"Excuse me I will be totally up for learning new magic stuff as is apparently required if someone will first direct me to a bathroom," Lexi says loudly to this bar full of people that is not even slightly a bathroom.
"Apple," says Lexi, nodding, "very nice. I dunno if I'll try another one though, I can probably just get my sister to conjure me some jelly beans if I want them, that's what she's working on, and they'd be whatever flavor and Brilliance would eat most of them but I don't even care, he's okay after all."
"He's, like, my sister's - device - like, he calls himself a device, that's not me being depersonalizing or anything, he's a device not a human - and he's from space and sometimes he's a deck of cards and sometimes he's a staff thingy and sometimes he's a human - shaped - and he goes through ice cream like it's cocaine, and probably he'd like jellybeans too, I'm kinda surprised he hasn't started trying to eat the furniture really. He's teaching her magic."
"That's me," he says. "Bella, huh? I know some Bellas. One or two," his expressive gestures outline faces in the air that seem momentarily real, one very much like Lexi's sister and one very much like Lexi's sister with golden eyes and skin like polished chalk, "or three or five or ten—" and the air between them is filled with little Bellas, including one who is a boy and one with enormous feathery wings.
And she looks up and peers closely at his face.
"...Okay what did I walk into?"
"Yeah, she's been learning to, like, conjure food, so she can teleport to Africa or wherever and make big heaps of it for the starving orphans and whatnot, but probably Hell would be more important if she could do something about it, yeah. Did all however many of them just run into each other here and then do that?"
"Lot of the Jokers come with Bells attached," he says. "There was one in the world I started in, and there's one in the world I live in now, and I'm not attached to either, but there's, let me see - Alice and Stella, Kas and Amariah, Angela and Micaiah, Rose and Beast, and Cam and Jellybean." (He eats another one.) "Five Bells-and-Jokers who're dating."
"Darn. Why do I keep finding things when it'd be better for Bella to find them? This happened when I got possessed too, the stupid deck of cards kept telling me it had limitless power and I was like 'dude wait a second I want to give the limitless power to my sister because if I take it she will guilt me and I'll never get a weekend off again, come on' and it was like 'no I cannot wait' and I was like 'oh fine' only then it was actually trying to destroy the world, like, why does this happen to me?"
"I'm from another universe, no magic there but I met one'a the Bells at Milliways and she gave me some eventually. I grant wishes." He passes a triangle forward, in his own clear-glass-with-hints-of-colour. "That'll do a little one. And I've got a few other neat tricks, but the minting's the biggest deal. A mint's a person who makes wishcoins."
"I don't really want things," he says. "Not from you, anyway. Insofar as I have a plan, I plan to meet the native me, probably make out with him a bunch 'cause that's what my crowd tends to get up to when we meet each other, hand you some nifty magic, and then wait until Milliways shows up again and introduce you to the rest of ya."
"Stella made herself a space empress and opened a colony on Mars. Golden was an empress already, she doesn't use it for much. Pattern's got a colony set up in Saturn but I'm not sure if she's taking immigrants yet. Angela's bossing around her god. Not sure what the rest are up to. Oh, and they took over Hell, think I mentioned that before."
Because a one of her, even one without a Lexi, would know how to explain everything in the right order, and would be concerned about another one of them who has someone perpetually reading her mind.
"I can mint ya," says the Joker, gesturing between Bella and Brilliance. "You too," he nods to Lexi, "if you want. Then you get to make wishcoins. Triangles do itsy bitsy wishes, squares do bigger ones, pentagons do medium-sized ones, hexes can get some serious shit done, and upward from there you start running into trouble if you don't know what you're doing." He bites his lip sharply and displays the resulting square. "Coins're made of pain."
"I mentioned about the big coins, right?" he says. "Anything with more than six points will blow up if you try to use it. Star'll probably just kill you, next one up'll maybe eat your whole planet, the one after that would probably take a bite out of the galaxy. There's a trick to 'em, but you've got me around to handle that until you find the rest of the Bells, so I think I'll let 'em tell you themselves."
