of a handle on the language."

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"You really are learning it astonishingly fast."

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"Thank you."

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Smile. "I'm afraid there aren't very many more books, if you've finished with those ones already."

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"I am. Oh well."

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"I'll see what else I can find."

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"Thank you."

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"You're welcome."

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"How do people get to Skygarden, if it flies? Can you only live there if you can fly?"

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"There are flying ships. They build them in the big port cities. The nearest one is Southport, north of here by the mouth of the Rocky River."

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"Are they magic?"

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"Yes, of course."

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"Of course."

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"...is it possible to build flying ships without magic? How?"

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"You need a lot of things I think this world has not invented yet."

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"Well, that explains it, I suppose."

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"Yes. It could have been that those inventions just weren't available here, though."

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"Yes, I see. Well, instead it turns out that the answer is magic."

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"How much of what kinds do you need?"

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"I'm not sure, never having built one myself. Sky and the full third tier are probably best for it, but I don't know if you need both, or whether you need to have most of them self-dedicated or only a few or maybe even none. It might depend on whether you're trying to build the flying ship by yourself."

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"That makes sense."

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She nods. "—oh, in case no one's explained, the elements don't stay strictly inside their own domains; there are combinations that give you a little extra. Fire and Ice add up to something with motion and lightning included, Light and Shadow together give you more things to do with the senses, and if you have the whole third tier you can enchant objects. Completing the first or second tier has similar benefits but it's harder to explain what they are, since I imagine it won't mean much to you if I say that it gives you a more complete command of that tier's domain."

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"Yes, I'm not sure what that means."

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She shrugs. "Land and Sea and Sky all together are... the world as a physical thing? And Life and Death together are... all the same things they are by themselves, but with fewer gaps in between."

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"Hmm. Does Life and Death allow you to bring dead people to life again?"

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"Not that I've ever heard of. But it's very rare to have one of those at the self-dedication level, let alone both, and I can't imagine you could do it with any less."

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"The Valar bring dead Elves and orcs to life. It doesn't work for Dwarves because they don't have the same kind of soul, but they want to figure it out one day."

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"Lucky Elves and orcs. When humans die we stay that way."

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"Maybe the Valar can figure you out one day too.

In the books it sounded like humans die for no reason."

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She raises her eyebrows. "What do you think of as a good reason to die?"

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"Falling from a height?"

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"That'll do it, yes. What do you think of as not a good reason to die?"

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"Time elapsing."

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"...oh. Do Elves and orcs and so on not have old age?"

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"No, because it is a stupid idea."

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"...what would it matter how nice of an idea it was? Do all your animals live forever too?"

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"Only on Valinor, not Endorë."

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"Well, all the creatures of this world age and die, humans included. Though some humans can get around it. I'm a few hundred years old myself."

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"I am also a few hundred years old."

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"Well. In case you were wondering," she gestures at her abandoned-eggplant self, "this is what an elderly human looks like."

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"I see."

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"And it doesn't matter a bit how stupid an idea it is, because humans weren't anyone's idea in the first place, we just happened. As far as I've ever heard, anyway."

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"Elves were invented by Eru, who is like Valar but bigger, and orcs and Dwarves were invented by two different Valar."

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"Sounds uncomfortable. But maybe some people would like having someone to blame."

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"The orcs were uncomfortable for a while. The other Valar fixed it."

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"...fixed what?"

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"The same thing that lets Elves have blessings also let us, and orcs, who have a similar thing, make promises we could not break. The orcs were all made to promise as small children that they would serve their inventor, who was evil. Now oaths don't work that way any more, and only let us swear to being honest and things like that."

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She looks very unsettled. "That's much more uncomfortable than I was thinking."

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"Also orcs used to be in constant pain for no reason and the first batch were made by torturing Elf parents for a couple generations."

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"..."

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"The other fourteen Valar have locked up that one."

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"Good for them," she says firmly.

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"Yes."

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"The Emperor may be unpleasant but he's never done anything like that."

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"Good."

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"I have heard that he tortures people," she clarifies, "but - one at a time, and he doesn't bring their kids into it. Doesn't hurt kids at all, actually, that I know of."

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"Better than Melkor, at any rate."

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"Being better than Melkor is not very impressive."

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"It's really not."

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"Do you mean to go and talk to him?"

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"I'm thinking about it."

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"Well. Good luck. Try not to provoke him into torturing you."

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"I will certainly try. I can die any time I want, there's that."

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Snort. "And then I guess you'll find out whether he can bring people back to life."

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"I suppose. I'd be easier than a Dwarf, and I suspect you work similarly."

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"For all I know he can stop you from dying in the first place. It's usually not wise to bet on the Emperor not being able to do things."

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"I might try anyway."

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Shrug. "I'll not try to stop you."

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"I will be very careful and see if anyone has advice before I approach."

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Nod.

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"Do you have any?"

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"Hmm. ...if you do get advice closer to the source, pay attention to who you get it from. It could be in some people's interest to mislead you."

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"That's good to know, thank you."

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"You're welcome."

She thinks for a moment, then adds: "I do think he cares something for the peace and safety of his empire. If there was some unfathomable disaster threatening my village that I couldn't face on my own, something that seemed likely to roll over us and keep going if no one stopped it, I'd send for the Emperor and expect him to make it better rather than worse."

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"That's reassuring."

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Nod.

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"What is the best way to get to a port city, should I just walk?"

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"You could. Or someone could take you there, it's much faster by sea."

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"A ride would be lovely."

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"Do you know when you'd like to leave?"

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"Whenever is convenient is fine."

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"I'll ask who'd like to take you to Southport. I'm sure it won't take more than a few days to arrange."

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"That will be lovely, thank you."

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"Getting from Southport to Skygarden may be a little harder, but I'm sure you can find something you're willing to sell to someone."

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"I don't need all of my jewelry."

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"Give up one or two of those to the right buyer," she says, nodding at Ambela's rings, "and you'll have not only passage to Skygarden but enough left over to buy a house when you get there. The right buyer might be more trouble than they're worth to find, though. I don't deal in that sort of thing often enough to know."

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"Well, I can look for someone who sells jewelry - how much are you imagining, I don't know this currency and a ballpark figure would be useful."

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She guesses a range between one largish number and another, much bigger number. "On the low end you might have trouble affording the house."

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"If I cannot afford a house perhaps I will sleep in a tree. Thank you."

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She laughs. "Welcome."

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And now it has been too long since she sang. She sits outside and sings.

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...she may attract a bit of a crowd, doing that.

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Oh! Well, all right, they're welcome.

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It seems like she may be a top contender for the most amazing thing any of them has ever heard.

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Goodness. Well, she can sing all day.

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Eventually many of them have to do things other than listen to her sing. Reluctantly.

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It's a pity she can't leave them a recording.

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Isn't it just?

No one comes up with magical recording mechanisms. When evening arrives, Kioh brings her dinner and tells her that Grandmama says that if she sings like that she should have no trouble making money.

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"All right, maybe I'll keep the jewelry. I'm not very good for an Elf."

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"If that's not very good, what does good sound like?" he asks incredulously.

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"I can't show you! I don't have a player!"

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"I can't imagine it." He shakes his head. "Anyway, Mama can take you to Southport tomorrow morning."

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"That's very kind of her."

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"I'll tell her you said thank you! Enjoy your dinner!" Off he scampers.

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Mmm dinner.

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It's tasty dinner.

The next morning, Kioh's mother has a boat and two friends all ready to take Ambela to Southport. They would be delighted if she'd sing a little along the way.

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But of course.

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Her singing is lovely and the ocean is also lovely and all in all it's a pretty good trip. They arrive around midday, and the three villagers point her in the direction of the airship docks.

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She thanks them, strolls that way to look at airships, and then finds somewhere to busk.

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The people of Southport manage not to completely block the street listening to her, but it's a near thing. She will have no trouble affording a ride to Skygarden.

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And she gets to keep her jewelry! ...can she get an adequately pretty change of clothes and a way to wash what she's got?

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...an adequately pretty change of clothes, maybe, if she busks for a while and then shops around.

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She's not in such urgent need that she can't shop around for something nice and maybe a sewing kit to tailor the prettiest thing to fit if it doesn't already.

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Then she will be able to acquire an outfit she would not be ashamed to walk around Valinor in!

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Good. Trip to Skygarden?

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Trip to Skygarden: absolutely affordable! The airship captain has heard of her and would be thrilled to have her aboard, especially if she plans to sing.

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She will sing them all the way there if they like.

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Crew and passengers are so pleased by this outcome!

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The city of Skygarden is beautiful.

Oh, it's clear enough that Elves don't live there - a lot of things are dirty or in poor repair, there's litter and so on - but underneath the wear and tear of use, most of the architecture would hold its own in a Valian design contest. The gardens visible along the sides of the island are gorgeous. The palace in the middle is huge and sprawling and exquisitely lovely, made all of stone that rises from the ground in a single seamless piece, with courtyards and fountains and greenhouses and ivy-clad towers and a low outer wall to mark out its territory.

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Oh good! So good.

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The airship comes in to land at the western docks. The captain recommends Ambela a good hotel nearby.

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She appreciates that. How affordable is it?

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Not trivial, unless busking is even more lucrative up here, which it might be. But she could definitely stay there and have some money left over to save up and buy more pretty clothes with.

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She gets a room. She finds a garden to sing in.

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Passersby are super impressed. She attracts a crowd pretty quickly.

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Hurrah.

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She will have no trouble affording her hotel room!

...she might have some trouble keeping a low profile, if that is a goal of hers.

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Not necessarily.

She does listen for and ask questions during any conversations in which the Emperor is mentioned.

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Inconveniently, people within human hearing range of her singing mostly don't talk. But when she listens farther away than that, or spends time not singing, she can overhear Emperor-related gossip such as:

  • remember that time he threw somebody off the palace roof a few years ago? Working at the palace must be terrifying!
  • they finally tore down my old neighbourhood and the Emperor came in and built new houses overnight and they're all gorgeous
  • my friend's cousin's husband sold one of his maids last year and the Emperor bought her, poor girl
  • it's been a while since the Emperor added new land to the island, I wonder where he'll put it on next?
  • I was at a party last month, more upscale than I usually go to, and the Emperor showed up, but people mostly weren't frightened - maybe you get used to it, if you run in the sort of social circle where the Emperor shows up to parties - anyway I left early and I'm not accepting any more invitations from that household, maybe some people can get used to socializing with the Emperor but I'm not cut out for it
  • my uncle's girlfriend's sister is a palace secretary and she says it's just like any other job really, but she doesn't dare go near the Emperor's personal wing because she took a shortcut right past it once and she could hear the girls screaming, which doesn't sound much like any other job to me
  • my ex-landlord's family fell on hard times and had to sell his niece, and he ran into her in the market and she said it was so awful she'd rather belong to the Emperor, I'm sure she didn't mean it but can you imagine—!

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She goes for a meandering walk that takes her past the palace twice. She listens.

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Assorted governmental sounds from the more public sections. From the Emperor's quarters - it doesn't sound like he's home right now, but there are a handful of women in his section of the palace, and two of them are crying while the third quietly eats lunch.

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Hmm.

She busks on a daily basis but at different times, and takes walks past the palace every day, at different times.

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The Emperor is, variously: out, napping, napping, torturing someone, out, out, descending from the sky on huge grey owl's wings and landing on a balcony as she watches (and then taking a nap), torturing someone again, and in the public section of the palace having a conversation with some sort of bureaucrat.

"I don't see why you want me involved."

  "I thought you might like a chance to comment, all things considered."

"He annoys me. I don't have people executed for annoying me."

  "...well..."

"'Well' what? That incorrigible pest from a few years ago? I threw him off a roof; the law of the empire did not at any point get involved."

  "...fair enough."

"I have no idea whether Lord Estulas defrauded all those merchants and no particular urge to find out. Leave me out of it."

  "Very well. And I assume you're equally uninterested in looking over the proposed changes to tax law—"

"Tax law does much better without my input. I'm going to go redesign my bedroom or something. Send for me if you think of anything that could actually benefit from my attention."

And then he does in fact go back to his wing of the palace and reshape a sizeable chunk of it into a new but equally beautiful form.

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She sings, and reads books about everything especially magic, and walks past the palace.

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And, having seen him land on his balcony that one time, she'll probably recognize him despite the lack of wings when he comes by to listen to her sing.

Nobody else seems to catch on; he doesn't attract any more attention than any other listener approximately that well-dressed. After a few songs, he comes up and drops some very high-denomination coins in her basket.

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"Thank you."

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"Welcome. Where'd you get a voice like that?"

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"It's nothing special where I'm from."

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"Oh? And where's that?"

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"It's called Valinor. I can't get home; I arrived here by accident."

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"Sorry to hear it. You must really be fed up with our idea of music by now."

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"It's stylistically novel and some of your people are skilled."

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He giggles. "Is that like telling your neighbour that the lime-green curtains have character, or do you actually see some merit in it?"

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"It's more like telling a child they have promise. It can be sincere without measuring absolutely."

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"Fair enough. I'd better quit taking up your time, people are starting to be annoyed with me."

He tosses another coin in her basket and walks away.

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And she sings another song, and walks by the palace.

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Torturing somebody again.

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Mm-hm.

She waits to see if he comes back the next day.

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No, but he's back the day after that. With money again, even.

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"Hello again."

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"Was I that memorable?"

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"I have a very good memory."

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"Well, fair enough. What's your name?"

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"Mirelótë Ambela."

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"That's pretty."

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"Thank you."

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He smiles, and walks away before people can be annoyed that he interrupted the singing.

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She sings. She waits to see if he will come back.

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Not that week.

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She takes walks and reads books and thinks and listens.

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The Emperor lives his life. His life involves naps, the rape and torture of helpless captives, and being out of the house a lot. It does not seem to involve any meaningful interaction with the actual running of the empire.

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Hmm.

She looks up the laws on the books about slavery.

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There are two ways to become a slave: voluntary sale (with the money usually going to a close friend or family member, although you can have it directed anywhere), or forced sale in case of debt (if you owe so much money that you couldn't possibly pay it all, your creditors get everything you have plus whatever you raise at auction). Attempting to forcibly enslave someone by any other means is very illegal. Once somebody is legally enslaved, though, there is approximately no legal protection of their rights or well-being except very incidentally - if you torture your slaves loudly at all hours you might incur a noise complaint; if you mistreat them grievously and then can't find anyone willing to buy what's left you can't legally collect insurance money for that any more than you could after deliberately burning down your own house.

(If a slave bears children, the children are born free but the mother's owner is responsible for their care. No one under the age of sixteen can be legally enslaved.)

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So the explanation for the sold niece...

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It's common for a family having serious financial trouble to arrange a voluntary sale or two before the debt gets dangerously large, and people speak in terms of 'the family sold their eldest daughter' even though that's not strictly legally accurate.

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Mmhm. How much do slaves usually run?

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Depends heavily on the quality of the slave and the context of the market; anywhere from 'a few weeks of her busking income' to 'a mansion in a good neighbourhood'.

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Hmm.

Is there anything like a public log of debts?

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Not as such, although there are public announcements and subsequently public records of slave sales. If she wants to get to debtors before that point she'll have a harder time of it.

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Do they have the concept of buying debt?

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They do have that concept!

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Do they have somewhere she can advertise?

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Word of mouth seems to be most of it, but there are magaziney newspaperish things that sometimes advertise stuff.

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She goes looking for concert hall formal arrangements. And in case that doesn't pan out, jewelry stores.

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Concert halls are super excited about her. Jewelry stores are pretty excited too.

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The jewelry's nonrenewable so it's a second choice but she'd love to make better money than busking permits.

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She can make way better money than busking permits. These concert halls are so excited.

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Good.

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The Emperor shows up to her third performance. He buys a good seat. No one else recognizes him.

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Well, she will hang out receiving admirers after.

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When the admirers have thinned out a bit:

"Hello again. Moving up in the world?"

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"I decided this would be more efficient."

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"I imagine you're right. I'll miss being able to wander by on a whim, though."

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"Will you? I'm sorry. Perhaps I'll sometimes sing in the garden anyway, it's a nice garden."

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"It is that."

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"It's interesting how lovely the buildings and gardens are here when I think otherwise your people care less than mine about everything being beautiful."

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"It's easier to be ambitious with the architecture when you can use magic, and a lot of people with powerful magic live in Skygarden. And on top of that, most people putting a building or a garden here will feel the need to compete with the imperial example."

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"That makes sense. Many of the nicest buildings in Valinor were put up with magical help."

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"Oh? What's magic like in Valinor?"

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"My species doesn't have it but our friends the Ainur do. It's very different; it's innately part of them."

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"But still good for cheating at architecture, hmm? Just the construction, or can you do impossible things with the end results too?"

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"There are a few places where they allowed structures to stand that shouldn't. It's not common unless that's the only way to get an effect, it prevents us from learning more engineering if they do it all the time."

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"Well, sure, but building impossible things is fun. —Architecture is something of a hobby of mine, is why I'm curious."

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"My world is more technologically advanced than yours, there are things that might look impossible without magic that aren't if you have the right material and process."

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"Oh? Like what?"

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"Buildings this island could crash into if they stood at sea level."

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"You're joking. How?"

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"Steel and reinforced concrete frames."

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"Huh. Steel buildings, there's a thought."

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"The frames. The outsides are usually glass or stone or something pretty like that."

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"I usually don't like my buildings to - hide themselves. If I'm building in wood you see wood, if I'm building in stone you see stone. But that doesn't mean I can't put in windows..." he trails off, thinking, and then grins at her again.

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"There are skyscrapers whose outsides are all glass."

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"Skyscrapers, is that what you call them? What an image. I love it."

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"It's an imperfect translation but yes."

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He laughs delightedly.

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"We don't have a flying city, though."

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"So we're winning in at least one respect."

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"So you are."

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"I'm sorry you're stranded here," he adds. "If someone could find you a way home, would you want it?"

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"Oh yes. Especially if it would be possible to go back and forth, that would be amazing. But my husband and friends and parents are surely frantic."

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"Well - I wouldn't have the first clue how to do something like that, but there's a lot of magic in Skygarden."

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"It's possible the Valar will find a way to fetch me back."

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"Hope so. Although I'd miss your singing."

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"Well, if there's enough transit you can possibly borrow Macalaurë. He's much better."

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He laughs. "I'm not sure I could stand it."

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"Really?"

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"If I heard someone sing more beautifully than you I think I would cry, and I prefer not to do that in public."

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"We have invented devices that will record music and let you play it back anywhere you like."

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"Well, then maybe I'd survive."

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"What is your name?"

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"Sekar."

This is not the Emperor's name; the Emperor's name is Solekaran. But it's not entirely unlike the Emperor's name, either.

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She was not expecting the unvarnished truth. "I'm glad you enjoy my singing."

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"It's beautiful."

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"Thank you. What do you do?"

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"Well, I already mentioned architecture. I don't really have a career as such. Don't need one, I've got money regardless."

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"In Valinor and some Endorë Elf countries, there's an arrangement where the government gives everyone plenty to live on, funded by taxes on people who choose to work anyway or want scarcer things than necessities."

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"Huh. Does it work?"

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"Yes. It does mean that we can take time off if we need to, such as when there are children in the house."

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"Sounds nice."

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"It is!"

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"Am I keeping you from anything? I wouldn't want to overstay my welcome."

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"I have no plans."

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"Well, all right."

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"It's convenient that people here like my singing. I could have sold off some of the jewelry, but it's finite and I might be here for a long time, even forever. And there's no basic income and apparently debt is a serious problem if accumulated here."

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"...forever?"

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"Elves do not die for no reason. A Vala can put us back if we die for a reason, but it's never happened to me. I don't have dangerous hobbies."

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"Huh. Lucky Elves. Raising the dead isn't a power I've heard rumoured around here."

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"Nor I."

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"But I'm well aware I don't know everything."

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"And I've been on this planet less than a month and should not assume I know even most things about it."

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He laughs.

"What things have surprised you so far?"

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"Slavery."

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"Don't have that one at home?"

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"We used to, but only one person practiced it and now he is in prison."

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He laughs. "Wow, that's just absurdly nice."

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"It really wasn't."

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"...how's that manage to be a bad thing?"

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"He's a Vala and there were many millions of them."

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"...'there was only one of him and he's in prison now' is still pretty absurdly nice, honestly."

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"Perhaps in a sense."

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"In the long run, 'lots of people kind of suck' is always going to beat 'one person really sucked and then stopped that' in the nastiness race, you know?"

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"It will take a very long run."

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"Sorry to hear it."

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"I appreciate that."

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"I do still think there's something absurdly nice about there being only one person who was ever bad enough to own slaves. But if you say there's nothing absurdly nice about the rest of it, I believe you."

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"Oh, apart from that one person and various effects downstream of him my world is very lovely. He just did a lot of things before he was locked up."

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"Yeah. The absurdly nice thing is everything else being lovely."

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"This world must look like such a disaster in comparison."

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"It has its drawbacks. Like people dying for no reason, I don't like that at all."

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"Unfortunately I don't think it's the kind of thing that can be solved by putting somebody in prison."

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"Well, maybe not, but I've been surprised before."

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"Oh?"

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"In addition to the Ainur it turned out that my universe had an omniscient creator deity who set it all up to watch it go."

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"We'd better not have one of those."

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"Ours has been convinced to cut it out."

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"If I found out we had one of those—" he cuts himself off, shakes his head, and instead of whatever he was going to say: "I would be upset."

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"This is not unreasonable. Ours has diminished to the point where he can read books like a normal person and now lives on the moon and judges poetry contests."

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...he laughs.

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It is a bit funny.

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"Of things for an omniscient creator deity to be doing, that seems like a basically acceptable one!"

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"It is! His taste runs to the tragic, so our media does too, but this is much less harmful."

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"No kidding."

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"Nobody's asked me to translate any songs yet."

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"Are they all relentlessly depressing?"

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"Most of them. I'm not sure if we have similar enough musical conventions that you can tell which ones have sad tunes, but they match, almost always."

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"I have a guess or two."

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"Oh?"

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"Wouldn't know how to put it to words; I'm not very musical. But I think I could pick out some of the sad ones from your repertoire."

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"If you want to know what they are about I could hazard summaries."

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"That sounds like fun!"

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"Do you have a favorite?"

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"If I said 'the first one I heard all the way through, when you were singing in the garden' would that be enough to identify it—?"

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"Yes! I have a very good memory. That one is a little sad but not really on a scale that tends to get to me; it's about a nightingale on Endorë encountering nightingale-scaled travails and eventually dying and Eru is able to notice most of them but by the end he's scaled down to a less obsessively birdwatching form and it dies by itself and no one pays attention."

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...he laughs. "Wow. And that's 'a little sad', is it? What qualifies as outright tragic, in that case?"

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"My favorite really tragic song is one about the invention of a - a thing, that we have, it's not magic but it might be simpler to understand it that way. The invention of a blessing that lets Elves look at orcs and see them as Elves. We have a hard time being around things that aren't beautiful and orcs were deliberately crafted to offend our aesthetic sensibilities; I can spend about a day in an orc city if I don't look at anyone too closely and know I'm going to go home to my husband and sing with him a lot, and I'm on the high end of tolerance. So if we invented such a thing it'd let us socialize with them a lot more than we currently do. And the song is about an Elf who in this way falls in love with an orc, so deeply that she manages to woo this orc and overcome general orcly annoyance with Elves, and they get married, and decide that since they are so in love surely, if she turns the blessing off -"

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"Ouch."

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"Yep."

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"Are there any songs that aren't sad?"

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"Sure. Festival songs are often cheerful. Songs that don't tell stories at all and are just about nature or something are perfectly non-tragic. People write songs about miscellaneous events and do not invariably prepare them for submission to one of Eru's contests."

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"Do you have any happy favourites, or is that unfashionable?"

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"I don't mind being unfashionable. My favorite happy one is a song about the flight to Valinor from Endorë when we first settled it."

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"Oh, what was that like?"

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"It was so exciting. Oromë found us - the Valar didn't know that there were Elves yet - and he made us ships with miniature ecosystems in each one and loaded us all up and brought us there and it took two and a half Valian Years, or twenty-five Endorë years - I'm not sure exactly how long yours are but I think closer to Endorë's. And we planned how we'd live in Valinor and I talked to Oromë a lot about Ainur."