"Okay," says Bella, "but me and Lexi aren't liable to make big coins anyway, so that's not a drawback to being a mint anyway, the coins are obviously storeable or you couldn't have handed me this one." She holds up her triangle. "If they'd tell us anyway, why don't you just tell us now?"
"You know," he says, "when you put it like that, it sounds so much less friendly." He checks that they are not under any kind of observation by outside parties. "The trick is, all the coins bite back a little, but stars are the only ones where it's big enough to notice. You can use a coin to knock the teeth out of one that's the next size up, or a bunch that're the same size, or a big bunch that're smaller. So a hex'll make a safe star, and a safe star'll make a safe - they call 'em evils, you'll see why - and a safe evil'll make a safe arrow, ditto. And if you feel like being extra careful, you can wish your hexes safe too and maybe you won't get hit by cars so often."
"You hurt yourself, and move it across your mind - you'll see what I mean - and want the coin to be somewhere. It can appear anywhere that's touching you. I know a few people who make 'em in their sleep a lot, so you don't have to know where you want it, but if you don't it might land somewhere uncomfortable."
"If you wish something that's impossible or too big for the coin you're trying, it just doesn't work. Triangles will give you a new haircut or turn the lights on from across the room, squares will conjure little stuff, pentagons will conjure big stuff or magic stuff or teach you a language or how to cook or play the piano, hexes will conjure you an entire underground lair or give you a permanent superpower. Evils will raise the dead, but probably so can the Bells once they check out your afterlife."
"I wasn't there for all of that, but one of the Bells has to raise her dead the old-fashioned way if she wants - I haven't heard if she's tried it yet. The rest consolidated all their afterlives and put Aegis's daughter in charge. Aegis's daughter is a computer," he adds helpfully. "Actually, at this point she's probably billions of computers. When she gets here, I bet she asks if she can eat your Internet."
"Stella's the one with the colony on Mars," he begins, his aura displaying an aerial view of Olympus. "Minting's from her world - Eos. She's got a Joker called Alice." Stella and Alice appear, holding hands and smiling at each other, then dissipate as he goes on to the next Bell.
"Golden's a vampire," and she does have some peculiar visual attributes that Alice shares, "she's got a husband nobell else does," and Edward appears wearing the slightly constipated expression that is most familiar to the Joker. "Her world's called Aurum. I live there these days, with my sweetie and our kid." A blond vampire with a mustache tosses a giggling toddler into the air and catches him again. Then this illusion, too, vanishes.
"Shell Bell's from a pretty shitty world," which he has never visited, so he can only display an illusion of the Bell herself. "But she took over and stuck all the assholes on the moon and now she likes it fine. It's called Atlantis. She died for a while, I think she was the first resurrection before anybody found out about the afterlife. Her girlfriend's name is Sherlock," and she looks like so.
Next, a Bell in tattered black silks with an owl on her shoulder: "Amariah's from Alethia. Don't touch the owl, his name's Pathalan and he's her soul, that's a thing in her world. She's got a Joker too; she called him and his daemon Kas and Petaal after some kinda witch god thing. She's a witch." Small illusionary Amariah commences flying on a small illusionary cloudpine branch, then vanishes in midair.
"Juliet's got another Sherlock but this one's a boy," their illusions appear side by side but not touching, "and she died too, something about a kidnapping, I'm not sure about the details. Her world's Sunshine. They have vampires, her Sherlock is one, but a different kind from Golden's." Juliet and Minus walk out of illusionspace in opposite directions.
"Angela's the angel," with gorgeous soft-looking wings and a six-month pregnancy, "she's from Samaria and her husband's a Joker named Micaiah; he's one of the lucky mes who's never been raped. For a while she thought she had a god in her world but he turned out to be a spaceship so she made herself his captain."
"Then there's Rose, from Rêverie," with her aura making her hair blow prettily in the wind and grass sprout in her wake. "She's an enchantress. Her husband's a Joker too, calls himself Beast," and shifts fluidly between his human and beastly forms as he hugs his illusionary wife. "Enchanting's fun stuff, but it runs on pain even worse than minting does."