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"Miniature ecosystems? How big does a ship need to be for that—?"

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"Quite large! Elves don't do well in confined spaces, to hold us without anybody dying of it for two and a half Years they had to have about as much area as this island."

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"Wow. About how much of keeping them going was 'magic' and how much was 'interesting new uses of steel'...?"

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"That trip it was magic. It can be done without, but it took us a long time to learn how. Largely because we require such large spaces to make such long trips; for a shuttle to the moon and back they can be much smaller."

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"—that's not a hypothetical example, is it."

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"It's not!"

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"What's flying to the moon like?"

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"It's not quite as interesting as it sounds. You sit in a shuttle and get smushed into your seat and then are weightless, that part's fun. For long trips on large ships you can spin the ships for pretend gravity."

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"—and how does spinning make them pretend to have gravity?"

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"Same reason going up really fast to travel to the moon smushes you into your seat! Imagine you have a bucket of water and you swing it really fast, in an arc overhead, it won't spill as long as it's quick enough."

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"...huh." He thinks it over, picturing the movement, and then grins. "You know such fascinating things."

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"I've been around a while and have an excellent memory."

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"How long of a while?"

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"I'm a little over three yéni - a yéni is a hundred and forty four Valian years."

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"...that's a pretty long while, if Valian years really are ten years long."

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"I'm not sure, because I don't know exactly how long your years are in terms I can compare, but I think approximately."

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There's no one else around by now, and he's pretty sure she knows, and he's tired of dancing around it.

"So you're approximately my age, then."

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"Approximately."

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"Is there a reason you walk past my palace every day?"

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"Listening. Thinking."

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"It's very strange to talk to someone who knows I'm the Emperor and isn't terrified of me, but I suppose being a five-thousand-year-old visitor from another world would do it. I spent probably much too long not being quite sure you knew, just because I would've expected more of a reaction."

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"What sort of reaction would you have expected?"

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"Fear. Fear is the reaction I expect. Not that I'm complaining, mind, you're fun to talk to and that's very scarce. Fear I can get just about anywhere."

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"Well, if anything terrible happens I can volitionally die."

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"I can actually bring back the dead, it just takes about half a day per, which means that since I can't do it casually all the time for everyone I prefer to do it secretly and infrequently so people don't start expecting it. But I also don't plan to hurt you, so hopefully you won't have to find out how far you should be trusting spontaneous suicide as a defense mechanism."

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"That sounds more pleasant all around. I wouldn't be expecting to permanently de-Mirelótë the world, my chip sends backups to the Vala of the dead back home and while it may not be managing to send updates from here it's probable that eventually my husband would authorize forking me from the time of my disappearance."

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He giggles at 'de-Mirelótë'.

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"It would probably take him a very long time, though, even if the Valar were very confident they would never be able to retrieve me no matter how much they wheedled Eru."

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"I'm pretty sure I can find you a way home eventually, but I have no idea how long it'll take. And I'm not sure I want prolonged contact with your world, however tame its omniscient creator deity."

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"It has other things to recommend it. ...Perhaps I should say it has any things to recommend it, Eru not really being one. The Valar he seems to consider pets more than playthings and they can make more progress on him than incarnates can, I think he is reasonably tame now with the possible exception of having been responsible for sending me here."

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"I still have strong objections to the concept of omniscient creator deities."

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"Well. I'd rather go home than stay here forever but I think it would be a pity to have the peoples of the worlds go our separate ways after that indefinitely. At least let the Valar fix your inherently mortal species, it's so stupid."

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"I'm not attached to the inherent mortality of my species, but if anyone's going to mess with us they'd better be really sure it's not going to do something just as stupid like make it impossible for any more people to get magic. And I really do not want your omniscient creator deity anywhere near my world."

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"If he sent me here, which seems likely, he can already in principle access it."

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"I find that possibility very annoying."

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"Alas."

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"Learn anything interesting from spying on me? —is it me or my government? I'm sure you've noticed those are very different things."

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"I did notice that. Some of both. I didn't come to any novel conclusions."

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"Does that imply that you had conclusions beforehand and the spying didn't dislodge them, or...?"

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"Hearsay only."

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"Well. Now you also know that sometimes I go around pretending to be an architect named Sekar so I can have a friendly conversation with someone who isn't pressingly aware that I could torture them to death on a whim."

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"It seems an understandable impulse, I can imagine that would overshadow most social interactions terribly."

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"I haven't even tortured anyone to death on a whim in the last several hundred years! And my empire and my imperial social life both work much better this way, but..." he shrugs. "Not that I blame people for being terrified of me. I am objectively pretty terrifying."

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"I suspect the mere theoretical ability to torture people to whatever end state you had in mind would not be terrifying at all."

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"Oh, sure. But I think you might be underestimating what it would take for me to stop being terrifying. I go to great lengths to arrange my life so I never have to risk losing my temper at anyone, and I still sometimes end up throwing somebody off a roof because I have less impulse control than I'd like."

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"What have you tried to arrange to have as much impulse control as you'd like instead?"

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"...?"

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"If you would like to have more impulse control, have you done anything to try to make that happen?"

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"...yes but I haven't got the first clue how to say what it was?"

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"Oh. I don't know how to help you with that."

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"Unsurprising," he says wryly.

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"I write thoughts down as a way of processing them and deciding if I like the process that generated them. Sometimes I have to make up words. And by and large other people do not adopt my system for one or another reason."

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"Yes, that sounds excruciating. When I need to think hard, I fly."

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"Sounds fun."

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"I can give you wings if you'd like to try it!"

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"That would be interesting, how long does it take to learn to fly?"

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"The way I do wings, they at least come with the ability to move them properly, but I haven't given them to enough people to have a good idea of how fast you'd learn the rest. And you'd need different clothes, but I can give you those too."

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"They have to be pretty."

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"Well now I'm definitely going to show off."

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"I suspect I'll approve. The city's very nice."

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"I'm proud of my city! Have you seen all the best parts yet?"

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"I haven't seen everything, so maybe I have missed the best parts."

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"You should watch the sunrise from the garden on the eastern edge and visit the library on the northeast edge with the stone windows. I'm also very proud of the palace, especially my own wing, but I don't know if you want to get any closer to it than you have."

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"I don't feel like that would be ideal, no. I'll make a point of the sunrise and the library."

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"I hope you like them! The sunsets from the west edge are also pretty spectacular but there aren't such lovely gardens to sit in and watch them."

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"Temporary oversight or deliberate choice?"

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"Temporary but not exactly an oversight. The airship docks are in the west right now, which means if I build the island to encourage gawking in that direction then people will tend to crowd the area to watch the ships, and it'll make a mess of traffic. When I've expanded the island enough to displace the docks, I'll shift them north and put in a sunset garden on the west edge."

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"Well thought out."

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"I've had a while to pick up on that kind of thing!"

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"One picks up a lot of things after enough time."

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"Yes. Anyway, if you want wings right now we should probably go somewhere a little more out of the way than a concert hall."

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"Will I be able to be rid of them later if I decide I don't like to always have them? And will passersby and audience members know where I got them?"

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"They'll know you made a self-dedicated friend, but I'm not literally the only person who can do wings. —I could take them off for you, or a very good healer could take them off for you, or you could take them off the messy way and have any old healer clean up after them."

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"All right."

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"Thoughts on what you want your wings to look like?" he asks, opening a shimmering portal that leads to a currently-deserted garden near the southeast edge.

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"Well, they have to be beautiful. Are you looking for a species of bird, or a color, or...?"

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"Colour, species of bird - or bat, those also work - or any miscellaneous detail that you think you might like."

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"Bats aren't as pretty, on the whole. Blue jays have lovely wings... Or something, hm, iridescent and pearly in a hawk's wing shape."

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"I can do a pearly hawk!"

Out through the portal he goes, beckoning her to follow. The garden is quiet and understatedly pretty.

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"Which elements do you need to make portals like that?" she wonders, stepping through.

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"It's probably possible with just the full second tier, but I've never seen anybody else do it, so it might need all nine."

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"I'm - a little surprised so many people try self-dedication, given how dangerous it is."

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"Sixteen-year-olds don't always have the greatest risk assessment in the world. And the skill element is hard enough to articulate that I think a lot of people misunderstand it, and think they can get by on just being stubborn, just being a good dancer, just having a high pain tolerance..."

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"Sixteen year old Elves are tiny children. You grow faster, but... still."

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"Sixteen-year-old humans are... more or less adults but not any good at it yet, I think."

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"Elves are like that at fifty. And that's in local years; in Valinor it takes ten times as long to grow up as in Endorë."

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"I'd have gone crazy if I'd taken five hundred years to reach sixteen. I don't have anywhere near that much patience."

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"Valinor has an effect where time slides by. It's very relaxing but not good for getting work done, so a lot of people install blessings to counteract it and only turn them off when they go on vacation."

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"Everything about this place sounds so... nice but terrible? I'm glad it exists but you couldn't pay me to live there."

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"Endorë's different. Although it does have the omniscient creator god he is not immediately overhead making shadow puppets with the moon."

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Giggle. "Shadow puppets?"

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"Shadow puppets! The moon is bright because it's illuminated by the suns. You can block the light and make shadow puppets."

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"That's adorable," he says. "But I was going to make you wings—here—"

A single large flower on a thick twisting stalk spirals up out of the ground next to Ambela, and when it opens its delicate silver-white petals, instead of any usual flower parts they reveal a pool of soft blue-grey fabric with a shimmery luster, like a smoother, softer version of silk, light enough to flow like water.

Extracted from the flower, it turns out to be a dress, with elbow-length sleeves and an open back. The skirt is made of a multitude of long overlapping petal-like layers. Tiny imperfections in the weave of the fabric form a subtle pattern that resembles falling rain, especially when the layers move over one another.

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"- if you ever did move to my world you could be very sought after. Ah, we don't have a nudity taboo, turn or don't as you like." She begins exchanging outfits.

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"I would hate living in your world but I'd probably have a lot of fun designing pretty things and watching people be delighted by them!"

He doesn't turn away, but doesn't stare either.

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She wears the backless dress, indulges in a twirl.

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The dress is beautiful and she looks stunning in it. The Emperor beams at her.

"Okay, wings," he says. "Might feel a little weird but it shouldn't hurt—ready?—"

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"Go for it."

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And she grows wings.

It happens over the course of a few seconds - first a strange weight hanging from her shoulders, then a rush of odd sensations as the wings develop to their full size and acquire nerves and bones and muscles and feathers and skin. As promised, though, it doesn't hurt. And when it's finished, she has wings, just as much under her control as her arms or legs and with just as much grace and precision of movement - maybe even a little more.

Per her suggestion, the wings are based on the form of a hawk's, but with pale shimmering feathers that ripple with subtle colour as though carved from mother-of-pearl. They look absolutely magnificent.

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"Eee!" Flap. She pets her feathers.

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Her feathers are lovely and soft. Petting them feels nice, but not to an awkward degree. The Emperor is beaming at her again.

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"Thank you, they're fabulous."

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"You're welcome! I'm not sure how good I'd be at flying lessons, but if you want some I can at least arrange that you don't fall out of the sky for the duration."

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"Probably convenient, yes. Will I need a running start, or for that matter a falling start -?"

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"Probably simplest for now if I just make a portal into a nice empty bit of sky," he says, doing so. "Eventually, though, you'll be able to take off from the ground - running and falling both make it easier, but it's possible without."

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"Cool."

She spreads her wings and steps into the sky.

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The Emperor follows, closing the portal behind them.

 

The ocean is a long way down from here, and there's no land in sight - but it's not that hard to figure out how to glide. Her wings seem to have some muscle memory pre-installed. Up to her if she wants to attempt flapping on this basis.

Meanwhile, the Emperor lets himself fall for a second or two before he summons his wings and catches himself.

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She glides! She flaps!

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Flapping is harder to get the hang of, but still non-disastrous!

The Emperor circles around and swoops and dives, staying in the vicinity to keep an eye on her but otherwise having fun.

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Wheeeeeee!

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Awwww!

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"This is fantastic, thank you."

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"You're welcome! I'm glad you like them."

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"They are beautiful and let me fly!"

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Eeeeeee. "That was rather the idea, yes!"

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Swoop?

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Swoop! Gleeful Emperor applauding her swoop!

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"Eee!"

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Gleeful Emperor is so gleeful!!! "You're picking this up pretty fast!"

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"How long does it normally take to learn?"

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"I didn't have a good estimate but I was pretty sure I'd have to catch you once or twice in the first few minutes!"

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"There seems to be some built in muscle memory."

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"Yeah, I put that in, but I wasn't expecting you to get used to it so quickly. Maybe Elves are better at that sort of thing, or maybe I've gotten better at making usable wings." Swoop.

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"We have a lot of bodily control, but I'm not sure what would be making me better at noting and using installed muscle memory."

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"Then maybe I should be taking all the credit for your apparent talent. But either way, I'm very glad you like them so much."

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"They are so excellent. I might keep them indefinitely."

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Delighted laughter. "Will all your friends want their own?"

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"Probably not that many of them - the Valar could probably do something like this but we don't actually have any winged Elves flying about - we tend pretty conservative for the most part."

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"If it's only a few, I wouldn't mind." Swoop, climb, turn. "If you bring me three hundred Elves who all want wings I'm going to have better things to do with my time."

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"If it catches on I'll convince Nessa to fill in."

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"Who's that?"

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"One of the Valar. Her title is 'the Dancer'. They have similar powers but specialize differently and she'd be who I'd go to about adding a form of locomotion."

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"Huh."

Swoop. Maybe a little bit of aerial showing-off.

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She practices turning.

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Turning is doable! She might fumble it a few times but she is unlikely to require outright rescue as long as she refrains from panicking. The Emperor is delighted by her progress.

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She's good at not panicking.

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A useful quality to have!

After they've been at this for a bit and she's starting to get more confident in the air, he causes a small island to rise from the sea so she can practice landing and taking off with fewer complications than she'd find in Skygarden.

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"Ooh, thank you."

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"You're welcome!"

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Landing! Taking off! Landing! Taking off!

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Flying around delightedly!

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Diving and swooping up again! Neater landings! Skimming the water without falling in!

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"Oh, nicely done!"

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"Thank you."

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He lands on the island and beams at her.

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"I think I will probably keep these."

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"I'm glad! It's very rewarding to see how much you like them!"

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Flutter. "In our early history before we'd invented money Elves operated our economy almost entirely on it being rewarding for people to appreciate things. We do use money now, although differently than it's used here."

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"That sounds like it would've been nice."

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"Some people complained about the introduction of money. I think we would have kept with the gift economy if we'd had a smaller population - it was so cozy. But Dwarves convinced us that markets were the only sensible way to handle large amounts of information about what people wanted to have. So we do basic income."

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"'Cozy' is a good word for it."

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"You'd just go out for a stroll and everyone would give you stuff!"

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"And - I like it when people are happy that I made them nice things, I've known that for a while, but until you came along I hadn't known what it was like when they're also not terrified of me - I think I could've been very happy in a society like that. Well, as long as I hadn't grown up in it. Nobody deserves having me grow up near them."

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"Tempestuous childhood?"

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"I was a horrible kid and an even more horrible teenager. If you wanted to say I'm still horrible I wouldn't argue but at that age I was a lot worse."

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"How so?"

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"Well, I killed my own father because I was impatient to get at his empire, for one."

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"That implies some interesting things about the succession rules."

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"It was right after my self-dedication. Under the circumstances, nobody was going to argue with me about whether murdering him invalidated my claim. And then I discovered that running an empire is actually a lot of work and I'm not any good at it, and it took me a while to put together a functional government that didn't need me for anything, and by the end of that I was starting to notice things like 'the law of the empire works much better if I at least mostly obey it'..."

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"The king of the Noldor is planning to abdicate in his eldest grandson's favor after that grandson has raised his children."

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"That sounds so much friendlier!"

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"Rather. I think the kings of the Teleri and Vanyar aren't planning to abdicate at all though, they don't have superior candidates in mind."

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"Makes sense, if everybody's immortal. When you don't have to worry about dying you also don't have to worry about succession in the event of your death."

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"Why did you think you wanted an empire?"

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"Because being Emperor means being acknowledged to have power, in a way that just happening to be absurdly powerful doesn't."

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"Hm. What's important about that?"

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"...I'm not sure how to say... it's... the thing that things being important is for. I'm a lot less - caught up in that - than I used to be, but mostly because there's no reasonable way anyone could make me stop being Emperor. And no way at all that anyone could make me stop being absurdly powerful."

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"...I think things being important bottoms out at the flourishing of sapient life in general."

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"...?"

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"As an example of something else things could be important for."

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"Sounds a lot harder to - keep - than mine. Harder to get in the first place, too, for that matter."

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"Yes, it's both more challenging and higher-maintenance."

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"Not a bad goal, though, as these things go."

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"Thank you."

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"...I know more about what things it's possible to have than I did before I met you. I really appreciate that."

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"I am glad to help. Perhaps if nothing else while I am here I can explain electricity and such things."

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"From the - 'interesting new uses of steel' category? That sounds like fun."

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"Yes. Electricity is a way to make devices take actions without magic."

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"Huh! Sounds useful. Maybe you should find someone who's a gadgety sort of person and explain it to them."

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"Yes, I likely should. I think - hm, how to put this - I think that insofar as I have objections to how you run the world I can at least be confident that they won't be exacerbated if I provide the world with arbitrary advances, and that makes being here less stressful. I would have no such confidence if I encountered a world with a full-sized unrestrained Eru operating it."

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"...I'm not sure I followed all that, can you say it again differently?"

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"I don't think any more people get tortured if I teach your people electricity, whereas that is totally the sort of thing Eru for example would set up."

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"Oh. Yes. I think - a lot of the things you seem to want for my empire are the same things I want, or near enough. Although maybe you have more complaints than you've been letting on."

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"I also object to slavery but do not think I can solve that by withholding electricity either."

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"—the slavery and the torture are related, that's part of what I meant about the laws of the empire working better if I follow them. People are better off if they know when to expect that sort of thing - they're still mostly terrified of coming to my attention, but back when I used to pick up whoever I felt like, it was much much worse."

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"I suppose that makes sense."

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"I probably don't need things to be nearly as bad as they are, and I don't mind if you try to improve them, but if you get it to the point where there aren't enough slaves for me to choose from, then I have to figure something else out and I don't know what it'll be."

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"When you say you'd have to, what do you mean?"

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"I mean I don't want to stop torturing people and I don't want to go back to the days when everyone was terrified they'd be next, so I'd have to find some other way to make it - obvious and predictable and legal and something that most people are safe from and know they're safe from."

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"Why is it you don't want to stop?"

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"Because it's fun. Right up there next to architecture among my favourite hobbies. —I don't think the part where they don't want to be there is necessary to the fun part, if that helps at all, you could plausibly solve this problem just by finding someone who thought being tortured by the Emperor seemed like a desirable lifestyle, but I've never run into such a person and I'm not sure they exist. It's not like they wouldn't know where I live, if they did."

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"I'd know where to start asking around if I had access to my planet but I do not."

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"Well. I can work on that."

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"Thank you."

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"You're welcome." He makes a portal back to a different, also-pretty unoccupied park.

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She steps through.

"If it's not their not wanting to be there what is it, exactly? Maiar can operate physical bodies but have to do everything manually and could just not do some things..."

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He follows, closing the portal behind them and exchanging his wings for a shirt so as to be less recognizable. Feathers turn to smoke, then recoalesce as fabric.

"...I think... what I get out of it has to do with making people afraid, and I'd like it just as well, maybe even better, if I was making them happy instead. Godlike beings pretending to have bodies but not pretending hard enough to get hurt would be the wrong sort of thing on a lot of levels."

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"Hm. Elves are prudes so I have no idea how common this sort of thing might be in the population, and I don't know about orcs or Dwarves because it didn't come up when I visited them."

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"I can imagine it wouldn't, it's kind of a niche interest to say the least."

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"And not the sort of thing you trot out for Elf tourists on their honeymoon."

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Giggle.

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"It would be so awkward! We're notorious monogamists!"

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"If only you'd known this information would be useful someday, you could've said something! I suppose that would've been nearly as awkward."

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"I could have checked a library."

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"Would it be in libraries?"

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"Maybe!"

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"I doubt you'd find anything in a library around here, but you're welcome to look."

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"I do wonder if people who might be inclined actually know that you'd take volunteers."

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"They might not, I suppose, though it seems obvious enough to me. ...there's also the question of - maybe there's someone out there who would like it, but wants to be able to quit if they change their mind, and they really don't have any good reasons to trust me and I'm not sure how to give them one."

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"Do you ever let people go?"

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"No, and they wouldn't be in a very reassuring condition if I did."

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"Then I can see how someone might be under the impression that's not an option. Elves and orcs can swear to things, but you don't have that..."

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"I do not," he agrees.

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"Elves can also be forked from pre-torture instances, which was necessary for a lot of people after Melkor was defeated, but humans don't have that either unless your resurrection power happens to work that way."

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"I could probably figure it out but it doesn't come naturally. And I still don't want people to know I can bring back the dead. What are you imagining I'd do with this ability—?"

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"Oh, it's not the same, really, I didn't have something in mind for it. Melkor rendered a lot of Elves as pure bodiless information which he could duplicate and torture more conveniently in parallel at high speed. The results did not want to exist, so after the war their pre-capture instances were instantiated once per, instead. My husband's one of those."

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"What a bizarre thing to do."

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"The instantiated forks or the multitudinous torture?"

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"The multitudinous torture. It's... I can't imagine what somebody would have to want, for that to be the thing they decided to do."

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"He didn't like that there was a fated plan and decided to do things so horrible that they couldn't possibly be in the fated plan, to derail it. This did not work at all because Eru has appalling taste in stories. Also he just liked torturing people or I imagine he would have come up with something else."

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Snort. "If I heard there was a fated plan where I was supposed to make people suffer for some omniscient creator deity's entertainment - assuming I had a very good reason to believe it was definitely true - that might get me to stop torturing people. What kind of an idiot do you have to be, to not notice that 'well I'll be even worse then' is the kind of plan that sinks in the harbor? Or did he not know what his role was in this drama?"

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"I'm not actually sure how he came by his information."

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"Suppose it's a bit pointless to speculate."

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"Yes, I can't go ask him from here."

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"At least not yet."

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"Not yet."

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"I'll send you a bunch more clothes that work with the wings," he adds.

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"Thank you!"

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"Welcome!"

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"And thank you for teaching me to fly."

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"It was fun! I'm glad you like your wings so much!"

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Preen.

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Giggle.

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"Have a lovely night," she says, and she flies to her hotel.

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Sekar spends a little while designing outfits, then has them anonymously delivered. Ambela will have so many pretty things to wear. (By and large they're pretty modest by local standards, because other people are likely to care about that sort of thing even if she herself wouldn't.)

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They are delightful. She wears a shimmery blue one with red detailing at her next concert.

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People definitely notice that she has wings all of a sudden, but they mostly seem to assume she got them from somewhere less terrifying than the Emperor. No one actually goes so far as to ask. A few people compliment her on her pretty feathers.

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And she thanks them all politely.

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Concerts continue to be super lucrative.

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Then eventually she will be able to buy a pretty little house, right?

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Absolutely! At this rate a pretty little house shouldn't be more than a few weeks away. Longer if she wants to be selective about location; property with a good view tends to be more expensive, although near the edge of the island this effect is not as consistent as it could be, because people expect that eventually their view will be obscured by more pretty little houses.

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She would like a view that will last.

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Then perhaps she is interested in this lovely little house atop a small hill, which she will be able to afford in a month or two, and which overlooks some excellent architecture and several very nice parks.

Meanwhile, the Emperor is out of his house a lot this week.

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She walks by anyway to lowkey spy on his government. And yes, she would like that house, if it will still be available then.

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His government governs pretty respectably. They're not Elves or anything, but there is a detectable underlying consensus among government employees that the point of their jobs is to maintain a stable and functional society where important tasks get done on time, even if some of them are less concerned with that ideal and more concerned with playing political games or flirting with their coworkers.