"Aegis is Jane's mom, from Peace. She's got a Joker called Sue, but they didn't make Jane the usual way. She grew up with a nifty little exoskeleton," the illusionary becopper'd Aegis does a casual backflip, "so she moves around a lot more than most'a you guys, and she grew up on a military space station so she's kinda rude sometimes."
"Pattern's from Origin, that usedta be my world, but we never met 'cause she got flattened by a van. The rest of 'em dug her out of the afterlife when they took over. There's a pair of Jokers hanging out in her world to mint for her, Queenie and Ghosty. She's the one with the Saturn colony. She let the rest of us hang out there and enchant it up for her when they found Rose, which is how I got this nifty aura that shows you all the stuff I'm talking about."
"And finally there's Cam," the boy one, "from Syntropy, who's terribly offended that the rest of you are girls." He grins. "He's got a Joker boyfriend too, goes by Jellybean, and they are both wizards, which is some other kinda magic that the rest of the peal either can't figure out how to copy or doesn't wanna. Jellybean's the other lucky one."
"She's an internet-eating computer person who can move people between worlds if she's looking at the person and the place she wants to put 'em. The technical details are lost on me," says the Joker. "Think it's something to do with the way I used to go to Milliways in my dreams, though."
"Minting, you get hurt and you make a coin and then you can fix whatever hurt you and you're done," he says. "Enchanting, whoever's casting the spell needs to use somebody as a channel - if it's you, it hurts and you might lose control of the spell and kill yourself; if it's somebody else and they're into it, it'll hurt them in a way that sticks around afterward, and there's just not that many people willing to let you give them chronic pain problems so you can do nifty magic; and if it's somebody else and they're not into it, it'll give them nasty brain damage." He grins. "Us Jokers are all over channeling, of course."
"Mmyep! You couldn't wish up a nifty enchanter's aura like mine," he says, flaring a little so that suddenly he is the most fascinating thing in the room and every emotion he projects - amusement, friendliness, a gentle affection for Brilliance - is visible with crystalline clarity. "Gotta get those the hard way. It's why all the Bells did it, pretty much. Everybody's aura is different, but you can't tell what it's gonna be until you get it. The Bells mostly look all powerful and stuff; the Jokers mostly get get what I just showed you, along with," there is a cheerful little drumroll, "soundtracks."
"Yeah, hex'll give you enchanting and pentagon'll make you good at it, and it doesn't take much more than a couple days to pick one up if you spend those couple days doing nothing but enchant. Got a free weekend and a planet you wanna colonize? I don't think anybody's done Neptune yet."
"Like, I have some sympathy with conservationist arguments that are about stuff that's alive. Save the whales. But I don't feel any inclination to save the barren wasteland. If people want to study why there was a barren wasteland there, they should be able to do it while there's people putting in swimming pools and zoos. They can work with illusion models or something, I'm not heartless, I'd help them out, but entire duplicate planets with nothing on them taking up space just so astronomers can ooh and aah offends my aesthetics."
"Ooh, there's tons more. There were about seventy linked to Downside, and only a sprinkling of 'em had Bells - they checked. Queenie's from one of those, and Ghosty's from another, unconnected one. And Milliways is always fulla people and most of those don't turn out to be from the same worlds if you ask."