The current owner of the house was enthralled by her last concert and is happy to take a significant chunk of the price now and wait until she has the rest.

 

After another few days, she walks by the palace when the Emperor is home. He looks up from the book he was reading, steps out onto his balcony, and raises his eyebrows at her across the significant distance between them.

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She waves.

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He laughs.

"Enjoying your week?"

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"It's been nice."

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"Nobody's asked me about giving you wings, so I assume you're getting away with it."

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"They haven't asked me where I got them, either."

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"It probably doesn't occur to most people that I might have gotten you a present just because I like you and want to make you happy."

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"Do you normally only distribute presents for other reasons, or not at all?"

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"Not at all, at least not openly."

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"Secret Imperial presents!"

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"It's a very different experience, giving someone something when they're afraid of you. And I can't get nearly as fancy when I'm pretending to be a harmless architect."

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"Architects and wing-dispensers being usually non-overlapping skillsets, I imagine."

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"Usually, yeah."

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"I am pleased to fill this void for you." Flap.

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He beams down at her. A weed poking out of the street shifts and grows up into a delicate white flower, its crown of long pointed petals echoing the shape and shine of her feathers.

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"Ooh." It can go behind her ear.

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And she continues walking.

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He goes back to his book.

 

He continues to not be home very much for the rest of that week and into subsequent ones.

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It's a nice walking route anyway. Sometimes she flies instead.

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The city is even lovelier from the air than from the ground.

She makes steady progress toward affording her house.

 

The Emperor is really not home very often, these days. It's a definite change from before they had their conversation.

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And a while later, there he is again, sitting on the palace roof and forming subtle shapes in the clouds.

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She makes wide circles. "Good morning."

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"Good morning. How've you been?"

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"Saving up for a house. You? You've been out of the palace a lot recently."

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"Yes, it turns out I don't like being spied on."

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"Oh. I'm mostly listening to the government at this point but I can stop coming by if that's preferable."

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"Are you learning anything useful from listening to the government?"

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"Bits and pieces. Less facts and more getting a feel for it."

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"And inconveniently the government operates out of my house. I suppose I could probably figure out a way to guard my wing of the palace against eavesdropping by magic."

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"As you like. We do a lot of solid stone construction for soundproofing at home, since Elf hearing is inconvenient for privacy. And we can conduct intraspecies conversations silently."

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"A lot of the palace is solid stone, but I like windows I can fly out of. I'll figure out the magic."

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"Good skill."

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—he laughs. "Thank you."

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"You're welcome."

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The clouds shift so that errant tufts of vapour form the silhouette of a castle, subtle enough that you'd have to be looking closely to see it.

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She spots it when she banks. "Hee."

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The cloud-castle gets a cloud-garden full of tiny cloud-flowers probably not visible to anyone who isn't an Elf. The Emperor giggles.

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"That's so cute. Do you do cloud art a lot?"

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"Sometimes! It's fun. Hardly anyone ever notices."

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"Humans seem to have pretty bad vision."

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"Well, compared to you, yes. I cheat with magic, of course."

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"It must be fun to be so magical."

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"It really is!"

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"Who's the next most magical?"

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"Oh, hard to say. I show up when a self-dedication runs longer than ten hours or so, but I don't keep close track of them after that. There's some people around who took the full second tier, and a handful of people have ever survived taking Life but I don't know offhand if any of them are still around, the last one was a while ago."

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"Why do you show up?"

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"I like to meet people who're going to have significant power, so if they're obviously going to be trouble I can stop them before they get there. Early on, somebody got through Life and Death while I wasn't paying attention, and he didn't manage to kill me but he made an awful mess trying; when people know they're going to meet me the moment they step out of a long dedication, that sort of thing doesn't happen so much."

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"Hm. Why did he want to kill you?"

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"He wasn't super eloquent about it but I got the impression he disapproved of my hobbies."

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"That did seem likeliest but it could have been something else."

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"Which, well, fair enough, but when killing me didn't work because I am immortal he decided the thing to do was try harder, and he ended up wiping out most of a city before I got him."

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"Oh dear."

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"Gave me a new appreciation for people who manage to complain about my lifestyle without killing a hundred thousand people!"

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"When the Valar warred with Melkor to stop him from running server farms full of tortured uploads there was a lot of collateral damage but it was in the long run fixable."

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"Well. Resurrection exists. But I liked that city."

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"Did you resurrect the residents?"

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"...you would've heard about it if I had, it'd take me centuries even if I did nothing else the whole time and there'd be no way I could possibly pass it off as 'oh I guess he didn't quite manage to kill you'."

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"Are you planning on setting aside time for it eventually?"

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"No."

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"It's actually not possible for me to resurrect everyone who dies. At the end of every year of trying I'd have a bigger job ahead of me than I did at the beginning, evem if I never slept and did two a day, which is not a pace I could keep up any longer than a month. So something has to change before people start getting resurrected at scale. Maybe I figure out how to do a hundred thousand people in a day, or maybe someone else survives the self-dedication for Life and Death and goes around encouraging more people to try it and bringing them back when they fail until there are enough of them to keep up. Who knows. But I don't plan on setting aside time for it someday because the only way it's possible is if it stops being a thing I'd need to set aside that much time for."

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"I understand. I'm trying to think how likely the Valar are to be able to help."

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"That I couldn't tell you. It'd help some if people didn't die of old age, but I still don't think the whole world could reliably keep it down to less than one a week forever, and that's about as much as I could possibly keep up with in the long term."

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"Dwarves don't die of old age and the Valar don't know how to bring them back yet when they die of accident, but they're working on it."

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"Working on it how?"

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"Some wheedling Eru, some contemplating whether various things they can currently do are safe to try."

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Snort.

"What would 'unsafe to try' look like, in a resurrection method?"

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"Undesirable results for the resurrected party, misallocation of their power such that Melkor could escape while they weren't looking, that kind of thing."

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"...that's a concern? Kinda sounds like a disaster waiting to happen."

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"Not a substantial concern, but they tend very cautious."

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"Still. ...if he springs loose somehow and you need help dealing with him, I'm game."

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"Thank you but I really hope that is not the climax of this plot as it were."

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"Oh, me too, definitely. But if it comes up."

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"Thanks."

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"Welcome."

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"He's kept in a virtual reality setup. For Elves imprisonment just is a form of torture, so - although it's not the case for Ainur - we're very much inclined to being generous about the details insofar as we can without letting him threaten anyone. Virtual reality is - he can set up things to experience and then they'll be presented to him as sort of illusions."

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"...better than boredom, I suppose. I'd hate it."

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"I imagine, since your entire interest is having effects on people."

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"Yeah."

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He is quiet for a long moment.

 

(In some ways it might be easier if he really knew how she felt about his hobbies. In some ways it might be much worse. He can't really bring himself to ask.)

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Flying, flying.

Singing softly. She's familiar enough with the local language to improvise, now, and sings about flying.

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Well. It's still nice that she likes to fly.

He goes back to making pictures in the clouds.

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After long enough without a conversation she will fly politely around a picture and go home.

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For the next few days he's still away from home most of the time, and then sound stops escaping from his wing of the palace at all.

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She eavesdrops on the workings of the government.

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The government governs. Someone reforms a tax law to make it more understandable. There's a brief discussion of preparation for the next expansion of the island, which ends with no one volunteering to go ask the Emperor if he has any plans. A judge is investigated for corruption. Somebody mentions idly that the imperial wing has been weirdly quiet these past few weeks, but nobody wants to speculate too hard about why.

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She sings and reads and flies.

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Soon enough, she can afford her house. It is a very nice house.

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She moves into her house! She decorates it with beautiful things.

She sends the Emperor a letter inviting him to dinner.

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...sure, he'll come to dinner.

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She is not principally a cook at home but she can make some things, and she can adapt them to local ingredients.

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The first thing he says when he shows up is, "Your house is adorable."

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"Thank you! It had to be pretty. Did you build this one? Do other people ever build things here?"

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"Other people do ever build things here! I forget who built this one but it wasn't me."

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"There are other pretty houses but this one has a view that will probably stick around."

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"Yeah. Houses on the edge are lovely, but eventually they stop being houses on the edge."

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"Your staff are wondering about when this will happen to which houses but decided against asking."

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"Well, the answer would've been 'who knows', so it's just as well they didn't bother."

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"Aha. How do you decide, anyway?" She serves food.

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It's good food!

"When I feel like it, or when it's been a long time since the last one, I pick a spot on the edge that hasn't been extended in a while and put something there."

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"I suppose that works! How do people divvy up what's there?"

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"Oh, usually I sell it."

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"You must have staggering amounts of money. Where does it go?"

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"...what do you mean?"

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"Do you spend it or does it just kind of sit somewhere deflating your currency?"

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He giggles.

"I spend it! Unexpected government expenses, a couple of houses to pretend I live in when I'm pretending to be an architect, concert tickets..."

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Chuckle.

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"And slaves," he adds, less happily.

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"Well, if you just stole them presumably this would have some undesirable effect."

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"As I've said. The law works better when I follow it."

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"Dwarves like to solve all of their problems, including those it's otherwise typical to solve with law, by economic means."

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"...?"

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"If you're going to go around in a Dwarf-populated area, you subscribe to a dispute resolution service. If someone does something that bothers you, your respective dispute resolution services sort that out."

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"...and how do they do that?"

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"The services all know each other and have deals worked out for how to cheaply handle disputes in a satisfying way, which can involve fairly ordinary-looking investigations of evidence and so on."

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"Sounds bizarre. Does it work?"

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"It works for Dwarves, and for visitors who buy in to the system. People who think it's silly find it unsatisfying."

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He laughs.

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"Some people just don't like being told 'since you got the discount package, your compensation for this pickpocketing incident is a coupon to this restaurant we have a deal with'."

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"I can imagine, yeah."

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"But there are drawbacks to any system which isn't, uh, 'everybody is perfectly lovely all the time'. Which is a great system but seems really hard for most species to implement."

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"Just a little," he agrees.

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"It works for Elves!"

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"Lucky Elves! The rest of us have to deal with people sometimes not being perfectly lovely."

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"It works for Elves internally, I mean."

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"Yeah."

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"How long do you usually keep people and then what happens to them?"

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"Usually at least a few decades, sometimes much longer, and then I kill them. Why?"

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"I was hoping not much longer. Melkor ran simulations for much longer than a few decades subjectively and sometimes people try running rescue forks of their uploaded selves and - then they stop doing that."

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"I don't actually know if they're that badly off by the time I'm done with them."

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"You're probably more... straightforward."

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"That does sound like me."

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"Why do you kill them?"

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"Because it's fun."

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"That part you could probably find chipped volunteers for. The leadup would be harder."

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"...what, really? People would just... volunteer to be murdered?"

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"We're easy to put back!"

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"The being murdered part would still not be most people's idea of fun."

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"I'm sure someone would try it to see what it was like if you don't go in for anything prolonged. Depending on the details you might not have repeat customers."

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He snorts and shakes his head. "Wow. Makes a big difference, I guess, everybody being basically immortal."

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"It does. Dwarves pay a lot more explicit attention to safety hazards - I think they might do that anyway, just to price them in, and they definitely don't have our reluctance to compromise aesthetics to put in railings and warning signs and such, but even allowing for that. And humans seem farther along the axis."

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"Wow, I wouldn't even have thought of that," he says, "the railings and warning signs—yeah, of course if falling off a cliff is a temporary inconvenience at worst, you're less motivated to make sure it doesn't happen—I cheat, of course, when there's a section of edge where railings would ruin the view I just magic the wind so you'd have to be trying pretty hard to fall off."

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"We have some of that in Valinor, but a few people have a taste for unimproved wilderness. Of course, Elves also seem tougher and nimbler than humans - it's probably harder for me to fall and harder for a fall to kill me from any given height."

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"Unimproved wilderness being the kind where the wind won't rescue you if you fall off a cliff?"

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"Or turn aside an animal that thinks you look tasty, etcetera, surviving only by some combination of wit and skill and luck. I know someone who moved to Endorë to wander around it; Valinor was a bit too tame for him."

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"Sometimes he comes back but makes a point of telling all his loved ones he's actually there for the dinosaurs."

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"What's a dinosaur?"