+I probably should, but now I'm curious about all those other pairs. I want to know about them, I want to meet those Bells and ask them about stuff. But none of them has a Lexi, so if I'm wired special somehow because of having a Lexi then I have to work it out myself.+
+I - don't know. One of them has a kid,+ Bella says uncertainly. +I really, really want to talk to her - all of them - I wish he'd brought at least one of them here - I don't know. But I think that's what favorite means, isn't it? Priorities, nice neat numerical orderings, I bet you the one with a kid could answer me if I swore myself to secrecy and asked who she'd save if she had to pick.+
+I don't think Jokers do nice neat numerical orderings,+ says Brilliance. +I only love two people and I am already weirded out by the thought of picking between them - I mean, out of the two of you, you're the one I want to spend the rest of your life with, but I'm not sure if - I don't feel like that means there's a hierarchy and you're on top of it. And I'd save you from just about anything before I'd save him, but that's not a hard choice, we're more okay with bad things happening to us than you are.+
+Because they don't have Lexis. And I have a Lexi. And I love Lexi - but I was sometimes a morbid child, you know, and I'm just now remembering something that happened when we were eight, I don't think I could have even called it to mind before hexing up perfect recall, but - I asked Renée what she'd do if me and Lexi were both in trouble and she could only save one of us. And she hugged me and said that was never going to happen and she didn't answer me. And the others don't have Lexis. They never had to ask the question.+
+...okay,+ says Brilliance, +keeping in mind that I don't have parents, so this is all kind of abstract to me, but I feel like if I was in that situation, I would feel shitty whether the person I was asking picked me, or picked my favourite person, or couldn't answer. Differently shitty, but shitty any which way you slice it.+
+Yeah, but - for me either answer would've been better than 'that's never going to happen'. Because instead of Renée telling me that she thought I had more potential maybe, or that she got along better with Lexi which she does, or something, she decided to tell me that no matter what I'm planning for, if the stakes are high I can't count on her. If I'm trying to save Lexi from something and that puts me in danger, maybe Renée gets in my way. If I have a desperate attack of selfishness and I'm trying to throw Lexi under a metaphorical bus, maybe Renée interferes with that. Renée could've hurt my feelings some, and instead she decided to muck up my entire planning mechanism. I never asked Charlie the question but he'd answer the same way, so, same problem.+
+Probably. But at age eight I was not quite competent to say "Mom, you are mucking up my planning mechanism, and if I don't receive an answer to that question it will give me trust issues way worse than either possible answer, please pick one of us and then stick to it or notify me if you change your mind". You know?+
+I had the conversation with Lexi herself not long after that - and a few updatey times since - and I eventually got her to get it even though she was confused at first, she's always been pretty biddable when I'm being serious with her. And Lexi and I decided on things between ourselves like - like people who know how priorities work. And I can trust her.+
+In any situation of uncertainty, if we might be able to save us both, we do that. And if it is really just an evil binary choice, where exactly one of us walks out no matter how hard we try to cheat, it depends on what we're walking out into - by default Lexi gets to live in that kind of setup, but I also pointed out that those kinds of situations are very unlikely unless some high-leverage power is getting thrown around, and we agreed I could do better with that than her. So if this happened now I'd lose her, but then I'd have all the magic of the multiverse to try to get her back.+
+Well, that's all true, but it - sounds more certain than I feel. I don't think me-plural are as absolute about things as you-plural are. But now I don't know whether to get into that, because what I said about the Joker is all true and maybe I'd just be giving you trust issues for no reason. And trust issues suck.+
He spreads his hands and the two figures appear translucently in the air.
"Funny story, how they met. Ended up in high school together when she moved to Forks. Alice was getting in trouble the way my bunch generally does," the scene changes to show teenage human Alice getting thoroughly beat up in the middle of a high school hallway surrounded by an indistinct crowd of onlookers, "so he did nnnnot make the best first impression in the world, but she didn't mind too too much." The scene shifts again, to show the two of them talking more or less amicably, although with some physical distance between them.
"Along the way, and I don't know how, she found out he re-e-eally didn't like to be called a freak." Imaginary Teenage Alice flinches uncomfortably as another student mouths the word. "And thennn one day he invited her over to his house," another scene change, this one showing the two of them having that conversation in the school gym, "and she, smart cookie that she is, decided a little test was in order. So she took out her phone," imaginary teenage Stella does this, "and got her dad on speed dial juuust in case, and looked him in the eye, and called him a freak."
Imaginary Teenage Alice falls to his knees and clasps both hands against his chest, staring at Imaginary Teenage Stella in adoration as tiny pink hearts rise off him like smoke from a fire.
"He asked her to marry him right then and there," the Joker continues, "and she declined, and they had some exciting adventures together and eventually found minting. She got hit by a van, he fixed her up, she took a trip to Europe, he went along for the ride, she kissed him on top of Mount Everest, he kissed her under the ocean on a Florida beach." (His aura provides stylized renditions of each of these moments.) "They're pretty cute together."
"Well, that's the trick, see," he says. "Us Jokers are a tricky bunch. We like things we don't like, sometimes. And we fall in love for funny reasons. Sometimes we like people who scare us, or surprise us, or hurt us when we're not expecting it." He smiles sadly. "I don't think your Brill's like that, though."
"Mm, none of the rest are quite that dramatic," he says. "Don't know about Cam and Jellybean... Angela and Micaiah thought their god had picked them out as soulmates, that was sweet, he cried when he found out the god was a crappy AI and the soulmates thing was 'cause they were a good genetic match for lots of happy healthy angel babies... Kas met Amariah in Montreal, he didn't fall in love with her right away, they got to be friends and then just kept liking each other more. And Aegis and Sue, heh, they grew up together and for a while there she thought he was gay, so they didn't even get around to making out until the first big Bell party."
His aura provides evocative imagery of the castle, and of Beast in his beast-shape prowling its halls and fighting a long, slow losing battle against loneliness. Then Belle shows up and sits in the library giving him scritches while he puts his head in her lap and purrs.
—And then he regards her thoughtfully.
"Right off the bat, probably," he says. "But that doesn't make it a good idea, it just means Bells think differently than I do, and you already know that. And if I knew whether or not they'd want to tell you after I pointed out the obvious problem, then I'd know whether or not I want to tell you, 'cause I know they're not into intentionally sabotaging their own alts."
"No, but - well, I'm guessing, you've met them all and I have not, but when I meet these other Bells, I expect they're going to want to help me and they'll be curious about me and they'll tell me everything I want to know and we'll like each other just fine - but we aren't going to be friends exactly, they're not going to be more sisters and a brother for me, we aren't going to have lunch together on random Tuesdays and watch movies together and teach each other to make chocolate mousse. We're going to make sure we know what each other's priorities and resources and needs are and come to unusually rapid agreements about how to distribute everything we have between us and everyone's going to be very careful about not intruding on other Bells' jurisdictions. We're not into intentional sabotage in general, I bet, of anyone whose goals we can agree with - and we qualify for each other - but I bet the peal of Bells looks more like a lot of very effective cooperators than like a pack of close friends."
"Well, of course finding more of us is worth celebrating, it's more resources to share and more stuff to do," says Bella. "All good things. And a chance to show off and meet each other's friends. It's funny that you go by Jokers," she adds. "When Brilliance was split up - did he tell you about that? - the part of him that had his personality in it was the jokers of the deck."
His aura shows her the Joker blinking at Stella in a cottage very much like this one, on an asteroid very much like this one.
"I wasn't any kind'a magic then. If she left me there, I was gonna be stuck for life. Which was the point, of course. And you mighta heard, we Jokers, we don't do too well in isolation. So I asked her very nicely, could she please put me to sleep again to check if I could still dream Milliways, and if not, could she stick around to keep me company while I killed myself."
He pauses here to observe her reaction.
"Well, she'd been talking to him when she was gonna go do it," says the Joker, "and she just said she was going into somebody's world for a bit, didn't say why. And even though it didn't happen that way, I could have just disappeared and never come back, if it'd turned out I couldn't get back to Milliways from there. And he only woulda found out I was dead whenever she bothered to let him know. And he loved me."
He regards Lexi thoughtfully.
"Thing is," he says, "Brill's in love with her. And all the Bells whose Jokers are in love with them, they're doing fine together, and they got that way - without knowing what I'm about to tell you."
"My Bella thinks she might be wired funny about that. 'Cause of me. She didn't, like, go into a lot of detail, but she likes him and she knows he loves her and she's holding off because she isn't sure about the sleeping with other people thing and she thinks maybe the others can deal 'cause they're only children and, psychology stuff."
He leans back in his comfy armchair and drums his fingers thoughtfully on his knee.