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"Bird-reptile creature. Some of them are huge."

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"Ooh."

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"Endorë doesn't have them but he climbs mountains and such. He used to hunt but people have become uncomfortable with that recently."

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"Hmm? Why?"

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"We don't exactly think it's awful if animals die but we're definitely less easy about killing them, and we've invented ways to get meat that don't require it. Orcs used to have - farmlike institutions - that produced meat from animals incredibly efficiently but were deeply cruel to the animals, but they were willing to replace those when we had a solution."

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"Huh."

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"We also got them to accept birth control even though they didn't see the need nearly as urgently as we do."

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"...mm?"

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"Elves find the idea that someone might have a child without intending and wanting to horrific. Orcs like large families and aren't terribly concerned about exact timing, so they didn't mind not having a way to prevent conception, but they took one when we offered. I'm not actually sure to what extent humans have that."

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"How much we want kids varies a lot. I don't plan to have any; having me for a father seems like it'd be miserable for just about anybody."

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"Is the reason you can effectively plan on that magical or something anyone can get?"

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"—oh, they make artifacts for it, I'm not at all the only one."

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"Good."

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"Yeah."

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"The development of orcs was largely a psychological warfare tactic - their first generations were made from captive Elves' forcible children."

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"...wow."

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"Yep."

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"Not that I'm one to talk, but this guy has some fucked-up hobbies."

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"Oh, his were pretty unambiguously worse than yours, I think you can talk of him as you like."

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"Fair enough, I suppose."

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"Some orcs today resent that Melkor's been captured and continue to worship him in absentia. They're - there's only so much we can straightforwardly explain to them the factual errors - they're not terribly fond of Elves or the remaining fourteen Valar, see -"

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"...what kinds of factual errors...?"

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"They have their own story about Melkor's, ah, rebellion against Eru."

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"Ah."

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"It's harmless more or less as long as he's locked up and even if he got out I think they'd notice the issue once he started trying to use them. Since the oath reform act he wouldn't be able to force them directly."

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"Depends what he tried to use them for, I guess, but yeah."

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"They could be coerced but not compelled."

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"The Oath Reform Act was a bit controversial when it was under discussion, some people liked the opportunity to dramatically cut off options."

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"Yeah, but then later on you've got all these dramatically cut-off options to deal with."

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"It's never been my style. You can arrange some of the drama with the form of oath we have remaining but retain the ability to change your mind, which means people may expend effort in getting you to do that; if you'd rather they knew not to bother..."

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"People don't often put effort into getting me to change my mind about things."

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"I've noticed that. You seem to have come around to patterns that are - livable for most people - in your own time."

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"Turns out that when I can have most everything I want and the only thing left is to figure out what that is, it gets a lot easier to be nice."

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"Makes sense."

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"Does it?"

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"I think so. Most everything?"

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"Well, my life would be a little more convenient if I could resurrect a hundred thousand people with a wave of my hand, and I can't do that. Although if it's possible to do, I'll figure it out eventually. And - there are things that just can't be taken by force, the thing you get if you try isn't the thing you wanted to have. I find myself somewhat at a loss in that area."

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"I really... appreciate your friendship, for that reason among others."

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"I'm glad."

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He smiles slightly.

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"It seems like even if the underlying conditions making it difficult to have certain things freely given changed there'd be an echo effect, for a while."

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"—hmm?"

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"It would be difficult to credibly communicate that people didn't have reason to fear you any more."

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"Oh. Yes, it really would. Honestly I'm not sure they'd ever start trusting me. It definitely wouldn't happen fast enough to make waiting it out worthwhile."

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"Elves are very patient. Once someone decided to just be dead until a problem of hers could be solved, though."

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...he laughs. "How'd that work out?"

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"Just fine. Well, some personal drama."

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"Should I not ask?"

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"I don't know if personal drama of Elven monarchs interests you! Her husband remarried while she was dead - highly irregular - and now all three of them are dating each other - absolutely bizarre by Elf standards."

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Giggle. "Seems perfectly reasonable to me, but then I'm not an Elf."

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"Meanwhile, if I never get home I expect my husband would pine for a few thousand years until someone gently explained to him that I did authorize him to consent to forks for me because that might ever have been necessary and I wouldn't want to miss everything and I'd get along great with myself if I ever did come back."

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"Awwww."

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"He pined for a hundred Years before telling me he loved me! This is very romantic in Elf culture but still silly."

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"Oh wow. I actually can't imagine what might make that romantic."

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"The idea is that the moment you realize you want to be with someone for the rest of your life is the most romantic possible moment, and you can sort of extend that moment a bit if you wait and contemplate how great they are, and the longer you hold out the more highly you think of your would-be partner, and he thought I was fantastic, so, hundred Years."

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"...that's adorable."

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"I know! It's silly but so adorable, and eventually he told me and I kissed him and told him he was ridiculous and now we are married."

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"Awwwww!"

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"We went to Endorë for our honeymoon. It's a long trip, neither of us had gone since we first settled on Valinor."

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"Did you have fun?"

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"Yes! We met the Endorë Elves and Dwarves and orcs and they were all terribly interesting."

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"I wonder what it's like," he muses, "to be able to just - meet people."

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"I know you have reservations about sharing a universe with Eru, but no one would know who you are, there."

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"I have so many reservations about that. And - I can talk to almost anyone I like, even here, if I don't tell them who I am. But the not telling them who I am makes it..." he trails off and shakes his head. "I think I'd have some of the same problem even with people who hadn't otherwise heard of me."

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"What's the problem exactly?"

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"...I really hate lying. I can do it if I have to, but I hate it. And with something as big as 'by the way, I'm the Emperor', even just not mentioning it feels the same way."

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"You could tell people in my world that you are the Emperor of another planet because you have the most powerful magic there and they would go 'ooh, what does it do'."

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"I'm not sure that helps. Maybe a little, but - still the feeling of 'if they knew the rest...'"

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"One of Melkor's servants - not an orc, a Maia - made out well at her trial. She helped him, but she's not going to hurt anyone now, and she lives on a volcano near orcs and helps them out with things."

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"Yeah? Think we'd get along?"

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"I don't really know her personally, but perhaps."

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"Well, whenever we find your world again, I wouldn't mind being introduced."

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"I wonder if you can make a portal between Endorë and Valinor."

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"Probably, if I went to both places. The kind I use are temporary but I can make them permanent, it's just a hassle."

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"It takes twenty five local years to travel between them one way."

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"Then I imagine it'd be really convenient to have a portal or two!"

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"Maybe not directly onto Valinor's surface, the Valar are very protective, but to a station or moon in the system."

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"Sure."

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"The Dwarves in particular would love you."

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He laughs. "Why?"

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"They're very passionately cognizant of the fact that in a well functioning economy money represents value - free time and comfort and satisfied preferences - and even if you happened not to charge for the portal they'd be aware that you could have made scads of money on it and consider you to have provided a lot of value."

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"Aww."

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"Dwarves are great."

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"And orcs reproduce very fast; they're not desperate for space yet and we are hoping they will have a way to find new places to live by the time they are, but portals would speed that up."

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"...huh," he says thoughtfully. "Are there just going to - keep being more of them forever? Won't they run out of room eventually—? Portals only help if there's somewhere to put the other end."

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"The universe is spectacularly enormous. A friend of mine is working on traveling faster than light, and by the time even orcs have managed to fill the universe I am sure we will know how to build new planets."

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He laughs. "Wonder if I could build a planet. I probably can."

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"It would be a beautiful planet."

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"Well of course!"

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Giggle. "Have you been into space at all?"

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"Well I'm not sure exactly what counts, but I haven't been any farther from the ground than 'flying so high I can't breathe'."

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"Higher than that there's no air at all. The view of the stars is incredible, and if you get high enough, you're weightless - weight is the planet pulling on you, but it's weaker farther away."

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"Sounds like it'd make it hard to fly..."

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"You can't do it by pushing air around with a wing. You can do it by pushing in the opposite direction, usually with a controlled explosion but you could move a little by just bringing along some air or water to spray behind you if you wanted."

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"Oh, if I want air or water I can make them. Same with explosions, for that matter."

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"There you go, you can explode your way across the sky even absent atmosphere."

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"What an image," he says, giggling.

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"Do you have - if I'd run into them I'd know the word, do you have things that you set on fire and they fly up and explode in colors?"

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"We do have those! Fireworks!"

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"Simpler spaceships look a little like that when they take off but don't explode afterwards."

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"I imagine they wouldn't be very popular if they exploded!"

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"Except with a few people who wanted to try getting reembodied!"

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"There have got to be easier ways to try that!"

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"Sure, but explosions are pretty."

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"Well. True."

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"We're really quite obsessed with pretty."

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"I noticed that."

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"Orcs like to cultivate deliberately un-Elven aesthetics but their cities are still nice in their own way. Dwarves make things that are again differently beautiful, and then there's here. But we're the only ones who really just suffer if things around us are ugly."

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"Humans generally don't suffer if things around them are ugly! What are orc and Dwarf cities like?"

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"Dwarves like to live underground in dizzying cave systems and orcs like to live in dense angular skyscrapers all packed tight. Dwarves go for less organics - gems and marble and metal where we'd put fishtanks and ivy and wood, not that we don't like gems and marble and metal in our own way. They like really legible layouts, even if you've never been to a particular Dwarf city before and don't have a guide you can often find things by pictogram or just going where it seems the path wants you to be. Orcs like steel and they have a lot of monochrome greys and a lot of bright bold colors for children - they usually avoid more jewel tones and pastel sorts of things, too Elfy. They also don't sing for the same reason - some instrumental music, some non-melodic chanting, little overlap. They don't like sunlight, their cities are pretty shaded and don't have many plants though they do live aboveground, but they have thirty-story playgrounds for their little ones."

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"Wow, that's a lot of playground!"

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"They have so many children and they're very sociable!"

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"It sounds absurdly cute."

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"Well, they're very ugly, but the babies are ugly-cute."

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"Aww!"

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"Tusky and grey and pudgy little orcs."

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Immensely endeared giggle.

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"If you want any of this drawn I'm passable at sketching, not really an artist but it might give you an idea."

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"I'd like that!"

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She has paper to hand. She draws a little orc baby with a lopsided underbite and one tuft of hair and beady eyes.

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"Awwwww!"

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"I don't actually like to be around children but they're very cute from a distance."

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"What don't you like about them?"

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"...sometimes they're annoying. I try to avoid being around people who annoy me."

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"That's probably wise."

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"I like to think so. And then every so often someone just refuses to go away—you'd think, with my reputation, I wouldn't have to tell someone to go away more than once—and..." he shrugs.

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"Do you happen to know what tends to motivate that or - not look into it?"

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"—tends to motivate what?"

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"People not leaving you alone. Do they want something from you, do they not understand when you tell them to leave, have they taken you for someone else, are they trying to commit suicide by Emperor...

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"It's not that common. The problem with the latest one was perfectly clear, though - he thought that since I wasn't using my power the way he would, I must be an idiot, and just as soon as he figured out how to manipulate me properly he could be the one using my power."

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"Did he clarify what he'd do if he had it?"

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"Not openly. He kept trying to coax me into changing this or that law, and I think sometimes it was just because he wanted to have a say in what the laws were, more than he wanted whatever particular thing he was arguing for - the only one I'm absolutely sure was personal was the one about polygamy, because he acted like he just couldn't fathom the idea of anyone not wanting to marry thirty slave girls if marrying thirty slave girls was an option."

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"Was he for or against?"

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"For."

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"Ah-huh."

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"I wouldn't have minded as much if he hadn't been so condescending about it."

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"Seems a predictably bad choice of tone."

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"You'd think!"

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"Is it feasible for others to learn from his mistake? Does this sort of thing make the news?"

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"Oh, people are definitely talking about it even years later, but rumour gets as far as 'the Emperor threw somebody off a roof' and then generally doesn't go into why. I suppose most people don't think I need a reason."

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"Suppose not."

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"And it's not as though he wasn't warned. I told him, several times, to either quit with that nonsense or get out of my life. I don't think he was ignorant of the risks, I think he was too driven by ambition to care."

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She nods. "I don't suppose you considered dropping him through a portal onto a beach on another continent or something."

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"I wasn't planning to throw him off a roof, I was planning to ignore him. Then I lost my temper."

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"Ah. You don't tend to see that coming?"

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"When I see it coming, I do something about it, or at least try to!"

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"Of course. But sometimes you don't?"

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"Yeah."

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"Any idea what's different when you do?"

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"Mm?"

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"In situations where you do notice in advance that you are liable to lose your temper, what tips you off and why isn't it present in cases where you are caught off guard and instead actually lose it?"

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...He shakes his head. "I'm not sure."

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"Hm. It seems like it would be useful to know."

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"Yeah."

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"Were you assuming he'd eventually realize he wasn't getting anywhere and leave you alone?"

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"Mm... I wasn't quite... thinking about it like that? I told him to shape up or fuck off, he apologized, I figured that was the end of it, it wasn't, I repeated myself, he apologized again, I can't remember how many times we went around on that but it wasn't much more than a handful, and then I found him waiting for me when I got back from flying, and, well, that was the last time."

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Nod.

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Sigh.

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"It must be difficult to find that some things you want are intractably incompatible."

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"Yes. Though I'm not sure it's even that, it's—I've spent five thousand years finding out what I wanted and then arranging to get it, and I thought I had it all more or less worked out, if not perfectly, and then... I'm suddenly so much more aware of what I'm missing, and I can't do anything about it because the last five thousand years of my life are getting in the way."

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"And on top of that you object to all the straightforward options to make it less intrusive."

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"...?"

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"Moving. Lying. I'm assuming there's also some problem with becoming less inherently frightening and then waiting a while."

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"I'm not sure becoming less inherently frightening is even an achievable aim, and I absolutely don't have the patience to try it and wait several centuries to see if it works."

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"It didn't surprise me very much to find that an inherently mortal species was impatient but you're not an inherently mortal example."

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"I'm much more patient than I used to be, but I'm still human. A hundred years is much too long to intentionally deprive myself of one of my favourite things without even knowing if it's going to be any use or not."

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"Mm."

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"It's kind of hard to tell what you're thinking sometimes."

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"Amongst ourselves Elves have to specifically designate which thoughts are private or they're readable to people who are nearby enough. I'm considered very cagey."

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He laughs. "Does that mean you can read everyone's thoughts, or does it only work between Elves?"

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"Only between Elves and orcs. It's a chip thing. I would have warned you otherwise!"

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"I don't think I'd really mind that much."

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"Well, I would. I'd warn everyone I met, just in case."

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"Fair enough."

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"Some of our blessings work for souping up the telepathy, especially the ones that are reserved for marriages."

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"There's specific ones for marriages?"

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"Oh yes, that's how we formalize it, picking out blessings we want and getting them together. There's also a party but it's not the important part."

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"That's sort of cute."

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"Is it? I hadn't heard that before."

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"Well, I don't know a lot about blessings, but it sounds like you're sort of... changing how you see the world together? A little like if two people in Skygarden were getting married and they both went and got wings for the occasion. And I think that's sweet."

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"Some of them are like that! The most popular ones make being married a visible trait - it's in the eyes, I don't know if you have the vision for it - and expanded telepathic range, but many of the less common ones do what you describe."

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"Well, I don't know if I can see marriage since I don't have the first clue what it's supposed to look like."

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"It's like a little spark in the pupil."

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"Huh." He blinks at her. "Mm, not without magic I can't."

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"It's very small."

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He laughs.

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"It wouldn't be nearly as popular if it interfered substantially with our aesthetics!"

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"Of course not!"

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"Although there are hairstyles that are only for married people. Because they require help to braid them."

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"...how complicated does a hairstyle have to be before you need two people to accomplish it...? I suppose by definition you have no way to show me until I reunite you with your husband."

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"...and we will not be braiding my hair in front of anyone."

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"...I was thinking of being shown the results rather than the process, but the way you said that sounds like there's more to it...?"

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"Oh, the results aren't private, that would be fine. Elf hair is considered sexual. We all have it long and it's always braided in public - some places scarves are considered polite if you're not swimming. You can get away with just a ponytail for extremely casual situations."

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"...Huh. Okay. I hope I haven't run into that by accident somehow, I can't remember."

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"You have not interacted with my hair in any inappropriate way," she assures him, "although if you were an Elf you would be disfigured."

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He giggles. "Disfigured, wow."

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"If you were an Elf you would never have it so short! You'd make it grow as fast as it could even if you didn't want to ask a Vala to get it over with! It would hurt!"

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"Wow. Good to know, I guess."

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"If you ever go to an Elf city you will know not to touch anyone's hair and why they will all wince at you slightly."

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"Yep. Suppose I could grow it out, but braiding it looks tedious, so that might not be much of an improvement."

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"Your choice between naked and mutilated."

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"I tend to prefer the first one, but admittedly not for image reasons."

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"Well, you can also just explain that humans are different, or rely on everyone being too polite to ask what horrible thing happened to you."

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"Maybe I'll wear a hat."

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Giggle.

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Aww, a giggle! He grins at her.

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"It will have to be a pretty hat."

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"I'm hardly about to wear an ugly hat."

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"Yes, you have very Elf-friendly taste in aesthetics."

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"I like making pretty things!"

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"Do you ever do music?"

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"Not really."

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"Well, even a few thousand years isn't long enough to get around to everything."

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"Yeah. Maybe someday."

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"You have forever!"

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"It's pretty nice!"

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"Yes. I'm hoping the Valar can do something about mortality without messing up your magic system. Maybe something that doesn't affect people until after they're sixteen."

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"Yeah, that sounds like a promising angle. And I'll have to figure out where to put everybody, but I'm sure I'll think of something."

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"In space! On other planets! You can just make air and water! I suppose you might have a scaling problem if you tried to do it all personally."

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"My empire is mine, I want it to stay within reach."

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"Portals don't do the trick?"

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"Not as well as I'd like. I can get to anywhere else on this planet as fast as I can get to anywhere in Skygarden, but Skygarden is still closer, it - matters to how I feel about it."

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"Permanent portal-doors?"

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"Other planets are still farther away than this one. I'm not saying I won't do it, just that I'd rather not have to."

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"I think it would be fun to have a four-dimensional city scattered all over a galaxy but it's up to you."

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He laughs.

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"Everything would be next to so many more things!"

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"True!"

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"You could be in the middle of a city and a block from a beach and a forest and five different seasons and a different city."

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"Technically you could do the same thing all on one planet!"

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"Yes, that's true. There are things you couldn't, mostly celestial cosmetics - number of suns and moons, rings..."

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"Well, only ever having been to the one planet, I wouldn't know much about those."

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"Valinor has two suns, Endorë has one. They each only have one moon though. Some planets have dozens."

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"It must get so crowded up there!"

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"Usually they're pretty small relative to the planet."

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"Wouldn't they still clutter up the sky?"

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"When they're up and lit I think moons are pretty."

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"Well. Me too."

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"Rings are gorgeous, although I've never actually stood on a planet that has them. Artist's renderings."

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"Hmm."

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"Do you have much astronomy here, are there ringed planets I could maybe see with a good enough telescope?"

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"Looking very closely at the sky doesn't happen to be one of my hobbies, there might be some and I wouldn't know."

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"I'll look into it."

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"What does it even mean for a planet to have rings...?"

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"They're little bits of pulverized rock and dust that form that shape because they're too small and numerous to be moons and behave in a moonlike fashion." She sketches a ringed planet.

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"Oh, that is pretty."

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"Mm-hm! And they can have shadows and light cast on them just as moons can."

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"Huh!"

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"I'm not an astronomer but I pick things up."

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"Yeah. And it seems like you've had - a lot of things around to pick up. Interesting uses of steel, and all that."

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"Oh yes. I'm actually a little surprised things haven't advanced as much in your lifetime. I'm not that much older than you but I'm old enough to have invented writing."

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"Maybe it's harder to invent things when people don't live as long, I don't know."

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"Could be."

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Shrug.

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"The Dwarves will be disappointed if I don't ask whether there's a way for people to consistently expect to see remuneration from any inventions they may come up with. As incentive."

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"Not sure what you mean."

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"If someone comes up with a cunning use of steel, will they get rich? Richer than the next best plan for the sort of person who could come up with a cunning use of steel."

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"Oh. No idea."

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"Might be slowing you down if they won't."

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"Well, if you want to figure out how to fix that, feel free."

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"I might, but, uh, having debt involve catastrophic outcomes probably limits how healthy a financial system you can have."

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"I'm a little reluctant to come up with alternative sources."

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"...?"

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"If you ended debt-based slavery there are presumably other places you could obtain a slave class so most people wouldn't need to expect that you might abduct them suddenly," she says. "But I wouldn't like to be in a position of having to suggest other ways to add to the slave population."

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"Mm. Yeah."

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"Tea?"

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"Sure. Thanks."

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She pours tea.

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He drinks it. It's good tea.

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She wouldn't have inferior tea!

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Well. Of course not.

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"Thank you for coming."

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"It was nice. Thanks for inviting me."

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"You're welcome!"

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"That my cue to go home?"

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"Well, you can stay if you can think of a conversation topic but I've run out."

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He laughs. "All right. See you around."

And he steps through a portal that's gone by the time he's through it.

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She sings and flies around and reads and if she doesn't see him before then she will invite him over again in a week.

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Then he will come visit her again in a week! He looks a little distracted, but he's happy to see her.

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"Hello! Something on your mind?"

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"Mm? I dunno. How was your week?"

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"Pretty good. I did a local song and everyone thought that was funny."

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He giggles. "What was it about?"

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"The sea."

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"Aw. And I don't have to ask if it was pretty."

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"You do not!"

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"Meanwhile, I've been flying to the moon! It's nice up there!"

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"Really! What have you been doing on the moon? - how fast can you go?"

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"Really fast? I wouldn't know how to measure it. I do have to use magic to get that high. But it turns out it doesn't have to be explosions, I can just directly use magic to move. And I've been building a house, of course, what else would I do on the moon?"

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"Seems like a good first step. How long would it take you to get all the way around the planet? Or to the moon, I could probably figure out how far away the moon is."

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"It takes me about an hour to get to the moon! I could probably do it faster if I really tried, but I've been there enough times that I can make a portal by now anyway."

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"Then maybe some afternoon I will calculate your speed!"

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Giggle.

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"What does your moon house look like?"

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"Want to see it?"

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"Sure, but you'll have to provide air."

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"I promise I was not going to forget air."

Portal!

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She steps through.

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And on the other side is a broad courtyard, gravel paths winding between slender trees and marble fountains. He hasn't done anything to the gravity, but he's obviously done something to the atmosphere, because there is one.

The dominant colour is pale grey; even the trees and flowers are nearly colourless, just a hint of green lingering in the leaves, a touch of pink in the petals. The restricted palette lends the place an ethereal air, especially in combination with the architectural style, which favours spare lines, delicate curves, and organic asymmetry, and takes advantage of the low gravity to climb in otherwise-hazardous proportions up to otherwise-impossible heights.

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"Oh goodness. It has almost the quality of a foggy day without the actual fog, with the grey. - Does low gravity make flying very different?"

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"Yeah, it's kind of interesting. I'm not sure if it's more fun, but it's interesting. And as you can see, you don't need to worry about the air."

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"I noticed that!" She tries jumping and flares out her wings at the peak.

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Low gravity: so floaty! The Emperor leaps up after her.

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And she will flap around peering at all the architecture and complimenting the best parts.

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There is a lot of architecture. He said 'building a house', but this looks more like a palace, or maybe a small town.

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"This is a lot of house."

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"I had a lot of room to build it in!"

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"So you did! Is anybody likely to live in it?"

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"Oh, eventually I'm sure I'll make permanent portals and people can come up here whenever they like, but I'm not in a rush."

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"And the atmosphere doesn't need maintenance?"

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"Nope! I did the magic and it's done."

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"Cool. How far does it go?"

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"Not as high as the air on the planet, but everywhere."

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"All over the surface of the moon, you mean? Wow, that didn't take you long at all."

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"I wouldn't know how long this sort of thing is normally supposed to take!"

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"The Valar are pretty temperamentally slow on anything that isn't desperately urgent, and their sense of urgency needed some calibrating. They could give a moon air, but it would take years, probably."