"When Jokers are in love, see," he says, "we're not always nice about it. Mostly we are - we like it better that way. We'd rather love somebody and have them love us back, if they can, or just be good friends. If they can. But if we can't have either of those, then we'd rather they hate our guts than not care at all."
"Probably not," he says. "I don't think she's going to get all indifferent to him - none of the others did to theirs. But if I told her all that, she might get scared of what would happen if she stopped caring about him one way or the other, and that might fuck things up between 'em pretty well."
"Nope," says the Joker. "'Cause if he felt like she was trying to manage how she felt about him to stop him from blowing stuff up, he wouldn't say anything. He'd run away and never come back. Which would mean him not blowing anything up on her account, I guess, but I don't think it's exactly something either of 'em wants."
"But," says Lexi, "don't they all kind of have that problem, like, if one of those Bells who's dating her Joker has a Go Away I'm Introverted And This Book Is Interesting Day - do they do that? - then don't they have worry about presenting that a nice way to their boyfriends so their boyfriends don't think they got indifferent?"
"Mm, think that's part of them settling down together. Stuff like that - I dunno if they do that, I don't hang out with 'em that often - but if it doesn't mean they got indifferent, their boyfriends aren't gonna mind. And even if they thought their Bells had gotten indifferent, they wouldn't move straight on to blowing stuff up, there'd be some yelling and crying and aggressively baking cookies first. This is nnnot the kind'a thing that sneaks up on ya."
"How do you aggressively - anyway, I don't get this, can you guys just not tolerate rejection at all? I was half in love with Darryl Cross last year but he didn't like me so I did the mature thing and ate a lot of chocolate and cried on Bella and moved to another state, I didn't, like, kill his dog."
"It's not really unrequited love that we can't handle," says the Joker. "And Jokers and therapy don't traditionally mix. Brilliance might not have that problem, but I bet he does. We could hand him to Ghosty and Queenie, I guess, if things look like they might get bad between him and Bella - they're the only two of me who've got the kind of handle on themselves you're talking about. Both of 'em were in love with alts of the same person who threw me off a building, but unlike me, they stayed that way until they died. Seems like that does the trick. Lot of hospitals get blown up on the way, though, so I wouldn't go around recommending it to anybody."
"If she loved him back, or if they were good friends, or if they were mediocre friends who argued a lot, or if she thought he was just kinda okay but loved his cooking and let him make her dinner all the time and was all happy about it. There's all kinds of options there that plain old 'unrequited love' doesn't cover."
"I was gonna say cakes don't look at people, but he turns into cards, maybe he also turns into cake," snorts Lexi. "She didn't tell meeee, I would tell her if I slept with somebody... So either we're wrong and she's just, I dunno, vividly imagined doing him, or she was never planning for it to be more than a one-off 'cause that she would definitely tell me if she was going to have a boyfriend." Lexi considers this. "But, like, he wants to be her boyfriend, doesn't he?"
"Mmm... try thinking about it like this," he says. "On the one hand," he lifts his left, palm-up, "we're really big on freedom, and on the other hand," he raises his right, "we're really big on fun." His aura shows a blue circle above one hand and a red one above the other, with their intersection glowing purple. "Being a great big slut is where those two come together."
"Huh. I guess Bella will figure out if she can deal or not. Um, but if she decides she can't deal? She might try not to interact with him much because it'd give her feelings that'd make her conflicted," says Lexi. "She might decide that being just friends would be too hard and it'd be better to cut him off, you know, especially since now she can get at all kinds of magic without him helping."
"Nathan's a special case," says the Joker. "First of all, he's Golden's kind of vampire, and they get very serious about who they fall in love with - 'till death do us part' kind of thing." He smiles wryly. "But then he died. I brought him back to life, but it turned out doing that didn't take him out of the afterlife, and now there were two Nathans running around. Vampire one got jealous; dead one still loved me human-style but wasn't sure what to do about it. Now, it turned out the same thing with the afterlife had happened to one of the Bells, so she helped 'em do what she'd done, which is glue themselves back together with magic. And the new Nathan kept the dead one's attitude to me fucking around, so then it was fine."
"So then it's a tossup between maybe if we tell her she will feel like this is something she doesn't like about the template - which all the other Bells managed to get over it looks like - and if we don't tell her she'll itch with not knowing till somebody tells, which I bet you they haven't managed to get over and be Zen about."
"Uuummm... I dunno, how about, 'Bella, there is this thing about Brilliance's template where if you knew it it could make you act funny and then Brilliance'd probably be sad and you don't want that 'cause you like him, but the reason it could make you act funny isn't actually a problem, cross our hearts, can you do that thing where you make your brain do what you want and promise not to act funny if we tell you'?"
[- what would...? I know he doesn't want to go around being destructive, he was crystal clear on that, if he's been lying to me I make no promises about continuing to like him because that is not on, but, lemme think.] Bella thinks. [Okay, Lexi, if you're vouching, I will not 'act funny' - beyond possibly talking to Brilliance once or twice about whatever this is - assuming he has not been telling me lies. Is that good enough?]
"So basically if you ever get to the point where you don't, like, care if Brilliance lives or dies, some other Jokers will take him away and try to take care of him 'cause Jokers do super unhealthy things when people they like don't care, but it doesn't matter much how you care, like, you could date him or be friends or he could bake you cake you really liked or you could fight all the time or whatever, it just doesn't work if you go 'meh', apparently. He's not going to actually do anything too super unhealthy because this is a known thing so the other ones will deal with it if it's gonna be a thing."
His aura makes the light in the room dim noticeably.
"Once upon a time, I used to live in a city called Gotham. It wasn't a nice place, but I liked it that way. And one day, a few years back now I guess, we started hearing about some nut dressing up as a bat and running around at night beating up criminals. Except the thing is," his aura shows a mugging in a Gotham alley interrupted by a flutter of nearly-invisible black cape, "it was only funny for about a week. After that," the caped figure breaks the mugger's arm and sends him flying down the alley, "it was terrifying."
The Joker grins.
"I loved it, of course. Fell for her like you wouldn't believe."
"I've never been able to convince one of you that she scared the shit out of everybody," says the Joker, shaking his head. "But trust me, she did. You can think it's silly if you wanna, but you don't live in Gotham and you're not a criminal and you have all this magic, so she was never gonna drop on your head out of nowhere in the middle of the night and put you in the hospital."
"Do they ever," says the Joker. "And I develop something two letters away. And when all the mob guys are starting to get together and figure out what to do about her, I steal a bunch'a their money and then walk into their secret conference and tell them they should hire me to kill her. Which they do. Mob guys," he says, "are easy to convince."
"So if she didn't hate me already, she sure did after that. I chased her around like that for a while - put the word out that people were gonna keep dying if she didn't tell everybody her secret identity, then when the assistant DA pretended it was her, I kidnapped her and her hot boyfriend and let the Bat catch me doing it," which for some reason involved an eighteen-wheeler flipping end over end along a narrow street and the Joker crawling out of the upside-down cab. Oh, there's the Bat. The Bat has a motorcycle. The Joker seems to want her to run him over with it.
"She didn't bite," he says conversationally, and indeed the motorcycle swerves at the last second and dumps its driver on the ground, whereupon tiny illusionary Joker skips toward her, cackling.
"But of course I let 'em bring me in - " if 'let' is the appropriate word for surrendering when someone springs out of the shadows in your moment of triumph and holds a shotgun to your neck " - and then she interrogated me about where I'd put her buddies, which was fun."
Apparently it was too fun for the Joker to provide any images.
"...And this behavior is a template attractor thing and not a you personally thing, so I am in some danger of Brilliance doing things I'd loathe to see what I'd do if he finds how I feel about him unsatisfactory, except that in this eventuality he gets to go to the, I dunno, Joker rehabilitation program or whatever you call it, instead."
"Okay. But it is manifestly multiversally possible for people like me to have much healthier relationships with people like Brilliance so he will not instantly despair of it and start murdering folks and if he gets that way anyhow he just retires to another world with a bunch of you. Okay."