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"If it took years I'd get bored long before it was finished!"

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"Then it's good you're so fast."

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"Guess so!"

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"It's gorgeous. I wonder what it would be like living on a tidally locked body. At least it's not locked to the sun or it'd be difficult to keep it comfortable."

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"Would you like a permanent portal to the moon palace in your house?"

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"Oh goodness. I'm not sure about in it, maybe in the back garden."

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"Okay."

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"Thank you!"

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"Welcome! Where d'you want this end?"

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"Oh, let's see, how about against that wall?"

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A temporary portal into her back garden! "That look right?"

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"Yes!"

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Pale vines of white marble sprout from the ground to encircle the portal, concealing its blurry edge; its surface shimmers, then stabilizes. "There you go."

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"Thank you!"

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"I suppose you'll have some explaining to do if you show anyone your back garden..."

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"I suppose I will. Maybe I will hide it behind a secret door if I'm expecting guests I wouldn't care to explain to."

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"Sensible."

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"It's a lovely moon town."

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"Thank you! It was fun to build!"

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"I'm glad you enjoyed it."

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"Maybe I'll find a planet with rings next."

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"Maybe there's even one in your system!"

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"We'll see!"

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"If there's not it will take a long while to get there, if you top out at 'an hour to the moon'."

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"I probably don't."

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"I wonder if you can go faster than light!"

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"Maybe!"

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"Ainur can communicate faster than light but not move faster. One of my friends is working on ships that can."

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"Why is it light specifically that's so hard to beat?"

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"Complicated physics, do you want me to explain?"

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"You've got something of a gift for making complicated things sound interesting!"

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So she explains lightspeed physics.

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"It baffles me how you could manage to learn all this. I suppose making friends with gods would help."

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"Those and science experiments!"

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"I just don't know what you could possibly do to the world to find out that light does that, not unless you were using magic somehow!"

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"It involved a lot of math and some very exact clocks."

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Giggle. "You have such a way of putting things."

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"Thank you."

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He beams fondly at her.

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"I wish I had copies of my books here. Well, I suppose even if I did I'd have to translate them if I wanted anyone to read them. I put things in ways a lot in my books."

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Giggle. "What sorts of things have you written books about?"

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"Ainu psychology, a comparison of Noldorin and Vanyarin culture, ethics, the development of writing, Endorë - some of these are collaborations with Rúmil."

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"I have next to no interest in ethics but I would absolutely read a book you wrote about it."

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"It was mostly 'ethics in the context of Valar/Eldar friction'."

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"Oh?"

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"They used to do things like prohibit homosexuality and refuse to reembody people without making sure they were straight first, and had some interesting ideas about the relative importance of the members of various species and divine command and such, and the book examines their ideas and the principles according to which they evolved over time."

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"...Wow."

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"What?"

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"Just - the concept of gods being like that. If I'd had to live with them I'd end up wanting to kill them but from the outside it's funny."

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"I've always found the Valar very interesting and worth taking the time to understand."

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"Yes, that does sound like you."

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Giggle.

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He laughs.

"I don't really understand the draw of this hobby of yours, but I'm glad you have it."

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"It's handy sometimes! The Valar are quite responsive to everyone now, but I've been talking to them so much for so long that I have their ear quicker than anyone."

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"Useful. But is it interesting because it's useful, or on its own merits?"

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"The two are sort of entangled."

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"How so?"

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"When Oromë found the Elves on Endorë and offered to bring us to Valinor, he was the most interesting thing anyone'd ever seen. He made the air around him crackle and he had to speak to Elves by osanwë because he didn't even have vocal cords, let alone a word of Quenya, and he was so strange and enthralling. The man who is now our King, with a couple of his friends, went to look at the paradise he told everyone about and see if it was good, and they came back fifty years later to confirm that it was, and I was a little girl then and Oromë was a little better at interacting with incarnates by then but not by much, he was so strange. And I thought, 'him and the other ones like him are the most important things there are that I could go talk to' - since you couldn't go talk to Eru, then - 'I have to know how they work, I have to know why they do things and what they can do'."

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(He giggles at 'didn't even have vocal cords'.)

"Well. I'm glad it worked out so well for you."

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"Me too!"

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"How much of this logic applies to befriending the Emperor, or am I mostly a coincidence?"

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"I would have eventually tried to find a safe way to meet you if busking hadn't done it. You are not an Ainu but you do seem to have interesting mental architecture."

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Giggle. "Do I?"

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"You do!"

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"Can't say I've heard that one before, but then I don't spend much time talking to people about how I think."

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"I find different ways people think to be one of the most interesting topics in the world. I had been vaguely considering writing another book consisting of interviews with married couples, who if they have the right marital style and blessings have a lot of insight into each other's thought processes."

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"...that does sound kind of fascinating."

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"I know, my publisher thinks it would be very popular."

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"I look forward to reading it."

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"That would require more routine contact between worlds than you've seemed enthusiastic about."

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"I'd miss you if you went home and I never saw you again. I can put up with a little bit of contact between worlds for that."

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"Aww."

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He smiles slightly.

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"Your talents will be admired in my world should you choose to deploy them there."

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"It'd be nice. Not sure how much being-around-gods I can put up with for that, though."

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"If Maiar bother you as much as Valar they are a little difficult to categorically avoid, you find Maiar all sorts of places doing things like organizing rocks according to whether they have a prime number of atoms."

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...giggle.

"Maiar would bother me much less than Valar, but Eru bothers me most and he seems hardest to avoid."

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"Yes, you can stay off his moon but he can act anywhere."

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"Yeah. Not my favourite thing about your world, that."

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"The Valar usually advise that people don't attract his attention because he will say hurtful things."

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"What sorts of hurtful things does he say?"

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"Oh, he'll comment on people's narrative arcs."

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"Sounds annoying. Wonder what he'd think of mine, though."

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"Hmmm... 'excessive denouement'?"

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He laughs.

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"I suppose you can always check. He probably won't do more than talk; seldom does unless the Valar ask."

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"I think I should probably stay well clear of him. Talking to an omniscient creator deity sounds like the kind of situation where I'm likely to lose my temper, even if he's not my omniscient creator deity."

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"Well, it would be fine if you flung him off a roof."

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Snicker.

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"It could be recorded and put on the Internet."

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"Would people find it very entertaining?"

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"It'd have an audience."

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"Does he even have a physical form to be thrown off a roof in?"

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"Not usually, but it's not like he couldn't."

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"Unfortunately if I lose my temper at him I don't think what I'll end up doing will be much like 'politely ask him to let me throw him off a roof'."

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"Oh, I'd expect him to be conveniently throwable in advance if he were inclined to allow it to happen."

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"But it's so much less satisfying that way!"

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"Yes, this is sort of a chronic problem of interacting with Eru."

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"Yeah. So. Probably best I stay away."

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"Perfectly understandable."

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Nod.

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"Some people used to find it expedient to avoid the Valar, too, before they understood things like keeping confidences."

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"Hmm?"

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"Oh, like, they'd straighten living people, too - with consent only but in a rather technical sense - and no one could ask for details about the procedure and expect to keep it secret."

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"Ah."

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"But now they understand incentives and try very hard to make sure no one is made worse off by asking them for help."

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"Oh, that's nice. Well done."

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Giggle.

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"It was your doing, wasn't it?"

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"I had help, especially after they got better at holding conversations! They have much more attention than an incarnate and can talk to many people at once."

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"Well, fair enough."

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"Plus once one had understood a concept they could propagate it to all the others."

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"Still. I think I'm right in suspecting the accomplishment is substantially yours."

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"You caught me."

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"Yeah." He smiles.

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"...Since we were talking about my interesting mental architecture..."

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"Hm?"

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"...Mercy feels evil," he says. "To have the power to hurt someone, and want to, and not do it, feels to me the way I imagine most people feel about, I don't know, rape or something. Like I'm doing something actively, terribly wrong. A lot of the... arranging my life to be better for everyone in it... that I've done over the years has been finding ways to think of things as something other than mercy so I can do them. It... seemed like you might want to know that."

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"Yes. That's - interesting."

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"If there's such a thing as an objective definition of right and wrong, I'm pretty sure mine isn't it. But - that doesn't make it stop feeling that way."

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"That sounds - I was going to say 'really hard' but I suppose it isn't if you just do as the described feeling says."

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"Yeah. Did that for a while, early on. But - if I want a functioning empire, I have to pay some attention to its needs, and that means things like buying slaves instead of abducting every attractive person I pass on the street. So I had to learn to think my way around that."

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"Do you prefer to continue having this feature?"

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"As opposed to what?"

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"I'm assuming you won't like the idea and if you don't it's a nonstarter but the Valar can edit things."

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"I'd rather keep it than have a god mess with my head."

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"Not unreasonable."

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"Not that it seems to be doing me much good, but, well. I really don't want gods messing with my head."

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"I understand."

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He nods.

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"Many people would probably if asked find that their sense of morality came with - hm, thinking about knock-on effects of their actions? It's not that, say, rape is just bad in isolation, it's that it would make the victim miserable and others afraid..."

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"It's about—who I am, for me, I think. Being the right kind of person, doing the things the right kind of person would do."

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"But certainly it would be a problem if everyone tried to aspire to the same ideal."

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"Yeah. I don't have feelings like that about what anyone else does, at least."

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"Hm. Do you have an idea why you assign yourself this - exceptional role?"

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"Because I was born an imperial prince? I'm not actually sure if that's it."

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"Mm?"

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"...it feels like the right kind of person for me to be is defined by my - imperialness, that this is who I am because my father was the Emperor. But I don't know if that's actually why I feel that way, or if I'd have exactly the same moral compass if I'd been born in a gutter."

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"Does it matter that you're currently Emperor more by virtue of magic than by birth?"

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"Not especially."

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"Hmmm."

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"Mm?"

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"How does your - native morality-like system - handle tradeoffs?"

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"What do you mean?"

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"You could imagine a situation where conventional morality would pull in multiple directions - stealing to feed the hungry, or something - does yours do that?"

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"...not exactly. I can't think of a situation where everything I could possibly do would be wrong the way mercy is wrong."

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"I'm not sure I currently understand it well enough to make up my own examples, I assume something trivial like multiple possible targets it would be inconvenient to go after in parallel isn't a good one."

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"Yeah. I don't know, I've never tried to explain it to anyone before. And I think it might be different because... I'm not trying very hard to be the person I feel like I should be, I'm mostly trying to live my life without letting that person get in my way too badly. So as long as whatever I'm doing doesn't feel actively awful, I don't bother too much about whether it's better or worse by that measure than something else I could be doing instead."

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"So you're not optimizing on this metric, that's good."

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"If I was doing that, my empire would be a giant flaming mess, possibly literally."

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"And that would be undesirable on so many levels."

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"Yes!"

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"Are there - components of mercy, here?"

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"What do you mean?"

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"I mean, hm, you like torturing people but you don't require that they be unhappy about it even though that's the typical result, are there things that come apart like that here?"

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"Mm... maybe, but it's hard to say, I'm not used to thinking about it in - out-loud terms."

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"I'm really curious to hear about it if you ever come up with anything."

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"I'll let you know if I do."

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"Is mercy the only - unusual item, or was it just an example?"

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"Most of the problem is mercy. When I took all the elements and then killed my father to become Emperor, that was about - needing to seek power - but I've sought enough power by now, even if I found something else as big as self-dedicating all the elements I wouldn't feel like I had to take it. —that's also what I was talking about when I said that being Emperor is what things being important is for."

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"I think if I couldn't be Emperor without having to do the work, I'd want to get out of it, but as it is I've got a solution that works and I don't see a reason to stop. And I would be so annoyed if I let someone else have a turn and they somehow managed to do a worse job than me, or even just do some particular thing wrong that I've learned not to..."

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Nod.

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Shrug.

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"Do you think you feel like you have enough power on a permanent basis or might it come up again someday?"

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"If it comes up it'll be something like 'something threatened the empire and I needed more power to deal with it', there'll be an actual practical reason, it won't just be that I wake up one day feeling like I should have two world-spanning empires or something like that."

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"Oh good."

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"Yeah."

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"Any other things?"

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"Not that I can think of but it's hard to put into words, I could be missing some important nuances."

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Nod.